BornandbredintheChurch,baptized,confirmed,andmarriedintheChurch,andI
wasalwaystaughtitwastheonlyproperChurchforgentlemenandgentlewomentobesavedin。However,EnglishMethodistsoftengobacktotheChurchwhentheygetrich。"
"Churchorchapelmakesnodifferencetome,grandmother。Ifpeopleareonlygood。"
"Tobesure;butyouwon’tbelonginEnglanduntilyou’llfindoutthatsomethingsmakeagreatdealofdifference。Doyouknowyourfatherwasherethismorning?
Hewantedmetogowithyou——alikely,thing。"
"But,grandmother,docome。Wewilltakesuchgoodcareofyou,and————"
"Iknow,butI’dratherkeepmyoldmemoriesofYorkshirethangetnew-fashionedones。Allischanged。IcantellthatbywhatFredsays。Mythreegreatfriendsaredead。Theyhaveleftchildrenandgrandchildren,ofcourse,butIdon’twanttomakenewacquaintancesatmyage,unlessIhavethepickingofthem。No,IshallgetMissHillistogowithmetomylittlecabinontheJerseycoast。We’lltakeourknittingandthefreshnovels,andI’llwarrantwe’llseeasmuchofthenewmenandwomeninthemaswillmorethansatisfyus。Butyoumustwritemelongletters,andtellmeeverythingabouttheSquireandthewayhekeepshouse,andIdon’tcareifyoufillupthepaperwiththeTyrrel-Rawdons。"
"Iwillwriteyouoften,Granny,andtellyoueverything。"
"Ishouldn’twonderifyoucomeacrossDoraStanhope,butIwouldn’taskhertoRawdon。She’llmixsomecupofbotherifyoudo。"
"Iknow。"
Insuchlovingandintimateconversationthehoursspedquickly,andEthelcouldnotbeartocutshorthervisit。ItwasnearlyfivewhensheleftGramercyPark,butthedaybeinglovely,andtheavenuefullofcarriagesandpedestrians,shetookthedriveatitsenforcedtardinesswithoutdisapproval。
AlmostonenteringtheavenuefromMadisonSquaretherewasacrush,andhercarriagecametoastandstill。ShewasthenoppositethestoreofafamousEnglishsaddler,andnearherwasanopencarriageoccupiedbyamiddle-agedgentlemaninmilitaryuniform。
Heappearedtobewaitingforsomeone,andinamomentortwoayoungmancameoutofthesaddlerystore,andwithapleasantlaughenteredthecarriage。ItwastheApolloofherdreams,thesingeroftheHollandHousepavement。Shecouldnotdoubtit。Hisface,hisfigure,hiswalk,andthepleasantsmilewithwhichhespoketohiscompanionwereallpositivecharacteristics。Shehadforgottennoneofthem。Hisdresswasalteredtosuittheseason,butthatwasanimprovement;
fordivestedofhisheavycoat,andclothedonlyinastylishafternoonsuit,histall,finefigureshowedtogreatadvantage;andEtheltoldherselfthathewasevenhandsomerthanshehadsupposedhimtobe。
Almostassoonasheenteredhiscarriagetherewasamovement,andshehopedherdrivermightadvancesufficientlytomakerecognitionpossible,butsomefeeling,sheknewnotwhat,preventedhergivinganyorderleadingtothisresult。PerhapsshehadaninstinctivepresentimentthatitwasbesttoleavealltoDestiny。Towardtheupperpartoftheavenuethecarriageofhereagerobservationcametoastandbeforeawarehouseofantiquefurnitureandbric-a-brac,and,asitdidso,abeautifulwomanrandownthesteps,andApollo,forsoEthelhadmen-
tallycalledhim,wenthurriedlytomeether。
Finallyhercoachmanpassedtheparty,andtherewasamomentaryrecognition。Hewasbendingforward,listeningtosomethingtheladywassaying,whenthevehiclesalmosttouchedeachother。Heflashedaglanceatthem,andmettheflashofEthel’seyesfullofinterestandcuriosity。
Itwasoverinamoment,butinthatmomentEthelsawhisastonishmentanddelight,andfeltherowneagerquestioninganswered。
Thenshewasjoyousandfullofhope,for"thesetwosilentmeetingsarepromises,"shesaidtoRuth。"IfeelsureIshallseehimagain,andthenweshallspeaktoeachother。"
"Ihopeyouarenotallowingyourselftofeeltoomuchinterestinthisman,Ethel;heisverylikelymarried。"
"Oh,no!Iamsureheisnot,Ruth。"
"Howcanyoubesure?Youknownothingabouthim。"
"IcannottellHOWIknow,norWHYIknow,butIbelievewhatIfeel;andheisasmuchinterestedinmeasIaminhim。Iconfessthatisagreatdeal。"
"Youmayneverseehimagain。"
"Ishallexpecttoseehimnextwinter,heevidentlylivesinNewYork。"
"Theladyyousawmaybehiswife。Don’tbeinterestedinanymanonunknownground,Ethel。Itisnotprudent——itisnotright。"
"Timewillshow。HewillverylikelybelookingformethissummeratNewportandelsewhere。HewillbegladtoseemewhenI
comehome。Don’tworry,Ruth。Itisallright。"
"Fredcalledsoonafteryouwentoutthismorning。HeleftforNewportthisafternoon。
Hewillbeatseanow。"
"Andweshallbethereinafewdays。
WhenIamattheseasideIalwaysfeeladelicioustorpor;yetNellyBaldwintoldmeshelovedanAtlanticpassagebecauseshehadsuchfunonboard。Youhavecrossedseveraltimes,Ruth;isitfunortorpor?"
"Allmirthatseasoonfadesaway,Ethel。
Passengersareaverydullclassofpeople,andtheyknowit;theyrebelagainstit,buteveryhouritbecomesmorenaturaltobedull。
Verysoonallmentallyaccommodatethemselvestobeingbored,dreamyanddreary。
Then,assoonasitisdark,comesthatoldmysterious,hungeringsoundofthesea;andIforonelistentillIcanbearitnolonger,andsostealawaytobedwithapaininmyheart。"
"IthinkIshallliketheocean。Therearegames,andbooks,andcompany,anddinners,andotherthings。"
"Certainly,andyoucanthinkyourselfhappy,untilgraduallyacontentedcretinismstealsoveryou,bodyandmind。"
"No,no!"saidEthelenthusiastically。
"IshalldoaccordingtoSwinburne——
"`Havethereforeinmyheart,andinmymouth,ThesoundofsongthatminglesNorthandSouth;
AndinmySoulthesenseofalltheSea!’"
AndRuthlaughedatherdramaticattitude,andanswered:"Thesoulofalltheseaisacontentedcretinism,Ethel。ButintendayswemaybeinYorkshire。Andthen,mydear,youmaymeetyourPrince——somefineYorkshiregentleman。"
"IhavestrictlyandpositivelypromisedmyselfthatmyPrinceshallbeafineAmericangentleman。"
"MydearEthel,itisveryseldom"`thetime,andtheplace,AndtheLovedOne,cometogether。’"
"Iliveinthelandofgoodhope,Ruth,andmyhopeswillberealized。"
"Weshallsee。"
PARTTHIRD
"IWENTDOWNINTOTHEGARDEN
TOSEEIFTHEPOMEGRANATESBUDDED。
SongofSolomon,VI。11。
CHAPTERVII
ITwasalovelyafternoononthelastdayofMay。Theseaandallthetoilandtravailbelongingtoitwasoverpass,andJudgeRawdon,RuthandEthelweredrivinginlazy,blissfulcontentmentthroughoneofthelovelyroadsoftheWestRiding。Oneitherhandthebeautifullycuthedgeswerewhiteandsweet,andacaressofscent——thesoulofthehawthorneflowerenfoldedthem。Robinsweresingingonthetopmostsprays,andthelinnet’ssweetbabblingwasheardfromthehappynestsinitssecretplaces;whilefromsomeunseensteeplethejoyfulsoundofchimingbellsmademusicbetweenheavenandearthfitforbandsoftravelingangels。
Theyhaddinedatawaysideinnonjuggedhare,roastbeef,andYorkshirepudding,clottedcreamandhaver(oaten)bread,andthecarelessstillnessofphysicalwell-beingandofmindsateaseneedednospeech,butthemutualsmilingnodofintimatesympathy。
Forthesenseofjoyandbeautywhichmakesuseloquentisfarinferiortothatsensewhichmakesussilent。
ThisexquisitepauseinlifewassuddenlyendedbyanexclamationfromtheJudge。
TheywereatthegreatirongatesofRawdonPark,andsoonwereslowlytraversingitswoodysolitudes。Thesoftlight,theunspeakablegreenoftheturf,thevoiceofancientdaysmurmuringinthegreatoaktrees,thedeerasleepamongtheferns,thestillnessofthesummerafternoonfillingtheairwithdrowsypeacethiswastheatmosphereintowhichtheyentered。Theirroadthroughthisgrandparkofthreehundredacreswasawide,straightavenueshadedwithbeechtrees。Thegreenturfoneitherhandwasstarredwithprimroses。Inthedeepundergrowth,fernswavedandfannedeachother,andthescentofhiddenvioletssalutedastheypassed。
Drowsily,asifhalfasleep,theblackbirdswhistledtheircouplets,andinthethickesthedgesthelittlebrownthrushessangsoftlytotheirbroodingmates。Forhalfanhourtheykeptthisheavenlypath,andthenasuddenturnbroughtthemtheirfirstsightoftheoldhome。
Itwasastately,irregularbuildingofredbrick,sandaledandveiledinivy。Thenu-
merouswindowswerealllatticed,thechimneysinpicturesquestacks,theslopingroofmadeofflagsofsandstone。Itstoodinthecenterofalargegarden,atthebottomofwhichranababblinglittleriver——acheerfultongueoflifeinthesweet,silentplace。Theycrosseditbyaprettybridge,andinafewminutesstoodatthegreatdoorofthemansion。
Itwaswideopen,andtheSquire,withoutstretchedhands,rosetomeetthem。WhileyetuponthethresholdhekissedbothEthelandRuth,and,claspingtheJudge’shand,gazedathimwithsuchapiercing,kindlylookthattheeyesofbothmenfilledwithtears。
Heledthemintothehall,andstandingthereheseemedalmostapartofit。InhisyouthhehadbeenasonofAnak,andhisgreatsizehadbeenmatchedbyhisgreatstrength。Hisstaturewasstilllarge,hisfacebroadandmassive,andanabundanceofsnow-whitehairemphasizedthedignityofacountenancewhichagehadmadenobler。Thegenerationsofeighthundredyearswerecrystallizedinthisbenignantoldman,lookingwithsucheagerinterestintothefacesofhisstrangekindredfromafar-offland。
IntheeveningtheysattogetherintheoldhalltalkingoftheRawdons。"Thereisgreatfamilyofus,livinganddead,"saidtheSquire,"andIcountthemallmyfriends。
Bareisthebackthathasnokinbehindit。
Thatisnotourcase。EighthundredyearsagotherewasaRawdoninRawdon,andonehasneverbeenwantingsince。Saxon,Danish,Norman,andStuartkingshavebeenandgonetheirway,andweremain;andIcantellyoueveryRawdonbornsincetheHouseofHanovercametoEngland。WehavehadourshareinallEngland’sstrifeandglory,foriftherewaseverafightgoingonanywhereRawdonwasneverfaroff。Yes,wecanstringthecenturiestogetherinthebattleflagswehavewon。Seethere!"hecried,pointingtotwostandardsinterwovenabovethecentralchimney-piece;"onewastakenfromthePayniminthefirstCrusade,andtheothermygrandsontookinAfrica。Itseemsbutyesterday,andQueenVictoriagavehimtheCrossforit。Poorlad,hehaditonwhenhedied。Itwenttothegravewithhim。
Iwouldn’thaveittouched。IfancytheRawdonswouldknowit。Noonedaresaytheydon’t。Ithinktheymeddleagooddealmorewiththislifethanwecounton。"
ThedaysthatfollowedweredaysinTheHouseWonderful。Itheldthetreasure-troveofcenturies;allitsroomswerefullofsecrets。
Eventhecommonsitting-roomhadanantiquehomelinessthatprovokedquestionsastothedatesofitsfurnitureandthewhereaboutsofitswallcupboardsandhiddenrecesses。
Itschinahadthemarksofforgottenmakers,itssilverwaspuzzlingwithhalf-
obliteratednamesanddates,itssideboardofoakwasblackwithageandfulloftableaccessories,theverynamesofwhichwereforgotten。Forthishousehadnotbeenbuiltintheordinarysense,ithadgrownthroughcenturies;grownoutofdesireandnecessity,justasatreegrows,andwasthereforefitandbeautiful。Anditwasnowonderthatabouteveryroomfloatedtheperfumeofancientthingsandthepeculiarfamilyaurathathadsaturatedalltheinanimateobjectsaroundthem。
Inafewdays,lifesettleditselftoorderlyoccupations。TheSquirewasalateriser;theJudgeandhisfamilybreakfastedveryearly。
Thenthetwowomenhadarideinthepark,orwanderedinthegarden,orsatreading,orsewing,orwritinginsomeofthesweet,fairrooms。Manyvisitorssoonappeared,andtherewerecallstoreturnandcourtesiestoaccept。AmongthesevisitorstheTyrrel-
Rawdonsweretheearliest。TherepresentativesofthatfamilywereNicholasRawdonandhiswifeLydia。NicholasRawdonwasalarge,stoutman,veryarrogant,verycomplete,veryalertforthisworld,andnotcaringmuchabouttheother。HewasnotpleasedatJudgeRawdon’svisit,butthoughtitbesttobecousinlyuntilhiscousininterferedwithhisplans——"rights"hecalledthem——"andthen!"andhis"THEN"impliedagreatdeal,forNicholasRawdonwasamanincapableofconceivingtheideaoflovinganenemy。
Hiswifewasapleasant,garrulouswoman,whointerestedEthelverymuch。Herfamilywasherchieftopicofconversation。Shehadtwodaughters,oneofwhomhadmarriedabaronet,"amanwithmoneyandeasytomanage";andtheother,"arichcottonlordinManchester。"
"Theyhaven’tdonebadly,"shesaidconfidentially,"andit’sagreatthingtogetgirlsoffyourhandsearly。AdelaideandMarthawerewelleducatedandsuitable,but,"sheaddedwithaglowofpride,"youshouldseemyJohnThomas。He’smanagerofthemill,andhelovesthemill,andheknowseverypoundofwarporweftthatcomesinorgoesoutofthemill;andwhathisfatherwoulddowithouthim,I’msureIdon’tknow。AndheisamemberofParliament,too——Radicalticket。WonoverMostyn。WipedMostynoutprettywell。Thatwasathingtodo,wasn’tit?"
"IsupposeMr。MostynwastheConservativecandidate?"
"Youmaybesureofthat。ButmyJohnThomasdoesn’tblamehimforit——thegentryhavetobeConservatives。JohnThomassaidlittleagainsthispolitics;hejustsetthecrowdlaughingathisways——hisdandifiedways。
Andhetriedtowearoneeyeglass,andletitfall,andfall,andthentoldthemen`hecouldn’tmanagehalfapairofspectacles;
buthecouldmanagetheirinterestsandfightfortheirrights,’andsuchliketalk。AndhewalkedlikeMostyn,andhetalkedlikeMostyn,andspreadouthislegs,andtwirledhiswalkingsticklikeMostyn,andaskedthem`iftheywouldwishhimtogotoParliamentinthatkindofashape,ashe’dtryanddoitiftheywantedatailor-mademan’;andtheylaughedhimdown,andthenhespokereasonabletothem。JohnThomasknowswhatYorkshireweaverswant,andhejustprom-
isedthemeverythingtheyhadsettheirheartson;andsotheysenthimtoParliament,andMostynwenttoAmerica,where,perhaps,they’llteachhimthataman’slifeisworthabitmorethanabirdorarabbit。Mostynisallforpreservinggame,andhisfatherwasameancreature。Whenonethinksofhisfather,onehastoexcusetheyoungmanalittlebit。"
"IsawagooddealofMr。MostyninNewYork,"saidEthel。"Heusedtospeakhighlyofhisfather。"
"I’llwarranthedid;andheoughttokeepatit,forhe’stheonlyoneinthisworldthatwillusehistongueforthatend。OldSamuelMostynneverlearnedtolivegodlyorevenmanly,butafterhisdeathheceasedtodoevil,andthat,I’venodoubt,oftenfeelslikeablessingtothemthathadtoliveanywayneartohim。ButmyJohnThomas!"
"Oh,"criedEthel,laughing,"youmustnottellmesomuchaboutJohnThomas;hemightnotlikeit。"
"JohnThomascanlookallhedoesandallhesaysstraightintheface。Youmaytalkofhimallday,andfindnothingtosaythatagoodgirllikeyoumightnotlistento。
Ishouldhavebroughthimwithus,buthe’sawaynowtakingabitofaholiday。I’msureheneedsit。"
"Whereishetakinghisholiday?"
"Why,hewentwithacousintoshowhimthesightsofLondon;butsomehowtheygotthroughLondonsightsveryquick,andthoughttheymightaswellputParisin。I
wishtheyhadn’t。Idon’ttrustforeignersandforeignways,andtheydon’thavethesamekindofmoneyasours;butNicholassaysI
needn’tworry;heissurethatourJohnThomas,ifchangeistomake,willmakeittosuithimself。"
"Howsoonwillhebehome?"
"Imightsayto-dayoranyotherearlyday。He’sbeenidlingforamonthnow,andhisfathersays`theveryloomsarecallingoutforhim。’I’llbringhimtoseeyoujustassoonashecomeshome,loomsornolooms,andhe’llbefaintocome。NooneappreciatesaprettygirlmorethanJohnThomasdoes。"
Sothedayspassedsweetlyandswiftlyonward,andtherewasnotroubleinthem。SuchbusinessaswastobedonewentonbehindthecloseddoorsoftheSquire’soffice,andwithnoonepresentbuthimself,JudgeRawdon,andtheattorneysattachedtotheRawdonandMostynestates。Andastherewerenoentanglementsandnopossiblereasonfordisputing,asettlementwasquicklyarrivedat。Then,asMostyn’sreturnwasuncertain,anattorney’smessenger,properlyaccredited,wassenttoAmericatoprocurehissignatures。
Allowingforunforeseendelays,theperfectedpapersofreleasemightcertainlybeonhandbythefifteenthofJuly,anditwasproposedonthefirstofAugusttogiveadinneranddanceinreturnforthenumerouscourtesiestheAmericanRawdonshadreceived。
AsthisdateapproachedRuthandEthelbegantothinkofavisittoLondon。Theywantednewgownsandmanyotherprettythings,andwhynotgotoLondonforthem?
Thejourneywasbutafewhours,andtwoorthreedays’shoppinginRegentStreetandPiccadillywouldbedelightful。"Wewillmakeoutalistofallweneedthisafternoon,"
saidRuth,"andwemightaswellgoto-morrowmorningaslater,"andatthismomentaservantenteredwiththemail。Ethelliftedherletterwithanexclamation。"ItisfromDora,"shesaid,andhervoicehadatoneofannoyanceinit。"DoraisinLondon,attheSavoy。Shewantstoseemeverymuch。"
"Iamsosorry。Wehavebeensohappy。"
"Idon’tthinkshewillinterferemuch,Ruth。"
"Mydears,"saidJudgeRawdon,"IhavealetterfromFredMostyn。Heiscominghome。HewillbeinLondoninadayortwo。"
"Whyishecoming,father?"
"HesayshehasaproposaltomakeabouttheManor。Iwishhewerenotcoming。Noonewantshisproposal。"Thenthebreakfast-
table,whichhadbeensogay,becamesilentanddepressed,andpresentlytheJudgewentawaywithoutexhibitingfurtherinterestintheLondonjourney。
"IdowishDorawouldletusalone,"saidRuth。"Shealwaysbringsdisappointmentorworryofsomekind。AndIwonderwhatisthemeaningofthisunexpectedLondonvisit。IthoughtshewasinHolland。"
"ShesaidinherlastletterthatLondonwouldbeimpossiblebeforeAugust。"
"Isitanappointment——oracoincidence?"
AndEthel,liftinghershoulderssarcastically,asifinhostilesurrendertotheinevitable,answered:
"Itisafatality!"
CHAPTERVIII
THREEdaysafterwardEthelcalledonDoraStanhopeattheSavoy。Shefoundheralone,andshehadevidentlybeencrying。Indeed,shefranklyadmittedthefact,declaringthatshehadbeen"soboredandsohomesick,thatsherelievedshehadcriedherbeautyaway。"SheglancedatEthel’sradiantfaceandneatfreshtoiletwithenvy,andadded,"Iamsogladtoseeyou,Ethel。ButIwassurethatyouwouldcomeassoonasyouknewIwantedyou。"
"Oh,indeed,Dora,youmustnotmakeyourselftoosureofsuchathingasthat!I
reallycametoLondontogetsomenewgowns。
Ihavebeenshoppingallmorning。"
"Ithoughtyouhadcomeinanswertomyletter。Iwasexpectingyou。ThatisthereasonIdidnotgooutwithBasil。"
"Don’tyouexpectalittletoomuch,Dora?
Ihaveagreatmanyinterestsandduties————"
"Iusedtobefirst。"
"Whenagirlmarriessheissupposedto————"
"Pleasedon’ttalknonsense。Basildoesnottaketheplaceofeveryoneandeverythingelse。Ithinkweareoftenverytiredofeachother。Thismorning,whenIwastellinghimwhattroubleIhadwithmymaid,Julia,heactuallyyawned。Hetriedtosmothertheyawn,buthecouldnot,andofcoursethehoneymoonisoverwhenyourbridegroomyawnsinyourfacewhileyouaretellinghimyourtroubles。"
"Ishouldthinkyouwouldbegladitwasover。OfallthewordsintheEnglishlanguage`honeymoon’isthemostridiculousandimbecile。"
"Isupposewhenyougetmarriedyouwilltakeahoneymoon。"
"Ishallhavemoresenseandmoreselfishness。
Agirlcouldhardlyenteranewlifethroughamediummoretrying。Iamsureitwouldneedlong-testedaffectionsandthesweetestoftemperstomakeitendurable。"
"Icannotimaginewhatyoumean。"
"Imeanthatalltravelingjustaftermarriageisagreatblunder。Travelingmakesthesunniestdispositionhastyandpeevish,forwomendon’tlovechangesasmendo。
Notoneinathousandisseenatherbestwhiletraveling,andthemajorityareseenattheirveryworst。ThenthereisthediscomfortanddesolationofEuropeanhotels——
theirmysteriousmethodsandhours,andthewaysofforeigners,whicharenotasourways。"
"Don’ttalkofthem,Ethel。Theyaredreadfulplaces,andsuchqueerpeople。"
"Addtothesetroublesignoranceoflanguageandcoinage,theutterwearinessofrailwaytravel,theplagueofcustoms,thetrunkthatwon’tpack,thetrainsthatwon’twait,thetiresomesight-seeing,theclimaticirritability,broilingsuns,headache,loneliness,fretfulness——consequentlythepitifulboredomofthenewhusband。"
"Ethel,whatyousayiscertainlytootrue。
Iamwearytodeathofitall。IwanttobeatNewportwithmother,whoishavingalovelytimethere。OfcourseBasilisverynicetome,andyettherehavebeenlittletiffsandstruggles——verygentleones——forthemastery,whichheisnotgoingtoget。To-dayhewantedmetogowithhimandCanonShackletontoseesomethingorotheraboutthepoorofLondon。Iwouldnotdoit。Iamsolonely,Ethel,Iwanttoseesomeone。Ifeelfittocryallthetime。IlikeBasilbestofanyoneintheworld,but————"
"Butinthesolitudeofahoneymoonamongstrangersyoufindoutthatthepersonyoulikebestintheworldcanboreyouasbadlyasthepersonyoudon’tlikeatall。Isthatso?"
"Exactly。JustfancyifwewereamongourfriendsinNewport。Ishouldhavesomepleasureindressingandlookinglovely。WhyshouldIdresshere?Thereisnoonetoseeme。"
"Basil。"
"Ofcourse,butBasilspendsallthetimeinvisitingcathedralsandclergymen。Ifwegoout,itistoseesomethingaboutthepoor,oraboutschoolsandsuchlike。WewerenotinLondontwohoursuntilhewasofftoWestminsterAbbey,andIdidn’tcareacentabouttheoldplace。HesaysImustnotaskhimtogototheaters,buthistoricaloldhousesdon’tinterestmeatall。WhatdoesitmatterifCromwellsleptinacertainancientshabbyroom?AndasforallthepalacesIhaveseen,myfather’shouseisagreatdealhandsomer,andmoreconvenient,andmorecomfortable,andIwishIwerethere。IhateEurope,andEnglandIhateworstofall。"
"YouhavenotseenEngland。Weareallenrapturedwithitsbeautyanditsoldhousesandpleasantlife。"
"Youareamongfriends——athome,asitwere。IhaveheardallaboutRawdonCourt。
FredMostyntoldme。Heisgoingtobuyit。"
"When?"
"Sometimethisfall。Thennextyearhewillentertainus,andthatwillbealittledifferenttothisdesolatehotel,Ithink。"
"HowlongwillyoubeinLondon?"
"Icannotsay。WeareinvitedtoStanhopeCastle,butIdon’twanttogothere。
WestayedwiththeStanhopesaweekwhenwefirstcameover。TheywerethenintheirLondonhouse,andIgotenoughofthem。"
"Didyoudislikethefamily?"
"No,Icarednothingaboutthem。Theyjustboredme。Theyareextremelyreligious。
Wehadprayersnightandmorning,andaprayerbeforeandaftereverymeal。Theyreadonlyverygoodbooks,andtheHonorableMissesStanhopesewforthepooroldwomenandteachthepooryoungones。TheyworkharderthananyoneIeverknew,andtheycallit`improvingthetime。’Theythoughtmeaverysilly,recklessyoungwoman,andIthinktheyallprayedforme。Onenightaftertheyhadsungsomeverynicesongstheyaskedmetoplay,andIbeganwith`MyLittleBrownRose’——youknowtheyalladorethenegro——
andlittlebylittleIdroppedintothefunniestcoonsongsIknew,andohhowtheylaughed!
Eventheoldlordstrokedhiskneesandlaughedoutloud,whiletheyoungladieslaughedintotheirhandkerchiefs。LadyStanhopewastheonlyonewhocomprehendedIwasguyingthem;andshelookedatmewithhalf-shuteyesinawaythatwouldhavespoiledsomegirls’fun。Itonlymademethemerrier。SoItriedtoshowthemacakewalk,buttheoldlordrosethenandsaid`Imustbetired,andtheywouldexcuseme。’
SomehowIcouldnotmanagehim。Basilwasataworkman’sconcert,andwhenhecamehomeIthinkthereweresomeadvicesandremonstrances,butBasilnevertoldme。
IfeltasiftheywereallgladwhenIwentaway,andIdon’twishtogototheCastle——
andIwon’tgoeither。"
"ButifBasilwishestogo————"
"Hecangoalone。IratherthinkFredMostynwillbehereinafewdays,andhewilltakemetoplacesthatBasilwillnot——innocentplacesenough,Ethel,soyouneednotlooksoshocked。WhydoyounotaskmetoRawdonCourt?"
"BecauseIamonlyaguestthere。Ihavenorighttoaskyou。"
"IamsureifyoutoldSquireRawdonhowfondyouareofme,andhowlonelyIam,hewouldtellyoutosendforme。"
"Idonotbelievehewould。Hehasold-
fashionedideasaboutnewlymarriedpeople。
HewouldhardlythinkitpossiblethatyouwouldbewillingtogoanywherewithoutBasil——yet。"
"HecouldaskBasiltoo。"
"IfMr。Mostyniscominghome,hecanaskyoutoMostynHall。ItisverynearRawdonCourt。"
"Yes。FredsaidassoonashehadpossessionoftheCourthecouldputbothplacesintoaringfence。ThenhewouldliveattheCourt。IfheasksustherenextsummerI
shallbesuretobeganinvitationforyoualso;
soIthinkyoumightdeserveitbygettingmeonenow。Idon’twanttogotoMostynyet。
Fredsaysitneedsentirerefurnishing,andifwecometotheCourtnextsummer,Ihavepromisedtogivehimmyadviceandhelpinmakingtheplaceprettyanduptodate。HaveyouseenMostynHall?"
"Ihavepasseditseveraltimes。Itisalarge,gloomy-lookingplaceIwasgoingtosayhaunted-looking。Itstandsinagroveofyewtrees。"
"SoyouarenotgoingtoaskmetoRawdonCourt?"
"Ireallycannot,Dora。Itisnotmyhouse。Iamonlyaguestthere。"
"Nevermind。Makenomoreexcuses。I
seehowitis。YoualwayswerejealousofFred’slikingforme。AndofcoursewhenhegoesdowntoMostynyouwouldprefermetobeabsent。"
"Good-by,Dora!Ihaveadealofshoppingtodo,andthereisnotmuchtimebeforetheball,formanythingswillbetomake。"
"Theball!Whatball?"
"OnlyoneatRawdonCourt。Theneighborshavebeenexceedinglykindtous,andtheSquireisgoingtogiveadinnerandballonthefirstofAugust。"
"Sitdownandtellmeabouttheneighbors——andtheball。"
"Icannot。IpromisedRuthtobebackatfive。Ourmodisteistoseeusatthathour。"
"SoRuthiswithyou!Whydidshenotcallonme?"
"DidyouthinkIshouldcometoLondonalone?AndRuthdidnotcallbecauseshewastoobusy。"
"Everyoneandeverythingcomesbeforemenow。Iusedtobefirstofall。IwishI
wereinNewportwithdadandmamma;evenBrycewouldbeacomfort。"
"AsIsaidbefore,youhaveMr。Stanhope。"
"Areyougoingtosendformetotheball?"
"Icannotpromisethat,Dora。Good-by。"
Doradidnotanswer。Sheburiedherfaceinthesoftpillow,andEthelclosedthedoortothesoundofhersobs。Buttheydidnotcausehertoreturnortomakeanyfoolishpromises。Shedivinedtheirinsincerityandtheirmotive,andhadnomindtotakeanypartinforwardingthelatter。
AndRuthassuredhershehadactedwisely。
"Iftroubleshouldevercomeofthisfriendship,"
shesaid,"DorawouldverylikelycomplainthatyouhadalwaysthrownMostyninherway,broughthimtoherhouseinNewYork,andbroughthertohimatRawdon,inEngland。Marriageissucharisk,Ethel,buttomarrywithoutthecouragetoadaptoneself。AH!"
"Youthinkthatconditionunspeakablyhard?"
"Therearenowordsforit。"
"Dorawasnotreticent,Iassureyou。"
"Iamsorry。Awife’scomplaintsareself-
inflictedwounds;scatteredseeds,fromwhichonlymiserycanspring。Ihopeyouwillnotseeheragainatthistime。"
"Imadenopromisetodoso。"
"Andwhereallissouncertain,wehadbettersupposeallisrightthanthatalliswrong。Eveniftherewasthebeginningofwrong,itneedsbutanaccidenttopreventit,andtherearesomany。"
"Accidents!"
"Yes,foraccidentisGod’spartinaffairs。
Wecallitaccident;itwouldbebettertosayaninterposition。"
"DoratoldmeMostynintendedtobuyRawdonCourtinSeptember,andhehaseveninvitedtheStanhopestostaytherenextsummer。"
"Whatdidyousay?"
"Nothingagainstit。"
"Verygood。DoyouthinkMostynisinLondonnow?"
"Ishouldnotwonder。IamsureDoraisexpectinghim。"
Infact,thenextmorningtheymetDoraandBasilStanhope,drivinginHydeParkwithMostyn,butthesmilinggreetingwhichpassedbetweenthepartiesdidnot,exceptinthecaseofBasilStanhope,fairlyrepresentthedominantfeelingofanyone。AsforStanhope,hisnaturewassoclearandtruthfulthathewouldhardlyhavecomprehendedasmilewhichwasintendedtoveilfeelingsnottobecalledeitherquitefriendlyorquitepleasant。AfterthismeetingallthejoywentoutofRuthandEthel’sshopping。TheywantedtogetbacktotheCourt,andtheyattendedstrictlytobusinessinordertodoso。
Mostynfollowedthemveryquickly。HewasexceedinglyanxioustoseeandhearforhimselfhowhisaffairsregardingRawdonstood。Theywereeasilymadeplaintohim,andhesawwithapangofdisappointmentthatallhishopesofbeingSquireofRawdonManorwereover。Everypennyhecouldrighteouslyclaimwaspaidtohim,andonthetitledeedsoftheancientplacehehadnolongertheshadowofaclaim。TheSquirelookedtenyearsyoungerasheaffectionatelylaidbothhandsontheredeemedparchments,andMostynwithenforcedpolitenesscongratulatedhimontheirintegrityandthenmadeahurriedretreat。OfitsownkindthisdisappointmentwasasgreatasthelossofDora。Hecouldthinkofneitherwithoutasenseofimmeasurableanddisastrousfailure。
Onepettysatisfactionregardingthepaymentofthemortgagewashisonlycom-
fort。HemightnowshowMcLeanthatitwasnotwantofmoneythathadmadehimhithertoshyof"thegoodinvestments"offeredhim。HehadbeensureMcLeanintheirlastinterviewhadthoughtso,andhad,indeed,feltthehalf-veiledcontemptwithwhichtherichyoungmanhadexpressedhispityforMostyn’sinabilitytotakeadvantageattherightmomentofanexceptionalchancetoplaythegameofbeggaringhisneighbor。
Now,hetoldhimself,hewouldshowMcLeanandhisbraggartsetthatgoodbirthandoldfamilywasforoncealliedwithplentyofmoney,andhealsopromisedhiswoundedsensibilitiessomeverydesirablereprisals,everyoneofwhichhefeltfullycompetenttotake。
Itwas,afterall,apoorcompensation,buttherewasalsothegold。Hethankedhisfatherthatdayforthegreatthoughtfulnessandcarewithwhichhehadamassedthissumforhim,andhetriedtoconsolehimselfwiththebeliefthatgoldansweredallpurposes,andthattheyellowmetalwasabetterpossessionthanthehouseandlandswhichhehadlongedforwithaninheritedandinsensatecraving。
TwodaysafterthiseventEthel,atherfather’sdirection,signedanumberofpapers,andwhenthatdutywascompleted,theSquirerosefromhischair,kissedherhandsandhercheeks,andinavoicefulloftendernessandpridesaid,"IpaymyrespectstothefutureladyofRawdonManor,andI
thankGodforpermittingmetoseethishour。
Mostwelcome,LadyEthel,totherightsyouinherit,andtherightsyouhavebought。"Itwasamomenthardlylikelytobeduplicatedinanylife,andEthelescapedfromitstenseemotionsassoonaspossible。Shecouldnotspeak,herheartwastoofullofjoyandwonder。
Therearesoulsthatsaylittleandlovemuch。Howblessedarethey!
Onthefollowingmorningtheinvitationsweresentforthedinneranddance,butthetimewasputforwardtotheeighthofAugust。
Ineveryone’shearttherewasahopethatbeforethatdayMostynwouldhaveleftRawdon,butthehopewasbarelymentioned。
InthemeantimehecameandwentbetweenMostynandRawdonashedesired,andwasreceivedwiththatmodernpolitenesswhichconsidersitbesttoignoreoffensesthatourgrandfathersandgrandmotherswouldhaveheldforstrictaccountandpunishment。
ItwasevidentthathehadfrequentlettersfromDora。Heknewallhermovements,andspokeseveraltimesofopeningMostynHallandinvitingtheStanhopestostaywithhimuntiltheirreturntoAmerica。ButasthissuggestiondidnotbringfromanymemberoftheRawdonfamilytheinvitationhopedfor,itwasnotactedupon。Hetoldhimselftheexpensewouldbegreat,andtheHall,inspiteofallhecoulddointheinterim,wouldlookpoorandshabbycomparedwithRawdonCourt;soheputasidetheproposalonthegroundthathecouldnotpersuadehisaunttodotheentertainingnecessary。AndforalltheirritationandhumiliationscenteringroundhislossofRawdonandhisinabilitieswithregardtoDoraheblamedEthel。Hewassureifhehadbeenmorelovableandencouraginghecouldhavemarriedher,andthusfinallyreachedRawdonCourt;andthen,withalltheunreasonimaginable,nursedaheartydisliketoherbecauseshewouldnotunderstandhisdesires,andprovidemeansfortheirsatisfaction。Thebright,joyousgirlwithherlovingheart,heraboundingvitality,andconstantcheerfulness,madehimangry。Innoneofherexcellencieshehadanyshare,consequentlyhehatedher。
HewouldhavequicklyreturnedtoLondon,butDoraandherhusbandwerestayingwiththeStanhopes,andherlettersfromStanhopeCastlewerelachrymosecomplaintsoftheutterwearinessanddrearinessoflifetherethepreachingandreadingaloud,theregularwalkinganddriving——alltheinnocentmethodofliveswhichrecognizedtheywerehereforsomehigherpurposethanmerephysicalenjoyment。AnditangeredMostynthatneitherRuthnorEthelfeltanysympathyforDora’sennui,andproposednomeansofreleasingherfromit。Heconsideredthembothdisgustinglyselfishandill-
natured,andwascertainthatalltheirreluctanceatDora’spresencearosefromtheirjealousyofherbeautyandherenchantinggrace。
OntheafternoonofthedayprecedingtheintendedentertainmentRuth,Ethel,andtheSquirewereinthegreatdining-roomsuperintendingitsdecoration。Theyweremerrilylaughingandchatting,andwerenotawareofthearrivalofanyvisitorsuntilMrs。
NicholasRawdon’srosy,good-naturedfaceappearedattheopendoor。Everyonewelcomedhergladly,andtheSquireofferedheraseat。
"Nay,Squire,"shesaid,"I’mcometoaskafavor,andIwon’tsittillIknowwhetherIgetitornot;forifIdon’tgetit,Ishallsaygood-byasquicklyasIcan。OurJohnThomascamehomethismorningandhisfriendwithhim,andIwantinvitationsfortheyoungmen,bothofthem。Mygreatpleasureliesthatway——ifyou’llgiveittome。"
"Mostgladly,"answeredtheSquire,andEthelimmediatelywentforthenecessarypassports。WhenshereturnedshefoundMrs。NicholashelpingRuthandtheSquiretoarrangethelargesilverandcutcrystalonthesideboard,andtalkingatthesametimewithunabatedvivacity。
"Yes,"shewassaying,"theladswouldhavebeenheretwodaysago,buttheystayedinLondontoseesomeAmericanladymarried。
JohnThomas’sfriendknewher。ShewasmarriedattheAmbassador’shouse。A
fineaffairenough,butitbewildersmethistakingupmarriagewithoutpriestorbook。
It’sanewcommission。TheChurch’swarrant,itseems,isoutofdate。Itmayberight’
itmaybelegal,butItoldJohnThomasifheevergothimselfmarriedinthatkindofaway,hewouldn’thavefatherormeforwitnesses。"
"Iamglad,"saidtheSquire,"thattheyoungmenarehomeintimeforourdance。
Theyounglikesuchthings。"
"Tobesuretheydo。JohnThomaswouldn’tgivemeamoment’sresttillIcamehere。Ididn’twanttocome。IthoughtJohnThomasshouldcomehimself,andItoldhimplainlythatIwasreadytodoanyoneafavorifIcould,butifhewantedmetocomebecausehewasafraidtocomehimself,Iwasjustasreadytoshirkthejourney。Andhelaughedandsaidhewasnotfearedforanywomanliving,buthedidwanttomakehisfirstappearanceinhisbestclothes——andthatwasnatural,wasn’tit?SoIcameforthetwolads。"Thenshelookedatthegirlswithasmile,andsaidinacomfortablekindofway:"You’llfindthemverynicelads,indeed。
IcanspeakforJohnThomas,Ihavetakenhismeasurelongsince;andasfarasIcanjudgehisfriend,Naturewentaboutsomefullworkwhenshemadeamanofhim。
He’sgotasweettemper,andastrongmind,andastraightjudgment,ifIknowanythingaboutmen——whichNicholassometimesmakesmethinkIdon’t。ButNicholasisn’tanordinaryman,he’swhatyoucall`anexception。’"
ThenshakingherheadatEthel,shecontinuedreprovingly:"YouwereneitherofyouinchurchSunday。Iknowsomeyoungwomenwhowenttotheparishchurch——Methodiststheyare——speciallytoseeyournewhats。There’ssometalkaboutthem,Icantellyou,andthevillagemillinerispesteredtocopythem。Shekeepshereyesopenforyou。Youdisappointedalotofpeople。
Yououghttogotochurchinthecountry。
It’sthemostrespectablethingyoucando。"
"Wewerebothverytired,"saidRuth,"andthesunwashot,andwehadagoodSabbathathome。EthelreadthePsalms,EpistleandGospelfortheday,andtheSquiregaveussomeofthegrandestorganmusicIeverheard。"
"Well,well!EveryoneknowstheSquireisagrandplayer。Idon’tsupposethereisanothertomatchhiminthewholeworld,andtheoldfeelingaboutchurch-goingisgettingslackamongtheyoungpeople。TheyserveGodnowverymuchattheirease。"
"IsnotthatbetterthanservingHimoncompulsion?"askedRuth。
"Idaresay。I’mnobigot。IwasbroughtupanIndependent,andwenttotheirchapeluntilImarriedNicholasRawdon。Myfa-
therwasabroad-thinkingman。HenevertaughtmetolocateGodinanybuilding;andI’msureIdon’tbelieveourparishchurchisHisdwelling-place。Ifitis,theyoughttomendtheroofandputanewcarpetdownandmakethingscleanerandmorerespectable。
Well,Squire,youhavesilverenoughtotemptalltheroguesinYorkshire,andthere’salotofthem。ButnowI’veseenit,I’llgohomewiththesebitsofpaper。Ishallbeaveryimportantwomanto-night。Themtwoladswon’tknowhowtofleechandflattermeenough。I’llbewaitedonhandandfoot。
AndNicholaswillgetabitofaset-down。
HewasbraggingaboutMissEthelbringinghisinvitationtohishandandpromisingtodancewithhim。Iwouldn’tdoitifIwereMissEthel。She’llfindout,ifshedoes,whatitmeanstodancewithamanthatweighstwentystone,andwhohasneverturnedhandnorfoottoanythingbutmoney-makingforthirtyyears。"
Shewentawaywithasweepandarustleofhershimmeringsilkskirt,andleftbehindhersuchanatmosphereofheartygood-natureasmadethelastrushandcrowdofpreparationseasilyorderedandquicklyaccomplished。Beforeherarrivaltherehadbeensomedoubtastotheweather。Shebroughttheshiningsunwithher,andwhenheset,heleftthemwiththepromiseofasplendidto-morrow——apromiseamplyredeemedwhenthenextdaydawned。Indeed,thesunshinewassobrilliant,thegardensogayandsweet,thelawnsogreenandfirm,theavenuessoshadyandfullofwanderingsongs,thatitwasresolvedtoholdthepreliminaryreceptionoutofdoors。EthelandRuthweretoreceiveonthelawn,andattheopenhalldoortheSquirewouldwaittowelcomehisguests。
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