"What?"saidAlmayer。
"Sheiscrying,"murmuredDain,softly。
"Sheiscrying!Why?"askedAlmayer,indifferently。
"Icametoaskyou。MyRaneesmileswhenlookingatthemansheloves。Itisthewhitewomanthatiscryingnow。Youwouldknow。"
Almayershruggedhisshouldersandturnedawayagaintowardsthesea。
"Go,TuanPutih,"urgedDain。"Gotoher;hertearsaremoreterribletomethantheangerofgods。"
"Arethey?Youwillseethemmorethanonce。Shetoldmeshecouldnotlivewithoutyou,"answeredAlmayer,speakingwithoutthefaintestsparkofexpressioninhisface,"soitbehovesyoutogotoherquick,forfearyoumayfindherdead。"
HeburstintoaloudandunpleasantlaughwhichmadeDainstareathimwithsomeapprehension,butgotoffthegunwaleoftheboatandmovedslowlytowardsNina,glancingupatthesunashewalked。
"Andyougowhenthesunisoverhead?"hesaid。
"Yes,Tuan。Thenwego,"answeredDain。
"Ihavenotlongtowait,"mutteredAlmayer。"Itismostimportantformetoseeyougo。Bothofyou。Mostimportant,"
herepeated,stoppingshortandlookingatDainfixedly。
HewentonagaintowardsNina,andDainremainedbehind。Almayerapproachedhisdaughterandstoodforatimelookingdownonher。
Shedidnotopenhereyes,buthearingfootstepsnearher,murmuredinalowsob,"Dain。"
Almayerhesitatedforaminuteandthensankonthesandbyherside。She,nothearingaresponsiveword,notfeelingatouch,openedhereyes——sawherfather,andsatupsuddenlywithamovementofterror。
"Oh,father!"shemurmuredfaintly,andinthatwordtherewasexpressedregretandfearanddawninghope。
"Ishallneverforgiveyou,Nina,"saidAlmayer,inadispassionatevoice。"YouhavetornmyheartfrommewhileI
dreamtofyourhappiness。Youhavedeceivedme。Youreyesthatformewereliketruthitselfliedtomeineveryglance——forhowlong?Youknowthatbest。Whenyouwerecaressingmycheekyouwerecountingtheminutestothesunsetthatwasthesignalforyourmeetingwiththatman——there!"
Heceased,andtheybothsatsilentsidebyside,notlookingateachother,butgazingatthevastexpanseofthesea。Almayer'swordshaddriedNina'stears,andherlookgrewhardasshestaredbeforeherintothelimitlesssheetofbluethatshonelimpid,unwaving,andsteadylikeheavenitself。Helookedatitalso,buthisfeatureshadlostallexpression,andlifeinhiseyesseemedtohavegoneout。Thefacewasablank,withoutasignofemotion,feeling,reason,orevenknowledgeofitself。
Allpassion,regret,grief,hope,oranger——allweregone,erasedbythehandoffate,asifafterthislaststrokeeverythingwasoverandtherewasnoneedforanyrecord。
ThosefewwhosawAlmayerduringtheshortperiodofhisremainingdayswerealwaysimpressedbythesightofthatfacethatseemedtoknownothingofwhatwentonwithin:liketheblankwallofaprisonenclosingsin,regrets,andpain,andwastedlife,inthecoldindifferenceofmortarandstones。
"Whatistheretoforgive?"askedNina,notaddressingAlmayerdirectly,butmoreasifarguingwithherself。"CanInotlivemyownlifeasyouhavelivedyours?Thepathyouwouldhavewishedmetofollowhasbeenclosedtomebynofaultofmine。"
"Younevertoldme,"mutteredAlmayer。
"Youneveraskedme,"sheanswered,"andIthoughtyouwereliketheothersanddidnotcare。Iborethememoryofmyhumiliationalone,andwhyshouldItellyouthatitcametomebecauseIamyourdaughter?Iknewyoucouldnotavengeme。"
"AndyetIwasthinkingofthatonly,"interruptedAlmayer,"andIwantedtogiveyouyearsofhappinessfortheshortdayofyoursuffering。Ionlyknewofoneway。"
"Ah!butitwasnotmyway!"shereplied。"Couldyougivemehappinesswithoutlife?Life!"sherepeatedwithsuddenenergythatsentthewordringingoverthesea。"Lifethatmeanspowerandlove,"sheaddedinalowvoice。
"That!"saidAlmayer,pointinghisfingeratDainstandingclosebyandlookingatthemincuriouswonder。
"Yes,that!"shereplied,lookingherfatherfullinthefaceandnoticingforthefirsttimewithaslightgaspoffeartheunnaturalrigidityofhisfeatures。
"Iwouldhaveratherstrangledyouwithmyownhands,"saidAlmayer,inanexpressionlessvoicewhichwassuchacontrasttothedesperatebitternessofhisfeelingsthatitsurprisedevenhimself。Heaskedhimselfwhospoke,and,afterlookingslowlyroundasifexpectingtoseesomebody,turnedagainhiseyestowardsthesea。
"Yousaythatbecauseyoudonotunderstandthemeaningofmywords,"shesaidsadly。"Betweenyouandmymotherthereneverwasanylove。WhenIreturnedtoSambirIfoundtheplacewhichIthoughtwouldbeapeacefulrefugeformyheart,filledwithwearinessandhatred——andmutualcontempt。Ihavelistenedtoyourvoiceandtohervoice。ThenIsawthatyoucouldnotunderstandme;forwasInotpartofthatwoman?Ofherwhowastheregretandshameofyourlife?Ihadtochoose——Ihesitated。
Whywereyousoblind?Didyounotseemestrugglingbeforeyoureyes?But,whenhecame,alldoubtdisappeared,andIsawonlythelightoftheblueandcloudlessheaven——"
"Iwilltellyoutherest,"interruptedAlmayer:"whenthatmancameIalsosawtheblueandthesunshineofthesky。A
thunderbolthasfallenfromthatsky,andsuddenlyallisstillanddarkaroundmeforever。Iwillneverforgiveyou,Nina;andto-morrowIshallforgetyou!Ishallneverforgiveyou,"herepeatedwithmechanicalobstinacywhileshesat,herheadboweddownasifafraidtolookatherfather。
Tohimitseemedoftheutmostimportancethatheshouldassureherofhisintentionofneverforgiving。Hewasconvincedthathisfaithinherhadbeenthefoundationofhishopes,themotiveofhiscourage,ofhisdeterminationtoliveandstruggle,andtobevictoriousforhersake。Andnowhisfaithwasgone,destroyedbyherownhands;destroyedcruelly,treacherously,inthedark;intheverymomentofsuccess。Intheutterwreckofhisaffectionsandofallhisfeelings,inthechaoticdisorderofhisthoughts,abovetheconfusedsensationofphysicalpainthatwrappedhimupinastingasofawhiplashcurlingroundhimfromhisshouldersdowntohisfeet,onlyoneidearemainedclearanddefinite——nottoforgiveher;onlyonevividdesire——toforgether。Andthismustbemadecleartoher——andtohimself——byfrequentrepetition。Thatwashisideaofhisdutytohimself——tohisrace——tohisrespectableconnections;tothewholeuniverseunsettledandshakenbythisfrightfulcatastropheofhislife。Hesawitclearlyandbelievedhewasastrongman。
Hehadalwayspridedhimselfuponhisunflinchingfirmness。Andyethewasafraid。Shehadbeenallinalltohim。Whatifheshouldletthememoryofhisloveforherweakenthesenseofhisdignity?Shewasaremarkablewoman;hecouldseethat;allthelatentgreatnessofhisnature——inwhichhehonestlybelieved——hadbeentransfusedintothatslight,girlishfigure。
Greatthingscouldbedone!Whatifheshouldsuddenlytakehertohisheart,forgethisshame,andpain,andanger,and——followher!Whatifhechangedhisheartifnothisskinandmadeherlifeeasierbetweenthetwolovesthatwouldguardherfromanymischance!Hisheartyearnedforher。Whatifheshouldsaythathisloveforherwasgreaterthan……
"Iwillneverforgiveyou,Nina!"heshouted,leapingupmadlyinthesuddenfearofhisdream。
Thiswasthelasttimeinhislifethathewasheardtoraisehisvoice。Henceforthhespokealwaysinamonotonouswhisperlikeaninstrumentofwhichallthestringsbutonearebrokeninalastringingclamourunderaheavyblow。
Sherosetoherfeetandlookedathim。Theveryviolenceofhiscrysoothedherinanintuitiveconvictionofhislove,andshehuggedtoherbreastthelamentableremnantsofthataffectionwiththeunscrupulousgreedinessofwomenwhoclingdesperatelytotheveryscrapsandragsoflove,anykindoflove,asathingthatofrightbelongstothemandistheverybreathoftheirlife。SheputbothherhandsonAlmayer'sshoulders,andlookingathimhalftenderly,halfplayfully,shesaid——
"Youspeaksobecauseyouloveme。"
Almayershookhishead。
"Yes,youdo,"sheinsistedsoftly;thenafterashortpausesheadded,"andyouwillneverforgetme。"
Almayershiveredslightly。Shecouldnothavesaidamorecruelthing。
"Hereistheboatcomingnow,"saidDain,hisarmoutstretchedtowardsablackspeckonthewaterbetweenthecoastandtheislet。
Theyalllookedatitandremainedstandinginsilencetillthelittlecanoecamegentlyonthebeachandamanlandedandwalkedtowardsthem。Hestoppedsomedistanceoffandhesitated。
"Whatnews?"askedDain。
"Wehavehadorderssecretlyandinthenighttotakeofffromthisisletamanandawoman。Iseethewoman。Whichofyouistheman?"
"Come,delightofmyeyes,"saidDaintoNina。"Nowwego,andyourvoiceshallbeformyearsonly。YouhavespokenyourlastwordstotheTuanPutih,yourfather。Come。"
Shehesitatedforawhile,lookingatAlmayer,whokepthiseyessteadilyonthesea,thenshetouchedhisforeheadinalingeringkiss,andatear——oneofhertears——fellonhischeekandrandownhisimmovableface。
"Goodbye,"shewhispered,andremainedirresolutetillhepushedhersuddenlyintoDain'sarms。
"Ifyouhaveanypityforme,"murmuredAlmayer,asifrepeatingsomesentencelearnedbyheart,"takethatwomanaway。"
Hestoodverystraight,hisshouldersthrownback,hisheadheldhigh,andlookedatthemastheywentdownthebeachtothecanoe,walkingenlacedineachother'sarms。Helookedatthelineoftheirfootstepsmarkedinthesand。Hefollowedtheirfiguresmovinginthecrudeblazeoftheverticalsun,inthatlightviolentandvibrating,likeatriumphalflourishofbrazentrumpets。Helookedattheman'sbrownshoulders,attheredsarongroundhiswaist;atthetall,slender,dazzlingwhitefigurehesupported。Helookedatthewhitedress,atthefallingmassesofthelongblackhair。Helookedatthemembarking,andatthecanoegrowingsmallerinthedistance,withrage,despair,andregretinhisheart,andonhisfaceapeaceasthatofacarvedimageofoblivion。Inwardlyhefelthimselftorntopieces,butAli——whonowaroused——stoodclosetohismaster,sawonhisfeaturestheblankexpressionofthosewholiveinthathopelesscalmwhichsightlesseyesonlycangive。
Thecanoedisappeared,andAlmayerstoodmotionlesswithhiseyesfixedonitswake。Alifromundertheshadeofhishandexaminedthecoastcuriously。Asthesundeclined,thesea-breezesprangupfromthenorthwardandshiveredwithitsbreaththeglassysurfaceofthewater。
"Dapat!"exclaimedAli,joyously。"Gothim,master!Gotprau!
Notthere!LookmoreTanahMirrahside。Aha!Thatway!
Master,see?Nowplain。See?"
AlmayerfollowedAli'sforefingerwithhiseyesforalongtimeinvain。AtlasthesightedatriangularpatchofyellowlightontheredbackgroundofthecliffsofTanjongMirrah。Itwasthesailoftheprauthathadcaughtthesunlightandstoodout,distinctwithitsgaytint,onthedarkredofthecape。Theyellowtrianglecreptslowlyfromclifftocliff,tillitclearedthelastpointoflandandshonebrilliantlyforafleetingminuteontheblueoftheopensea。Thentheprauboreuptothesouthward:thelightwentoutofthesail,andallatoncethevesselitselfdisappeared,vanishingintheshadowofthesteepheadlandthatlookedon,patientandlonely,watchingovertheemptysea。
Almayernevermoved。Roundthelittleislettheairwasfullofthetalkoftheripplingwater。Thecrestedwaveletsranupthebeachaudaciously,joyously,withthelightnessofyounglife,anddiedquickly,unresistingly,andgraciously,inthewidecurvesoftransparentfoamontheyellowsand。Above,thewhitecloudssailedrapidlysouthwardsasifintentuponovertakingsomething。Aliseemedanxious。
"Master,"hesaidtimidly,"timetogethousenow。Longwayofftopull。Allready,sir。"
"Wait,"whisperedAlmayer。
Nowshewasgonehisbusinesswastoforget,andhehadastrangenotionthatitshouldbedonesystematicallyandinorder。ToAli'sgreatdismayhefellonhishandsandknees,and,creepingalongthesand,erasedcarefullywithhishandalltracesofNina'sfootsteps。Hepiledupsmallheapsofsand,leavingbehindhimalineofminiaturegravesrightdowntothewater。
AfterburyingthelastslightimprintofNina'sslipperhestoodup,and,turninghisfacetowardstheheadlandwherehehadlastseentheprau,hemadeanefforttoshoutoutloudagainhisfirmresolvetoneverforgive。Aliwatchinghimuneasilysawonlyhislipsmove,butheardnosound。Hebroughthisfootdownwithastamp。Hewasafirmman——firmasarock。Lethergo。
Heneverhadadaughter。Hewouldforget。Hewasforgettingalready。
Aliapproachedhimagain,insistingonimmediatedeparture,andthistimeheconsented,andtheywenttogethertowardstheircanoe,Almayerleading。Forallhisfirmnesshelookedverydejectedandfeebleashedraggedhisfeetslowlythroughthesandonthebeach;andbyhisside——invisibletoAli——stalkedthatparticularfiendwhosemissionitistojogthememoriesofmen,lesttheyshouldforgetthemeaningoflife。HewhisperedintoAlmayer'searachildishprattleofmanyyearsago。
Almayer,hisheadbentononeside,seemedtolistentohisinvisiblecompanion,buthisfacewaslikethefaceofamanthathasdiedstruckfrombehind——afacefromwhichallfeelingsandallexpressionaresuddenlywipedoffbythehandofunexpecteddeath。
Theysleptontheriverthatnight,mooringtheircanoeunderthebushesandlyingdowninthebottomsidebyside,intheabsoluteexhaustionthatkillshunger,thirst,allfeelingandallthoughtintheoverpoweringdesireforthatdeepsleepwhichislikethetemporaryannihilationofthetiredbody。Nextdaytheystartedagainandfoughtdoggedlywiththecurrentallthemorning,tillaboutmiddaytheyreachedthesettlementandmadefasttheirlittlecrafttothejettyofLingardandCo。Almayerwalkedstraighttothehouse,andAlifollowed,paddlesonshoulder,thinkingthathewouldliketoeatsomething。Astheycrossedthefrontcourtyardtheynoticedtheabandonedlookoftheplace。
Alilookedinatthedifferentservants'houses:allwereempty。
Inthebackcourtyardtherewasthesameabsenceofsoundandlife。Inthecooking-shedthefirewasoutandtheblackemberswerecold。Atall,leanmancamestealthilyoutofthebananaplantation,andwentawayrapidlyacrosstheopenspacelookingatthemwithbig,frightenedeyesoverhisshoulder。Somevagabondwithoutamaster;thereweremanysuchinthesettlement,andtheylookeduponAlmayerastheirpatron。Theyprowledabouthispremisesandpickedtheirlivingthere,surethatnothingworsecouldbefallthemthanashowerofcurseswhentheygotinthewayofthewhiteman,whomtheytrustedandliked,andcalledafoolamongstthemselves。Inthehouse,whichAlmayerenteredthroughthebackverandah,theonlylivingthingthatmethiseyeswashissmallmonkeywhich,hungryandunnoticedforthelasttwodays,begantocryandcomplaininmonkeylanguageassoonasitcaughtsightofthefamiliarface。
AlmayersootheditwithafewwordsandorderedAlitobringinsomebananas,thenwhileAliwasgonetogetthemhestoodinthedoorwayofthefrontverandahlookingatthechaosofoverturnedfurniture。Finallyhepickedupthetableandsatonitwhilethemonkeyletitselfdownfromtheroof-stickbyitschainandperchedonhisshoulder。Whenthebananascametheyhadtheirbreakfasttogether;bothhungry,botheatinggreedilyandshoweringtheskinsroundthemrecklessly,inthetrustingsilenceofperfectfriendship。Aliwentaway,grumbling,tocooksomericehimself,forallthewomenaboutthehousehaddisappeared;hedidnotknowwhere。Almayerdidnotseemtocare,and,afterhefinishedeating,hesatonthetableswinginghislegsandstaringattheriverasiflostinthought。
Aftersometimehegotupandwenttothedoorofaroomontherightoftheverandah。Thatwastheoffice。TheofficeofLingardandCo。Heveryseldomwentinthere。Therewasnobusinessnow,andhedidnotwantanoffice。Thedoorwaslocked,andhestoodbitinghislowerlip,tryingtothinkoftheplacewherethekeycouldbe。Suddenlyheremembered:inthewomen'sroomhunguponanail。Hewentovertothedoorwaywheretheredcurtainhungdowninmotionlessfolds,andhesitatedforamomentbeforepushingitasidewithhisshoulderasifbreakingdownsomesolidobstacle。Agreatsquareofsunshineenteringthroughthewindowlayonthefloor。OnthelefthesawMrs。
Almayer'sbigwoodenchest,thelidthrownback,empty;nearitthebrassnailsofNina'sEuropeantrunkshoneinthelargeinitialsN。A。onthecover。AfewofNina'sdresseshungonwoodenpegs,stiffenedinalookofoffendeddignityattheirabandonment。Herememberedmakingthepegshimselfandnoticedthattheywereverygoodpegs。Wherewasthekey?Helookedroundandsawitnearthedoorwherehestood。Itwasredwithrust。Hefeltverymuchannoyedatthat,anddirectlyafterwardswonderedathisownfeeling。Whatdiditmatter?Theresoonwouldbenokey——nodoor——nothing!Hepaused,keyinhand,andaskedhimselfwhetherheknewwellwhathewasabout。Hewentoutagainontheverandahandstoodbythetablethinking。Themonkeyjumpeddown,and,snatchingabananaskin,absorbeditselfinpickingittoshredsindustriously。
"Forget!"mutteredAlmayer,andthatwordstartedbeforehimasequenceofevents,adetailedprogrammeofthingstodo。Heknewperfectlywellwhatwastobedonenow。Firstthis,thenthat,andthenforgetfulnesswouldcomeeasy。Veryeasy。
Hehadafixedideathatifheshouldnotforgetbeforehediedhewouldhavetoremembertoalleternity。Certainthingshadtobetakenoutofhislife,stampedoutofsight,destroyed,forgotten。Foralongtimehestoodindeepthought,lostinthealarmingpossibilitiesofunconquerablememory,withthefearofdeathandeternitybeforehim。"Eternity!"hesaidaloud,andthesoundofthatwordrecalledhimoutofhisreverie。Themonkeystarted,droppedtheskin,andgrinnedupathimamicably。
Hewenttowardstheofficedoorandwithsomedifficultymanagedtoopenit。Heenteredinacloudofdustthatroseunderhisfeet。
Booksopenwithtornpagesbestrewedthefloor;otherbookslayaboutgrimyandblack,lookingasiftheyhadneverbeenopened。
Accountbooks。Inthosebookshehadintendedtokeepdaybydayarecordofhisrisingfortunes。Longtimeago。Averylongtime。Formanyyearstherehasbeennorecordtokeepontheblueandredruledpages!Inthemiddleoftheroomthebigofficedesk,withoneofitslegsbroken,careenedoverlikethehullofastrandedship;mostofthedrawershadfallenout,disclosingheapsofpaperyellowwithageanddirt。Therevolvingofficechairstoodinitsplace,buthefoundthepivotsetfastwhenhetriedtoturnit。Nomatter。Hedesisted,andhiseyeswanderedslowlyfromobjecttoobject。Allthosethingshadcostalotofmoneyatthetime。Thedesk,thepaper,thetornbooks,andthebrokenshelves,allunderathickcoatofdust。Theverydustandbonesofadeadandgonebusiness。
Helookedatallthesethings,allthatwasleftaftersomanyyearsofwork,ofstrife,ofweariness,ofdiscouragement,conqueredsomanytimes。Andallforwhat?Hestoodthinkingmournfullyofhispastlifetillhehearddistinctlytheclearvoiceofachildspeakingamongstallthiswreck,ruin,andwaste。Hestartedwithagreatfearinhisheart,andfeverishlybegantorakeinthepapersscatteredonthefloor,brokethechairintobits,splinteredthedrawersbybangingthemagainstthedesk,andmadeabigheapofallthatrubbishinonecorneroftheroom。
Hecameoutquickly,slammedthedoorafterhim,turnedthekey,and,takingitout,rantothefrontrailoftheverandah,and,withagreatswingofhisarm,sentthekeywhizzingintotheriver。Thisdonehewentbackslowlytothetable,calledthemonkeydown,unhookeditschain,andinducedittoremainquietinthebreastofhisjacket。Thenhesatagainonthetableandlookedfixedlyatthedooroftheroomhehadjustleft。Helistenedalsointently。Heheardadrysoundofrustling;sharpcracksasofdrywoodsnapping;awhirrlikeofabird'swingswhenitrisessuddenly,andthenhesawathinstreamofsmokecomethroughthekeyhole。Themonkeystruggledunderhiscoat。
Aliappearedwithhiseyesstartingoutofhishead。
"Master!Houseburn!"heshouted。
Almayerstoodupholdingbythetable。Hecouldheartheyellsofalarmandsurpriseinthesettlement。Aliwrunghishands,lamentingaloud。
"Stopthisnoise,fool!"saidAlmayer,quietly。"Pickupmyhammockandblanketsandtakethemtotheotherhouse。Quick,now!"
Thesmokeburstthroughthecrevicesofthedoor,andAli,withthehammockinhisarms,clearedinoneboundthestepsoftheverandah。
"Ithascaughtwell,"mutteredAlmayertohimself。"Bequiet,Jack,"headded,asthemonkeymadeafranticefforttoescapefromitsconfinement。
Thedoorsplitfromtoptobottom,andarushofflameandsmokedroveAlmayerawayfromthetabletothefrontrailoftheverandah。Heheldontheretillagreatroaroverheadassuredhimthattheroofwasablaze。Thenherandownthestepsoftheverandah,coughing,halfchokedwiththesmokethatpursuedhiminbluishwreathscurlingabouthishead。
Ontheothersideoftheditch,separatingAlmayer'scourtyardfromthesettlement,acrowdoftheinhabitantsofSambirlookedattheburninghouseofthewhiteman。Inthecalmairtheflamesrusheduponhigh,colouredpalebrick-red,withvioletgleamsinthestrongsunshine。Thethincolumnofsmokeascendedstraightandunwaveringtillitlostitselfintheclearblueofthesky,and,inthegreatemptyspacebetweenthetwohousestheinterestedspectatorscouldseethetallfigureoftheTuanPutih,withbowedheadanddraggingfeet,walkingslowlyawayfromthefiretowardstheshelterof"Almayer'sFolly。"
InthatmannerdidAlmayermoveintohisnewhouse。Hetookpossessionofthenewruin,andintheundyingfollyofhisheartsethimselftowaitinanxietyandpainforthatforgetfulnesswhichwassoslowtocome。Hehaddoneallhecould。EveryvestigeofNina'sexistencehadbeendestroyed;andnowwitheverysunriseheaskedhimselfwhetherthelonged-foroblivionwouldcomebeforesunset,whetheritwouldcomebeforehedied?
Hewantedtoliveonlylongenoughtobeabletoforget,andthetenacityofhismemoryfilledhimwithdreadandhorrorofdeath;
forshoulditcomebeforehecouldaccomplishthepurposeofhislifehewouldhavetorememberforever!Healsolongedforloneliness。Hewantedtobealone。Buthewasnot。
Inthedimlightoftheroomswiththeirclosedshutters,inthebrightsunshineoftheverandah,whereverhewent,whicheverwayheturned,hesawthesmallfigureofalittlemaidenwithprettyoliveface,withlongblackhair,herlittlepinkrobeslippingoffhershoulders,herbigeyeslookingupathiminthetendertrustfulnessofapettedchild。Alididnotseeanything,buthealsowasawareofthepresenceofachildinthehouse。InhislongtalksbytheeveningfiresofthesettlementheusedtotellhisintimatefriendsofAlmayer'sstrangedoings。Hismasterhadturnedsorcererinhisoldage。AlisaidthatoftenwhenTuanPutihhadretiredforthenighthecouldhearhimtalkingtosomethinginhisroom。Alithoughtthatitwasaspiritintheshapeofachild。Heknewhismasterspoketoachildfromcertainexpressionsandwordshismasterused。HismasterspokeinMalayalittle,butmostlyinEnglish,whichhe,Ali,couldunderstand。Masterspoketothechildattimestenderly,thenhewouldweepoverit,laughatit,scoldit,begofittogoaway;
curseit。Itwasabadandstubbornspirit。Alithoughthismasterhadimprudentlycalleditup,andnowcouldnotgetridofit。Hismasterwasverybrave;hewasnotafraidtocursethisspiritintheveryPresence;andoncehefoughtwithit。Alihadheardagreatnoiseasofrunningaboutinsidetheroomandgroans。Hismastergroaned。Spiritsdonotgroan。
Hismasterwasbrave,butfoolish。Youcannothurtaspirit。Aliexpectedtofindhismasterdeadnextmorning,buthecameoutveryearly,lookingmucholderthanthedaybefore,andhadnofoodallday。
SofarAlitothesettlement。ToCaptainFordhewasmuchmorecommunicative,forthegoodreasonthatCaptainFordhadthepurseandgaveorders。OneachofFord'smonthlyvisitstoSambirAlihadtogoonboardwithareportabouttheinhabitantof"Almayer'sFolly。"OnhisfirstvisittoSambir,afterNina'sdeparture,FordhadtakenchargeofAlmayer'saffairs。Theywerenotcumbersome。Theshedforthestorageofgoodswasempty,theboatshaddisappeared,appropriated——generallyinnight-time——byvariouscitizensofSambirinneedofmeansoftransport。DuringagreatfloodthejettyofLingardandCo。leftthebankandfloateddowntheriver,probablyinsearchofmorecheerfulsurroundings;eventheflockofgeese——"theonlygeeseontheeastcoast"——departedsomewhere,preferringtheunknowndangersofthebushtothedesolationoftheiroldhome。Astimewentonthegrassgrewovertheblackpatchofgroundwheretheoldhouseusedtostand,andnothingremainedtomarktheplaceofthedwellingthathadshelteredAlmayer'syounghopes,hisfoolishdreamofsplendidfuture,hisawakening,andhisdespair。
ForddidnotoftenvisitAlmayer,forvisitingAlmayerwasnotapleasanttask。Atfirstheusedtorespondlistlesslytotheoldseaman'sboisterousinquiriesabouthishealth;heevenmadeeffortstotalk,askingfornewsinavoicethatmadeitperfectlyclearthatnonewsfromthisworldhadanyinterestforhim。Thengraduallyhebecamemoresilent——notsulkily——butasifhewasforgettinghowtospeak。Heusedalsotohideinthedarkestroomsofthehouse,whereFordhadtoseekhimoutguidedbythepatterofthemonkeygallopingbeforehim。ThemonkeywasalwaystheretoreceiveandintroduceFord。Thelittleanimalseemedtohavetakencompletechargeofitsmaster,andwheneveritwishedforhispresenceontheverandahitwouldtugperseveringlyathisjacket,tillAlmayerobedientlycameoutintothesunshine,whichheseemedtodislikesomuch。
OnemorningFordfoundhimsittingontheflooroftheverandah,hisbackagainstthewall,hislegsstretchedstifflyout,hisarmshangingbyhisside。Hisexpressionlessface,hiseyesopenwidewithimmobilepupils,andtherigidityofhispose,madehimlooklikeanimmenseman-dollbrokenandflungthereoutoftheway。AsFordcameupthestepsheturnedhisheadslowly。
"Ford,"hemurmuredfromthefloor,"Icannotforget。"
"Can'tyou?"saidFord,innocently,withanattemptatjoviality:
"IwishIwaslikeyou。Iamlosingmymemory——age,Isuppose;
onlytheotherdaymymate——"
Hestopped,forAlmayerhadgotup,stumbled,andsteadiedhimselfonhisfriend'sarm。
"Hallo!Youarebetterto-day。Soonbeallright,"saidFord,cheerfully,butfeelingratherscared。
Almayerletgohisarmandstoodverystraightwithhisheadupandshouldersthrownback,lookingstonilyatthemultitudeofsunsshininginripplesoftheriver。Hisjacketandhisloosetrousersflappedinthebreezeonhisthinlimbs。
"Lethergo!"hewhisperedinagratingvoice。"Lethergo。
To-
morrowIshallforget。Iamafirmman,……firmasa……
rock,……firm……"
Fordlookedathisface——andfled。Theskipperwasatolerablyfirmmanhimself——asthosewhohadsailedwithhimcouldtestify——
butAlmayer'sfirmnesswasaltogethertoomuchforhisfortitude。
NexttimethesteamercalledinSambirAlicameonboardearlywithagrievance。HecomplainedtoFordthatJim-EngtheChinamanhadinvadedAlmayer'shouse,andactuallyhadlivedthereforthelastmonth。
"Andtheybothsmoke,"addedAli。
"Phew!Opium,youmean?"
Alinodded,andFordremainedthoughtful;thenhemutteredtohimself,"Poordevil!Thesoonerthebetternow。"Intheafternoonhewalkeduptothehouse。
"Whatareyoudoinghere?"heaskedofJim-Eng,whomhefoundstrollingaboutontheverandah。
Jim-EngexplainedinbadMalay,andspeakinginthatmonotonous,uninterestedvoiceofanopiumsmokerprettyfargone,thathishousewasold,theroofleaked,andthefloorwasrotten。So,beinganoldfriendformany,manyyears,hetookhismoney,hisopium,andtwopipes,andcametoliveinthisbighouse。
"Thereisplentyofroom。Hesmokes,andIlivehere。Hewillnotsmokelong,"heconcluded。
"Whereishenow?"askedFord。
"Inside。Hesleeps,"answeredJim-Eng,wearily。Fordglancedinthroughthedoorway。InthedimlightoftheroomhecouldseeAlmayerlyingonhisbackonthefloor,hisheadonawoodenpillow,thelongwhitebeardscatteredoverhisbreast,theyellowskinoftheface,thehalf-closedeyelidsshowingthewhitesoftheeyeonly……
Heshudderedandturnedaway。Ashewasleavinghenoticedalongstripoffadedredsilk,withsomeChineselettersonit,whichJim-Enghadjustfastenedtooneofthepillars。
"What'sthat?"heasked。
"That,"saidJim-Eng,inhiscolourlessvoice,"thatisthenameofthehouse。Allthesamelikemyhouse。Verygoodname。"
Fordlookedathimforawhileandwentaway。Hedidnotknowwhatthecrazy-lookingmazeoftheChineseinscriptionontheredsilkmeant。HadheaskedJim-Eng,thatpatientChinamanwouldhaveinformedhimwithproperpridethatitsmeaningwas:"Houseofheavenlydelight。"
IntheeveningofthesamedayBabalatchicalledonCaptainFord。
Thecaptain'scabinopenedondeck,andBabalatchisatastrideonthehighstep,whileFordsmokedhispipeonthesetteeinside。
Thesteamerwasleavingnextmorning,andtheoldstatesmancameasusualforalastchat。
"WehadnewsfromBalilastmoon,"remarkedBabalatchi。"A
grandsonisborntotheoldRajah,andthereisgreatrejoicing。"
Fordsatupinterested。
"Yes,"wentonBabalatchi,inanswertoFord'slook。"Itoldhim。Thatwasbeforehebegantosmoke。"
"Well,andwhat?"askedFord。
"Iescapedwithmylife,"saidBabalatchi,withperfectgravity,"becausethewhitemanisveryweakandfellasherusheduponme。"Then,afterapause,headded,"Sheismadwithjoy。"
"Mrs。Almayer,youmean?"
"Yes,shelivesinourRajah'shouse。Shewillnotdiesoon。
Suchwomenlivealongtime,"saidBabalatchi,withaslighttingeofregretinhisvoice。"Shehasdollars,andshehasburiedthem,butweknowwhere。Wehadmuchtroublewiththosepeople。Wehadtopayafineandlistentothreatsfromthewhitemen,andnowwehavetobecareful。"Hesighedandremainedsilentforalongwhile。Thenwithenergy:
"Therewillbefighting。Thereisabreathofwarontheislands。ShallIlivelongenoughtosee?……Ah,Tuan!"hewenton,morequietly,"theoldtimeswerebest。EvenIhavesailedwithLanunmen,andboardedinthenightsilentshipswithwhitesails。ThatwasbeforeanEnglishRajahruledinKuching。
Thenwefoughtamongstourselvesandwerehappy。Nowwhenwefightwithyouwecanonlydie!"
Herosetogo。"Tuan,"hesaid,"yourememberthegirlthatmanBulangihad?Herthatcausedallthetrouble?"
"Yes,"saidFord。"Whatofher?"
"Shegrewthinandcouldnotwork。ThenBulangi,whoisathiefandapig-eater,gavehertomeforfiftydollars。Isentheramongstmywomentogrowfat。Iwantedtohearthesoundofherlaughter,butshemusthavebeenbewitched,and……shediedtwodaysago。Nay,Tuan。Whydoyouspeakbadwords?
Iamold——thatistrue——butwhyshouldInotlikethesightofayoungfaceandthesoundofayoungvoiceinmyhouse?"Hepaused,andthenaddedwithalittlemournfullaugh,"Iamlikeawhitemantalkingtoomuchofwhatisnotmen'stalkwhentheyspeaktooneanother。"
Andhewentofflookingverysad。
Thecrowdmassedinasemicirclebeforethestepsof"Almayer'sFolly,"swayedsilentlybackwardsandforwards,andopenedoutbeforethegroupofwhite-robedandturbanedmenadvancingthroughthegrasstowardsthehouse。Abdullawalkedfirst,supportedbyReshidandfollowedbyalltheArabsinSambir。Astheyenteredthelanemadebytherespectfulthrongtherewasasubduedmurmurofvoices,wheretheword"Mati"wastheonlyonedistinctlyaudible。Abdullastoppedandlookedroundslowly。
"Ishedead?"heasked。
"Mayyoulive!"answeredthecrowdinoneshout,andthentheresucceededabreathlesssilence。
Abdullamadeafewpacesforwardandfoundhimselfforthelasttimefacetofacewithhisoldenemy。Whateverhemighthavebeenoncehewasnotdangerousnow,lyingstiffandlifelessinthetenderlightoftheearlyday。Theonlywhitemanontheeastcoastwasdead,andhissoul,deliveredfromthetrammelsofhisearthlyfolly,stoodnowinthepresenceofInfiniteWisdom。
Ontheupturnedfacetherewasthatserenelookwhichfollowsthesuddenrelieffromanguishandpain,andittestifiedsilentlybeforethecloudlessheaventhatthemanlyingthereunderthegazeofindifferenteyeshadbeenpermittedtoforgetbeforehedied。
AbdullalookeddownsadlyatthisInfidelhehadfoughtsolongandhadbestedsomanytimes。SuchwastherewardoftheFaithful!
YetintheArab'soldhearttherewasafeelingofregretforthatthinggoneoutofhislife。Hewasleavingfastbehindhimfriendships,andenmities,successes,anddisappointments——allthatmakesupalife;andbeforehimwasonlytheend。PrayerwouldfilluptheremainderofthedaysallottedtotheTrueBeliever!Hetookinhishandthebeadsthathungathiswaist。
"Ifoundhimhere,likethis,inthemorning,"saidAli,inalowandawedvoice。
Abdullaglancedcoldlyoncemoreatthesereneface。
"Letusgo,"hesaid,addressingReshid。
Andastheypassedthroughthecrowdthatfellbackbeforethem,thebeadsinAbdulla'shandclicked,whileinasolemnwhisperhebreathedoutpiouslythenameofAllah!TheMerciful!TheCompassionate!
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