"No——Ishouldliketogoaway……myfriendstheFarlowswouldletmegotothem……"Hervoicegrewfirmerandsheliftedhereyestoadd:"Ishouldliketoleavetoday,ifyoudon’tmind。"
Annalistenedwitharisingwonder。
"YouwanttoleaveGivreatonce?"Shegavetheideaamoment’sswiftconsideration。"Youprefertobewithyourfriendstillyourmarriage?Iunderstandthat——butsurelyyouneedn’trushofftoday?Therearesomanydetailstodiscuss;andbeforelong,youknow,Ishallbegoingawaytoo。"
"Yes,Iknow。"Thegirlwasevidentlytryingtosteadyhervoice。"ButIshouldliketowaitafewdays——tohavealittlemoretimetomyself。"
Annacontinuedtoconsiderherkindly。ItwasevidentthatshedidnotcaretosaywhyshewishedtoleaveGivresosuddenly,butherdisturbedfaceandshakenvoicebetrayedamorepressingmotivethanthenaturaldesiretospendtheweeksbeforehermarriageunderheroldfriends’roof。
SinceshehadmadenoresponsetotheallusiontoMadamedeChantelle,AnnacouldbutconjecturethatshehadhadapassingdisagreementwithOwen;andifthiswereso,randominterferencemightdomoreharmthangood。
"Mydearchild,ifyoureallywanttogoatonceIsha’n’t,ofcourse,urgeyoutostay。IsupposeyouhavespokentoOwen?"
"No。Notyet……"
Annathrewanastonishedglanceather。"Youmeantosayyouhaven’ttoldhim?"
"Iwantedtotellyoufirst。IthoughtIoughtto,onaccountofEffie。"Herlookclearedassheputforththisreason。
"Oh,Effie!——"Anna’ssmilebrushedawaythescruple。"Owenhasarighttoaskthatyoushouldconsiderhimbeforeyouthinkofhissister……Ofcourseyoushalldojustasyouwish,"shewenton,afteranotherthoughtfulinterval。
"Oh,thankyou,"SophyVinermurmuredandrosetoherfeet。
Annarosealso,vaguelyseekingforsomewordthatshouldbreakdownthegirl’sresistance。"You’lltellOwenatonce?"shefinallyasked。
MissViner,insteadofreplying,stoodbeforeherinmanifestuncertainty,andasshedidsotherewasalighttaponthedoor,andOwenLeathwalkedintotheroom。
Anna’sfirstglancetoldherthathisfacewasunclouded。
HemethergreetingwithhishappiestsmileandturnedtoliftSophy’shandtohislips。TheperceptionthathewasutterlyunconsciousofanycauseforMissViner’sagitationcametohisstep—motherwithasharpthrillofsurprise。
"Darrow’slookingforyou,"hesaidtoher。"Heaskedmetoremindyouthatyou’dpromisedtogoforawalkwithhim。"
Annaglancedattheclock。"I’llgodownpresently。"ShewaitedandlookedagainatSophyViner,whosetroubledeyesseemedtocommittheirmessagetoher。"You’dbettertellOwen,mydear。"
Owen’slookalsoturnedonthegirl。"Tellmewhat?Why,what’shappened?"
Annasummonedalaughtoeasethevaguetensionofthemoment。"Don’tlooksostartled!Nothing,exceptthatSophyproposestodesertusforawhilefortheFarlows。"
Owen’sbrowcleared。"Iwasafraidshe’drunoffbeforelong。"HeglancedatAnna。"Dopleasekeepherhereaslongasyoucan!"
Sophyintervened:"Mrs。Leath’salreadygivenmeleavetogo。"
"Already?Togowhen?"
"Today,"saidSophyinalowtone,hereyesonAnna’s。
"Today?Whyonearthshouldyougotoday?"Owendroppedbackasteportwo,flushingandpalingunderhisbewilderedfrown。Hiseyesseemedtosearchthegirlmoreclosely。
"Something’shappened。"Hetoolookedathisstep—mother。
"Isupposeshemusthavetoldyouwhatitis?"
Annawasstruckbythesuddennessandvehemenceofhisappeal。Itwasasthoughsomesmoulderingapprehensionhadlaincloseunderthesurfaceofhissecurity。
"She’stoldmenothingexceptthatshewishestobewithherfriends。It’squitenaturalthatsheshouldwanttogotothem。"
Owenvisiblycontrolledhimself。"Ofcourse——quitenatural。"HespoketoSophy。"Butwhydidn’tyoutellmeso?Whydidyoucomefirsttomystep—mother?"
Annaintervenedwithhercalmsmile。"Thatseemstomequitenatural,too。SophywasconsiderateenoughtotellmefirstbecauseofEffie。"
Heweighedit。"Verywell,then:that’squitenatural,asyousay。Andofcourseshemustdoexactlyasshepleases。"
Hestillkepthiseyesonthegirl。"Tomorrow,"heabruptlyannounced,"IshallgouptoParistoseeyou。"
"Oh,no——no!"sheprotested。
OwenturnedbacktoAnna。"NOWdoyousaythatnothing’shappened?"
UndertheinfluenceofhisagitationAnnafeltavaguetighteningoftheheart。Sheseemedtoherselflikesomeoneinadarkroomaboutwhomunseenpresencesaregroping。
"Ifit’sanythingthatSophywishestotellyou,nodoubtshe’lldoso。I’mgoingdownnow,andI’llleaveyouheretotalkitoverbyyourselves。"
Asshemovedtothedoorthegirlcaughtupwithher。"Butthere’snothingtotell:whyshouldtherebe?I’veexplainedthatIsimplywanttobequiet。"HerlookseemedtodetainMrs。Leath。
Owenbrokein:"IsthatwhyImayn’tgouptomorrow?"
"Nottomorrow!"
"ThenwhenmayI?"
"Later……inalittlewhile……afewdays……"
"Inhowmanydays?"
"Owen!"hisstep—motherinterposed;butheseemednolongerawareofher。"Ifyougoawaytoday,thedaythatourengagement’smadeknown,it’sonlyfair,"hepersisted,"thatyoushouldtellmewhenIamtoseeyou。"
Sophy’seyeswaveredbetweenthetwoanddroppeddownwearily。"It’syouwhoarenotfair——whenI’vesaidI
wantedtobequiet。"
"Butwhyshouldmycomingdisturbyou?I’mnotaskingnowtocometomorrow。IonlyaskyounottoleavewithouttellingmewhenI’mtoseeyou。"
"Owen,Idon’tunderstandyou!"hisstep—motherexclaimed。
"Youdon’tunderstandmyaskingforsomeexplanation,someassurance,whenI’mleftinthisway,withoutaword,withoutasign?AllIaskhertotellmeiswhenshe’llseeme。"
AnnaturnedbacktoSophyViner,whostoodstraightandtremulousbetweenthetwo。
"Afterall,mydear,he’snotunreasonable!"
"I’llwrite——I’llwrite,"thegirlrepeated。
"WHATwillyouwrite?"hepressedhervehemently。
"Owen,"Annaexclaimed,"youareunreasonable!"
HeturnedfromSophytohisstep—mother。"Ionlywanthertosaywhatshemeans:thatshe’sgoingtowritetobreakoffourengagement。Isn’tthatwhatyou’regoingawayfor?"
Annafeltthecontagionofhisexcitement。ShelookedatSophy,whostoodmotionless,herlipsset,herwholefacedrawntoasilentfixityofresistance。
"Yououghttospeak,mydear——yououghttoanswerhim。"
"Ionlyaskhimtowait————"
"Yes,"Owen,brokein,"andyouwon’tsayhowlong!"
BothinstinctivelyaddressedthemselvestoAnna,whostood,nearlyasshakenasthemselves,betweenthedoubleshockoftheirstruggle。ShelookedagainfromSophy’sinscrutableeyestoOwen’sstormyfeatures;thenshesaid:"WhatcanI
do,whenthere’sclearlysomethingbetweenyouthatIdon’tknowabout?"
"Oh,ifitWEREbetweenus!Can’tyouseeit’soutsideofus——outsideofher,draggingather,draggingherawayfromme?"Owenwheeledroundagainuponhisstep—mother。
Annaturnedfromhimtothegirl。"Isittruethatyouwanttobreakyourengagement?Ifyoudo,yououghttotellhimnow。"
Owenburstintoalaugh。"Shedoesn’tdareto——she’safraidI’llguessthereason!"
AfaintsoundescapedfromSophy’slips,butshekeptthemcloseonwhateveranswershehadready。
"Ifshedoesn’twishtomarryyou,whyshouldshebeafraidtohaveyouknowthereason?"
"She’safraidtohaveYOUknowit——notme!"
"TohaveMEknowit?"
Helaughedagain,andAnna,athislaugh,feltasuddenrushofindignation。
"Owen,youmustexplainwhatyoumean!"
Helookedatherhardbeforeanswering;then:"AskDarrow!"
hesaid。
"Owen——Owen!"SophyVinermurmured。
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Annastoodlookingfromonetotheother。IthadbecomeapparenttoherinaflashthatOwen’sretort,thoughitstartledSophy,didnottakeherbysurprise;andthediscoveryshotitslightalongdarkdistancesoffear。
TheimmediateinferencewasthatOwenhadguessedthereasonofDarrow’sdisapprovalofhismarriage,orthat,atleast,hesuspectedSophyVinerofknowinganddreadingit。ThisconfirmationofherownobscuredoubtsentatremorofalarmthroughAnna。Foramomentshefeltlikeexclaiming:"Allthisisreallynobusinessofmine,andIrefusetohaveyoumixmeupinit——"buthersecretfearheldherfast。
SophyVinerwasthefirsttospeak。
"Ishouldliketogonow,"shesaidinalowvoice,takingafewstepstowardthedoor。
HertonewokeAnnatothesenseofherownshareinthesituation。"Iquiteagreewithyou,mydear,thatit’suselesstocarryonthisdiscussion。ButsinceMr。Darrow’snamehasbeenbroughtintoit,forreasonswhichIfailtoguess,Iwanttotellyouthatyou’rebothmistakenifyouthinkhe’snotinsympathywithyourmarriage。Ifthat’swhatOwenmeanstoimply,theidea’sacompletedelusion。"
Shespokethewordsdeliberatelyandincisively,asifhopingthatthesoundoftheirutterancewouldstiflethewhisperinherbosom。
Sophy’sonlyanswerwasavaguemurmur,andamovementthatbroughthernearertothedoor;butbeforeshecouldreachitOwenhadplacedhimselfinherway。
"Idon’tmeantoimplywhatyouthink,"hesaid,addressinghisstep—motherbutkeepinghiseyesonthegirl。"Idon’tsayDarrowdoesn’tlikeourmarriage;Isayit’sSophywho’shateditsinceDarrow’sbeenhere!"
Hebroughtoutthechargeinatoneofforcedcomposure,buthislipswerewhiteandhegraspedthedoorknobtohidethetremorofhishand。
Anna’sangersurgedupwithherfears。"You’reabsurd,Owen!Idon’tknowwhyIlistentoyou。WhyshouldSophydislikeMr。Darrow,andifshedoes,whyshouldthathaveanythingtodowithherwishingtobreakherengagement?"
"Idon’tsayshedislikeshim!Idon’tsayshelikeshim;I
don’tknowwhatitistheysaytoeachotherwhenthey’reshutuptogetheralone。"
"Shutuptogetheralone?"Annastared。Owenseemedlikeamanindelirium;suchanexhibitionwasdegradingtothemall。Buthepushedonwithoutseeingherlook。
"Yes——thefirsteveningshecame,inthestudy;thenextmorning,early,inthepark;yesterday,again,inthespring—house,whenyouwereatthelodgewiththedoctor……I
don’tknowwhattheysaytoeachother,butthey’vetakeneverychancetheycouldtosayit……andtosayitwhentheythoughtthatnoonesawthem。"
Annalongedtosilencehim,butnowordscametoher。Itwasasthoughallherconfusedapprehensionshadsuddenlytakendefiniteshape。Therewas"something"——yes,therewas"something"……Darrow’sreticencesandevasionshadbeenmorethanafigmentofherdoubts。
Thenextinstantbroughtarecoilofpride。Sheturnedindignantlyonherstep—son。
"Idon’thalfunderstandwhatyou’vebeensaying;butwhatyouseemtohintissopreposterous,andsoinsultingbothtoSophyandtome,thatIseenoreasonwhyweshouldlistentoyouanylonger。"
ThoughhertonesteadiedOwen,sheperceivedatoncethatitwouldnotdeflecthimfromhispurpose。Hespokelessvehemently,butwithallthemoreprecision。
"Howcanitbepreposterous,sinceit’strue?Orinsulting,sinceIdon’tknow,anymorethanYOU,themeaningofwhatI’vebeenseeing?Ifyou’llbepatientwithmeI’lltrytoputitquietly。WhatImeanisthatSophyhascompletelychangedsinceshemetDarrowhere,andthat,havingnoticedthechange,I’mhardlytoblameforhavingtriedtofindoutitscause。"
Annamadeanefforttoanswerhimwiththesamecomposure。
"You’retoblame,atanyrate,forsorecklesslyassumingthatyouHAVEfounditout。Youseemtoforgetthat,tilltheymethere,SophyandMr。Darrowhardlykneweachother。"
"Ifso,it’sallthestrangerthatthey’vebeensooftenclosetedtogether!"
"Owen,Owen——"thegirlsighedout。
Heturnedhishaggardfacetoher。"CanIhelpit,ifI’veseenandknownwhatIwasn’tmeantto?ForGod’ssakegivemeareason——anyreasonIcandecentlymakeoutwith!Isitmyfaultif,thedayafteryouarrived,whenIcamebacklatethroughthegarden,thecurtainsofthestudyhadn’tbeendrawn,andIsawyoutherealonewithDarrow?"
Annalaughedimpatiently。"Really,Owen,ifyoumakeitagrievancethattwopeoplewhoarestayinginthesamehouseshouldbeseentalkingtogether————!"
"Theywerenottalking。That’sthepoint————"
"Nottalking?Howdoyouknow?Youcouldhardlyhearthemfromthegarden!"
"No;butIcouldsee。HEwassittingatmydesk,withhisfaceinhishands。SHEwasstandinginthewindow,lookingawayfromhim……"
Hewaited,asifforSophyViner’sanswer;butstillsheneitherstirrednorspoke。
"Thatwasthefirsttime,"hewenton;"andthesecondwasthenextmorninginthepark。Itwasnaturalenough,theirmeetingthere。SophyhadgoneoutwithEffie,andEffieranbacktolookforme。Shetoldmeshe’dleftSophyandDarrowinthepaththatleadstotheriver,andpresentlywesawthemaheadofus。Theydidn’tseeusatfirst,becausetheywerestandinglookingateachother;andthistimetheywerenotspeakingeither。Wecameupclosebeforetheyheardus,andallthattimetheyneverspoke,orstoppedlookingateachother。AfterthatIbegantowonder;andsoIwatchedthem。"
"Oh,Owen!"
"Oh,Ionlyhadtowait。Yesterday,whenImotoredyouandthedoctorbackfromthelodge,IsawSophycomingoutofthespring—house。Isupposedshe’dtakenshelterfromtherain,andwhenyougotoutofthemotorIstrolledbackdowntheavenuetomeether。Butshe’ddisappeared——shemusthavetakenashortcutandcomeintothehousebythesidedoor。Idon’tknowwhyIwentontothespring—house;I
supposeitwaswhatyou’dcallspying。Iwentupthestepsandfoundtheroomempty;buttwochairshadbeenmovedoutfromthewallandwerestandingnearthetable;andoneoftheChinesescreensthatlieonithaddroppedtothefloor。"
Annasoundedafaintnoteofirony。"Really?Sophy’dgonethereforshelter,andshedroppedascreenandmovedachair?"
"Isaidtwochairs————"
"Two?Whatdamningevidence——ofIdon’tknowwhat!"
"SimplyofthefactthatDarrow’dbeentherewithher。AsI
lookedoutofthewindowIsawhimcloseby,walkingaway。
Hemusthaveturnedthecornerofthespring—housejustasI
gottothedoor。"
Therewasanothersilence,duringwhichAnnapaused,notonlytocollectherownwordsbuttowaitforSophyViner’s;
then,asthegirlmadenosign,sheturnedtoher。
"I’veabsolutelynothingtosaytoallthis;butperhapsyou’dlikemetowaitandhearyouranswer?"
Sophyraisedherheadwithaquickflashofcolour。"I’venoanswereither——exceptthatOwenmustbemad。"
Intheintervalsinceshehadlastspokensheseemedtohaveregainedherself—control,andhervoicerangclear,withacoldedgeofanger。
Annalookedatherstep—son。Hehadgrownextremelypale,andhishandfellfromthedoorwithadiscouragedgesture。
"That’sallthen?Youwon’tgivemeanyreason?"
"Ididn’tsupposeitwasnecessarytogiveyouoranyoneelseareasonfortalkingwithafriendofMrs。Leath’sunderMrs。Leath’sownroof。"
Owenhardlyseemedtofeeltheretort:hekepthisdoggedstareonherface。
"Iwon’taskforone,then。I’llonlyaskyoutogivemeyourassurancethatyourtalkswithDarrowhavehadnothingtodowithyoursuddenlydecidingtoleaveGivre。"
Shehesitated,notsomuchwiththeairofweighingheranswerasofquestioninghisrighttoexactany。"Igiveyoumyassurance;andnowIshouldliketogo,"shesaid。
Assheturnedaway,Annaintervened。"Mydear,Ithinkyououghttospeak。"
Thegirldrewherselfupwithafaintlaugh。"Tohim——ortoYOU?"
"Tohim。"
Shestiffened。"I’vesaidallthereistosay。"
Annadrewback,hereyesonherstep—son。HehadleftthethresholdandwasadvancingtowardSophyVinerwithamotionofdesperateappeal;butashedidsotherewasaknockonthedoor。Amoment’ssilencefellonthethree;thenAnnasaid:"Comein!"
Darrowcameintotheroom。Seeingthethreetogether,helookedrapidlyfromonetotheother;thenheturnedtoAnnawithasmile。
"Icameuptoseeifyouwereready;butpleasesendmeoffifI’mnotwanted。"
Hislook,hisvoice,thesimplesenseofhispresence,restoredAnna’sshakenbalance。ByOwen’ssidehelookedsostrong,sourbane,soexperienced,thatthelad’spassionatechargesdwindledtomereboyishvapourings。AmomentagoshehaddreadedDarrow’scoming;nowshewasgladthathewasthere。
Sheturnedtohimwithsuddendecision。"Comein,please;I
wantyoutohearwhatOwenhasbeensaying。"
ShecaughtamurmurfromSophyViner,butdisregardedit。
Anilluminatingimpulseurgedheron。She,habituallysoawareofherownlackofpenetration,hersmallskillinreadinghiddenmotivesanddetectingsecretsignals,nowfeltherselfmysteriouslyinspired。SheaddressedherselftoSophyViner。"It’smuchbetterforyouboththatthisabsurdquestionshouldbeclearedupnow"Then,turningtoDarrow,shecontinued:"ForsomereasonthatIdon’tpretendtoguess,Owenhastakenitintohisheadthatyou’veinfluencedMissVinertobreakherengagement。"
Shespokeslowlyanddeliberately,becauseshewishedtogivetimeandtogainit;timeforDarrowandSophytoreceivethefullimpactofwhatshewassaying,andtimetoobserveitsfulleffectonthem。Shehadsaidtoherself:
"Ifthere’snothingbetweenthem,they’lllookateachother;ifthereISsomething,theywon’t;"andassheceasedtospeakshefeltasifallherlifewereinhereyes。
Sophy,afterastartofprotest,remainedmotionless,hergazeontheground。Darrow,hisfacegrowngrave,glancedslowlyfromOwenLeathtoAnna。Withhiseyesonthelatterheasked:"HasMissVinerbrokenherengagement?"
Amoment’ssilencefollowedhisquestion;thenthegirllookedupandsaid:"Yes!"
Owen,asshespoke,utteredasmotheredexclamationandwalkedoutoftheroom。Shecontinuedtostandinthesameplace,withoutappearingtonoticehisdeparture,andwithoutvouchsafinganadditionalwordofexplanation;then,beforeAnnacouldfindacrytodetainher,shetooturnedandwentout。
"ForGod’ssake,what’shappened?"Darrowasked;butAnna,withadropoftheheart,wassayingtoherselfthatheandSophyVinerhadnotlookedateachother。
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Annastoodinthemiddleoftheroom,hereyesonthedoor。
Darrow’squestioninggazewasstillonher,andshesaidtoherselfwithaquick—drawnbreath:"Ifonlyhedoesn’tcomenearme!"
Itseemedtoherthatshehadbeensuddenlyendowedwiththefatalgiftofreadingthesecretsenseofeveryseeminglyspontaneouslookandmovement,andthatinhisleastgestureofaffectionshewoulddetectacolddesign。
Foramomentlongerhecontinuedtolookatherenquiringly;
thenheturnedawayandtookuphishabitualstandbythemantel—piece。Shedrewadeepbreathofrelief。
"Won’tyoupleaseexplain?"hesaid。
"Ican’texplain:Idon’tknow。Ididn’tevenknow——tillshetoldyou——thatshereallymeanttobreakherengagement。
AllIknowisthatshecametomejustnowandsaidshewishedtoleaveGivretoday;andthatOwen,whenheheardofit——forshehadn’ttoldhim——atonceaccusedherofgoingawaywiththesecretintentionofthrowinghimover。"
"Andyouthinkit’sadefinitebreak?"Sheperceived,asshespoke,thathisbrowhadcleared。
"HowshouldIknow?Perhapsyoucantellme。"
"I?"Shefanciedhisfacecloudedagain,buthedidnotmovefromhistranquilattitude。
"AsItoldyou,"shewenton,"Owenhasworkedhimselfuptoimaginingthatforsomemysteriousreasonyou’veinfluencedSophyagainsthim。"
Darrowstillvisiblywondered。"Itmustindeedbeamysteriousreason!HeknowshowslightlyIknowMissViner。
Whyshouldheimagineanythingsowildlyimprobable?"
"Idon’tknowthateither。"
"Buthemusthavehintedatsomereason。"
"No:headmitshedoesn’tknowyourreason。HesimplysaysthatSophy’smannertohimhaschangedsinceshecamebacktoGivreandthathe’sseenyoutogetherseveraltimes——inthepark,thespring—house,Idon’tknowwhere——talkingaloneinawaythatseemedconfidential——almostsecret;andhedrawsthepreposterousconclusionthatyou’veusedyourinfluencetoturnheragainsthim。"
"Myinfluence?Whatkindofinfluence?"
"Hedoesn’tsay。"
Darrowagainseemedtoturnoverthefactsshegavehim。
Hisfaceremainedgrave,butwithouttheleasttraceofdiscomposure。"AndwhatdoesMissVinersay?"
"Shesaysit’sperfectlynaturalthatsheshouldoccasionallytalktomyfriendswhenshe’sundermyroof——
andrefusestogivehimanyotherexplanation。"
"Thatatleastisperfectlynatural!"
Annafelthercheeksflushassheanswered:"Yes——butthereissomething————"
"Something————?"
"Somereasonforhersuddendecisiontobreakherengagement。IcanunderstandOwen’sfeeling,sorryasIamforhiswayofshowingit。Thegirloweshimsomesortofexplanation,andaslongassherefusestogiveithisimaginationissuretorunwild。"
"Shewouldhavegivenit,nodoubt,ifhedaskeditinadifferenttone。"
"Idon’tdefendOwen’stone——butsheknewwhatitwasbeforesheacceptedhim。Sheknowshe’sexcitableandundisciplined。"
"Well,she’sbeendisciplininghimalittle——probablythebestthingthatcouldhappen。Whynotletthematterrestthere?"
"LeaveOwenwiththeideathatyouHAVEbeenthecauseofthebreak?"
Hemetthequestionwithhiseasysmile。"Oh,astothat——
leavehimwithanyideaofmehechooses!Butleavehim,atanyrate,free。"
"Free?"sheechoedinsurprise。
"Simplyletthingsbe。You’vesurelydoneallyoucouldforhimandMissViner。Iftheydon’thititoffit’stheirownaffair。Whatpossiblemotivecanyouhavefortryingtointerferenow?"
Hergazewidenedtoadeeperwonder。"Why——naturally,whathesaysofyou!"
"Idon’tcareastrawwhathesaysofme!Insuchasituationaboyinlovewillsnatchatthemostfar—fetchedreasonratherthanfacethemortifyingfactthattheladymaysimplybetiredofhim。"
"YoudontquiteunderstandOwen。Thingsgodeepwithhim,andlastlong。Ittookhimalongtimetorecoverfromhisotherunluckyloveaffair。He’sromanticandextravagant:
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