CHAPTERXXVIII
SHOWINGHOWMAJORGRANTLYTOOKAWALK
MajorGrantlydrovehisgigintotheyardofthe’RedLion’atAllington,andfromthencewalkedawayatoncetoMrsDale’shouse。Whenhereachedthevillagehehadhardlymadeuphismindasthewayinwhichhewouldbeginhisattack;butnow,ashewentdownthestreet,heresolvedthathewouldfirstaskforMrsDale。MostprobablyhewouldfindhimselfinthepresentofMrsDaleandherdaughter,andofGracealso,athisfirstentrance;andifso,hispositionwouldbeawkwardenough。HealmostregrettednowthathehadnotwrittentoMrsDale,andaskedforaninterview。Histaskwouldbeverydifficultifheshouldfindalltheladiestogether。ButhewasstrongenoughinthefeelingthatwhenhispurposewastolditwouldmeettheapprovalatanyrateofMrsDale;andhewalkedboldlyon,andbravelyknockedatthedooroftheSmallHouse,ashehadalreadylearnedthatMrsDale’sresidencewascalledbytheneighbourhood。Nobodywasathome,theservantsaid;andthen,whenthevisitorbegantomakefurtherinquiry,thegirlexplainedthatthetwoyoungladieshadwalkedasfarasGuestwickCottage,andthatMrsDalewasatthismomentattheGreatHousewiththesquire。Shehadgoneacrosssoonaftertheyoungladieshadstarted。Themaid,however,wasinterruptedbeforeshehadfinishedtellingallthistothemajor,byfindinghermistressbehindherinthepassage。MrsDalehadreturned,andhadenteredthehousefromthelawn。
’Iamherenow,Jane,’saidMrsDale,’ifthegentlemanwishestoseeme。’
Thenthemajorannouncedhimself。’MynameisMajorGrantly,’saidhe;
andhewasblunderingonwithsomewordsabouthisownintrusion,whenMrsDalebeggedhimtofollowherintothedrawing—room。HehadmutteredsomethingtotheeffectthatMrsDalewouldnotknowwhohewas;butMrsDaleknewallabouthim,andhadheardthewholeofGrace’sstoryfromLily。SheandLilyhadoftendiscussedthequestionwhether,underexistingcircumstances,MajorGrantlyshouldfeelhimselfboundtoofferhishandtoGrace,andthemotheranddaughterhaddifferedsomewhatonthematter。MrsDalehadheldthathewasnotsobound,urgingthattheunfortunatepositioninwhichMrCrawleywasplacedwassocalamitoustoallconnectedwithhim,astojustifyanyman,notabsolutelyengaged,inabandoningthethoughtsofsuchamarriage。MrsDalehadspokenofMajorGrantly’sfatherandmotherandbrotherandsister,andhaddeclaredheropinionthattheywereentitledtoconsideration。ButLilyhadopposedthisideaverystoutly,assertingthatinanaffairofloveamanshouldthinkneitheroffatherorbrotherofmotherorsister。’Ifheisworthanything,’Lilyhadsaid,’hewillcometohernow——inhertrouble;andwilltellherthatsheatleasthasgotafriendwhowillbetruetoher。Ifhedoesthat,thenIshallthinkthatthereissomethingofthepoetryandnoblenessofloveleft。’InanswertothisMrsDalehadrepliedthatwomenhadorighttoexpectfrommensuchself—denyingnobilityasthat。’Idon’texpectit,mamma,’saidLily。
’AndIamsurethatGracedoesnot。IndeedIamquitesurethatGracedoesnotexpecteventoseehimeveragain。Sheneversaysso,butI
knowthatshehasmadeuphermindaboutit。StillIthinkheoughttocome。’’Itcanhardlybethatamanisboundtodoathing,thedoingofwhich,asyouconfess,wouldbealmostmorethannoble,’saidMrsDale。
Andsothematterhadbeendiscussedbetweenthem。Butnow,asitseemedtoMrsDale,themanhadcometodothenoblething。Atanyratehewasthereinherdrawing—room,andbeforeeitherofthemhadsatdownhehadcontrivedtomentionGrace。’Youmaynotprobablyhaveheardmyname,’
hesaid,’butIamacquaintedwithyourfriend,GraceCrawley。’
’Iknowyournameverywell,MajorGrantly。Mybrother—in—lawwholivesdownyonder,MrDale,knowsyourfatherverywell——orhedidsomeyearsago。AndIhaveheardhimsaythatheremembersyou。’
’Irecollect。HeusedtobestayingatUllathorne。Butthatisalongtimeago。Isheathomenow?’
’MrDaleisalmostalwaysathome。Heveryrarelygoesaway,andIamsurewouldbegladtoseeyou。’
Thentherewasalittlepauseintheconversation。Theyhadmanagedtoseatthemselves,andMrsDalehadsaidenoughtoputhervisitorfairlyathisease。Ifhehadanythingspecialtosaytoher,hemustsayit——anyrequestorpropositiontomakeastoGraceCrawley,hemustmakeit。Andhedidmakeitatonce。’MyobjectincomingtoAllington,’hesaid,’wastoseeMissCrawley。’
’Sheandmydaughterhavetakenalongwalktocallonafriend,andI
amafraidtheywillstayforlunch;buttheywillcertainlybehomebetweenthreeandfour,ifthatisnottoolongforyoutoremainatAllington。’
’Oh,dear,no,’saidhe。’Itwillnothurtmetowait。’
’Itcertainlywillnothurtme,MajorGrantly。Perhapsyouwilllunchwithme?’
’I’lltellyouwhat,MrsDale;ifyou’llpermitme,I’llexplaintoyouwhyIhavecomehere。Indeed,Ihaveintendedtodosoallthrough,andIcanonlyaskyoutokeepmysecret,ifafterallitshouldrequiretobekept。’
’Iwillcertainlykeepanysecretthatyoumayaskmetokeep,’saidMrsDale,takingoffherbonnet。
’Ihopetheremaybenoneedofone,’saidMajorGrantly。’Thetruthis,MrsDale,thatIhaveknownGraceCrawleyforsometime——nearlyfortwoyearsnow,and——Imayaswellspeakitoutatonce——Ihavemadeupmymindtoaskhertobemywife。ThatiswhyIamhere。’Consideringthenatureofthestatement,whichmusthavebeenembarrassing,Ithinkthatitwasmadewithfluencyandsimplicity。
’Ofcourse,MajorGrantly,youknowthatIhavenoauthoritywithouryoungfriend,’saidMrsDale。’Imeanthatsheisnotconnectedwithusbyfamilyties。Shehasafatherandmother,living,asIbelieve,inthesamecountyasyourself。’
’Iknowthat,MrsDale。’
’Andyoumay,perhaps,understandthat,asMissCrawleyisnowstayingwithme,Ioweitinameasuretoherfriendstoaskyouwhethertheyareawareofyourintention。’
’Theyarenotawareofit。’
’Iknowthatatthepresentmomenttheyareingreattrouble。’
MrsDalewasgoingon,butshewasinterruptedbyMajorGrantly。’Thatisjustit,’hesaid。’TherearecircumstancesatpresentwhichmakeitalmostimpossiblethatIshouldgotoMrCrawleyandaskhispermissiontoaddresshisdaughter。Idonotknowwhetheryouhaveheardthewholestory?’
’Asmuch,Ibelieve,asGracecouldtellme。’
’Heis,Ibelieve,insuchastateofmentaldistressastobehardlycapableofgivingmeaconsiderateanswer。AndIshouldnotknowhowtospeaktohim,orhownottospeaktohim,aboutthisunfortunateaffair。
But,MrsDale,youwill,Ithink,perceivethatthesamecircumstancesmakeitimperativeuponmetobeexplicittoMissCrawley。IthinkIamthelastmantoboastofawoman’sregard,butIhadlearnedtothinkthatIwasnotindifferenttoGrace。Ifthatbeso,whatmustshethinkofmeifIstayawayfromhernow?’
’Sheunderstandstoowelltheweightofthemisfortunewhichhasfallenuponherfather,tosupposethatanyonenotconnectedwithhercanbeboundtoshareit。’
’Thatisjustit。ShewillthinkthatIamsilentforthatreason。I
havedeterminedthatthatshallnotkeepmesilent,and,therefore,I
havecomehere。Imay,perhaps,beabletobringcomforttoherinhertrouble。Asregardsmyworldlyposition——though,indeed,itwillnotbeverygood——ashersisnotgoodeither,youwillnotthinkyourselfboundtoforbidmetoseeheronthathead。’
’Certainlynot。IneedhardlysaythatIfullyunderstandthat,asregardsmoney,youareofferingeverythingwhereyoucangetnothing。’
’Andyouunderstandmyfeeling?’
’IndeedIdo——andappreciatethegreatnobilityofyourloveforGrace。
Youshallseeherhere,ifyouwishit——andtoday,ifyouchoosetowait。’MajorGrantlysaidthathewouldwaitandwouldseeGraceonthatafternoon。MrsDaleagainsuggestedthatheshouldlunchwithher,butthishedeclined。Shethenproposedthatheshouldgoacrossandcalluponthesquire,andthusconsumehistime。Buttothishealsoobjected。Hewasnotexactlyinhumour,hesaid,torenewsooldandsoslightanacquaintanceatthattime。MrDalewouldprobablyhaveforgottenhim,andwouldbesuretoaskwhathadbroughthimtoAllington。Hewouldgoandtakeawalk,hesaid,andcomeagainatexactlyhalf—pastthree。MrsDaleagainexpressedhercertaintythattheyoungladieswouldbebackbythattime,andMajorGrantlyleftthehouse。
MrsDalewhenshewasleftalonecouldnotbutcomparethegoodfortunethatwasawaitingGrace,withtheevilfortunewhichhadfallenonherownchild。Herewasamanwhowasatallpointsagentleman。Such,atleast,wasthecharacterwhichMrsDaleatonceconcededtohim。AndGracehadchancedtocomeacrossthisman,andtopleasehiseye,andsatisfyhistaste,andbelovedbyhim。AndtheresultofthatchancewouldbethatGracewouldhaveeverythinggiventoherthattheworldhastogiveworthacceptance。Shewouldhaveacompanionforherlifewhomshecouldtrust,admire,love,andofwhomshecouldbeinfinitelyproud。MrsDalewasnotatallawarewhetherMajorGrantlymighthavefivehundredayeartospend,orfivethousand——orwhatsumintermediatebetweenthetwo——nordidshegivemuchofherthoughtsatthemomenttothatsideofthesubject。Sheknewwithoutthinkingofit——orfanciedthatsheknew,thatthereweremeanssufficientforcomfortableliving。
Itwassolelythenatureandcharacterofthemanthatwasinhermind,andthesufficiencythatwastobefoundinthemforawife’shappiness。
Butherdaughter,herLily,hadcomeacrossamanwhowasascoundrel,and,astheconsequenceofthatmeeting,allherlifewasmarred!CouldanycreditbegiventoGraceforhersuccess,oranyblameattachedtoLilyforherfailure。Surelynotthelatter!Howwashergirltohaveguardedherselffromalovesounfortunate,orhaveavoidedtherockonwhichhervesselhadbeenshipwrecked?ThenmanybitterthoughtspassedthroughMrsDale’smind,andshealmostenviedGraceCrawleyherlover。
Lilywascontentedtoremainasshewas,butLily’smothercouldnotbringherselftobesatisfiedthatherchildshouldfillalowerplaceintheworldthanothergirls。Ithadeverbeenheridea——anidealprobablyneverabsolutelyutteredeventoherself,butnotthelesspracticallyconceived——thatitisthebusinessofawomantobemarried。
ThatherLilyshouldhavebeenwonandnotworn,hadbeen,andwouldbe,atroubletoherforever。
MajorGrantlywentbacktotheinnandsawhishorsefed,andsmokedacigar,andthen,findingthatitwasstillonlyjustoneo’clock,hestartedoffforawalk。HewasnotcarefulnottogooutofAllingtonbytheroadhehadenteredit,ashehadnowishtoencounterGraceandherfriendontheirreturntothevillage;sohecrossedalittlebrookwhichrunsatthebottomofthehillonwhichthechiefstreetofAllingtonisbuilt,andturnedintoafield—pathtotheleftassoonashehadgotbeyondthehouses。Notknowingthegeographyoftheplacehedidnotunderstandthatbytakingthatpathhewasmakinghiswaybacktothesquire’shouse;butitwasso;andaftersaunteringonforaboutamileandcrossingbackagainoverthestream,ofwhichhetooknonotice,hefoundhimselfleaningacrossagate,andlookingintoapaddockontheothersideofwhichwasthehighwallofagentleman’sgarden。Toavoidthishewentonalittlefartherandfoundhimselfonafarmroad,andbeforehecouldretracehisstepssoasnottobeseen,hemetagentlemanwhomhepresumedtobetheownerofthehouse。Itwasthesquiresurveyinghishomefarm,aswashisdailycustom;butMajorGrantlyhadnotperceivedthatthehousemustofnecessitybeAllingtonHouse,havingbeenawarethathehadpassedtheentrancetotheplace,asheenteredthevillageontheotherside。’I’mafraidI’mintruding,’
hesaid,liftinghishat。’Icameupthepathyonder,notknowingthatitwouldleadmesoclosetoagentleman’shouse。’
’There’sarightofwaythroughthefieldsontotheGuestwickroad,’
saidthesquire,’andthereforeyouarenottrespassinginanysense;
butwearenotparticularaboutsuchthingsdownhere,andyouwouldbeverywelcomeiftherewerenorightofway。Ifyouareastranger,perhapsyouwouldliketoseetheoutsideoftheoldhouse。Peoplethinkitpicturesque。’
ThenMajorGrantlybecameawarethatthismustbethesquire,andhewasannoyedwithhimselfforhisownawkwardnessinhavingthuscomeuponthehouse。Hewouldhavewishedtokeephimselfaltogetherunseenifithadbeenpossible——andespeciallyunseenbythisoldgentleman,towhom,nowthathehadmethim,hewasalmostboundtointroducehimself。Buthewasnotabsolutelyboundtodoso,andhedeterminedthathewouldstillkeephispeace。Evenifthesquireshouldafterwardshearofhishavingbeenthere,whatwoulditmatter?Buttoproclaimhimselfatthepresentmomentwouldbedisagreeabletohim。Hepermittedthesquire,however,toleadhimtothefrontofthehouse,andinafewmomentswasstandingontheterracehearinganaccountofthearchitectureofthemansion。
Youcanseethedatestillinthebrickworkofoneofthechimneys——thatis,ifyoureyesareverygoodyoucanseeit——1617。Itwascompletedinthatyear,andverylittlehasbeendonetoitsince。Wethinkthechimneysarepretty。’
’Theyareverypretty,’saidthemajor。’Indeed,thehousealtogetherisasgracefulasitcanbe。’
’Thosetreesareoldtoo,’saidthesquire,pointingtotwocedarswhichstoodatthesideofthehouse。’TheysaytheyareolderthanthehousebutIdon’tfeelsureofit。Therewasamansionherebefore,verynearly,thoughnotquite,onthesamespot。’
’Yourownancestorswerelivingherebeforethat,Isuppose?’saidGrantly,meaningtobecivil。
’Well,yes;twoorthreehundredyearsbeforeit,Isuppose。Ifyoudon’tmindcomingdowntothechurchyard,you’llgetanexcellentviewofthehouse;——byfarthebestthereis。By—the—by,wouldyouliketostepinandtakeaglassofwine?’
’I’mverymuchobliged,’saidthemajor,’butindeedI’drathernot。’
Thenhefollowedthesquiredowntothechurchyard,andwasshownthechurchaswellastheviewofthehouse,andthevicarage,andaviewovertoAllingtonwoodsfromthevicaragegate,ofwhichthesquirewasveryfond,andinthiswayhewastakenbackontotheGuestwicksideofthevillage,andevendownontheroadbywhichhehadenteredit,withoutintheleastknowingwherehewas。Helookedathiswatch,andsawthatitwaspasttwo。’I’mverymuchobligedtoyou,sir,’hesaidagaintakingoffhishattothesquire,’andifIshallnotbeintruding,I’llmakemywaybacktothevillage。’
’Whatvillage?’
’ToAllington,’saidGrantly。
’ThisisAllington,’saidthesquire;andashespoke,LilyDaleandGraceCrawleyturnedthecornerfromtheGuestwickroadandcamecloseuponthem。’Well,girls,Ididnotexpecttoseeyou,’saidthesquire;
’yourmammatoldmeyouwouldn’tbebacktillitwasnearlydark,Lily。’
’Wehavecomebackearlierthanweintended,’saidLily。Sheofcoursehadseenthestrangerwithheruncle,andknowingthewaysofthesquireinsuchmattershadexpectedtobeintroducedtohim。Butthereaderwillbeawarethatnointroductionwaspossible。ItneveroccurredtoLilythatthismancouldbeMajorGrantlyofwhomsheandGracehadbeentalkingduringthewholelengthofthewalkhome。ButGraceandherloverhadofcourseknowneachotheratonce,andGrantly,thoughhewasabashedandalmostdismayedbythemeeting,ofcoursecameforwardandgavehishandtohisfriend。Graceintakingitdidnotutteraword。
’PerhapsIoughttohaveintroducedmyselftoyouasMajorGrantly,’
saidhe,turningtothesquire。
’MajorGrantly!Dearme!Ihadnoideathatyouwereexpectedintheseparts。’
’Ihavecomewithoutbeingexpected。’
’Youareverywelcome,I’msure。Ihopeyourfatheriswell?Iusedtoknowhimsomeyearsago,andIdaresayhehasnotforgottenme。’Then,whilethegirlsstoodbyinsilence,andwhileGrantlywasendeavouringtoescape,thesquireinvitedhimverywarmlytosendhisportmanteauuptothehouse。’We’llhavetheladiesupfromthehousebelow,andmakeitaslittledullforyouaspossible。’ButthiswouldnothavesuitedGrantly——atanyratewouldnotsuithimtillheshouldknowwhatanswerhewastohave。Heexcusedhimselftherefore,pleadingapositivenecessitytobeatGuestwickthatevening,andthen,explainingthathehadalreadyseenMrsDale,heexpressedhisintentionofgoingbacktotheSmallHouseincompanywiththeladies,iftheywouldallowhim。Thesquire,whodidnotyetquiteunderstanditall,badehimaformaladieu,andLilyledthewayhomedownbehindthechurchyardwallandthroughthebottomofthegardensbelongingtotheGreatHouse。Sheofcourseknewnowwhothestrangerwas,anddidallinherpowertorelieveGraceofherembarrassment。Gracehadhithertonotspokenasinglewordsinceshehadseenherlover,nordidshesayawordtohimintheirwalktothehouse。And,intruth,hewasnotmuchmorecommunicativethanGrace。Lilydidallthetalking,andwithwonderfulfemaleskillcontrivedtohavesomewordsreadyforusetilltheyallfoundthemselvestogetherinMrsDale’sdrawing—room。’Ihavecaughtamajor,mamma,andlandedhim,’saidLilylaughing,’butI’mafraid,fromwhatIhear,thatyouhadcaughthimfirst。’
CHAPTERXXIX
MISSLILYDALE’SLOGIC
LadyJuliaDeGuestalwayslunchedatoneexactly,anditwasnotmuchpasttwelvewhenJohnEamesmadehisappearanceatthecottage。Hewasofcoursetoldtostay,andofcoursesaidthathewouldstay。IthadbeenhispurposetolunchwithLadyJulia;butthenhehadnotexpectedtofindLilyDaleatthecottage。Lilyherselfwouldhavebeenquiteatherease,protectedbyLadyJulia,andsomewhatprotectedalsobyherownpowersoffence,haditnotbeenthatGracewastherealso。ButGraceCrawley,fromthemomentthatshehadheardthedescriptionofthegentlemanwholookedoutofthewindowwithhisglassinhiseye,hadbynomeansbeenatherease。Lilysawatoncethatshecouldnotbebroughttojoininanyconversation,andbothJohnandLadyJulia,intheirignoranceofthematterinhand,mademattersworse。
’SothatwasMajorGrantly,’saidJohn。’Ihaveheardofhimbefore,I
think。Heisasonoftheoldarchdeacon,ishenot?’
’Idon’tknowaboutoldarchdeacon,’saidLadyJulia。’Thearchdeaconisthesonoftheoldbishop,whomIrememberverywell。Anditisnotsoverylongsincethebishopdied,either。’
’IwonderwhatheisdoingatAllington,’saidJohn。
’Ithinkheknowsmyuncle,’saidLily。
’Buthe’sgoingtocallonyourmother,hesaid。’ThenJohnnyrememberedthatthemajorhadsaidsomethingastoknowingMissCrawley,andforthemomenthewassilent。
’Irememberwhentheytalkedofmakingthesonabishopalso,’saidLadyJulia。
’What;——thesamemanwhoisnowamajor?’saidJohnny。
’No,yougoose。Heisnotthesonof;heisthegrandson。Theyweregoingtomakethearchdeaconabishop,andIrememberhearingthathewasterriblydisappointed。Heisgettingtobeanoldmannow,I
suppose;andyet,dearme,howwellIrememberhisfather。’
’Hedidn’tlooklikeabishop’sson,’saidJohnny。
’Howdoesabishop’ssonlook,’Lilyasked。
’Isupposeheoughttohavesomesortofclericaltingeabouthim;butthisfellowhadnothingofthatkind。’
’Butthenthisfellow,asyoucallhim,’saidLily,’isonlythesonofanarchdeacon。’
’Thataccountsforit,Isuppose,’saidJohnny。
Butduringallthistime,Gracedidnotsayaword,andLilyperceivedit。Thenshebethoughtherselfastowhatshehadbetterdo。Grace,sheknew,couldnotbecomfortablewhereshewas。Nor,indeed,wasitprobablethatGracewouldbeverycomfortableinreturninghome。TherecouldnotbemucheaseforGracetillthecomingmeetingbetweenherandMajorGrantlyshouldbeover。ButitwouldbebetterthatGraceshouldgobacktoAllingtonatonce;andbetteralso,perhaps,forMajorGrantlythatitshouldbeso。’LadyJulia,’shesaid,’Idon’tthinkwe’llmindstoppingforlunchtoday。’
’Nonsense,mydear;youpromised。’
’Ithinkwemustbreakourpromise;Idoindeed。Youmustn’tbeangrywithus。’AndLilylookedatLadyJulia,asthoughthereweresomethingwhichLadyJuliaoughttounderstand,whichshe,Lily,couldnotquiteexplain。IfearthatLilywasfalse,andintendedheroldfriendtobelievethatshewasrunningawaybecauseJohnEameshadcomethere。
’Butyouwillbefamished,’saidLadyJulia。
’Weshalllivethroughit,’saidLily。
’ItisoutofthequestionthatIshouldletyouwalkallthewayherefromAllingtonandallthewaybackwithouttakingsomething。’
’Weshalljustbehomeintimeforlunchifwegonow,’saidLily。’Willnotthatbethebest,Grace?’
Gracehardlyknewwhatwouldbebest。SheonlyknewthatMajorGrantlywasatAllington,andthathehadcomethithertoseeher。Theideaofhurryingbackafterhimwasunpleasanttoher,andyetshewassoflurriedthatshefeltthankfultoLilyfortakingherawayfromthecottage。Thematterwascompromisedatlast。Theyremainedforhalf—an—hour,andatesomebiscuitsandpretendedtodrinkaglassofwine,andthentheystarted。JohnEames,whointruthbelievedthatLilyDalewasrunningawayfromhim,wasbynomeanswellpleased,andwhenthegirlsweregone,didnotmakehimselfsoagreeabletohisoldfriendasheshouldhavedone。’WhatafoolIamtocomehereatall,’hesaid,throwinghimselfintoanarm—chairassoonasthefrontdoorwasclosed。
’That’sveryciviltome,John!’
’YouknowwhatImean,LadyJulia。Iamafooltocomenearher,untilIcandosowithoutthinkingmoreofherthanIdoofanyothergirlinthecountry。’
’Idon’tthinkyouhaveanythingtocomplainofasyet,’saidLadyJulia,whohadinsomesortperceivedthatLily’sretreathadbeenonGrace’saccount,andnotonherown。’ItseemstomethatLilywasverygladtoseeyou,andwhenItoldherthatyouwerecomingtostayhere,andwouldbenearthemforsomedays,sheseemedtobequitepleased;——shedidindeed。’
’ThenwhydidsherunawaythemomentIcamein?’saidJohnny。
’IthinkitwassomethingyousaidaboutthemanwhohasgonetoAllington。’
’Whatdifferencecanthemanmaketoher?Thetruthis,Idespisemyself;——Idoindeed,LadyJulia。OnlythinkofmymeetingCrosbieatdinnertheotherday,andhishavingtheimpertinencetocomeupandshakehandswithme。’
’Isupposehedidn’tsayanythingaboutwhathappenedatthePaddingtonStation?’
’No;hedidn’tspeakaboutthat。IwishIknewwhethershecaresforhimstill。IfIthoughtshedid,Iwouldneverspeakanotherwordtoher——Imeanaboutmyself。OfcourseIamnotgoingtoquarrelwiththem。
Iamnotsuchafoolasthat。’ThenLadyJuliatriedtocomforthim,andsucceededsofarthathewasinducedtoeatthemincevealthathadbeenintendedforthecomfortandsupportofthetwoyoungladieswhohadrunaway。
’Doyouthinkitishe?’werethefirstwordswhichGracesaidwhentheywerefairlyontheirwaybacktogether。
’Ishouldthinkitmustbe。Whatothermancantherebe,ofthatsort,whowouldbelikelytocometoAllingtontoseeyou?’
’Hiscomingisnotlikely。Icannotunderstandthatheshouldcome。HeletmeleaveSilverbridgewithoutseeingme——andIthoughtthathewasquiteright。’
’AndIthinkheisquiterighttocomehere。Iamverygladhehascome。Itshowsthathehasreallysomethinglikeaheartinsidehim。Hadhenotcome,orsent,orwritten,ortakensomestepbeforethetrialcomeson,tomakeyouknowthathewasthinkingofyou,Ishouldhavesaidthathewasashard——ashardasanyothermanIhadeverheardof。
Menaresohard!ButIdon’tthinkheis,now。Iambeginningtoregardhimastheonechevaliersanspeuretsansreproche,andtofancythatyououghttogodownonyourkneesbeforehim,andkisshishighness’sshoebuckle。Injudgingofmenone’smindvacillatessoquicklybetweenthescornwhichisduetoafalsemanandtheworshipwhichisduetoatrueman。’Thenshewassilentforamoment,butGracesaidnothing,andLilycontinued,’Itellyoufairly,Grace,thatIshallexpectverymuchfromyounow。’
’Muchinwhatway,Lily?’
’Inthewayofworship。Ishallnotbecontentthatyoushouldmerelylovehim。Ifhehascomehere,ashemusthavedone,tosaythatthemomentoftheworld’sreproachisthemomenthehaschosentoaskyoutobehiswife,Ithinkthatyouwillowehimmorethanlove。’