’Shehasnotbeentoblameatall,’saidDalrymple。
’That’smyaffairandnotyours,’saidMrsVanSiever,verysharply。
’Butasyou’vebeenatallthistrouble,andhavenowchoppeditup,I
don’tmindpayingyouforyourtimeandpaints;onlyIshallbegladtoknowhowmuchitwillcometo?’
’Therewillbenothingtopay,MrsVanSiever。’
’Howlonghashebeenatit,Clara?’
’Mamma,indeedyouhadbetternotsayanythingaboutpayinghim。’
’IshallsaywhateverIplease,miss。Willtenpoundsdoit,sir?’
’Ifyouchoosetobuythepicture,thepricewillbesevenhundredandfifty,’saidDalrymplewithasmile,pointingtothefragments。
’Sevenhundredandfiftypounds?’saidtheoldwoman。
’ButIstronglyadviseyounottomakethepurchase,’saidDalrymple。
’Sevenhundredandfiftypounds!Icertainlyshallnotgiveyousevenhundredandfiftypounds。’
’Icertainlythinkyoucouldinvestyourmoneybetter,MrsVanSiever。
Butifthethingistobesoldatall,thatismyprice。I’vethoughtthattherewassomejusticeinyourdemandthatitshouldbedestroyed——andthereforeIhavedestroyedit。’
MrsVanSieverhadbeenstandingonthesamespoteversinceshehadenteredtheroom,andnowsheturnedroundtoleavetheroom。
’Ifyouhaveanydemandtomake,IbegthatyouwillsenditinyouraccountforworkdonetoMrMusselboro。Heismymanofbusiness。Clara,areyoureadytocomehome?Thecabiswaitingatthedoor——atsixpencethequarterofanhour,ifyouwillbepleasedtoremember。’
’MrsBroughton,’saidClara,thoughtfulofherraiment,andrememberingthatitmightnotbewellthatsheshouldreturnhome,eveninacab,dressedasJael,’ifyouwillallowme,Iwillgointoyourroomforaminuteortwo。’
’Certainly,Clara,’saidMrsBroughton,preparingtoaccompanyher。
’Butbeforeyougo,MrsBroughton,’saidMrsVanSiever,’itmaybeaswellthatIshouldtellyouthatmydaughterisgoingtobecomethewifeofMrMusselboro。Itmaysimplifymattersthatyoushouldknowthis。’
AndMrsVanSiever,asshespoke,lookedhardatConwayDalrymple。
’Mamma!’exclaimedClara。
’Mydear,’saidMrsVanSiever,’youhadbetterchangeyourdressandcomeawaywithme。’
’NottillIhaveprotestedagainstwhatyouhavesaid,mamma。’
’Youhadbetterleaveyourprotestingalone,Icantellyou。’
’MrsBroughton,’saidClara,’Imustbegyoutounderstandthatmammahasnottheslightestrightintheworldtotellyouwhatshejustnowsaidaboutme。NothingonearthwouldinducemetobecomethewifeofMrBroughton’spartner。’
TherewassomethingwhichmadeClaraunwillingeventonamethemanwhomhermotherhadpubliclyproposedasherfuturehusband。
’Heisn’tMrBroughton’spartner,’saidMrsVanSiever。’MrBroughtonhasnotgotapartner。MrMusselboroistheheadofthefirm。Andastoyourmarryinghim,ofcourse,Ican’tmakeyou。’
’No,mamma,youcannot。’
’MrsBroughtonunderstandsthat,nodoubt;——andso,probably,doesMrDalrymple。Icanonlytellthemwhataremyideas。Ifyouchoosetomarrythesweepatthecrossing,Ican’thelpit。OnlyIdon’tseewhatgoodyouwoulddothesweep,whenhewouldhavetosweepforhimselfandyoutoo。Atanyrate,Isupposeyoumeantogohomewithmenow?’ThenMrsBroughtonandClaralefttheroom,andMrsVanSieverwasleftwithConwayDalrymple。’MrDalrymple,’saidMrsVanSiever,’donotdeceiveyourself。WhatItoldyoujustnowwillcertainlycometopass。’
’Itseemstomethatthatmustdependontheyounglady,’saidDalrymple。
’I’lltellyouwhatcertainlywillnotdependontheyounglady,’saidMrsVanSiever,’andthatiswhetherthemanwhomarriesherwillhavemorewithherthantheclothesshestandsupin。Youwillunderstandthatargument,Isuppose?’
’I’mnotquitesurethatIdo,’saidDalrymple。
’Thenyou’dbettertrytounderstandit。Good—morning,sir。I’msorryyou’vehadtoslityourpicture。’Thenshecurtseyedlow,andwalkedoutontothelanding—place。’Clara,’shecried,’I’mwaitingforyou——sixpenceaquarterofanhour——rememberthat。’InaminuteortwoClaracameouttoher,andthenMrsVanSieverandMissVanSievertooktheirdeparture。
’Oh,Conway,whatamItodo?WhatamItodo?’saidMrsDobbsBroughton。Dalrymplestoodperplexedforafewminutes,andcouldnottellherwhatshewastodo。Shewasinsuchapositionthatitwasveryhardtotellherwhatshewastodo。’Doyoubelieve,Conway,thatheisreallyruined?’
’WhatamItosay?HowamItoknow?’
’Iseethatyoubelieveit,’saidthewretchedwoman。
’Icannotbutbelievethatthereissomethingoftruthinwhatthiswomansays。Whyelseshouldshecomeherewithsuchastory?’Thentherewasapause,duringwhichMrsBroughtonwasburyingherfaceonthearmofthesofa。’I’lltellyouwhatI’lldo,’continuedhe。’I’llgointotheCityandmakeinquiry。ItcanhardlybebutwhatIshalllearnthetruththere。’
Thentherewasanotherpause,attheendofwhichMrsBroughtongotupfromthesofa。
’Tellme,’saidshe:——’whatdoyoumeanaboutthatgirl?’
’Youheardmeaskhertobemywife?’
’Idid!Idid!’
’Isitnotwhatyouintended?’
’Donotaskme。Mymindisbewildered。Mybrainisonfire!Oh,Conway!’
’ShallIgointotheCityasIproposed?’saidDalrymple,whofeltthathemightatanyrateimprovethepositionofcircumstancesbyleavingthehouse。
’Yes;——yes;gointotheCity!Goanywhere。Go。Butstay!Oh,Conway!’Therewasasuddenchangeinhervoiceasshespoke。
’Hark——thereheis,assureaslife。’ThenConwaylistened,andheardafootsteponthestairs,astowhichhehadthenbutlittledoubtthatitwasthefootstepofDobbsBroughton。’Oheavens!Heistipsy!’exclaimedMrsBroughton;’andwhatshallwedo?’ThenDalrympletookherhandandpressedit;andlefttheroom,sothathemightmeetthehusbandonthestairs。Intheonemomentthathehadforreflectionhethoughtitwasbetterthatthereshouldbenoconcealment。
CHAPTERLXI
’IT’SDOGGEDASDOESIT’
Inaccordancewiththeresolutiontowhichtheclericalcommissionhadcomeonthefirstdayoftheirsitting,DrTempestwrotethefollowinglettertoMrCrawley:—
’RECTORY,SILVERBRIDGE,April,9,186—
’DEARSIR,’IhavebeengiventounderstandthatyouhavebeeninformedthattheBishopofBarchesterhasappointedacommissionofclergymenofthediocesetomakeinquiryrespectingcertainaccusationswhich,tothegreatregretofusall,havebeenmadeagainstyou,inrespectofachequefortwentypoundswhichwaspassedbyyoutoatradesmanofthetown。TheclergymenappointedtoformthiscommissionareMrOriel,therectorofGreshamsbury,MrRobarts,thevicarofFramley,MrQuiverful,thewardenofHiram’sHospitalatBarchester,andMrThumble,aclergymanestablishedinthatcity,andmyself。WeheldourfirstmeetingonlastMonday,andInowwritetoyouincompliancewitharesolutiontowhichwecame。BeforetakinganyotherstepswethoughtitbesttoaskyoutoattendushereonnextMonday,attwoo’clock,andIbegthatyouwillacceptthisletterasaninvitationtothateffect。
’Weare,ofcourse,awarethatyouareabouttostandyourtrialatthenextassizesfortheoffenceinquestion。IbegyoutounderstandthatIdonotexpressanyopinionastoyourguilt。ButIthinkitrighttopointouttoyouthatintheeventofajuryfindinganadverseverdict,thebishopwillbeplacedingreatdifficultyunlesshewerefortifiedwiththeopinionofacommissionformedfromyourfellowclericallabourersinthediocese。Shouldsuchadverseverdictunfortunatelybegiven,thebishopwouldhardlybejustifiedinallowingaclergymanplacedasyouthenwouldbeplaced,toreturntohiscureaftertheexpirationofsuchpunishmentasthejudgemightaward,withoutafurtherdecisionfromanecclesiasticalcourt。ThisdecisionhecouldonlyobtainbyproceedingagainstyouundertheActinreferencetoclericaloffences,whichempowershimasbishopofthediocesetobringyoubeforetheCourtofArches——unlessyouwouldthinkwelltosubmityourselfentirelytohisjudgment。Youwill,Ithink,understandwhatImean。Thejudgeatassizesmightfindithisdutytoimprisonaclergymanforamonth——regardingtatclergymansimplyashewouldregardanyotherpersonfoundguiltybyajuryandthusmadesubjecttohisjudgment——andmightdothisforanoffencewhichtheecclesiasticaljudgewouldfindhimselfobligedtovisitwiththeseverersentenceofprolongedsuspension,orevenwithdeprivation。
’Weare,however,clearlyoftheopinionthatshouldthejuryfindthemselvesabletoacquityou,nofurtheractionwhatsoevershouldbetaken。Insuchcasewethinkthatthebishopmayregardyourinnocencetobefullyestablished,andinsuchcaseweshallrecommendhislordshiptolookuponthematterasaltogetheratanend。IcanassureyouthatinsuchcaseIshallsoregarditmyself。
’Youwillperceivethat,asaconsequenceofthisresolution,towhichwehavealreadycome,wearenotmindedtotakeanyinquiriesourselvesintothecircumstancesofyourallegedguilt,tilltheverdictofthejuryshallbegiven。Butshouldyoubeconvicted,wemustinthatcaseadvisethebishoptotaketheproceedingstowhichIhavealluded,ortoabstainfromtakingthem。Wewishtoaskyouwhether,nowthatouropinionhasbeenconveyedtoyou,youwillbewillingtosubmitthebishop’sdecision,intheeventofanadverseverdictbeinggivenbythejury;andwethinkthatitwillbebetterforusallthatyoushouldmeetushereatthehourIhavenamedonMondaynext,thefifteenthinstant。Itisnotourintentiontomakeanyreporttothebishopuntilthetrialshallbeover。——Ihavethehonourtobe,mydearsir,yourobedientservant,’MORTIMERTEMPEST
’TheRev。JosiahCrawley,’Hogglestock。’
InthesameenvelopeDrTempestsentashortprivatenote,inwhichhesaidthatheshouldbeveryhappytoseeMrCrawleyathalf—pastoneontheMondaynamed,thatluncheonwouldbereadyatthathour,andthat,asMrCrawley’sattendancewasrequiredonpublicgrounds,hewouldtakecarethatacarriagewasprovidedfortheday。
MrCrawleyreceivedthisletterinhiswife’spresence,andreaditinsilence。MrsCrawleysawthathepaidcloseattentiontoit,andwassure——shefeltthatshewassure——thatitreferredinsomewaytotheterriblesubjectofthechequefortwentypounds。Indeed,everythingthatcameintothehouse,almosteverywordspokenthere,andeverythoughtthatcameintothebreastofanyofthefamily,hadmoreorlessreferencetothecomingtrial。Howcoulditbeotherwise?Therewasruincomingonthemall——ruinandcompletedisgracecomingonfather,mother,andchildren!Tohavebeenaccuseditselfwasverybad;butnowitseemedtobetheopinionofeveryonethattheverdictmustbeagainsttheman。MrsCrawleyherself,whowasperfectlysureofherhusband’sinnocencebeforeGod,believedthatthejurywouldfindhimguilty——andbelievedalsothathehadbecomepossessedofthemoneyinsomemannerthatwouldhavebeendishonest,hadhenotbeensodifferentfromotherpeopleastobeentitledtobeconsideredinnocentwhereanothermanwouldhavebeenplainlyguilty。Shewasfullofthechequefortwentypounds,andofitsresults。When,therefore,hehadreadtheletterthroughasecondtime,andeventhenhadspokennowordaboutit,ofcourseshecouldnotrefrainfromquestioninghim。’Mylove,’shesaid,’whatistheletter?’
’Itisonbusiness,’heanswered。
Shewassilentforamomentbeforeshespokeagain。’MayInotknowthebusiness?’
’No,’saidhe;’notatpresent。’
’Isitfromthebishop?’
’HaveInotansweredyou?HaveInotgivenyoutounderstandthat,forawhileatleast,Iwouldprefertokeepthecontentsofthisepistletomyself?’Thenhelookedatherverysternly,andafterwardsturnedhiseyesuponthefireplaceandgazedatthefire,asthoughhewerestrivingtoreadtheresomethingofhisfuturefate。Shedidnotmuchregardtheseverityofhisspeech。That,too,likethetakingofthechequeitself,wastobeforgivenhim,becausehewasdifferentfromothermen。Hisblackmoodhadcomeuponhim,cuttinghisteeth。Letthepoorwaywardsuffererbeeversopetulant,themothersimplypitiesandloveshim,andisneverangry。’Ibegyourpardon,Josiah,’shesaid,’butIthoughtitwouldcomfortyoutospeaktomeaboutit。’
’Itwillnotcomfortme,’hesaid。’Nothingcomfortsme。Nothingcancomfortme。Jane,givememyhatandmystick。’Hisdaughterbroughttohimhishatandstick,andwithoutanotherwordhewentoutandleftthem。
AsamatterofcourseheturnedhisstepstowardsHoggleEnd。Whenhedesiredtobelongabsentfromthehouse,healwayswentamongthebrickmakers。Hiswife,asshestoodatthewindowandwatchedthedirectioninwhichhewent,knewthathemightbeawayforhours。Theonlyfriendsoutofhisownfamilywithwhomheeverspokefreelyweresomeofthoseroughparishioners。Buthewasnotthinkingofthebrickmakerswhenhestarted。HewassimplydesirousofreadingagainDrTempest’sletter,andofconsideringit,insomespotwherenoeyecouldseehim。Hewalkedawaywithlongsteps,regardingnothing——neithertherutsinthedirtylane,northeyoungprimroseswhichwerefastshowingthemselvesonthebanks,northegatheringcloudswhichmighthavetoldhimofthecomingrain。Hewentonforacoupleofmiles,tillhehadnearlyreachedtheoutskirtsofthecolonyofHoggleEnd,andthenhesathimselfdownuponagate。Hehadnotbeenthereaminutebeforeafewslowdropsbegantofall,buthewasaltogethertoomuchwrappedupinhisthoughtstoregardtherain。WhatanswershouldhemaketothisletterfromthemanfromSilverbridge?
Thepositionofhisownmindinreferencetohisownguiltorhisowninnocencewasverysingular。Itwassimplythetruththathedidnotknowhowthechequehadcometohim。Hedidknowthathehadblunderedaboutitmostegregiously,especiallywhenhehadaverredthatthischequefortwentypoundshadbeenidenticalwithachequeforanothersumwhichhadbeengiventohimbyMrSoames。Hehadblunderedsince,insayingthatthedeanhadgivenittohim。Therecouldbenodoubtastothis,forthedeanhaddeniedthathehaddoneso。Andhehadcometothinkitverypossiblethathehadindeedpickedthechequeup,andhadafterwardsusedit,havingdepositeditbysomestrangeaccident——notknowingthenwhathewasdoing,orwhatwasthenatureofthebitofpaperinhishand——withthenoteswhichhehadacceptedfromthedeanwithsomuchreluctance,andwithsuchanagonyofspirit。Inallthesethoughtsofhisowndoings,andhisownposition,healmostadmittedtohimselfhisowninsanity,hisinabilitytomanagehisownaffairswiththatdegreeofrationalsequencewhichistakenforgrantedasbelongingtoamanwhenheismadesubjecttocriminallaws。Ashepuzzledhisbraininhiseffortstocreateamemoryastothecheque,andsucceededinbringingtohismindarecollectionthathehadonceknownsomethingaboutthecheque——thatthechequehadatonetimebeenthesubjectofathoughtandaresolution——headmittedtohimselfthatinaccordancewithalllawandallreasonhemustberegardedasathief。Hehadtakenandusedandspentthatwhichheoughttohaveknownwasnothisown——whichhewouldhaveknownnottobehisownbutforsometerribleincapacitywithwhichGodhadinflictedhim。Whatthenmustbetheresult?Hismindwasclearenoughaboutthis。Ifthejuryshouldseeeverythingandknoweverything——ashewouldwishthattheyshoulddo;andifthebishop’scommission,andthebishophimself,andtheCourtofArcheswithitsjudge,couldseeandknoweverything;andifsoseeingandsoknowingtheycouldactwithclearhonestyandperfectwisdom——whatwouldtheydo?Theywoulddeclareofhimthathewasnotathief,onlybecausehewassomuddy—minded,soaddle—patedasnottoknowthedifferencebetweenmeumandtuum!Therecouldbenootherendtoit,letallthelawyersandalltheclergymeninEnglandputtheirwitstoit。Thoughtheknewhimselftobemuddy—mindedandaddle—pated,hecouldseethat。
Andcouldanyonesayofsuchamanthathewasfittobetheacting—clergymanofaparish——tohavefreeholdpossessioninaparishascurerofmen’ssouls!Thebishopwasintherightofit,lethimbetentimesasmeanafellowashewas。
Andyetashesatthereonthegate,whiletheraincamedownheavilyuponhim,evenwhenadmittingthejusticeofthebishop,andthetruthoftheverdictwhichthejurywouldnodoubtgive,andtheproprietyoftheactionwhichthatcold,reasonable,prosperousmanatSilverbridgewouldtake,hepitiedhimselfwithatendernessofcommiserationwhichknewnobounds。Asforthosebelongingtohim,hiswifeandchildren,hispityforthemwasofadifferentkind。Hewouldhavesufferedanyincreaseofsuffering,couldhebysuchagonyhavereleasedthem。Dearlyashelovedthem,hewouldhaveseveredhimselffromthem,haditbeenpossible。Terriblethoughtsastotheirfatehadcomeintohismindintheworstmomentsofhismoodiness——thoughtswhichhehadsufficientstrengthandmanlinesstoputawayfromhimwithastronghand,lesttheyshoulddrivehimtocrimeindeed;andthesehadcomefromthegreatpityhehadfeltforthem。Butthecommiserationwhichhehadfeltforhimselfhadbeendifferentfromthis,andhadmostlyvisitedhimattimeswhenthatotherpitywasforthemomentinabeyance。Whatthoughhehadtakenthecheque,andspentthemoneythoughitwasnothis?Hemightbeguiltybeforethelaw,buthewasnotguiltybeforeGod。Therehadneverbeenathoughtoftheftinhismind,oradesiretostealinhisheart。Heknewthatwellenough。NojurycouldmakehimguiltyoftheftbeforeGod。Andwhatthoughthismixtureofguiltandinnocencehadcomefrommadness——frommadnesswhichthesecourtsmustrecogniseiftheychosetofindhiminnocentofthecrime?Inspiteofhisaberrationsofintellect,iftherewereanysuch,hisministrationsinhisparishweregood。Hadhenotpreachedferventlyandwell——preachingthetruegospel?Hadhenotbeenverydiligentamonghispeople,strivingwithallhismighttolessentheignoranceoftheignorant,andtogildwithgodlinessthelearningoftheinstructed?Hadhenotbeenpatient,enduring,instant,andinallthingsamenabletothelawsandregulationslaiddownbytheChurchforhisguidanceinhisdutiesasaparishclergyman?Whocouldpointoutinwhathehadbeenastray,orwherehehadgoneamiss?ButfortheworkwhichhehaddonewithsomuchzealtheChurchwhichheservedhadpaidhimsomiserableapittancethat,thoughlifeandsoulhadbeenkepttogether,thereason,orafragmentofthereason,hadatmomentsescapedfromhiskeepinginthescramble。Henceitwasthatthisterriblecalamityhadfallenuponhim!
Whohadbeentriedashehadbeentried,andhadgonethroughsuchfirewithlesslossofintellectualpowerthanhehaddone?Hewasstillascholar,thoughnobrotherscholarevercamenearhim,andwouldmakeGreekiambicsashewalkedthroughthelanes。Hismemorywasstoredwithpoetry,thoughnobookevercameintohishands,exceptthoseshornandtatteredvolumeswhichlayuponhistable。Oldproblemsintrigonometrywerethepleasingrelaxationsofhismind,andcomplicationsoffigureswereadelighttohim。Therewasnotoneofthoseprosperousclergymenaroundhim,andwhoscornedhim,whomhecouldnothaveinstructedinHebrew。ItwasalwaysagratificationtohimtorememberthathisoldfriendthedeanwasweakinhisHebrew。He,withtheseacquirements,withthesefitnesses,hadbeenthrustdowntotheground——totheverygranite——andbecauseinthatharshheartlessthrustinghisintellecthadformomentswaveredastocommonthings,cleavingstilltoallitsgrander,noblerpossessions,hewasnowtoberentinpiecesandscatteredtothewinds,asbeingaltogethervile,worthless,andworsethanworthless。Itwasthusthathethoughtofhimself,pityinghimself,ashesatuponthegate,whiletherainfellruthlesslyonhisshoulders。
Hepitiedhimselfwithacommiserationthatwassicklyinspiteofitstruth。Itwasthefaultofthemanthathewasimbuedtoostronglywithself—consciousness。Hecoulddoagreatthingortwo。Hecouldkeepuphiscourageinpositionswhichwouldwashallthecourageoutofmostmen。Hecouldtellthetruththoughtruthshouldruinhim。Hecouldsacrificeallthathehadtoduty。Hecoulddojusticethoughtheheavenshouldfall。Buthecouldnotforgettopaytributetohimselfforthegreatnessofhisownactions;nor,whenacceptingwithaneffortofmeeknessthesmallpaymentmadebytheworldtohim,inreturnforhisgreatworks,couldheforgetthegreatpaymentsmadetoothersforsmallwork。ItwasnotsufficientforhimtorememberthatheknewHebrew,buthemustrememberalsothatthedeandidnot。
Nevertheless,ashesatthereundertherain,hemadeuphismindwithaclearnessthatcertainlyhadinitnothingofthatmuddinessofmindofwhichhehadoftenaccusedhimself。Indeed,theintellectofthismanwasessentiallyclear。Itwassimplythathismemorythatwouldplayhimtricks——hismemoryastothingswhichatthemomentwerenotimportanttohim。Thefactthatthedeanhadgivenhimmoneywasveryimportant,andheremembereditwell。Buttheamountofthemoney,anditsform,atamomentinwhichhehadflatteredhimselfthathemighthavestrengthtoleaveitunused,hadnotbeenimportanttohim。Now,heresolvedthathewouldgotoDrTempest,andthathewouldtellDrTempestthattherewasnotoccasionforanyfurtherinquiry。Hewouldsubmittothebishop,letthebishop’sdecisionbewhatitmight。ThingsweredifferentsincethedayonwhichhehadrefusedMrThumbleadmissiontohispulpit。Atthattimepeoplebelievedhimtobeinnocent,andhesobelievedofhimself。Now,peoplebelievedhimtobeguilty,anditcouldnotberightthatamanheldinsuchslightesteemcouldexercisethefunctionsofaparishpriest,lethisownopinionofhimselfbewhatitmight。Hewouldsubmithimself,andgoanywhere——tothegalleysortheworkhouse,iftheywishedit。Asforhiswifeandchildren,theywould,hesaidtohimself,bebetterwithouthimthanwithhim。Theworldwouldneverbesohardtoawomanortochildrenasithadbeentohim。
Hewassittingsaturatedwithrain——saturatedalsowiththinking——andquiteunobservantofanythingaroundhim,whenhewasaccostedbyanoldmanfromHoggleEnd,withwhomhewaswellacquainted。’Theebewat,MasterCrawley,’saidtheoldman。
’Wet!’saidCrawley,recalledsuddenlybacktotherealitiesoflife。
’Well——yes。Iamwet。That’sbecauseit’sraining。’
’Theebeteemingo’wat。Hadn’ttheebettergohome?’
’Andareyounotwetalso,’saidMrCrawley,lookingattheoldman,whohadbeenatworkinthebrickfield,andwhowassoakedwithmire,andfromwhomthereseemedtocomeasteamofmuddymist。
’Isitme,yerreverence?I’mwatofcourse。Theloikesofusisalwayswat——thatisbarringtheinsidesofus。Itcomestousnaturaltohavetherheumatics。Howisoneofustohelphisselfagainsthavingon’em?Butthereain’tnocallfortheloikesofyoutohavetherheumatics。’
’Myfriend,’saidCrawley,whowasnowstandingontheroad——andashespokeheputouthisarmandtookthebrickmakerbythehand,’thereisaworsecomplaintthanrheumatism——thereis,indeed。’
’There’swhattheycallsthecollerer,’saidGilesHoggett,lookingupintoCrawley’sface。’Thatain’ta—gotholdofyer?’
’Ay,andworsethanthecholera。Amaniskilledalloverwhenheisstruckwithpride——andyethelives。’
’Maybethat’sbadenoughtoo,’saidGiles,withhishandstillheldbytheother。
’Itisbadenough,’saidCrawley,strikinghisbreastwithhislefthand。’Itisbadenough。’
’Tell’eewhat,MasterCrawley;——andyerreverencemustn’tthinkasI
meanstobepreaching;thereain’tnowtamancan’tbearifhe’llonlybedogged。Youtowhome,MasterCrawley,andthinko’that,andmaybeit’lldoyeagoodyet。It’sdoggedasdoesit。Itain’tthinkingaboutit。’ThenGilesHoggettwithdrewhishandfromtheclergyman’s,andwalkedawaytowardshishomeatHoggleEnd。MrCrawleyalsoturnedawayhomewards,andashemadehiswaythroughthelanes,herepeatedtohimselfGilesHoggett’swords。’It’sdoggedasdoesit。It’snotthinkingaboutit。’
HedidnotsayawordtohiswifeonthatafternoonaboutDrTempest;
andshewassomuchtakenupwithhisoutwardconditionwhenhereturned,asalmosttohaveforgottentheletter。Heallowedhimself,butbarelyallowedhimself,tobemadedry,andthenfortheremainderofthedayappliedhimselftolearnthelessonwhichHoggetthadendeavouredtoteachhim。Butthelearningofitwasnoteasy,andhardlybecamemoreeasywhenhehadworkedtheproblemoutinhisownmind,anddiscoveredthatthebrickmaker’sdoggednesssimplymeantself—abnegation——thatamanshouldforcehimselftoendureanythingthatmightbesentuponhim,notonlywithoutoutwardgrumbling,butalsowithoutgrumblinginwardly。
Earlyonthenextmorning,hetoldhiswifethathewasgoingintoSilverbridge。’Itisthatletter——theletterwhichIgotyesterdaythatcallsme,’hesaid。Andthenhehandedhertheletterastowhichhehadrefusedtospeaktoherontheprecedingday。