Thetwoofficerslookedateachotherhelplessly。
"Thiswon'tdo,"saidthelieutenant,addressinghisjunior。
"Havethemenmusteredinthecompoundhere。Imustgetsomesenseoutofhim。Hi!Almayer!Wakeup,man。Redeemyourword。
Yougaveyourword。Yougaveyourwordofhonour,youknow。"
Almayershookofftheofficer'shandwithimpatience,buthisill-humourvanishedatonce,andhelookedup,puttinghisforefingertothesideofhisnose。
"Youareveryyoung;thereistimeforallthings,"hesaid,withanairofgreatsagacity。
ThelieutenantturnedtowardsNina,who,leaningbackinherchair,watchedherfathersteadily。
"ReallyIamverymuchdistressedbyallthisforyoursake,"heexclaimed。"Idonotknow;"hewenton,speakingwithsomeembarrassment,"whetherIhaveanyrighttoaskyouanything,unless,perhaps,towithdrawfromthispainfulscene,butIfeelthatImust——foryourfather'sgood——suggestthatyoushould——I
meanifyouhaveanyinfluenceoverhimyououghttoexertitnowtomakehimkeepthepromisehegavemebeforehe——beforehegotintothisstate。"
Heobservedwithdiscouragementthatsheseemednottotakeanynoticeofwhathesaidsittingstillwithhalf-closedeyes。
"Itrust——"hebeganagain。
"Whatisthepromiseyouspeakof?"abruptlyaskedNina,leavingherseatandmovingtowardsherfather。
"Nothingthatisnotjustandproper。Hepromisedtodelivertousamanwhointimeofprofoundpeacetookthelivesofinnocentmentoescapethepunishmenthedeservedforbreakingthelaw。
Heplannedhismischiefonalargescale。Itisnothisfaultifitfailed,partially。OfcourseyouhaveheardofDainMaroola。
Yourfathersecuredhim,Iunderstand。Weknowheescapedupthisriver。Perhapsyou——"
"Andhekilledwhitemen!"interruptedNina。
"Iregrettosaytheywerewhite。Yes,twowhitemenlosttheirlivesthroughthatscoundrel'sfreak。"
"Twoonly!"exclaimedNina。
Theofficerlookedatherinamazement。
"Why!why!You-"hestammered,confused。
"Theremighthavebeenmore,"interruptedNina。"Andwhenyougetthis——thisscoundrelwillyougo?"
Thelieutenant,stillspeechless,bowedhisassent。
"ThenIwouldgethimforyouifIhadtoseekhiminaburningfire,"sheburstoutwithintenseenergy。"Ihatethesightofyourwhitefaces。Ihatethesoundofyourgentlevoices。
Thatisthewayyouspeaktowomen,droppingsweetwordsbeforeanyprettyface。Ihaveheardyourvoicesbefore。Ihopedtoliveherewithoutseeinganyotherwhitefacebutthis,"sheaddedinagentlertone,touchinglightlyherfather'scheek。
Almayerceasedhismumblingandopenedhiseyes。Hecaughtholdofhisdaughter'shandandpressedittohisface,whileNinawiththeotherhandsmoothedhisrumpledgreyhair,lookingdefiantlyoverherfather'sheadattheofficer,whohadnowregainedhiscomposureandreturnedherlookwithacool,steadystare。Below,infrontoftheverandah,theycouldhearthetrampofseamenmusteringthereaccordingtoorders。Thesub-lieutenantcameupthesteps,whileBabalatchistoodupuneasilyand,withfingeronlip,triedtocatchNina'seye。
"Youareagoodgirl,"whisperedAlmayer,absently,droppinghisdaughter'shand。
"Father!father!"shecried,bendingoverhimwithpassionateentreaty。"Seethosetwomenlookingatus。Sendthemaway。
I
cannotbearitanymore。Sendthemaway。Dowhattheywantandletthemgo。"
ShecaughtsightofBabalatchiandceasedspeakingsuddenly,butherfoottappedthefloorwithrapidbeatsinaparoxysmofnervousrestlessness。Thetwoofficersstoodclosetogetherlookingoncuriously。
"Whathashappened?Whatisthematter?"whisperedtheyoungerman。
"Don'tknow,"answeredtheother,underhisbreath。"Oneisfurious,andtheotherisdrunk。Notsodrunk,either。Queer,this。Look!"
Almayerhadrisen,holdingontohisdaughter'sarm。Hehesitatedamoment,thenheletgohisholdandlurchedhalf-wayacrosstheverandah。Therehepulledhimselftogether,andstoodverystraight,breathinghardandglaringroundangrily。
"Arethemenready?"askedthelieutenant。
"Allready,sir。"
"Now,Mr。Almayer,leadtheway,"saidthelieutenantAlmayerrestedhiseyesonhimasifhesawhimforthefirsttime。
"Twomen,"hesaidthickly。Theeffortofspeakingseemedtointerferewithhisequilibrium。Hetookaquicksteptosavehimselffromafall,andremainedswayingbackwardsandforwards。
"Twomen,"hebeganagain,speakingwithdifficulty。"Twowhitemen——meninuniform——honourablemen。Iwanttosay——menofhonour。Areyou?"
"Come!Noneofthat,"saidtheofficerimpatiently。"Letushavethatfriendofyours。"
"WhatdoyouthinkIam?"askedAlmayer,fiercely。
"Youaredrunk,butnotsodrunkasnottoknowwhatyouaredoing。Enoughofthistomfoolery,"saidtheofficersternly,"orIwillhaveyouputunderarrestinyourownhouse。"
"Arrest!"laughedAlmayer,discordantly。"Ha!ha!ha!Arrest!
Why,Ihavebeentryingtogetoutofthisinfernalplacefortwentyyears,andIcan't。Youhear,man!Ican't,andnevershall!Never!"
Heendedhiswordswithasob,andwalkedunsteadilydownthestairs。Wheninthecourtyardthelieutenantapproachedhim,andtookhimbythearm。Thesub-lieutenantandBabalatchifollowedclose。
"That'sbetter,Almayer,"saidtheofficerencouragingly。"Whereareyougoingto?Thereareonlyplanksthere。Here,"hewenton,shakinghimslightly,"dowewanttheboats?"
"No,"answeredAlmayer,viciously。"Youwantagrave。"
"What?Wildagain!Trytotalksense。"
"Grave!"roaredAlmayer,strugglingtogethimselffree。"Aholeintheground。Don'tyouunderstand?Youmustbedrunk。
Letmego!Letgo,Itellyou!"
Hetoreawayfromtheofficer'sgrasp,andreeledtowardstheplankswherethebodylayunderitswhitecover;thenheturnedroundquickly,andfacedthesemicircleofinterestedfaces。Thesunwassinkingrapidly,throwinglongshadowsofhouseandtreesoverthecourtyard,butthelightlingeredyetontheriver,wherethelogswentdriftingpastinmidstream,lookingverydistinctandblackinthepaleredglow。Thetrunksofthetreesintheforestontheeastbankwerelostingloomwhiletheirhighestbranchesswayedgentlyinthedepartingsunlight。Theairfeltheavyandcoldinthebreeze,expiringinslightpuffsthatcameoverthewater。
Almayershiveredashemadeanefforttospeak,andagainwithanuncertaingestureheseemedtofreehisthroatfromthegripofaninvisiblehand。Hisbloodshoteyeswanderedaimlesslyfromfacetoface。
"There!"hesaidatlast。"Areyouallthere?Heisadangerousman。"
Hedraggedatthecoverwithhastyviolence,andthebodyrolledstifflyofftheplanksandfellathisfeetinrigidhelplessness。
"Cold,perfectlycold,"saidAlmayer,lookingroundwithamirthlesssmile。"Sorrycandonobetter。Andyoucan'thanghim,either。Asyouobserve,gentlemen,"headdedgravely,"thereisnohead,andhardlyanyneck。"
Thelastrayoflightwassnatchedawayfromthetree-tops,therivergrewsuddenlydark,andinthegreatstillnessthemurmuroftheflowingwaterseemedtofillthevastexpanseofgreyshadowthatdescendedupontheland。
"ThisisDain,"wentonAlmayertothesilentgroupthatsurroundedhim。"AndIhavekeptmyword。Firstonehope,thenanother,andthisismylast。Nothingisleftnow。Youthinkthereisonedeadmanhere?Mistake,I'sureyou。Iammuchmoredead。Whydon'tyouhangme?"hesuggestedsuddenly,inafriendlytone,addressingthelieutenant。"Iassure,assureyouitwouldbeamat——matterofformaltog——altogether。"
Theselastwordshemutteredtohimself,andwalkedzigzagingtowardshishouse。"Getout!"hethunderedatAli,whowasapproachingtimidlywithoffersofassistance。Fromafar,scaredgroupsofmenandwomenwatchedhisdeviousprogress。Hedraggedhimselfupthestairsbythebanister,andmanagedtoreachachairintowhichhefellheavily。Hesatforawhilepantingwithexertionandanger,andlookingroundvaguelyforNina;thenmakingathreateninggesturetowardsthecompound,wherehehadheardBabalatchi'svoice,heoverturnedthetablewithhisfootinagreatcrashofsmashedcrockery。Hemutteredyetmenacinglytohimself,thenhisheadfellonhisbreast,hiseyesclosed,andwithadeepsighhefellasleep。
Thatnight——forthefirsttimeinitshistory——thepeacefulandflourishingsettlementofSambirsawthelightsshiningabout"Almayer'sFolly。"ThesewerethelanternsoftheboatshungupbytheseamenundertheverandahwherethetwoofficerswereholdingacourtofinquiryintothetruthofthestoryrelatedtothembyBabalatchi。Babalatchihadregainedallhisimportance。
Hewaseloquentandpersuasive,callingHeavenandEarthtowitnessthetruthofhisstatements。Therewerealsootherwitnesses。MahmatBanjerandagoodmanyothersunderwentacloseexaminationthatdraggeditswearylengthfarintotheevening。AmessengerwassentforAbdulla,whoexcusedhimselffromcomingonthescoreofhisvenerableage,butsentReshid。
Mahmathadtoproducethebangle,andsawwithrageandmortificationthelieutenantputitinhispocket,asoneoftheproofsofDain'sdeath,tobesentinwiththeofficialreportofthemission。Babalatchi'sringwasalsoimpoundedforthesamepurpose,buttheexperiencedstatesmanwasresignedtothatlossfromtheverybeginning。Hedidnotmindaslongashewassure,thatthewhitemenbelieved。Heputthatquestiontohimselfearnestlyasheleft,oneofthelast,whentheproceedingscametoaclose。Hewasnotcertain。Still,iftheybelievedonlyforanight,hewouldputDainbeyondtheirreachandfeelsafehimself。Hewalkedawayfast,lookingfromtimetotimeoverhisshoulderinthefearofbeingfollowed,buthesawandheardnothing。
"Teno'clock,"saidthelieutenant,lookingathiswatchandyawning。"Ishallhearsomeofthecaptain'scomplimentaryremarkswhenwegetback。Miserablebusiness,this。"
"Doyouthinkallthisistrue?"askedtheyoungerman。
"True!Itisjustpossible。Butifitisn'ttruewhatcanwedo?
Ifwehadadozenboatswecouldpatrolthecreeks;andthatwouldn'tbemuchgood。Thatdrunkenmadmanwasright;wehaven'tenoughholdonthiscoast。Theydowhattheylike。Areourhammocksslung?"
"Yes,Itoldthecoxswain。Strangecoupleoverthere,"saidthesub,withawaveofhishandtowardsAlmayer'shouse。
"Hem!Queer,certainly。Whathaveyoubeentellingher?
Iwasattendingtothefathermostofthetime。"
"IassureyouIhavebeenperfectlycivil,"protestedtheotherwarmly。
"Allright。Don'tgetexcited。Sheobjectstocivility,then,fromwhatIunderstand。Ithoughtyoumighthavebeentender。
Youknowweareonservice。"
"Well,ofcourse。Neverforgetthat。Coldlycivil。
That'sall。"
Theybothlaughedalittle,andnotfeelingsleepybegantopacetheverandahsidebyside。Themoonrosestealthilyabovethetrees,andsuddenlychangedtheriverintoastreamofscintillatingsilver。Theforestcameoutoftheblackvoidandstoodsombreandpensiveoverthesparklingwater。Thebreezediedawayintoabreathlesscalm。
Seamanlike,thetwoofficerstrampedmeasuredlyupanddownwithoutexchangingaword。Thelooseplanksrattledrhythmicallyundertheirstepswithobstrusivedrysoundintheperfectsilenceofthenight。Astheywerewheelingroundagaintheyoungermanstoodattentive。
"Didyouhearthat?"heasked。
"No!"saidtheother。"Hearwhat?"
"IthoughtIheardacry。Eversofaint。Seemedawoman'svoice。Inthatotherhouse。Ah!Again!Hearit?"
"No,"saidthelieutenant,afterlisteningawhile。"Youyoungfellowsalwayshearwomen'svoices。Ifyouaregoingtodreamyouhadbettergetintoyourhammock。Good-night。"
Themoonmountedhigher,andthewarmshadowsgrewsmallerandcreptawayasifhidingbeforethecoldandcruellight。
chapter10
CHAPTERX。
"Ithassetatlast,"saidNinatohermotherpointingtowardsthehillsbehindwhichthesunhadsunk。"Listen,mother,IamgoingnowtoBulangi'screek,andifIshouldneverreturn——"
Sheinterruptedherself,andsomethinglikedoubtdimmedforamomentthefireofsuppressedexaltationthathadglowedinhereyesandhadilluminatedthesereneimpassivenessofherfeatureswitharayofeagerlifeduringallthatlongdayofexcitement——
thedayofjoyandanxiety,ofhopeandterror,ofvaguegriefandindistinctdelight。Whilethesunshonewiththatdazzlinglightinwhichherlovewasbornandgrewtillitpossessedherwholebeing,shewaskeptfirminherunwaveringresolvebythemysteriouswhisperingsofdesirewhichfilledherheartwithimpatientlongingforthedarknessthatwouldmeantheendofdangerandstrife,thebeginningofhappiness,thefulfillingoflove,thecompletenessoflife。Ithadsetatlast!Theshorttropicaltwilightwentoutbeforeshecoulddrawthelongbreathofrelief;andnowthesuddendarknessseemedtobefullofmenacingvoicescallinguponhertorushheadlongintotheunknown;tobetruetoherownimpulses,togiveherselfuptothepassionshehadevokedandshared。Hewaswaiting!Inthesolitudeofthesecludedclearing,inthevastsilenceoftheforesthewaswaitingalone,afugitiveinfearofhislife。
Indifferenttohisdangerhewaswaitingforher。Itwasforheronlythathehadcome;andnowasthetimeapproachedwhenheshouldhavehisreward,sheaskedherselfwithdismaywhatmeantthatchillingdoubtofherownwillandofherowndesire?Withaneffortsheshookoffthefearofthepassingweakness。Heshouldhavehisreward。Herwoman'sloveandherwoman'shonourovercamethefalteringdistrustofthatunknownfuturewaitingforherinthedarknessoftheriver。
"No,youwillnotreturn,"mutteredMrs。Almayer,prophetically。
"Withoutyouhewillnotgo,andifheremainshere——"Shewavedherhandtowardsthelightsof"Almayer'sFolly,"andtheunfinishedsentencediedoutinathreateningmurmur。
Thetwowomenhadmetbehindthehouse,andnowwerewalkingslowlytogethertowardsthecreekwhereallthecanoesweremoored。Arrivedatthefringeofbushestheystoppedbyacommonimpulse,andMrs。Almayer,layingherhandonherdaughter'sarm,triedinvaintolookcloseintothegirl'savertedface。Whensheattemptedtospeakherfirstwordswerelostinastifledsobthatsoundedstrangelycomingfromthatwomanwho,ofallhumanpassions,seemedtoknowonlythoseofangerandhate。
"YouaregoingawaytobeagreatRanee,"shesaidatlast,inavoicethatwassteadyenoughnow,"andifyoubewiseyoushallhavemuchpowerthatwillenduremanydays,andevenlastintoyouroldage。WhathaveIbeen?Aslaveallmylife,andIhavecookedriceforamanwhohadnocourageandnowisdom。Hai!
I!
evenI,wasgiveningiftbyachiefandawarriortoamanthatwasneither。Hai!Hai!"
Shewailedtoherselfsoftly,lamentingthelostpossibilitiesofmurderandmischiefthatcouldhavefallentoherlothadshebeenmatedwithacongenialspirit。NinabentdownoverMrs。
Almayer'sslightformandscannedattentively,underthestarsthathadrushedoutontheblackskyandnowhungbreathlessoverthatstrangeparting,hermother'sshrivelledfeatures,andlookedcloseintothesunkeneyesthatcouldseeintoherowndarkfuturebythelightofalongandapainfulexperience。
Againshefeltherselffascinated,asofold,byhermother'sexaltedmoodandbytheoracularcertaintyofexpressionwhich,togetherwithherfitsofviolence,hadcontributednotalittletothereputationforwitchcraftsheenjoyedinthesettlement。
"Iwasaslave,andyoushallbeaqueen,"wentonMrs。Almayer,lookingstraightbeforeher;"butremembermen'sstrengthandtheirweakness。Tremblebeforehisanger,sothathemayseeyourfearinthelightofday;butinyourheartyoumaylaugh,foraftersunsetheisyourslave。"
"Aslave!He!Themasteroflife!Youdonotknowhim,mother。"
Mrs。Almayercondescendedtolaughcontemptuously。
"Youspeaklikeafoolofawhitewoman,"sheexclaimed。"Whatdoyouknowofmen'sangerandofmen'slove?Haveyouwatchedthesleepofmenwearyofdealingdeath?Haveyoufeltaboutyouthestrongarmthatcoulddriveakrissdeepintoabeatingheart?Yah!youareawhitewoman,andoughttopraytoawoman-god!"
"Whydoyousaythis?IhavelistenedtoyourwordssolongthatIhaveforgottenmyoldlife。IfIwaswhitewouldIstandhere,readytogo?Mother,Ishallreturntothehouseandlookoncemoreatmyfather'sface。"
"No!"saidMrs。Almayer,violently。"No,hesleepsnowthesleepofgin;andifyouwentbackhemightawakeandseeyou。No,heshallneverseeyou。Whentheterribleoldmantookyouawayfrommewhenyouwerelittle,youremember——"
"Itwassuchalongtimeago,"murmuredNina。
"Iremember,"wentonMrs。Almayer,fiercely。"Iwantedtolookatyourfaceagain。Hesaidno!Iheardyoucryandjumpedintotheriver。Youwerehisdaughterthen;youaremydaughternow。
Nevershallyougobacktothathouse;youshallnevercrossthiscourtyardagain。No!no!"
Hervoicerosealmosttoashout。Ontheothersideofthecreektherewasarustleinthelonggrass。Thetwowomenheardit,andlistenedforawhileinstartledsilence。"Ishallgo,"saidNina,inacautiousbutintensewhisper。"Whatisyourhateoryourrevengetome?"
Shemovedtowardsthehouse,Mrs。Almayerclingingtoherandtryingtopullherback。
"Stop,youshallnotgo!"shegasped。
Ninapushedawayhermotherimpatientlyandgatheredupherskirtsforaquickrun,butMrs。Almayerranforwardandturnedround,facingherdaughterwithoutstretchedarms。
"Ifyoumoveanotherstep,"sheexclaimed,breathingquickly,"I
shallcryout。Doyouseethoselightsinthebighouse?
Theresittwowhitemen,angrybecausetheycannothavethebloodofthemanyoulove。Andinthosedarkhouses,"shecontinued,morecalmlyasshepointedtowardsthesettlement,"myvoicecouldwakeupmenthatwouldleadtheOrangBlandasoldierstohimwhoiswaiting——foryou。"
Shecouldnotseeherdaughter'sface,butthewhitefigurebeforeherstoodsilentandirresoluteinthedarkness。Mrs。
Almayerpursuedheradvantage。
"Giveupyouroldlife!Forget!"shesaidinentreatingtones。
"Forgetthatyoueverlookedatawhiteface;forgettheirwords;
forgettheirthoughts。Theyspeaklies。Andtheythinkliesbecausetheydespiseusthatarebetterthantheyare,butnotsostrong。Forgettheirfriendshipandtheircontempt;forgettheirmanygods。Girl,whydoyouwanttorememberthepastwhenthereisawarriorandachiefreadytogivemanylives——hisownlife——
foroneofyoursmiles?"
Whileshespokeshepushedgentlyherdaughtertowardsthecanoes,hidingherownfear,anxiety,anddoubtunderthefloodofpassionatewordsthatleftNinanotimetothinkandnoopportunitytoprotest,evenifshehadwishedit。Butshedidnotwishitnow。Atthebottomofthatpassingdesiretolookagainatherfather'sfacetherewasnostrongaffection。Shefeltnoscruplesandnoremorseatleavingsuddenlythatmanwhosesentimenttowardsherselfshecouldnotunderstand,shecouldnotevensee。Therewasonlyaninstinctiveclingingtooldlife,tooldhabits,tooldfaces;thatfearoffinalitywhichlurksineveryhumanbreastandpreventssomanyheroismsandsomanycrimes。Foryearsshehadstoodbetweenhermotherandherfather,theonesostronginherweakness,theothersoweakwherehecouldhavebeenstrong。Betweenthosetwobeingssodissimilar,soantagonistic,shestoodwithmuteheartwonderingandangryatthefactofherownexistence。Itseemedsounreasonable,sohumiliatingtobeflungthereinthatsettlementandtoseethedaysrushbyintothepast,withoutahope,adesire,oranaimthatwouldjustifythelifeshehadtoendureinever-growingweariness。Shehadlittlebeliefandnosympathyforherfather'sdreams;butthesavageravingsofhermotherchancedtostrikearesponsivechord,deepdownsomewhereinherdespairingheart;andshedreameddreamsofherownwiththepersistentabsorptionofacaptivethinkingoflibertywithinthewallsofhisprisoncell。WiththecomingofDainshefoundtheroadtofreedombyobeyingthevoiceofthenew-bornimpulses,andwithsurprisedjoyshethoughtshecouldreadinhiseyestheanswertoallthequestioningsofherheart。Sheunderstoodnowthereasonandtheaimoflife;andinthetriumphantunveilingofthatmysteryshethrewawaydisdainfullyherpastwithitssadthoughts,itsbitterfeelings,anditsfaintaffections,nowwitheredanddeadincontactwithherfiercepassion。
Mrs。AlmayerunmooredNina'sowncanoeand,straighteningherselfpainfully,stood,painterinhand,lookingatherdaughter。
"Quick,"shesaid;"getawaybeforethemoonrises,whiletheriverisdark。IamafraidofAbdulla'sslaves。Thewretchesprowlinthenightoften,andmightseeandfollowyou。Therearetwopaddlesinthecanoe。"
Ninaapproachedhermotherandhesitatinglytouchedlightlywithherlipsthewrinkledforehead。Mrs。Almayersnortedcontemptuouslyinprotestagainstthattendernesswhichshe,nevertheless,fearedcouldbecontagious。
"ShallIeverseeyouagain,mother?"murmuredNina。
"No,"saidMrs。Almayer,afterashortsilence。"Whyshouldyoureturnherewhereitismyfatetodie?Youwilllivefarawayinsplendourandmight。WhenIhearofwhitemendrivenfromtheislands,thenIshallknowthatyouarealive,andthatyouremembermywords。"
"Ishallalwaysremember,"returnedNina,earnestly;"butwhereismypower,andwhatcanIdo?"
"Donotlethimlooktoolonginyoureyes,norlayhisheadonyourkneeswithoutremindinghimthatmenshouldfightbeforetheyrest。Andifhelingers,givehimhiskrissyourselfandbidhimgo,asthewifeofamightyprinceshoulddowhentheenemiesarenear。Lethimslaythewhitementhatcometoustotrade,withprayersontheirlipsandloadedgunsintheirhands。
Ah!"——sheendedwithasigh——"theyareoneverysea,andoneveryshore;andtheyareverymany!"
Sheswungthebowofthecanoetowardstheriver,butdidnotletgothegunwale,keepingherhandonitinirresolutethoughtfulness。
Ninaputthepointofthepaddleagainstthebank,readytoshoveoffintothestream。
"Whatisit,mother?"sheasked,inalowvoice。"Doyouhearanything?"
"No,"saidMrs。Almayer,absently。"Listen,Nina,"shecontinued,abruptly,afteraslightpause,"inafteryearstherewillbeotherwomen——"
Astifledcryintheboatinterruptedher,andthepaddlerattledinthecanoeasitslippedfromNina'shands,whichsheputoutinaprotestinggesture。Mrs。Almayerfellonherkneesonthebankandleanedoverthegunwalesoastobringherownfaceclosetoherdaughter's。
"Therewillbeotherwomen,"sherepeatedfirmly;"Itellyouthat,becauseyouarehalfwhite,andmayforgetthatheisagreatchief,andthatsuchthingsmustbe。Hideyouranger,anddonotlethimseeonyourfacethepainthatwilleatyourheart。Meethimwithjoyinyoureyesandwisdomonyourlips,fortoyouhewillturninsadnessorindoubt。Aslongashelooksuponmanywomenyourpowerwilllast,butshouldtherebeone,oneonlywithwhomheseemstoforgetyou,then——"
"Icouldnotlive,"exclaimedNina,coveringherfacewithbothherhands。"Donotspeakso,mother;itcouldnotbe。"
"Then,"wentonMrs。Almayer,steadily,"tothatwoman,Nina,shownomercy。"
Shemovedthecanoedowntowardsthestreambythegunwale,andgrippeditwithbothherhands,thebowpointingintotheriver。
"Areyoucrying?"sheaskedsternlyofherdaughter,whosatstillwithcoveredface。"Arise,andtakeyourpaddle,forhehaswaitedlongenough。Andremember,Nina,nomercy;andifyoumuststrike,strikewithasteadyhand。"
Sheputoutallherstrength,andswingingherbodyoverthewater,shotthelightcraftfarintothestream。WhensherecoveredherselffromtheeffortshetriedvainlytocatchaglimpseofthecanoethatseemedtohavedissolvedsuddenlyintothewhitemisttrailingovertheheatedwatersofthePantai。
Afterlisteningforawhileintentlyonherknees,Mrs。Almayerrosewithadeepsigh,whiletwotearswanderedslowlydownherwitheredcheeks。Shewipedthemoffquicklywithawispofhergreyhairasifashamedofherself,butcouldnotstifleanotherloudsigh,forherheartwasheavyandshesufferedmuch,beingunusedtotenderemotions。Thistimeshefanciedshehadheardafaintnoise,liketheechoofherownsigh,andshestopped,strainingherearstocatchtheslightestsound,andpeeringapprehensivelytowardsthebushesnearher。
"Whoisthere?"sheasked,inanunsteadyvoice,whileherimaginationpeopledthesolitudeoftheriversidewithghost-likeforms。"Whoisthere?"sherepeatedfaintly。
Therewasnoanswer:onlythevoiceoftherivermurmuringinsadmonotonebehindthewhiteveilseemedtoswelllouderforamoment,todieawayagaininasoftwhisperofeddieswashingagainstthebank。
Mrs。Almayershookherheadasifinanswertoherownthoughts,andwalkedquicklyawayfromthebushes,lookingtotherightandleftwatchfully。Shewentstraighttowardsthecooking-shed,observingthattheembersofthefirethereglowedmorebrightlythanusual,asifsomebodyhadbeenaddingfreshfueltothefiresduringtheevening。Assheapproached,Babalatchi,whohadbeensquattinginthewarmglow,roseandmetherintheshadowoutside。
"Isshegone?"askedtheanxiousstatesman,hastily。
"Yes,"answeredMrs。Almayer。"Whatarethewhitemendoing?
Whendidyouleavethem?"
"Theyaresleepingnow,Ithink。Maytheyneverwake!"exclaimedBabalatchi,fervently。"Oh!buttheyaredevils,andmademuchtalkandtroubleoverthatcarcase。Thechiefthreatenedmetwicewithhishand,andsaidhewouldhavemetieduptoatree。
Tiemeuptoatree!Me!"herepeated,strikinghisbreastviolently。
Mrs。Almayerlaughedtauntingly。
"Andyousalaamedandaskedformercy。MenwitharmsbytheirsideactedotherwisewhenIwasyoung。"
"Andwherearethey,themenofyouryouth?Youmadwoman!"
retortedBabalatchi,angrily。"KilledbytheDutch。Aha!
ButI
shalllivetodeceivethem。Amanknowswhentofightandwhentotellpeacefullies。Youwouldknowthatifyouwerenotawoman。"
ButMrs。Almayerdidnotseemtohearhim。Withbentbodyandoutstretchedarmsheappearedtobelisteningtosomenoisebehindtheshed。
"Therearestrangesounds,"shewhispered,withevidentalarm。
"Ihaveheardintheairthesoundsofgrief,asofasighandweeping。Thatwasbytheriverside。AndnowagainIheard——"
"Where?"askedBabalatchi,inanalteredvoice。"Whatdidyouhear?"
"Closehere。Itwaslikeabreathlongdrawn。IwishIhadburntthepaperoverthebodybeforeitwasburied。"
"Yes,"assentedBabalatchi。"Butthewhitemenhadhimthrownintoaholeatonce。Youknowhefoundhisdeathontheriver,"
headdedcheerfully,"andhisghostmayhailthecanoes,butwouldleavethelandalone。"
Mrs。Almayer,whohadbeencraninghernecktolookroundthecorneroftheshed,drewbackherhead。
"Thereisnobodythere,"shesaid,reassured。"IsitnottimefortheRajahwar-canoetogototheclearing?"
"Ihavebeenwaitingforithere,forImyselfmustgo,"
explainedBabalatchi。"IthinkIwillgooverandseewhatmakesthemlate。Whenwillyoucome?TheRajahgivesyourefuge。"
"Ishallpaddleoverbeforethebreakofday。Icannotleavemydollarsbehind,"mutteredMrs。Almayer。
Theyseparated。Babalatchicrossedthecourtyardtowardsthecreektogethiscanoe,andMrs。Almayerwalkedslowlytothehouse,ascendedtheplankway,andpassingthroughthebackverandahenteredthepassageleadingtothefrontofthehouse;
butbeforegoinginsheturnedinthedoorwayandlookedbackattheemptyandsilentcourtyard,nowlitupbytheraysoftherisingmoon。Nosoonershehaddisappeared,however,thanavagueshapeflittedoutfromamongstthestalksofthebananaplantation,dartedoverthemoonlitspace,andfellinthedarknessatthefootoftheverandah。Itmighthavebeentheshadowofadrivingcloud,sonoiselessandrapidwasitspassage,butforthetrailofdisturbedgrass,whosefeatheryheadstrembledandswayedforalongtimeinthemoonlightbeforetheyrestedmotionlessandgleaming,likeadesignofsilverspraysembroideredonasombrebackground。
Mrs。Almayerlightedthecocoanutlamp,andliftingcautiouslytheredcurtain,gazeduponherhusband,shadingthelightwithherhand。
Almayer,huddledupinthechair,oneofhisarmshangingdown,theotherthrownacrossthelowerpartofhisfaceasiftowardoffaninvisibleenemy,hislegsstretchedstraightout,sleptheavily,unconsciousoftheunfriendlyeyesthatlookeduponhimindisparagingcriticism。Athisfeetlaytheoverturnedtable,amongstawreckofcrockeryandbrokenbottles。Theappearanceasoftracesleftbyadesperatestrugglewasaccentuatedbythechairs,whichseemedtohavebeenscatteredviolentlyallovertheplace,andnowlayabouttheverandahwithalamentableaspectofinebrietyintheirhelplessattitudes。OnlyNina'sbigrocking-chair,standingblackandmotionlessonitshighrunners,toweredabovethechaosofdemoralisedfurniture,unflinchinglydignifiedandpatient,waitingforitsburden。
Withalastscornfullooktowardsthesleeper,Mrs。Almayerpassedbehindthecurtainintoherownroom。Acoupleofbats,encouragedbythedarknessandthepeacefulstateofaffairs,resumedtheirsilentandobliquegambolsaboveAlmayer'shead,andforalongtimetheprofoundquietofthehousewasunbroken,saveforthedeepbreathingofthesleepingmanandthefainttinkleofsilverinthehandsofthewomanpreparingforflight。
Intheincreasinglightofthemoonthathadrisennowabovethenightmist,theobjectsontheverandahcameoutstronglyoutlinedinblacksplashesofshadowwithalltheuncompromisinguglinessoftheirdisorder,andacaricatureofthesleepingAlmayerappearedonthedirtywhitewashofthewallbehindhiminagrotesquelyexaggerateddetailofattitudeandfeatureenlargedtoaheroicsize。Thediscontentedbatsdepartedinquestofdarkerplaces,andalizardcameoutinshort,nervousrushes,and,pleasedwiththewhitetable-cloth,stoppedonitinbreathlessimmobilitythatwouldhavesuggestedsuddendeathhaditnotbeenforthemelodiouscallheexchangedwithalessadventurousfriendhidingamongstthelumberinthecourtyard。
Thentheboardsinthepassagecreaked,thelizardvanished,andAlmayerstirreduneasilywithasigh:slowly,outofthesenselessannihilationofdrunkensleep,hewasreturning,throughthelandofdreams,towakingconsciousness。Almayer'sheadrolledfromshouldertoshoulderintheoppressionofhisdream;theheavenshaddescendeduponhimlikeaheavymantle,andtrailedinstarredfoldsfarunderhim。Starsabove,starsallroundhim;andfromthestarsunderhisfeetroseawhisperfullofentreatiesandtears,andsorrowfulfacesflittedamongsttheclustersoflightfillingtheinfinitespacebelow。Howescapefromtheimportunityoflamentablecriesandfromthelookofstaring,sadeyesinthefaceswhichpressedroundhimtillhegaspedforbreathunderthecrushingweightofworldsthathungoverhisachingshoulders?Getaway!Buthow?Ifheattemptedtomovehewouldstepoffintonothing,andperishinthecrashingfallofthatuniverseofwhichhewastheonlysupport。
Andwhatwerethevoicessaying?Urginghimtomove!Why?
Movetodestruction!Notlikely!Theabsurdityofthethingfilledhimwithindignation。Hegotafirmerfootholdandstiffenedhismusclesinheroicresolvetocarryhisburdentoalleternity。
Andagespassedinthesuperhumanlabour,amidsttherushofcirclingworlds;intheplaintivemurmurofsorrowfulvoicesurginghimtodesistbeforeitwastoolate——tillthemysteriouspowerthathadlaiduponhimthegianttaskseemedatlasttoseekhisdestruction。Withterrorhefeltanirresistiblehandshakinghimbytheshoulder,whilethechorusofvoicesswelledlouderintoanagonisedprayertogo,gobeforeitistoolate。
Hefelthimselfslipping,losinghisbalance,assomethingdraggedathislegs,andhefell。Withafaintcryheglidedoutoftheanguishofperishingcreationintoanimperfectwakingthatseemedtobestillunderthespellofhisdream。
"What?What?"hemurmuredsleepily,withoutmovingoropeninghiseyes。Hisheadstillfeltheavy,andhehadnotthecouragetoraisehiseyelids。Inhisearstherestilllingeredthesoundofentreatingwhisper。——"AmIawake?——WhydoIhearthevoices?"
hearguedtohimself,hazily。——"Icannotgetridofthehorriblenightmareyet。——Ihavebeenverydrunk。——Whatisthatshakingme?
Iamdreamingyet——Imustopenmyeyesandbedonewithit。I
amonlyhalfawake,itisevident。"
Hemadeanefforttoshakeoffhisstuporandsawafaceclosetohis,glaringathimwithstaringeyeballs。Heclosedhiseyesagaininamazedhorrorandsatupstraightinthechair,tremblingineverylimb。Whatwasthisapparition?——Hisownfancy,nodoubt。——Hisnerveshadbeenmuchtriedthedaybefore——andthenthedrink!Hewouldnotseeitagainifhehadthecouragetolook。——Hewouldlookdirectly。——Getalittlesteadierfirst。——So。——Now。
Helooked。Thefigureofawomanstandinginthesteelylight,herhandsstretchedforthinasuppliantgesture,confrontedhimfromthefar-offendoftheverandah;andinthespacebetweenhimandtheobstinatephantomfloatedthemurmurofwordsthatfellonhisearsinajumbleoftorturingsentences,themeaningofwhichescapedtheutmosteffortsofhisbrain。WhospoketheMalaywords?Whoranaway?Whytoolate——andtoolateforwhat?
Whatmeantthosewordsofhateandlovemixedsostrangelytogether,theever-recurringnamesfallingonhisearsagainandagain——Nina,Dain;Dain,Nina?Dainwasdead,andNinawassleeping,unawareoftheterribleexperiencethroughwhichhewasnowpassing。Washegoingtobetormentedforever,sleepingorwaking,andhavenopeaceeithernightorday?Whatwasthemeaningofthis?
Heshoutedthelastwordsaloud。Theshadowywomanseemedtoshrinkandrecedealittlefromhimtowardsthedoorway,andtherewasashriek。Exasperatedbytheincomprehensiblenatureofhistorment,Almayermadearushupontheapparition,whicheludedhisgrasp,andhebroughtupheavilyagainstthewall。
Quickaslightningheturnedroundandpursuedfiercelythemysteriousfigurefleeingfromhimwithpiercingshrieksthatwerelikefueltotheflamesofhisanger。Overthefurniture,roundtheoverturnedtable,andnowhehaditcorneredbehindNina'schair。Totheleft,totherighttheydodged,thechairrockingmadlybetweenthem,shesendingoutshriekaftershriekateveryfeint,andhegrowlingmeaninglesscursesthroughhishardsetteeth。"Oh!thefiendishnoisethatsplithisheadandseemedtochokehisbreath。——Itwouldkillhim。——Itmustbestopped!"Aninsanedesiretocrushthatyellingthinginducedhimtocasthimselfrecklesslyoverthechairwithadesperategrab,andtheycamedowntogetherinacloudofdustamongstthesplinteredwood。Thelastshriekdiedoutunderhiminafaintgurgle,andhehadsecuredthereliefofabsolutesilence。
Helookedatthewoman'sfaceunderhim。Arealwoman!Heknewher。Byallthatiswonderful!Taminah!Hejumpedupashamedofhisfuryandstoodperplexed,wipinghisforehead。Thegirlstruggledtoakneelingpostureandembracedhislegsinafrenziedprayerformercy。
"Don'tbeafraid,"hesaid,raisingher。"Ishallnothurtyou。
Whydoyoucometomyhouseinthenight?Andifyouhadtocome,whynotgobehindthecurtainwherethewomensleep?"
"Theplacebehindthecurtainisempty,"gaspedTaminah,catchingherbreathbetweenthewords。"Therearenowomeninyourhouseanymore,Tuan。IsawtheoldMemgoawaybeforeItriedtowakeyou。Ididnotwantyourwomen,Iwantedyou。"
"OldMem!"repeatedAlmayer。"Doyoumeanmywife?"
Shenoddedherhead。
"Butofmydaughteryouarenotafraid?"saidAlmayer。
"Haveyounotheardme?"sheexclaimed。"HaveInotspokenforalongtimewhenyoulaytherewitheyeshalfopen?Sheisgonetoo。"
"Iwasasleep。Canyounottellwhenamanissleepingandwhenawake?"
"Sometimes,"answeredTaminahinalowvoice;"sometimesthespiritlingersclosetoasleepingbodyandmayhear。IspokealongtimebeforeItouchedyou,andIspokesoftlyforfearitwoulddepartatasuddennoiseandleaveyousleepingforever。
ItookyoubytheshoulderonlywhenyoubegantomutterwordsI
couldnotunderstand。Haveyounotheard,then,anddoyouknownothing?"
"Nothingofwhatyousaid。Whatisit?Tellagainifyouwantmetoknow。"
Hetookherbytheshoulderandledherunresistingtothefrontoftheverandahintoastrongerlight。Shewrungherhandswithsuchanappearanceofgriefthathebegantobealarmed。
"Speak,"hesaid。"Youmadenoiseenoughtowakeevendeadmen。
Andyetnobodylivingcame,"headdedtohimselfinanuneasywhisper。"Areyoumute?Speak!"herepeated。
InarushofwordswhichbrokeoutafterashortstrugglefromhertremblinglipsshetoldhimthetaleofNina'sloveandherownjealousy。Severaltimeshelookedangrilyintoherfaceandtoldhertobesilent;buthecouldnotstopthesoundsthatseemedtohimtorunoutinahotstream,swirlabouthisfeet,andriseinscaldingwavesabouthim,higher,higher,drowninghisheart,touchinghislipswithafeelofmoltenlead,blottingouthissightinscorchingvapour,closingoverhishead,mercilessanddeadly。WhenshespokeofthedeceptionastoDain'sdeathofwhichhehadbeenthevictimonlythatday,heglancedagainatherwithterribleeyes,andmadeherfalterforasecond,butheturnedawaydirectly,andhisfacesuddenlylostallexpressioninastonystarefarawayovertheriver。Ah!theriver!Hisoldfriendandhisoldenemy,speakingalwayswiththesamevoiceasherunsfromyeartoyearbringingfortuneordisappointmenthappinessorpain,uponthesamevaryingbutunchangedsurfaceofglancingcurrentsandswirlingeddies。Formanyyearshehadlistenedtothepassionlessandsoothingmurmurthatsometimeswasthesongofhope,attimesthesongoftriumph,ofencouragement;moreoftenthewhisperofconsolationthatspokeofbetterdaystocome。Forsomanyyears!Somanyyears!Andnowtotheaccompanimentofthatmurmurhelistenedtotheslowandpainfulbeatingofhisheart。Helistenedattentively,wonderingattheregularityofitsbeats。Hebegantocountmechanically。One,two。Whycount?Atthenextbeatitmuststop。Noheartcouldsuffersoandbeatsosteadilyforlong。Thoseregularstrokesasofamuffledhammerthatranginhisearsmuststopsoon。Stillbeatingunceasingandcruel。
Nomancanbearthis;andisthisthelast,orwillthenextonebethelast?——Howmuchlonger?OGod!howmuchlonger?Hishandweighedheavierunconsciouslyonthegirl'sshoulder,andshespokethelastwordsofherstorycrouchingathisfeetwithtearsofpainandshameandanger。Washerrevengetofailher?
Thiswhitemanwaslikeasenselessstone。Toolate!Toolate!
"Andyousawhergo?"Almayer'svoicesoundedharshlyaboveherhead。
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