首页 >出版文学> ALMAYER’S FOLLY>第7章
  "DidInottellyou?"shesobbed,tryingtowrigglegentlyoutfromunderhisgrip。"DidInottellyouthatIsawthewitchwomanpushthecanoe?Ilayhiddeninthegrassandheardallthewords。ShethatweusedtocallthewhiteMemwantedtoreturntolookatyourface,butthewitchwomanforbadeher,and——"
  Shesankloweryetonherelbow,turninghalfroundunderthedownwardpushoftheheavyhand,herfacelifteduptohimwithspitefuleyes。
  "Andsheobeyed,"sheshoutedoutinahalf-laugh,half-cryofpain。"Letmego,Tuan。Whyareyouangrywithme?
  Hasten,oryoushallbetoolatetoshowyourangertothedeceitfulwoman。"
  Almayerdraggedheruptoherfeetandlookedcloseintoherfacewhileshestruggled,turningherheadawayfromhiswildstare。
  "Whosentyouheretotormentme?"heasked,violently。"Idonotbelieveyou。Youlie。"
  Hestraightenedhisarmsuddenlyandflungheracrosstheverandahtowardsthedoorway,whereshelayimmobileandsilent,asifshehadleftherlifeinhisgrasp,adarkheap,withoutasoundorastir。
  "Oh!Nina!"whisperedAlmayer,inavoiceinwhichreproachandlovespoketogetherinpainedtenderness。"Oh!Nina!
  Idonotbelieve。"
  Alightdraughtfromtheriverranoverthecourtyardinawaveofbowinggrassand,enteringtheverandah,touchedAlmayer'sforeheadwithitscoolbreath,inacaressofinfinitepity。Thecurtaininthewomen'sdoorwayblewoutandinstantlycollapsedwithstartlinghelplessness。Hestaredattheflutteringstuff。
  "Nina!"criedAlmayer。"Whereareyou,Nina?"
  Thewindpassedoutoftheemptyhouseinatremuloussigh,andallwasstill。
  Almayerhidhisfaceinhishandsasiftoshutoutaloathsomesight。When,hearingaslightrustle,heuncoveredhiseyes,thedarkheapbythedoorwasgone。
  chapter11
  CHAPTERXI。
  Inthemiddleofashadowlesssquareofmoonlight,shiningonasmoothandlevelexpanseofyoungrice-shoots,alittleshelter-hutperchedonhighposts,thepileofbrushwoodnearbyandtheglowingembersofafirewithamanstretchedbeforeit,seemedverysmallandasiflostinthepalegreeniridescencereflectedfromtheground。Onthreesidesoftheclearing,appearingveryfarawayinthedeceptivelight,thebigtreesoftheforest,lashedtogetherwithmanifoldbondsbyamassoftangledcreepers,lookeddownatthegrowingyounglifeattheirfeetwiththesombreresignationofgiantsthathadlostfaithintheirstrength。Andinthemidstofthemthemercilesscreepersclungtothebigtrunksincable-likecoils,leapedfromtreetotree,hunginthornyfestoonsfromthelowerboughs,and,sendingslendertendrilsonhightoseekoutthesmallestbranches,carrieddeathtotheirvictimsinanexultingriotofsilentdestruction。
  Onthefourthside,followingthecurveofthebankofthatbranchofthePantaithatformedtheonlyaccesstotheclearing,ranablacklineofyoungtrees,bushes,andthicksecondgrowth,unbrokensaveforasmallgapchoppedoutinoneplace。Atthatgapbeganthenarrowfootpathleadingfromthewater'sedgetothegrass-builtshelterusedbythenightwatcherswhentheripeningcrophadtobeprotectedfromthewildpigs。Thepathwayendedatthefootofthepilesonwhichthehutwasbuilt,inacircularspacecoveredwithashesandbitsofburntwood。Inthemiddleofthatspace,bythedimfire,layDain。
  Heturnedoveronhissidewithanimpatientsigh,and,pillowinghisheadonhisbentarm,layquietlywithhisfacetothedyingfire。Theglowingembersshoneredlyinasmallcircle,throwingagleamintohiswide-openeyes,andateverydeepbreaththefinewhiteashofbygonefiresroseinalightcloudbeforehispartedlips,anddancedawayfromthewarmglowintothemoonbeamspouringdownuponBulangi'sclearing。Hisbodywaswearywiththeexertionofthepastfewdays,hismindmorewearystillwiththestrainofsolitarywaitingforhisfate。Neverbeforehadhefeltsohelpless。Hehadheardthereportofthegunfiredonboardthelaunch,andheknewthathislifewasinuntrustworthyhands,andthathisenemieswereverynear。Duringtheslowhoursoftheafternoonheroamedaboutontheedgeoftheforest,or,hidinginthebushes,watchedthecreekwithunquieteyesforsomesignofdanger。Hefearednotdeath,yethedesiredardentlytolive,forlifetohimwasNina。Shehadpromisedtocome,tofollowhim,tosharehisdangerandhissplendour。Butwithherbyhissidehecarednotfordanger,andwithouthertherecouldbenosplendourandnojoyinexistence。
  Crouchinginhisshadyhiding-place,heclosedhiseyes,tryingtoevokethegraciousandcharmingimageofthewhitefigurethatforhimwasthebeginningandtheendoflife。Witheyesshuttight,histeethhardset,hetriedinagreateffortofpassionatewilltokeephisholdonthatvisionofsupremedelight。Invain!HisheartgrewheavyasthefigureofNinafadedawaytobereplacedbyanothervisionthistime——avisionofarmedmen,ofangryfaces,ofglitteringarms——andheseemedtohearthehumofexcitedandtriumphantvoicesastheydiscoveredhiminhishiding-place。Startledbythevividnessofhisfancy,hewouldopenhiseyes,and,leapingoutintothesunlight,resumehisaimlesswanderingsaroundtheclearing。Asheskirtedinhiswearymarchtheedgeoftheforestheglancednowandthenintoitsdarkshade,soenticinginitsdeceptiveappearanceofcoolness,sorepellentwithitsunrelievedgloom,wherelay,entombedandrotting,countlessgenerationsoftrees,andwheretheirsuccessorsstoodasifmourning,indarkgreenfoliage,immenseandhelpless,awaitingtheirturn。Onlytheparasitesseemedtolivethereinasinuousrushupwardsintotheairandsunshine,feedingonthedeadandthedyingalike,andcrowningtheirvictimswithpinkandblueflowersthatgleamedamongsttheboughs,incongruousandcruel,likeastridentandmockingnoteinthesolemnharmonyofthedoomedtrees。
  Amancouldhidethere,thoughtDain,asheapproachedaplacewherethecreepershadbeentornandhackedintoanarchwaythatmighthavebeenthebeginningofapath。Ashebentdowntolookthroughheheardangrygrunting,andasounderofwildpigcrashedawayintheundergrowth。Anacridsmellofdampearthandofdecayingleavestookhimbythethroat,andhedrewbackwithascaredface,asifhehadbeentouchedbythebreathofDeathitself。Theveryairseemeddeadinthere——heavyandstagnating,poisonedwiththecorruptionofcountlessages。Hewenton,staggeringonhisway,urgedbythenervousrestlessnessthatmadehimfeeltiredyetcausedhimtoloathetheveryideaofimmobilityandrepose。Washeawildmantohideinthewoodsandperhapsbekilledthere——inthedarkness——wheretherewasnoroomtobreathe?Hewouldwaitforhisenemiesinthesunlight,wherehecouldseetheskyandfeelthebreeze。HeknewhowaMalaychiefshoulddie。Thesombreanddesperatefury,thatpeculiarinheritanceofhisrace,tookpossessionofhim,andheglaredsavagelyacrosstheclearingtowardsthegapinthebushesbytheriverside。Theywouldcomefromthere。Inimaginationhesawthemnow。Hesawthebeardedfacesandthewhitejacketsoftheofficers,thelightonthelevelledbarrelsoftherifles。
  Whatisthebraveryofthegreatestwarriorbeforethefirearmsinthehandofaslave?Hewouldwalktowardthemwithasmilingface,withhishandsheldoutinasignofsubmissiontillhewasverynearthem。Hewouldspeakfriendlywords——comeneareryet——yetnearer——sonearthattheycouldtouchhimwiththeirhandsandstretchthemouttomakehimacaptive。Thatwouldbethetime:withashoutandaleaphewouldbeinthemidstofthem,krissinhand,killing,killing,killing,andwoulddiewiththeshoutsofhisenemiesinhisears,theirwarmbloodspurtingbeforehiseyes。
  Carriedawaybyhisexcitement,hesnatchedthekrisshiddeninhissarong,and,drawingalongbreath,rushedforward,struckattheemptyair,andfellonhisface。Helayasifstunnedinthesuddenreactionfromhisexaltation,thinkingthat,evenifhediedthusgloriously,itwouldhavetobebeforehesawNina。
  Betterso。Ifhesawheragainhefeltthatdeathwouldbetooterrible。Withhorrorhe,thedescendantofRajahsandofconquerors,hadtofacethedoubtofhisownbravery。Hisdesireoflifetormentedhiminaparoxysmofagonisingremorse。Hehadnotthecouragetostiralimb。Hehadlostfaithinhimself,andtherewasnothingelseinhimofwhatmakesaman。Thesufferingremained,foritisorderedthatitshouldabideinthehumanbodyeventothelastbreath,andfearremained。Dimlyhecouldlookintothedepthsofhispassionatelove,seeitsstrengthanditsweakness,andfeltafraid。
  Thesunwentdownslowly。Theshadowofthewesternforestmarchedovertheclearing,coveredtheman'sscorchedshoulderswithitscoolmantle,andwentonhurriedlytominglewiththeshadowsofotherforestsontheeasternside。Thesunlingeredforawhileamongstthelighttraceryofthehigherbranches,asifinfriendlyreluctancetoabandonthebodystretchedinthegreenpaddy-field。ThenDain,revivedbythecooloftheeveningbreeze,satupandstaredroundhim。Ashedidsothesundippedsharply,asifashamedofbeingdetectedinasympathisingattitude,andtheclearing,whichduringthedaywasalllight,becamesuddenlyalldarkness,wherethefiregleamedlikeaneye。
  Dainwalkedslowlytowardsthecreek,and,divestinghimselfofhistornsarong,hisonlygarment,enteredthewatercautiously。
  Hehadhadnothingtoeatthatday,andhadnotdaredshowhimselfindaylightbythewater-sidetodrink。Now,asheswamsilently,heswallowedafewmouthfulsofwaterthatlappedabouthislips。Thisdidhimgood,andhewalkedwithgreaterconfidenceinhimselfandothersashereturnedtowardsthefire。
  HadhebeenbetrayedbyLakambaallwouldhavebeenoverbythis。
  Hemadeupabigblaze,andwhileitlasteddriedhimself,andthenlaydownbytheembers。Hecouldnotsleep,buthefeltagreatnumbnessinallhislimbs。Hisrestlessnesswasgone,andhewascontenttolaystill,measuringthetimebywatchingthestarsthatroseinendlesssuccessionabovetheforests,whiletheslightpuffsofwindunderthecloudlessskyseemedtofantheirtwinkleintoagreaterbrightness。Dreamilyheassuredhimselfoverandoveragainthatshewouldcome,tillthecertitudecreptintohisheartandfilledhimwithagreatpeace。
  Yes,whenthenextdaybroke,theywouldbetogetheronthegreatblueseathatwaslikelife——awayfromtheforeststhatwerelikedeath。HemurmuredthenameofNinaintothesilentspacewithatendersmile:thisseemedtobreakthespellofstillness,andfarawaybythecreekafrogcroakedloudlyasifinanswer。A
  chorusofloudroarsandplaintivecallsrosefromthemudalongthelineofbushes。Helaughedheartily;doubtlessitwastheirlove-song。Hefeltaffectionatetowardsthefrogsandlistened,pleasedwiththenoisylifenearhim。
  Whenthemoonpeepedabovethetreeshefelttheoldimpatienceandtheoldrestlessnessstealoverhim。Whywasshesolate?
  True,itwasalongwaytocomewithasinglepaddle。Withwhatskillandwhatendurancecouldthosesmallhandsmanageaheavypaddle!Itwasverywonderful——suchsmallhands,suchsoftlittlepalmsthatknewhowtotouchhischeekwithafeellighterthanthefanningofabutterfly'swing。Wonderful!Helosthimselflovinglyinthecontemplationofthistremendousmystery,andwhenhelookedatthemoonagainithadrisenahand'sbreadthabovethetrees。Wouldshecome?Heforcedhimselftolaystill,overcomingtheimpulsetoriseandrushroundtheclearingagain。Heturnedthiswayandthat;atlast,quiveringwiththeeffort,helayonhisback,andsawherfaceamongthestarslookingdownonhim。
  Thecroakingoffrogssuddenlyceased。WiththewatchfulnessofahuntedmanDainsatup,listeninganxiously,andheardseveralsplashesinthewaterasthefrogstookrapidheadersintothecreek。Heknewthattheyhadbeenalarmedbysomething,andstoodupsuspiciousandattentive。Aslightgratingnoise,thenthedrysoundasoftwopiecesofwoodstruckagainsteachother。
  Somebodywasabouttoland!Hetookupanarmfulofbrushwood,and,withouttakinghiseyesfromthepath,helditovertheembersofhisfire。Hewaited,undecided,andsawsomethinggleamamongstthebushes;thenawhitefigurecameoutoftheshadowsandseemedtofloattowardshiminthepalelight。Hisheartgaveagreatleapandstoodstill,thenwentonshakinghisframeinfuriousbeats。Hedroppedthebrushwoodupontheglowingcoals,andhadanimpressionofshoutinghername——ofrushingtomeether;yetheemittednosound,hestirrednotaninch,buthestoodsilentandmotionlesslikechiselledbronzeunderthemoonlightthatstreamedoverhisnakedshoulders。Ashestoodstill,fightingwithhisbreath,asifbereftofhissensesbytheintensityofhisdelight,shewalkeduptohimwithquick,resolutesteps,and,withtheappearanceofoneabouttoleapfromadangerousheight,threwbothherarmsroundhisneckwithasuddengesture。Asmallbluegleamcreptamongstthedrybranches,andthecracklingofrevivingfirewastheonlysoundastheyfacedeachotherinthespeechlessemotionofthatmeeting;thenthedryfuelcaughtatonce,andabrighthotflameshotupwardsinablazeashighastheirheads,andinitslighttheysaweachother'seyes。
  Neitherofthemspoke。Hewasregaininghissensesinaslighttremorthatranupwardsalonghisrigidbodyandhungabouthistremblinglips。Shedrewbackherheadandfastenedhereyesonhisinoneofthoselonglooksthatareawoman'smostterribleweapon;alookthatismorestirringthantheclosesttouch,andmoredangerousthanthethrustofadagger,becauseitalsowhipsthesouloutofthebody,butleavesthebodyaliveandhelpless,tobeswayedhereandtherebythecapricioustempestsofpassionanddesire;alookthatenwrapsthewholebody,andthatpenetratesintotheinnermostrecessesofthebeing,bringingterribledefeatinthedeliriousupliftingofaccomplishedconquest。Ithasthesamemeaningforthemanoftheforestsandtheseaasforthemanthreadingthepathsofthemoredangerouswildernessofhousesandstreets。Menthathadfeltintheirbreaststheawfulexultationsuchalookawakensbecomemerethingsofto-day——whichisparadise;forgetyesterday——whichwassuffering;carenotforto-morrow——whichmaybeperdition。Theywishtoliveunderthatlookforever。Itisthelookofwoman'ssurrender。
  Heunderstood,and,asifsuddenlyreleasedfromhisinvisiblebonds,fellatherfeetwithashoutofjoy,and,embracingherknees,hidhisheadinthefoldsofherdress,murmuringdisjointedwordsofgratitudeandlove。Neverbeforehadhefeltsoproudasnow,whenatthefeetofthatwomanthathalfbelongedtohisenemies。Herfingersplayedwithhishairinanabsent-mindedcaressasshestoodabsorbedinthought。Thethingwasdone。Hermotherwasright。Themanwasherslave。
  Assheglanceddownathiskneelingformshefeltagreatpityingtendernessforthatmanshewasusedtocall——eveninherthoughts——themasteroflife。Sheliftedhereyesandlookedsadlyatthesouthernheavensunderwhichlaythepathoftheirlives——herown,andthatman'satherfeet。Didhenotsayhimselfisthatshewasthelightofhislife?Shewouldbehislightandhiswisdom;shewouldbehisgreatnessandhisstrength;yethiddenfromtheeyesofallmenshewouldbe,aboveall,hisonlyandlastingweakness。Averywoman!Inthesublimevanityofherkindshewasthinkingalreadyofmouldingagodfromtheclayatherfeet。Agodforotherstoworship。
  Shewascontenttoseehimashewasnow,andtofeelhimquiverattheslightesttouchofherlightfingers。Andwhilehereyeslookedsadlyatthesouthernstarsafaintsmileseemedtobeplayingaboutherfirmlips。Whocantellinthefitfullightofacampfire?Itmighthavebeenasmileoftriumph,orofconsciouspower,oroftenderpity,or,perhaps,oflove。
  Shespokesoftlytohim,andherosetohisfeet,puttinghisarmroundherinquietconsciousnessofhisownership;shelaidherheadonhisshoulderwithasenseofdefiancetoalltheworldintheencirclingprotectionofthatarm。Hewasherswithallhisqualitiesandallhisfaults。Hisstrengthandhiscourage,hisrecklessnessandhisdaring,hissimplewisdomandhissavagecunning——allwerehers。Astheypassedtogetheroutoftheredlightofthefireintothesilvershowerofraysthatfellupontheclearinghebenthisheadoverherface,andshesawinhiseyesthedreamyintoxicationofboundlessfelicityfromtheclosetouchofherslightfigureclaspedtohisside。Witharhythmicalswingoftheirbodiestheywalkedthroughthelighttowardstheoutlyingshadowsoftheforeststhatseemedtoguardtheirhappinessinsolemnimmobility。Theirformsmeltedintheplayoflightandshadowatthefootofthebigtrees,butthemurmuroftenderwordslingeredovertheemptyclearing,grewfaint,anddiedout。Asighasofimmensesorrowpassedoverthelandinthelasteffortofthedyingbreeze,andinthedeepsilencewhichsucceeded,theearthandtheheavensweresuddenlyhushedupinthemournfulcontemplationofhumanloveandhumanblindness。
  Theywalkedslowlybacktothefire。Hemadeforheraseatoutofthedrybranches,and,throwinghimselfdownatherfeet,layhisheadinherlapandgavehimselfuptothedreamydelightofthepassinghour。Theirvoicesroseandfell,tenderoranimatedastheyspokeoftheirloveandoftheirfuture。She,withafewskilfulwordsspokenfromtimetotime,guidedhisthoughts,andhelethishappinessflowinastreamoftalkpassionateandtender,graveormenacing,accordingtothemoodwhichsheevoked。Hespoketoherofhisownisland,wherethegloomyforestsandthemuddyriverswereunknown。Hespokeofitsterracedfields,ofthemurmuringclearrillsofsparklingwaterthatfloweddownthesidesofgreatmountains,bringinglifetothelandandjoytoitstillers。Andhespokealsoofthemountainpeakthatrisinglonelyabovethebeltoftreesknewthesecretsofthepassingclouds,andwasthedwelling-placeofthemysteriousspiritofhisrace,oftheguardiangeniusofhishouse。Hespokeofvasthorizonssweptbyfiercewindsthatwhistledhighabovethesummitsofburningmountains。Hespokeofhisforefathersthatconqueredagesagotheislandofwhichhewastobethefutureruler。Andthenas,inherinterest,shebroughtherfacenearertohis,he,touchinglightlythethicktressesofherlonghair,feltasuddenimpulsetospeaktoheroftheseahelovedsowell;andhetoldherofitsnever-ceasingvoice,towhichhehadlistenedasachild,wonderingatitshiddenmeaningthatnolivingmanhaspenetratedyet;ofitsenchantingglitter;ofitssenselessandcapriciousfury;howitssurfacewasforeverchanging,andyetalwaysenticing,whileitsdepthswereforeverthesame,coldandcruel,andfullofthewisdomofdestroyedlife。Hetoldherhowitheldmenslavesofitscharmforalifetime,andthen,regardlessoftheirdevotion,swallowedthemup,angryattheirfearofitsmystery,whichitwouldneverdisclose,noteventothosethatloveditmost。
  Whilehetalked,Nina'sheadhadbeengraduallysinkinglower,andherfacealmosttouchedhisnow。Herhairwasoverhiseyes,herbreathwasonhisforehead,herarmswereabouthisbody。
  Notwobeingscouldbeclosertoeachother,yetsheguessedratherthanunderstoodthemeaningofhislastwordsthatcameoutafteraslighthesitationinafaintmurmur,dyingoutimperceptiblyintoaprofoundandsignificantsilence:"Thesea,ONina,islikeawoman'sheart。"
  Sheclosedhislipswithasuddenkiss,andansweredinasteadyvoice——
  "Buttothementhathavenofear,Omasterofmylife,theseaisevertrue。"
  Overtheirheadsafilmofdark,thread-likeclouds,lookinglikeimmensecobwebsdriftingunderthestars,darkenedtheskywiththepresageofthecomingthunderstorm。Fromtheinvisiblehillsthefirstdistantrumbleofthundercameinaprolongedrollwhich,aftertossingaboutfromhilltohill,lostitselfintheforestsofthePantai。DainandNinastoodup,andtheformerlookedattheskyuneasily。
  "ItistimeforBabalatchitobehere,"hesaid。"Thenightismorethanhalfgone。Ourroadislong,andabullettravelsquickerthanthebestcanoe。"
  "Hewillbeherebeforethemoonishiddenbehindtheclouds,"
  saidNina。"Iheardasplashinthewater,"sheadded。"Didyouhearittoo?"
  "Alligator,"answeredDainshortly,withacarelessglancetowardsthecreek。"Thedarkerthenight,"hecontinued,"theshorterwillbeourroad,forthenwecouldkeepinthecurrentofthemainstream,butifitislight——evennomorethannow——wemustfollowthesmallchannelsofsleepingwater,withnothingtohelpourpaddles。"
  "Dain,"interposedNina,earnestly,"itwasnoalligator。I
  heardthebushesrustlingnearthelanding-place。"
  "Yes,"saidDain,afterlisteningawhile。"ItcannotbeBabalatchi,whowouldcomeinabigwarcanoe,andopenly。Thosethatarecoming,whoevertheyare,donotwishtomakemuchnoise。Butyouhaveheard,andnowIcansee,"hewentonquickly。"Itisbutoneman。Standbehindme,Nina。
  Ifheisafriendheiswelcome;ifheisanenemyyoushallseehimdie。"
  Helaidhishandonhiskriss,andawaitedtheapproachofhisunexpectedvisitor。Thefirewasburningverylow,andsmallclouds——precursorsofthestorm——crossedthefaceofthemooninrapidsuccession,andtheirflyingshadowsdarkenedtheclearing。
  Hecouldnotmakeoutwhothemanmightbe,buthefeltuneasyatthesteadyadvanceofthetallfigurewalkingonthepathwithaheavytread,andhaileditwithacommandtostop。Themanstoppedatsomelittledistance,andDainexpectedhimtospeak,butallhecouldhearwashisdeepbreathing。Throughabreakintheflyingcloudsasuddenandfleetingbrightnessdescendedupontheclearing。Beforethedarknessclosedinagain,Dainsawahandholdingsomeglitteringobjectextendedtowardshim,heardNina'scryof"Father!"andinaninstantthegirlwasbetweenhimandAlmayer'srevolver。Nina'sloudcrywokeuptheechoesofthesleepingwoods,andthethreestoodstillasifwaitingforthereturnofsilencebeforetheywouldgiveexpressiontotheirvariousfeelings。AttheappearanceofNina,Almayer'sarmfellbyhisside,andhemadeastepforward。Dainpushedthegirlgentlyaside。
  "AmIawildbeastthatyoushouldtrytokillmesuddenlyandinthedark,TuanAlmayer?"saidDain,breakingthestrainedsilence。"Throwsomebrushwoodonthefire,"hewenton,speakingtoNina,"whileIwatchmywhitefriend,lestharmshouldcometoyouortome,Odelightofmyheart!"
  Almayergroundhisteethandraisedhisarmagain。WithaquickboundDainwasathisside:therewasashortscuffle,duringwhichonechamberoftherevolverwentoffharmlessly,thentheweapon,wrenchedoutofAlmayer'shand,whirledthroughtheairandfellinthebushes。Thetwomenstoodclosetogether,breathinghard。ThereplenishedfirethrewoutanunsteadycircleoflightandshoneontheterrifiedfaceofNina,wholookedatthemwithoutstretchedhands。
  "Dain!"shecriedoutwarningly,"Dain!"
  Hewavedhishandtowardsherinareassuringgesture,and,turningtoAlmayer,saidwithgreatcourtesy——
  "Nowwemaytalk,Tuan。Itiseasytosendoutdeath,butcanyourwisdomrecallthelife?Shemighthavebeenharmed,"hecontinued,indicatingNina。"Yourhandshookmuch;formyselfI
  wasnotafraid。"
  "Nina!"exclaimedAlmayer,"cometomeatonce。Whatisthissuddenmadness?Whatbewitchedyou?Cometoyourfather,andtogetherweshalltrytoforgetthishorriblenightmare!"
  Heopenedhisarmswiththecertitudeofclaspinghertohisbreastinanothersecond。Shedidnotmove。Asitdawneduponhimthatshedidnotmeantoobeyhefeltadeadlycoldcreepintohisheart,and,pressingthepalmsofhishandstohistemples,helookeddownonthegroundinmutedespair。DaintookNinabythearmandledhertowardsherfather。
  "Speaktohiminthelanguageofhispeople,"hesaid。"Heisgrieving——aswhowouldnotgrieveatlosingthee,mypearl!
  Speaktohimthelastwordsheshallhearspokenbythatvoice,whichmustbeverysweettohim,butisallmylifetome。"
  Hereleasedher,and,steppingbackafewpacesoutofthecircleoflight,stoodinthedarknesslookingatthemwithcalminterest。Thereflectionofadistantflashoflightninglitupthecloudsovertheirheads,andwasfollowedafterashortintervalbythefaintrumbleofthunder,whichmingledwithAlmayer'svoiceashebegantospeak。
  "Doyouknowwhatyouaredoing?Doyouknowwhatiswaitingforyouifyoufollowthatman?Haveyounopityforyourself?
  Doyouknowthatyoushallbeatfirsthisplaythingandthenascornedslave,adrudge,andaservantofsomenewfancyofthatman?"
  Sheraisedherhandtostophim,andturningherheadslightly,asked——
  "YouhearthisDain!Isittrue?"
  "Byallthegods!"cametheimpassionedanswerfromthedarkness——"byheavenandearth,bymyheadandthineIswear:
  thisisawhiteman'slie。Ihavedeliveredmysoulintoyourhandsforever;Ibreathewithyourbreath,Iseewithyoureyes,Ithinkwithyourmind,andItakeyouintomyheartforever。"
  "Youthief!"shoutedtheexasperatedAlmayer。
  Adeepsilencesucceededthisoutburst,thenthevoiceofDainwasheardagain。
  "Nay,Tuan,"hesaidinagentletone,"thatisnottruealso。
  Thegirlcameofherownwill。Ihavedonenomorebuttoshowhermylovelikeaman;sheheardthecryofmyheart,andshecame,andthedowryIhavegiventothewomanyoucallyourwife。"
  Almayergroanedinhisextremityofrageandshame。Ninalaidherhandlightlyonhisshoulder,andthecontact,lightasthetouchofafallingleaf,seemedtocalmhim。Hespokequickly,andinEnglishthistime。
  "Tellme,"hesaid——"tellme,whathavetheydonetoyou,yourmotherandthatman?Whatmadeyougiveyourselfuptothatsavage?Forheisasavage。Betweenhimandyouthereisabarrierthatnothingcanremove。Icanseeinyoureyesthelookofthosewhocommitsuicidewhentheyaremad。Youaremad。
  Don'tsmile。Itbreaksmyheart。IfIweretoseeyoudrowningbeforemyeyes,andIwithoutthepowertohelpyou,Icouldnotsufferagreatertorment。Haveyouforgottentheteachingofsomanyyears?"
  "No,"sheinterrupted,"Irememberitwell。Irememberhowitendedalso。Scornforscorn,contemptforcontempt,hateforhate。Iamnotofyourrace。Betweenyourpeopleandmethereisalsoabarrierthatnothingcanremove。YouaskwhyIwanttogo,andIaskyouwhyIshouldstay。"
  Hestaggeredasifstruckintheface,butwithaquick,unhesitatinggraspshecaughthimbythearmandsteadiedhim。
  "Whyyoushouldstay!"herepeatedslowly,inadazedmanner,andstoppedshort,astoundedatthecompletenessofhismisfortune。
  "Youtoldmeyesterday,"shewentonagain,"thatIcouldnotunderstandorseeyourloveforme:itisso。HowcanI?
  Notwohumanbeingsunderstandeachother。Theycanunderstandbuttheirownvoices。Youwantedmetodreamyourdreams,toseeyourownvisions——thevisionsoflifeamongstthewhitefacesofthosewhocastmeoutfromtheirmidstinangrycontempt。ButwhileyouspokeIlistenedtothevoiceofmyownself;thenthismancame,andallwasstill;therewasonlythemurmurofhislove。Youcallhimasavage!Whatdoyoucallmymother,yourwife?"
  "Nina!"criedAlmayer,"takeyoureyesoffmyface。"
  Shelookeddowndirectly,butcontinuedspeakingonlyalittleaboveawhisper。
  "Intime,"shewenton,"bothourvoices,thatman'sandmine,spoketogetherinasweetnessthatwasintelligibletoourearsonly。Youwerespeakingofgoldthen,butourearswerefilledwiththesongofourlove,andwedidnothearyou。ThenIfoundthatwecouldseethrougheachother'seyes:thathesawthingsthatnobodybutmyselfandhecouldsee。Weenteredalandwherenoonecouldfollowus,andleastofallyou。ThenIbegantolive。"
  Shepaused。Almayersigheddeeply。Withhereyesstillfixedonthegroundshebeganspeakingagain。
  "AndImeantolive。Imeantofollowhim。Ihavebeenrejectedwithscornbythewhitepeople,andnowIamaMalay!Hetookmeinhisarms,helaidhislifeatmyfeet。Heisbrave;hewillbepowerful,andIholdhisbraveryandhisstrengthinmyhand,andIshallmakehimgreat。Hisnameshallberememberedlongafterbothourbodiesarelaidinthedust。IloveyounolessthanIdidbefore,butIshallneverleavehim,forwithouthimI
  cannotlive。"
  "Ifheunderstoodwhatyouhavesaid,"answeredAlmayer,scornfully,"hemustbehighlyflattered。Youwanthimasatoolforsomeincomprehensibleambitionofyours。Enough,Nina。
  Ifyoudonotgodownatoncetothecreek,whereAliiswaitingwithmycanoe,IshalltellhimtoreturntothesettlementandbringtheDutchofficershere。Youcannotescapefromthisclearing,forIhavecastadriftyourcanoe。IftheDutchcatchthisheroofyourstheywillhanghimassureasIstandhere。
  Nowgo。"
  Hemadeasteptowardshisdaughterandlaidholdofherbytheshoulder,hisotherhandpointingdownthepathtothelanding-place。
  "Beware!"exclaimedDain;"thiswomanbelongstome!"
  NinawrenchedherselffreeandlookedstraightatAlmayer'sangryface。
  "No,Iwillnotgo,"shesaidwithdesperateenergy。"IfhediesIshalldietoo!"
  "Youdie!"saidAlmayer,contemptuously。"Oh,no!Youshalllivealifeofliesanddeceptiontillsomeothervagabondcomesalongtosing;howdidyousaythat?Thesongoflovetoyou!
  Makeupyourmindquickly。"
  Hewaitedforawhile,andthenaddedmeaningly——
  "ShallIcallouttoAli?"
  "Callout,"sheansweredinMalay,"youthatcannotbetruetoyourowncountrymen。Onlyafewdaysagoyouweresellingthepowderfortheirdestruction;nowyouwanttogiveuptothemthemanthatyesterdayyoucalledyourfriend。Oh,Dain,"shesaid,turningtowardsthemotionlessbutattentivefigureinthedarkness,"insteadofbringingyoulifeIbringyoudeath,forhewillbetrayunlessIleaveyouforever!"
  Daincameintothecircleoflight,and,throwinghisarmaroundNina'sneck,whisperedinherear——"Icankillhimwherehestands,beforeasoundcanpasshislips。Foryouitistosayyesorno。Babalatchicannotbefarnow。"
  Hestraightenedhimselfup,takinghisarmoffhershoulder,andconfrontedAlmayer,wholookedatthembothwithanexpressionofconcentratedfury,"No!"shecried,clingingtoDaininwildalarm。"No!Killme!
  Thenperhapshewillletyougo。Youdonotknowthemindofawhiteman。HewouldratherseemedeadthanstandingwhereIam。
  Forgiveme,yourslave,butyoumustnot。"Shefellathisfeetsobbingviolentlyandrepeating,"Killme!Killme!"
  "Iwantyoualive,"saidAlmayer,speakingalsoinMalay,withsombrecalmness。"Yougo,orhehangs。Willyouobey?"
  DainshookNinaoff,and,makingasuddenlunge,struckAlmayerfullinthechestwiththehandleofhiskriss,keepingthepointtowardshimself。
  "Hai,look!Itwaseasyformetoturnthepointtheotherway,"
  hesaidinhisevenvoice。"Go,TuanPutih,"headdedwithdignity。"Igiveyouyourlife,mylife,andherlife。I
  amtheslaveofthiswoman'sdesire,andshewillsitso。"
  Therewasnotaglimmeroflightintheskynow,andthetopsofthetreeswereasinvisibleastheirtrunks,beinglostinthemassofcloudsthathunglowoverthewoods,theclearing,andtheriver。
  Everyoutlinehaddisappearedintheintenseblacknessthatseemedtohavedestroyedeverythingbutspace。Onlythefireglimmeredlikeastarforgotteninthisannihilationofallvisiblethings,andnothingwasheardafterDainceasedspeakingbutthesobsofNina,whomheheldinhisarms,kneelingbesidethefire。Almayerstoodlookingdownatthemingloomythoughtfulness。Ashewasopeninghislipstospeaktheywerestartledbyacryofwarningbytheriverside,followedbythesplashofmanypaddlesandthesoundofvoices。
  "Babalatchi!"shoutedDain,liftingupNinaashegotuponhisfeetquickly。
  "Ada!Ada!"cametheanswerfromthepantingstatesmanwhoranupthepathandstoodamongstthem。"Runtomycanoe,"hesaidtoDainexcitedly,withouttakinganynoticeofAlmayer。"Run!
  wemustgo。Thatwomanhastoldthemall!"
  "Whatwoman?"askedDain,lookingatNina。Justthentherewasonlyonewomaninthewholeworldforhim。
  "Theshe-dogwithwhiteteeth;theseventimesaccursedslaveofBulangi。SheyelledatAbdulla'sgatetillshewokeupallSambir。Nowthewhiteofficersarecoming,guidedbyherandReshid。Ifyouwanttolive,donotlookatme,butgo!"
  "Howdoyouknowthis?"askedAlmayer。
  "Oh,Tuan!whatmattershowIknow!Ihaveonlyoneeye,butI
  sawlightsinAbdulla'shouseandinhiscampongaswewerepaddlingpast。Ihaveears,andwhilewelayunderthebankI
  haveheardthemessengerssentouttothewhitemen'shouse。"
  "Willyoudepartwithoutthatwomanwhoismydaughter?"saidAlmayer,addressingDain,whileBabalatchistampedwithimpatience,muttering,"Run!Runatonce!"
  "No,"answeredDain,steadily,"Iwillnotgo;tonomanwillI
  abandonthiswoman。"
  "Thenkillmeandescapeyourself,"sobbedoutNina。
  Heclaspedherclose,lookingathertenderly,andwhispered,"Wewillneverpart,ONina!"
  "Ishallnotstayhereanylonger,"brokeinBabalatchi,angrily。
  "Thisisgreatfoolishness。Nowomanisworthaman'slife。
  I
  amanoldman,andIknow。"
  Hepickeduphisstaff,and,turningtogo,lookedatDainasifofferinghimhislastchanceofescape。ButDain'sfacewashiddenamongstNina'sblacktresses,andhedidnotseethislastappealingglance。
  Babalatchivanishedinthedarkness。Shortlyafterhisdisappearancetheyheardthewarcanoeleavethelanding-placeintheswishofthenumerouspaddlesdippedinthewatertogether。
  AlmostatthesametimeAlicameupfromtheriverside,twopaddlesonhisshoulder。
  "Ourcanoeishiddenupthecreek,TuanAlmayer,"hesaid,"inthedensebushwheretheforestcomesdowntothewater。ItookittherebecauseIheardfromBabalatchi'spaddlersthatthewhitemenarecominghere。"
  "Waitformethere,"saidAlmayer,"butkeepthecanoehidden。"
  Heremainedsilent,listeningtoAli'sfootsteps,thenturnedtoNina。
  "Nina,"hesaidsadly,"willyouhavenopityforme?"
  Therewasnoanswer。Shedidnoteventurnherhead,whichwaspressedclosetoDain'sbreast。
  Hemadeamovementasiftoleavethemandstopped。Bythedimglowoftheburning-outfirehesawtheirtwomotionlessfigures。
  Thewoman'sbackturnedtohimwiththelongblackhairstreamingdownoverthewhitedress,andDain'scalmfacelookingathimaboveherhead。
  "Icannot,"hemutteredtohimself。Afteralongpausehespokeagainalittlelower,butinanunsteadyvoice,"Itwouldbetoogreatadisgrace。Iamawhiteman。"Hebrokedowncompletelythere,andwentontearfully,"Iamawhiteman,andofgoodfamily。Verygoodfamily,"herepeated,weepingbitterly。
  "Itwouldbeadisgrace……allovertheislands,……theonlywhitemanontheeastcoast。No,itcannotbe……whitemenfindingmydaughterwiththisMalay。Mydaughter!"hecriedaloud,witharingofdespairinhisvoice。
  Herecoveredhiscomposureafterawhileandsaiddistinctly——
  "Iwillneverforgiveyou,Nina——never!Ifyouweretocomebacktomenow,thememoryofthisnightwouldpoisonallmylife。
  I
  shalltrytoforget。Ihavenodaughter。Thereusedtobeahalf-castewomaninmyhouse,butsheisgoingevennow。You,Dain,orwhateveryournamemaybe,Ishalltakeyouandthatwomantotheislandatthemouthoftherivermyself。Comewithme。"
  Heledtheway,followingthebankasfarastheforest。Aliansweredtohiscall,and,pushingtheirwaythroughthedensebush,theysteppedintothecanoehiddenundertheoverhangingbranches。DainlaidNinainthebottom,andsatholdingherheadonhisknees。AlmayerandAlieachtookupapaddle。AstheyweregoingtopushoutAlihissedwarningly。Alllistened。
  Inthegreatstillnessbeforetheburstingoutofthethunderstormtheycouldhearthesoundofoarsworkingregularlyintheirrow-locks。Thesoundapproachedsteadily,andDain,lookingthroughthebranches,couldseethefaintshapeofabigwhiteboat。Awoman'svoicesaidinacautioustone——
  "Thereistheplacewhereyoumaylandwhitemen;alittlehigher——there!"
  Theboatwaspassingthemsocloseinthenarrowcreekthatthebladesofthelongoarsnearlytouchedthecanoe。
  "Wayenough!Standbytojumponshore!Heisaloneandunarmed,"wasthequietorderinaman'svoice,andinDutch。
  Somebodyelsewhispered:"IthinkIcanseeaglimmerofafirethroughthebush。"Andthentheboatfloatedpastthem,disappearinginstantlyinthedarkness。
  "Now,"whisperedAli,eagerly,"letuspushoutandpaddleaway。"
  Thelittlecanoeswungintothestream,andasitsprungforwardinresponsetothevigorousdigofthepaddlestheycouldhearanangryshout。
  "Heisnotbythefire。Spreadout,men,andsearchforhim!"
  Bluelightsblazedoutindifferentpartsoftheclearing,andtheshrillvoiceofawomancriedinaccentsofrageandpain——
  "Toolate!Osenselesswhitemen!Hehasescaped!"
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  CHAPTERXII。
  "Thatistheplace,"saidDain,indicatingwiththebladeofhispaddleasmallisletaboutamileaheadofthecanoe——"thatistheplacewhereBabalatchipromisedthataboatfromtheprauwouldcomeformewhenthesunisoverhead。Wewillwaitforthatboatthere。"
  Almayer,whowassteering,noddedwithoutspeaking,andbyaslightsweepofhispaddlelaidtheheadofthecanoeintherequireddirection。
  TheywerejustleavingthesouthernoutletofthePantai,whichlaybehindtheminastraightandlongvistaofwatershiningbetweentwowallsofthickverdurethatrandownwardsandtowardseachother,tillatlasttheyjoinedandsanktogetherinthefar-awaydistance。Thesun,risingabovethecalmwatersoftheStraits,markeditsownpathbyastreakoflightthatglidedupontheseaanddartedupthewidereachoftheriver,ahurriedmessengeroflightandlifetothegloomyforestsofthecoast;
  andinthisradianceofthesun'spathwayfloatedtheblackcanoeheadingfortheisletwhichlaybathedinsunshine,theyellowsandsofitsencirclingbeachshininglikeaninlaidgoldendisconthepolishedsteeloftheunwrinkledsea。Tothenorthandsouthofitroseotherislets,joyousintheirbrilliantcolouringofgreenandyellow,andonthemaincoastthesombrelineofmangrovebushesendedtothesouthwardinthereddishcliffsofTanjongMirrah,advancingintothesea,steepandshadowlessundertheclear,lightoftheearlymorning。
  Thebottomofthecanoegrateduponthesandasthelittlecraftranuponthebeach。AlileapedonshoreandheldonwhileDainsteppedoutcarryingNinainhisarms,exhaustedbytheeventsandthelongtravellingduringthenight。Almayerwasthelasttoleavetheboat,andtogetherwithAliranithigheruponthebeach。ThenAli,tiredoutbythelongpaddling,laiddownintheshadeofthecanoe,andincontinentlyfellasleep。Almayersatsidewaysonthegunwale,andwithhisarmscrossedonhisbreast,lookedtothesouthwarduponthesea。
  AftercarefullylayingNinadownintheshadeofthebushesgrowinginthemiddleoftheislet,Dainthrewhimselfbesideherandwatchedinsilentconcernthetearsthatrandownfromunderherclosedeyelids,andlostthemselvesinthatfinesanduponwhichtheybothwerelyingfacetoface。Thesetearsandthissorrowwereforhimaprofoundanddisquietingmystery。Now,whenthedangerwaspast,whyshouldshegrieve?Hedoubtedherlovenomorethanhewouldhavedoubtedthefactofhisownexistence,butashelaylookingardentlyinherface,watchinghertears,herpartedlips,herverybreath,hewasuneasilyconsciousofsomethinginherhecouldnotunderstand。Doubtlessshehadthewisdomofperfectbeings。Hesighed。Hefeltsomethinginvisiblethatstoodbetweenthem,somethingthatwouldlethimapproachhersofar,butnofarther。Nodesire,nolonging,noeffortofwillorlengthoflifecoulddestroythisvaguefeelingoftheirdifference。Withawebutalsowithgreatprideheconcludedthatitwasherownincomparableperfection。
  Shewashis,andyetshewaslikeawomanfromanotherworld。
  His!His!Heexultedinthegloriousthought;neverthelesshertearspainedhim。
  Withawispofherownhairwhichhetookinhishandwithtimidreverencehetriedinanaccessofclumsytendernesstodrythetearsthattrembledonhereyelashes。Hehadhisrewardinafleetingsmilethatbrightenedherfacefortheshortfractionofasecond,butsoonthetearsfellfasterthanever,andhecouldbearitnomore。HeroseandwalkedtowardsAlmayer,whostillsatabsorbedinhiscontemplationofthesea。Itwasavery,verylongtimesincehehadseenthesea——thatseathatleadseverywhere,bringseverything,andtakesawaysomuch。Hehadalmostforgottenwhyhewasthere,anddreamilyhecouldseeallhispastlifeonthesmoothandboundlesssurfacethatglitteredbeforehiseyes。
  Dain'shandlaidonAlmayer'sshoulderrecalledhimwithastartfromsomecountryveryfarawayindeed。Heturnedround,buthiseyesseemedtolookratherattheplacewhereDainstoodthanatthemanhimself。Dainfeltuneasyundertheunconsciousgaze。