CHAPTERXLIII。
THEMASTERFULMASSEUSE。
Mynextquotationswillsufferaprocessofabridgment。Iintendthemtopresentthesubstanceofthreeletters,reducedasfollows:
SecondExtract。
Weakashemaybe,Mr。PhilipDunboyneshows(inhissecondletter)thathecanfeelresentment,andthathecanexpresshisfeelings,inreplyingtoMissHelena。Heprotestsagainstsuspicionswhichhehasnotdeserved。ThathedoessometimesthinkofEuniceheseesnoreasontodeny。Heisconsciousoferrorsandmisdeeds,which——traceableastheyaretoHelena’sirresistiblefascinations——mayperhapsbeconsideredratherhismisfortunethanhisfault。Bethatasitmay,hedoesindeedfeelanxioustoheargoodaccountsofEunice’shealth。Ifthishonestavowalexciteshersister’sjealousy,hewillbedisappointedinHelenaforthefirsttime。
Histhirdlettershowsthatthisexhibitionofspirithashaditseffect。
Theimperiousyoungladyregretsthatshehashurthisfeelings,andisrewardedfortheapologybyreceivingnewsofthemostgratifyingkind。FaithfulPhiliphastoldhisfatherthatheisengagedtobemarriedtoMissHelenaGracedieu,daughterofthecelebratedCongregationalpreacher——andsoon,andsoon。HasMr。
Dunboynetheelderexpressedanyobjectiontotheyounglady?
Certainlynot!HeknowsnothingoftheotherengagementtoEunice;andhemerelyobjects,onprinciple,tolookingforward。
"Howdoweknow,"saysthephilosopher,"whataccidentsmayhappen,orwhatdoubtsandhesitationsmayyetturnup?Iamnottoburdenmymindinthismatter,tillIknowthatImustdoit。
Letmehearwhensheisreadytogotochurch,andIwillbereadywiththesettlements。MycomplimentstoMissandherpapa,andletuswaitalittle。"DearestHelena——isn’thefunny?
Thenextletterhasbeenalreadymentioned。
InthisthereoccursthefirststartlingreferencetoMrs。
Tenbruggen,byname。SheisinLondon,findingherwaytolucrativecelebritybytwisting,turning,andpinchingthefleshofcredulouspersons,afflictedwithnervousdisorders;andshehasalreadypaidafewmedicalvisitstooldMr。Dunboyne。HepersistsinporingoverhisbookswhileMrs。Tenbruggenoperates,sometimesonhiscrampedrighthand,sometimes(inthefearthathisbrainmayhavesomethingtodowithit)onthebackofhisneck。Oneofthemfrownsoverherrubbing,andtheotherfrownsoverhisreading。Itwouldbedelightfullyridiculous,butforadrawback;Mr。PhilipDunboyne’sfirstimpressionsofMrs。
Tenbruggendonotinclinehimtolookatthatladyfromahumorouspointofview。
Helena’sremarksfollow,asusual。ShehasseenMrs。Tenbruggen’snameontheaddressofaletterwrittenbyMissJillgall——whichisquiteenoughtocondemnMrs。Tenbruggen。AsforPhiliphimself,shefeelsnotquitesureofhim,evenyet。NomoredoI。
ThirdExtract。
Theletterthatfollowsmustbepermittedtospeakforitself:
Ihaveflownintoapassion,dearestHelena;andIamafraidI
shallmakeyouflyintoapassion,too。BlameMrs。Tenbruggen;
don’tblameme。
OnthefirstoccasionwhenIfoundmyfatherunderthehandsoftheMedicalRubber,shetooknonoticeofme。Onthesecondoccasion——whenshehadbeenindailyattendanceonhimforaweek,atanexorbitantfee——shesaidinthecoolestmanner:"Whoisthisyounggentleman?"Myfatherlaiddownhisbook,foramomentonly:"Don’tinterruptmeagain,ma’am。TheyounggentlemanismysonPhilip。"Mrs。TenbruggeneyedmewithanappearanceofinterestwhichIwasatalosstoaccountfor。I
hateanimpudentwoman。Myvisitcamesuddenlytoanend。
ThenexttimeIsawmyfather,hewasalone。
IaskedhimhowhegotonwithMrs。Tenbruggen。Asbadlyaspossible,itappeared。"Shetakeslibertieswithmyneck;sheinterruptsmeinmyreading;andshedoesmenogood。Ishallend,Philip,inapplyingamedicalrubbingtoMrs。Tenbruggen。"
Afewdayslater,Ifoundthemasterful"Masseuse"torturingthepooroldgentleman’smusclesagain。Shehadtheaudacitytosaytome:"Well,Mr。Philip,whenareyougoingtomarryMissEuniceGracedieu?"Myfatherlookedup。"Eunice?"herepeated。"WhenmysontoldmehewasengagedtoMissGracedieu,hesaid’Helena’!
Philip,whatdoesthismean?"Mrs。Tenbruggenwassoobligingastoanswerforme。"Somemistake,sir;it’sEuniceheisengagedto。"IconfessIforgotmyself。"Howthedevildoyouknowthat?"
Iburstout。Mrs。Tenbruggenignoredmeandmylanguage。"Iamsorrytosee,sir,thatyourson’seducationhasbeenneglected;
heseemstobegrosslyignorantofthelawsofpoliteness。"
"Nevermindthelawsofpoliteness,"saysmyfather。"Youappeartobebetteracquaintedwithmyson’smatrimonialprospectsthanheishimself。Howisthat?"Mrs。Tenbruggenfavoredhimwithanotherreadyreply:"Myauthorityisaletter,addressedtomebyarelativeofMr。Gracedieu——mydearandintimatefriend,MissJillgall。"Myfather’skeeneyestraveledbackwardandforwardbetweenhisfemalesurgeonandhisson。"WhichamItobelieve?"
heinquired。"Iamsurprisedatyouraskingthequestion,"I
said。Mrs。Tenbruggenpointedtome。"LookatMr。Philip,sir——andyouwillallowhimonemerit。Heiscapableofshowingit,whenheknowshehasdisgracedhimself。"Withoutintendingit,Iamsure,myfatherinfuriatedme;helookedasifhebelievedher。OutcameoneofthesmallestandstrongestwordsintheEnglishlanguagebeforeIcouldstopit:"Mrs。Tenbruggen,youlie!"TheillustriousRubberdroppedmyfather’shand——shehadbeenoperatingonhimallthetime——andshowedusthatshecouldassertherdignitywhencircumstancescalledfortheexertion:"EitheryoursonorI,sir,mustleavetheroom。Whichisittobe?"Shemethermatchinmyfather。Walkingquietlytothedoor,heopeneditforMrs。Tenbruggenwithalowbow。Shestoppedonherwayout,anddeliveredherpartingwords:
"MessieursDunboyne,fatherandson,Ikeepmytemper,andmerelyregardyouasacoupleofblackguards。"Withthatprettyassertionofheropinion,sheleftus。
Whenwewerealone,therewasbutonecoursetotake;Imademyconfession。Itisimpossibletotellyouhowmyfatherreceivedit——forhesatdownathislibrarytablewithhisbacktome。Thefirstthinghedidwastoaskmetohelphismemory。
"Didyousaythatthefatherofthesegirlswasaparson?"
"Yes——aCongregationalMinister。"
"WhatdoestheMinisterthinkofyou?"
"Idon’tknow,sir。"
"Findout。"
Thatwasall;notanotherwordcouldIextractfromhim。Idon’tpretendtohavediscoveredwhathereallyhasinhismind。Ionlyventureonasuggestion。Ifthereisanyoldfriendinyourtown,whohassomeinfluenceoveryourfather,leavenomeansuntriedofgettingthatfriendtosayakindwordforus。Andthenaskyourfathertowritetomine。Thisis,asIseeit,ouronlychance。
Theretheletterends。Helena’snotesonitshowthatherprideisfiercelyinterestedinsecuringPhilipasahusband。HervictoryoverpoorEunicewill,assheplainlyintimates,beonlycompletewhensheismarriedtoyoungDunboyne。Fortherest,herdesperateresolutiontowinherwaytomygoodgracesissufficientlyintelligible,now。
Myownimpressionsvary。Philiprathergainsuponme;heappearstohavesomecapacityforfeelingashamedofhimself。Ontheotherhand,IregardthediscoveryofanintimatefriendshipexistingbetweenMrs。TenbruggenandMissJillgallwiththegloomiestviews。IsthisformidableMasseuselikelytoplyhertradeinthecountrytowns?Andisitpossiblethatshemaycometothistown?Godforbid!
Oftheotherlettersinthecollection,Ineedtakenospecialnotice。IreturnedthewholecorrespondencetoHelena,andwaitedtohearfromher。
TheonerecenteventinMr。Gracedieu’sfamily,worthyofrecord,isofamelancholynature。Afterpayinghisvisitto—day,thedoctorhasleftwordthatnobodybutthenurseistogoneartheMinister。Thisseemstoindicate,buttoosurely,achangefortheworse。
HelenahasbeenawayalltheeveningattheGirls’School。Sheleftalittlenote,informingmeofherwishes:"Ishallexpecttobefavoredwithyourdecisionto—morrowmorning,inmyhousekeepingroom。"
Atbreakfasttime,thereportofthepoorMinisterwasstilldiscouraging。InoticedthatHelenawasabsentfromthetable。
MissJillgallsuspectedthatthecausewasbadnewsfromMr。
PhilipDunboyne,arrivingbythatmorning’spost。"Ifyouwillexcusetheuseofstronglanguagebyalady,"shesaid,"Helenalookedperfectlydevilishwhensheopenedtheletter。Sherushedaway,andlockedherselfupinherownshabbyroom。Aseriousobstacle,asIsuspect,inthewayofhermarriage。Cheering,isn’tit?"Asusual,goodSelinaexpressedhersentimentswithoutreserve。
Ihadtokeepmyappointment;andthesoonerHelenaGracedieuandIunderstoodeachotherthebetter。
Iknockedatthedoor。Itwasloudlyunlocked,andviolentlythrownopen。Helena’stemperhadrisentoboilingheat;shestammeredwithragewhenshespoketome。
"Imeantocometothepointatonce,"shesaid。
"Iamgladtohearit,MissHelena。"
"MayIcountonyourinfluencetohelpme?Iwantapositiveanswer。"
Igaveherwhatshewanted。Isaid:"Certainlynot。"
Shetookacrumpledletterfromherpocket,openedit,andsmootheditoutonthetablewithablowofheropenhand。
"Lookatthat,"shesaid。
Ilooked。ItwastheletteraddressedtoMr。Dunboynetheelder,whichIhadwrittenforMr。Gracedieu——withtheoneobjectofpreventingHelena’smarriage。
"Ofcourse,Icandependonyoutotellmethetruth?"shecontinued。
"Withoutfearorfavor,"Ianswered,"youmaydependon_that。_"
"Thesignaturetotheletter,Mr。Governor,iswrittenbymyfather。Buttheletteritselfisinadifferenthand。Doyou,byanychance,recognizethewriting?"
"Ido。"
"Whosewritingisit?"
"Mine。"
CHAPTERXLIV。
THERESURRECTIONOFTHEPAST。
AFTERhavingidentifiedmyhandwriting,IwaitedwithsomecuriositytoseewhetherHelenawouldletherangerhonestlyshowitself,orwhethershewouldkeepitdown。Shekeptitdown。
"Allowmetoreturngoodforevil。"(Theevilwasuppermost,nevertheless,whenMissGracedieuexpressedherselfintheseself—denyingterms。)"YouarenodoubtanxioustoknowifPhilip’sfatherhasbeenwonovertoserveyourpurpose。HereisPhilip’sownaccountofit:thelastofhislettersthatIshalltroubleyoutoread。"
Ilookeditover。ThememorandumfollowswhichImadeformyownuse:
Aneccentricphilosopherisascapableasthemostcommonplacehumanbeinginexistenceofbehavinglikeanhonorableman。Mr。
DunboynereadtheletterwhichboretheMinister’ssignature,andhandedittohisson。"Canyouanswerthat?"wasallhesaid。
Philip’ssilenceconfessedthathewasunabletoanswerit——andPhiliphimself,Imayadd,roseaccordinglyinmyestimation。Hisfatherpointedtothewriting—desk。"Imustsparemycrampedhand,"thephilosopherresumed,"andImustanswerMr。
Gracedieu’sletter。Write,andleaveaplaceformysignature。"
Hebegantodictatehisreply。"Sir——MysonPhiliphasseenyourletter,andhasnodefensetomake。InthisrespecthehassetanexampleofcandorwhichIproposetofollow。Thereisnoexcuseforhim。WhatIcandotoshowthatIfeelforyou,andagreewithyou,shallbedone。Attheagewhichthisyoungmanhasreached,thelawsofEnglandabolishtheauthorityofhisfather。
Ifheissufficientlyinfatuatedtoplacehishonorandhishappinessatthemercyofalady,whohasbehavedtohersisterasyourdaughterhasbehavedtoMissEunice,Iwarnthemarriedcouplenottoexpectafarthingofmymoney,eitherduringmylifetimeoraftermydeath。Yourfaithfulservant,DUNBOYNE,SENIOR。"Havingperformedhisdutyassecretary,Philipreceivedhisdismissal:"Youmaysendmyreplytothepost,"hisfathersaid;"andyoumaykeepMr。Gracedieu’sletter。Morallyspeaking,Iregardthatlastdocumentasaspeciesofmirror,inwhichayounggentlemanlikeyourselfmayseehowuglyhelooks。"This,Philipdeclared,washisfather’sformoffarewell。
IhandedbackthelettertoHelena。Notawordpassedbetweenus。
Insinistersilencesheopenedthedoorandleftmealoneintheroom。
ThatMrs。GracedieuandIhadmetinthebygonetime,and——thiswastheonlyseriouspartofit——hadmetinsecret,wouldnowbemadeknowntotheMinister。WasItoblameforhavingshrunkfromdistressingmygoodfriend,bytellinghimthathiswifehadprivatelyconsultedmeonthemeansofremovinghisadoptedchildfromhishouse?And,evenifIhadbeencruelenoughtodothis,wouldhehavebelievedmystatementagainstthepositivedenialwithwhichthewomanwhomhelovedandtrustedwouldhavecertainlymetit?No!lettheconsequencesofthecomingdisclosurebewhattheymight,Ifailedtoseeanyvalidreasonforregrettingmyconductinthepasttime。
IfoundMissJillgallwaitinginthepassagetoseemecomeout。
BeforeIcouldtellherwhathadhappened,therewasaringatthehouse—bell。ThevisitorprovedtobeMr。Wellwood,thedoctor。IwasanxioustospeaktohimonthesubjectofMr。
Gracedieu’shealth。MissJillgallintroducedme,asanoldanddearfriendoftheMinister,andleftustogetherinthedining—room。
"WhatdoIthinkofMr。Gracedieu?"hesaid,repeatingthefirstquestionthatIput。"Well,sir,Ithinkbadlyofhim。"
Enteringintodetails,afterthatominousreply,Mr。Wellwooddidnothesitatetosaythathispatient’snerveswerecompletelyshattered。Diseaseofthebrainhad,ashefeared,beenalreadysetup。"Astothecauseswhichhaveproducedthislamentablebreak—down,"thedoctorcontinued,"Mr。GracedieuhasbeeninthehabitofpreachingextemporetwiceadayonSundays,andsometimesintheweekaswell——andhasuniformlyrefusedtosparehimselfwhenhewasinmosturgentneedofrest。Ifyouhaveeverattendedhischapel,youhaveseenamaninastateoffieryenthusiasm,feelingintenselyeverywordthatheutters。Thinkofsuchexhaustionasthatimpliesgoingonforyearstogether,andaccumulatingitswastinginfluencesonasensitivelyorganizedconstitution。Addthatheistormentedbypersonalanxieties,whichheconfessestonoone,noteventohisownchildrenandthesumofitallisthataworsecaseofitskind,Iamgrievedtosay,hasneveroccurredinmyexperience。"
Beforethedoctorleftmetogotohispatient,Iaskedleavetooccupyaminutemoreofhistime。Myobjectwas,ofcourse,tospeakaboutEunice。
ThechangeofsubjectseemedtobeagreeabletoMr。Wellwood。Hesmiledgood—humoredly。
"Youneedfeelnoalarmaboutthehealthofthatinterestinggirl,"hesaid。"Whenshecomplainedtome——atherage!——ofnotbeingabletosleep,IshouldhavetakenitmoreseriouslyifI
hadbeentoldthatshetoohadhertroubles,poorlittlesoul。
Love—troubles,mostlikely——butdon’tforgetthatmyprofessionallimitskeepmeinthedark!Haveyouheardthatshetooksomecomposingmedicine,whichIhadprescribedforherfather?Theeffect(certain,inanycase,tobeinjurioustoayounggirl)
wasconsiderablyaggravatedbythestateofhermindatthetime。
Adreamthatfrightenedher,andsomethingresemblingdelirium,seemstohavefollowed。Andshemademattersworse,poorchild,bywritinginherdiaryaboutthevisionsandsupernaturalappearancesthathadterrifiedher。Iwasafraidoffever,onthedaywhentheyfirstsentforme。Weescapedthatcomplication,andIwasatlibertytotrythebestofallremedies——quietandchangeofair。IhavenofearsforMissEunice。"
WiththatcheeringreplyhewentuptotheMinister’sroom。
AllthatIhadfoundperplexinginEunicewasnowmadeclear。I
understoodhowheragonyatthelossofherlover,andherkeensenseofthewrongthatshehadsuffered,hadbeenstrengthenedintheirdisastrousinfluencebyherexperimentonthesleepingdraughtintendedforherfather。Inmindandbody,both,thepoorgirlwasintheconditionwhichoffereditsopportunitytothelurkinghereditarytaint。Itwasterribletothinkofwhatmighthavehappened,iftheall—powerfulcounter—influencehadnotbeenpresenttosaveher。
BeforeIhadbeenlongalonetheservant—maidcamein,andsaidthedoctorwantedtoseeme。
Mr。Wellwoodwaswaitinginthepassage,outsidetheMinister’sbedchamber。Heaskedifhecouldspeaktomewithoutinterruption,andwithoutthefearofbeingoverheard。IledhimatoncetotheroomwhichIoccupiedasaguest。
"AttheverytimewhenitismostimportanttokeepMr。Gracedieuquiet,"hesaid,"somethinghashappenedtoexcite——Imightalmostsaytoinfuriatehim。Hehaslefthisbed,andiswalkingupanddowntheroom;and,Idon’tscrupletosay,heisonthevergeofmadness。Heinsistsonseeingyou。Beingwhollyunabletocontrolhiminanyotherway,Ihaveconsentedtothis。ButI
mustnotallowyoutoplaceyourselfinwhatmaybeadisagreeableposition,withoutawordofwarning。Judgingbyhistonesandhislooks,heseemstohavenoveryfriendlymotiveforwishingtoseeyou。"
Knowingperfectlywellwhathadhappened,andbeingoneofthoseimpatientpeoplewhocanneverenduresuspense——IofferedtogoatoncetoMr。Gracedieu’sroom。Thedoctoraskedleavetosayonewordmore。
"Praybecarefulthatyouneithersaynordoanythingtothwarthim,"Mr。Wellwoodresumed。"Ifheexpressesanopinion,agreewithhim。Ifheisinsolentandoverbearing,don’tanswerhim。Inthestateofhisbrain,theonehopefulcoursetotakeistolethimhavehisownway。Prayrememberthat。Iwillbewithincall,incaseofyourwantingme。"
CHAPTERXLV。
THEFATALPORTRAIT。
IKNOCKEDatthebedroomdoor。
"Who’sthere?"
Onlytwowords——butthevoicethatutteredthem,hoarseandperemptory,wasalteredalmostbeyondrecognition。IfIhadnotknownwhoseroomitwas,ImighthavedoubtedwhethertheMinisterhadreallyspokentome。
AttheinstantwhenIansweredhim,Iwasallowedtopassin。
Havingadmittedme,heclosedthedoor,andplacedhimselfwithhisbackagainstit。Thecustomarypallorofhisfacehaddarkenedtoadeepred;therewasanexpressionofferociousmockeryinhiseyes。Helena’svengeancehadhurtherunhappyfatherfarmoreseverelythanitseemedlikelytohurtme。Thedoctorhadsaidhewasonthevergeofmadness。Tomythinking,hehadalreadypassedtheboundaryline。
Hereceivedmewithaboisterousaffectationofcordiality。
"Myexcellentfriend!Myadmirable,honorable,welcomeguest,youdon’tknowhowgladIamtoseeyou。Standalittlenearertothelight;Iwanttoadmireyou。"
Rememberingthedoctor’sadvice,Iobeyedhiminsilence。
"Ah,youwereahandsomefellowwhenIfirstknewyou,"hesaid,"andyouhavesomeremainsofitstillleft。Doyourememberthetimewhenyouwereafavoritewiththeladies?Oh,don’tpretendtobemodest;don’tturnyourback,nowyouareold,onwhatyouwereintheprimeofyourlife。DoyouownthatIamright?"
Whathisobjectmightbeinsayingthis——if,indeed,hehadanobject——itwasimpossibletoguess。Thedoctor’sadviceleftmenoalternative;Ihastenedtoownthathewasright。AsImadethatanswer,Iobservedthatheheldsomethinginhishandwhichwashalfhiddenupthesleeveofhisdressing—gown。WhatthenatureoftheobjectwasIfailedtodiscover。
"AndwhenIhappenedtospeakofyousomewhere,"hewenton,"I
forgetwhere——amemberofmycongregation——Idon’trecollectwhoitwas——toldmeyouwereconnectedwiththearistocracy。Howwereyouconnected?"
Hesurprisedme;but,howeverhehadgothisinformation,hehadnotbeendeceived。ItoldhimthatIwasconnected,throughmymother,withthefamilytowhichhehadalluded。
"Thearistocracy!"herepeated。"Araceofpeoplewhoarerichwithoutearningtheirmoney,andnoblebecausetheirgreat—grandfatherswerenoblebeforethem。Theyliveinidlenessandluxury——profligateswhogratifytheirpassionswithoutshameandwithoutremorse。Deny,ifyoudare,thatthisisatruedescriptionofthem。"
Itwasreallypitiable。Heartilysorryforhim,Ipacifiedhimagain。
"Anddon’tsupposeIforgetthatyouareoneofthem。Doyouhearme,mynoblefriend?"
Therewasnohelpforit——Imadeanotherconciliatoryreply。
"Sofar,"heresumed,"Idon’tcomplainofyou。Youhavenotattemptedtodeceiveme——yet。AbsolutesilenceiswhatIrequirenext。Thoughyoumaynotsuspectit,mymindisinaferment;I
musttrytothink。"
Tosomeextentatleast,histhoughtsbetrayedthemselvesinhisactions。HeputtheobjectthatIhadhalfseeninhishandintothepocketofhisdressing—gown,andmovedtothetoilet—table。
Openingoneofthedrawers,hetookfromitafoldedsheetofpaper,andcamebacktome。
"AministeroftheGospel,"hesaid,"isasacredman,andhasahorrorofcrime。Youaresafe,sofar——providedyouobeyme。I
haveasolemnandterribledutytoperform。Thisisnottherightplaceforit。Followmedownstairs。"
Heledthewayout。Thedoctor,waitinginthepassage,wasnotnearthestairs,andsoescapednotice。"Whatisit?"Mr。W
ellwoodwhispered。Inthesameguardedway,Isaid:"Hehasnottoldmeyet;Ihavebeencarefulnottoirritatehim。"Whenwedescendedthestairs,thedoctorfollowedusatasafedistance。
HemendedhispacewhentheMinisteropenedthedoorofthestudy,andwhenhesawusbothpassin。Beforehecouldfollow,thedoorwasclosedandlockedinhisface。Mr。Gracedieutookoutthekeyandthrewitthroughtheopenwindow,intothegardenbelow。
Turningbackintotheroom,helaidthefoldedsheetofpaperonthetable。Thatdone,hespoketome。
"Idistrustmyownweakness,"hesaid。"Adreadfulnecessityconfrontsme——Imightshrinkfromthehorrididea,and,ifI
couldopenthedoor,mighttrytogetaway。Escapeisimpossiblenow。Weareprisonerstogether。Butdon’tsupposethatwearealone。Thereisathirdpersonpresent,whowilljudgebetweenyouandme。Lookthere!"
Hepointedsolemnlytotheportraitofhiswife。Itwasasmallpicture,verysimplyframed;representingthefaceina"three—quarter"view,andpartofthefigureonly。Asaworkofartitwascontemptible;but,asalikeness,itanswereditspurpose。Myunhappyfriendstoodbeforeit,inanattitudeofdejection,coveringhisfacewithhishands。
Intheintervalofsilencethatfollowed,Iwasremindedthatanunseenfriendwaskeepingwatchoutside。
Alarmedbyhavingheardthekeyturnedinthelock,andrealizingtheembarrassmentofthepositioninwhichIwasplaced,thedoctorhaddiscoveredadiscreetwayofcommunicatingwithme。Heslippedoneofhisvisiting—cardsunderthedoor,withthesewordswrittenonit:"HowcanIhelpyou?"
Itookthepencilfrommypocketbook,andwroteontheblanksideofthecard:"Hehasthrownthekeyintothegarden;lookforitunderthewindow。"AglanceattheMinister,beforeIreturnedmyreply,showedthathisattitudewasunchanged。Withoutbeingseenorsuspected,I,inmyturn,slippedthecardunderthedoor。
Theslowminutesfollowedeachother——andstillnothinghappened。
Myanxietytoseehowthedoctor’ssearchforthekeywassucceeding,temptedmetoapproachthewindow。Onmywaytoit,thetailofmycoatthrewdownalittletraycontainingpensandpencils,whichhadbeenleftclosetotheedgeofthetable。
Slightasthenoiseofthefallwas,itdisturbedMr。Gracedieu。
Helookedroundvacantly。
"Ihavebeencomfortedbyprayer,"hetoldme。"TheweaknessofpoorhumanityhasfoundstrengthintheLord。"Hepointedtotheportraitoncemore:"Myhandsmustnotpresumetotouchit,whileIamstillindoubt。Takeitdown。"
Iremovedthepictureandplacedit,byhisdirections,onachairthatstoodmidwaybetweenus。Tomysurprisehistonesfaltered;Isawtearsrisinginhiseyes。"Youmaythinkyouseeapicturethere,"hesaid。"Youarewrong。Youseemywifeherself。Standhere,andlookatmywifewithme。"
Westoodtogether,withoureyesfixedontheportrait。
Withoutanythingsaidordoneonmyparttoirritatehim,hesuddenlyturnedtomeinastateoffuriousrage。"Notasignofsorrow!"heburstout。"Notablushofshame!Wretch,youstandcondemnedbytheatrociouscomposurethatIseeinyourface!"
AfirstdiscoveryoftheodioussuspicionofwhichIwastheobject,dawnedonmymindatthatmoment。Mycapacityforrestrainingmyselfcompletelyfailedme。Ispoketohimasifhehadbeenanaccountablebeing。"Onceforall,"Isaid,"tellmewhatIhavearighttoknow。Yoususpectmeofsomething。Whatisit?"
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