首页 >出版文学> The Light That Failed>第4章
  ’Thesewilldo,’hesaidatlast;’Ican’tsayIthinkmuchofyourtasteinslippers,butthefit’sthething。’Heslippedhisfeetintoapairofsock—likesambhur—skinfootcoverings,foundalongchair,andlayatlength。
  ’They’remyownpetpair,’Torpenhowsaid。’Iwasjustgoingtoputthemonmyself。’
  ’Allyourreprehensibleselfishness。Justbecauseyouseemehappyforaminute,youwanttoworrymeandstirmeup。Findanotherpair。’
  ’GoodforyouthatDickcan’twearyourclothes,Torp。Youtwolivecommunistically,’saidtheNilghai。
  ’DickneverhasanythingthatIcanwear。He’sonlyusefultospongeupon。’
  ’Confoundyou,haveyoubeenrummagingroundamongmyclothes,then?’saidDick。’Iputasovereigninthetobacco—jaryesterday。Howdoyouexpectamantokeephisaccountsproperlyifyou————’
  HeretheNilghaibegantolaugh,andTorpenhowjoinedhim。
  ’Hidasovereignyesterday!You’renosortoffinancier。Youlentmeafiveraboutamonthback。Doyouremember?’Torpenhowsaid。
  ’Yes,ofcourse。’
  ’DoyourememberthatIpaidityoutendayslater,andyouputitatthebottomofthetobacco?’
  ’ByJove,didI?Ithoughtitwasinoneofmycolour—boxes。’
  ’Youthought!AboutaweekagoIwentintoyourstudiotogetsome’baccyandfoundit。’
  ’Whatdidyoudowithit?’
  ’TooktheNilghaitoatheatreandfedhim。’
  ’Youcouldn’tfeedtheNilghaiundertwicethemoney——notthoughyougavehimArmybeef。Well,IsupposeIshouldhavefounditoutsoonerorlater。Whatistheretolaughat?’
  ’You’reamostamazingcuckooinmanydirections,’saidtheNilghai,stillchucklingoverthethoughtofthedinner。’Nevermind。Wehadbothbeenworkingveryhard,anditwasyourunearnedincrementwespent,andasyou’reonlyaloaferitdidn’tmatter。’
  ’That’spleasant——fromthemanwhoisburstingwithmymeat,too。I’llgetthatdinnerbackoneofthesedays。Supposewegotoatheatrenow。’
  ’Putourbootson,——anddress,——andwash?’TheNilghaispokeverylazily。
  ’Iwithdrawthemotion。’
  ’Suppose,justforachange——asastartlingvariety,youknow——we,thatistosaywe,getourcharcoalandourcanvasandgoonwithourwork。’
  Torpenhowspokepointedly,butDickonlywriggledhistoesinsidethesoftleathermoccasins。
  ’Whataone—ideaedcluckerthatis!IfIhadanyunfinishedfiguresonhand,Ihaven’tanymodel;ifIhadmymodel,Ihaven’tanyspray,andI
  neverleavecharcoalunfixedovernight;andifIhadmysprayandtwentyphotographsofbackgrounds,Icouldn’tdoanythingto—night。I
  don’tfeelthatway。’
  ’Binkie—dog,he’salazyhog,isn’the?’saidtheNilghai。
  ’Verygood,Iwilldosomework,’saidDick,risingswiftly。’I’llfetchtheNungapungaBook,andwe’lladdanotherpicturetotheNilghaiSaga。’
  ’Aren’tyouworryinghimalittletoomuch?’askedtheNilghai,whenDickhadlefttheroom。
  ’Perhaps,butIknowwhathecanturnoutifhelikes。ItmakesmesavagetohearhimpraisedforpastworkwhenIknowwhatheoughttodo。YouandIarearrangedfor————’
  ’ByKismetandourownpowers,more’sthepity。Ihavedreamedofagooddeal。’
  ’SohaveI,butweknowourlimitationsnow。I’mdashedifIknowwhatDick’smaybewhenhegiveshimselftohiswork。That’swhatmakesmesokeenabouthim。’
  ’Andwhenall’ssaidanddone,youwillbeputaside——quiterightly——forafemalegirl。’
  ’Iwonder……Wheredoyouthinkhehasbeento—day?’
  ’Tothesea。Didn’tyouseethelookinhiseyeswhenhetalkedabouther?
  He’sasrestlessasaswallowinautumn。’
  ’Yes;butdidhegoalone?’
  ’Idon’tknow,andIdon’tcare,buthehasthebeginningsofthego—feveruponhim。Hewantstoup—stakesandmoveout。There’snomistakingthesigns。Whateverhemayhavesaidbefore,hehasthecalluponhimnow。’
  ’Itmightbehissalvation,’Torpenhowsaid。
  ’Perhaps——ifyoucaretotaketheresponsibilityofbeingasaviour。’
  Dickreturnedwiththebigclaspedsketch—bookthattheNilghaiknewwellanddidnotlovetoomuch。InitDickhaddrawnallmannerofmovingincidents,experiencedbyhimselforrelatedtohimbytheothers,ofallthefourcornersoftheearth。ButthewiderrangeoftheNilghai’sbodyandlifeattractedhimmost。Whentruthfailedhefellbackonfictionofthewildest,andrepresentedincidentsintheNilghai’scareerthatwereunseemly,——hismarriageswithmanyAfricanprincesses,hisshamelessbetrayal,forArabwives,ofanarmycorpstotheMahdi,histattoomentbyskilledoperatorsinBurmah,hisinterview(andhisfears)
  withtheyellowheadsmanintheblood—stainedexecution—groundofCanton,andfinally,thepassingsofhisspiritintothebodiesofwhales,elephants,andtoucans。Torpenhowfromtimetotimehadaddedrhymeddescriptions,andthewholewasacuriouspieceofart,becauseDickdecided,havingregardtothenameofthebookwhichbeinginterpretedmeans’naked,’thatitwouldbewrongtodrawtheNilghaiwithanyclotheson,underanycircumstances。Consequentlythelastsketch,representingthatmuch—enduringmancallingontheWarOfficetopresshisclaimstotheEgyptianmedal,washardlydelicate。HesettledhimselfcomfortablyonTorpenhow’stableandturnedoverthepages。
  ’WhatafortuneyouwouldhavebeentoBlake,Nilghai!’hesaid。’There’sasucculentpinknessaboutsomeofthesesketchesthat’smorethanlife—like。"TheNilghaisurroundedwhilebathingbytheMahdieh"——thatwasfoundedonfact,eh?’
  ’Itwasverynearlymylastbath,youirreverentdauber。HasBinkiecomeintotheSagayet?’
  ’No;theBinkie—boyhasn’tdoneanythingexcepteatandkillcats。Let’ssee。Hereyouareasastained—glasssaintinachurch。Deuceddecorativelinesaboutyouranatomy;yououghttobegratefulforbeinghandeddowntoposterityinthisway。Fiftyyearshenceyou’llexistinrareandcuriousfacsimilesattenguineaseach。WhatshallItrythistime?ThedomesticlifeoftheNilghai?’
  ’Hasn’tgotany。’
  ’TheundomesticlifeoftheNilghai,then。Ofcourse。Mass—meetingofhiswivesinTrafalgarSquare。That’sit。TheycamefromtheendsoftheearthtoattendNilghai’sweddingtoanEnglishbride。Thisshallbeanepic。It’sasweetmaterialtoworkwith。’
  ’It’sascandalouswasteoftime,’saidTorpenhow。
  ’Don’tworry;itkeepsone’shandin——speciallywhenyoubeginwithoutthepencil。’Hesettoworkrapidly。’That’sNelson’sColumn。PresentlytheNilghaiwillappearshinningupit。’
  ’Givehimsomeclothesthistime。’
  ’Certainly——aveilandanorange—wreath,becausehe’sbeenmarried。’
  ’Gad,that’scleverenough!’saidTorpenhowoverhisshoulder,asDickbroughtoutofthepaperwiththreetwirlsofthebrushaveryfatbackandlabouringshoulderpressedagainststone。
  ’Justimagine,’Dickcontinued,’ifwecouldpublishafewofthesedearlittlethingseverytimetheNilghaisubsidisesamanwhocanwrite,togivethepublicanhonestopinionofmypictures。’
  ’Well,you’lladmitIalwaystellyouwhenIhavedoneanythingofthatkind。IknowIcan’thammeryouasyououghttobehammered,soIgivethejobtoanother。YoungMaclagan,forinstance————’
  ’No—o——onehalf—minute,oldman;stickyourhandoutagainstthedarkofthewall—paper——youonlyburbleandcallmenames。Thatleftshoulder’soutofdrawing。Imustliterallythrowaveiloverthat。Where’smypen—knife?Well,whataboutMaclagan?’
  ’Ionlygavehimhisriding—ordersto——tolambastyouongeneralprinciplesfornotproducingworkthatwilllast。’
  ’Whereuponthatyoungfool,’——Dickthrewbackhisheadandshutoneeyeasheshiftedthepageunderhishand,——’beingleftalonewithanink—potandwhatheconceivedwerehisownnotions,wentandspiltthembothovermeinthepapers。Youmighthaveengagedagrownmanforthebusiness,Nilghai。Howdoyouthinkthebridalveillooksnow,Torp?’
  ’Howthedeucedothreedabsandtwoscratchesmakethestuffstandawayfromthebodyasitdoes?’saidTorpenhow,towhomDick’smethodswerealwaysnew。
  ’Itjustdependsonwhereyouput’em。IfMaclaganhadknowthatmuchabouthisbusinesshemighthavedonebetter。’
  ’Whydon’tyouputthedamneddabsintosomethingthatwillstay,then?’
  insistedtheNilghai,whohadreallytakenconsiderabletroubleinhiringforDick’sbenefitthepenofayounggentlemanwhodevotedmostofhiswakinghourstoananxiousconsiderationoftheaimsandendsofArt,which,hewrote,wasoneandindivisible。
  ’WaitaminutetillIseehowIamgoingtomanagemyprocessionofwives。Youseemtohavemarriedextensively,andImustrough’eminwiththepencil——Medes,Parthians,Edomites……Now,settingasidetheweaknessandthewickednessand——andthefat—headednessofdeliberatelytryingtodoworkthatwilllive,astheycallit,I’mcontentwiththeknowledgethatI’vedonemybestuptodate,andIshan’tdoanythinglikeitagainforsomehoursatleast——probablyyears。Mostprobablynever。’
  ’What!anystuffyouhaveinstockyourbestwork?’saidTorpenhow。
  ’Anythingyou’vesold?’saidtheNilghai。
  ’Ohno。Itisn’thereanditisn’tsold。Betterthanthat,itcan’tbesold,andIdon’tthinkanyoneknowswhereitis。I’msureIdon’t……Andyetmoreandmorewives,onthenorthsideofthesquare。Observethevirtuoushorrorofthelions!’
  ’Youmayaswellexplain,’saidTorpenhow,andDickliftedhisheadfromthepaper。
  ’Thesearemindedmeofit,’hesaidslowly。’Iwishithadn’t。Itweighssomefewthousandtons——unlessyoucutitoutwithacoldchisel。’
  ’Don’tbeanidiot。Youcan’tposewithushere,’saidtheNilghai。
  ’There’snoposeinthematteratall。It’safact。IwasloafingfromLimatoAucklandinabig,old,condemnedpassenger—shipturnedintoacargo—boatandownedbyasecond—hadItalianfirm。Shewasacrazybasket。Wewerecutdowntofifteentonofcoaladay,andwethoughtourselvesluckywhenwekickedsevenknotsanhouroutofher。Thenweusedtostopandletthebearingscooldown,andwonderwhetherthecrackintheshaftwasspreading。’
  ’Wereyouastewardorastokerinthosedays?’
  ’Iwasflushforthetimebeing,soIwasapassenger,orelseIshouldhavebeenasteward,Ithink,’saidDick,withperfectgravity,returningtotheprocessionofangrywives。’IwastheonlyotherpassengerfromLima,andtheshipwashalfempty,andfullofratsandcockroachesandscorpions。’
  ’Butwhathasthistodowiththepicture?’
  ’Waitaminute。ShehadbeenintheChinapassengertradeandherlowerdeckshadbunksfortwothousandpigtails。Thosewerealltakendown,andshewasemptyuptohernose,andthelightscamethroughtheportholes——mostannoyinglightstoworkintillyougotusedtothem。Ihadn’tanythingtodoforweeks。Theship’schartswereinpiecesandourskipperdaren’trunsouthforfearofcatchingastorm。SohedidhisbesttoknockalltheSocietyIslandsoutofthewateronebyone,andIwentintothelowerdeck,anddidmypictureontheportsideasfarforwardinherasIcouldgo。Therewassomebrownpaintandsomegreenpaintthattheyusedfortheboats,andsomeblackpaintforironwork,andthatwasallIhad。’
  ’Thepassengersmusthavethoughtyoumad。’
  ’Therewasonlyone,anditwasawoman;butitgavemethenotionofmypicture。’
  ’Whatwasshelike?’saidTorpenhow。
  ’ShewasasortofNegroid—Jewess—Cuban;withmoralstomatch。Shecouldn’treadorwrite,andshedidn’twantto,butsheusedtocomedownandwatchmepaint,andtheskipperdidn’tlikeit,becausehewaspayingherpassageandhadtobeonthebridgeoccasionally。’
  ’Isee。Thatmusthavebeencheerful。’
  ’ItwasthebesttimeIeverhad。Tobeginwith,wedidn’tknowwhetherweshouldgouporgodownanyminutewhentherewasaseaon;andwhenitwascalmitwasparadise;andthewomanusedtomixthepaintsandtalkbrokenEnglish,andtheskipperusedtostealdowneveryfewminutestothelowerdeck,becausehesaidhewasafraidoffire。So,yousee,wecouldnevertellwhenwemightbecaught,andIhadasplendidnotiontoworkoutinonlythreekeysofcolour。’
  ’Whatwasthenotion?’
  ’TwolinesinPoe——
  NeithertheanglesinHeavenabovenorthedemonsdownunderthesea,CaneverdissevermysoulfromthesoulofthebeautifulAnnabelLee。
  Itcameoutofthesea——allbyitself。Idrewthatfight,foughtoutingreenwateroverthenaked,chokingsoul,andthewomanservedasthemodelforthedevilsandtheangelsboth——sea—devilsandsea—angels,andthesoulhalfdrownedbetweenthem。Itdoesn’tsoundmuch,butwhentherewasagoodlightonthelowerdeckitlookedveryfineandcreepy。Itwassevenbyfourteenfeet,alldoneinshiftinglightforshiftinglight。’
  ’Didthewomaninspireyoumuch?’saidTorpenhow。
  ’Sheandtheseabetweenthem——immensely。Therewasaheapofbaddrawinginthatpicture。IrememberIwentoutofmywaytoforeshortenforsheerdelightofdoingit,andIforeshorteneddamnably,butforallthatit’sthebestthingI’veeverdone;andnowIsupposetheship’sbrokenuporgonedown。Whew!Whatatimethatwas!’
  ’Whathappenedafterall?’
  ’Itallended。TheywereloadingherwithwoolwhenIlefttheship,buteventhestevedoreskeptthepicturecleartothelast。Theeyesofthedemonsscaredthem,Ihonestlybelieve。’
  ’Andthewoman?’
  ’Shewasscaredtoowhenitwasfinished。Sheusedtocrossherselfbeforeshewentdowntolookatit。Justthreecoloursandnochanceofgettinganymore,andtheseaoutsideandunlimitedlove—makinginside,andthefearofdeathatopofeverythingelse,OLord!’Hehadceasedtolookatthesketch,butwasstaringstraightinfrontofhimacrosstheroom。
  ’Whydon’tyoutrysomethingofthesamekindnow?’saidtheNilghai。
  ’Becausethosethingscomenotbyfastingandprayer。WhenIfindacargo—boatandaJewess—Cubanandanothernotionandthesameoldlife,Imay。’
  ’Youwon’tfindthemhere,’saidtheNilghai。
  ’No,Ishallnot。’Dickshutthesketch—bookwithabang。’Thisroom’sashotasanoven。Openthewindow,someone。’
  Heleanedintothedarkness,watchingthegreaterdarknessofLondonbelowhim。Thechambersstoodmuchhigherthantheotherhouses,commandingahundredchimneys——crookedcowlsthatlookedlikesittingcatsastheyswunground,andotheruncouthbrickandzincmysteriessupportedbyironstanchionsandclampedby8—pieces。NorthwardthelightsofPiccadillyCircusandLeicesterSquarethrewacopper—colouredglareabovetheblackroofs,andsouthwardbyalltheorderlylightsoftheThames。Atrainrolledoutacrossoneoftherailwaybridges,anditsthunderdrownedforaminutethedullroarofthestreets。TheNilghailookedathiswatchandsaidshortly,’That’stheParisnight—mail。YoucanbookfromheretoSt。Petersburgifyouchoose。’
  Dickcrammedheadandshouldersoutofthewindowandlookedacrosstheriver。Torpenhowcametohisside,whiletheNilghaipassedoverquietlytothepianoandopenedit。Binkie,makinghimselfaslargeaspossible,spreadoutuponthesofawiththeairofonewhoisnottobelightlydisturbed。
  ’Well,’saidtheNilghaitothetwopairsofshoulders,’haveyouneverseenthisplacebefore?’
  Asteam—tugontheriverhootedasshetowedherbargestowharf。Thentheboomofthetrafficcameintotheroom。TorpenhownudgedDick。
  ’Goodplacetobankin——badplacetobunkin,Dickie,isn’tit?’
  Dick’schinwasinhishandasheanswered,inthewordsofageneralnotwithoutfame,stilllookingoutonthedarkness——’"MyGod,whatacitytoloot!"’
  Binkiefoundthenightairticklinghiswhiskersandsneezedplaintively。
  ’WeshallgivetheBinkie—dogacold,’saidTorpenhow。’Comein,’andtheywithdrewtheirheads。’You’llbeburiedinKensalGreen,Dick,oneofthesedays,ifitisn’tclosedbythetimeyouwanttogothere——buriedwithintwofeetofsomeoneelse,hiswifeandhisfamily。’
  ’Allahforbid!Ishallgetawaybeforethattimecomes。Giveamanroomtostretchhislegs,Mr。Binkie。’DickflunghimselfdownonthesofaandtweakedBinkie’svelvetears,yawningheavilythewhile。
  ’You’llfindthatwardrobe—caseverymuchoutoftune,’TorpenhowsaidtotheNilghai。’It’snevertouchedexceptbyyou。’
  ’Apieceofgrossextravagance,’Dickgrunted。’TheNilghaionlycomeswhenI’mout。’
  ’That’sbecauseyou’realwaysout。Howl,Nilghai,andlethimhear。’?
  ’ThelifeoftheNilghaiisfraudandslaughter,HiswritingsarewateredDickensandwater;
  ButthevoiceoftheNilghairaisedonhighMakeseventheMahdiehgladtodie!’?
  DickquotedfromTorpenhow’sletterpressintheNungapungaBook。
  ’HowdotheycallmooseinCanada,Nilghai?’
  Themanlaughed。Singingwashisonepoliteaccomplishment,asmanyPress—tentsinfar—offlandshadknown。
  ’WhatshallIsing?’saidhe,turninginthechair。
  ’"MollRoeintheMorning,"’saidTorpenhow,ataventure。
  ’No,’saidDick,sharply,andtheNilghaiopenedhiseyes。Theoldchantywhereofhe,amongaveryfew,possessedallthewordswasnotaprettyone,butDickhadhearditmanytimesbeforewithoutwincing。Withoutpreludehelaunchedintothatstatelytunethatcallstogetherandtroublestheheartsofthegipsiesofthesea——
  ’Farewellandadieutoyou,Spanishladies,Farewellandadieutoyou,ladiesofSpain。’?
  Dickturneduneasilyonthesofa,forhecouldhearthebowsoftheBarralongcrashingintothegreenseasonherwaytotheSouthernCross。
  Thencamethechorus——
  ’We’llrantandwe’llroarliketrueBritishsailors,We’llrantandwe’llroaracrossthesaltseas,UntilwetakesoundingsintheChannelofOldEnglandFromUshanttoScilly’tisforty—fiveleagues。’?
  ’Thirty—five—thirty—five,’saidDick,petulantly。’Don’ttamperwithHolyWrit。Goon,Nilghai。’?
  ’ThefirstlandwemadeitwascalledtheDeadman,’?
  andtheysangtotheendveryvigourously。
  ’Thatwouldbeabettersongifherheadwereturnedtheotherway——totheUshantlight,forinstance,’saidtheNilghai。
  ’Flinginghisarmsaboutlikeamadwindmill,’saidTorpenhow。’Giveussomethingelse,Nilghai。You’reinfinefog—hornformtonight。’
  ’Giveusthe"GangesPilot";yousangthatinthesquarethenightbeforeEl—Maghrib。Bytheway,Iwonderhowmanyofthechorusarealiveto—night,’saidDick。
  Torpenhowconsideredforaminute。’ByJove!IbelieveonlyyouandI。
  Raynor,Vicery,andDeenes——alldead;VincentcaughtsmallpoxinCairo,carriedithereanddiedofit。Yes,onlyyouandIandtheNilghai。’
  ’Umph!Andyetthemenherewho’vedonetheirworkinawell—warmedstudioalltheirlives,withapolicemanateachcorner,saythatIchargetoomuchformypictures。’
  ’Theyarebuyingyourwork,notyourinsurancepolicies,dearchild,’
  saidtheNilghai。
  ’Igambledwithonetogetattheother。Don’tpreach。Goonwiththe"Pilot。"Whereintheworlddidyougetthatsong?’
  ’Onatombstone,’saidtheNilghai。’Onatombstoneinadistantland。I
  madeitanaccompanimentwithheapsofbasechords。’
  ’Oh,Vanity!Begin。’AndtheNilghaibegan——
  ’Ihaveslippedmycable,messmates,I’mdriftingdownwiththetide,Ihavemysailingorders,whileyetananchorride。
  AndneveronfairJunemorninghaveIputouttoseaWithclearerconscienceorbetterhope,oraheartmorelightandfree。
  ’Shouldertoshoulder,Joe,myboy,intothecrowdlikeawedgeStrikewiththehangers,messmates,butdonotcutwiththeedge。
  CriesCharnock,"Scatterthefaggots,doublethatBrahminintwo,Thetallpalewidowforme,Joe,thelittlebrowngirlforyou!"
  ’YoungJoe(you’renearingsixty),whyisyourhidesodark?
  Katiehassoftfairblueeyes,whoblackenedyours?——Why,hark!’?
  Theywereallsingingnow,Dickwiththeroarofthewindoftheopenseaabouthisearsasthedeepbassvoiceletitselfgo。
  ’Themorninggun——Ho,steady!thearquebusestome!?
  Iha’soundedtheDutchHighAdmiral’sheartasmyleaddothsoundthesea。
  ’Sounding,soundingtheGanges,floatingdownwiththetide,MooremeclosetoCharnock,nexttomynut—brownbride。
  MyblessingtoKateatFairlight——Holwell,mythankstoyou;
  Steady!Westeerforheaven,throughsand—driftscoldandblue。’?
  ’Nowwhatisthereinthatnonsensetomakeamanrestless?’saidDick,haulingBinkiefromhisfeettohischest。
  ’Itdependsontheman,’saidTorpenhow。
  ’Themanwhohasbeendowntolookatthesea,’saidtheNilghai。
  ’Ididn’tknowshewasgoingtoupsetmeinthisfashion。’
  ’That’swhatmensaywhentheygotosaygood—byetoawoman。It’smoreeasythoughtogetridofthreewomenthanapieceofone’slifeandsurroundings。’
  ’Butawomancanbe————’beganDick,unguardedly。
  ’Apieceofone’slife,’continuedTorpenhow。’No,shecan’t。Hisfacedarkenedforamoment。’Shesaysshewantstosympathisewithyouandhelpyouinyourwork,andeverythingelsethatclearlyamanmustdoforhimself。Thenshesendsroundfivenotesadaytoaskwhythedickensyouhaven’tbeenwastingyourtimewithher。’
  ’Don’tgeneralise,’saidtheNilghai。’Bythetimeyouarriveatfivenotesadayyoumusthavegonethroughagooddealandbehavedaccordingly。
  Shouldn’tbeginthesethings,myson。’
  ’Ishouldn’thavegonedowntothesea,’saidDick,justalittleanxioustochangetheconversation。’Andyoushouldn’thavesung。’
  ’Theseaisn’tsendingyoufivenotesaday,’saidtheNilghai。
  ’No,butI’mfatallycompromised。She’sanenduringoldhag,andI’msorryIevermether。Whywasn’tIbornandbredanddeadinathree—pairback?’
  ’Hearhimblaspheminghisfirstlove!Whyintheworldshouldn’tyoulistentoher?’saidTorpenhow。
  BeforeDickcouldreplytheNilghailifteduphisvoicewithashoutthatshookthewindows,in’TheMenoftheSea,’thatbegins,asallknow,’Theseaisawickedoldwoman,’andafterradingthrougheightlineswhoseimageryistruthful,endsinarefrain,slowastheclackingofacapstanwhentheboatcomesunwillinglyuptothebarswherethemensweatandtrampintheshingle。
  ’"Yethatboreus,Orestoreus!?
  Sheiskinderthanye;
  Forthecallisonourheart—strings!"
  SaidTheMenoftheSea。’?
  TheNilghaisangthatversetwice,withsimplecunning,intendingthatDickshouldhear。ButDickwaswaitingforthefarewellofthementotheirwives。
  ’"Yethatloveus,canyemoveus?
  Sheisdearerthanye;
  Andyoursleepwillbethesweeter,"
  SaidTheMenoftheSea。’?
  TheroughwordsbeatliketheblowsofthewavesonthebowsofthericketyboatfromLimainthedayswhenDickwasmixingpaints,makinglove,drawingdevilsandangelsinthehalfdark,andwonderingwhetherthenextminutewouldputtheItaliancaptain’sknifebetweenhisshoulder—blades。Andthego—feverwhichismorerealthanmanydoctors’
  diseases,wakedandraged,urginghimwholovedMaisiebeyondanythingintheworld,togoawayandtastetheoldhot,unregeneratelifeagain,——toscuffle,swear,gamble,andlovelightloveswithhisfellows;totakeshipandknowtheseaoncemore,andbyherbegetpictures;totalktoBinatamongthesandsofPortSaidwhileYellow’Tinamixedthedrinks;tohearthecrackleofmusketry,andseethesmokerolloutward,thinandthickenagaintilltheshiningblackfacescamethrough,andinthathelleverymanwasstrictlyresponsibleforhisownhead,andhisownalone,andstruckwithanunfetteredarm。Itwasimpossible,utterlyimpossible,but——
  ’"Oh,ourfathersinthechurchyard,Sheisolderthanye,Andourgraveswillbethegreener,"
  SaidTheMenoftheSea。’?
  ’Whatistheretohinder?’saidTorpenhow,inthelonghushthatfollowedthesong。
  ’Yousaidalittletimesincethatyouwouldn’tcomeforawalkroundtheworld,Torp。’
  ’Thatwasmonthsago,andIonlyobjectedtoyourmakingmoneyfortravellingexpenses。You’veshotyourbolthereandithasgonehome。Goawayanddosomework,andseesomethings。’
  ’Getsomeofthefatoffyou;you’redisgracefullyoutofcondition,’saidtheNilghai,makingaplungefromthechairandgraspingahandfulofDickgenerallyovertherightribs。’Softasputty——puretallowbornofover—feeding。Trainitoff,Dickie。’
  ’We’reallequallygross,Nilghai。Nexttimeyouhavetotakethefieldyou’llsitdown,winkyoureyes,gasp,anddieinafit。’
  ’Nevermind。Yougoawayonaship。GotoLimaagain,ortoBrazil。
  There’salwaystroubleinSouthAmerica。’
  ’DoyousupposeIwanttobetoldwheretogo?GreatHeavens,theonlydifficultyistoknowwhereI’mtostop。ButIshallstayhere,asItoldyoubefore。’
  ’Thenyou’llbeburiedinKensalGreenandturnintoadipocerewiththeothers,’saidTorpenhow。’Areyouthinkingofcommissionsinhand?Payforfeitandgo。You’vemoneyenoughtotravelasakingifyouplease。’
  ’You’vethegrisliestnotionsofamusement,Torp。IthinkIseemyselfshippingfirstclassonasix—thousand—tonhotel,andaskingthethirdengineerwhatmakestheenginesgoround,andwhetheritisn’tverywarminthestokehold。Ho!ho!IshouldshipasaloaferifeverIshippedatall,whichI’mnotgoingtodo。Ishallcompromise,andgoforasmalltriptobeginwith。’
  ’That’ssomethingatanyrate。Wherewillyougo?’saidTorpenhow。’Itwoulddoyouallthegoodintheworld,oldman。’
  TheNilghaisawthetwinkleinDick’seye,andrefrainedfromspeech。
  ’IshallgointhefirstplacetoRathray’sstable,whereIshallhireonehorse,andtakehimverycarefullyasfarasRichmondHill。ThenIshallwalkhimbackagain,incaseheshouldaccidentallyburstintoalatherandmakeRathrayangry。Ishalldothatto—morrow,forthesakeofairandexercise。’
  ’Bah!’DickhadbarelytimetothrowuphisarmandwardoffthecushionthatthedisgustedTorpenhowheavedathishead。
  ’Airandexerciseindeed,’saidtheNilghai,sittingdownheavilyonDick。
  ’Let’sgivehimalittleofboth。Getthebellows,Torp。’
  Atthispointtheconferencebrokeupindisorder,becauseDickwouldnotopenhismouthtilltheNilghaiheldhisnosefast,andtherewassometroubleinforcingthenozzleofthebellowsbetweenhisteeth;andevenwhenitwasthereheweaklytriedtopuffagainsttheforceoftheblast,andhischeeksblewupwithagreatexplosion;andtheenemybecominghelplesswithlaughterhesobeatthemovertheheadwithasoftsofacushionthatthatbecameunsewnanddistributeditsfeathers,andBinkie,interferinginTorpenhow’sinterests,wasbundledintothehalf—emptybagandadvisedtoscratchhiswayout,whichhedidafterawhile,travellingrapidlyupanddownthefloorintheshapeofanagitatedgreenhaggis,andwhenhecameoutlookingforsatisfaction,thethreepillarsofhisworldwerepickingfeathersoutoftheirhair。
  ’Aprophethasnohonourinhisowncountry,’saidDick,ruefully,dustinghisknees。’Thisfilthyfluffwillneverbrushoffmylegs。’
  ’Itwasallforyourowngood,’saidtheNilghai。’Nothinglikeairandexercise。’
  ’Allforyourgood,’saidTorpenhow,notintheleastwithreferencetopastclowning。’Itwouldletyoufocusthingsattheirproperworthandpreventyourbecomingslackinthishothouseofatown。Indeeditwould,oldman。Ishouldn’thavespokenifIhadn’tthoughtso。Only,youmakeajokeofeverything。’
  ’BeforeGodIdonosuchthing,’saidDick,quicklyandearnestly。’Youdon’tknowmeifyouthinkthat。’
  Idon’tthinkit,’saidtheNilghai。
  ’Howcanfellowslikeourselves,whoknowwhatlifeanddeathreallymean,daretomakeajokeofanything?Iknowwepretendit,tosaveourselvesfrombreakingdownorgoingtotheotherextreme。Can’tIsee,oldman,howyou’realwaysanxiousaboutme,andtrytoadvisemetomakemyworkbetter?DoyousupposeIdon’tthinkaboutthatmyself?
  Butyoucan’thelpme——youcan’thelpme——notevenyou。Imustplaymyownhandaloneinmyownway。’
  ’Hear,hear,’fromtheNilghai。
  ’What’stheonethingintheNilghaiSagathatI’veneverdrawnintheNungapungaBook?’DickcontinuedtoTorpenhow,whowasalittleastonishedattheoutburst。
  NowtherewasoneblankpageinthebookgivenovertothesketchthatDickhadnotdrawnofthecrowningexploitintheNilghai’slife;whenthatman,beingyoungandforgettingthathisbodyandbonesbelongedtothepaperthatemployedhim,hadriddenoversunburnedslipperygrassintherearofBredow’sbrigadeonthedaythatthetroopersflungthemselvesatCaurobert’sartillery,andforaughttheyknewtwentybattalionsinfront,tosavethebattered24thGermanInfantry,togivetimetodecidethefateofVionville,andtolearneretheirremnantcamebacktoFlavigaythatcavalrycanattackandcrumpleandbreakunshakeninfantry。Wheneverhewasinclinedtothinkoveralifethatmighthavebeenbetter,anincomethatmighthavebeenlarger,andasoulthatmighthavebeenconsiderablycleaner,theNilghaiwouldcomforthimselfwiththethought,’IrodewithBredow’sbrigadeatVionville,’andtakeheartforanylesserbattlethenextdaymightbring。
  ’Iknow,’hesaidverygravely。’Iwasalwaysgladthatyouleftitout。’
  ’IleftitoutbecauseNilghaitaughtmewhattheGermanyarmylearnedthen,andwhatSchmidttaughttheircavalry。Idon’tknowGerman。
  Whatisit?"Takecareofthetimeandthedressingwilltakecareofitself。"Imustridemyownlinetomyownbeat,oldman。’
  ’Tempeistrichtung。You’velearnedyourlessonwell,’saidtheNilghai。
  ’Hemustgoalone。Hespeakstruth,Torp。’
  ’MaybeI’maswrongasIcanbe——hideouslywrong。Imustfindthatoutformyself,asIhavetothinkthingsoutformyself,butIdaren’tturnmyheadtodressbythenextman。Ithurtsmeagreatdealmorethanyouknownottobeabletogo,butIcannot,that’sall。Imustdomyownworkandlivemyownlifeinmyownway,becauseI’mresponsibleforboth。
  Onlydon’tthinkIfrivolaboutit,Torp。Ihavemyownmatchesandsulphur,andI’llmakemyownhell,thanks。’
  Therewasanuncomfortablepause。ThenTorpenhowsaidblandly,’WhatdidtheGovernorofNorthCarolinasaytotheGovernorofSouthCarolina?’
  ’Excellentnotion。Itisalongtimebetweendrinks。Therearethemakingsofaveryfinepriginyou,Dick,’saidtheNilghai。
  ’I’veliberatedmymind,estimableBinkie,withthefeathersinhismouth。’Dickpickedupthestillindignantoneandshookhimtenderly。
  ’You’retiedupinasackandmadetorunaboutblind,Binkie—wee,withoutanyreason,andithashurtyourlittlefeelings。Nevermind。Sicvolo,sicjubeo,stetprorationevoluntas,anddon’tsneezeinmyeyebecauseItalkLatin。Good—night。’
  Hewentoutoftheroom。
  ’That’sdistinctlyoneforyou,’saidtheNilghai。’Itoldyouitwashopelesstomeddlewithhim。He’snotpleased。’
  ’He’dswearatmeifheweren’t。Ican’tmakeitout。Hehasthego—feveruponhimandhewon’tgo。Ionlyhopethathemayn’thavetogosomedaywhenhedoesn’twantto,’saidTorpenhow。
  ******
  InhisownroomDickwassettlingaquestionwithhimself——andthequestionwaswhetheralltheworld,andallthatwastherein,andaburningdesiretoexploitboth,wasworthonethreepennypiecethrownintotheThames。
  ’Itcameofseeingthesea,andI’macurtothinkaboutit,’hedecided。
  ’Afterall,thehoneymoonwillbethattour——withreservations;only……
  onlyIdidn’trealisethattheseawassostrong。Ididn’tfeelitsomuchwhenIwaswithMaisie。Thesedamnablesongsdidit。He’sbeginningagain。’
  ButitwasonlyHerrick’sNightpiecetoJuliathattheNilghaisang,andbeforeitwasendedDickreappearedonthethreshold,notaltogetherclothedindeed,butinhisrightmind,thirstyandatpeace。
  ThemoodhadcomeandgonewiththerisingandthefallingofthetidebyFortKeeling。
  CHAPTERIX
  ’IfIhavetakenthecommonclayAndwroughtitcunninglyIntheshapeofagodthatwasdiggedaclod,Thegreaterhonourtome。’?
  ’Ifthouhasttakenthecommonclay,AndthyhandsbenotfreeFromthetaintofthesoil,thouhastmadethyspoilThegreatershametothee。’——TheTwoPotters。?
  HEDIDnoworkofanykindfortherestoftheweek。ThencameanotherSunday。Hedreadedandlongedforthedayalways,butsincethered—hairedgirlhadsketchedhimtherewasrathermoredreadthandesireinhismind。
  HefoundthatMaisiehadentirelyneglectedhissuggestionsaboutline—work。Shehadgoneoffatscorefiledwithsomeabsurdnotionfora’fancyhead。’ItcostDicksomethingtocommandhistemper。
  ’What’sthegoodofsuggestinganything?’hesaidpointedly。
  ’Ah,butthiswillbeapicture,——arealpicture;andIknowthatKamiwillletmesendittotheSalon。Youdon’tmind,doyou?’
  ’Isupposenot。Butyouwon’thavetimefortheSalon。’
  Maisiehesitatedalittle。Sheevenfeltuncomfortable。
  ’We’regoingovertoFranceamonthsoonerbecauseofit。IshallgettheideasketchedouthereandworkitupatKami’s。
  Dick’sheartstoodstill,andhecameveryneartobeingdisgustedwithhisqueenwhocoulddonowrong。’JustwhenIthoughtIhadmadesomeheadway,shegoesoffchasingbutterflies。It’stoomaddening!’
  Therewasnopossibilityofarguing,forthered—hairedgirlwasinthestudio。Dickcouldonlylookunutterablereproach。
  ’I’msorry,’hesaid,’andIthinkyoumakeamistake。Butwhat’stheideaofyournewpicture?’
  ’Itookitfromabook。’
  ’That’sbad,tobeginwith。Booksaren’ttheplacesforpictures。And————’
  ’It’sthis,’saidthered—hairedgirlbehindhim。’IwasreadingittoMaisietheotherdayfromTheCityofDreadfulNight。D’youknowthebook?’
  ’Alittle。IamsorryIspoke。Therearepicturesinit。Whathastakenherfancy?’
  ’ThedescriptionoftheMelancolia——
  ’Herfoldedwingsasofamightyeagle,ButalltooimpotenttolifttheregalRobustnessofherearth—bornstrengthandpride。
  Andhereagain。(Maisie,getthetea,dear。)
  ’Theforeheadchargedwithbalefulthoughtsanddreams,Thehouseholdbunchofkeys,thehousewife’sgown,Voluminousindented,andyetrigidAsthoughashellofburnishedmetalfrigid,Herfeetthick—shodtotreadallweaknessdown。’?
  Therewasnoattempttoconcealthescornofthelazyvoice。Dickwinced。
  ’ButthathasbeendonealreadybyanobscureartistbythenameofDurer,’saidhe。’Howdoesthepoemrun?——
  ’Threecenturiesandthreescoreyearsago,Withphantasiesofhispeculiarthought。
  YoumightaswelltrytorewriteHamlet。Itwillbeawasteoftime。
  ’No,itwon’t,’saidMaisie,puttingdowntheteacupswithaclattertoreassureherself。’AndImeantodoit。Can’tyouseewhatabeautifulthingitwouldmake?’
  ’Howinperditioncanonedoworkwhenonehasn’thadthepropertraining?Anyfoolcangetanotion。Itneedstrainingtodrivethethingthrough,——trainingandconviction;notrushingafterthefirstfancy。’Dickspokebetweenhisteeth。
  ’Youdon’tunderstand,’saidMaisie。’IthinkIcandoit。’
  Againthevoiceofthegirlbehindhim——
  ’Baffledandbeatenback,sheworksonstill;
  Wearyandsickofsoul,sheworksthemore。
  Sustainedbyherindomitablewill,Thehandsshallfashion,andthebrainshallpore,Andallhersorrowshallbeturnedtolabour————
  IfancyMaisiemeanstoembodyherselfinthepicture。’
  ’Sittingonathroneofrejectedpictures?No,Ishan’t,dear。Thenotioninitselfhasfascinatedme。——Ofcourseyoudon’tcareforfancyheads,Dick。
  Idon’tthinkyoucoulddothem。Youlikebloodandbones。’
  ’That’sadirectchallenge。IfyoucandoaMelancoliathatisn’tmerelyasorrowfulfemalehead,Icandoabetterone;andIwill,too。Whatd’youknowaboutMelacolias?’Dickfirmlybelievedthathewaseventhentastingthree—quartersofallthesorrowintheworld。
  ’Shewasawoman,’saidMaisie,’andshesufferedagreatdeal,——tillshecouldsuffernomore。Thenshebegantolaughatitall,andthenIpaintedherandsenthertotheSalon。’
  Thered—hairedgirlroseupandlefttheroom,laughing。
  DicklookedatMaisiehumblyandhopelessly。
  ’Nevermindaboutthepicture,’hesaid。’AreyoureallygoingbacktoKami’sforamonthbeforeyourtime?’
  ’Imust,ifIwanttogetthepicturedone。’
  ’Andthat’sallyouwant?’
  ’Ofcourse。Don’tbestupid,Dick。’
  ’Youhaven’tthepower。Youhaveonlytheideas——theideasandthelittlecheapimpulses。Howyoucouldhavekeptatyourworkfortenyearssteadilyisamysterytome。Soyouarereallygoing,——amonthbeforeyouneed?’
  ’Imustdomywork。’
  ’Yourwork——bah!……No,Ididn’tmeanthat。It’sallright,dear。Ofcourseyoumustdoyourwork,and——IthinkI’llsaygood—byeforthisweek。’
  ’Won’tyouevenstayfortea?
  ’No,thankyou。HaveIyourleavetogo,dear?There’snothingmoreyouparticularlywantmetodo,andtheline—workdoesn’tmatter。’
  ’Iwishyoucouldstay,andthenwecouldtalkovermypicture。Ifonlyonesinglepicture’sasuccess,itdrawsattentiontoalltheothers。Iknowsomeofmyworkisgood,ifonlypeoplecouldsee。Andyouneedn’thavebeensorudeaboutit。’
  ’I’msorry。We’lltalktheMelancoliaoversomeoneoftheotherSundays。
  Therearefourmore——yes,one,two,three,four——beforeyougo。Good—bye,Maisie。’
  Maisiestoodbythestudiowindow,thinking,tillthered—hairedgirlreturned,alittlewhiteatthecornersofherlips。
  ’Dick’sgoneoff,’saidMaisie。’JustwhenIwantedtotalkaboutthepicture。Isn’titselfishofhim?’
  Hercompanionopenedherlipsasiftospeak,shutthemagain,andwentonreadingTheCityofDreadfulNight。
  DickwasinthePark,walkingroundandroundatreethathehadchosenashisconfidanteformanySundayspast。Hewasswearingaudibly,andwhenhefoundthattheinfirmitiesoftheEnglishtonguehemmedinhisrage,hesoughtconsolationinArabic,whichisexpresslydesignedfortheuseoftheafflicted。Hewasnotpleasedwiththerewardofhispatientservice;norwashepleasedwithhimself;anditwaslongbeforehearrivedatthepropositionthatthequeencoulddonowrong。
  ’It’salosinggame,’hesaid。’I’mworthnothingwhenawhimofhersisinquestion。ButinalosinggameatPortSaidweusedtodoublethestakesandgoon。ShedoaMelancolia!Shehasn’tthepower,ortheinsight,orthetraining。Onlythedesire。She’scursedwiththecurseofReuben。Shewon’tdoline—work,becauseitmeansrealwork;andyetshe’sstrongerthanIam。I’llmakeherunderstandthatIcanbeatheronherownMelancolia。Eventhenshewouldn’tcare。ShesaysIcanonlydobloodandbones。Idon’tbelieveshehasbloodinherveins。AllthesameIloverher;andImustgoonlovingher;andifIcanhumbleherinordinatevanityIwill。I’lldoaMelancoliathatshallbesomethinglikeaMelancolia——"theMelancoliathattranscendsallwit。"I’lldoitatonce,con——blessher。’
  Hediscoveredthatthenotionwouldnotcometoorder,andthathecouldnotfreehismindforanhourfromthethoughtofMaisie’sdeparture。HetookverysmallinterestinherroughstudiesfortheMelancoliawhensheshowedthemnextweek。TheSundayswereracingpast,andthetimewasathandwhenallthechurchbellsinLondoncouldnotringMaisiebacktohim。OnceortwicehesaidsomethingtoBinkieabout’hermaphroditicfutilities,’butthelittledogreceivedsomanyconfidencesbothfromTorpenhowandDickthathedidnottroublehistulip—earstolisten。
  Dickwaspermittedtoseethegirlsoff。TheyweregoingbytheDovernight—boat;andtheyhopedtoreturninAugust。ItwasthenFebruary,andDickfeltthathewasbeinghardlyused。MaisiewassobusystrippingthesmallhouseacrossthePark,andpackinghercanvases,thatshehadnottimeforthought。DickwentdowntoDoverandwastedadaytherefrettingoverawonderfulpossibility。WouldMaisieattheverylastallowhimonesmallkiss?Hereflectedthathemightcaptureherbythestrongarm,ashehadseemwomencapturedintheSouthernSoudan,andleadheraway;butMaisiewouldneverbeled。Shewouldturnhergrayeyesuponhimandsay,’Dick,howselfishyouare!’Thenhiscouragewouldfailhim。Itwouldbebetter,afterall,tobegforthatkiss。
  Maisielookedmorethanusuallykissableasshesteppedfromthenight—mailontothewindypier,inagraywaterproofandalittlegrayclothtravelling—cap。Thered—hairedgirlwasnotsolovely。Hergreeneyeswerehollowandherlipsweredry。Dicksawthetrunksaboard,andwenttoMaisie’ssideinthedarknessunderthebridge。Themail—bagswerethunderingintotheforehold,andthered—hairedgirlwaswatchingthem。
  ’You’llhavearoughpassageto—night,’saidDick。’It’sblowingoutside。I
  supposeImaycomeoverandseeyouifI’mgood?’
  ’Youmustn’t。Ishallbebusy。Atleast,ifIwantyouI’llsendforyou。ButIshallwritefromVitry—sur—Marne。Ishallhaveheapsofthingstoconsultyouabout。Oh,Dick,youhavebeensogoodtome!——sogoodtome!’
  ’Thankyouforthat,dear。Ithasn’tmadeanydifference,hasit?’
  ’Ican’ttellafib。Ithasn’t——inthatway。Butdon’tthinkI’mnotgrateful。’
  ’Damnthegratitude!’saidDick,huskily,tothepaddle—box。
  ’What’stheuseofworrying?YouknowIshouldruinyourlife,andyou’druinmine,asthingsarenow。YourememberwhatyousaidwhenyouweresoangrythatdayinthePark?Oneofushastobebroken。
  Can’tyouwaittillthatdaycomes?’
  ’No,love。Iwantyouunbroken——alltomyself。’
  Maisieshookherhead。’MypoorDick,whatcanIsay!’
  ’Don’tsayanything。Givemeakiss。Onlyonekiss,Maisie。I’llswearI
  won’ttakeanymore。Youmightaswell,andthenIcanbesureyou’regrateful。’
  Maisieputhercheekforward,andDicktookhisrewardinthedarkness。
  Itwasonlyonekiss,but,sincetherewasnotime—limitspecified,itwasalongone。Maisiewrenchedherselffreeangrily,andDickstoodabashedandtinglingfromheadtotoe。
  ’Good—bye,darling。Ididn’tmeantoscareyou。I’msorry。Only——keepwellanddogoodwork,——speciallytheMelancolia。I’mgoingtodoone,too。RemembermetoKami,andbecarefulwhatyoudrink。Countrydrinking—waterisbadeverywhere,butit’sworseinFrance。Writetomeifyouwantanything,andgood—bye。Saygood—byetothewhatever—you—call—umgirl,and——can’tIhaveanotherkiss?No。You’requiteright。Good—bye。’
  Ashouldtoldhimthatitwasnotseemlytochargeofthemail—bagincline。Hereachedthepierasthesteamerbegantomoveoff,andhefollowedherwithhisheart。
  ’Andthere’snothing——nothinginthewideworld——tokeepusapartexceptherobstinacy。TheseCalaisnight—boatsaremuchtoosmall。I’llgetTorptowritetothepapersaboutit。She’sbeginningtopitchalready。’
  MaisiestoodwhereDickhadlefthertillsheheardalittlegaspingcoughatherelbow。Thered—hairedgirl’seyeswerealightwithcoldflame。
  ’Hekissedyou!’shesaid。’Howcouldyoulethim,whenhewasn’tanythingtoyou?Howdaredyoutotakeakissfromhim?Oh,Maisie,let’sgototheladies’cabin。I’msick,——deadlysick。’
  ’Wearen’tintoopenwateryet。Godown,dear,andI’llstayhere。Idon’tlikethesmelloftheengines……PoorDick!Hedeservedone,——onlyone。
  ButIdidn’tthinkhe’dfrightenmeso。’
  Dickreturnedtotownnextdayjustintimeforlunch,forwhichhehadtelegraphed。Tohisdisgust,therewereonlyemptyplatesinthestudio。
  Helifteduphisvoicelikethebearsinthefairy—tale,andTorpenhowentered,lookingguilty。
  ’H’sh!’saidhe。’Don’tmakesuchanoise。Itookit。Comeintomyrooms,andI’llshowyouwhy。’
  Dickpausedamazedatthethreshold,foronTorpenhow’ssofalayagirlasleepandbreathingheavily。Thelittlecheapsailor—hat,theblue—and—whitedress,fitterforJunethanforFebruary,dabbledwithmudattheskirts,thejackettrimmedwithimitationAstrakhanandrippedattheshoulder—seams,theone—and—elevenpennyumbrella,and,aboveall,thedisgracefulconditionofthekid—toppedboots,declaredallthings。
  ’Oh,Isay,oldman,thisistoobad!Youmustn’tbringthissortuphere。
  Theystealthingsfromtherooms。’
  ’Itlooksbad,Iadmit,butIwascominginafterlunch,andshestaggeredintothehall。Ithoughtshewasdrunkatfirst,butitwascollapse。I
  couldn’tleaveherasshewas,soIbroughtheruphereandgaveheryourlunch。Shewasfaintingfromwantoffood。Shewentfastasleeptheminuteshehadfinished。’
  ’Iknowsomethingofthatcomplaint。She’sbeenlivingonsausages,I
  suppose。Torp,youshouldhavehandedherovertoapolicemanforpresumingtofaintinarespectablehouse。Poorlittlewretch!Lookattheface!Thereisn’tanounceofimmoralityinit。Onlyfolly,——slack,fatuous,feeble,futilefolly。It’satypicalhead。D’younoticehowtheskullbeginstoshowthroughthefleshpaddingonthefaceandcheek—bone?’
  ’Whatacold—bloodedbarbarianitis!Don’thitawomanwhenshe’sdown。Can’twedoanything?Shewassimplydroppingwithstarvation。
  Shealmostfellintomyarms,andwhenshegottothefoodsheatelikeawildbeast。Itwashorrible。’
  ’Icangivehermoney,whichshewouldprobablyspendindrinks。Isshegoingtosleepforever?’
  Thegirlopenedhereyesandglaredatthemenbetweenterrorandeffrontery。
  ’Feelingbetter?’saidTorpenhow。
  ’Yes。Thankyou。Therearen’tmanygentlementhatareaskindasyouare。Thankyou。’
  ’Whendidyouleaveservice?’saidDick,whohadbeenwatchingthescarredandchappedhands。
  ’HowdidyouknowIwasinservice?Iwas。Generalservant。Ididn’tlikeit。’
  ’Andhowdoyoulikebeingyourownmistress?’
  ’DoIlookasifIlikedit?’
  ’Isupposenot。Onemoment。Wouldyoubegoodenoughtoturnyourfacetothewindow?’
  Thegirlobeyed,andDickwatchedherfacekeenly,——sokeenlythatshemadeasiftohidebehindTorpenhow。
  ’Theeyeshaveit,’saidDick,walkingupanddown。’Theyaresuperbeyesformybusiness。And,afterall,everyheaddependsontheeyes。Thishasbeensentfromheaventomakeupfor——whatwastakenaway。Nowtheweeklystrain’soffmyshoulders,Icangettoworkinearnest。
  Evidentlysentfromheaven。Yes。Raiseyourchinalittle,please。’
  ’Gently,oldman,gently。You’rescaringsomebodyoutofherwits,’saidTorpenhow,whocouldseethegirltrembling。
  ’Don’tlethimhitme!Oh,pleasedon’tlethimhitme!I’vebeenhitcruelto—daybecauseIspoketoaman。Don’tlethimlookatmelikethat!He’sreg’larwicked,thatone。Don’tlethimlookatmelikethat,neither!Oh,I
  feelasifIhadn’tnothingonwhenhelooksatmelikethat!’
  Theoverstrainednervesinthefrailbodygaveway,andthegirlweptlikealittlechildandbegantoscream。Dickthrewopenthewindow,andTorpenhowflungthedoorback。
  ’Thereyouare,’saidDick,soothingly。’Myfriendherecancallforapoliceman,andyoucanrunthroughthatdoor。Nobodyisgoingtohurtyou。’
  Thegirlsobbedconvulsivelyforafewminutes,andthentriedtolaugh。
  ’Nothingintheworldtohurtyou。Nowlistentomeforaminute。I’mwhattheycallanartistbyprofession。Youknowwhatartistsdo?’
  ’Theydrawthethingsinredandblackinkonthepop—shoplabels。’
  ’Idaresay。Ihaven’trisentopop—shoplabelsyet。ThosearedonebytheAcademicians。Iwanttodrawyourhead。’
  ’Whatfor?’
  ’Becauseit’spretty。Thatiswhyyouwillcometotheroomacrossthelandingthreetimesaweekateleveninthemorning,andI’llgiveyouthreequidaweekjustforsittingstillandbeingdrawn。Andthere’saquidonaccount。’
  ’Fornothing?Oh,my!’Thegirlturnedthesovereigninherhand,andwithmorefoolishtears,’Ain’tneithero’youtwogentlemenafraidofmybilkingyou?’
  ’No。Onlyuglygirlsdothat。Tryandrememberthisplace。And,bytheway,what’syourname?’
  ’I’mBessic,——Bessie————It’snousegivingtherest。BessieBroke,——Stone—broke,ifyoulike。What’syournames?Butthere,——nooneevergivestherealones。’
  DickconsultedTorpenhowwithhiseyes。
  ’Myname’sHeldar,andmyfriend’scalledTorpenhow;andyoumustbesuretocomehere。Wheredoyoulive?’
  ’South—the—water,——oneroom,——fiveandsixpenceaweek。Aren’tyoumakingfunofmeaboutthatthreequid?’
  ’You’llseelateron。And,Bessie,nexttimeyoucome,remember,youneedn’twearthatpaint。It’sbadfortheskin,andIhaveallthecoloursyou’llbelikelytoneed。’
  Bessiewithdrew,scrubbinghercheekwitharaggedpocket—handkerchief。Thetwomenlookedateachother。
  ’You’reaman,’saidTorpenhow。
  ’I’mafraidI’vebeenafool。Itisn’tourbusinesstorunabouttheearthreformingBessieBrokes。Andawomanofanykindhasnorightonthislanding。’
  ’Perhapsshewon’tcomeback。’
  ’Shewillifshethinksshecangetfoodandwarmthhere。Iknowshewill,worseluck。Butremember,oldman,sheisn’tawoman;she’smymodel;
  andbecareful。’
  ’Theidea!She’sadissolutelittlescarecrow,——agutter—snippetandnothingmore。’
  ’Soyouthink。Waittillshehasbeenfedalittleandfreedfromfear。Thatfairtyperecoversitselfveryquickly。Youwon’tknowherinaweekortwo,whenthatabjectfearhasdiedoutofhereyes。She’llbetoohappyandsmilingformypurposes。’
  ’Butsurelyyou’renottakingheroutofcharity?——topleaseme?’
  ’Iamnotinthehabitofplayingwithhotcoalstopleaseanybody。Shehasbeensentfromheaven,asImayhaveremarkedbefore,tohelpmewithmyMelancolia。’
  ’Neverheardawordabouttheladybefore。’
  ’What’stheuseofhavingafriend,ifyoumustslingyournotionsathiminwords?YououghttoknowwhatI’mthinkingabout。You’veheardmegruntlately?’
  ’Evenso;butgruntsmeananythinginyourlanguage,frombad’baccytowickeddealers。AndIdon’tthinkI’vebeenmuchinyourconfidenceforsometime。’
  ’Itwasahighandsoulfulgrunt。YououghttohaveunderstoodthatitmeanttheMelancolia。’DickwalkedTorpenhowupanddowntheroom,keepingsilence。Thenhesmotehimintheribs,’Nowdon’tyouseeit?
  Bessie’sabjectfutility,andtheterrorinhereyes,weldedontooneortwodetailsinthewayofsorrowthathavecomeundermyexperiencelately。Likewisesomeorangeandblack,——twokeysofeach。ButIcan’texplainonanemptystomach。’
  ’Itsoundsmadenough。You’dbettersticktoyoursoldiers,Dick,insteadofmaunderingaboutheadsandeyesandexperiences。’
  ’Thinkso?’Dickbegantodanceonhisheels,singing——
  ’They’reasproudasaturkeywhentheyholdthereadycash,Yououghtto’earthewaytheylaughan’joke;
  Theyaretrickyan’they’refunnywhenthey’vegotthereadymoney,——
  Ow!butsee’emwhenthey’reallstone—broke。’?
  ThenhesatdowntopourouthishearttoMaisieinafour—sheetletterofcounselandencouragement,andregisteredanoaththathewouldgettoworkwithanundividedheartassoonasBessieshouldreappear。
  Thegirlkeptherappointmentunpaintedandunadorned,afraidandoverboldbyturns。Whenshefoundthatshewasmerelyexpectedtositstill,shegrewcalmer,andcriticisedtheappointmentsofthestudiowithfreedomandsomepoint。Shelikedthewarmthandthecomfortandthereleasefromfearofphysicalpain。Dickmadetwoorthreestudiesofherheadinmonochrome,buttheactualnotionoftheMelancoliawouldnotarrive。
  ’Whatamessyoukeepyourthingsin!’saidBessie,somedayslater,whenshefeltherselfthoroughlyathome。’Is’poseyourclothesarejustasbad。
  Gentlemenneverthinkwhatbuttonsandtapearemadefor。’
  ’Ibuythingstowear,andwear’emtilltheygotopieces。Idon’tknowwhatTorpenhowdoes。’
  Bessiemadediligentinquiryinthelatter’sroom,andunearthedabaleofdisreputablesocks。’SomeoftheseI’llmendnow,’shesaid,’andsomeI’lltakehome。D’youknow,Isitalldaylongathomedoingnothing,justlikealady,andnomorenoticingthemothergirlsinthehousethaniftheywassomanyflies。Idon’thaveanyunnecessarywords,butIput’emdownquick,Icantellyou,whentheytalktome。No;it’squitenicethesedays。Ilockmydoor,andtheycanonlycallmenamesthroughthekeyhole,andIsitinside,justlikealady,mendingsocks。Mr。Torpenhowwearshissocksoutbothendsatonce。’
  ’Threequidaweekfromme,andthedelightsofmysociety。Nosocksmended。NothingfromTorpexceptanodonthelandingnowandagain,andallhissocksmended。Bessieisverymuchawoman,’thoughtDick;
  andhelookedatherbetweenhalf—shuteyes。Foodandresthadtransformedthegirl,asDickknewtheywould。
  ’Whatareyoulookingatmelikethatfor?’shesaidquickly。’Don’t。Youlookreg’larbadwhenyoulookthatway。Youdon’tthinkmucho’me,doyou?’
  ’Thatdependsonhowyoubehave。’
  Bessiebehavedbeautifully。Onlyitwasdifficultattheendofasittingtobidhergooutintothegraystreets。Sheverymuchpreferredthestudioandabigchairbythestove,withsomesocksinherlapasanexcusefordelay。ThenTorpenhowwouldcomein,andBessiewouldbemovedtotellstrangeandwonderfulstoriesofherpast,andstillstrangeronesofherpresentimprovedcircumstances。Shewouldmakethemteaasthoughshehadarighttomakeit;andonceortwiceontheseoccasionsDickcaughtTorpenhow’seyesfixedonthetrimlittlefigure,andbecauseBessie’’flittingsabouttheroommadeDickardentlylongforMaisie,herealisedwhitherTorpenhow’sthoughtsweretending。AndBessiewasexceedinglycarefuloftheconditionofTorpenhow’slinen。Shespokeverylittletohim,butsometimestheytalkedtogetheronthelanding。
  ’Iwasagreatfool,’Dicksaidtohimself。’Iknowwhatredfirelightlookslikewhenaman’strampingthroughastrangetown;andoursisalonely,selfishsortoflifeatthebest。IwonderMaisiedoesn’tfeelthatsometimes。ButIcan’torderBessieaway。That’stheworstofbeginningthings。Oneneverknowswheretheystop。’
  Oneevening,afterasittingprolongedtothelastlimitofthelight,DickwasrousedfromanapbyabrokenvoiceinTorpenhow’sroom。Hejumpedtohisfeet。’NowwhatoughtItodo?Itlooksfoolishtogoin。——Oh,blessyou,Binkie!’ThelittleterrierthrustTorpenhow’sdooropenwithhisnoseandcameouttotakepossessionofDick’schair。Thedoorswungwideunheeded,andDickacrossthelandingcouldseeBessieinthehalf—lightmakingherlittlesupplicationtoTorpenhow。Shewaskneelingbyhisside,andherhandswereclaspedacrosshisknee。
  ’Iknow,——Iknow,’shesaidthickly。’’Tisn’trighto’metodothis,butI
  can’thelpit;andyouweresokind,——sokind;andyounevertookanynoticeo’me。AndI’vemendedallyourthingssocarefully,——Idid。Oh,please,’tisn’tasifIwasaskingyoutomarryme。Iwouldn’tthinkofit。
  Butyou——couldn’tyoutakeandlivewithmetillMissRightcomesalong?
  I’monlyMissWrong,Iknow,butI’dworkmyhandstothebareboneforyou。AndI’mnotuglytolookat。Sayyouwill!’
  DickhardlyrecognisedTorpenhow’svoiceinreply——
  ’Butlookhere。It’snouse。I’mliabletobeorderedoffanywhereataminute’snoticeifawarbreaksout。Ataminute’snotice——dear。’
  ’Whatdoesthatmatter?Untilyougo,then。Untilyougo。’Tisn’tmuchI’masking,and——youdon’tknowhowgoodIcancook。’Shehadputanarmroundhisneckandwasdrawinghisheaddown。
  ’Until——I——go,then。’
  ’Torp,’saidDick,acrossthelanding。Hecouldhardlysteadyhisvoice。