首页 >出版文学> The Light That Failed>第3章
  ForMaisie’ssake,andtosoothetheself—respectthatitseemedtohimhelosteachSunday,hewouldnotconsciouslyturnoutbadstuff,but,sinceMaisiedidnotcareevenforhisbest,itwerebetternottodoanythingatallsavewaitandmarktimebetweenSundayandSunday。Torpenhowwasdisgustedastheweekswentbyfruitless,andthenattackedhimoneSundayeveningwhenDickfeltutterlyexhaustedafterthreehours’
  bitingself—restraintinMaisie’spresence。TherewasLanguage,andTorpenhowwithdrewtoconsulttheNilghai,whohadcomeittotalkcontinentalpolitics。
  ’Bone—idle,ishe?Careless,andtouchedinthetemper?’saidtheNilghai。
  ’Itisn’tworthworryingover。Dickisprobablyplayingthefoolwithawoman。’
  ’Isn’tthatbadenough?’
  ’No。Shemaythrowhimoutofgearandknockhisworktopiecesforawhile。Shemayeventurnupheresomedayandmakeasceneonthestaircase:oneneverknows。ButuntilDickspeaksofhisownaccordyouhadbetternottouchhim。Heisnoeasy—temperedmantohandle。’
  ’No;Iwishhewere。Heissuchanaggressive,cocksure,you—be—damnedfellow。’
  ’He’llgetthatknockedoutofhimintime。Hemustlearnthathecan’tstormupanddowntheworldwithaboxofmoisttubesandaslickbrush。
  You’refondofhim?’
  ’I’dtakeanypunishmentthat’sinstoreforhimifIcould;buttheworstofitis,nomancansavehisbrother。’
  ’No,andtheworserofitis,thereisnodischargeinthiswar。Dickmustlearnhislessonliketherestofus。Talkingofwar,there’llbetroubleintheBalkansinthespring。’
  ’Thattroubleislongcoming。IwonderifwecoulddragDickouttherewhenitcomesoff?’
  Dickenteredtheroomsoonafterwards,andthequestionwasputtohim。
  ’Notgoodenough,’hesaidshortly。’I’mtoocomf’ywhereIam。’
  ’Surelyyouaren’ttakingallthestuffinthepapersseriously?’saidtheNilghai。’Yourvoguewillbeendedinlessthansixmonths,——thepublicwillknowyourtouchandgoontosomethingnew,——andwherewillyoubethen?’
  ’Here,inEngland。’
  ’Whenyoumightbedoingdecentworkamongusoutthere?Nonsense!I
  shallgo,theKeneuwillbethere,Torpwillbethere,Cassavettiwillbethere,andthewholelotofuswillbethere,andweshallhaveasmuchaseverwecando,withunlimitedfightingandthechanceforyouofseeingthingsthatwouldmakethereputationofthreeVerestchagins。’
  ’Um!’saidDick,pullingathispipe。
  ’Youprefertostayhereandimaginethatalltheworldisgapingatyourpictures?Justthinkhowfullanaverageman’slifeisofhisownpursuitsandpleasures。Whentwentythousandofhimfindtimetolookupbetweenmouthfulsandgruntsomethingaboutsomethingtheyaren’ttheleastinterestedin,thenetresultiscalledfame,reputation,ornotoriety,accordingtothetasteandfancyofthespellermylord。’
  ’Iknowthataswellasyoudo。Givemecreditforalittlegumption。’
  ’BehangedifIdo!’
  ’Behanged,then;youprobablywillbe,——foraspy,byexcitedTurks。
  Heigh—ho!I’mweary,deadweary,andvirtuehasgoneoutofme。’Dickdroppedintoachair,andwasfastasleepinaminute。
  ’That’sabadsign,’saidtheNilghai,inanundertone。
  Torpenhowpickedthepipefromthewaistcoatwhereitwasbeginningtoburn,andputapillowbehindthehead。’Wecan’thelp;wecan’thelp,’hesaid。’It’sagooduglysortofoldcocoanut,andI’mfondofit。There’sthescarofthewipehegotwhenhewascutoverinthesquare。’
  ’Shouldn’twonderifthathasmadehimatriflemad。’
  ’Ishould。He’samostbusinesslikemadman。’
  ThenDickbegantosnorefuriously。
  ’Oh,here,noaffectioncanstandthissortofthing。Wakeup,Dick,andgoandsleepsomewhereelse,ifyouintendtomakeanoiseaboutit。’
  ’Whenacathasbeenoutonthetilesallnight,’saidtheNilghai,inhisbeard,’Inoticethatsheusuallysleepsallday。Thisisnaturalhistory。’
  Dickstaggeredawayrubbinghiseyesandyawning。Inthenight—watcheshewasovertakenwithanidea,sosimpleandsoluminousthathewonderedhehadneverconceiveditbefore。Itwasfullofcraft。HewouldseekMaisieonaweek—day,——wouldsuggestanexcursion,andwouldtakeherbytraintoFortKeeling,overtheverygroundthattheytwohadtroddentogethertenyearsago。
  ’Asageneralrule,’heexplainedtohischin—latheredreflectioninthemorning,’itisn’tsafetocrossanoldtrailtwice。Thingsremindoneofthings,andacoldwindgetsup,andyoufeelsaid;butthisisanexceptiontoeveryrulethateverwas。I’llgotoMaisieatonce。’
  Fortunately,thered—hairedgirlwasoutshoppingwhenhearrived,andMaisieinapaint—spatteredblousewaswarringwithhercanvas。Shewasnotpleasedtoseehim;forweek—dayvisitswereastretchofthebond;
  anditneededallhiscouragetoexplainhiserrand。
  ’Iknowyou’vebeenworkingtoohard,’heconcluded,withanairofauthority。’Ifyoudothat,you’llbreakdown。Youhadmuchbettercome。’
  ’Where?’saidMaisie,wearily。Shehadbeenstandingbeforehereaseltoolong,andwasverytired。
  ’Anywhereyouplease。We’lltakeatrainto—morrowandseewhereitstops。We’llhavelunchsomewhere,andI’llbringyoubackintheevening。’
  ’Ifthere’sagoodworkinglightto—morrow,Iloseaday。’Maisiebalancedtheheavywhitechestnutpaletteirresolutely。
  Dickbitbackanoaththatwashurryingtohislips。Hehadnotyetlearnedpatiencewiththemaidentowhomherworkwasallinall。
  ’You’llloseeversomanymore,dear,ifyouuseeveryhourofworkinglight。Overwork’sonlymurderousidleness。Don’tbeunreasonable。I’llcallforyouto—morrowafterbreakfastearly。’
  ’Butsurelyyouaregoingtoask————’
  ’No,Iamnot。Iwantyouandnobodyelse。Besides,shehatesmeasmuchasIhateher。Shewon’tcaretocome。To—morrow,then;andpraythatwegetsunshine。’
  Dickwentawaydelighted,andbyconsequencedidnoworkwhatever。
  Hestrangledawilddesiretoorderaspecialtrain,butboughtagreatgraykangaroocloaklinedwithglossyblackmarten,andthenretiredintohimselftoconsiderthings。
  ’I’mgoingoutforthedayto—morrowwithDick,’saidMaisietothered—hairedgirlwhenthelatterreturned,tired,frommarketingintheEdgwareroad。
  ’Hedeservesit。Ishallhavethestudiofloorthoroughlyscrubbedwhileyou’reaway。It’sverydirty。’
  Maisiehadenjoyednosortofholidayformonthsandlookedforwardtothelittleexcitement,butnotwithoutmisgivings。
  ’There’snobodynicerthanDickwhenhetalkssensibly,shethough,butI’msurehe’llbesillyandworryme,andI’msureIcan’ttellhimanythinghe’dliketohear。Ifhe’donlybesensible,Ishouldlikehimsomuchbetter。’
  Dick’seyeswerefullofjoywhenhemadehisappearancenextmorningandsawMaisie,gray—ulsteredandblack—velvet—hatted,standinginthehallway。Palacesofmarble,andnotsordidimitationofgrainedwood,weresurelythefittestbackgroundforsuchadivinity。Thered—hairedgirldrewherintothestudioforamomentandkissedherhurriedly。
  Maisie’seyebrowsclimbedtothetopofherforehead;shewasaltogetherunusedtothesedemonstrations。’Mindmyhat,’shesaid,hurryingaway,andrandownthestepstoDickwaitingbythehansom。
  ’Areyouquitewarmenough!Areyousureyouwouldn’tlikesomemorebreakfast?Putthecloakoveryouknees。’
  ’I’mquitecomf’y,thanks。Wherearewegoing,Dick?Oh,dostopsinginglikethat。Peoplewillthinkwe’remad。’
  ’Let’emthink,——iftheexertiondoesn’tkillthem。Theydon’tknowwhoweare,andI’msureIdon’tcarewhotheyare。Myfaith,Maisie,you’relookinglovely!’
  Maisiestareddirectlyinfrontofheranddidnotreply。Thewindofakeenclearwintermorninghadputcolourintohercheeks。Overhead,thecreamy—yellowsmoke—cloudswerethinningawayonebyoneagainstapale—bluesky,andtheimprovidentsparrowsbrokeofffromwater—spoutcommitteesandcab—rankcabalstoclamourofthecomingofspring。
  ’Itwillbelovelyweatherinthecountry,’saidDick。
  ’Butwherearewegoing?’
  ’Waitandsee。’
  ThestoppedatVictoria,andDicksoughttickets。ForlessthanhalfthefractionofaninstantitoccurredtoMaisie,comfortablysettledbythewaiting—roomfire,thatitwasmuchmorepleasanttosendamantothebooking—officethantoelbowone’sownwaythroughthecrowd。DickputherintoaPullman,——solelyonaccountofthewarmththere;andsheregardedtheextravagancewithgravescandalisedeyesasthetrainmovedoutintothecountry。
  ’IwishIknewwherewearegoing,’sherepeatedforthetwentiethtime。
  Thenameofawell—rememberedstationflashedby,towardstheendoftherun,andMaisiewasdelighted。
  ’Oh,Dick,youvillain!’
  ’Well,Ithoughtyoumightliketoseetheplaceagain。Youhaven’tbeenheresincetheoldtimes,haveyou?’
  ’No。InevercaredtoseeMrs。Jennettagain;andshewasallthatwaseverthere。’
  ’Notquite。Lookoutaminute。There’sthewindmillabovethepotato—fields;theyhaven’tbuiltvillasthereyet;d’yourememberwhenI
  shutyouupinit?’
  ’Yes。Howshebeatyouforit!Inevertolditwasyou。’
  ’Sheguessed。IjammedastickunderthedoorandtoldyouthatIwasburyingAmommaaliveinthepotatoes,andyoubelievedme。Youhadatrustingnatureinthosedays。’
  Theylaughedandleanedtolookout,identifyingancientlandmarkswithmanyreminiscences。DickfixedhisweathereyeonthecurveofMaisie’scheek,verynearhisown,andwatchedthebloodriseundertheclearskin。Hecongratulatedhimselfuponhiscunning,andlookedthattheeveningwouldbringhimagreatreward。
  Whenthetrainstoppedtheywentouttolookatanoldtownwithneweyes。First,butfromadistance,theyregardedthehouseofMrs。Jennett。
  ’Supposesheshouldcomeoutnow,whatwouldyoudo?’saidDick,withmockterror。
  ’Ishouldmakeaface。’
  ’Show,then,’saidDick,droppingintothespeechofchildhood。
  Maisiemadethatfaceinthedirectionofthemeanlittlevilla,andDicklaughed。
  ’"Thisisdisgraceful,"’saidMaisie,mimickingMrs。Jennett’stone。
  ’"Maisie,youruninatonce,andlearnthecollect,gospel,andepistleforthenextthreeSundays。AfterallI’vetaughtyou,too,andthreehelpseverySundayatdinner!Dick’salwaysleadingyouintomischief。Ifyouaren’tagentleman,Dick,youmightatleast——"’
  Thesentenceendedabruptly。Maisierememberedwhenithadlastbeenused。
  ’"Trytobehavelikeone,"’saidDick,promptly。’Quiteright。Nowwe’llgetsomelunchandgoontoFortKeeling,——unlessyou’dratherdrivethere?’
  ’Wemustwalk,outofrespecttotheplace。Howlittlechangeditallis!’
  Theyturnedinthedirectionoftheseathroughunalteredstreets,andtheinfluenceofoldthingslayuponthem。Presentlytheypassedaconfectioner’sshopmuchconsideredinthedayswhentheirjointpocket—moneyamountedtoashillingaweek。
  ’Dick,haveyouanypennies?’saidMaisie,halftoherself。
  ’Onlythree;andifyouthinkyou’regoingtohavetwoof’emtobuypeppermintswith,you’rewrong。Shesayspeppermintsaren’tladylike。’
  Againtheylaughed,andagainthecolourcameintoMaisie’scheeksasthebloodboiledthroughDick’sheart。AfteralargelunchtheywentdowntothebeachandtoFortKeelingacrossthewaste,wind—bittenlandthatnobuilderhadthoughtitworthhiswhiletodefile。Thewinterbreezecameinfromtheseaandsangabouttheirears。
  ’Maisie,’saidDick,’yournoseisgettingacrudePrussianblueatthetip。
  I’llraceyouasfarasyoupleaseforasmuchasyouplease。’
  Shelookedroundcautiously,andwithalaughsetoff,swiftlyastheulsterallowed,tillshewasoutofbreath。
  ’Weusedtorunmiles,’shepanted。’It’sabsurdthatwecan’trunnow。’
  ’Oldage,dear。Thisitistogetfatandsleekintown。WhenIwishedtopullyouhairyougenerallyranforthreemiles,shriekingatthetopofyourvoice。Ioughttoknow,becausethoseshrieksofyoursweremeanttocallupMrs。Jennettwithacaneand————’
  ’Dick,Inevergotyouabeatingonpurposeinmylife。’
  ’No,ofcourseyouneverdid。Goodheavens!lookatthesea。’
  ’Why,it’sthesameasever!’saidMaisie。
  TorpenhowhadgatheredfromMr。BeetonthatDick,properlydressedandshaved,hadleftthehouseathalf—pasteightinthemorningwithatravelling—rugoverhisarm。TheNilghairolledinatmid—dayforchessandpoliteconversation。
  ’It’sworsethananythingIimagined,’saidTorpenhow。
  ’Oh,theeverlastingDick,Isuppose!Youfussoverhimlikeahenwithonechick。Lethimrunriotifhethinksit’llamusehim。Youcanwhipayoungpupofffeather,butyoucan’twhipayoungman。’
  ’Itisn’tawoman。It’sonewoman;andit’sagirl。’
  ’Where’syourproof?’
  ’Hegotupandwentoutateightthismorning,——gotupinthemiddleofthenight,byJove!athingheneverdoesexceptwhenhe’sonservice。
  Eventhen,remember,wehadtokickhimoutofhisblanketsbeforethefightbeganatEl—Maghrib。It’sdisgusting。’
  ’Itlooksodd;butmaybehe’sdecidedtobuyahorseatlast。Hemightgetupforthat,mightn’the?’
  ’Buyablazingwheelbarrow!He’dhavetoldusiftherewasahorseinthewind。It’sagirl。’
  ’Don’tbecertain。Perhapsit’sonlyamarriedwoman。’
  ’Dickhassomesenseofhumour,ifyouhaven’t。Whogetsupinthegraydawntocallonanotherman’swife?It’sagirl。’
  ’Letitbeagirl,then。Shemayteachhimthatthere’ssomebodyelseintheworldbesideshimself。’
  ’She’llspoilhishand。She’llwastehistime,andshe’llmarryhim,andruinhisworkforever。He’llbearespectablemarriedmanbeforewecanstophim,and——he’llevergoonthelongtrailagain。’
  ’Allquitepossible,buttheearthwon’tspintheotherwaywhenthathappens……No!ho!I’dgivesomethingtoseeDick"gowooingwiththeboys。"Don’tworryaboutit。ThesethingsbewithAllah,andwecanonlylookon。Getthechessmen。’?
  Thered—hairedgirlwaslyingdowninherownroom,staringattheceiling。Thefootstepsofpeopleonthepavementsounded,astheygrewindistinctinthedistance,likeamany—times—repeatedkissthatwasallonelongkiss。Herhandswerebyherside,andtheyopenedandshutsavagelyfromtimetotime。
  Thecharwomaninchargeofthescrubbingofthestudioknockedatherdoor:’Begy’pardon,miss,butincleanin’ofafloorthere’stwo,nottosaythree,kindofsoap,whichisyaller,an’mottled,an’disinfectink。
  Now,jistbeforeItookmypailintothepassageIthoughitwouldbepre’apsjestaswellifIwastocomeup’erean’askyouwhatsortofsoapyouwaswishfulthatIshoulduseonthemboards。Theyallersoap,miss————’
  Therewasnothinginthespeechtohavecausedtheparoxysmoffurythatdrovethered—hairedgirlintothemiddleoftheroom,almostshouting——
  ’DoyousupposeIcarewhatyouuse?Anykindwilldo!——anykind!’
  Thewomanfled,andthered—hairedgirllookedatherownreflectionintheglassforaninstantandcoveredherfacewithherhands。Itwasasthoughshehadshoutedsomeshamelesssecretaloud。
  CHAPTERVII
  RosesredandroseswhitePluckedIformylove’sdelight。
  Shewouldnoneofallmyposies,——
  Bademegatherherblueroses。
  HalftheworldIwanderedthrough,Seekingwheresuchflowersgrew;
  HalftheworlduntomyquestAnsweredbutwithlaughandjest。
  ItmaybebeyondthegraveSheshallfindwhatshewouldhave。
  Minewasbutanidlequest,——
  Roseswhiteandredarebest!——BlueRoses。?
  THESEAhadnotchanged。Itswaterswerelowonthemud—banks,andtheMarazionBell—buoyclankedandswunginthetide—way。Onthewhitebeach—sanddriedstumpsofsea—poppyshiveredandchattered。
  ’Idon’tseetheoldbreakwater,’saidMaisie,underherbreath。
  ’Let’sbethankfulthatwehaveasmuchaswehave。Idon’tbelievethey’vemountedasinglenewgunonthefortsincewewerehere。Comeandlook。’
  TheycametotheglacisofFortKeeling,andsatdowninanookshelteredfromthewindunderthetarredthroatofaforty—poundercannon。
  ’Now,ifAmmomawereonlyhere!’saidMaisie。
  Foralongtimebothweresilent。ThenDicktookMaisie’shandandcalledherbyhername。
  Sheshookherheadandlookedouttosea。
  ’Maisie,darling,doesn’titmakeanydifference?’
  ’No!’betweenclenchedteeth。’I’d——I’dtellyouifitdid;butitdoesn’t,Oh,Dick,pleasebesensible。’
  ’Don’tyouthinkthatiteverwill?’
  ’No,I’msureitwon’t。’
  ’Why?’
  Maisierestedherchinonherhand,and,stillregardingthesea,spokehurriedly——
  ’Iknowwhatyouwantperfectlywell,butIcan’tgiveittoyou,Dick。Itisn’tmyfault;indeed,itisn’t。IfIfeltthatIcouldcareforanyone————
  ButIdon’tfeelthatIcare。Isimplydon’tunderstandwhatthefeelingmeans。’
  ’Isthattrue,dear?’
  ’You’vebeenverygoodtome,Dickie;andtheonlywayIcanpayyoubackisbyspeakingthetruth。Idaren’ttellafib。Idespisemyselfquitenoughasitis。’
  ’Whatintheworldfor?’
  ’Because——becauseItakeeverythingthatyougivemeandIgiveyounothinginreturn。It’smeanandselfishofme,andwheneverIthinkofititworriesme。’
  ’Understandonceforall,then,thatIcanmanagemyownaffairs,andifI
  choosetodoanythingyouaren’ttoblame。Youhaven’tasinglethingtoreproachyourselfwith,darling。’
  ’Yes,Ihave,andtalkingonlymakesitworse。’
  ’Thendon’ttalkaboutit。’
  ’HowcanIhelpmyself?Ifyoufindmealoneforaminuteyouarealwaystalkingaboutit;andwhenyouaren’tyoulookit。Youdon’tknowhowI
  despisemyselfsometimes。’
  ’Greatgoodness!’saidDick,nearlyjumpingtohisfeet。’Speakthetruthnow,Maisie,ifyouneverspeakitagain!DoI——doesthisworryingboreyou?’
  ’No。Itdoesnot。’
  ’You’dtellmeifitdid?’
  ’Ishouldletyouknow,Ithink。’
  ’Thankyou。Theotherthingisfatal。Butyoumustlearntoforgiveamanwhenhe’sinlove。He’salwaysanuisance。Youmusthaveknownthat?’
  Maisiedidnotconsiderthelastquestionworthanswering,andDickwasforcedtorepeatit。
  ’Therewereothermen,ofcourse。TheyalwaysworriedjustwhenIwasinthemiddleofmywork,andwantedmetolistentothem。’
  ’Didyoulisten?’
  ’Atfirst;andtheycouldn’tunderstandwhyIdidn’tcare。Andtheyusedtopraisemypictures;andIthoughttheymeantit。Iusedtobeproudofthepraise,andtellKami,and——Ishallneverforget——onceKamilaughedatme。’
  ’Youdon’tlikebeinglaughedat,Maisie,doyou?’
  ’Ihateit。Ineverlaughatotherpeopleunless——unlesstheydobadwork。
  Dick,tellmehonestlywhatyouthinkofmypicturesgenerally,——ofeverythingofminethatyou’veseen。’
  ’"Honest,honest,andhonestover!"’quotedDickfromacatchwordoflongago。’TellmewhatKamialwayssays。’
  Maisiehesitated。’He——hesaysthatthereisfeelinginthem。’
  ’Howdareyoutellmeafiblikethat?Remember,IwasunderKamifortwoyears。Iknowexactlywhathesays。’
  ’Itisn’tafib。’
  ’It’sworse;it’sahalf—truth。Kamisays,whenheputshisheadononeside,——so,——"Ilyadusentiment,maisiln’yapasdepartipris。"’Herolledtherthreateningly,asKamiusedtodo。
  ’Yes,thatiswhathesays;andI’mbeginningtothinkthatheisright。’
  ’Certainlyheis。’Dickadmittedthattwopeopleintheworldcoulddoandsaynowrong。Kamiwastheman。
  ’Andnowyousaythesamething。It’ssodisheartening。’
  ’I’msorry,butyouaskedmetospeakthetruth。Besides,Iloveyoutoomuchtopretendaboutyourwork。It’sstrong,it’spatientsometimes,——notalways,——andsometimesthere’spowerinit,butthere’snospecialreasonwhyitshouldbedoneatall。Atleast,that’showitstrikesme。’
  ’There’snospecialreasonwhyanythingintheworldshouldeverbedone。YouknowthataswellasIdo。Ionlywantsuccess。’
  ’You’regoingthewrongwaytogetit,then。Hasn’tKamievertoldyouso?’
  ’Don’tquoteKamitome。Iwanttoknowwhatyouthink。Mywork’sbad,tobeginwith。’
  ’Ididn’tsaythat,andIdon’tthinkit。’
  ’It’samateurish,then。’
  ’Thatitmostcertainlyisnot。You’reawork—woman,darling,toyourboot—heels,andIrespectyouforthat。’
  ’Youdon’tlaughatmebehindmyback?’
  ’No,dear。Yousee,youaremoretomethananyoneelse。Putthiscloakthingroundyou,oryou’llgetchilled。’
  Maisiewrappedherselfinthesoftmartenskins,turningthegraykangaroofurtotheoutside。
  ’Thisisdelicious,’shesaid,rubbingherchinthoughtfullyalongthefur。
  ’Well?WhyamIwrongintryingtogetalittlesuccess?’
  ’Justbecauseyoutry。Don’tyouunderstand,darling?Goodworkhasnothingtodowith——doesn’tbelongto——thepersonwhodoesit。It’sputintohimorherfromoutside。’
  ’Buthowdoesthataffect————’
  ’Waitaminute。Allwecandoistolearnhowtodoourwork,tobemastersofourmaterialsinsteadofservants,andnevertobeafraidofanything。’
  ’Iunderstandthat。’
  ’Everythingelsecomesfromoutsideourselves。Verygood。Ifwesitdownquietlytoworkoutnotionsthataresenttous,wemayorwemaynotdosomethingthatisn’tbad。Agreatdealdependsonbeingmasterofthebricksandmortarofthetrade。Buttheinstantwebegintothinkaboutsuccessandtheeffectofourwork——toplaywithoneeyeonthegallery——welosepowerandtouchandeverythingelse。Atleastthat’showIhavefoundit。Insteadofbeingquietandgivingeverypoweryoupossesstoyourwork,you’refrettingoversomethingwhichyoucanneitherhelpnohinderbyaminute。See?’
  ’It’ssoeasyforyoutotalkinthatway。Peoplelikewhatyoudo。Don’tyoueverthinkaboutthegallery?’
  ’Muchtoooften;butI’malwayspunishedforitbylossofpower。It’sassimpleastheRuleofThree。Ifwemakelightofourworkbyusingitforourownends,ourworkwillmakelightofus,and,aswe’retheweaker,weshallsuffer。’
  ’Idon’ttreatmyworklightly。Youknowthatit’severythingtome。’
  ’Ofcourse;but,whetheryourealiseitornot,yougivetwostrokesforyourselftooneforyourwork。Itisn’tyourfault,darling。Idoexactlythesamething,andknowthatI’mdoingit。MostoftheFrenchschools,andalltheschoolshere,drivethestudentstoworkfortheirowncredit,andforthesakeoftheirpride。Iwastoldthatalltheworldwasinterestedinmywork,andeverybodyatKami’stalkedturpentine,andIhonestlybelievedthattheworldneededelevatingandinfluencing,andallmannerofimpertinences,bymybrushes。ByJove,Iactuallybelievedthat!WhenmylittleheadwasburstingwithanotionthatIcouldn’thandlebecauseI
  hadn’tsufficientknowledgeofmycraft,Iusedtorunaboutwonderingatmyownmagnificenceandgettingreadytoastonishtheworld。’
  ’Butsurelyonecandothatsometimes?’
  ’Veryseldomwithmaliceaforethought,darling。Andwhenit’sdoneit’ssuchatinything,andtheworld’ssobig,andallbutamillionthpartofitdoesn’tcare。Maisie,comewithmeandI’llshowyousomethingofthesizeoftheworld。Onecannomoreavoidworkingthaneating,——thatgoesonbyitself,——buttrytoseewhatyouareworkingfor。IknowsuchlittleheavensthatIcouldtakeyouto,——islandstuckedawayundertheLine。
  Yousightthemafterweeksofcrashingthroughwaterasblackasblackmarblebecauseit’ssodeep,andyousitinthefore—chainsdayafterdayandseethesunrisealmostafraidbecausethesea’ssolonely。’
  ’Whoisafraid?——you,orthesun?’
  ’Thesun,ofcourse。Andtherearenoisesunderthesea,andsoundsoverheadinaclearsky。Thenyoufindyourislandalivewithhotmoistorchidsthatmakemouthsatyouandcandoeverythingexcepttalk。
  There’sawaterfallinitthreehundredfeethigh,justlikeasliverofgreenjadelacedwithsilver;andmillionsofwildbeesliveupintherocks;andyoucanhearthefatcocoanutsfallingfromthepalms;andyouorderanivory—whiteservanttoslingyoualongyellowhammockwithtasselsonitlikeripemaize,andyouputupyourfeetandhearthebeeshumandthewaterfalltillyougotosleep。’
  ’Canoneworkthere?’
  ’Certainly。Onemustdosomethingalways。Youhangyourcanvasupinapalmtreeandlettheparrotscriticise。Whenthescuffleyouheavearipecustard—appleatthem,anditburstsinalatherofcream。Therearehundredsofplaces。Comeandseethem。’
  ’Idon’tquitelikethatplace。Itsoundslazy。Tellmeanother。’
  ’Whatdoyouthinkofabig,red,deadcitybuiltofredsandstone,withrawgreenaloesgrowingbetweenthestones,lyingoutneglectedonhoney—colouredsands?Therearefortydeadkingsthere,Maisie,eachinagorgeoustombfinerthanalltheothers。Youlookatthepalacesandstreetsandshopsandtanks,andthinkthatmenmustlivethere,tillyoufindaweegraysquirrelrubbingitsnoseallaloneinthemarket—place,andajewelledpeacockstrutsoutofacarveddoorwayandspreadsitstailagainstamarblescreenasfinepiercedaspoint—lace。Thenamonkey——alittleblackmonkey——walksthroughthemainsquaretogetadrinkfromatankfortyfeetdeep。Heslidesdownthecreeperstothewater’sedge,andafriendholdshimbythetail,incaseheshouldfallin。’
  ’Isthatalltrue?’
  ’Ihavebeenthereandseen。Theneveningcomes,andthelightschangetillit’sjustasthoughyoustoodintheheartofaking—opal。Alittlebeforesundown,aspunctuallyasclockwork,abigbristlywildboar,withallhisfamilyfollowing,trotsthroughthecitygate,churningthefoamonhistusks。Youclimbontheshoulderofablindblackstonegodandwatchthatpigchoosehimselfapalaceforthenightandstumpinwagginghistail。Thenthenight—windgetsup,andthesandsmove,andyouhearthedesertoutsidethecitysinging,"NowIlaymedowntosleep,"andeverythingisdarktillthemoonrises。Maisie,darling,comewithmeandseewhattheworldisreallylike。It’sverylovely,andit’sveryhorrible,——butIwon’tletyouseeanythinghorrid,——anditdoesn’tcareyourlifeormineforpicturesoranythingelseexceptdoingitsownworkandmakinglove。Come,andI’llshowyouhowtobrewsangaree,andslingahammock,and——oh,thousandsofthings,andyou’llseeforyourselfwhatcolourmeans,andwe’llfindouttogetherwhatlovemeans,andthen,maybe,weshallbeallowedtodosomegoodwork。Comeaway!’
  ’Why?’saidMaisie。
  ’Howcanyoudoanythinguntilyouhaveseeneverything,orasmuchasyoucan?Andbesides,darling,Iloveyou。Comealongwithme。Youhavenobusinesshere;youdon’tbelongtothisplace;you’rehalfagipsy,——yourfacetellsthat;andI——eventhesmellofopenwatermakesmerestless。Comeacrosstheseaandbehappy!’
  Hehadrisentohisfeet,andstoodintheshadowofthegun,lookingdownatthegirl。Theveryshortwinterafternoonhadwornaway,and,beforetheyknew,thewintermoonwaswalkingtheuntroubledsea。Longruledlinesofsilvershowedwherearippleoftherisingtidewasturningoverthemud—banks。Thewindhaddropped,andintheintensestillnesstheycouldhearadonkeycroppingthefrostygrassmanyyardsaway。Afaintbeating,likethatofamuffleddrum,cameoutofthemoon—haze。
  ’What’sthat?’saidMaisie,quickly。’Itsoundslikeaheartbeating。
  Whereisit?’
  Dickwassoangryatthissuddenwrenchtohispleadingsthathecouldnottrusthimselftospeak,andinthissilencecaughtthesound。Maisiefromherseatunderthegunwatchedhimwithacertainamountoffear。
  Shewishedsomuchthathewouldbesensibleandceasetoworryherwithover—seaemotionthatshebothcouldandcouldnotunderstand。Shewasnotprepared,however,forthechangeinhisfaceashelistened。
  ’It’sasteamer,’hesaid,——’atwin—screwsteamer,bythebeat。Ican’tmakeherout,butshemustbestandingveryclosein—shore。Ah!’astheredofarocketstreakedthehaze,’she’sstandingintosignalbeforesheclearstheChannel。’
  ’Isitawreck?’saidMaisie,towhomthesewordswereasGreek。
  Dick’seyeswereturnedtothesea。’Wreck!Whatnonsense!She’sonlyreportingherself。Redrocketforward——there’sagreenlightaftnow,andtworedrocketsfromthebridge。’
  ’Whatdoesthatmean?’
  ’It’sthesignaloftheCrossKeysLinerunningtoAustralia。Iwonderwhichsteameritis。’Thenoteofhisvoicehadchanged;heseemedtobetalkingtohimself,andMaisiedidnotapproveofit。Themoonlightbrokethehazeforamoment,touchingtheblacksidesofalongsteamerworkingdownChannel。’Fourmastsandthreefunnels——she’sindeepdraught,too。ThatmustbetheBarralong,ortheBhutia。No,theBhutiahasaclopperbow。It’stheBarralong,toAustralia。She’lllifttheSouthernCrossinaweek,——luckyoldtub!——oh,luckyoldtub!’
  Hestaredintently,andmoveduptheslopeoftheforttogetabetterview,butthemistontheseathickenedagain,andthebeatingofthescrewsgrewfainter。Maisiecalledtohimalittleangrily,andhereturned,stillkeepinghiseyestoseaward。’HaveyoueverseentheSouthernCrossblazingrightoveryourhead?’heasked。’It’ssuperb!’
  ’No,’shesaidshortly,’andIdon’twantto。Ifyouthinkit’ssolovely,whydon’tyougoandseeityourself?’
  Sheraisedherfacefromthesoftblacknessofthemartenskinsaboutherthroat,andhereyesshonelikediamonds。Themoonlightonthegraykangaroofurturnedittofrostedsilverofthecoldest。
  ’ByJove,Maisie,youlooklikealittleheathenidoltuckedupthere。’Theeyesshowedthattheydidnotappreciatethecompliment。’I’msorry,’hecontinued。’TheSouthernCrossisn’tworthlookingatunlesssomeonehelpsyoutosee。Thatsteamer’soutofhearing。’
  ’Dick,’shesaidquietly,’supposeIweretocometoyounow,——bequietaminute,——justasIam,andcaringforyoujustasmuchasIdo。’
  ’Notasabrother,thoughYousaidyoudidn’t——inthePark。’
  ’Ineverhadabrother。SupposeIsaid,"Takemetothoseplaces,andintime,perhaps,Imightreallycareforyou,"whatwouldyoudo?’
  ’Sendyoustraightbacktowhereyoucamefrom,inacab。No,I
  wouldn’t;I’dletyouwalk。Butyoucouldn’tdoit,dear。AndIwouldn’truntherisk。You’reworthwaitingfortillyoucancomewithoutreservation。’
  ’Doyouhonestlybelievethat?’
  ’IhaveahazysortofideathatIdo。Hasitneverstruckyouinthatlight?’
  ’Ye——es。Ifeelsowickedaboutit。’
  ’Wickederthanusual?’
  ’Youdon’tknowallIthink。It’salmosttooawfultotell。’
  ’Nevermind。Youpromisedtotellmethetruth——atleast。’
  ’It’ssoungratefulofme,but——but,thoughIknowyoucareforme,andI
  liketohaveyouwithme,I’d——I’devensacrificeyou,ifthatwouldbringmewhatIwant。’
  ’Mypoorlittledarling!Iknowthatstateofmind。Itdoesn’tleadtogoodwork。’
  ’Youaren’tangry?Remember,Idodespisemyself。’
  ’I’mnotexactlyflattered,——Ihadguessedasmuchbefore,——butI’mnotangry。I’msorryforyou。Surelyyououghttohaveleftalittlenesslikethatbehindyou,yearsago。’
  ’You’venorighttopatroniseme!IonlywantwhatIhaveworkedforsolong。Itcametoyouwithoutanytrouble,and——andIdon’tthinkit’sfair。’
  ’WhatcanIdo?I’dgivetenyearsofmylifetogetyouwhatyouwant。
  ButIcan’thelpyou;evenIcan’thelp。’
  AmurmurofdissentfromMaisie。Hewenton——
  ’AndIknowbywhatyouhavejustsaidthatyou’reonthewrongroadtosuccess。Itisn’tgotatbysacrificingotherpeople,——I’vehadthatmuchknockedintome;youmustsacrificeyourself,andliveunderorders,andneverthinkforyourself,andneverhaverealsatisfactioninyourworkexceptjustatthebeginning,whenyou’rereachingoutafteranotion。’
  ’Howcanyoubelieveallthat?’
  ’There’snoquestionofbeliefordisbelief。That’sthelaw,andyoutakeitorrefuseitasyouplease。Itrytoobey,butIcan’t,andthenmyworkturnsbadonmyhands。Underanycircumstances,remember,four—fifthsofeverybody’sworkmustbebad。Buttheremnantisworththetroubleforit’sownsake。’
  ’Isn’titnicetogetcreditevenforbadwork?’
  ’It’smuchtoonice。But————MayItellyousomething?Itisn’taprettytale,butyou’resolikeamanthatIforgetwhenI’mtalkingtoyou。’
  ’Tellme。’
  ’OncewhenIwasoutintheSoudanIwentoversomegroundthatwehadbeenfightingonforthreedays。Thereweretwelvehundreddead;
  andwehadn’ttimetoburythem。’
  ’Howghastly!’
  ’Ihadbeenatworkonabigdouble—sheetsketch,andIwaswonderingwhatpeoplewouldthinkofitathome。Thesightofthatfieldtaughtmeagooddeal。Itlookedjustlikeabedofhorribletoadstoolsinallcolours,and——I’dneverseenmeninbulkgobacktotheirbeginningsbefore。SoI
  begantounderstandthatmenandwomenwereonlymaterialtoworkwith,andthatwhattheysaidordidwasofnoconsequence。See?Strictlyspeaking,youmightjustaswellputyoureardowntothepalettetocatchwhatyourcoloursaresaying。’
  ’Dick,that’sdisgraceful!’
  ’Waitaminute。Isaid,strictlyspeaking。Unfortunately,everybodymustbeeitheramanorawoman。’
  ’I’mgladyouallowthatmuch。’
  ’InyourcaseIdon’t。Youaren’tawoman。Butordinarypeople,Maisie,mustbehaveandworkassuch。That’swhatmakesmesosavage。’Hehurledapebbletowardstheseaashespoke。’Iknowthatitisoutsidemybusinesstocarewhatpeoplesay;IcanseethatitspoilsmyoutputifI
  listento’em;andyet,confounditall,’——anotherpebbleflewseaward,——’I
  can’thelppurringwhenI’mrubbedtherightway。EvenwhenIcanseeonaman’sforeheadthatheislyinghiswaythroughaclumpofprettyspeeches,thoseliesmakemehappyandplaythemischiefwithmyhand。’
  ’Andwhenhedoesn’tsayprettythings?’
  ’Then,belovedest,’——Dickgrinned,——’IforgetthatIamthestewardofthesegifts,andIwanttomakethatmanloveandappreciatemyworkwithathickstick。It’stoohumiliatingaltogether;butIsupposeevenifonewereanangelandpaintedhumansaltogetherfromoutside,onewouldloseintouchwhatonegainedingrip。’
  MaisielaughedattheideaofDickasanangel。
  ’Butyouseemtothink,’shesaid,’thateverythingnicespoilsyourhand。’
  ’Idon’tthink。It’sthelaw,——justthesameasitwasatMrs。Jennett’s。
  Everythingthatisnicedoesspoilyourhand。I’mgladyouseesoclearly。’
  ’Idon’tliketheview。’
  ’NorI。But——havegotorders:whatcando?Areyoustrongenoughtofaceitalone?’
  ’IsupposeImust。’
  ’Letmehelp,darling。Wecanholdeachotherverytightandtrytowalkstraight。Weshallblunderhorribly,butitwillbebetterthanstumblingapart。Maisie,can’tyouseereason?’
  ’Idon’tthinkweshouldgetontogether。Weshouldbetwoofatrade,soweshouldneveragree。’
  ’HowIshouldliketomeetthemanwhomadethatproverb!Helivedinacaveandaterawbear,Ifancy。I’dmakehimchewhisownarrow—heads。
  Well?’
  ’Ishouldbeonlyhalfmarriedtoyou。Ishouldworryandfussaboutmywork,asIdonow。FourdaysoutofthesevenI’mnotfittospeakto。’
  ’Youtalkasifnooneelseintheworldhadeverusedabrush。D’yousupposethatIdon’tknowthefeelingofworryandbotherandcan’t—get—at—ness?You’reluckyifyouonlyhaveitfourdaysoutoftheseven。Whatdifferencewouldthatmake?’
  ’Agreatdeal——ifyouhadittoo。’
  ’Yes,butIcouldrespectit。Anothermanmightnot。Hemightlaughatyou。Butthere’snousetalkingaboutit。Ifyoucanthinkinthatwayyoucan’tcareforme——yet。’
  Thetidehadnearlycoveredthemud—banksandtwentylittleripplesbrokeonthebeachbeforeMaisiechosetospeak。
  ’Dick,’shesaidslowly,’IbelieveverymuchthatyouarebetterthanI
  am。’
  ’Thisdoesn’tseemtobearontheargument——butinwhatway?’
  ’Idon’tquiteknow,butinwhatyousaidaboutworkandthings;andthenyou’resopatient。Yes,you’rebetterthanIam。’
  Dickconsideredrapidlythemurkinessofanaverageman’slife。Therewasnothinginthereviewtofillhimwithasenseofvirtue。Heliftedthehemofthecloaktohislips。
  ’Why,’saidMaisie,makingasthoughshehadnotnoticed,’canyouseethingsthatIcan’t?Idon’tbelievewhatyoubelieve;butyou’reright,I
  believe。’
  ’IfI’veseenanything,GodknowsIcouldn’thaveseenitbutforyou,andIknowthatIcouldn’thavesaiditexcepttoyou。Youseemedtomakeeverythingclearforaminute;butIdon’tpracticewhatIpreach。Youwouldhelpme……Thereareonlyustwointheworldforallpurposes,and——andyouliketohavemewithyou?’
  ’OfcourseIdo。IwonderifyoucanrealisehowutterlylonelyIam!’
  ’Darling,IthinkIcan。’
  ’Twoyearsago,whenIfirsttookthelittlehouse,Iusedtowalkupanddowntheback—gardentryingtocry。Inevercancry。Canyou?’
  ’It’ssometimesinceItried。Whatwasthetrouble?Overwork?’
  ’Idon’tknow;butIusedtodreamthatIhadbrokendown,andhadnomoney,andwasstarvinginLondon。Ithoughtaboutitallday,anditfrightenedme——oh,howitfrightenedme!’
  ’Iknowthatfear。It’sthemostterribleofall。Itwakesmeupinthenightsometimes。Yououghtn’ttoknowanythingaboutit。’
  ’Howdoyouknow?’
  ’Nevermind。Isyourthreehundredayearsafe?’
  ’It’sinConsols。’
  ’Verywell。Ifanyonecomestoyouandrecommendsabetterinvestment,——evenifIshouldcometoyou,——don’tyoulisten。Nevershiftthemoneyforaminute,andneverlendapennyofit,——eventothered—hairedgirl。’
  ’Don’tscoldmeso!I’mnotlikelytobefoolish。’
  ’Theearthisfullofmenwho’dselltheirsoulsforthreehundredayear;
  andwomencomeandtalk,andborrowafive—poundnotehereandaten—poundnotethere;andawomanhasnoconscienceinamoneydebt。
  Sticktoyourmoney,Maisie,forthere’snothingmoreghastlyintheworldthanpovertyinLondon。It’sscaredme。ByJove,itputthefearintome!Andoneoughtn’ttobeafraidofanything。’
  Toeachmanisappointedhisparticulardread,——theterrorthat,ifhedoesnotfightagainstit,mustcowhimeventothelossofhismanhood。Dick’sexperienceofthesordidmiseryofwanthadenteredintothedeepsofhim,and,lesthemightfindvirtuetooeasy,thatmemorystoodbehindhim,temptingtoshame,whendealerscametobuyhiswares。AstheNilghaiquakedagainsthiswillatthestillgreenwaterofalakeoramill—dam,asTorpenhowflinchedbeforeanywhitearmthatcouldcutorstabandloathedhimselfforflinching,Dickfearedthepovertyhehadoncetastedhalfinjest。Hisburdenwasheavierthantheburdensofhiscompanions。
  Maisiewatchedthefaceworkinginthemoonlight。
  ’You’veplentyofpenniesnow,’shesaidsoothingly。
  ’Ishallneverhaveenough,’hebegan,withviciousemphasis。Then,laughing,’Ishallalwaysbethree—penceshortinmyaccounts。’
  ’Whythreepence?’
  ’Icarriedaman’sbagoncefromLiverpoolStreetStationtoBlackfriar’sBridge。Itwasasixpennyjob,——youneedn’tlaugh;indeeditwas,——andI
  wantedthemoneydesperately。Heonlygavemethreepence;andhehadn’teventhedecencytopayinsilver。WhatevermoneyImake,Ishallnevergetthatoddthreepenceoutoftheworld。’
  Thiswasnotlanguagebefittingthemanwhohadpreachedofthesanctityofwork。ItjarredonMaisie,whopreferredherpaymentinapplause,which,sinceallmendesireit,mustbeofheright。Shehuntedforherlittlepurseandgravelytookoutathreepennybit。
  ’Thereitis,’shesaid。’I’llpayyou,Dickie;anddon’tworryanymore;itisn’tworthwhile。Areyoupaid?’
  ’Iam,’saidtheveryhumanapostleoffaircraft,takingthecoin。’I’mpaidathousandtimes,andwe’llclosethataccount。Itshallliveonmywatch—chain;andyou’reanangel,Maisie。’
  ’I’mverycramped,andI’mfeelingalittlecold。Goodgracious!thecloakisallwhite,andsoisyourmoustache!Ineverknewitwassochilly。’
  AlightfrostlaywhiteontheshoulderofDick’sulster。He,too,hadforgottenthestateoftheweather。Theylaughedtogether,andwiththatlaughendedallseriousdiscourse。
  Theyraninlandacrossthewastetowarmthemselves,thenturnedtolookatthegloryofthefulltideunderthemoonlightandtheintenseblackshadowsofthefurzebushes。ItwasanadditionaljoytoDickthatMaisiecouldseecolourevenashesawit,——couldseetheblueinthewhiteofthemist,thevioletthatisingraypalings,andallthingselseastheyare,——notofonehue,butathousand。AndthemoonlightcameintoMaisie’ssoul,sothatshe,usuallyreserved,chatteredofherselfandofthethingsshetookinterestin,——ofKami,wisestofteachers,andofthegirlsinthestudio,——ofthePoles,whowillkillthemselveswithoverworkiftheyarenotchecked;oftheFrench,whotalkatgreatlengthofmuchmorethantheywilleveraccomplish;oftheslovenlyEnglish,whotoilhopelesslyandcannotunderstandthatinclinationdoesnotimplypower;
  oftheAmericans,whoseraspingvoicesinthehushofahotafternoonstraintense—drawnnervestobreaking—point,andwhosesuppersleadtoindigestion;oftempestuousRussians,neithertoholdnortobind,whotellthegirlsghost—storiestillthegirlsshriek;ofstolidGermans,whocometolearnonething,and,havingmasteredthatmuch,stolidlygoawayandcopypicturesforevermore。DicklistenedenrapturedbecauseitwasMaisiewhospoke。Heknewtheoldlife。
  ’Ithasn’tchangedmuch,’hesaid。’Dotheystillstealcoloursatlunch—time?’
  ’Notsteal。Attractistheword。Ofcoursetheydo。I’mgood——Ionlyattractultramarine;buttherearestudentswho’dattractflake—white。’
  ’I’vedoneitmyself。Youcan’thelpitwhenthepalettesarehungup。
  Everycolouriscommonpropertyonceitrunsdown,——eventhoughyoudostartitwithadropofoil。Itteachespeoplenottowastetheirtubes。’
  ’Ishouldliketoattractsomeofyourcolours,Dick。PerhapsImightcatchyoursuccesswiththem。’
  ’Imustn’tsayabadword,butIshouldliketo。Whatintheworld,whichyou’vejustmissedalovelychanceofseeing,doessuccessorwantofsuccess,orathree—storiedsuccess,mattercomparedwith————No,Iwon’topenthatquestionagain。It’stimetogobacktotown。’
  ’I’msorry,Dick,but————’
  ’You’remuchmoreinterestedinthatthanyouareinme。’
  ’Idon’tknow,Idon’tthinkIam。’
  ’WhatwillyougivemeifItellyouasureshort—cuttoeverythingyouwant,——thetroubleandthefussandthetangleandalltherest?Willyoupromisetoobeyme?’
  ’Ofcourse。’
  ’Inthefirstplace,youmustneverforgetamealbecauseyouhappentobeatwork。Youforgotyourlunchtwicelastweek,’saidDick,ataventure,forheknewwithwhomhewasdealing。’
  ’No,no,——onlyonce,really。’
  ’That’sbadenough。Andyoumustn’ttakeacupofteaandabiscuitinplaceofaregulardinner,becausedinnerhappenstobeatrouble。’
  ’You’remakingfunofme!’
  ’Ineverwasmoreinearnestinmylife。Oh,mylove,mylove,hasn’titdawnedonyouyetwhatyouaretome?Here’sthewholeearthinaconspiracytogiveyouachill,orrunoveryou,ordrenchyoutotheskin,orcheatyououtofyourmoney,orletyoudieofoverworkandunderfeeding,andIhaven’tthemererighttolookafteryou。Why,I
  don’tevenknowifyouhavesenseenoughtoputonwarmthingswhentheweather’scold。’
  ’Dick,you’rethemostawfulboytotalkto——really!HowdoyousupposeI
  managedwhenyouwereaway?’
  ’Iwasn’there,andIdidn’tknow。ButnowI’mbackI’dgiveeverythingI
  havefortherightoftellingyoutocomeinoutoftherain。’
  ’Yoursuccesstoo?’
  ThistimeitcostDickaseverestruggletorefrainfrombadwords。
  ’AsMrs。Jennettusedtosay,you’reatrial,Maisie!You’vebeencoopedupintheschoolstoolong,andyouthinkeveryoneislookingatyou。
  Therearen’ttwelvehundredpeopleintheworldwhounderstandpictures。Theotherspretendanddon’tcare。Remember,I’veseentwelvehundredmendeadintoadstool—beds。It’sonlythevoiceofthetiniestlittlefractionofpeoplethatmakessuccess。Therealworlddoesn’tcareatinker’s——doesn’tcareabit。ForaughtyouorIknow,everymanintheworldmaybearguingwithaMaisieofhisown。’
  ’PoorMaisie!’
  ’PoorDick,Ithink。Doyoubelievewhilehe’sfightingforwhat’sdearerthanhislifehewantstolookatapicture?Andevenifhedid,andifalltheworlddid,andathousandmillionpeopleroseupandshoutedhymnstomyhonourandglory,wouldthatmakeuptomefortheknowledgethatyouwereoutshoppingintheEdgwareRoadonarainydaywithoutanumbrella?Nowwe’llgotothestation。’
  ’Butyousaidonthebeach————’persistedMaisie,withacertainfear。
  Dickgroanedaloud:’Yes,IknowwhatIsaid。MyworkiseverythingI
  have,oram,orhopetobe,tome,andIbelieveI’velearntthelawthatgovernsit;butI’vesomelingeringsenseoffunleft,——thoughyou’venearlyknockeditoutofme。Icanjustseethatitisn’teverythingtoalltheworld。DowhatIsay,andnotwhatIdo。’
  Maisiewascarefulnottoreopendebatablematters,andtheyreturnedtoLondonjoyously。TheterminusstoppedDickinthemidstofaneloquentharangueonthebeautiesofexercise。HewouldbuyMaisieahorse,——suchahorseasneveryetbowedheadtobit,——wouldstableit,withacompanion,sometwentymilesfromLondon,andMaisie,solelyforherhealth’ssakeshouldridewithhimtwiceorthriceaweek。
  ’That’sabsurd,’saidshe。’Itwouldn’tbeproper。’
  ’Now,whoinallLondonto—nightwouldhavesufficientinterestoraudacitytocallustwotoaccountforanythingwechosetodo?’
  Maisielookedatthelamps,thefog,andthehideousturmoil。Dickwasright;buthorsefleshdidnotmakeforArtassheunderstoodit。
  ’You’reverynicesometimes,butyou’reveryfoolishmoretimes。I’mnotgoingtoletyougivemehorses,ortakeyououtofyourwayto—night。I’llgohomebymyself。OnlyIwantyoutopromisemesomething。Youwon’tthinkanymoreaboutthatextrathreepence,willyou?Remember,you’vebeenpaid;andIwon’tallowyoutobespitefulanddobadworkforalittlethinglikethat。Youcanbesobigthatyoumustn’tbetiny。’
  Thiswasturningthetableswithavengeance。ThereremainedonlytoputMaisieintoherhansom。
  ’Good—bye,’shesaidsimply。’You’llcomeonSunday。Ithasbeenabeautifulday,Dick。Whycan’titbelikethisalways?’
  ’Becauselove’slikeline—work:youmustgoforwardorbackward;youcan’tstandstill。Bytheway,goonwithyourline—work。Good—night,and,formy——formysake,takecareofyourself。’
  Heturnedtowalkhome,meditating。Thedayhadbroughthimnothingthathehopedfor,but——surelythiswasworthmanydays——ithadbroughthimnearertoMaisie。Theendwasonlyaquestionoftimenow,andtheprizewellworththewaiting。Byinstinct,oncemore,heturnedtotheriver。
  ’Andsheunderstoodatonce,’hesaid,lookingatthewater。’Shefoundoutmypetbesettingsinonthespot,andpaiditoff。MyGod,howsheunderstood!AndshesaidIwasbetterthanshewas!Betterthanshewas!’Helaughedattheabsurdityofthenotion。’Iwonderifgirlsguessatone—halfaman’slife。Theycan’t,or——theywouldn’tmarryus。’Hetookhergiftoutofhispocket,andconsidereditinthelightofamiracleandapledgeofthecomprehensionthat,oneday,wouldleadtoperfecthappiness。Meantime,MaisiewasaloneinLondon,withnonetosaveherfromdanger。Andthepackedwildernesswasveryfullofdanger。
  DickmadehisprayertoFatedisjointedlyafterthemanneroftheheathenashethrewthepieceofsilverintotheriver。Ifanyevilweretobefal,lethimbeartheburdenandletMaisiegounscathed,sincethethreepennypiecewasdearesttohimofallhispossessions。Itwasasmallcoininitself,butMaisiehadgivenit,andtheThamesheldit,andsurelytheFateswouldbebribedforthisonce。
  ThedrowningofthecoinseemedtocuthimfreefromthoughtofMaisieforthemoment。Hetookhimselfoffthebridgeandwentwhistlingtohischamberswithastrongyearningforsomeman—talkandtobaccoafterhisfirstexperienceofanentiredayspentinthesocietyofawoman。TherewasastrongerdesireathisheartwhenthererosebeforehimanunsolicitedvisionoftheBarralongdippingdeepandsailingfreefortheSouthernCross。
  CHAPTERVIII
  Andthesetwo,asIhavetoldyou,WerethefriendsofHiawatha,Chibiabos,themusician,Andtheverystrongman,Kwasind。
  ——Hiawatha。?
  TORPENHOWwaspagingthelastsheetsofsomemanuscript,whiletheNilghai,whohadcomeforchessandremainedtotalktactics,wasreadingthroughthefirstpart,commentingscornfullythewhile。
  ’It’spicturesqueenoughandit’ssketchy,’saidhe;’butasaseriousconsiderationofaffairsinEasternEurope,it’snotworthmuch。’
  ’It’soffmyhandsatanyrate……Thirty—seven,thirty—eight,thirty—nineslipsaltogether,aren’tthere?Thatshouldmakebetweenelevenandtwelvepagesofvaluablemisinformation。Heigho!’Torpenhowshuffledthewritingtogetherandhummed——
  Younglambstosell,younglambstosell,IfI’dasmuchmoneyasIcouldtell,Ineverwouldcry,Younglambstosell!?
  Dickentered,self—consciousandalittledefiant,butinthebestoftemperswithalltheworld。
  ’Backatlast?’saidTorpenhow。
  ’Moreorless。Whathaveyoubeendoing?’
  ’Work。Dickie,youbehaveasthoughtheBankofEnglandwerebehindyou。Here’sSunday,Monday,andTuesdaygoneandyouhaven’tdonealine。It’sscandalous。’
  ’Thenotionscomeandgo,mychildren——theycomeandgolikeour’baccy,’heanswered,fillinghispipe。’Moreover,’hestoopedtothrustaspillintothegrate,’Apollodoesnotalwaysstretchhis————Oh,confoundyourclumsyjests,Nilghai!’
  ’Thisisnottheplacetopreachthetheoryofdirectinspiration,’saidtheNilghai,returningTorpenhow’slargeandworkmanlikebellowstotheirnailonthewall。’Webelieveincobblers’wax。La!——whereyousitdown。’
  ’Ifyouweren’tsobigandfat,’saidDick,lookingroundforaweapon,’I’d————’
  ’Noskylarkinginmyrooms。Youtwosmashedhalfmyfurniturelasttimeyouthrewthecushionsabout。YoumighthavethedecencytosayHowd’youdo?toBinkie。Lookathim。’
  BinkiehadjumpeddownfromthesofaandwasfawningroundDick’sknee,andscratchingathisboots。
  ’Dearman!’saidDick,snatchinghimup,andkissinghimontheblackpatchabovehisrighteye。’Didumswas,Binks?DidthatuglyNilghaiturnyouoffthesofa?Bitehim,Mr。Binkie。’HepitchedhimontheNilghai’sstomach,asthebigmanlayatease,andBinkiepretendedtodestroytheNilghaiinchbyinch,tillasofacushionextinguishedhim,andpantinghestuckouthistongueatthecompany。
  ’TheBinkie—boywentforawalkthismorningbeforeyouwereup,Torp。
  Isawhimmakinglovetothebutcheratthecornerwhentheshutterswerebeingtakendown——justasifhehadn’tenoughtoeatinhisownproperhouse,’saidDick。
  ’Binks,isthatatruebill?’saidTorpenhow,severely。Thelittledogretreatedunderthesofacushion,andshowedbythefatwhitebackofhimthathereallyhadnofurtherinterestinthediscussion。
  ’Strikesmethatanotherdisreputabledogwentforawalk,too,’saidtheNilghai。’Whatmadeyougetupsoearly?Torpsaidyoumightbebuyingahorse。’
  ’Heknowsitwouldneedthreeofusforaseriousbusinesslikethat。No,I
  feltlonesomeandunhappy,soIwentouttolookatthesea,andwatchtheprettyshipsgoby。’
  ’Wheredidyougo?’
  ’SomewhereontheChannel。ProglyorSnigly,orsomewatering—placewasitsname;I’veforgotten;butitwasonlytwohours’runfromLondonandtheshipswentby。’
  ’Didyouseeanythingyouknew?’
  ’OnlytheBarralongoutwardstoAustralia,andanOdessagrain—boatloadeddownbythehead。Itwasathickday,buttheseasmeltgood。’
  ’Whereforeputonone’sbesttrouserstoseetheBarralong?’saidTorpenhow,pointing。
  ’BecauseI’venothingexceptthesethingsandmypaintingduds。Besides,Iwantedtodohonourtothesea。’
  ’DidShemakeyoufeelrestless?’askedtheNilghai,keenly。
  ’Crazy。Don’tspeakofit。I’msorryIwent。’
  TorpenhowandtheNilghaiexchangedalookasDick,stooping,busiedhimselfamongtheformer’sbootsandtrees。