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第6章

  Therewasnothingforthemtosay。Theyhadspentthelastpennyoftheirsmallchange;
  therewasnothingleftbutgold。Thedayoflove—tokenswaspast。Theyhadnowonlytheirheartstogiveeachother。AndEmilbeinggone,whatwasherlifetobelike?Insomeways,itwouldbeeasier。Shewouldnot,atleast,liveinperpetualfear。IfEmilwereonceawayandsettledatwork,shewouldnothavethefeelingthatshewasspoilinghislife。Withthememoryhelefther,shecouldbeasrashasshechose。Nobodycouldbetheworseforitbutherself;andthat,surely,didnotmatter。
  Herowncasewasclear。Whenagirlhadlovedoneman,andthenlovedanotherwhilethatmanwasstillalive,everybodyknewwhattothinkofher。Whathappenedtoherwasoflittlecon—
  sequence,solongasshedidnotdragotherpeopledownwithher。Emilonceaway,shecouldleteverythingelsegoandliveanewlifeofperfectlove。
  Marieleftthestilereluctantly。Shehad,afterall,thoughthemightcome。Andhowgladsheoughttobe,shetoldherself,thathewasasleep。Sheleftthepathandwentacrossthepasture。Themoonwasalmostfull。Anowlwashootingsomewhereinthefields。Shehadscarcelythoughtaboutwhereshewasgoingwhenthepondglitteredbeforeher,whereEmilhadshottheducks。Shestoppedandlookedatit。Yes,therewouldbeadirtywayoutoflife,ifonechosetotakeit。Butshedidnotwanttodie。Shewantedtoliveanddream——ahundredyears,forever!Aslongasthissweetnesswelledupinherheart,aslongasherbreastcouldholdthistreasureofpain!Shefeltasthepondmustfeelwhenitheldthemoonlikethat;whenitencircledandswelledwithInthemorning,whenEmilcamedown—
  stairs,Alexandramethiminthesitting—roomandputherhandsonhisshoulders。"Emil,I
  wenttoyourroomassoonasitwaslight,butyouweresleepingsosoundIhatedtowakeyou。Therewasnothingyoucoulddo,soI
  letyousleep。TheytelephonedfromSainte—
  AgnesthatAmedeediedatthreeo’clockthismorning。"
  VI
  TheChurchhasalwaysheldthatlifeisfortheliving。OnSaturday,whilehalfthevil—
  lageofSainte—AgneswasmourningforAme—
  deeandpreparingthefuneralblackforhisburialonMonday,theotherhalfwasbusywithwhitedressesandwhiteveilsforthegreatconfirmationserviceto—morrow,whenthebishopwastoconfirmaclassofonehundredboysandgirls。FatherDuchesnedividedhistimebetweenthelivingandthedead。AlldaySaturdaythechurchwasasceneofbustlingactivity,alittlehushedbythethoughtofAmedee。ThechoirwerebusyrehearsingamassofRossini,whichtheyhadstudiedandpractisedforthisoccasion。Thewomenweretrimmingthealtar,theboysandgirlswerebringingflowers。
  OnSundaymorningthebishopwastodriveoverlandtoSainte—AgnesfromHanover,andEmilBergsonhadbeenaskedtotaketheplaceofoneofAmedee’scousinsinthecavalcadeoffortyFrenchboyswhoweretorideacrosscoun—
  trytomeetthebishop’scarriage。Atsixo’clockonSundaymorningtheboysmetatthechurch。
  Astheystoodholdingtheirhorsesbythebridle,theytalkedinlowtonesoftheirdeadcomrade。
  TheykeptrepeatingthatAmedeehadalwaysbeenagoodboy,glancingtowardtheredbrickchurchwhichhadplayedsolargeapartinAmedee’slife,hadbeenthesceneofhismostseriousmomentsandofhishappiesthours。Hehadplayedandwrestledandsungandcourtedunderitsshadow。Onlythreeweeksagohehadproudlycarriedhisbabytheretobechristened。
  TheycouldnotdoubtthatthatinvisiblearmwasstillaboutAmedee;thatthroughthechurchonearthhehadpassedtothechurchtriumph—
  ant,thegoalofthehopesandfaithofsomanyhundredyears。
  Whenthewordwasgiventomount,theyoungmenrodeatawalkoutofthevillage;
  butonceoutamongthewheatfieldsinthemorningsun,theirhorsesandtheirownyouthgotthebetterofthem。Awaveofzealandfieryenthusiasmsweptoverthem。TheylongedforaJerusalemtodeliver。Thethudoftheirgal—
  lopinghoofsinterruptedmanyacountrybreak—
  fastandbroughtmanyawomanandchildtothedoorofthefarmhousesastheypassed。FivemileseastofSainte—Agnestheymetthebishopinhisopencarriage,attendedbytwopriests。
  Likeonemantheboysswungofftheirhatsinabroadsalute,andbowedtheirheadsasthehandsomeoldmanliftedhistwofingersintheepiscopalblessing。Thehorsemenclosedaboutthecarriagelikeaguard,andwheneverarest—
  lesshorsebrokefromcontrolandshotdowntheroadaheadofthebody,thebishoplaughedandrubbedhisplumphandstogether。"Whatfineboys!"hesaidtohispriests。"TheChurchstillhashercavalry。"
  Asthetroopsweptpastthegraveyardhalfamileeastofthetown,——thefirstframechurchoftheparishhadstoodthere,——oldPierreSeguinwasalreadyoutwithhispickandspade,diggingAmedee’sgrave。Hekneltandun—
  coveredasthebishoppassed。TheboyswithoneaccordlookedawayfromoldPierretotheredchurchonthehill,withthegoldcrossflamingonitssteeple。
  Masswasateleven。Whilethechurchwasfilling,EmilBergsonwaitedoutside,watchingthewagonsandbuggiesdriveupthehill。Afterthebellbegantoring,hesawFrankShabatarideuponhorsebackandtiehishorsetothehitch—bar。Marie,then,wasnotcoming。Emilturnedandwentintothechurch。Amedee’swastheonlyemptypew,andhesatdowninit。
  SomeofAmedee’scousinswerethere,dressedinblackandweeping。Whenallthepewswerefull,theoldmenandboyspackedtheopenspaceatthebackofthechurch,kneelingonthefloor。Therewasscarcelyafamilyintownthatwasnotrepresentedintheconfirmationclass,byacousin,atleast。Thenewcommunicants,withtheirclear,reverentfaces,werebeautifultolookuponastheyenteredinabodyandtookthefrontbenchesreservedforthem。EvenbeforetheMassbegan,theairwaschargedwithfeeling。ThechoirhadneversungsowellandRaoulMarcel,inthe"Gloria,"dreweventhebishop’seyestotheorganloft。FortheoffertoryhesangGounod’s"AveMaria,"——
  alwaysspokenofinSainte—Agnesas"theAveMaria。"
  EmilbegantotorturehimselfwithquestionsaboutMarie。Wassheill?Hadshequarreledwithherhusband?Wasshetoounhappytofindcomfortevenhere?Hadshe,perhaps,thoughtthathewouldcometoher?Wasshewaitingforhim?Overtaxedbyexcitementandsorrowashewas,theraptureoftheservicetookholduponhisbodyandmind。AshelistenedtoRaoul,heseemedtoemergefromthecon—
  flictingemotionswhichhadbeenwhirlinghimaboutandsuckinghimunder。Hefeltasifaclearlightbrokeuponhismind,andwithitaconvictionthatgoodwas,afterall,strongerthanevil,andthatgoodwaspossibletomen。
  Heseemedtodiscoverthattherewasakindofraptureinwhichhecouldloveforeverwith—
  outfalteringandwithoutsin。HelookedacrosstheheadsofthepeopleatFrankShabatawithcalmness。Thatrapturewasforthosewhocouldfeelit;forpeoplewhocouldnot,itwasnon—existent。HecovetednothingthatwasFrankShabata’s。Thespirithehadmetinmusicwashisown。FrankShabatahadneverfoundit;wouldneverfinditifhelivedbesideitathousandyears;wouldhavedestroyeditifhehadfoundit,asHerodslewtheinnocents,asRomeslewthemartyrs。
  SAN——CTAMARI—I—I—A,wailedRaoulfromtheorganloft;
  O——RAPRONO—O—BIS!
  AnditdidnotoccurtoEmilthatanyonehadeverreasonedthusbefore,thatmusichadeverbeforegivenamanthisequivocalrevelation。
  TheconfirmationservicefollowedtheMass。
  Whenitwasover,thecongregationthrongedaboutthenewlyconfirmed。Thegirls,andeventheboys,werekissedandembracedandweptover。Alltheauntsandgrandmothersweptwithjoy。Thehousewiveshadmuchadototearthemselvesawayfromthegeneralrejoicingandhurrybacktotheirkitchens。Thecountryparishionerswerestayingintownfordinner,andnearlyeveryhouseinSainte—Agnesenter—
  tainedvisitorsthatday。FatherDuchesne,thebishop,andthevisitingpriestsdinedwithFabienSauvage,thebanker。EmilandFrankShabatawerebothguestsofoldMoiseMarcel。
  AfterdinnerFrankandoldMoiseretiredtotherearroomofthesaloontoplayCaliforniaJackanddrinktheircognac,andEmilwentovertothebanker’swithRaoul,whohadbeenaskedtosingforthebishop。
  Atthreeo’clock,Emilfeltthathecouldstanditnolonger。Heslippedoutundercoverof"TheHolyCity,"followedbyMalvina’swistfuleye,andwenttothestableforhismare。
  Hewasatthatheightofexcitementfromwhicheverythingisforeshortened,fromwhichlifeseemsshortandsimple,deathverynear,andthesoulseemstosoarlikeaneagle。AsherodepastthegraveyardhelookedatthebrownholeintheearthwhereAmedeewastolie,andfeltnohorror。That,too,wasbeautiful,thatsimpledoorwayintoforgetfulness。Theheart,whenitistoomuchalive,achesforthatbrownearth,andecstasyhasnofearofdeath。Itistheoldandthepoorandthemaimedwhoshrinkfromthatbrownhole;itswooersarefoundamongtheyoung,thepassionate,thegallant—hearted。
  ItwasnotuntilhehadpassedthegraveyardthatEmilrealizedwherehewasgoing。Itwasthehourforsayinggood—bye。Itmightbethelasttimethathewouldseeheralone,andto—
  dayhecouldleaveherwithoutrancor,withoutbitterness。
  Everywherethegrainstoodripeandthehotafternoonwasfullofthesmelloftheripewheat,likethesmellofbreadbakinginanoven。Thebreathofthewheatandthesweetcloverpassedhimlikepleasantthingsinadream。Hecouldfeelnothingbutthesenseofdiminishingdis—
  tance。Itseemedtohimthathismarewasfly—
  ing,orrunningonwheels,likearailwaytrain。
  Thesunlight,flashingonthewindow—glassofthebigredbarns,drovehimwildwithjoy。Hewaslikeanarrowshotfromthebow。HislifepoureditselfoutalongtheroadbeforehimasherodetotheShabatafarm。
  WhenEmilalightedattheShabatas’gate,hishorsewasinalather。Hetiedherinthestableandhurriedtothehouse。Itwasempty。
  ShemightbeatMrs。Hiller’sorwithAlexan—
  dra。Butanythingthatremindedhimofherwouldbeenough,theorchard,themulberrytree……Whenhereachedtheorchardthesunwashanginglowoverthewheatfield。Longfingersoflightreachedthroughtheapplebranchesasthroughanet;theorchardwasrid—
  dledandshotwithgold;lightwasthereality,thetreesweremerelyinterferencesthatreflectedandrefractedlight。Emilwentsoftlydownbetweenthecherrytreestowardthewheatfield。
  Whenhecametothecorner,hestoppedshortandputhishandoverhismouth。Mariewaslyingonhersideunderthewhitemulberrytree,herfacehalfhiddeninthegrass,hereyesclosed,herhandslyinglimplywheretheyhadhappenedtofall。Shehadlivedadayofhernewlifeofperfectlove,andithadleftherlikethis。
  Herbreastroseandfellfaintly,asifshewereasleep。Emilthrewhimselfdownbesideherandtookherinhisarms。Thebloodcamebacktohercheeks,herambereyesopenedslowly,andinthemEmilsawhisownfaceandtheorchardandthesun。"Iwasdreamingthis,"shewhis—
  pered,hidingherfaceagainsthim,"don’ttakemydreamaway!"
  VII
  WhenFrankShabatagothomethatnight,hefoundEmil’smareinhisstable。Suchanimpertinenceamazedhim。Likeeverybodyelse,Frankhadhadanexcitingday。Sincenoonhehadbeendrinkingtoomuch,andhewasinabadtemper。Hetalkedbitterlytohim—
  selfwhileheputhisownhorseaway,andashewentupthepathandsawthatthehousewasdarkhefeltanaddedsenseofinjury。Heap—
  proachedquietlyandlistenedonthedoorstep。
  Hearingnothing,heopenedthekitchendoorandwentsoftlyfromoneroomtoanother。
  Thenhewentthroughthehouseagain,up—
  stairsanddown,withnobetterresult。Hesatdownonthebottomstepoftheboxstairwayandtriedtogethiswitstogether。Inthatun—
  naturalquiettherewasnosoundbuthisownheavybreathing。Suddenlyanowlbegantohootoutinthefields。Frankliftedhishead。
  Anideaflashedintohismind,andhissenseofinjuryandoutragegrew。Hewentintohisbedroomandtookhismurderous405Winches—
  terfromthecloset。
  WhenFranktookuphisgunandwalkedoutofthehouse,hehadnotthefaintestpurposeofdoinganythingwithit。Hedidnotbelievethathehadanyrealgrievance。Butitgratifiedhimtofeellikeadesperateman。Hehadgotintothehabitofseeinghimselfalwaysindesperatestraits。Hisunhappytemperamentwaslikeacage;hecouldnevergetoutofit;andhefeltthatotherpeople,hiswifeinparticular,musthaveputhimthere。IthadnevermorethandimlyoccurredtoFrankthathemadehisownunhappiness。Thoughhetookuphisgunwithdarkprojectsinhismind,hewouldhavebeenparalyzedwithfrighthadheknownthattherewastheslightestprobabilityofhisevercarry—
  inganyofthemout。
  Frankwentslowlydowntotheorchardgate,stoppedandstoodforamomentlostinthought。Heretracedhisstepsandlookedthroughthebarnandthehayloft。Thenhewentouttotheroad,wherehetookthefoot—
  pathalongtheoutsideoftheorchardhedge。
  ThehedgewastwiceastallasFrankhimself,andsodensethatonecouldseethroughitonlybypeeringcloselybetweentheleaves。Hecouldseetheemptypathalongwayinthemoonlight。Hismindtraveledaheadtothestile,whichhealwaysthoughtofashauntedbyEmilBergson。Butwhyhadhelefthishorse?
  Atthewheatfieldcorner,wheretheorchardhedgeendedandthepathledacrossthepasturetotheBergsons’,Frankstopped。Inthewarm,breathlessnightairheheardamurmuringsound,perfectlyinarticulate,aslowasthesoundofwatercomingfromaspring,wherethereisnofall,andwheretherearenostonestofretit。Frankstrainedhisears。Itceased。Heheldhisbreathandbegantotremble。Restingthebuttofhisgunontheground,hepartedthemulberryleavessoftlywithhisfingersandpeeredthroughthehedgeatthedarkfiguresonthegrass,intheshadowofthemulberrytree。
  Itseemedtohimthattheymustfeelhiseyes,thattheymusthearhimbreathing。Buttheydidnot。Frank,whohadalwayswantedtoseethingsblackerthantheywere,foroncewantedtobelievelessthanhesaw。ThewomanlyingintheshadowmightsoeasilybeoneoftheBergsons’farm—girls……Againthemurmur,likewaterwellingoutoftheground。Thistimehehearditmoredistinctly,andhisbloodwasquickerthanhisbrain。Hebegantoact,justasamanwhofallsintothefirebeginstoact。Thegunsprangtohisshoulder,hesightedmechani—
  callyandfiredthreetimeswithoutstopping,stoppedwithoutknowingwhy。Eitherheshuthiseyesorhehadvertigo。Hedidnotseeany—
  thingwhilehewasfiring。Hethoughtheheardacrysimultaneouswiththesecondreport,buthewasnotsure。Hepeeredagainthroughthehedge,atthetwodarkfiguresunderthetree。
  Theyhadfallenalittleapartfromeachother,andwereperfectlystill——No,notquite;inawhitepatchoflight,wherethemoonshonethroughthebranches,aman’shandwaspluck—
  ingspasmodicallyatthegrass。
  Suddenlythewomanstirredandutteredacry,thenanother,andanother。Shewasliving!
  Shewasdraggingherselftowardthehedge!
  Frankdroppedhisgunandranbackalongthepath,shaking,stumbling,gasping。Hehadneverimaginedsuchhorror。Thecriesfol—
  lowedhim。Theygrewfainterandthicker,asifshewerechoking。Hedroppedonhiskneesbesidethehedgeandcrouchedlikearabbit,listening;fainter,fainter;asoundlikeawhine;
  again——amoan——another——silence。Frankscrambledtohisfeetandranon,groaningandpraying。Fromhabithewenttowardthehouse,wherehewasusedtobeingsoothedwhenhehadworkedhimselfintoafrenzy,butatthesightoftheblack,opendoor,hestartedback。Heknewthathehadmurderedsomebody,thatawomanwasbleedingandmoaningintheor—
  chard,buthehadnotrealizedbeforethatitwashiswife。Thegatestaredhimintheface。
  Hethrewhishandsoverhishead。Whichwaytoturn?Heliftedhistormentedfaceandlookedatthesky。"HolyMotherofGod,nottosuffer!Shewasagoodgirl——nottosuffer!"
  Frankhadbeenwonttoseehimselfindra—
  maticsituations;butnow,whenhestoodbythewindmill,inthebrightspacebetweenthebarnandthehouse,facinghisownblackdoorway,hedidnotseehimselfatall。Hestoodliketheharewhenthedogsareapproachingfromallsides。Andheranlikeahare,backandforthaboutthatmoonlitspace,beforehecouldmakeuphismindtogointothedarkstableforahorse。Thethoughtofgoingintoadoorwaywasterribletohim。HecaughtEmil’shorsebythebitandleditout。Hecouldnothavebuckledabridleonhisown。Aftertwoorthreeattempts,heliftedhimselfintothesad—
  dleandstartedforHanover。Ifhecouldcatchtheoneo’clocktrain,hehadmoneyenoughtogetasfarasOmaha。
  Whilehewasthinkingdullyofthisinsomelesssensitizedpartofhisbrain,hisacuterfacultiesweregoingoverandoverthecrieshehadheardintheorchard。Terrorwastheonlythingthatkepthimfromgoingbacktoher,terrorthatshemightstillbeshe,thatshemightstillbesuffering。Awoman,mutilatedandbleedinginhisorchard——itwasbecauseitwasawomanthathewassoafraid。Itwasincon—
  ceivablethatheshouldhavehurtawoman。Hewouldratherbeeatenbywildbeaststhanseehermoveonthegroundasshehadmovedintheorchard。Whyhadshebeensocareless?
  Sheknewhewaslikeacrazymanwhenhewasangry。Shehadmorethanoncetakenthatgunawayfromhimandheldit,whenhewasangrywithotherpeople。Onceithadgoneoffwhiletheywerestrugglingoverit。Shewasneverafraid。But,whensheknewhim,whyhadn’tshebeenmorecareful?Didn’tshehaveallsummerbeforehertoloveEmilBergsonin,withouttakingsuchchances?ProbablyshehadmettheSmirkaboy,too,downthereintheorchard。Hedidn’tcare。ShecouldhavemetallthemenontheDividethere,andwelcome,ifonlyshehadn’tbroughtthishorroronhim。
  TherewasawrenchinFrank’smind。Hedidnothonestlybelievethatofher。Heknewthathewasdoingherwrong。Hestoppedhishorsetoadmitthistohimselfthemoredirectly,tothinkitoutthemoreclearly。Heknewthathewastoblame。Forthreeyearshehadbeentryingtobreakherspirit。Shehadawayofmakingthebestofthingsthatseemedtohimasentimentalaffectation。Hewantedhiswifetoresentthathewaswastinghisbestyearsamongthesestupidandunappreciativepeople;butshehadseemedtofindthepeoplequitegoodenough。IfheevergotrichhemeanttobuyherprettyclothesandtakehertoCaliforniainaPullmancar,andtreatherlikealady;butinthemeantimehewantedhertofeelthatlifewasasuglyandasunjustashefeltit。Hehadtriedtomakeherlifeugly。Hehadrefusedtoshareanyofthelittlepleasuresshewassopluckyaboutmakingforherself。Shecouldbegayabouttheleastthingintheworld;butshemustbegay!Whenshefirstcametohim,herfaithinhim,heradoration——Frankstruckthemarewithhisfist。WhyhadMariemadehimdothisthing;whyhadshebroughtthisuponhim?Hewasoverwhelmedbysickeningmis—
  fortune。Allatonceheheardhercriesagain——
  hehadforgottenforamoment。"Maria,"hesobbedaloud,"Maria!"
  WhenFrankwashalfwaytoHanover,themotionofhishorsebroughtonaviolentattackofnausea。Afterithadpassed,herodeonagain,buthecouldthinkofnothingexcepthisphysicalweaknessandhisdesiretobecom—
  fortedbyhiswife。Hewantedtogetintohisownbed。Hadhiswifebeenathome,hewouldhaveturnedandgonebacktohermeeklyenough。
  VIII
  WhenoldIvarclimbeddownfromhisloftatfouro’clockthenextmorning,hecameuponEmil’smare,jadedandlather—stained,herbridlebroken,chewingthescatteredtuftsofhayoutsidethestabledoor。Theoldmanwasthrownintoafrightatonce。Heputthemareinherstall,threwherameasureofoats,andthensetoutasfastashisbow—legscouldcarryhimonthepathtothenearestneighbor。
  "Somethingiswrongwiththatboy。Somemisfortunehascomeuponus。Hewouldneverhaveusedherso,inhisrightsenses。Itisnothiswaytoabusehismare,"theoldmankeptmuttering,ashescuttledthroughtheshort,wetpasturegrassonhisbarefeet。
  WhileIvarwashurryingacrossthefields,thefirstlongraysofthesunwerereachingdownbetweentheorchardboughstothosetwodew—
  drenchedfigures。Thestoryofwhathadhap—
  penedwaswrittenplainlyontheorchardgrass,andonthewhitemulberriesthathadfalleninthenightandwerecoveredwithdarkstain。
  ForEmilthechapterhadbeenshort。Hewasshotintheheart,andhadrolledoveronhisbackanddied。Hisfacewasturneduptotheskyandhisbrowsweredrawninafrown,asifhehadrealizedthatsomethinghadbefallenhim。ButforMarieShabataithadnotbeensoeasy。Oneballhadtornthroughherrightlung,anotherhadshatteredthecarotidartery。Shemusthavestartedupandgonetowardthehedge,leavingatrailofblood。Thereshehadfallenandbled。Fromthatspottherewasanothertrail,heavierthanthefirst,whereshemusthavedraggedherselfbacktoEmil’sbody。
  Oncethere,sheseemednottohavestruggledanymore。Shehadliftedherheadtoherlover’sbreast,takenhishandinbothherown,andbledquietlytodeath。Shewaslyingonherrightsideinaneasyandnaturalposition,hercheekonEmil’sshoulder。Onherfacetherewasalookofineffablecontent。Herlipswerepartedalittle;hereyeswerelightlyclosed,asifinaday—dreamoralightslumber。Aftershelaydownthere,sheseemednottohavemovedaneyelash。Thehandsheheldwascoveredwithdarkstains,whereshehadkissedit。
  Butthestained,slipperygrass,thedarkenedmulberries,toldonlyhalfthestory。AboveMarieandEmil,twowhitebutterfliesfromFrank’salfalfa—fieldwereflutteringinandoutamongtheinterlacingshadows;divingandsoaring,nowclosetogether,nowfarapart;andinthelonggrassbythefencethelastwildrosesoftheyearopenedtheirpinkheartstodie。
  WhenIvarreachedthepathbythehedge,hesawShabata’sriflelyingintheway。Heturnedandpeeredthroughthebranches,fallinguponhiskneesasifhislegshadbeenmowedfromunderhim。"MercifulGod!"hegroaned;
  Alexandra,too,hadrisenearlythatmorning,becauseofheranxietyaboutEmil。ShewasinEmil’sroomupstairswhen,fromthewindow,shesawIvarcomingalongthepaththatledfromtheShabatas’。Hewasrunninglikeaspentman,totteringandlurchingfromsidetoside。Ivarneverdrank,andAlexandrathoughtatoncethatoneofhisspellshadcomeuponhim,andthathemustbeinaverybadwayindeed。Sherandownstairsandhurriedouttomeethim,tohidehisinfirmityfromtheeyesofherhousehold。Theoldmanfellintheroadatherfeetandcaughtherhand,overwhichhebowedhisshaggyhead。"Mistress,mistress,"hesobbed,"ithasfallen!Sinanddeathfortheyoungones!Godhavemercyuponus!"
  EndofPartIV
  PARTV
  AlexandraI
  Ivarwassittingatacobbler’sbenchinthebarn,mendingharnessbythelightofalanternandrepeatingtohimselfthe101stPsalm。Itwasonlyfiveo’clockofamid—Octoberday,butastormhadcomeupintheafternoon,bring—
  ingblackclouds,acoldwindandtorrentsofrain。Theoldmanworehisbuffalo—skincoat,andoccasionallystoppedtowarmhisfingersatthelantern。Suddenlyawomanburstintotheshed,asifshehadbeenblownin,accompaniedbyashowerofrain—drops。ItwasSigna,wrappedinaman’sovercoatandwearingapairofbootsoverhershoes。IntimeoftroubleSignahadcomebacktostaywithhermistress,forshewastheonlyoneofthemaidsfromwhomAlexandrawouldacceptmuchpersonalservice。ItwasthreemonthsnowsincethenewsoftheterriblethingthathadhappenedinFrankShabata’sorchardhadfirstrunlikeafireovertheDivide。SignaandNelsewerestayingonwithAlexandrauntilwinter。
  "Ivar,"Signaexclaimedasshewipedtherainfromherface,"doyouknowwheresheis?"
  Theoldmanputdownhiscobbler’sknife。
  "Who,themistress?"
  "Yes。Shewentawayaboutthreeo’clock。I
  happenedtolookoutofthewindowandsawhergoingacrossthefieldsinherthindressandsun—hat。Andnowthisstormhascomeon。I
  thoughtshewasgoingtoMrs。Hiller’s,andI
  telephonedassoonasthethunderstopped,butshehadnotbeenthere。I’mafraidsheisoutsomewhereandwillgetherdeathofcold。"
  Ivarputonhiscapandtookupthelantern。
  "JA,JA,wewillsee。Iwillhitchtheboy’smaretothecartandgo。"
  Signafollowedhimacrossthewagon—shedtothehorses’stable。Shewasshiveringwithcoldandexcitement。"Wheredoyousupposeshecanbe,Ivar?"
  Theoldmanliftedasetofsingleharnesscarefullyfromitspeg。"HowshouldIknow?"
  "Butyouthinksheisatthegraveyard,don’tyou?"Signapersisted。"SodoI。Oh,I
  wishshewouldbemorelikeherself!Ican’tbelieveit’sAlexandraBergsoncometothis,withnoheadaboutanything。Ihavetotellherwhentoeatandwhentogotobed。"
  "Patience,patience,sister,"mutteredIvarashesettledthebitinthehorse’smouth。
  "Whentheeyesofthefleshareshut,theeyesofthespiritareopen。Shewillhaveamessagefromthosewhoaregone,andthatwillbringherpeace。Untilthenwemustbearwithher。YouandIaretheonlyoneswhohaveweightwithher。Shetrustsus。"
  "Howawfulit’sbeentheselastthreemonths。"Signaheldthelanternsothathecouldseetobucklethestraps。"Itdon’tseemrightthatwemustallbesomiserable。Whydoweallhavetobepunished?Seemstomelikegoodtimeswouldnevercomeagain。"
  Ivarexpressedhimselfinadeepsigh,butsaidnothing。Hestoopedandtookasandburrfromhistoe。
  "Ivar,"Signaaskedsuddenly,"willyoutellmewhyyougobarefoot?AllthetimeIlivedhereinthehouseIwantedtoaskyou。Isitforapenance,orwhat?"
  "No,sister。Itisfortheindulgenceofthebody。FrommyyouthupIhavehadastrong,rebelliousbody,andhavebeensubjecttoeverykindoftemptation。Eveninagemytempta—
  tionsareprolonged。Itwasnecessarytomakesomeallowances;andthefeet,asIunderstandit,arefreemembers。Thereisnodivinepro—
  hibitionforthemintheTenCommandments。
  Thehands,thetongue,theeyes,theheart,allthebodilydesireswearecommandedtosub—
  due;butthefeetarefreemembers。Iindulgethemwithoutharmtoanyone,eventotramp—
  linginfilthwhenmydesiresarelow。Theyarequicklycleanedagain。"
  Signadidnotlaugh。ShelookedthoughtfulasshefollowedIvarouttothewagon—shedandheldtheshaftsupforhim,whilehebackedinthemareandbuckledthehold—backs。"Youhavebeenagoodfriendtothemistress,Ivar,"
  shemurmured。
  "Andyou,Godbewithyou,"repliedIvarasheclamberedintothecartandputthelan—
  ternundertheoilclothlap—cover。"Nowforaducking,mygirl,"hesaidtothemare,gather—
  ingupthereins。
  Astheyemergedfromtheshed,astreamofwater,runningoffthethatch,struckthemareontheneck。Shetossedherheadindignantly,thenstruckoutbravelyonthesoftground,slippingbackagainandagainassheclimbedthehilltothemainroad。BetweentherainandthedarknessIvarcouldseeverylittle,soheletEmil’smarehavetherein,keepingherheadintherightdirection。Whenthegroundwaslevel,heturnedheroutofthedirtroaduponthesod,whereshewasabletotrotwithoutslipping。
  BeforeIvarreachedthegraveyard,threemilesfromthehouse,thestormhadspentitself,andthedownpourhaddiedintoasoft,drippingrain。Theskyandthelandwereadarksmokecolor,andseemedtobecomingtogether,liketwowaves。WhenIvarstoppedatthegateandswungouthislantern,awhitefigurerosefrombesideJohnBergson’swhitestone。
  Theoldmansprangtothegroundandshuf—
  fledtowardthegatecalling,"Mistress,mis—
  tress!"
  Alexandrahurriedtomeethimandputherhandonhisshoulder。"TYST!Ivar。There’snothingtobeworriedabout。I’msorryifI’vescaredyouall。Ididn’tnoticethestormtillitwasonme,andIcouldn’twalkagainstit。I’mgladyou’vecome。IamsotiredIdidn’tknowhowI’devergethome。"
  Ivarswungthelanternupsothatitshoneinherface。"GUD!Youareenoughtofrightenus,mistress。Youlooklikeadrownedwoman。
  Howcouldyoudosuchathing!"
  Groaningandmumblingheledheroutofthegateandhelpedherintothecart,wrappingherinthedryblanketsonwhichhehadbeensitting。
  Alexandrasmiledathissolicitude。"Notmuchuseinthat,Ivar。Youwillonlyshutthewetin。Idon’tfeelsocoldnow;butI’mheavyandnumb。I’mgladyoucame。"
  Ivarturnedthemareandurgedherintoaslidingtrot。Herfeetsentbackacontinualspatterofmud。
  Alexandraspoketotheoldmanastheyjoggedalongthroughthesullengraytwilightofthestorm。"Ivar,Ithinkithasdonemegoodtogetcoldclearthroughlikethis,once。Idon’tbelieveIshallsuffersomuchanymore。Whenyougetsonearthedead,theyseemmorerealthantheliving。Worldlythoughtsleaveone。
  EversinceEmildied,I’vesufferedsowhenitrained。NowthatI’vebeenoutinitwithhim,Ishan’tdreadit。Afteryouoncegetcoldclearthrough,thefeelingoftherainonyouissweet。
  Itseemstobringbackfeelingsyouhadwhenyouwereababy。Itcarriesyoubackintothedark,beforeyouwereborn;youcan’tseethings,buttheycometoyou,somehow,andyouknowthemandaren’tafraidofthem。Maybeit’slikethatwiththedead。Iftheyfeelanythingatall,it’stheoldthings,beforetheywereborn,thatcomfortpeoplelikethefeelingoftheirownbeddoeswhentheyarelittle。"
  "Mistress,"saidIvarreproachfully,"thosearebadthoughts。ThedeadareinParadise。"
  Thenhehunghishead,forhedidnotbelievethatEmilwasinParadise。
  Whentheygothome,Signahadafireburn—
  inginthesitting—roomstove。SheundressedAlexandraandgaveherahotfootbath,whileIvarmadegingerteainthekitchen。WhenAlexandrawasinbed,wrappedinhotblankets,Ivarcameinwithhisteaandsawthatshedrankit。Signaaskedpermissiontosleepontheslatloungeoutsideherdoor。Alexandraenduredtheirattentionspatiently,butshewasgladwhentheyputoutthelampandlefther。
  Asshelayaloneinthedark,itoccurredtoherforthefirsttimethatperhapsshewasactuallytiredoflife。Allthephysicaloperationsoflifeseemeddifficultandpainful。Shelongedtobefreefromherownbody,whichachedandwassoheavy。Andlongingitselfwasheavy:sheyearnedtobefreeofthat。
  Asshelaywithhereyesclosed,shehadagain,morevividlythanformanyyears,theoldillu—
  sionofhergirlhood,ofbeingliftedandcarriedlightlybysomeoneverystrong。Hewaswithheralongwhilethistime,andcarriedherveryfar,andinhisarmsshefeltfreefrompain。
  Whenhelaidherdownonherbedagain,sheopenedhereyes,and,forthefirsttimeinherlife,shesawhim,sawhimclearly,thoughtheroomwasdark,andhisfacewascovered。Hewasstandinginthedoorwayofherroom。Hiswhitecloakwasthrownoverhisface,andhisheadwasbentalittleforward。Hisshouldersseemedasstrongasthefoundationsoftheworld。Hisrightarm,baredfromtheelbow,wasdarkandgleaming,likebronze,andsheknewatoncethatitwasthearmofthemighti—
  estofalllovers。Sheknewatlastforwhomitwasshehadwaited,andwherehewouldcarryher。That,shetoldherself,wasverywell。
  Thenshewenttosleep。
  Alexandrawakenedinthemorningwithnothingworsethanahardcoldandastiffshoulder。Shekeptherbedforseveraldays,anditwasduringthattimethatsheformedaresolutiontogotoLincolntoseeFrankSha—
  bata。Eversinceshelastsawhiminthecourt—
  room,Frank’shaggardfaceandwildeyeshadhauntedher。Thetrialhadlastedonlythreedays。FrankhadgivenhimselfuptothepoliceinOmahaandpleadedguiltyofkill—
  ingwithoutmaliceandwithoutpremeditation。
  Thegunwas,ofcourse,againsthim,andthejudgehadgivenhimthefullsentence,——tenyears。HehadnowbeenintheStatePeni—
  tentiaryforamonth。
  Frankwastheonlyone,Alexandratoldher—
  self,forwhomanythingcouldbedone。Hehadbeenlessinthewrongthananyofthem,andhewaspayingtheheaviestpenalty。SheoftenfeltthatsheherselfhadbeenmoretoblamethanpoorFrank。FromthetimetheShabatashadfirstmovedtotheneighboringfarm,shehadomittednoopportunityofthrowingMarieandEmiltogether。BecausesheknewFrankwassurlyaboutdoinglittlethingstohelphiswife,shewasalwayssendingEmilovertospadeorplantorcarpenterforMarie。ShewasgladtohaveEmilseeasmuchaspossibleofanintelli—
  gent,city—bredgirlliketheirneighbor;sheno—
  ticedthatitimprovedhismanners。SheknewthatEmilwasfondofMarie,butithadneveroccurredtoherthatEmil’sfeelingmightbedif—
  ferentfromherown。Shewonderedatherselfnow,butshehadneverthoughtofdangerinthatdirection。IfMariehadbeenunmarried,——oh,yes!Thenshewouldhavekepthereyesopen。ButthemerefactthatshewasSha—
  bata’swife,forAlexandra,settledeverything。
  Thatshewasbeautiful,impulsive,barelytwoyearsolderthanEmil,thesefactshadhadnoweightwithAlexandra。Emilwasagoodboy,andonlybadboysranaftermarriedwomen。
  Now,AlexandracouldinameasurerealizethatMariewas,afterall,Marie;notmerelya"marriedwoman。"Sometimes,whenAlex—
  andrathoughtofher,itwaswithanachingtenderness。Themomentshehadreachedthemintheorchardthatmorning,everythingwascleartoher。Therewassomethingaboutthosetwolyinginthegrass,somethinginthewayMariehadsettledhercheekonEmil’sshoulder,thattoldhereverything。Shewonderedthenhowtheycouldhavehelpedlovingeachother;
  howshecouldhavehelpedknowingthattheymust。Emil’scold,frowningface,thegirl’scontent——Alexandrahadfeltaweofthem,eveninthefirstshockofhergrief。
  Theidlenessofthosedaysinbed,therelax—
  ationofbodywhichattendedthem,enabledAlexandratothinkmorecalmlythanshehaddonesinceEmil’sdeath。SheandFrank,shetoldherself,wereleftoutofthatgroupoffriendswhohadbeenoverwhelmedbydisaster。
  ShemustcertainlyseeFrankShabata。Eveninthecourtroomherhearthadgrievedforhim。
  Hewasinastrangecountry,hehadnokins—
  menorfriends,andinamomenthehadruinedhislife。Beingwhathewas,shefelt,Frankcouldnothaveactedotherwise。ShecouldunderstandhisbehaviormoreeasilythanshecouldunderstandMarie’s。Yes,shemustgotoLincolntoseeFrankShabata。
  ThedayafterEmil’sfuneral,AlexandrahadwrittentoCarlLinstrum;asinglepageofnote—
  paper,abarestatementofwhathadhappened。
  Shewasnotawomanwhocouldwritemuchaboutsuchathing,andaboutherownfeelingsshecouldneverwriteveryfreely。SheknewthatCarlwasawayfrompost—offices,prospect—
  ingsomewhereintheinterior。Beforehestartedhehadwrittenherwhereheexpectedtogo,butherideasaboutAlaskawerevague。Astheweekswentbyandsheheardnothingfromhim,itseemedtoAlexandrathatherheartgrewhardagainstCarl。Shebegantowonderwhethershewouldnotdobettertofinishherlifealone。
  Whatwasleftoflifeseemedunimportant。
  II
  LateintheafternoonofabrilliantOctoberday,AlexandraBergson,dressedinablacksuitandtraveling—hat,alightedattheBurlingtondepotinLincoln。ShedrovetotheLindellHotel,whereshehadstayedtwoyearsagowhenshecameupforEmil’sCommencement。
  Inspiteofherusualairofsurenessandself—
  possession,Alexandrafeltillateaseinhotels,andshewasglad,whenshewenttotheclerk’sdesktoregister,thattherewerenotmanypeopleinthelobby。Shehadhersupperearly,wearingherhatandblackjacketdowntothedining—roomandcarryingherhandbag。Aftersuppershewentoutforawalk。
  Itwasgrowingdarkwhenshereachedtheuniversitycampus。Shedidnotgointothegrounds,butwalkedslowlyupanddownthestonewalkoutsidethelongironfence,lookingthroughattheyoungmenwhowererunningfromonebuildingtoanother,atthelightsshin—
  ingfromthearmoryandthelibrary。Asquadofcadetsweregoingthroughtheirdrillbehindthearmory,andthecommandsoftheiryoungofficerrangoutatregularintervals,sosharpandquickthatAlexandracouldnotunderstandthem。Twostalwartgirlscamedownthelibrarystepsandoutthroughoneoftheirongates。Astheypassedher,AlexandrawaspleasedtohearthemspeakingBohemiantoeachother。Everyfewmomentsaboywouldcomerunningdowntheflaggedwalkanddashoutintothestreetasifhewererushingtoannouncesomewondertotheworld。Alexandrafeltagreattendernessforthemall。Shewishedoneofthemwouldstopandspeaktoher。ShewishedshecouldaskthemwhethertheyhadknownEmil。
  Asshelingeredbythesouthgatesheactuallydidencounteroneoftheboys。Hehadonhisdrillcapandwasswinginghisbooksattheendofalongstrap。Itwasdarkbythistime;
  hedidnotseeherandranagainsther。Hesnatchedoffhiscapandstoodbareheadedandpanting。"I’mawfullysorry,"hesaidinabright,clearvoice,witharisinginflection,asifheexpectedhertosaysomething。
  "Oh,itwasmyfault!"saidAlexandraeagerly。
  "Areyouanoldstudenthere,mayIask?"
  "No,ma’am。I’maFreshie,justoffthefarm。CherryCounty。Wereyouhuntingsomebody?"
  "No,thankyou。Thatis——"Alexandrawantedtodetainhim。"Thatis,Iwouldliketofindsomeofmybrother’sfriends。Hegradu—
  atedtwoyearsago。"
  "Thenyou’dhavetotrytheSeniors,wouldn’tyou?Let’ssee;Idon’tknowanyofthemyet,butthere’llbesuretobesomeofthemaroundthelibrary。Thatredbuilding,rightthere,"hepointed。
  "Thankyou,I’lltrythere,"saidAlexandralingeringly。
  "Oh,that’sallright!Good—night。"TheladclappedhiscaponhisheadandranstraightdownEleventhStreet。Alexandralookedafterhimwistfully。
  Shewalkedbacktoherhotelunreasonablycomforted。"Whatanicevoicethatboyhad,andhowpolitehewas。IknowEmilwasalwayslikethattowomen。"Andagain,aftershehadundressedandwasstandinginhernightgown,brushingherlong,heavyhairbytheelectriclight,sherememberedhimandsaidtoherself,"Idon’tthinkIeverheardanicervoicethanthatboyhad。Ihopehewillgetonwellhere。
  CherryCounty;that’swherethehayissofine,andthecoyotescanscratchdowntowater。"
  Atnineo’clockthenextmorningAlexandrapresentedherselfatthewarden’sofficeintheStatePenitentiary。ThewardenwasaGer—
  man,aruddy,cheerful—lookingmanwhohadformerlybeenaharness—maker。AlexandrahadalettertohimfromtheGermanbankerinHanover。Asheglancedattheletter,Mr。
  Schwartzputawayhispipe。
  "ThatbigBohemian,isit?Sure,he’sgettin’alongfine,"saidMr。Schwartzcheer—
  fully。
  "Iamgladtohearthat。Iwasafraidhemightbequarrelsomeandgethimselfintomoretrouble。Mr。Schwartz,ifyouhavetime,I
  wouldliketotellyoualittleaboutFrankShabata,andwhyIaminterestedinhim。"
  ThewardenlistenedgeniallywhileshetoldhimbrieflysomethingofFrank’shistoryandcharacter,buthedidnotseemtofindanythingunusualinheraccount。
  "Sure,I’llkeepaneyeonhim。We’lltakecareofhimallright,"hesaid,rising。"Youcantalktohimhere,whileIgotoseetothingsinthekitchen。I’llhavehimsentin。Heoughttobedonewashingouthiscellbythistime。Wehavetokeep’emclean,youknow。"
  Thewardenpausedatthedoor,speakingbackoverhisshouldertoapaleyoungmaninconvicts’clotheswhowasseatedatadeskinthecorner,writinginabigledger。
  "Bertie,when1037isbroughtin,youjuststepoutandgivethisladyachancetotalk。"
  Theyoungmanbowedhisheadandbentoverhisledgeragain。
  WhenMr。Schwartzdisappeared,Alexandrathrustherblack—edgedhandkerchiefnervouslyintoherhandbag。Comingoutonthestreet—
  carshehadnothadtheleastdreadofmeetingFrank。Butsinceshehadbeenherethesoundsandsmellsinthecorridor,thelookofthemeninconvicts’clotheswhopassedtheglassdoorofthewarden’soffice,affectedherunpleasantly。
  Thewarden’sclockticked,theyoungcon—
  vict’spenscratchedbusilyinthebigbook,andhissharpshoulderswereshakeneveryfewsecondsbyaloosecoughwhichhetriedtosmother。Itwaseasytoseethathewasasickman。Alexandralookedathimtimidly,buthedidnotonceraisehiseyes。Heworeawhiteshirtunderhisstripedjacket,ahighcollar,andanecktie,verycarefullytied。Hishandswerethinandwhiteandwellcaredfor,andhehadasealringonhislittlefinger。Whenheheardstepsapproachinginthecorridor,herose,blottedhisbook,puthispenintherack,andlefttheroomwithoutraisinghiseyes。Throughthedoorheopenedaguardcamein,bringingFrankShabata。
  "Youtheladythatwantedtotalkto1037?
  Hereheis。Beonyourgoodbehavior,now。Hecansetdown,lady,"seeingthatAlexandraremainedstanding。"Pushthatwhitebuttonwhenyou’rethroughwithhim,andI’llcome。"
  TheguardwentoutandAlexandraandFrankwereleftalone。
  Alexandratriednottoseehishideousclothes。Shetriedtolookstraightintohisface,whichshecouldscarcelybelievewashis。Itwasalreadybleachedtoachalkygray。Hislipswerecolorless,hisfineteethlookedyellowish。
  HeglancedatAlexandrasullenly,blinkedasifhehadcomefromadarkplace,andoneeye—
  browtwitchedcontinually。Shefeltatoncethatthisinterviewwasaterribleordealtohim。
  Hisshavedhead,showingtheconformationofhisskull,gavehimacriminallookwhichhehadnothadduringthetrial。
  Alexandraheldoutherhand。"Frank,"shesaid,hereyesfillingsuddenly,"Ihopeyou’llletmebefriendlywithyou。Iunderstandhowyoudidit。Idon’tfeelhardtowardyou。Theyweremoretoblamethanyou。"
  Frankjerkedadirtybluehandkerchieffromhistrouserspocket。Hehadbeguntocry。HeturnedawayfromAlexandra。"Ineverdidmeantodonot’ingtodatwoman,"hemut—
  tered。"Inevermeantodonot’ingtodatboy。
  Iain’thadnot’ingag’in’datboy。Ialwayslikedatboyfine。An’thenIfindhim——"Hestopped。Thefeelingwentoutofhisfaceandeyes。Hedroppedintoachairandsatlookingstolidlyatthefloor,hishandshanginglooselybetweenhisknees,thehandkerchieflyingacrosshisstripedleg。Heseemedtohavestirredupinhismindadisgustthathadpara—
  lyzedhisfaculties。
  "Ihaven’tcomeupheretoblameyou,Frank。Ithinktheyweremoretoblamethanyou。"Alexandra,too,feltbenumbed。
  Franklookedupsuddenlyandstaredoutoftheofficewindow。"IguessdatplaceallgotohellwhatIworksohardon,"hesaidwithaslow,bittersmile。"Inotcareadamn。"Hestoppedandrubbedthepalmofhishandoverthelightbristlesonhisheadwithannoyance。
  "Inocant’inkwithoutmyhair,"hecom—
  plained。"IforgetEnglish。Wenottalkhere,exceptswear。"
  Alexandrawasbewildered。Frankseemedtohaveundergoneachangeofpersonality。TherewasscarcelyanythingbywhichshecouldrecognizeherhandsomeBohemianneighbor。
  Heseemed,somehow,notaltogetherhuman。
  Shedidnotknowwhattosaytohim。
  "Youdonotfeelhardtome,Frank?"sheaskedatlast。
  Frankclenchedhisfistandbrokeoutinexcitement。"Inotfeelhardatnowoman。I
  tellyouInotthatkind—aman。Ineverhitmywife。No,neverIhurtherwhenshedevilmesomethingawful!"Hestruckhisfistdownonthewarden’sdesksohardthatheafterwardstrokeditabsently。Apalepinkcreptoverhisneckandface。"Two,t’reeyearsIknowdatwomandon’carenomore’boutme,Alex—
  andraBergson。Iknowsheaftersomeotherman。Iknowher,oo—oo!An’Iain’tneverhurther。Ineverwould—adonedat,ifIain’thaddatgunalong。Idon’knowwhatinhellmakemetakedatgun。ShealwayssayIain’tnomantocarrygun。Ifshebeenindathouse,wheresheought—abeen——Butdasafoolishtalk。"
  Frankrubbedhisheadandstoppedsuddenly,ashehadstoppedbefore。Alexandrafeltthattherewassomethingstrangeinthewayhechilledoff,asifsomethingcameupinhimthatextinguishedhispoweroffeelingorthinking。
  "Yes,Frank,"shesaidkindly。"IknowyounevermeanttohurtMarie。"
  Franksmiledatherqueerly。Hiseyesfilledslowlywithtears。"Youknow,Imostforgitdatwoman’sname。Sheain’tgotnonameformenomore。Ineverhatemywife,butdatwomanwhatmakemedodat——HonesttoGod,butIhateher!Inomantofight。Idon’
  wanttokillnoboyandnowoman。Inotcarehowmanymenshetakeunderdattree。Inocarefornot’ingbutdatfineboyIkill,Alexan—
  draBergson。IguessIgocrazysure’nough。"
  AlexandrarememberedthelittleyellowcaneshehadfoundinFrank’sclothes—closet。Shethoughtofhowhehadcometothiscountryagayyoungfellow,soattractivethatthepretti—
  estBohemiangirlinOmahahadrunawaywithhim。Itseemedunreasonablethatlifeshouldhavelandedhiminsuchaplaceasthis。SheblamedMariebitterly。Andwhy,withherhappy,affectionatenature,shouldshehavebroughtdestructionandsorrowtoallwhohadlovedher,eventopooroldJoeTovesky,theunclewhousedtocarryheraboutsoproudlywhenshewasalittlegirl?Thatwasthestrangestthingofall。Wasthere,then,some—
  thingwronginbeingwarm—heartedandimpul—
  sivelikethat?Alexandrahatedtothinkso。
  ButtherewasEmil,intheNorwegiangrave—
  yardathome,andherewasFrankShabata。
  Alexandraroseandtookhimbythehand。
  "FrankShabata,IamnevergoingtostoptryinguntilIgetyoupardoned。I’llnevergivetheGovernoranypeace。IknowIcangetyououtofthisplace。"
  Franklookedatherdistrustfully,buthegatheredconfidencefromherface。"Alexan—
  dra,"hesaidearnestly,"ifIgitout—ahere,I
  nottroublediscountrynomore。IgobackwhereIcomefrom;seemymother。"
  Alexandratriedtowithdrawherhand,butFrankheldontoitnervously。Heputouthisfingerandabsentlytouchedabuttononherblackjacket。"Alexandra,"hesaidinalowtone,lookingsteadilyatthebutton,"youain’
  t’inkIusedatgirlawfulbadbefore——"
  "No,Frank。Wewon’ttalkaboutthat,"
  Alexandrasaid,pressinghishand。"Ican’thelpEmilnow,soI’mgoingtodowhatIcanforyou。YouknowIdon’tgoawayfromhomeoften,andIcameuphereonpurposetotellyouthis。"
  Thewardenattheglassdoorlookedinin—
  quiringly。Alexandranodded,andhecameinandtouchedthewhitebuttononhisdesk。Theguardappeared,andwithasinkingheartAlexandrasawFrankledawaydownthecor—
  ridor。AfterafewwordswithMr。Schwartz,shelefttheprisonandmadeherwaytothestreet—car。Shehadrefusedwithhorrorthewarden’scordialinvitationto"gothroughtheinstitution。"Asthecarlurchedoveritsun—
  evenroadbed,backtowardLincoln,AlexandrathoughtofhowsheandFrankhadbeenwreckedbythesamestormandofhow,al—
  thoughshecouldcomeoutintothesunlight,shehadnotmuchmoreleftinherlifethanhe。
  Sherememberedsomelinesfromapoemshehadlikedinherschooldays:——
  HenceforththeworldwillonlybeAwiderprison—housetome,——
  andsighed。Adisgustoflifeweigheduponherheart;somesuchfeelingashadtwicefrozenFrankShabata’sfeatureswhiletheytalkedtogether。ShewishedshewerebackontheDivide。
  WhenAlexandraenteredherhotel,theclerkhelduponefingerandbeckonedtoher。Assheapproachedhisdesk,hehandedheratelegram。
  Alexandratooktheyellowenvelopeandlookedatitinperplexity,thensteppedintotheele—
  vatorwithoutopeningit。Asshewalkeddownthecorridortowardherroom,shereflectedthatshewas,inamanner,immunefromeviltid—
  ings。Onreachingherroomshelockedthedoor,andsittingdownonachairbythedresser,openedthetelegram。ItwasfromHanover,anditread:——
  ArrivedHanoverlastnight。Shallwaithereuntilyoucome。Pleasehurry。
  CARLLINSTRUM。
  Alexandraputherheaddownonthedresserandburstintotears。
  III
  ThenextafternoonCarlandAlexandrawerewalkingacrossthefieldsfromMrs。
  Hiller’s。AlexandrahadleftLincolnaftermid—
  night,andCarlhadmetherattheHanoverstationearlyinthemorning。Aftertheyreachedhome,AlexandrahadgoneovertoMrs。Hiller’stoleavealittlepresentshehadboughtforherinthecity。Theystayedattheoldlady’sdoorbutamoment,andthencameouttospendtherestoftheafternooninthesunnyfields。
  Alexandrahadtakenoffherblacktraveling—
  suitandputonawhitedress;partlybecauseshesawthatherblackclothesmadeCarlun—
  comfortableandpartlybecauseshefeltop—
  pressedbythemherself。Theyseemedalittleliketheprisonwhereshehadwornthemyester—
  day,andtobeoutofplaceintheopenfields。
  Carlhadchangedverylittle。Hischeekswerebrownerandfuller。Helookedlesslikeatiredscholarthanwhenhewentawayayearago,butnoone,evennow,wouldhavetakenhimforamanofbusiness。Hissoft,lustrousblackeyes,hiswhimsicalsmile,wouldbelessagainsthimintheKlondikethanontheDivide。Therearealwaysdreamersonthefrontier。
  CarlandAlexandrahadbeentalkingsincemorning。Herletterhadneverreachedhim。
  HehadfirstlearnedofhermisfortunefromaSanFranciscopaper,fourweeksold,whichhehadpickedupinasaloon,andwhichcon—
  tainedabriefaccountofFrankShabata’strial。
  Whenheputdownthepaper,hehadalreadymadeuphismindthathecouldreachAlexandraasquicklyasalettercould;andeversincehehadbeenontheway;dayandnight,bythefastestboatsandtrainshecouldcatch。Hissteamerhadbeenheldbacktwodaysbyroughweather。
  AstheycameoutofMrs。Hiller’sgardentheytookuptheirtalkagainwheretheyhadleftit。
  "Butcouldyoucomeawaylikethat,Carl,withoutarrangingthings?Couldyoujustwalkoffandleaveyourbusiness?"Alexandraasked。
  Carllaughed。"PrudentAlexandra!Yousee,mydear,Ihappentohaveanhonestpartner。
  Itrusthimwitheverything。Infact,it’sbeenhisenterprisefromthebeginning,youknow。
  I’minitonlybecausehetookmein。I’llhavetogobackinthespring。Perhapsyouwillwanttogowithmethen。Wehaven’tturnedupmillionsyet,butwe’vegotastartthat’sworthfollowing。ButthiswinterI’dliketospendwithyou。Youwon’tfeelthatweoughttowaitlonger,onEmil’saccount,willyou,Alexandra?"
  Alexandrashookherhead。"No,Carl;I
  don’tfeelthatwayaboutit。Andsurelyyouneedn’tmindanythingLouandOscarsaynow。TheyaremuchangrierwithmeaboutEmil,now,thanaboutyou。Theysayitwasallmyfault。ThatIruinedhimbysendinghimtocollege。"
  "No,Idon’tcareabuttonforLouorOscar。ThemomentIknewyouwereintrou—
  ble,themomentIthoughtyoumightneedme,italllookeddifferent。You’vealwaysbeenatriumphantkindofperson。"Carlhesitated,lookingsidewiseatherstrong,fullfigure。"Butyoudoneedmenow,Alex—
  andra?"
  Sheputherhandonhisarm。"Ineededyouterriblywhenithappened,Carl。Icriedforyouatnight。Theneverythingseemedtogethardinsideofme,andIthoughtperhapsIshouldnevercareforyouagain。ButwhenIgotyourtelegramyesterday,then——thenitwasjustasitusedtobe。YouareallIhaveintheworld,youknow。"
  Carlpressedherhandinsilence。TheywerepassingtheShabatas’emptyhousenow,buttheyavoidedtheorchardpathandtookonethatledoverbythepasturepond。
  "Canyouunderstandit,Carl?"Alexandramurmured。"IhavehadnobodybutIvarandSignatotalkto。Dotalktome。Canyouun—
  derstandit?CouldyouhavebelievedthatofMarieTovesky?Iwouldhavebeencuttopieces,littlebylittle,beforeIwouldhavebetrayedhertrustinme!"
  Carllookedattheshiningspotofwaterbeforethem。"Maybeshewascuttopieces,too,Alexandra。Iamsureshetriedhard;theybothdid。ThatwaswhyEmilwenttoMexico,ofcourse。Andhewasgoingawayagain,youtellme,thoughhehadonlybeenhomethreeweeks。YourememberthatSundaywhenI
  wentwithEmiluptotheFrenchChurchfair?
  Ithoughtthatdaytherewassomekindoffeel—
  ing,somethingunusual,betweenthem。I
  meanttotalktoyouaboutit。ButonmywaybackImetLouandOscarandgotsoangrythatIforgoteverythingelse。Youmustn’tbehardonthem,Alexandra。Sitdownherebythepondaminute。Iwanttotellyousomething。"
  Theysatdownonthegrass—tuftedbankandCarltoldherhowhehadseenEmilandMarieoutbythepondthatmorning,morethanayearago,andhowyoungandcharmingandfullofgracetheyhadseemedtohim。"Ithap—
  penslikethatintheworldsometimes,Alexan—
  dra,"headdedearnestly。"I’veseenitbefore。
  Therearewomenwhospreadruinaroundthemthroughnofaultoftheirs,justbybeingtoobeautiful,toofulloflifeandlove。Theycan’thelpit。Peoplecometothemaspeoplegotoawarmfireinwinter。Iusedtofeelthatinherwhenshewasalittlegirl。Doyouremem—
  berhowalltheBohemianscrowdedroundherinthestorethatday,whenshegaveEmilhercandy?Yourememberthoseyellowsparksinhereyes?"
  Alexandrasighed。"Yes。Peoplecouldn’thelplovingher。PoorFrankdoes,evennow,I
  think;thoughhe’sgothimselfinsuchatanglethatforalongtimehislovehasbeenbittererthanhishate。Butifyousawtherewasany—
  thingwrong,yououghttohavetoldme,Carl。"
  Carltookherhandandsmiledpatiently。
  "Mydear,itwassomethingonefeltintheair,asyoufeelthespringcoming,orastorminsummer。Ididn’tSEEanything。Simply,whenIwaswiththosetwoyoungthings,Ifeltmybloodgoquicker,Ifelt——howshallIsayit?——
  anaccelerationoflife。AfterIgotaway,itwasalltoodelicate,toointangible,towriteabout。"
  Alexandralookedathimmournfully。"I
  trytobemoreliberalaboutsuchthingsthanIusedtobe。Itrytorealizethatwearenotallmadealike。Only,whycouldn’tithavebeenRaoulMarcel,orJanSmirka?Whydidithavetobemyboy?"
  "Becausehewasthebesttherewas,Isup—
  pose。Theywereboththebestyouhadhere。"
  Thesunwasdroppinglowinthewestwhenthetwofriendsroseandtookthepathagain。
  Thestraw—stackswerethrowinglongshadows,theowlswereflyinghometotheprairie—dogtown。Whentheycametothecornerwherethepasturesjoined,Alexandra’stwelveyoungcoltsweregallopinginadroveoverthebrowofthehill。
  "Carl,"saidAlexandra,"Ishouldliketogouptherewithyouinthespring。Ihaven’tbeenonthewatersincewecrossedtheocean,whenIwasalittlegirl。AfterwefirstcameouthereIusedtodreamsometimesabouttheship—
  yardwherefatherworked,andalittlesortofinlet,fullofmasts。"Alexandrapaused。Afteramoment’sthoughtshesaid,"Butyouwouldneveraskmetogoawayforgood,wouldyou?"
  "Ofcoursenot,mydearest。IthinkIknowhowyoufeelaboutthiscountryaswellasyoudoyourself。"Carltookherhandinbothhisownandpressedittenderly。
  "Yes,Istillfeelthatway,thoughEmilisgone。WhenIwasonthetrainthismorning,andwegotnearHanover,IfeltsomethinglikeIdidwhenIdrovebackwithEmilfromtheriverthattime,inthedryyear。Iwasgladtocomebacktoit。I’velivedherealongtime。
  Thereisgreatpeacehere,Carl,andfreedom……IthoughtwhenIcameoutofthatprison,wherepoorFrankis,thatIshouldneverfeelfreeagain。ButIdo,here。"Alexandratookadeepbreathandlookedoffintotheredwest。
  "Youbelongtotheland,"Carlmurmured,"asyouhavealwayssaid。Nowmorethanever。"
  "Yes,nowmorethanever。Yourememberwhatyouoncesaidaboutthegraveyard,andtheoldstorywritingitselfover?Onlyitiswewhowriteit,withthebestwehave。"
  Theypausedonthelastridgeofthepasture,overlookingthehouseandthewindmillandthestablesthatmarkedthesiteofJohnBergson’shomestead。Oneverysidethebrownwavesoftheearthrolledawaytomeetthesky。
  "LouandOscarcan’tseethosethings,"saidAlexandrasuddenly。"SupposeIdowillmylandtotheirchildren,whatdifferencewillthatmake?Thelandbelongstothefuture,Carl;
  that’sthewayitseemstome。Howmanyofthenamesonthecountyclerk’splatwillbethereinfiftyyears?Imightaswelltrytowillthesunsetovertheretomybrother’schildren。Wecomeandgo,butthelandisalwayshere。Andthepeoplewholoveitandunderstanditarethepeoplewhoownit——foralittlewhile。"
  Carllookedatherwonderingly。Shewasstillgazingintothewest,andinherfacetherewasthatexaltedserenitythatsometimescametoheratmomentsofdeepfeeling。Thelevelraysofthesinkingsunshoneinhercleareyes。
  "Whyareyouthinkingofsuchthingsnow,Alexandra?"
  "IhadadreambeforeIwenttoLincoln——
  ButIwilltellyouaboutthatafterward,afterwearemarried。Itwillnevercometrue,now,inthewayIthoughtitmight。"ShetookCarl’sarmandtheywalkedtowardthegate。"Howmanytimeswehavewalkedthispathtogether,Carl。Howmanytimeswewillwalkitagain!
  Doesitseemtoyoulikecomingbacktoyourownplace?Doyoufeelatpeacewiththeworldhere?Ithinkweshallbeveryhappy。Ihaven’tanyfears。Ithinkwhenfriendsmarry,theyaresafe。Wedon’tsufferlike——thoseyoungones。"
  Alexandraendedwithasigh。
  Theyhadreachedthegate。BeforeCarlopenedit,hedrewAlexandratohimandkissedhersoftly,onherlipsandonhereyes。
  Sheleanedheavilyonhisshoulder。"Iamtired,"shemurmured。"Ihavebeenverylonely,Carl。"
  Theywentintothehousetogether,leavingtheDividebehindthem,undertheeveningstar。Fortunatecountry,thatisonedaytoreceiveheartslikeAlexandra’sintoitsbosom,togivethemoutagainintheyellowwheat,intherustlingcorn,intheshiningeyesofyouth!