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第5章

  Alexandraconfessedshedidn’tknow。
  "However,"sheadded,"itseemstomethatyougetalongwithFrankaboutaswellasanywomanI’veeverseenorheardofcould。"
  Marieshookherhead,pursingherlipsandblowingherwarmbreathsoftlyoutintothefrostyair。"No;Iwasspoiledathome。Ilikemyownway,andIhaveaquicktongue。WhenFrankbrags,Isaysharpthings,andheneverforgets。Hegoesoverandoveritinhismind;
  Icanfeelhim。ThenI’mtoogiddy。Frank’swifeoughttobetimid,andsheoughtnottocareaboutanotherlivingthingintheworldbutjustFrank!Ididn’t,whenImarriedhim,butIsupposeIwastooyoungtostaylikethat。"
  Mariesighed。
  AlexandrahadneverheardMariespeaksofranklyaboutherhusbandbefore,andshefeltthatitwaswisernottoencourageher。Nogood,shereasoned,evercamefromtalkingaboutsuchthings,andwhileMariewasthink—
  ingaloud,Alexandrahadbeensteadilysearch—
  ingthehat—boxes。"Aren’tthesethepat—
  terns,Maria?"
  Mariasprangupfromthefloor。"Sureenough,wewerelookingforpatterns,weren’twe?I’dforgotabouteverythingbutFrank’sotherwife。I’llputthataway。"
  ShepokedthecanebehindFrank’sSundayclothes,andthoughshelaughed,Alexandrasawthereweretearsinhereyes。
  Whentheywentbacktothekitchen,thesnowhadbeguntofall,andMarie’svisitorsthoughttheymustbegettinghome。Shewentouttothecartwiththem,andtuckedtherobesaboutoldMrs。LeewhileAlexandratooktheblanketoffherhorse。Astheydroveaway,Marieturnedandwentslowlybacktothehouse。ShetookupthepackageoflettersAlexandrahadbrought,butshedidnotreadthem。Sheturnedthemoverandlookedattheforeignstamps,andthensatwatchingthefly—
  ingsnowwhiletheduskdeepenedinthekitchenandthestovesentoutaredglow。
  MarieknewperfectlywellthatEmil’sletterswerewrittenmoreforherthanforAlexandra。
  Theywerenotthesortoflettersthatayoungmanwritestohissister。Theywerebothmorepersonalandmorepainstaking;fullofdescrip—
  tionsofthegaylifeintheoldMexicancapitalinthedayswhenthestronghandofPorfirioDiazwasstillstrong。Hetoldaboutbull—fightsandcock—fights,churchesandFIESTAS,theflower—
  marketsandthefountains,themusicanddan—
  cing,thepeopleofallnationshemetintheItalianrestaurantsonSanFranciscoStreet。Inshort,theywerethekindoflettersayoungmanwritestoawomanwhenhewisheshimselfandhislifetoseeminterestingtoher,whenhewishestoenlistherimaginationinhisbehalf。
  Marie,whenshewasaloneorwhenshesatsewingintheevening,oftenthoughtaboutwhatitmustbelikedowntherewhereEmilwas;wheretherewereflowersandstreetbandseverywhere,andcarriagesrattlingupanddown,andwheretherewasalittleblindboot—
  blackinfrontofthecathedralwhocouldplayanytuneyouaskedforbydroppingthelidsofblacking—boxesonthestonesteps。Wheneverythingisdoneandoverforoneattwenty—
  three,itispleasanttoletthemindwanderforthandfollowayoungadventurerwhohaslifebeforehim。"Andifithadnotbeenforme,"shethought,"Frankmightstillbefreelikethat,andhavingagoodtimemakingpeo—
  pleadmirehim。PoorFrank,gettingmarriedwasn’tverygoodforhimeither。I’mafraidI
  dosetpeopleagainsthim,ashesays。Iseem,somehow,togivehimawayallthetime。Per—
  hapshewouldtrytobeagreeabletopeopleagain,ifIwerenotaround。ItseemsasifI
  alwaysmakehimjustasbadashecanbe。"
  Laterinthewinter,AlexandralookedbackuponthatafternoonasthelastsatisfactoryvisitshehadhadwithMarie。Afterthatdaytheyoungerwomanseemedtoshrinkmoreandmoreintoherself。WhenshewaswithAlexan—
  drashewasnotspontaneousandfrankassheusedtobe。Sheseemedtobebroodingoversomething,andholdingsomethingback。Theweatherhadagooddealtodowiththeirseeinglessofeachotherthanusual。Therehadnotbeensuchsnowstormsintwentyyears,andthepathacrossthefieldswasdrifteddeepfromChrist—
  masuntilMarch。Whenthetwoneighborswenttoseeeachother,theyhadtogoroundbythewagon—road,whichwastwiceasfar。Theytele—
  phonedeachotheralmosteverynight,thoughinJanuarytherewasastretchofthreeweekswhenthewiresweredown,andwhenthepost—
  mandidnotcomeatall。
  Marieoftenranintoseehernearestneigh—
  bor,oldMrs。Hiller,whowascrippledwithrheumatismandhadonlyherson,thelameshoemaker,totakecareofher;andshewenttotheFrenchChurch,whatevertheweather。Shewasasincerelydevoutgirl。Sheprayedforher—
  selfandforFrank,andforEmil,amongthetemptationsofthatgay,corruptoldcity。ShefoundmorecomfortintheChurchthatwinterthaneverbefore。Itseemedtocomeclosertoher,andtofillanemptinessthatachedinherheart。Shetriedtobepatientwithherhus—
  band。HeandhishiredmanusuallyplayedCal—
  iforniaJackintheevening。Mariesatsew—
  ingorcrochetingandtriedtotakeafriendlyinterestinthegame,butshewasalwaysthinkingaboutthewidefieldsoutside,wherethesnowwasdriftingoverthefences;andabouttheorchard,wherethesnowwasfallingandpacking,crustovercrust。Whenshewentoutintothedarkkitchentofixherplantsforthenight,sheusedtostandbythewindowandlookoutatthewhitefields,orwatchthecurrentsofsnowwhirlingovertheorchard。
  Sheseemedtofeeltheweightofallthesnowthatlaydownthere。Thebrancheshadbe—
  comesohardthattheywoundedyourhandifyoubuttriedtobreakatwig。Andyet,downunderthefrozencrusts,attherootsofthetrees,thesecretoflifewasstillsafe,warmasthebloodinone’sheart;andthespringwouldcomeagain!Oh,itwouldcomeagain!
  II
  IfAlexandrahadhadmuchimaginationshemighthaveguessedwhatwasgoingoninMarie’smind,andshewouldhaveseenlongbeforewhatwasgoingoninEmil’s。Butthat,asEmilhimselfhadmorethanoncereflected,wasAlexandra’sblindside,andherlifehadnotbeenofthekindtosharpenhervision。Hertraininghadallbeentowardtheendofmakingherproficientinwhatshehadundertakentodo。
  Herpersonallife,herownrealizationofherself,wasalmostasubconsciousexistence;likeanundergroundriverthatcametothesurfaceonlyhereandthere,atintervalsmonthsapart,andthensankagaintoflowonunderherownfields。
  Nevertheless,theundergroundstreamwasthere,anditwasbecauseshehadsomuchper—
  sonalitytoputintoherenterprisesandsuc—
  ceededinputtingitintothemsocompletely,thatheraffairsprosperedbetterthanthoseofherneighbors。
  Therewerecertaindaysinherlife,out—
  wardlyuneventful,whichAlexandraremem—
  beredaspeculiarlyhappy;dayswhenshewasclosetotheflat,fallowworldabouther,andfelt,asitwere,inherownbodythejoyousgerminationinthesoil。Thereweredays,too,whichsheandEmilhadspenttogether,uponwhichshelovedtolookback。Therehadbeensuchadaywhentheyweredownontheriverinthedryyear,lookingovertheland。Theyhadmadeanearlystartonemorningandhaddrivenalongwaybeforenoon。WhenEmilsaidhewashungry,theydrewbackfromtheroad,gaveBrighamhisoatsamongthebushes,andclimbeduptothetopofagrassyblufftoeattheirlunchundertheshadeofsomelittleelmtrees。Theriverwasclearthere,andshallow,sincetherehadbeennorain,anditraninripplesoverthesparklingsand。Undertheoverhangingwillowsoftheoppositebanktherewasaninletwherethewaterwasdeeperandflowedsoslowlythatitseemedtosleepinthesun。Inthislittlebayasinglewildduckwasswimminganddivingandpreeningherfeathers,disportingherselfveryhappilyintheflickeringlightandshade。Theysatforalongtime,watchingthesolitarybirdtakeitspleasure。NolivingthinghadeverseemedtoAlexandraasbeautifulasthatwildduck。Emilmusthavefeltaboutitasshedid,forafterward,whentheywereathome,heusedsometimestosay,"Sister,youknowourduckdownthere——"Alexandrarememberedthatdayasoneofthehappiestinherlife。Yearsafterwardshethoughtoftheduckasstillthere,swimminganddivingallbyherselfinthesun—
  light,akindofenchantedbirdthatdidnotknowageorchange。
  MostofAlexandra’shappymemorieswereasimpersonalasthisone;yettohertheywereverypersonal。Hermindwasawhitebook,withclearwritingaboutweatherandbeastsandgrowingthings。Notmanypeoplewouldhavecaredtoreadit;onlyahappyfew。Shehadneverbeeninlove,shehadneverindulgedinsentimentalreveries。Evenasagirlshehadlookeduponmenaswork—fellows。Shehadgrownupinserioustimes。
  Therewasonefancyindeed,whichpersistedthroughhergirlhood。ItmostoftencametoheronSundaymornings,theonedayintheweekwhenshelaylateabedlisteningtothefamiliarmorningsounds;thewindmillsinginginthebriskbreeze,Emilwhistlingasheblackedhisbootsdownbythekitchendoor。Some—
  times,asshelaythusluxuriouslyidle,hereyesclosed,sheusedtohaveanillusionofbeingliftedupbodilyandcarriedlightlybysomeoneverystrong。Itwasaman,certainly,whocar—
  riedher,buthewaslikenomansheknew;hewasmuchlargerandstrongerandswifter,andhecarriedheraseasilyasifshewereasheafofwheat。Sheneversawhim,but,witheyesclosed,shecouldfeelthathewasyellowlikethesunlight,andtherewasthesmellofripecorn—
  fieldsabouthim。Shecouldfeelhimapproach,bendoverherandlifther,andthenshecouldfeelherselfbeingcarriedswiftlyoffacrossthefields。Aftersuchareverieshewouldrisehas—
  tily,angrywithherself,andgodowntothebath—housethatwaspartitionedoffthekitchenshed。Thereshewouldstandinatintubandprosecuteherbathwithvigor,finishingitbypouringbucketsofcoldwell—wateroverhergleamingwhitebodywhichnomanontheDividecouldhavecarriedveryfar。
  Asshegrewolder,thisfancymoreoftencametoherwhenshewastiredthanwhenshewasfreshandstrong。Sometimes,aftershehadbeenintheopenallday,overseeingthebrand—
  ingofthecattleortheloadingofthepigs,shewouldcomeinchilled,takeaconcoctionofspicesandwarmhome—madewine,andgotobedwithherbodyactuallyachingwithfatigue。
  Then,justbeforeshewenttosleep,shehadtheoldsensationofbeingliftedandcarriedbyastrongbeingwhotookfromherallherbodilyweariness。
  EndofPartIII
  PARTIV
  TheWhiteMulberryTreeI
  TheFrenchChurch,properlytheChurchofSainte—Agnes,stooduponahill。Thehigh,nar—
  row,red—brickbuilding,withitstallsteepleandsteeproof,couldbeseenformilesacrossthewheatfields,thoughthelittletownofSainte—
  Agneswascompletelyhiddenawayatthefootofthehill。Thechurchlookedpowerfulandtriumphantthereonitseminence,sohighabovetherestofthelandscape,withmilesofwarmcolorlyingatitsfeet,andbyitspositionandsettingitremindedoneofsomeofthechurchesbuiltlongagointhewheat—landsofmiddleFrance。
  LateoneJuneafternoonAlexandraBergsonwasdrivingalongoneofthemanyroadsthatledthroughtherichFrenchfarmingcountrytothebigchurch。Thesunlightwasshiningdi—
  rectlyinherface,andtherewasablazeoflightallabouttheredchurchonthehill。BesideAlexandraloungedastrikinglyexoticfigureinatallMexicanhat,asilksash,andablackvel—
  vetjacketsewnwithsilverbuttons。Emilhadreturnedonlythenightbefore,andhissisterwassoproudofhimthatshedecidedatoncetotakehimuptothechurchsupper,andtomakehimweartheMexicancostumehehadbroughthomeinhistrunk。"Allthegirlswhohavestandsaregoingtowearfancycostumes,"
  sheargued,"andsomeoftheboys。Marieisgoingtotellfortunes,andshesenttoOmahaforaBohemiandressherfatherbroughtbackfromavisittotheoldcountry。Ifyouwearthoseclothes,theywillallbepleased。Andyoumusttakeyourguitar。Everybodyoughttodowhattheycantohelpalong,andwehaveneverdonemuch。Wearenotatalentedfamily。"
  Thesupperwastobeatsixo’clock,inthebasementofthechurch,andafterwardtherewouldbeafair,withcharadesandanauction。
  Alexandrahadsetoutfromhomeearly,leavingthehousetoSignaandNelseJensen,whoweretobemarriednextweek。SignahadshylyaskedtohavetheweddingputoffuntilEmilcamehome。
  Alexandrawaswellsatisfiedwithherbrother。
  AstheydrovethroughtherollingFrenchcoun—
  trytowardthewesteringsunandthestalwartchurch,shewasthinkingofthattimelongagowhensheandEmildrovebackfromtherivervalleytothestillunconqueredDivide。Yes,shetoldherself,ithadbeenworthwhile;bothEmilandthecountryhadbecomewhatshehadhoped。Outofherfather’schildrentherewasonewhowasfittocopewiththeworld,whohadnotbeentiedtotheplow,andwhohadaper—
  sonalityapartfromthesoil。Andthat,shereflected,waswhatshehadworkedfor。Shefeltwellsatisfiedwithherlife。
  Whentheyreachedthechurch,ascoreofteamswerehitchedinfrontofthebasementdoorsthatopenedfromthehillsideuponthesandedterrace,wheretheboyswrestledandhadjumping—matches。AmedeeChevalier,aproudfatherofoneweek,rushedoutandembracedEmil。Amedeewasanonlyson,——hencehewasaveryrichyoungman,——buthemeanttohavetwentychildrenhimself,likehisuncleXavier。"Oh,Emil,"hecried,hugginghisoldfriendrapturously,"whyain’tyoubeenuptoseemyboy?Youcometo—morrow,sure?
  Emil,youwannagetaboyrightoff!It’sthegreatestthingever!No,no,no!Angelnotsickatall。Everythingjustfine。Thatboyhecomeintothisworldlaughin’,andhebeenlaughin’
  eversince。Youcomean’see!"HepoundedEmil’sribstoemphasizeeachannouncement。
  Emilcaughthisarms。"Stop,Amedee。
  You’reknockingthewindoutofme。Ibroughthimcupsandspoonsandblanketsandmocca—
  sinsenoughforanorphanasylum。I’mawfulgladit’saboy,sureenough!"
  TheyoungmencrowdedroundEmiltoad—
  mirehiscostumeandtotellhiminabreatheverythingthathadhappenedsincehewentaway。EmilhadmorefriendsuphereintheFrenchcountrythandownonNorwayCreek。
  TheFrenchandBohemianboyswerespiritedandjolly,likedvariety,andwereasmuchpre—
  disposedtofavoranythingnewastheScandi—
  navianboysweretorejectit。TheNorwegianandSwedishladsweremuchmoreself—centred,apttobeegotisticalandjealous。TheywerecautiousandreservedwithEmilbecausehehadbeenawaytocollege,andwerepreparedtotakehimdownifheshouldtrytoputonairswiththem。TheFrenchboyslikedabitofswagger,andtheywerealwaysdelightedtohearaboutanythingnew:newclothes,newgames,newsongs,newdances。Nowtheycar—
  riedEmilofftoshowhimtheclubroomtheyhadjustfittedupoverthepost—office,downinthevillage。Theyrandownthehillinadrove,alllaughingandchatteringatonce,someinFrench,someinEnglish。
  Alexandrawentintothecool,whitewashedbasementwherethewomenweresettingthetables。Mariewasstandingonachair,buildingalittletentofshawlswhereshewastotellfortunes。ShesprangdownandrantowardAlexandra,stoppingshortandlookingatherindisappointment。Alexandranoddedtoherencouragingly。
  "Oh,hewillbehere,Marie。Theboyshavetakenhimofftoshowhimsomething。Youwon’tknowhim。Heisamannow,sureenough。
  Ihavenoboyleft。Hesmokesterrible—smellingMexicancigarettesandtalksSpanish。Howprettyyoulook,child。Wheredidyougetthosebeautifulearrings?"
  "Theybelongedtofather’smother。Healwayspromisedthemtome。HesentthemwiththedressandsaidIcouldkeepthem。"
  Marieworeashortredskirtofstoutlywovencloth,awhitebodiceandkirtle,ayellowsilkturbanwoundlowoverherbrowncurls,andlongcoralpendantsinherears。Herearshadbeenpiercedagainstapieceofcorkbyhergreat—auntwhenshewassevenyearsold。Inthosegermlessdaysshehadwornbitsofbroom—
  straw,pluckedfromthecommonsweeping—
  broom,inthelobesuntiltheholeswerehealedandreadyforlittlegoldrings。
  WhenEmilcamebackfromthevillage,helingeredoutsideontheterracewiththeboys。
  MariecouldhearhimtalkingandstrummingonhisguitarwhileRaoulMarcelsangfalsetto。
  Shewasvexedwithhimforstayingoutthere。
  Itmadeherverynervoustohearhimandnottoseehim;for,certainly,shetoldherself,shewasnotgoingouttolookforhim。Whenthesupperbellrangandtheboyscametroopingintogetseatsatthefirsttable,sheforgotallaboutherannoyanceandrantogreetthetall—
  estofthecrowd,inhisconspicuousattire。Shedidn’tmindshowingherembarrassmentatall。
  SheblushedandlaughedexcitedlyasshegaveEmilherhand,andlookeddelightedlyattheblackvelvetcoatthatbroughtouthisfairskinandfineblondhead。Mariewasincapableofbeinglukewarmaboutanythingthatpleasedher。Shesimplydidnotknowhowtogiveahalf—heartedresponse。Whenshewasde—
  lighted,shewasaslikelyasnottostandonhertip—toesandclapherhands。Ifpeoplelaughedather,shelaughedwiththem。
  "Dothemenwearclotheslikethateveryday,inthestreet?"ShecaughtEmilbyhissleeveandturnedhimabout。"Oh,IwishI
  livedwherepeopleworethingslikethat!Arethebuttonsrealsilver?Putonthehat,please。
  Whataheavything!Howdoyoueverwearit?Whydon’tyoutellusaboutthebull—
  fights?"
  Shewantedtowringallhisexperiencesfromhimatonce,withoutwaitingamoment。Emilsmiledtolerantlyandstoodlookingdownatherwithhisold,broodinggaze,whiletheFrenchgirlsflutteredabouthimintheirwhitedressesandribbons,andAlexandrawatchedthescenewithpride。SeveraloftheFrenchgirls,Marieknew,werehopingthatEmilwouldtakethemtosupper,andshewasrelievedwhenhetookonlyhissister。MariecaughtFrank’sarmanddraggedhimtothesametable,managingtogetseatsoppositetheBergsons,sothatshecouldhearwhattheyweretalkingabout。AlexandramadeEmiltellMrs。XavierChevalier,themotherofthetwenty,abouthowhehadseenafamousmatadorkilledinthebull—ring。Marielistenedtoeveryword,onlytakinghereyesfromEmiltowatchFrank’splateandkeepitfilled。WhenEmilfinishedhisaccount,——
  bloodyenoughtosatisfyMrs。Xavierandtomakeherfeelthankfulthatshewasnotamatador,——Mariebrokeoutwithavolleyofquestions。Howdidthewomendresswhentheywenttobull—fights?Didtheywearman—
  tillas?Didtheyneverwearhats?
  Aftersuppertheyoungpeopleplayedchar—
  adesfortheamusementoftheirelders,whosatgossipingbetweentheirguesses。AlltheshopsinSainte—Agneswereclosedateighto’clockthatnight,sothatthemerchantsandtheirclerkscouldattendthefair。Theauctionwastheliveliestpartoftheentertainment,fortheFrenchboysalwayslosttheirheadswhentheybegantobid,satisfiedthattheirextravagancewasinagoodcause。Afterallthepincushionsandsofapillowsandembroideredslippersweresold,Emilprecipitatedapanicbytakingoutoneofhisturquoiseshirtstuds,whicheveryonehadbeenadmiring,andhandingittotheauc—
  tioneer。AlltheFrenchgirlsclamoredforit,andtheirsweetheartsbidagainsteachotherrecklessly。Mariewantedit,too,andshekeptmakingsignalstoFrank,whichhetookasourpleasureindisregarding。Hedidn’tseetheuseofmakingafussoverafellowjustbecausehewasdressedlikeaclown。WhentheturquoisewenttoMalvinaSauvage,theFrenchbanker’sdaughter,Marieshruggedhershouldersandbetookherselftoherlittletentofshawls,whereshebegantoshufflehercardsbythelightofatallowcandle,callingout,"Fortunes,for—
  tunes!"
  Theyoungpriest,FatherDuchesne,wentfirsttohavehisfortuneread。Marietookhislongwhitehand,lookedatit,andthenbegantorunoffhercards。"Iseealongjourneyacrosswaterforyou,Father。Youwillgotoatownallcutupbywater;builtonislands,itseemstobe,withriversandgreenfieldsallabout。Andyouwillvisitanoldladywithawhitecapandgoldhoopsinherears,andyouwillbeveryhappythere。"
  "Mais,oui,"saidthepriest,withamelan—
  cholysmile。"C’estL’Isle—Adam,chezmamere。Vousetestressavante,mafille。"Hepattedheryellowturban,calling,"Venezdonc,mesgarcons!Ilyaiciuneveritableclairvoyante!"
  Mariewascleveratfortune—telling,indulg—
  inginalightironythatamusedthecrowd。ShetoldoldBrunot,themiser,thathewouldloseallhismoney,marryagirlofsixteen,andlivehappilyonacrust。Sholte,thefatRussianboy,wholivedforhisstomach,wastobedisap—
  pointedinlove,growthin,andshoothimselffromdespondency。Amedeewastohavetwentychildren,andnineteenofthemweretobegirls。AmedeeslappedFrankonthebackandaskedhimwhyhedidn’tseewhatthefortune—tellerwouldpromisehim。ButFrankshookoffhisfriendlyhandandgrunted,"Shetellmyfortunelongago;badenough!"Thenhewithdrewtoacornerandsatgloweringathiswife。
  Frank’scasewasallthemorepainfulbecausehehadnooneinparticulartofixhisjealousyupon。Sometimeshecouldhavethankedthemanwhowouldbringhimevidenceagainsthiswife。Hehaddischargedagoodfarm—boy,JanSmirka,becausehethoughtMariewasfondofhim;butshehadnotseemedtomissJanwhenhewasgone,andshehadbeenjustaskindtothenextboy。Thefarm—handswouldalwaysdoanythingforMarie;Frankcouldn’tfindonesosurlythathewouldnotmakeanefforttopleaseher。AtthebottomofhisheartFrankknewwellenoughthatifhecouldoncegiveuphisgrudge,hiswifewouldcomebacktohim。Buthecouldneverintheworlddothat。Thegrudgewasfundamental。Perhapshecouldnothavegivenitupifhehadtried。Perhapshegotmoresatisfactionoutoffeelinghimselfabusedthanhewouldhavegotoutofbeingloved。IfhecouldoncehavemadeMariethoroughlyun—
  happy,hemighthaverelentedandraisedherfromthedust。Butshehadneverhumbledher—
  self。Inthefirstdaysoftheirloveshehadbeenhisslave;shehadadmiredhimabandonedly。
  Butthemomenthebegantobullyherandtobeunjust,shebegantodrawaway;atfirstintear—
  fulamazement,theninquiet,unspokendis—
  gust。Thedistancebetweenthemhadwidenedandhardened。Itnolongercontractedandbroughtthemsuddenlytogether。Thesparkofherlifewentsomewhereelse,andhewasalwayswatchingtosurpriseit。Heknewthatsome—
  whereshemustgetafeelingtoliveupon,forshewasnotawomanwhocouldlivewithoutloving。Hewantedtoprovetohimselfthewronghefelt。Whatdidshehideinherheart?
  Wherediditgo?EvenFrankhadhischurlishdelicacies;heneverremindedherofhowmuchshehadoncelovedhim。ForthatMariewasgratefultohim。
  WhileMariewaschatteringtotheFrenchboys,AmedeecalledEmiltothebackoftheroomandwhisperedtohimthattheyweregoingtoplayajokeonthegirls。Ateleveno’clock,Amedeewastogouptotheswitchboardinthevestibuleandturnofftheelectriclights,andeveryboywouldhaveachancetokisshissweetheartbeforeFatherDuchesnecouldfindhiswayupthestairstoturnthecurrentonagain。TheonlydifficultywasthecandleinMarie’stent;perhaps,asEmilhadnosweet—
  heart,hewouldobligetheboysbyblowingoutthecandle。Emilsaidhewouldundertaketodothat。
  AtfiveminutestoelevenhesauntereduptoMarie’sbooth,andtheFrenchboysdispersedtofindtheirgirls。Heleanedoverthecard—
  tableandgavehimselfuptolookingather。
  "Doyouthinkyoucouldtellmyfortune?"
  hemurmured。Itwasthefirstwordhehadhadalonewithherforalmostayear。"Myluckhasn’tchangedany。It’sjustthesame。"
  MariehadoftenwonderedwhethertherewasanyoneelsewhocouldlookhisthoughtstoyouasEmilcould。To—night,whenshemethissteady,powerfuleyes,itwasimpossiblenottofeelthesweetnessofthedreamhewasdreaming;itreachedherbeforeshecouldshutitout,andhiditselfinherheart。Shebegantoshufflehercardsfuriously。"I’mangrywithyou,Emil,"shebrokeoutwithpetu—
  lance。"Whydidyougivethemthatlovelybluestonetosell?YoumighthaveknownFrankwouldn’tbuyitforme,andIwanteditawfully!"
  Emillaughedshortly。"Peoplewhowantsuchlittlethingssurelyoughttohavethem,"
  hesaiddryly。Hethrusthishandintothepocketofhisvelvettrousersandbroughtoutahandfulofuncutturquoises,asbigasmarbles。
  Leaningoverthetablehedroppedthemintoherlap。"There,willthosedo?Becareful,don’tletanyoneseethem。Now,Isupposeyouwantmetogoawayandletyouplaywiththem?"
  Mariewasgazinginraptureatthesoftbluecolorofthestones。"Oh,Emil!Iseverythingdowntherebeautifullikethese?Howcouldyouevercomeaway?"
  AtthatinstantAmedeelaidhandsontheswitchboard。Therewasashiverandagiggle,andeveryonelookedtowardtheredblurthatMarie’scandlemadeinthedark。Immediatelythat,too,wasgone。Littleshrieksandcurrentsofsoftlaughterranupanddownthedarkhall。
  Mariestartedup,——directlyintoEmil’sarms。
  Inthesameinstantshefelthislips。Theveilthathadhunguncertainlybetweenthemforsolongwasdissolved。Beforesheknewwhatshewasdoing,shehadcommittedherselftothatkissthatwasatonceaboy’sandaman’s,astimidasitwastender;solikeEmilandsounlikeanyoneelseintheworld。Notuntilitwasoverdidsherealizewhatitmeant。AndEmil,whohadsooftenimaginedtheshockofthisfirstkiss,wassurprisedatitsgentlenessandnaturalness。Itwaslikeasighwhichtheyhadbreathedtogether;almostsorrowful,asifeachwereafraidofwakeningsomethingintheother。
  Whenthelightscameonagain,everybodywaslaughingandshouting,andalltheFrenchgirlswererosyandshiningwithmirth。OnlyMarie,inherlittletentofshawls,waspaleandquiet。Underheryellowturbantheredcoralpendantsswungagainstwhitecheeks。Frankwasstillstaringather,butheseemedtoseenothing。Yearsago,hehimselfhadhadthepowertotakethebloodfromhercheekslikethat。Perhapshedidnotremember——perhapshehadnevernoticed!Emilwasalreadyattheotherendofthehall,walkingaboutwiththeshoulder—motionhehadacquiredamongtheMexicans,studyingthefloorwithhisintent,deep—seteyes。Mariebegantotakedownandfoldhershawls。Shedidnotglanceupagain。
  Theyoungpeopledriftedtotheotherendofthehallwheretheguitarwassounding。Inamo—
  mentsheheardEmilandRaoulsinging:——
  "AcrosstheRioGrand—eThereliesasunnyland—e,Mybright—eyedMexico!"
  AlexandraBergsoncameuptothecardbooth。"Letmehelpyou,Marie。Youlooktired。"
  SheplacedherhandonMarie’sarmandfelthershiver。Mariestiffenedunderthatkind,calmhand。Alexandradrewback,perplexedandhurt。
  TherewasaboutAlexandrasomethingoftheimperviouscalmofthefatalist,alwaysdiscon—
  certingtoveryyoungpeople,whocannotfeelthattheheartlivesatallunlessitisstillatthemercyofstorms;unlessitsstringscanscreamtothetouchofpain。
  II
  Signa’sweddingsupperwasover。Theguests,andthetiresomelittleNorwegianpreacherwhohadperformedthemarriagecere—
  mony,weresayinggood—night。OldIvarwashitchingthehorsestothewagontotaketheweddingpresentsandthebrideandgroomuptotheirnewhome,onAlexandra’snorthquarter。
  WhenIvardroveuptothegate,EmilandMarieShabatabegantocarryoutthepresents,andAlexandrawentintoherbedroomtobidSignagood—byeandtogiveherafewwordsofgoodcounsel。Shewassurprisedtofindthatthebridehadchangedherslippersforheavyshoesandwaspinningupherskirts。AtthatmomentNelseappearedatthegatewiththetwomilkcowsthatAlexandrahadgivenSignaforaweddingpresent。
  Alexandrabegantolaugh。"Why,Signa,youandNelsearetoridehome。I’llsendIvaroverwiththecowsinthemorning。"
  Signahesitatedandlookedperplexed。Whenherhusbandcalledher,shepinnedherhatonresolutely。"Ita—ankIbetterdoyustlikehesay,"shemurmuredinconfusion。
  AlexandraandMarieaccompaniedSignatothegateandsawthepartysetoff,oldIvardrivingaheadinthewagonandthebrideandgroomfollowingonfoot,eachleadingacow。
  Emilburstintoalaughbeforetheywereoutofhearing。
  "Thosetwowillgeton,"saidAlexandraastheyturnedbacktothehouse。"Theyarenotgoingtotakeanychances。Theywillfeelsaferwiththosecowsintheirownstable。Marie,I
  amgoingtosendforanoldwomannext。AssoonasIgetthegirlsbrokenin,Imarrythemoff。"
  "I’venopatiencewithSigna,marryingthatgrumpyfellow!"Mariedeclared。"IwantedhertomarrythatniceSmirkaboywhoworkedforuslastwinter。Ithinkshelikedhim,too。"
  "Yes,Ithinkshedid,"Alexandraassented,"butIsupposeshewastoomuchafraidofNelsetomarryanyoneelse。NowthatIthinkofit,mostofmygirlshavemarriedmentheywereafraidof。IbelievethereisagooddealofthecowinmostSwedishgirls。Youhigh—strungBohemiancan’tunderstandus。We’reater—
  riblypracticalpeople,andIguesswethinkacrossmanmakesagoodmanager。"
  Marieshruggedhershouldersandturnedtopinupalockofhairthathadfallenonherneck。
  SomehowAlexandrahadirritatedheroflate。
  Everybodyirritatedher。Shewastiredofeverybody。"I’mgoinghomealone,Emil,soyouneedn’tgetyourhat,"shesaidasshewoundherscarfquicklyaboutherhead。"Good—night,Alexandra,"shecalledbackinastrainedvoice,runningdownthegravelwalk。
  Emilfollowedwithlongstridesuntilheover—
  tookher。Thenshebegantowalkslowly。Itwasanightofwarmwindandfaintstarlight,andthefireflieswereglimmeringoverthewheat。
  "Marie,"saidEmilaftertheyhadwalkedforawhile,"Iwonderifyouknowhowun—
  happyIam?"
  Mariedidnotanswerhim。Herhead,initswhitescarf,droopedforwardalittle。
  Emilkickedaclodfromthepathandwenton:——
  "Iwonderwhetheryouarereallyshallow—
  hearted,likeyouseem?SometimesIthinkoneboydoesjustaswellasanotherforyou。ItneverseemstomakemuchdifferencewhetheritismeorRaoulMarcelorJanSmirka。Areyoureallylikethat?"
  "PerhapsIam。Whatdoyouwantmetodo?Sitroundandcryallday?WhenI’vecrieduntilIcan’tcryanymore,then——thenI
  mustdosomethingelse。"
  "Areyousorryforme?"hepersisted。
  "No,I’mnot。IfIwerebigandfreelikeyou,Iwouldn’tletanythingmakemeunhappy。AsoldNapoleonBrunotsaidatthefair,Iwouldn’tgoloveringafternowoman。I’dtakethefirsttrainandgooffandhaveallthefunthereis。"
  "Itriedthat,butitdidn’tdoanygood。
  Everythingremindedme。Thenicertheplacewas,themoreIwantedyou。"TheyhadcometothestileandEmilpointedtoitpersuasively。
  "Sitdownamoment,Iwanttoaskyousome—
  thing。"MariesatdownonthetopstepandEmildrewnearer。"Wouldyoutellmesome—
  thingthat’snoneofmybusinessifyouthoughtitwouldhelpmeout?Well,then,tellme,PLEASE
  tellme,whyyouranawaywithFrankSha—
  bata!"
  Mariedrewback。"BecauseIwasinlovewithhim,"shesaidfirmly。
  "Really?"heaskedincredulously。
  "Yes,indeed。Verymuchinlovewithhim。
  IthinkIwastheonewhosuggestedourrun—
  ningaway。Fromthefirstitwasmoremyfaultthanhis。"
  Emilturnedawayhisface。
  "Andnow,"Mariewenton,"I’vegottorememberthat。Frankisjustthesamenowashewasthen,onlythenIwouldseehimasI
  wantedhimtobe。Iwouldhavemyownway。
  AndnowIpayforit。"
  "Youdon’tdoallthepaying。"
  "That’sit。Whenonemakesamistake,there’snotellingwhereitwillstop。Butyoucangoaway;youcanleaveallthisbehindyou。"
  "Noteverything。Ican’tleaveyoubehind。
  Willyougoawaywithme,Marie?"
  Mariestartedupandsteppedacrossthestile。"Emil!Howwickedlyyoutalk!Iamnotthatkindofagirl,andyouknowit。ButwhatamIgoingtodoifyoukeeptormentingmelikethis!"sheaddedplaintively。
  "Marie,Iwon’tbotheryouanymoreifyouwilltellmejustonething。Stopaminuteandlookatme。No,nobodycanseeus。Every—
  body’sasleep。Thatwasonlyafirefly。Marie,STOPandtellme!"
  Emilovertookherandcatchingherbytheshouldersshookhergently,asifheweretryingtoawakenasleepwalker。
  Mariehidherfaceonhisarm。"Don’taskmeanythingmore。Idon’tknowanythingexcepthowmiserableIam。AndIthoughtitwouldbeallrightwhenyoucameback。Oh,Emil,"sheclutchedhissleeveandbegantocry,"whatamItodoifyoudon’tgoaway?I
  can’tgo,andoneofusmust。Can’tyousee?"
  Emilstoodlookingdownather,holdinghisshouldersstiffandstiffeningthearmtowhichsheclung。Herwhitedresslookedgrayinthedarkness。Sheseemedlikeatroubledspirit,likesomeshadowoutoftheearth,clingingtohimandentreatinghimtogiveherpeace。Be—
  hindherthefireflieswereweavinginandoutoverthewheat。Heputhishandonherbenthead。"Onmyhonor,Marie,ifyouwillsayyouloveme,Iwillgoaway。"
  Sheliftedherfacetohis。"HowcouldIhelpit?Didn’tyouknow?"
  Emilwastheonewhotrembled,throughallhisframe。AfterheleftMarieathergate,hewanderedaboutthefieldsallnight,tillmorningputoutthefirefliesandthestars。
  III
  Oneevening,aweekafterSigna’swedding,Emilwaskneelingbeforeaboxinthesitting—
  room,packinghisbooks。Fromtimetotimeheroseandwanderedaboutthehouse,pickingupstrayvolumesandbringingthemlistlesslybacktohisbox。Hewaspackingwithoutenthusi—
  asm。Hewasnotverysanguineabouthisfu—
  ture。Alexandrasatsewingbythetable。Shehadhelpedhimpackhistrunkintheafternoon。
  AsEmilcameandwentbyherchairwithhisbooks,hethoughttohimselfthatithadnotbeensohardtoleavehissistersincehefirstwentawaytoschool。HewasgoingdirectlytoOmaha,toreadlawintheofficeofaSwedishlawyeruntilOctober,whenhewouldenterthelawschoolatAnnArbor。TheyhadplannedthatAlexandrawastocometoMichigan——alongjourneyforher——atChristmastime,andspendseveralweekswithhim。Nevertheless,hefeltthatthisleavetakingwouldbemorefinalthanhisearlieroneshadbeen;thatitmeantadefinitebreakwithhisoldhomeandthebegin—
  ningofsomethingnew——hedidnotknowwhat。Hisideasaboutthefuturewouldnotcrystallize;themorehetriedtothinkaboutit,thevaguerhisconceptionofitbecame。Butonethingwasclear,hetoldhimself;itwashightimethathemadegoodtoAlexandra,andthatoughttobeincentiveenoughtobeginwith。
  Ashewentaboutgatheringuphisbookshefeltasifhewereuprootingthings。Atlasthethrewhimselfdownontheoldslatloungewherehehadsleptwhenhewaslittle,andlaylookingupatthefamiliarcracksintheceiling。
  "Tired,Emil?"hissisterasked。
  "Lazy,"hemurmured,turningonhissideandlookingather。HestudiedAlexandra’sfaceforalongtimeinthelamplight。IthadneveroccurredtohimthathissisterwasahandsomewomanuntilMarieShabatahadtoldhimso。Indeed,hehadneverthoughtofherasbeingawomanatall,onlyasister。Ashestudiedherbenthead,helookedupatthepictureofJohnBergsonabovethelamp。
  "No,"hethoughttohimself,"shedidn’tgetitthere。IsupposeIammorelikethat。"
  "Alexandra,"hesaidsuddenly,"thatoldwalnutsecretaryyouuseforadeskwasfather’s,wasn’tit?"
  Alexandrawentonstitching。"Yes。Itwasoneofthefirstthingsheboughtfortheoldloghouse。Itwasagreatextravaganceinthosedays。Buthewroteagreatmanylettersbacktotheoldcountry。Hehadmanyfriendsthere,andtheywrotetohimuptothetimehedied。
  Nooneeverblamedhimforgrandfather’sdis—
  grace。Icanseehimnow,sittingthereonSun—
  days,inhiswhiteshirt,writingpagesandpages,socarefully。Hewroteafine,regularhand,almostlikeengraving。Yoursissome—
  thinglikehis,whenyoutakepains。"
  "Grandfatherwasreallycrooked,washe?"
  "Hemarriedanunscrupulouswoman,andthen——thenI’mafraidhewasreallycrooked。
  WhenwefirstcameherefatherusedtohavedreamsaboutmakingagreatfortuneandgoingbacktoSwedentopaybacktothepoorsailorsthemoneygrandfatherhadlost。"
  Emilstirredonthelounge。"Isay,thatwouldhavebeenworthwhile,wouldn’tit?
  Fatherwasn’tabitlikeLouorOscar,washe?
  Ican’tremembermuchabouthimbeforehegotsick。"
  "Oh,notatall!"Alexandradroppedhersewingonherknee。"Hehadbetteropportuni—
  ties;nottomakemoney,buttomakesome—
  thingofhimself。Hewasaquietman,buthewasveryintelligent。Youwouldhavebeenproudofhim,Emil。"
  Alexandrafeltthathewouldliketoknowtherehadbeenamanofhiskinwhomhecouldadmire。SheknewthatEmilwasashamedofLouandOscar,becausetheywerebigotedandself—satisfied。Heneversaidmuchaboutthem,butshecouldfeelhisdisgust。Hisbrothershadshowntheirdisapprovalofhimeversincehefirstwentawaytoschool。TheonlythingthatwouldhavesatisfiedthemwouldhavebeenhisfailureattheUniversity。
  Asitwas,theyresentedeverychangeinhisspeech,inhisdress,inhispointofview;thoughthelattertheyhadtoconjecture,forEmilavoidedtalkingtothemaboutanybutfamilymatters。Allhisintereststheytreatedasaffectations。
  Alexandratookuphersewingagain。"Icanrememberfatherwhenhewasquiteayoungman。Hebelongedtosomekindofamusicalsociety,amalechorus,inStockholm。Icanremembergoingwithmothertohearthemsing。
  Theremusthavebeenahundredofthem,andtheyallworelongblackcoatsandwhiteneck—
  ties。Iwasusedtoseeingfatherinabluecoat,asortofjacket,andwhenIrecognizedhimontheplatform,Iwasveryproud。DoyourememberthatSwedishsonghetaughtyou,abouttheshipboy?"
  "Yes。IusedtosingittotheMexicans。
  Theylikeanythingdifferent。"Emilpaused。
  "Fatherhadahardfighthere,didn’the?"headdedthoughtfully。
  "Yes,andhediedinadarktime。Still,hehadhope。Hebelievedintheland。"
  "Andinyou,Iguess,"Emilsaidtohimself。
  Therewasanotherperiodofsilence;thatwarm,friendlysilence,fullofperfectunderstanding,inwhichEmilandAlexandrahadspentmanyoftheirhappiesthalf—hours。
  AtlastEmilsaidabruptly,"LouandOscarwouldbebetteroffiftheywerepoor,wouldn’tthey?"
  Alexandrasmiled。"Maybe。Buttheirchil—
  drenwouldn’t。IhavegreathopesofMilly。"
  Emilshivered。"Idon’tknow。Seemstomeitgetsworseasitgoeson。TheworstoftheSwedesisthatthey’reneverwillingtofindouthowmuchtheydon’tknow。ItwaslikethatattheUniversity。Alwayssopleasedwiththem—
  selves!There’snogettingbehindthatcon—
  ceitedSwedishgrin。TheBohemiansandGer—
  mansweresodifferent。"
  "Come,Emil,don’tgobackonyourownpeople。Fatherwasn’tconceited,UncleOttowasn’t。EvenLouandOscarweren’twhentheywereboys。"
  Emillookedincredulous,buthedidnotdis—
  putethepoint。Heturnedonhisbackandlaystillforalongtime,hishandslockedunderhishead,lookingupattheceiling。Alexandraknewthathewasthinkingofmanythings。ShefeltnoanxietyaboutEmil。Shehadalwaysbelievedinhim,asshehadbelievedintheland。HehadbeenmorelikehimselfsincehegotbackfromMexico;seemedgladtobeathome,andtalkedtoherasheusedtodo。
  Shehadnodoubtthathiswanderingfitwasover,andthathewouldsoonbesettledinlife。
  "Alexandra,"saidEmilsuddenly,"doyourememberthewildduckwesawdownontheriverthattime?"
  Hissisterlookedup。"Ioftenthinkofher。
  Italwaysseemstomeshe’stherestill,justlikewesawher。"
  "Iknow。It’squeerwhatthingsonere—
  membersandwhatthingsoneforgets。"Emilyawnedandsatup。"Well,it’stimetoturnin。"Herose,andgoingovertoAlexandrastoopeddownandkissedherlightlyonthecheek。"Good—night,sister。Ithinkyoudidprettywellbyus。"
  Emiltookuphislampandwentupstairs。
  Alexandrasatfinishinghisnewnightshirt,thatmustgointhetoptrayofhistrunk。
  IV
  ThenextmorningAngelique,Amedee’swife,wasinthekitchenbakingpies,assistedbyoldMrs。Chevalier。Betweenthemixing—boardandthestovestoodtheoldcradlethathadbeenAmedee’s,andinitwashisblack—eyedson。AsAngelique,flushedandexcited,withflouronherhands,stoppedtosmileatthebaby,EmilBergsonrodeuptothekitchendooronhismareanddismounted。
  "’Medeeisoutinthefield,Emil,"Angeliquecalledassheranacrossthekitchentotheoven。
  "Hebeginstocuthiswheatto—day;thefirstwheatreadytocutanywhereabouthere。Heboughtanewheader,youknow,becauseallthewheat’ssoshortthisyear。Ihopehecanrentittotheneighbors,itcostsomuch。Heandhiscousinsboughtasteamthresheronshares。Yououghttogooutandseethatheaderwork。I
  watcheditanhourthismorning,busyasIamwithallthementofeed。Hehasalotofhands,buthe’stheonlyonethatknowshowtodrivetheheaderorhowtoruntheengine,sohehastobeeverywhereatonce。He’ssick,too,andoughttobeinhisbed。"
  EmilbentoverHectorBaptiste,tryingtomakehimblinkhisround,bead—likeblackeyes。
  "Sick?What’sthematterwithyourdaddy,kid?Beenmakinghimwalkthefloorwithyou?"
  Angeliquesniffed。"Notmuch!Wedon’thavethatkindofbabies。ItwashisfatherthatkeptBaptisteawake。AllnightIhadtobeget—
  tingupandmakingmustardplasterstoputonhisstomach。Hehadanawfulcolic。Hesaidhefeltbetterthismorning,butIdon’tthinkheoughttobeoutinthefield,overheatinghim—
  self。"
  Angeliquedidnotspeakwithmuchanxiety,notbecauseshewasindifferent,butbecauseshefeltsosecureintheirgoodfortune。Onlygoodthingscouldhappentoarich,energetic,hand—
  someyoungmanlikeAmedee,withanewbabyinthecradleandanewheaderinthefield。
  EmilstrokedtheblackfuzzonBaptiste’shead。"Isay,Angelique,oneof’Medee’sgrand—
  mothers,’wayback,musthavebeenasquaw。
  ThiskidlooksexactlyliketheIndianbabies。"
  Angeliquemadeafaceathim,butoldMrs。
  Chevalierhadbeentouchedonasorepoint,andsheletoutsuchastreamoffieryPATOISthatEmilfledfromthekitchenandmountedhismare。
  Openingthepasturegatefromthesaddle,Emilrodeacrossthefieldtotheclearingwherethethresherstood,drivenbyastationaryengineandfedfromtheheaderboxes。AsAmedeewasnotontheengine,Emilrodeontothewheatfield,whereherecognized,ontheheader,theslight,wiryfigureofhisfriend,coatless,hiswhiteshirtpuffedoutbythewind,hisstrawhatstuckjauntilyonthesideofhishead。Thesixbigwork—horsesthatdrew,orratherpushed,theheader,wentabreastatarapidwalk,andastheywerestillgreenattheworktheyrequiredagooddealofmanagementonAmedee’spart;especiallywhentheyturnedthecorners,wheretheydivided,threeandthree,andthenswungroundintolineagainwithamovementthatlookedascomplicatedasawheelofartillery。Emilfeltanewthrillofadmirationforhisfriend,andwithittheoldpangofenvyatthewayinwhichAmedeecoulddowithhismightwhathishandfoundtodo,andfeelthat,whateveritwas,itwasthemostimportantthingintheworld。"I’llhavetobringAlexandrauptoseethisthingwork,"
  Emilthought;"it’ssplendid!"
  WhenhesawEmil,Amedeewavedtohimandcalledtooneofhistwentycousinstotakethereins。Steppingofftheheaderwithoutstoppingit,heranuptoEmilwhohaddis—
  mounted。"Comealong,"hecalled。"Ihavetogoovertotheengineforaminute。Igottagreenmanrunningit,andIgottatokeepaneyeonhim。"
  Emilthoughttheladwasunnaturallyflushedandmoreexcitedthaneventhecaresofmanag—
  ingabigfarmatacriticaltimewarranted。Astheypassedbehindalastyear’sstack,Amedeeclutchedathisrightsideandsankdownforamomentonthestraw。
  "Ouch!Igotanawfulpaininme,Emil。
  Something’sthematterwithmyinsides,forsure。"
  Emilfelthisfierycheek。"Yououghttogostraighttobed,’Medee,andtelephoneforthedoctor;that’swhatyououghttodo。"
  Amedeestaggeredupwithagestureofdespair。"HowcanI?Igotnotimetobesick。
  Threethousanddollars’worthofnewmachin—
  erytomanage,andthewheatsoripeitwillbegintoshatternextweek。Mywheat’sshort,butit’sgottagrandfullberries。What’sheslowingdownfor?Wehaven’tgotheaderboxesenoughtofeedthethresher,Iguess。"
  Amedeestartedhot—footacrossthestubble,leaningalittletotherightasheran,andwavedtotheengineernottostoptheengine。
  Emilsawthatthiswasnotimetotalkabouthisownaffairs。HemountedhismareandrodeontoSainte—Agnes,tobidhisfriendstheregood—bye。HewentfirsttoseeRaoulMarcel,andfoundhiminnocentlypractisingthe"Gloria"forthebigconfirmationserviceonSundaywhilehepolishedthemirrorsofhisfather’ssaloon。
  AsEmilrodehomewardsatthreeo’clockintheafternoon,hesawAmedeestaggeringoutofthewheatfield,supportedbytwoofhiscousins。
  Emilstoppedandhelpedthemputtheboytobed。
  V
  WhenFrankShabatacameinfromworkatfiveo’clockthatevening,oldMosesMarcel,Raoul’sfather,telephonedhimthatAmedeehadhadaseizureinthewheatfield,andthatDoctorParadiswasgoingtooperateonhimassoonastheHanoverdoctorgottheretohelp。
  Frankdroppedawordofthisatthetable,boltedhissupper,androdeofftoSainte—
  Agnes,wheretherewouldbesympatheticdis—
  cussionofAmedee’scaseatMarcel’ssaloon。
  AssoonasFrankwasgone,MarietelephonedAlexandra。Itwasacomforttohearherfriend’svoice。Yes,AlexandraknewwhattherewastobeknownaboutAmedee。Emilhadbeentherewhentheycarriedhimoutofthefield,andhadstayedwithhimuntilthedoctorsoperatedforappendicitisatfiveo’clock。Theywereafraiditwastoolatetodomuchgood;itshouldhavebeendonethreedaysago。Amedeewasinaverybadway。Emilhadjustcomehome,wornoutandsickhimself。Shehadgivenhimsomebrandyandputhimtobed。
  Mariehungupthereceiver。PoorAmedee’sillnesshadtakenonanewmeaningtoher,nowthatsheknewEmilhadbeenwithhim。Anditmightsoeasilyhavebeentheotherway——
  EmilwhowasillandAmedeewhowassad!
  Marielookedabouttheduskysitting—room。
  Shehadseldomfeltsoutterlylonely。IfEmilwasasleep,therewasnotevenachanceofhiscoming;andshecouldnotgotoAlexandraforsympathy。ShemeanttotellAlexandraevery—
  thing,assoonasEmilwentaway。Thenwhat—
  everwasleftbetweenthemwouldbehonest。
  Butshecouldnotstayinthehousethisevening。Whereshouldshego?Shewalkedslowlydownthroughtheorchard,wheretheeveningairwasheavywiththesmellofwildcotton。Thefresh,saltyscentofthewildroseshadgivenwaybeforethismorepowerfulper—
  fumeofmidsummer。Whereverthoseashes—of—
  roseballshungontheirmilkystalks,theairaboutthemwassaturatedwiththeirbreath。
  Theskywasstillredinthewestandtheeven—
  ingstarhungdirectlyovertheBergsons’wind—
  mill。Mariecrossedthefenceatthewheatfieldcorner,andwalkedslowlyalongthepaththatledtoAlexandra’s。ShecouldnothelpfeelinghurtthatEmilhadnotcometotellheraboutAmedee。Itseemedtohermostunnaturalthatheshouldnothavecome。Ifshewereintrou—
  ble,certainlyhewastheonepersonintheworldshewouldwanttosee。Perhapshewishedhertounderstandthatforherhewasasgoodasgonealready。
  Mariestoleslowly,flutteringly,alongthepath,likeawhitenight—mothoutofthefields。
  Theyearsseemedtostretchbeforeherliketheland;spring,summer,autumn,winter,spring;
  alwaysthesamepatientfields,thepatientlittletrees,thepatientlives;alwaysthesameyearn—
  ing,thesamepullingatthechain——untiltheinstincttolivehadtornitselfandbledandweakenedforthelasttime,untilthechainsecuredadeadwoman,whomightcautiouslybereleased。Mariewalkedon,herfaceliftedtowardtheremote,inaccessibleeveningstar。
  Whenshereachedthestileshesatdownandwaited。Howterribleitwastolovepeoplewhenyoucouldnotreallysharetheirlives!
  Yes,insofarasshewasconcerned,Emilwasalreadygone。Theycouldn’tmeetanymore。