Havingestablishedmyselfinmyowncountry,Ididnotforgettoletoldfriendsknowwheretheymightfindme。AmongthosetowhomIwrotewasanothercolleagueofpastyears,whostillheldhismedicalappointmentintheprison。WhenIreceivedthedoctor’sreply,itinclosedaletterdirectedtomeatmyoldquartersintheGovernor’srooms。WhocouldpossiblyhavesentalettertoanaddresswhichIhadleftfiveyearssince?MycorrespondentprovedtobenolessapersonthantheCongregationalMinister——thefriendwhomIhadestrangedfrommebythetoneinwhichIhadwrittentohim,onthelong—pastoccasionofhiswife’sdeath。
Itwasadistressinglettertoread。Ibegpermissiontogiveonlythesubstanceofitinthisplace。
Entreatingme,withtouchingexpressionsofhumilityandsorrow,toforgivehislongsilence,thewriterappealedtomyfriendlyremembranceofhim。Hewasinsoreneedofcounsel,underseriousdifficulties;andIwastheonlypersontowhomhecouldapplyforhelp。Inthedisorderedstateofhishealthatthattime,heventuredtohopethatIwouldvisithimathispresentplaceofabode,andwouldlethimhavethehappinessofseeingmeasspeedilyaspossible。Heconcludedwiththisextraordinarypostscript:
"Whenyouseemydaughters,saynothingtoeitherofthemwhichrelates,inanyway,tothesubjectoftheirages。Youshallhearwhywhenwemeet。"
Thereadingofthisletternaturallyremindedmeoftheclaimswhichmyfriend’snobleconducthadestablishedonmyadmirationandrespect,atthepasttimewhenwemetintheprison。Icouldnothesitatetogranthisrequest——strangelyasitwasexpressed,anddoubtfulastheprospectappearedtobeofmyansweringtheexpectationswhichhehadfoundedontherenewalofourintercourse。Answeringhisletterbytelegraph,Ipromisedtobewithhimonthenextday。
Onarrivingatthestation,IfoundthatIwastheonlytraveler,byafirst—classcarriage,wholeftthetrain。Ayounglady,remarkablebyhergoodlooksandgooddressing,seemedtohavenoticedthistriflingcircumstance。Sheapproachedmewithareadysmile。"IbelieveIamspeakingtomyfather’sfriend,"shesaid;"mynameisHelenaGracedieu。"
HerewasoneoftheMinister’stwo"daughters";andthatoneofthetwo——asIdiscoveredthemomentIshookhandswithher——whowasmyfriend’sownchild。MissHelenarecalledtomehermother’sface,infinitelyimprovedbyyouthandhealth,andbyanaturalbeautywhichthatcruelanddeceitfulwomancouldneverhavepossessed。Theslantingforeheadandtheshifting,flashingeyes,thatIrecollectedintheparent,werereproduced(slightlyreproduced,Ioughttosay)inthechild。Asfortheotherfeatures,Ihadneverseenamorebeautifulnoseandmouth,oramoredelicately—shapedoutline,thanwaspresentedbythelowerpartoftheface。ButMissHelenasomehowfailedtocharmme。I
doubtifIshouldhavefalleninlovewithher,eveninthedayswhenIwasafoolishyoungman。
ThefirstquestionthatIput,aswedrovefromthestationtothehouse,relatednaturallytoherfather。
"Heisveryill,"shebegan;"Iamafraidyoumustprepareyourselftoseeasadchange。Nerves。Themischieffirstshoweditself,thedoctortellsus,inderangementofhisnervoussystem。Hehasbeen,Iregrettotellyou,obstinateinrefusingtogiveuphispreachingandpastoralwork。Heoughttohavetriedrestattheseaside。Thingshavegoneonfrombadtoworse。
LastSunday,atthebeginningofhissermon,hebrokedown。Very,verysad,isitnot?Thedoctorsaysthatprecioustimehasbeenlost,andhemustmakeuphismindtoresignhischarge。Hewon’thearofit。Youarehisoldfriend。Pleasetrytopersuadehim。"
Fluentlyspoken;thewordswellchosen;themelodiousvoiceremindingmeofthelateMrs。Gracedieu’sadvantagesinthatrespect;littlesighsjudiciouslythrowninhereandthere,justattherightplaces;everything,letmeown,thatcouldpresentadutifuldaughterasapatternofpropriety——andnothing,letmeadd,thatcouldproduceanimpressiononmyinsensibletemperament。IfIhadnotbeentoodiscreettorushatahastyconclusion,Imighthavebeeninclinedtosay:hermother’schild,everyinchofher!
TheinterestwhichIwasstillabletofeelinmyfriend’sdomesticaffairscenteredinthedaughterwhomhehadadopted。
InherinfancyIhadseenthechild,andlikedher;Iwastheonepersonliving(sincethedeathofMrs。Gracedieu)whoknewhowtheMinisterhadconcealedthesadsecretofherparentage;andI
wantedtodiscoverifthehereditarytainthadbeguntoshowitselfintheinnocentoffspringofthemurderess。JustasIwasconsideringhowImightharmlesslyspeakofMissHelena’s"sister,"MissHelenaherselfintroducedthesubject。
"MayIask,"sheresumed,"ifyouweredisappointedwhenyoufoundnobodybutmetomeetyouatourstation?"
Herewasanopportunityofpayingheracompliment,ifIhadbeenayoungerman,orifshehadproducedafavorableimpressiononme。Asitwas,Ihit——ifImaypraisemyself——onaningeniouscompromise。
"WhatexcusecouldIhave,"Iasked,"forfeelingdisappointed?"
"Well,Ihearyouareanofficialpersonage——Ioughttosay,perhaps,aretiredofficialpersonage。Wemighthavereceivedyoumorerespectfully,if_both_myfather’sdaughtershadbeenpresentatthestation。It’snotmyfaultthatmysisterwasnotwithme。"
Thetoneinwhichshesaidthisstrengthenedmyprejudiceagainsther。Ittoldmethatthetwogirlswerelivingtogetheronnoveryfriendlyterms;anditsuggested——justlyorunjustlyIcouldnotthendecide——thatMissHelenawastoblame。
"Mysisterisawayfromhome。"
"Surely,MissHelena,thatisagoodreasonforhernotcomingtomeetme?"
"Ibegyourpardon——itisabadreason。Shehasbeensentawayfortherecoveryofherhealth——andthelossofherhealthisentirelyherownfault。"
Whatdidthismattertome?Idecidedondroppingthesubject。Mymemoryreverted,however,topastoccasionsonwhichthelossof_my_healthhadbeenentirelymyownfault。Therewassomethinginthesepersonalrecollections,whichencouragedmyperversetendencytosympathizewithayoungladytowhomIhadnotyetbeenintroduced。Theyounglady’ssisterappearedtobediscouragedbymysilence。Shesaid:"Ihopeyoudon’tthinktheworseofmeforwhatIhavejustmentioned?"
"Certainlynot。"
"Perhapsyouwillfailtoseeanyneedofmyspeakingofmysisteratall?Willyoukindlylisten,ifItrytoexplainmyself?"
"Withpleasure。"
Sheslylysetthebestconstructiononmyperfectlycommonplacereply。
"Thankyou,"shesaid。"Thefactis,myfather(Ican’timaginewhy)wishesyoutoseemysisteraswellasme。Hehaswrittentothefarmhouseatwhichsheisnowstaying,totellhertocomehometo—morrow。Itispossible——ifyourkindnessoffersmeanopportunity——thatImayasktobeguidedbyyourexperience,inalittlematterwhichinterestsme。Mysisterisrash,andreckless,andhasaterribletemper。Ishouldbeverysorryindeedifyouwereinducedtoformanunfavorableopinionofme,fromanythingyoumightnoticeifyouseeustogether。Youunderstandme,Ihope?"
"Iquiteunderstandyou。"
Tosetmeagainsthersister,inherownprivateinterests——there,asIfeltsure,wasthemotiveunderwhichshewasacting。Ashardashermother,asselfishashermother,and,judgingfromthosetwobadqualities,probablyascruelashermother。ThatwashowIunderstoodMissHelenaGracedieu,whenourcarriagedrewupatherfather’shouse。
Amiddle—agedladywasonthedoorstep,whenwearrived,justringingthebell。Shelookedroundatusboth;beingevidentlyascompleteastrangertomyfaircompanionasshewastome。Whentheservantopenedthedoor,shesaid:
"IsMissJillgallathome?"
Atthesoundofthatoddname,MissHelenatossedherheaddisdainfully。Shetooknosortofnoticeofthestranger—ladywhowasatthedoorofherfather’shouse。Thisyoungperson’scontemptforMissJillgallappearedtoextendtoMissJillgall’sfriends。
Inthemeantime,theservant’sanswerwas:"Notathome。"
Themiddleagedladysaid:"Doyouexpectherbacksoon?"
"Yes,ma’am。"
"Iwillcallagain,laterintheday。"
"Whatname,ifyouplease?"
Theladystoleanotherlookatme,beforeshereplied。
"Nevermindthename,"shesaid——andwalkedaway。
CHAPTERXXXIII。
THEMINISTER’SMISFORTUNE。
"Doyouknowthatlady?"MissHelenaasked,asweenteredthehouse。
"Sheisaperfectstrangertome,"Ianswered。
"Areyousureyouhavenotforgottenher?"
"WhydoyouthinkIhaveforgottenher?"
"Becausesheevidentlyrememberedyou。"
Theladyhadnodoubtlookedatmetwice。Ifthismeantthatmyfacewasfamiliartoher,IcouldonlyrepeatwhatIhavealreadysaid。Never,tomyknowledge,hadIseenherbefore。
Leadingthewayupstairs,MissHelenaapologizedfortakingmeintoherfather’sbedroom。"Heisabletositupinanarmchair,"
shesaid;"andhemightdomore,asIthink,ifhewouldexerthimself。Hewon’texerthimself。Verysad。Wouldyouliketolookatyourroom,beforeyouseemyfather?Itisquitereadyforyou。Wehope"——shefavoredmewithafascinatingsmile,devotedtowinningmyheartwhenherinterestsrequiredit——"wehopeyouwillpayusalongvisit;welookonyouasoneofourselves。"
Ithankedher,andsaidIwouldshakehandswithmyoldfriendbeforeIwenttomyroom。Wepartedatthebedroomdoor。
ItisoutofmypowertodescribetheshockthatoverpoweredmewhenIfirstsawtheMinisteragain,afterthelongintervaloftimethathadseparatedus。Nothingthathisdaughtersaid,nothingthatImyselfanticipated,hadpreparedmeforthatlamentablechange。Forthemoment,Iwasnotsufficientlymasterofmyselftobeabletospeaktohim。Headdedtomyembarrassmentbythehumilityofhismanner,andtheformalelaborationofhisapologies。
"IfeelpainfullythatIhavetakenalibertywithyou,"hesaid,"afterthelongestrangementbetweenus——forwhichmywantofChristianforbearanceistoblame。Forgiveit,sir,andforgetit。Ihopetoshowthatnecessityjustifiesmypresumption,insubjectingyoutoawearisomejourneyformysake。"
Beginningtorecovermyself,Ibeggedthathewouldmakenomoreexcuses。Myinterruptionseemedtoconfusehim。
"Iwishedtosay,"hewenton,"thatyouaretheonemanwhocanunderstandme。Thereismyonlyreasonforaskingtoseeyou,andlookingforwardasIdotoyouradvice。Yourememberthenight——orwasittheday?——beforethatmiserablewomanwashanged?YouweretheonlypersonpresentwhenIagreedtoadoptthepoorlittlecreature,stainedalready(onemaysay)byitsmother’sinfamy。IthinkyourwisdomforesawwhataterribleresponsibilityIwasundertaking;youtriedtopreventit。Well!
well!youhavebeeninmyconfidence——youonly。Mind!nobodyinthishouseknowsthatoneofthetwogirlsisnotreallymydaughter。Praystopme,ifyoufindmewanderingfromthepoint。
MywishistoshowthatyouaretheonlymanIcanopenmyheartto。She——"Hepaused,asifinsearchofalostidea,andleftthesentenceuncompleted。"Yes,"hewenton,"Iwasthinkingofmyadoptedchild。DidIevertellyouthatIbaptizedhermyself?
andbyagoodScripturenametoo——Eunice。Ah,sir,thatlittlehelplessbabyisagrown—upgirlnow;ofanagetoinspirelove,andtofeellove。Iblushtoacknowledgeit;Ihavebehavedwithawantofself—control,withacowardlyweakness。——No!Iam,indeed,wanderingthistime。IoughttohavetoldyoufirstthatIhavebeenbroughtfacetofacewiththepossibilityofEunice’smarriage。And,tomakeitworsestill,Ican’thelplikingtheyoungman。Hecomesofagoodfamily——excellentmanners,highlyeducated,plentyofmoney,agentlemanineverysenseoftheword。AndpoorlittleEuniceissofondofhim!Isn’titdreadfultobeobligedtocheckherdearly—lovedPhilip?Theyounggentleman’snameisPhilip。Doyoulikethename?IsayIamobligedtocheekhersweetheartintherudestmanner,whenallhewantstodoistoaskmemodestlyformysweetEunice’shand。Oh,whathaveInotsuffered,withoutawordofsympathytocomfortme,beforeIhadcourageenoughtowritetoyou!ShallImakeadreadfulconfession?Ifmyreligiousconvictionshadnotstoodinmyway,IbelieveIshouldhavecommittedsuicide。Putyourselfinmyplace。Trytoseeyourselfshrinkingfromanecessaryexplanation,whenthehappinessofaharmlessgirl——sodutiful,soaffectionate——dependedonawordofkindnessfromyourlips。
Andthatwordyouareafraidtospeak!Don’ttakeoffense,sir;I
meanmyself,notyou。Whydon’tyousaysomething?"heburstoutfiercely,incapableofperceivingthathehadallowedmenoopportunityofspeakingtohim。"GoodGod!don’tyouunderstandme,afterall?"
Thesignsofmentalconfusioninhistalkhadsodistressedme,thatIhadnotbeencomposedenoughtofeelsureofwhathereallymeant,untilhedescribedhimselfas"shrinkingfromanecessaryexplanation。"Hearingthosewords,myknowledgeofthecircumstanceshelpedme;Irealizedwhathissituationreallywas。
"Composeyourself,"Isaid,"Iunderstandyouatlast。"
Hehadsuddenlybecomedistrustful。
"Proveit,"hemuttered,withafurtivelookatme。"Iwanttobesatisfiedthatyouunderstandmyposition。"
"Thisisyourposition,"Itoldhim。"Youareplacedbetweentwodeplorablealternatives。IfyoutellthisyounggentlemanthatMissEunice’smotherwasacriminalhangedformurder,hisfamily——evenifhehimselfdoesn’trecoilfromit——willunquestionablyforbidthemarriage;andyouradopteddaughter’shappinesswillbethesacrifice。"
"True!"hesaid。"Frightfullytrue!Goon。"
"If,ontheotherhand,yousanctionthemarriage,andconcealthetruth,youcommitadeliberateactofdeceit;andyouleavethelivesoftheyoungcoupleatthemercyofapossiblediscovery,whichmightparthusbandandwife——castaslurontheirchildren——andbreakupthehousehold。"
Heshudderedwhilehelistenedtome。"Cometotheendofit,"hecried。
Ihadnomoretosay,andIwasobligedtoanswerhimtothateffect。
"Nomoretosay?"hereplied。"YouhavenottoldmeyetwhatI
mostwanttoknow。"
Ididarashthing;Iaskedwhatitwasthathemostwantedtoknow。
"Can’tyouseeitforyourself?"hedemandedindignantly。
"Supposeyouwereputbetweenthosetwoalternativeswhichyoumentionedjustnow。"
"Well?"
"Whatwouldyoudo,sir,inmyplace?Wouldyouownthedisgracefultruth——beforethemarriage——orruntherisk,andkeepthehorridstorytoyourself?"
Eitherway,myreplymightleadtoseriousconsequences。I
hesitated。
Hethreatenedmewithhispoorfeeblehand。Itwasonlytheangerofamoment;hishumorchangedtosupplication。Heremindedmepiteouslyofbygonedays:"Youusedtobeakind—heartedman。Hasagehardenedyou?Haveyounopityleftforyouroldfriend?Mypoorheartissadlyinwantofawordofwisdom,spokenkindly。"
Whocouldhaveresistedthis?Itookhishand:"Beatease,dearMinister。InyourplaceIshouldruntherisk,andkeepthathorridstorytomyself。"
Hesankbackgentlyinhischair。"Oh,thereliefofit!"hesaid。"HowcanIthankyouasIoughtforquietingmymind?"
Iseizedtheopportunityofquietinghismindtogoodpurposebysuggestingachangeofsubject。"Letushavedonewithserioustalkforthepresent,"Iproposed。"Ihavebeenanidlemanforthelastfiveyears,andIwanttotellyouaboutmytravels。"
Hisattentionbegantowander,heevidentlyfeltnointerestinmytravels。"Areyousure,"heaskedanxiously,"thatwehavesaidallweoughttosay?No!"hecried,answeringhisownquestion。"IbelieveIhaveforgottensomething——IamcertainI
haveforgottensomething。PerhapsImentioneditintheletterI
wrotetoyou。Haveyougotmyletter?"
Ishowedittohim。Hereadtheletter,andgaveitbacktomewithaheavysigh。"Notthere!"hesaiddespairingly。"Notthere!"
"Isthelostremembranceconnectedwithanybodyinthehouse?"I
asked,tryingtohelphim。"Doesitrelate,byanychance,tooneoftheyoungladies?"
"Youwonderfulman!Nothingescapesyou。Yes;thethingIhaveforgottenconcernsoneofthegirls。Stop!Letmegetatitbymyself。SurelyitrelatestoHelena?"Hehesitated;hisfacecloudedoverwithanexpressionofanxiousthought。"Yes;itrelatestoHelena,"herepeated"buthow?"Hiseyesfilledwithtears。"Iamashamedofmyweakness,"hesaidfaintly。"Youdon’tknowhowdreadfulitistoforgetthingsinthisway。"
Theinjurythathismindhadsustainednowassumedanaspectthatwasseriousindeed。Thesubtlemachinery,whichstimulatesthememory,bymeansoftheassociationofideas,appearedtohavelostitsworkingpowerintheintellectofthisunhappyman。I
madethefirstsuggestionthatoccurredtome,ratherthanaddtohisdistressbyremainingsilent。
"Ifwetalkofyourdaughter,"Isaid,"themerestaccident——awordspokenatrandomby。youorme——maybeallyourmemorywantstorouseit。"
Heagreedeagerlytothis:"Yes!Yes!Letmebegin。Helenametyou,Ithink,atthestation。Ofcourse,Irememberthat;itonlyhappenedafewhourssince。Well?"hewenton,withachangeinhismannertoparentalpride,whichitwaspleasanttosee,"didyouthinkmydaughterafinegirl?IhopeHelenadidn’tdisappointyou?"
"Quitethecontrary。"Havingmadethatnecessaryreply,Isawmywaytokeepinghismindoccupiedbyaharmlesssubject。"Itmust,however,beowned,"Iwenton,"thatyourdaughtersurprisedme。"
"Inwhatway?"
"Whenshementionedhername。Whocouldhavesupposedthatyou——aninveterateenemytotheRomanCatholicChurch——wouldhavechristenedyourdaughterbythenameofaRomanCatholicSaint?"
Helistenedtothiswithasmile。HadIhappilyblunderedonsomeassociationwhichhismindwasstillabletopursue?
"Youhappentobewrongthistime,"hesaidpleasantly。"InevergavemygirlthenameofHelena;and,whatismore,Ineverbaptizedher。Yououghttoknowthat。Yearsandyearsago,I
wrotetotellyouthatmypoorwifehadmademeaproudandhappyfather。AndsurelyIsaidthatthechildwasbornwhileshewasonavisittoherbrother’srectory。Doyourememberthenameoftheplace?Itoldyouitwasaremotelittlevillage,called——
Supposeweput_your_memorytoatest?Canyourememberthename?"heasked,withamomentaryappearanceoftriumphshowingitself,poorfellow,inhisface。
Afterthetimethathadelapsed,thenamehadslippedmymemory。
WhenIconfessedthis,heexultedoverme,withanunalloyedpleasurewhichitwascheeringtosee。
"_Your_memoryisfailingyounow,"hesaid。"ThenameisLongLanes。Andwhatdoyouthinkmywifedid——thisissocharacteristicofher!——whenIpresentedmyselfatherbedside。
Insteadofspeakingofourownbaby,sheremindedmeofthenamethatIhadgiventoouradopteddaughterwhenIbaptizedthechild。’Youchosetheugliestnamethatagirlcanhave,’shesaid。Ibeggedhertorememberthat’Eunice’wasanameinScripture。Shepersistedinspiteofme。(Whatfirmnessofcharacter!)’IdetestthenameofEunice!’shesaid;’andnowthatIhaveagirlofmyown,it’smyturntochoosethename;I
claimitasmyright。’Shewasbeginningtogetexcited;I
allowedhertohaveherownway,ofcourse。’Onlyletmeknow,’I
said,’whatthenameistobewhenyouhavethoughtofit。’Mydearsir,shehadthenameready,withoutthinkingaboutit:’Mybabyshallbecalledbythenamethatissweetestinmyears,thenameofmydearlostmother。’Wehad——whatshallIcallit?——aslightdifferenceofopinionwhenIheardthatthenamewastobeHelena。Ireallycould_not_reconcileittomyconsciencetobaptizeachildofminebythenameofaPopishsaint。Mywife’sbrothersetthingsrightbetweenus。Aworthygoodman;hediednotverylongago——Iforgetthedate。Nottodetainyouanylonger,therectorofLongLanesbaptizedourdaughter。Thatishowshecomesbyherun—Englishname;andsoithappensthatherbirthisregisteredinavillagewhichherfatherhasneverinhabited。Ihope,sir,youthinkalittlebetterofmymemorynow?"
IwasafraidtotellhimwhatIreallydidthink。
Hewasnotfiftyyearsoldyet;andhehadjustexhibitedoneofthesadsymptomswhichmarkthebrokenmemoryofoldage。Leadhimbacktotheeventsofmanyyearsago,and(ashehadjustprovedtome)hecouldrememberwellandrelatecoherently。Butlethimattempttorecallcircumstanceswhichhadonlytakenplaceashorttimesince,andforgetfulnessandconfusionpresentedthelamentableresult,justasIhaverelatedit。
Theeffortthathehadmade,theagitationthathehadundergoneintalkingtome,hadconfirmedmyfearsthathewouldovertaskhiswastedstrength。Helaybackinhischair。"Letusgoonwithourconversation,"hemurmured。"Wehaven’trecoveredwhatIhadforgotten,yet。"Hiseyesclosed,andopenedagainlanguidly。
"TherewassomethingIwantedtorecall——"heresumed,"andyouwerehelpingme。"Hisweakvoicediedaway;hiswearyeyesclosedagain。Afterwaitinguntiltherecouldbenodoubtthathewasrestingpeacefullyinsleep,Ilefttheroom。
CHAPTERXXXIV。
THELIVELYOLDMAID。
APERFECTstrangertotheinteriorofthehouse(seeingthatmyexperiencebeganandendedwiththeMinister’sbedchamber),I
descendedthestairs,inthecharacterofaguestinsearchofdomesticinformation。
Onmywaydown,Iheardthedoorofaroomonthegroundflooropened,andawoman’svoicebelow,speakinginahurry:"Mydear,Ihavenotamomenttospare;mypatientsarewaitingforme。"Thiswasfollowedbyaconfidentialcommunication,judgingbythetone。"Mind!notawordaboutmetothatoldgentleman!"
Herpatientswerewaitingforher——hadIdiscoveredafemaledoctor?Andtherewassomeoldgentlemanwhomshewasnotwillingtotrust——surelyIwasnotthatmuch—injuredman?
Reachingthehalljustastheladysaidherlastwords,Icaughtaglimpseofherface,anddiscoveredthemiddle—agedstrangerwhohadcalledon"MissJillgall,"andhadpromisedtorepeathervisit。Asecondladywasatthedoor,withherbacktome,takingleaveofherfriend。Havingsaidgood—by,sheturnedround——andweconfrontedeachother。
Ifoundhertobealittleperson,wiryandactive;pasttheprimeoflife,anduglyenoughtoencourageprejudice,inpersonswhotakeasuperficialviewoftheirfellow—creatures。Lookingimpartiallyatthelittlesunkeneyeswhichrestedonmewithacomicalexpressionofembarrassment,Isawsignsthatsaid:Thereissomegoodhere,underadisagreeablesurface,ifyoucanonlyfindit。
Shesalutedmewithacarefully—performedcurtsey,andthrewopenthedoorofaroomonthegroundfloor。
"Praywalkin,sir,andpermitmetointroducemyself。IamMr。
Gracedieu’scousin——MissJillgall。Proudindeedtomaketheacquaintanceofagentlemandistinguishedintheserviceofhiscountry——orperhapsIoughttosay,intheserviceoftheLaw。
TheGovernoroffershospitalitytoprisoners。AndwhointroducesprisonerstoboardandlodgingwiththeGovernor?——theLaw。
Beautifulweatherforthetimeofyear,isitnot?MayI
ask——haveyouseenyourroom?"
TheembarrassmentwhichIhadalreadynoticedhadextendedbythistimetohervoiceandhermanner。Shewasevidentlytryingtotalkherselfintoastateofconfidence。ItseemedbuttooprobablethatIwasindeedthepersonmentionedbyherprudentfriendatthedoor。
HavingacknowledgedthatIhadnotseenmyroomyet,mypolitenessattemptedtoaddthattherewasnohurry。Thewirylittleladywasofthecontraryopinion;shejumpedoutofherchairasifshehadbeenshotoutofit。"Prayletmemakemyselfuseful。Thedreamofmylifeistomakemyselfusefultoothers;
andtosuchamanasyou——Iconsidermyselfhonored。Besides,I
doenjoyrunningupanddownstairs。Thisway,dearsir;thiswaytoyourroom。"
Sheskippedupthestairs,andstoppedonthefirstlanding。"Doyouknow,Iamatimidperson,thoughImaynotlooklikeit。
Sometimes,curiositygetsthebetterofme——andthenIgrowbold。
Didyounoticealadywhowastakingleaveofmejustnowatthehousedoor?"
IrepliedthatIhadseentheladyforamoment,butnotforthefirsttime。"JustasIarrivedherefromthestation,"Isaid,"I
foundherpayingavisitwhenyouwerenotathome。"
"Yes——anddotellmeonethingmore。"MyreadinessinansweringseemedtohaveinspiredMissJillgallwithconfidence。Iheardnomoreconfessionsofoverpoweringcuriosity。"AmIright,"sheproceeded,"insupposingthatMissHelenaaccompaniedyou,onyourwayherefromthestation?"
"Quiteright。"
"Didshesayanythingparticular,whenshesawtheladyaskingformeatthedoor?"
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