首页 >出版文学> Original Short Stories>第34章
  Abellrang;itwasfordinner,andIwentdownstairs.MadameRadevintookmyarminaceremoniousmanner,andwepassedintothedining—room.
  Afootmanwheeledintheoldmaninhisarmchair.Hegaveagreedyandcuriouslookatthedessert,asheturnedhisshakingheadwithdifficultyfromonedishtotheother.
  Simonrubbedhishands:"Youwillbeamused,"hesaid;andallthechildrenunderstandingthatIwasgoingtobeindulgedwiththesightoftheirgreedygrandfather,begantolaugh,whiletheirmothermerelysmiledandshruggedhershoulders,andSimon,makingaspeakingtrumpetofhishands,shoutedattheoldman:"Thiseveningthereissweetcreamedrice!"Thewrinkledfaceofthegrandfatherbrightened,andhetrembledmoreviolently,fromheadtofoot,showingthathehadunderstoodandwasverypleased.Thedinnerbegan.
  "Justlook!"Simonwhispered.Theoldmandidnotlikethesoup,andrefusedtoeatit;buthewasobligedtodoitforthegoodofhishealth,andthefootmanforcedthespoonintohismouth,whiletheoldmanblewsoenergetically,soasnottoswallowthesoup,thatitwasscatteredlikeasprayalloverthetableandoverhisneighbors.Thechildrenwrithedwithlaughteratthespectacle,whiletheirfather,whowasalsoamused,said:"Isnottheoldmancomical?"
  Duringthewholemealtheyweretakenupsolelywithhim.Hedevouredthedishesonthetablewithhiseyes,andtriedtoseizethemandpullthemovertohimwithhistremblinghands.Theyputthemalmostwithinhisreach,toseehisuselessefforts,histremblingclutchesatthem,thepiteousappealofhiswholenature,ofhiseyes,ofhismouthandofhisnoseashesmeltthem,andheslobberedonhistablenapkinwitheagerness,whileutteringinarticulategrunts.Andthewholefamilywashighlyamusedatthishorribleandgrotesquescene.
  Thentheyputatinymorselonhisplate,andheatewithfeverishgluttony,inordertogetsomethingmoreassoonaspossible,andwhenthesweetenedricewasbroughtin,henearlyhadafit,andgroanedwithgreediness,andGontrancalledouttohim:
  "Youhaveeatentoomuchalready;youcanhavenomore."Andtheypretendednottogivehimany.Thenhebegantocry;hecriedandtrembledmoreviolentlythanever,whileallthechildrenlaughed.
  Atlast,however,theygavehimhishelping,averysmallpiece;andasheatethefirstmouthful,hemadeacomicalnoiseinhisthroat,andamovementwithhisneckasducksdowhentheyswallowtoolargeamorsel,andwhenhehadswallowedit,hebegantostamphisfeet,soastogetmore.
  IwasseizedwithpityforthissaddeningandridiculousTantalus,andinterposedonhisbehalf:
  "Come,givehimalittlemorerice!"ButSimonreplied:"Oh!no,mydearfellow,ifheweretoeattoomuch,itwouldharmhim,athisage."
  Iheldmytongue,andthoughtoverthosewords.Oh,ethics!Oh,logic!
  Oh,wisdom!Athisage!Sotheydeprivedhimofhisonlyremainingpleasureoutofregardforhishealth!Hishealth!Whatwouldhedowithit,inertandtremblingwreckthathewas?Theyweretakingcareofhislife,sotheysaid.Hislife?Howmanydays?Ten,twenty,fifty,orahundred?Why?Forhisownsake?Ortopreserveforsometimelongerthespectacleofhisimpotentgreedinessinthefamily.
  Therewasnothingleftforhimtodointhislife,nothingwhatever.
  Hehadonesinglewishleft,onesolepleasure;whynotgranthimthatlastsolaceuntilhedied?
  Afterwehadplayedcardsforalongtime,Iwentuptomyroomandtobed;Iwaslow—spiritedandsad,sad,sad!andIsatatmywindow.Notasoundcouldbeheardoutsidebutthebeautifulwarblingofabirdinatree,somewhereinthedistance.Nodoubtthebirdwassinginginalowvoiceduringthenight,tolullhismate,whowasasleeponhereggs.
  AndIthoughtofmypoorfriend’sfivechildren,andpicturedhimtomyself,snoringbythesideofhisuglywife.
  SUICIDES
  ToGeorgesLegrand.
  Hardlyadaygoesbywithoutourreadinganewsitemlikethefollowinginsomenewspaper:
  "OnWednesdaynightthepeoplelivinginNo.40Ruede—————,wereawakenedbytwosuccessiveshots.TheexplosionsseemedtocomefromtheapartmentoccupiedbyM.X————.Thedoorwasbrokeninandthemanwasfoundbathedinhisblood,stillholdinginonehandtherevolverwithwhichhehadtakenhislife.
  "M.X————wasfifty—sevenyearsofage,enjoyingacomfortableincome,andhadeverythingnecessarytomakehimhappy.Nocausecanbefoundforhisaction."
  Whatterriblegrief,whatunknownsuffering,hiddendespair,secretwoundsdrivethesepresumablyhappypersonstosuicide?Wesearch,weimaginetragediesoflove,wesuspectfinancialtroubles,and,asweneverfindanythingdefinite,weapplytothesedeathstheword"mystery."
  Aletterfoundonthedeskofoneofthese"suicideswithoutcause,"andwrittenduringhislastnight,besidehisloadedrevolver,hascomeintoourhands.Wedeemitratherinteresting.Itrevealsnoneofthosegreatcatastropheswhichwealwaysexpecttofindbehindtheseactsofdespair;butitshowsustheslowsuccessionofthelittlevexationsoflife,thedisintegrationofalonelyexistence,whosedreamshavedisappeared;itgivesthereasonforthesetragicends,whichonlynervousandhighstrungpeoplecanunderstand.
  Hereitis:
  "Itismidnight.WhenIhavefinishedthisletterIshallkillmyself.
  Why?Ishallattempttogivethereasons,notforthosewhomayreadtheselines,butformyself,tokindlemywaningcourage,toimpressuponmyselfthefatalnecessityofthisactwhichcan,atbest,beonlydeferred.
  "Iwasbroughtupbysimple—mindedparentswhowereunquestioningbelievers.AndIbelievedastheydid.
  "Mydreamlastedalongtime.Thelastveilhasjustbeentornfrommyeyes.
  "Duringthelastfewyearsastrangechangehasbeentakingplacewithinme.AlltheeventsofLife,whichformerlyhadtometheglowofabeautifulsunset,arenowfadingaway.Thetruemeaningofthingshasappearedtomeinitsbrutalreality;andthetruereasonforlovehasbredinmedisgustevenforthispoeticsentiment:’Wearetheeternaltoysoffoolishandcharmingillusions,whicharealwaysbeingrenewed.’
  "Ongrowingolder,Ihadbecomepartlyreconciledtotheawfulmysteryoflife,totheuselessnessofeffort;whentheemptinessofeverythingappearedtomeinanewlight,thisevening,afterdinner.
  "Formerly,Iwashappy!Everythingpleasedme:thepassingwomen,theappearanceofthestreets,theplacewhereIlived;andIeventookaninterestinthecutofmyclothes.Buttherepetitionofthesamesightshashadtheresultoffillingmyheartwithwearinessanddisgust,justasonewouldfeelwereonetogoeverynighttothesametheatre.
  "ForthelastthirtyyearsIhavebeenrisingatthesamehour;and,atthesamerestaurant,forthirtyyears,Ihavebeeneatingatthesamehoursthesamedishesbroughtmebydifferentwaiters.
  "Ihavetriedtravel.Thelonelinesswhichonefeelsinstrangeplacesterrifiedme.Ifeltsoalone,sosmallontheearththatIquicklystartedonmyhomewardjourney.
  "Butheretheunchangingexpressionofmyfurniture,whichhasstoodforthirtyyearsinthesameplace,thesmellofmyapartments(for,withtime,eachdwellingtakesonaparticularodor)eachnight,theseandotherthingsdisgustmeandmakemesickoflivingthus.
  "Everythingrepeatsitselfendlessly.ThewayinwhichIputmykeyinthelock,theplacewhereIalwaysfindmymatches,thefirstobjectwhichmeetsmyeyewhenIentertheroom,makemefeellikejumpingoutofthewindowandputtinganendtothosemonotonouseventsfromwhichwecanneverescape.
  "Eachday,whenIshave,Ifeelaninordinatedesiretocutmythroat;
  andmyface,whichIseeinthelittlemirror,alwaysthesame,withsoaponmycheeks,hasseveraltimesmademeweakfromsadness.
  "NowIevenhatetobewithpeoplewhomIusedtomeetwithpleasure;I
  knowthemsowell,IcantelljustwhattheyaregoingtosayandwhatI
  amgoingtoanswer.Eachbrainislikeacircus,wherethesamehorsekeepscirclingaroundeternally.Wemustcircleroundalways,aroundthesameideas,thesamejoys,thesamepleasures,thesamehabits,thesamebeliefs,thesamesensationsofdisgust.
  "Thefogwasterriblethisevening.Itenfoldedtheboulevard,wherethestreetlightsweredimmedandlookedlikesmokingcandles.Aheavierweightthanusualoppressedme.Perhapsmydigestionwasbad.
  "Forgooddigestioniseverythinginlife.Itgivestheinspirationtotheartist,amorousdesirestoyoungpeople,clearideastothinkers,thejoyoflifetoeverybody,anditalsoallowsonetoeatheartily(whichisoneofthegreatestpleasures).Asickstomachinducesscepticismunbelief,nightmaresandthedesirefordeath.Ihaveoftennoticedthisfact.PerhapsIwouldnotkillmyself,ifmydigestionhadbeengoodthisevening.
  "WhenIsatdowninthearm—chairwhereIhavebeensittingeverydayforthirtyyears,Iglancedaroundme,andjustthenIwasseizedbysuchaterribledistressthatIthoughtImustgomad.
  "ItriedtothinkofwhatIcoulddotorunawayfrommyself.Everyoccupationstruckmeasbeingworseeventhaninaction.ThenIbethoughtmeofputtingmypapersinorder.
  "ForalongtimeIhavebeenthinkingofclearingoutmydrawers;for,forthelastthirtyyears,Ihavebeenthrowingmylettersandbillspell—mellintothesamedesk,andthisconfusionhasoftencausedmeconsiderabletrouble.ButIfeelsuchmoralandphysicallazinessatthesoleideaofputtinganythinginorderthatIhaveneverhadthecouragetobeginthistediousbusiness.
  "Ithereforeopenedmydesk,intendingtochooseamongmyoldpapersanddestroythemajorityofthem.
  "AtfirstIwasbewilderedbythisarrayofdocuments,yellowedbyage,thenIchoseone.
  "Oh!ifyoucherishlife,neverdisturbtheburialplaceofoldletters!
  "Andif,perchance,youshould,takethecontentsbythehandful,closeyoureyesthatyoumaynotreadaword,sothatyoumaynotrecognizesomeforgottenhandwritingwhichmayplungeyousuddenlyintoaseaofmemories;carrythesepaperstothefire;andwhentheyareinashes,crushthemtoaninvisiblepowder,orotherwiseyouarelost——justasI
  havebeenlostforanhour.
  "ThefirstletterswhichIreaddidnotinterestmegreatly.Theywererecent,andcamefromlivingmenwhomIstillmeetquiteoften,andwhosepresencedoesnotmovemetoanygreatextent.Butallatonceoneenvelopemademestart.Mynamewastracedonitinalarge,boldhandwriting;andsuddenlytearscametomyeyes.Thatletterwasfrommydearestfriend,thecompanionofmyyouth,theconfidantofmyhopes;andheappearedbeforemesoclearly,withhispleasantsmileandhishandoutstretched,thatacoldshiverrandownmyback.Yes,yes,thedeadcomeback,forIsawhim!Ourmemoryisamoreperfectworldthantheuniverse:itgivesbacklifetothosewhonolongerexist.
  "WithtremblinghandanddimmedeyesIrereadeverythingthathetoldme,andinmypoorsobbingheartIfeltawoundsopainfulthatIbegantogroanasamanwhosebonesareslowlybeingcrushed.
  "ThenItravelledovermywholelife,justasonetravelsalongariver.
  Irecognizedpeople,solongforgottenthatInolongerknewtheirnames.
  Theirfacesalonelivedinme.Inmymother’slettersIsawagaintheoldservants,theshapeofourhouseandthelittleinsignificantoddsandendswhichclingtoourminds.
  "Yes,Isuddenlysawagainallmymother’soldgowns,thedifferentstyleswhichsheadoptedandtheseveralwaysinwhichshedressedherhair.Shehauntedmeespeciallyinasilkdress,trimmedwitholdlace;
  andIrememberedsomethingshesaidonedaywhenshewaswearingthisdress.Shesaid:’Robert,mychild,ifyoudonotstandupstraightyouwillberound—shoulderedallyourlife.’
  "Then,openinganotherdrawer,Ifoundmyselffacetofacewithmemoriesoftenderpassions:adancing—pump,atornhandkerchief,evenagarter,locksofhairanddriedflowers.Thenthesweetromancesofmylife,whoselivingheroinesarenowwhite—haired,plungedmeintothedeepmelancholyofthings.Oh,theyoungbrowswhereblondlockscurl,thecaressofthehands,theglancewhichspeaks,theheartswhichbeat,thatsmilewhichpromisesthelips,thoselipswhichpromisetheembrace!
  Andthefirstkiss—thatendlesskisswhichmakesyoucloseyoureyes,whichdrownsallthoughtintheimmeasurablejoyofapproachingpossession!
  "Takingtheseoldpledgesofformerloveinbothmyhands,Icoveredthemwithfuriouscaresses,andinmysoul,tornbythesememories,Isawthemeachagainatthehourofsurrender;andIsufferedatorturemorecruelthanallthetorturesinventedinallthefablesabouthell.
  "Onelastletterremained.Itwaswrittenbymeanddictatedfiftyyearsagobymywritingteacher.Hereitis:
  "’MYDEARLITTLEMAMMA:
  "’Iamsevenyearsoldto—day.Itistheageofreason.Itakeadvantageofittothankyouforhavingbroughtmeintothisworld.
  "’Yourlittleson,wholovesyou"’ROBERT.’
  "Itisallover.Ihadgonebacktothebeginning,andsuddenlyIturnedmyglanceonwhatremainedtomeoflife.Isawhideousandlonelyoldage,andapproachinginfirmities,andeverythingoverandgone.Andnobodynearme!
  "Myrevolverishere,onthetable.IamloadingitNeverrereadyouroldletters!"
  Andthatishowmanymencometokillthemselves;andwesearchinvaintodiscoversomegreatsorrowintheirlives.
  ANARTIFICE
  Theolddoctorsatbythefireside,talkingtohisfairpatientwhowaslyingonthelounge.Therewasnothingmuchthematterwithher,exceptthatshehadoneofthoselittlefeminineailmentsfromwhichprettywomenfrequentlysuffer——slightanaemia,anervousattack,etc.
  "No,doctor,"shesaid;"Ishallneverbeabletounderstandawomandeceivingherhusband.Evenallowingthatshedoesnotlovehim,thatshepaysnoheedtohervowsandpromises,howcanshegiveherselftoanotherman?Howcansheconcealtheintriguefromotherpeople’seyes?
  Howcanitbepossibletoloveamidliesandtreason?"
  Thedoctorsmiled,andreplied:"Itisperfectlyeasy,andIcanassureyouthatawomandoesnotthinkofallthoselittlesubtledetailswhenshehasmadeuphermindtogoastray.
  "Asfordissimulation,allwomenhaveplentyofitonhandforsuchoccasions,andthesimplestofthemarewonderful,andextricatethemselvesfromthegreatestdilemmasinaremarkablemanner."
  Theyoungwoman,however,seemedincredulous.
  "No,doctor,"shesaid;"oneneverthinksuntilafterithashappenedofwhatoneoughttohavedoneinacriticalsituation,andwomenarecertainlymoreliablethanmentolosetheirheadonsuchoccasions:"
  Thedoctorraisedhishands."Afterithashappened,yousay!NowI
  willtellyousomethingthathappenedtooneofmyfemalepatients,whomIalwaysconsideredanimmaculatewoman.
  "Ithappenedinaprovincialtown,andonenightwhenIwasasleep,inthatdeepfirstsleepfromwhichitissodifficulttorouseus,itseemedtome,inmydreams,asifthebellsinthetownweresoundingafirealarm,andIwokeupwithastart.Itwasmyownbell,whichwasringingwildly,andasmyfootmandidnotseemtobeansweringthedoor,I,inturn,pulledthebellattheheadofmybed,andsoonIheardabanging,andstepsinthesilenthouse,andJeancameintomyroom,andhandedmealetterwhichsaid:’MadameLelievrebegsDr.Simeontocometoherimmediately.’
  "Ithoughtforafewmoments,andthenIsaidtomyself:’Anervousattack,vapors;nonsense,Iamtootired.’AndsoIreplied:’AsDr.
  Simeonisnotatallwell,hemustbegMadameLelievretobekindenoughtocallinhiscolleague,MonsieurBonnet.’Iputthenoteintoanenvelopeandwenttosleepagain,butabouthalfanhourlaterthestreetbellrangagain,andJeancametomeandsaid:’Thereissomebodydownstairs;Idonotquiteknowwhetheritisamanorawoman,astheindividualissowrappedup,buttheywishtospeaktoyouimmediately.
  Theysayitisamatteroflifeanddeathfortwopeople.’WhereuponI
  satupinbedandtoldhimtoshowthepersonin.
  "AkindofblackphantomappearedandraisedherveilassoonasJeanhadlefttheroom.ItwasMadameBertheLelievre,quiteayoungwoman,whohadbeenmarriedforthreeyearstoalargeamerchantinthetown,whowassaidtohavemarriedtheprettiestgirlintheneighborhood.
  "Shewasterriblypale,herfacewascontractedasthefacesofinsanepeopleare,occasionally,andherhandstrembledviolently.Twiceshetriedtospeakwithoutbeingabletoutterasound,butatlastshestammeredout:’Come——quick——quick,doctor.Come——my——friendhasjustdiedinmybedroom.’Shestopped,halfsuffocatedwithemotion,andthenwenton:’Myhusbandwillbecominghomefromtheclubverysoon.’
  "IjumpedoutofbedwithoutevenconsideringthatIwasonlyinmynightshirt,anddressedmyselfinafewmoments,andthenIsaid:’Didyoucomeashorttimeago?’’No,’shesaid,standinglikeastatuepetrifiedwithhorror.’Itwasmyservant——sheknows.’Andthen,afterashortsilence,shewenton:’Iwasthere——byhisside.’Andsheutteredasortofcryofhorror,andafterafitofchoking,whichmadehergasp,sheweptviolently,andshookwithspasmodicsobsforaminute:
  ortwo.Thenhertearssuddenlyceased,asifbyaninternalfire,andwithanairoftragiccalmness,shesaid:’Letusmakehaste.’
  "Iwasready,butexclaimed:’Iquiteforgottoordermycarriage.’
  ’Ihaveone,’shesaid;’itishis,whichwaswaitingforhim!’Shewrappedherselfup,soastocompletelyconcealherface,andwestarted.
  "Whenshewasbymysideinthecarriageshesuddenlyseizedmyhand,andcrushingitinherdelicatefingers,shesaid,withashakingvoice,thatproceededfromadistractedheart:’Oh!ifyouonlyknew,ifyouonlyknewwhatIamsuffering!Ilovedhim,Ihavelovedhimdistractedly,likeamadwoman,forthelastsixmonths.’’Isanyoneupinyourhouse?’
  Iasked.’No,nobodyexceptthose,whoknowseverything.’
  "Westoppedatthedoor,andevidentlyeverybodywasasleep.Wewentinwithoutmakinganynoise,bymeansofherlatch—key,andwalkedupstairsontiptoe.Thefrightenedservantwassittingonthetopofthestairswithalightedcandlebyherside,asshewasafraidtoremainwiththedeadman,andIwentintotheroom,whichwasingreatdisorder.Wettowels,withwhichtheyhadbathedtheyoungman’stemples,werelyingonthefloor,bythesideofawashbasinandaglass,whileastrongsmellofvinegarpervadedtheroom.
  "Thedeadman’sbodywaslyingatfulllengthinthemiddleoftheroom,andIwentuptoit,lookedatit,andtouchedit.Iopenedtheeyesandfeltthehands,andthen,turningtothetwowomen,whowereshakingasiftheywerefreezing,Isaidtothem:’Helpmetolifthimontothebed.’Whenwehadlaidhimgentlyonit,Ilistenedtohisheartandputalooking—glasstohislips,andthensaid:’Itisallover.’Itwasaterriblesight!
  "Ilookedattheman,andsaid:’Yououghttoarrangehishairalittle.’
  Thegirlwentandbroughthermistress’combandbrush,butasshewastrembling,andpullingouthislong,mattedhairindoingit,MadameLelievretookthecomboutofherhand,andarrangedhishairasifshewerecaressinghim.Shepartedit,brushedhisbeard,rolledhismustachesgentlyroundherfingers,then,suddenly,lettinggoofhishair,shetookthedeadman’sinertheadinherhandsandlookedforalongtimeindespairatthedeadface,whichnolongercouldsmileather,andthen,throwingherselfonhim,sheclaspedhiminherarmsandkissedhimardently.Herkissesfelllikeblowsonhisclosedmouthandeyes,hisforeheadandtemples;andthen,puttingherlipstohisear,asifhecouldstillhearher,andasifshewereabouttowhispersomethingtohim,shesaidseveraltimes,inaheartrendingvoice:
  ’Good—by,mydarling!’
  "Justthentheclockstrucktwelve,andIstartedup.’Twelveo’clock!’
  Iexclaimed.’Thatisthetimewhentheclubcloses.Come,madame,wehavenotamomenttolose!’Shestartedup,andIsaid:
  ’Wemustcarryhimintothedrawing—room.’Andwhenwehaddonethis,Iplacedhimonasofa,andlitthechandeliers,andjustthenthefrontdoorwasopenedandshutnoisily.’Rose,bringmethebasinandthetowels,andmaketheroomlooktidy.Makehaste,forHeaven’ssake!
  MonsieurLelievreiscomingin.’
  "Iheardhisstepsonthestairs,andthenhishandsfeelingalongthewalls.’Comehere,mydearfellow,’Isaid;’wehavehadanaccident.’
  "Andtheastonishedhusbandappearedinthedoorwithacigarinhismouth,andsaid:’Whatisthematter?Whatisthemeaningofthis?’
  ’Mydearfriend,’Isaid,goinguptohim,’youfindusingreatembarrassment.Ihadremainedlate,chattingwithyourwifeandourfriend,whohadbroughtmeinhiscarriage,whenhesuddenlyfainted,andinspiteofallwehavedone,hehasremainedunconsciousfortwohours.
  Ididnotliketocallinstrangers,andifyouwillnowhelpmedownstairswithhim,Ishallbeabletoattendtohimbetterathisownhouse.’
  "Thehusband,whowassurprised,butquiteunsuspicious,tookoffhishat,andthenhetookhisrival,whowouldbequiteinoffensiveforthefuture,underthearms.Igotbetweenhistwolegs,asifIhadbeenahorsebetweentheshafts,andwewentdownstairs,whilehiswifeheldalightforus.WhenwegotoutsideIstoodthebodyup,soastodeceivethecoachman,andsaid:’Come,myfriend;itisnothing;youfeelbetteralreadyIexpect.Pluckupyourcourage,andmakeaneffort.Itwillsoonbeover.’ButasIfeltthathewasslippingoutofmyhands,I
  gavehimaslapontheshoulder,whichsenthimforwardandmadehimfallintothecarriage,andthenIgotinafterhim.MonsieurLelievre,whowasratheralarmed,saidtome:’Doyouthinkitisanythingserious?’
  TowhichIreplied:’No,’withasmile,asIlookedathiswife,whohadputherarmintothatofherhusband,andwastryingtoseeintothecarriage.
  "Ishookhandswiththemandtoldmycoachmantostart,andduringthewholedrivethedeadmankeptfallingagainstme.WhenwegottohishouseIsaidthathehadbecomeunconsciousonthewayhome,andhelpedtocarryhimupstairs,whereIcertifiedthathewasdead,andactedanothercomedytohisdistractedfamily,andatlastIgotbacktobed,notwithoutswearingatlovers."
  Thedoctorceased,thoughhewasstillsmiling,andtheyoungwoman,whowasinaverynervousstate,said:"Whyhaveyoutoldmethatterriblestory?"
  Hegaveheragallantbow,andreplied:
  "SothatImayofferyoumyservicesiftheyshouldbeneeded."
  DREAMS
  Theyhadjustdinedtogether,fiveoldfriends,awriter,adoctorandthreerichbachelorswithoutanyprofession.
  Theyhadtalkedabouteverything,andafeelingoflassitudecameoverthem,thatfeelingwhichprecedesandleadstothedepartureofguestsafterfestivegatherings.Oneofthosepresent,whohadforthelastfiveminutesbeengazingsilentlyatthesurgingboulevarddottedwithgas—lamps,withitsrattlingvehicles,saidsuddenly:
  "Whenyou’venothingtodofrommorningtillnight,thedaysarelong."
  "Andthenightstoo,"assentedtheguestwhosatnexttohim."Isleepverylittle;pleasuresfatigueme;conversationismonotonous.NeverdoIcomeacrossanewidea,andIfeel,beforetalkingtoanyone,aviolentlongingtosaynothingandtolistentonothing.Idon’tknowwhattodowithmyevenings."
  Thethirdidlerremarked:
  "Iwouldpayagreatdealforanythingthatwouldhelpmetopassjusttwopleasanthourseveryday."
  Thewriter,whohadjustthrownhisovercoatacrosshisarm,turnedroundtothem,andsaid:
  "Themanwhocoulddiscoveranewviceandintroduceitamonghisfellowcreatures,evenifitweretoshortentheirlives,wouldrenderagreaterservicetohumanitythanthemanwhofoundthemeansofsecuringtothemeternalsalvationandeternalyouth."
  Thedoctorburstoutlaughing,and,whilehechewedhiscigar,hesaid:
  "Yes,butitisnotsoeasytodiscoverit.Menhavehowevercrudely,beenseekingfor——andworkingfortheobjectyourefertosincethebeginningoftheworld.Themenwhocamefirstreachedperfectionatonceinthisway.Wearehardlyequaltothem."
  Oneofthethreeidlersmurmured:
  "Whatapity!"
  Then,afteraminute’spause,headded:
  "Ifwecouldonlysleep,sleepwell,withoutfeelinghotorcold,sleepwiththatperfectunconsciousnessweexperienceonnightswhenwearethoroughlyfatigued,sleepwithoutdreams."
  "Whywithoutdreams?"askedtheguestsittingnexttohim.
  Theotherreplied:
  "Becausedreamsarenotalwayspleasant;theyarealwaysfantastic,improbable,disconnected;andbecausewhenweareasleepwecannothavethesortofdreamswelike.Weoughttodreamwaking."
  "Andwhat’stopreventyou?"askedthewriter.
  Thedoctorflungawaytheendofhiscigar.
  "Mydearfellow,inordertodreamwhenyouareawake,youneedgreatpowerandgreatexerciseofwill,andwhenyoutrytodoit,greatwearinessistheresult.Now,realdreaming,thatjourneyofourthoughtsthroughdelightfulvisions,isassuredlythesweetestexperienceintheworld;butitmustcomenaturally,itmustnotbeprovokedinapainful,manner,andmustbeaccompaniedbyabsolutebodilycomfort.
  ThispowerofdreamingIcangiveyou,providedyoupromisethatyouwillnotabuseit."
  Thewritershruggedhisshoulders:
  "Ah!yes,Iknow——hasheesh,opium,greentea——artificialparadises.
  IhavereadBaudelaire,andIeventastedthefamousdrug,whichmademeverysick."
  Butthedoctor,withoutstirringfromhisseat,said:
  "No;ether,nothingbutether;andIwouldsuggestthatyouliterarymenshoulduseitsometimes."
  Thethreerichbachelorsdrewclosertothedoctor.
  Oneofthemsaid:
  "Explaintoustheeffectsofit."
  Andthedoctorreplied:
  "Letusputasidebigwords,shallwenot?Iamnottalkingofmedicineormorality;Iamtalkingofpleasure.Yougiveyourselvesupeverydaytoexcesseswhichconsumeyourlives.Iwanttoindicatetoyouanewsensation,possibleonlytointelligentmen——letussayevenveryintelligentmen——dangerous,likeeverythingelsethatoverexcitesourorgans,butexquisite.Imightaddthatyouwouldrequireacertainpreparation,thatistosay,practice,tofeelinalltheircompletenessthesingulareffectsofether.
  "Theyaredifferentfromtheeffectsofhasheesh,ofopium,ormorphia,andtheyceaseassoonastheabsorptionofthedrugisinterrupted,whiletheothergeneratorsofdaydreamscontinuetheiractionforhours.
  "Iamnowgoingtotrytoanalyzethesefeelingsasclearlyaspossible.
  Butthethingisnoteasy,sofacile,sodelicate,soalmostimperceptible,arethesesensations.
  "ItwaswhenIwasattackedbyviolentneuralgiathatImadeuseofthisremedy,whichsincethenIhave,perhaps,slightlyabused.
  "Ihadacutepainsinmyheadandneck,andanintolerableheatoftheskin,afeverishrestlessness.Itookupalargebottleofether,and,lyingdown,Ibegantoinhaleitslowly.
  "AttheendofsomeminutesIthoughtIheardavaguemurmur,whicherelongbecameasortofhumming,anditseemedtomethatalltheinteriorofmybodyhadbecomelight,lightasair,thatitwasdissolvingintovapor.
  "Thencameasortoftorpor,asleepysensationofcomfort,inspiteofthepainswhichstillcontinued,butwhichhadceasedtomakethemselvesfelt.Itwasoneofthosesensationswhichwearewillingtoendureandnotanyofthosefrightfulwrenchesagainstwhichourtorturedbodyprotests.
  "SoonthestrangeanddelightfulsenseofemptinesswhichIfeltinmychestextendedtomylimbs,which,intheirturn,becamelight,aslightasifthefleshandtheboneshadbeenmeltedandtheskinonlywereleft,theskinnecessarytoenablemetorealizethesweetnessofliving,ofbathinginthissensationofwell—being.ThenIperceivedthatIwasnolongersuffering.Thepainhadgone,meltedaway,evaporated.AndI
  heardvoices,fourvoices,twodialogues,withoutunderstandingwhatwassaid.Atonetimetherewereonlyindistinctsounds,atanothertimeawordreachedmyear.ButIrecognizedthatthiswasonlythehummingI
  hadheardbefore,butemphasized.Iwasnotasleep;Iwasnotawake;I
  comprehended,Ifelt,Ireasonedwiththeutmostclearnessanddepth,withextraordinaryenergyandintellectualpleasure,withasingularintoxicationarisingfromthisseparationofmymentalfaculties.
  "Itwasnotlikethedreamscausedbyhasheeshorthesomewhatsicklyvisionsthatcomefromopium;itwasanamazingacutenessofreasoning,anewwayofseeing,judgingandappreciatingthethingsoflife,andwiththecertainty,theabsoluteconsciousnessthatthiswasthetrueway.
  "AndtheoldimageoftheScripturessuddenlycamebacktomymind.
  ItseemedtomethatIhadtastedoftheTreeofKnowledge,thatallthemysterieswereunveiled,somuchdidIfindmyselfundertheswayofanew,strangeandirrefutablelogic.Andarguments,reasonings,proofsroseupinaheapbeforemybrainonlytobeimmediatelydisplacedbysomestrongerproof,reasoning,argument.Myheadhad,infact,becomeabattlegroundofideas.Iwasasuperiorbeing,armedwithinvincibleintelligence,andIexperiencedahugedelightatthemanifestationofmypower.
  "Itlastedalong,longtime.Istillkeptinhalingtheetherfrommyflagon.SuddenlyIperceivedthatitwasempty."
  Thefourmenexclaimedatthesametime:
  "Doctor,aprescriptionatonceforaliterofether!"
  Butthedoctor,puttingonhishat,replied:
  "Astothat,certainlynot;goandletsomeoneelsepoisonyou!"
  Andheleftthem.
  Ladiesandgentlemen,whatisyouropiniononthesubject?
  SIMON’SPAPA
  Noonhadjuststruck.Theschooldooropenedandtheyoungstersdartedout,jostlingeachotherintheirhastetogetoutquickly.Butinsteadofpromptlydispersingandgoinghometodinnerasusual,theystoppedafewpacesoff,brokeupintoknots,andbeganwhispering.
  Thefactwasthat,thatmorning,Simon,thesonofLaBlanchotte,had,forthefirsttime,attendedschool.
  TheyhadallofthemintheirfamiliesheardtalkofLaBlanchotte;and,althoughinpublicshewaswelcomeenough,themothersamongthemselvestreatedherwithasomewhatdisdainfulcompassion,whichthechildrenhadimitatedwithoutintheleastknowingwhy.
  AsforSimonhimself,theydidnotknowhim,forheneverwentout,anddidnotrunaboutwiththeminthestreetsofthevillage,oralongthebanksoftheriver.Andtheydidnotcareforhim;soitwaswithacertaindelight,mingledwithconsiderableastonishment,thattheymetandrepeatedtoeachotherwhathadbeensaidbyaladoffourteenorfifteenwhoappearedtoknowallaboutit,sosagaciouslydidhewink.
  "Youknow——Simon——well,hehasnopapa."
  JustthenLaBlanchotte’ssonappearedinthedoorwayoftheschool.
  Hewassevenoreightyearsold,ratherpale,veryneat,withatimidandalmostawkwardmanner.
  Hewasstartinghometohismother’shousewhenthegroupsofhisschoolmates,whisperingandwatchinghimwiththemischievousandheartlesseyesofchildrenbentuponplayinganastytrick,graduallyclosedinaroundhimandendedbysurroundinghimaltogether.Therehestoodintheirmidst,surprisedandembarrassed,notunderstandingwhattheyweregoingtodowithhim.Buttheladwhohadbroughtthenews,puffedupwiththesuccesshehadmetwithalready,demanded:
  "Whatisyourname,you?"
  Heanswered:"Simon."
  "Simonwhat?"retortedtheother.
  Thechild,altogetherbewildered,repeated:"Simon."
  Theladshoutedathim:"OneisnamedSimonsomething——thatisnotaname——Simonindeed."
  Thechild,onthebrinkoftears,repliedforthethirdtime:
  "MynameisSimon."
  Theurchinsbegantolaugh.Thetriumphanttormentorcried:"Youcanseeplainlythathehasnopapa."
  Adeepsilenceensued.Thechildrenweredumfoundedbythisextraordinary,impossible,monstrousthing——aboywhohadnotapapa;
  theylookeduponhimasaphenomenon,anunnaturalbeing,andtheyfeltthathithertoinexplicablecontemptoftheirmothersforLaBlanchottegrowinguponthem.AsforSimon,hehadleanedagainstatreetoavoidfalling,andheremainedasifprostratedbyanirreparabledisaster.
  Hesoughttoexplain,butcouldthinkofnothing—tosaytorefutethishorriblechargethathehadnopapa.Atlastheshoutedatthemquiterecklessly:"Yes,Ihaveone."
  "Whereishe?"demandedtheboy.
  Simonwassilent,hedidnotknow.Thechildrenroared,tremendouslyexcited;andthosecountryboys,littlemorethananimals,experiencedthatcruelcravingwhichpromptsthefowlsofafarmyardtodestroyoneoftheirnumberassoonasitiswounded.Simonsuddenlyespiedalittleneighbor,thesonofawidow,whomhehadseen,ashehimselfwastobeseen,alwaysalonewithhismother.
  "Andnomorehaveyou,"hesaid;"nomorehaveyouapapa."
  "Yes,"repliedtheother,"Ihaveone."
  "Whereishe?"rejoinedSimon.
  "Heisdead,"declaredthebrat,withsuperbdignity;"heisinthecemetery,ismypapa."
  Amurmurofapprovalroseamongthelittlewretchesasifthisfactofpossessingapapadeadinacemeteryhadcausedtheircomradetogrowbigenoughtocrushtheotheronewhohadnopapaatall.Andtheseboys,whosefatherswereforthemostpartbadmen,drunkards,thieves,andwhobeattheirwives,jostledeachothertopresscloserandcloser,asthoughthey,thelegitimateones,wouldsmotherbytheirpressureonewhowasillegitimate.
  TheboywhochancedtobenextSimonsuddenlyputhistongueoutathimwithamockingairandshoutedathim:
  "Nopapa!Nopapa!"
  Simonseizedhimbythehairwithbothhandsandsettoworktodisablehislegswithkicks,whilehebithischeekferociously.Atremendousstruggleensuedbetweenthetwocombatants,andSimonfoundhimselfbeaten,torn,bruised,rolledonthegroundinthemidstoftheringofapplaudingschoolboys.Ashearose,mechanicallybrushingwithhishandhislittleblouseallcoveredwithdust,someoneshoutedathim:
  "Goandtellyourpapa."
  Thenhefeltagreatsinkingathisheart.Theywerestrongerthanhewas,theyhadbeatenhim,andhehadnoanswertogivethem,forheknewwellthatitwastruethathehadnopapa.Fullofpride,heattemptedforsomemomentstostruggleagainstthetearswhichwerechokinghim.
  Hehadafeelingofsuffocation,andthenwithoutanysoundhecommencedtoweep,withgreatshakingsobs.Aferociousjoybrokeoutamonghisenemies,and,withoneaccord,justlikesavagesintheirfearfulfestivals,theytookeachotherbythehandanddancedroundhiminacircle,repeatingasarefrain:
  "Nopapa!Nopapa!"
  ButsuddenlySimonceasedsobbing.Hebecameferocious.Therewerestonesunderhisfeet;hepickedthemupandwithallhisstrengthhurledthemathistormentors.Twoorthreewerestruckandrushedoffyelling,andsoformidabledidheappearthattherestbecamepanic—stricken.
  Cowards,asthemobalwaysisinpresenceofanexasperatedman,theybrokeupandfled.Leftalone,thelittlefellowwithoutafathersetoffrunningtowardthefields,forarecollectionhadbeenawakenedinhimwhichdeterminedhissoultoagreatresolve.Hemadeuphismindtodrownhimselfintheriver.
  Heremembered,infact,thateightdaysbefore,apoordevilwhobeggedforhislivelihoodhadthrownhimselfintothewaterbecausehehadnomoremoney.Simonhadbeentherewhentheyfishedhimoutagain;andthewretchedman,whousuallyseemedtohimsomiserable,andugly,hadthenstruckhimasbeingsopeacefulwithhispalecheeks,hislongdrenchedbeard,andhisopeneyesfullofcalm.Thebystandershadsaid:
  "Heisdead."
  Andsomeonehadsaid:
  "Heisquitehappynow."
  AndSimonwishedtodrownhimselfalso,becausehehadnofather,justlikethewretchedbeingwhohadnomoney.
  Hereachedthewaterandwatcheditflowing.Somefishweresportingbrisklyintheclearstreamandoccasionallymadealittleboundandcaughtthefliesflyingonthesurface.Hestoppedcryinginordertowatchthem,fortheirmaneuversinterestedhimgreatly.But,atintervals,asinatempestintervalsofcalmalternatesuddenlywithtremendousgustsofwind,whichsnapoffthetreesandthenlosethemselvesinthehorizon,thisthoughtwouldreturntohimwithintensepain:
  "IamgoingtodrownmyselfbecauseIhavenopapa."
  Itwasverywarm,fineweather.Thepleasantsunshinewarmedthegrass.
  Thewatershonelikeamirror.AndSimonenjoyedsomeminutesofhappiness,ofthatlanguorwhichfollowsweeping,andfeltinclinedtofallasleepthereuponthegrassinthewarmsunshine.
  Alittlegreenfrogleapedfromunderhisfeet.Heendeavoredtocatchit.Itescapedhim.Hefolloweditandlostitthreetimesinsuccession.Atlasthecaughtitbyoneofitshindlegsandbegantolaughashesawtheeffortsthecreaturemadetoescape.Itgathereditselfuponitshindlegsandthenwithaviolentspringsuddenlystretchedthemoutasstiffastwobars;whileitbeattheairwithitsfrontlegsasthoughtheywerehands,itsroundeyesstaringintheircircleofyellow.Itremindedhimofatoymadeofstraightslipsofwoodnailedzigzagoneontheother;whichbyasimilarmovementregulatedthemovementsofthelittlesoldiersfastenedthereon.Thenhethoughtofhishome,andthenofhismother,and,overcomebysorrow,heagainbegantoweep.Ashiverpassedoverhim.Hekneltdownandsaidhisprayersasbeforegoingtobed.Buthewasunabletofinishthem,fortumultuous,violentsobsshookhiswholeframe.Henolongerthought,henolongersawanythingaroundhim,andwaswhollyabsorbedincrying.
  Suddenlyaheavyhandwasplaceduponhisshoulder,andaroughvoiceaskedhim:
  "Whatisitthatcausesyousomuchgrief,mylittleman?"
  Simonturnedround.Atallworkmanwithabeardandblackcurlyhairwasstaringathimgood—naturedly.Heansweredwithhiseyesandthroatfulloftears:
  "Theybeatme——because——I——Ihaveno——papa——nopapa."
  "What!"saidtheman,smiling;"why,everybodyhasone."
  Thechildansweredpainfullyamidhisspasmsofgrief:
  "ButI——I——Ihavenone."
  Thentheworkmanbecameserious.HehadrecognizedLaBlanchotte’sson,and,althoughhimselfanewarrivalintheneighborhood,hehadavagueideaofherhistory.
  "Well,"saidhe,"consoleyourself,myboy,andcomewithmehometoyourmother.Theywillgiveyou——apapa."
  Andsotheystartedontheway,thebigfellowholdingthelittlefellowbythehand,andthemansmiled,forhewasnotsorrytoseethisBlanchotte,whowas,itwassaid,oneoftheprettiestgirlsofthecountryside,and,perhaps,hewassayingtohimself,atthebottomofhisheart,thatalasswhohaderredmightverywellerragain.
  Theyarrivedinfrontofaveryneatlittlewhitehouse.
  "Thereitis,"exclaimedthechild,andhecried,"Mamma!"
  Awomanappeared,andtheworkmaninstantlyleftoffsmiling,forhesawatoncethattherewasnofoolingtobedonewiththetallpalegirlwhostoodausterelyatherdoorasthoughtodefendfromonemanthethresholdofthathousewhereshehadalreadybeenbetrayedbyanother.
  Intimidated,hiscapinhishand,hestammeredout:
  "See,madame,Ihavebroughtyoubackyourlittleboywhohadlosthimselfneartheriver."
  ButSimonflunghisarmsabouthismother’sneckandtoldher,asheagainbegantocry:
  "No,mamma,Iwishedtodrownmyself,becausetheothershadbeatenme——
  hadbeatenme——becauseIhavenopapa."
  Aburningrednesscoveredtheyoungwoman’scheeks;and,hurttothequick,sheembracedherchildpassionately,whilethetearscourseddownherface.Theman,muchmoved,stoodthere,notknowinghowtogetaway.
  ButSimonsuddenlyrantohimandsaid:
  "Willyoubemypapa?"
  Adeepsilenceensued.LaBlanchotte,dumbandtorturedwithshame,leanedherselfagainstthewall,bothherhandsuponherheart.Thechild,seeingthatnoanswerwasmadehim,replied:
  "Ifyouwillnot,Ishallgobackanddrownmyself."
  Theworkmantookthematterasajestandanswered,laughing:
  "Why,yes,certainlyIwill."
  "Whatisyourname,"wentonthechild,"sothatImaytelltheotherswhentheywishtoknowyourname?"
  "Philip,"answeredtheman:
  Simonwassilentamomentsothathemightgetthenamewellintohishead;thenhestretchedouthisarms,quiteconsoled,ashesaid:
  "Well,then,Philip,youaremypapa."
  Theworkman,liftinghimfromtheground,kissedhimhastilyonbothcheeks,andthenwalkedawayveryquicklywithgreatstrides.
  Whenthechildreturnedtoschoolnextdayhewasreceivedwithaspitefullaugh,andattheendofschool,whentheladswereonthepointofrecommencing,Simonthrewthesewordsattheirheadsashewouldhavedoneastone:"HeisnamedPhilip,mypapa."
  Yellsofdelightburstoutfromallsides.
  "Philipwho?Philipwhat?WhatonearthisPhilip?WheredidyoupickupyourPhilip?"
  Simonanswerednothing;and,immovableinhisfaith,hedefiedthemwithhiseye,readytobemartyredratherthanflybeforethem.Theschoolmastercametohisrescueandhereturnedhometohismother.
  Duringthreemonths,thetallworkman,Philip,frequentlypassedbyLaBlanchotte’shouse,andsometimeshemadeboldtospeaktoherwhenhesawhersewingnearthewindow.Sheansweredhimcivilly,alwayssedately,neverjokingwithhim,norpermittinghimtoenterherhouse.
  Notwithstanding,being,likeallmen,abitofacoxcomb,heimaginedthatshewasoftenrosierthanusualwhenshechattedwithhim.
  Butalostreputationissodifficulttoregainandalwaysremainssofragilethat,inspiteoftheshyreserveofLaBlanchotte,theyalreadygossipedintheneighborhood.
  AsforSimonhelovedhisnewpapaverymuch,andwalkedwithhimnearlyeveryeveningwhentheday’sworkwasdone.Hewentregularlytoschool,andmixedwithgreatdignitywithhisschoolfellowswithouteveransweringthemback.
  Oneday,however,theladwhohadfirstattackedhimsaidtohim:
  "Youhavelied.YouhavenotapapanamedPhilip."
  "Whydoyousaythat?"demandedSimon,muchdisturbed.
  Theyouthrubbedhishands.Hereplied:
  "Becauseifyouhadonehewouldbeyourmamma’shusband."
  Simonwasconfusedbythetruthofthisreasoning;nevertheless,heretorted:
  "Heismypapa,allthesame."
  "Thatcanverywellbe,"exclaimedtheurchinwithasneer,"butthatisnotbeingyourpapaaltogether."
  LaBlanchotte’slittleonebowedhisheadandwentoffdreaminginthedirectionoftheforgebelongingtooldLoizon,wherePhilipworked.
  Thisforgewasasthoughburiedbeneathtrees.Itwasverydarkthere;
  theredglareofaformidablefurnacealonelitupwithgreatflashesfiveblacksmiths;whohammeredupontheiranvilswithaterribledin.
  Theywerestandingenvelopedinflame,likedemons,theireyesfixedonthered—hotirontheywerepounding;andtheirdullideasroseandfellwiththeirhammers.
  Simonenteredwithoutbeingnoticed,andwentquietlytopluckhisfriendbythesleeve.Thelatterturnedround.Allatoncetheworkcametoastandstill,andallthemenlookedon,veryattentive.Then,inthemidstofthisunaccustomedsilence,rosetheslenderpipeofSimon:
  "Say,Philip,theMichaudeboytoldmejustnowthatyouwerenotaltogethermypapa."
  "Whynot?"askedtheblacksmith,Thechildrepliedwithallinnocence:
  "Becauseyouarenotmymamma’shusband."
  Noonelaughed.Philipremainedstanding,leaninghisforeheaduponthebackofhisgreathands,whichsupportedthehandleofhishammerstandinguprightupontheanvil.Hemused.Hisfourcompanionswatchedhim,andSimon,atinymiteamongthesegiants,anxiouslywaited.
  Suddenly,oneofthesmiths,answeringtothesentimentofall,saidtoPhilip:
  "LaBlanchotteisagood,honestgirl,anduprightandsteadyinspiteofhermisfortune,andwouldmakeaworthywifeforanhonestman."
  "Thatistrue,"remarkedthethreeothers.
  Thesmithcontinued:
  "Isitthegirl’sfaultifshewentwrong?Shehadbeenpromisedmarriage;andIknowmorethanonewhoismuchrespectedto—day,andwhosinnedeverybitasmuch."
  "Thatistrue,"respondedthethreemeninchorus.
  Heresumed:
  "Howhardshehastoiled,poorthing,tobringupherchildallalone,andhowshehasweptalltheseyearsshehasnevergoneoutexcepttochurch,Godonlyknows."
  "Thisisalsotrue,"saidtheothers.
  Thennothingwasheardbutthebellowswhichfannedthefireofthefurnace.PhiliphastilybenthimselfdowntoSimon:
  "GoandtellyourmotherthatIamcomingtospeaktoherthisevening."
  Thenhepushedthechildoutbytheshoulders.Hereturnedtohiswork,andwithasingleblowthefivehammersagainfellupontheiranvils.
  Thustheywroughttheironuntilnightfall,strong,powerful,happy,likecontentedhammers.Butjustasthegreatbellofacathedralresoundsuponfeastdaysabovethejinglingoftheotherbells,soPhilip’shammer,soundingabovetherest,clangedsecondaftersecondwithadeafeninguproar.Andhestoodamidtheflyingsparksplyinghistradevigorously.
  TheskywasfullofstarsasheknockedatLaBlanchotte’sdoor.HehadonhisSundayblouse,acleanshirt,andhisbeardwastrimmed.Theyoungwomanshowedherselfuponthethreshold,andsaidinagrievedtone:
  "Itisilltocomethuswhennighthasfallen,Mr.Philip."
  Hewishedtoanswer,butstammeredandstoodconfusedbeforeher.
  Sheresumed:
  "Youunderstand,doyounot,thatitwillnotdoformetobetalkedaboutagain."
  "Whatdoesthatmattertome,ifyouwillbemywife!"
  Novoicerepliedtohim,buthebelievedthatheheardintheshadowoftheroomthesoundofafallingbody.Heenteredquickly;andSimon,whohadgonetobed,distinguishedthesoundofakissandsomewordsthathismothermurmuredsoftly.Then,allatonce,hefoundhimselfliftedupbythehandsofhisfriend,who,holdinghimatthelengthofhisherculeanarms,exclaimed:
  "Youwilltellthem,yourschoolmates,thatyourpapaisPhilipRemy,theblacksmith,andthathewillpulltheearsofallwhodoyouanyharm."
  Onthemorrow,whentheschoolwasfullandlessonswereabouttobegin,littleSimonstoodup,quitepalewithtremblinglips:
  "Mypapa,"saidheinaclearvoice,"isPhilipRemy,theblacksmith,andhehaspromisedtopulltheearsofallwhodoesmeanyharm."
  Thistimenoonelaughed,forhewasverywellknown,wasPhilipRemy,theblacksmith,andwasapapaofwhomanyoneintheworldwouldhavebeenproud.
  EndOriginalShortStories,Vol.12.
  ByGuydeMaupassantVOLUMEXII.
  THECHILD
  ACOUNTRYEXCURSION
  ROSE
  ROSALIEPRUDENT
  REGRET
  ASISTER’SCONFESSION
  COCO
  ADEADWOMAN’SSECRET
  AHUMBLEDRAMA
  MADEMOISELLECOCOTTE
  THECORSICANBANDIT
  THEGRAVE
  THECHILD
  Lemonnierhadremainedawidowerwithonechild.Hehadlovedhiswifedevotedly,withatenderandexaltedlove,withoutaslip,duringtheirentiremarriedlife.Hewasagood,honestman,perfectlysimple,sincere,withoutsuspicionormalice.
  Hefellinlovewithapoorneighbor,proposedandwasaccepted.Hewasmakingaverycomfortablelivingoutofthewholesaleclothbusiness,andhedidnotforaminutesuspectthattheyounggirlmighthaveacceptedhimforanythingelsebuthimself.
  Shemadehimhappy.Shewaseverythingtohim;heonlythoughtofher,lookedathercontinually,withworshipingeyes.Duringmealshewouldmakeanynumberofblunders,inordernottohavetotakehiseyesfromthebelovedface;hewouldpourthewineinhisplateandthewaterinthesalt—cellar,thenhewouldlaughlikeachild,repeating:
  "Yousee,Iloveyoutoomuch;thatmakesmecrazy."
  Shewouldsmilewithacalmandresignedlook;thenshewouldlookaway,asthoughembarrassedbytheadorationofherhusband,andtrytomakehimtalkaboutsomethingelse;buthewouldtakeherhandunderthetableandhewouldholditinhis,whispering:
  "MylittleJeanne,mydarlinglittleJeanne!"
  Shesometimeslostpatienceandsaid:
  "Come,come,bereasonable;eatandletmeeat."
  Hewouldsighandbreakoffamouthfulofbread,whichhewouldthenchewslowly.
  Forfiveyearstheyhadnochildren.Thensuddenlysheannouncedtohimthatthisstateofaffairswouldsooncease.Hewaswildwithjoy.Henolongerleftherforaminute,untilhisoldnurse,whohadbroughthimupandwhooftenruledthehouse,wouldpushhimoutandclosethedoorbehindhim,inordertocompelhimtogooutinthefreshair.
  Hehadgrownveryintimatewithayoungmanwhohadknownhiswifesincechildhood,andwhowasoneoftheprefect’ssecretaries.M.DuretourwoulddinethreetimesaweekwiththeLemonniers,bringingflowerstomadame,andsometimesaboxatthetheater;andoften,attheendofthedinner,Lemonnier,growingtender,turningtowardshiswife,wouldexplain:"Withacompanionlikeyouandafriendlikehim,amaniscompletelyhappyonearth."
  Shediedinchildbirth.Theshockalmostkilledhim.Butthesightofthechild,apoor,moaninglittlecreature,gavehimcourage.
  Heloveditwithapassionateandsorrowfullove,withamorbidloveinwhichstuckthememoryofdeath,butinwhichlivedsomethingofhisworshipforthedeadmother.Itwasthefleshofhiswife,herbeingcontinued,asortofquintessenceofherself.Thischildwasherverylifetransferredtoanotherbody;shehaddisappearedthatitmightexist,andthefatherwouldsmotheritinwithkisses.Butalso,thischildhadkilledher;hehadstolenthisbelovedcreature,hislifewasatthecostofhers.AndM.Lemonnierwouldplacehissoninthecradleandwouldsitdownandwatchhim.Hewouldsitthiswaybythehour,lookingathim,dreamingofthousandsofthings,sweetorsad.Then,whenthelittleonewasasleep,hewouldbendoverhimandsob.
  Thechildgrew.Thefathercouldnolongerspendanhourawayfromhim;
  hewouldstaynearhim,takehimoutforwalks,andhimselfdresshim,washhim,makehimeat.Hisfriend,M.Duretour,alsoseemedtolovetheboy;hewouldkisshimwildly,inthosefrenziesoftendernesswhicharecharacteristicofparents.Hewouldtosshiminhisarms,hewouldtrothimonhisknees,bythehour,andM.Lemonnier,delighted,wouldmutter:
  "Isn’theadarling?Isn’theadarling?"
  AndM.Duretourwouldhugthechildinhisarmsandticklehisneckwithhismustache.
  Celeste,theoldnurse,alone,seemedtohavenotendernessforthelittleone.Shewouldgrowangryathispranks,andseemedimpatientatthecaressesofthetwomen.Shewouldexclaim:
  "Howcanyouexpecttobringachilduplikethat?You’llmakeaperfectmonkeyoutofhim."
  Yearswentby,andJeanwasnineyearsold.Hehardlyknewhowtoread;
  hehadbeensospoiled,andonlydidashesawfit.Hewaswillful,stubbornandquick—tempered.Thefatheralwaysgaveintohimandlethimhavehisownway.M.Duretourwouldalwaysbuyhimallthetoyshewished,andhefedhimoncakeandcandies.ThenCelestewouldgrowangryandexclaim:
  "It’sashame,monsieur,ashame.Youarespoilingthischild.Butitwillhavetostop;yes,sir,Itellyouitwillhavetostop,andbeforelong,too."
  M.Lemonnierwouldanswer,smiling:
  "Whatcanyouexpect?Ilovehimtoomuch,Ican’tresisthim;youmustgetusedtoit."
  Jeanwasdelicate,rather.Thedoctorsaidthathewasanaemic,prescribediron,raremeatandbroth.
  Butthelittlefellowlovedonlycakeandrefusedallothernourishment;
  andthefather,indespair,stuffedhimwithcream—puffsandchocolateeclairs.
  Oneevening,astheyweresittingdowntosupper,Celestebroughtonthesoupwithanairofauthorityandanassurancewhichshedidnotusuallyhave.Shetookoffthecoverand,dippingtheladleintothedish,shedeclared:
  "HereissomebrothsuchasIhavenevermade;theyoungonewillhavetotakesomethistime."
  M.Lemonnier,frightened,benthishead.Hesawastormbrewing.
  Celestetookhisplate,filleditherselfandplaceditinfrontofhim.
  Hetastedthesoupandsaid:
  "Itis,indeed,excellent."
  Theservanttooktheboy’splateandpouredaspoonfulofsoupinit.
  Thensheretreatedafewstepsandwaited.
  Jeansmelledthefoodandpushedhisplateawaywithanexpressionofdisgust.Celeste,suddenlypale,quicklysteppedforwardandforciblypouredaspoonfuldownthechild’sopenmouth.
  Hechoked,coughed,sneezed,spat;howling,heseizedhisglassandthrewitathisnurse.Shereceiveditfullinthestomach.Then,exasperated,shetooktheyoungshaver’sheadunderherarmandbeganpouringspoonfulafterspoonfulofsoupdownhisthroat.Hegrewasredasabeet,andhewouldcoughitup,stamping,twisting,choking,beatingtheairwithhishands.
  Atfirstthefatherwassosurprisedthathecouldnotmove.Then,suddenly,herushedforward,wildwithrage,seizedtheservantbythethroatandthrewherupagainstthewallstammering:
  "Out!Out!Out!youbrute!"
  Butsheshookhimoff,and,herhairstreamingdownherback,hereyessnapping,shecriedout:
  "What’sgettin’holdofyou?You’retryingtothrashmebecauseIammakingthischildeatsoupwhenyouarefillinghimwithsweetstuff!"
  Hekeptrepeating,tremblingfromheadtofoot:
  "Out!Getout—getout,youbrute!"
  Then,wild,sheturnedtohimand,pushingherfaceupagainsthis,hervoicetrembling:
  "Ah!——youthink—youthinkthatyoucantreatmelikethat?Oh!no.Andforwhom?——forthatbratwhoisnotevenyours.No,notyours!No,notyours——notyours!Everybodyknowsit,exceptyourself!Askthegrocer,thebutcher,thebaker,allofthem,anyoneofthem!"
  Shewasgrowlingandmumbling,chokedwithpassion;thenshestoppedandlookedathim.
  Hewasmotionlesslivid,hisarmshangingbyhissides.Afterashortpause,hemurmuredinafaint,shakyvoice,instinctwithdeepfeeling:
  "Yousay?yousay?Whatdoyousay?"
  Sheremainedsilent,frightenedbyhisappearance.Oncemorehesteppedforward,repeating:
  "Yousay——whatdoyousay?"
  Theninacalmvoice,sheanswered:
  "IsaywhatIknow,whateverybodyknows."
  Heseizedherand,withthefuryofabeast,hetriedtothrowherdown.
  But,althoughold,shewasstrongandnimble.Sheslippedunderhisarm,andrunningaroundthetableoncemorefurious,shescreamed:
  "Lookathim,justlookathim,foolthatyouare!Isn’thethelivingimageofM.Durefour?justlookathisnoseandhiseyes!Areyourslikethat?Andhishair!Isitlikehismother’s?Itellyouthateveryoneknowsit,everyoneexceptyourself!It’sthejokeofthetown!Lookathim!"
  Shewenttothedoor,openedit,anddisappeared.
  Jean,frightened,satmotionlessbeforehisplateofsoup.
  Attheendofanhour,shereturnedgently,toseehowmattersstood.
  Thechild,afterdoingawaywithallthecakesandapitcherfullofcreamandoneofsyrup,wasnowemptyingthejam—potwithhissoup—spoon.
  Thefatherhadgoneout.
  Celestetookthechild,kissedhim,andgentlycarriedhimtohisroomandputhimtobed.Shecamebacktothedining—room,clearedthetable,puteverythinginplace,feelingveryuneasyallthetime.
  Notasinglesoundcouldbeheardthroughoutthehouse.Sheputherearagainst’shermaster’sdoor.Heseemedtobeperfectlystill.Sheputhereyetothekeyhole.Hewaswriting,andseemedverycalm.
  Thenshereturnedtothekitchenandsatdown,readyforanyemergency.
  Shesleptonachairandawokeatdaylight.
  Shedidtheroomsasshehadbeenaccustomedtoeverymorning;shesweptanddusted,and,towardseighto’clock,preparedM.Lemonnier’sbreakfast.
  Butshedidnotdarebringittohermaster,knowingtoowellhowshewouldbereceived;shewaitedforhimtoring.Buthedidnotring.
  Nineo’clock,thenteno’clockwentby.
  Celeste,notknowingwhattothink,preparedhertrayandstartedupwithit,herheartbeatingfast.
  Shestoppedbeforethedoorandlistened.Everythingwasstill.Sheknocked;noanswer.Then,gatheringupallhercourage,sheopenedthedoorandentered.Withawildshriek,shedroppedthebreakfasttraywhichshehadbeenholdinginherhand.
  Inthemiddleoftheroom,M.Lemonnierwashangingbyaropefromaringintheceiling.Histonguewasstickingouthorribly.Hisrightslipperwaslyingontheground,hisleftonestillonhisfoot.Anupturnedchairhadrolledovertothebed.
  Celeste,dazed,ranawayshrieking.Alltheneighborscrowdedtogether.
  Thephysiciandeclaredthathehaddiedataboutmidnight.
  AletteraddressedtoM.Duretdurwasfoundonthetableofthesuicide.
  Itcontainedthesewords:
  "Ileaveandentrustthechildtoyou!"
  ACOUNTRYEXCURSION
  ForfivemonthstheyhadbeentalkingofgoingtotakeluncheoninoneofthecountrysuburbsofParisonMadameDufour’sbirthday,andastheywerelookingforwardveryimpatientlytotheouting,theyroseveryearlythatmorning.MonsieurDufourhadborrowedthemilkman’swagonanddrovehimself.Itwasaverytidy,two—wheeledconveyance,withacoversupportedbyfourironrods,withcurtainsthathadbeendrawnup,excepttheoneattheback,whichfloatedoutlikeasail.MadameDufour,resplendentinawonderful,cherrycoloredsilkdress,satbythesideofherhusband.
  Theoldgrandmotherandagirlsatbehindthemontwochairs,andaboywithyellowhairwaslyingatthebottomofthewagon,withnothingtobeseenofhimexcepthishead.
  WhentheyreachedthebridgeofNeuilly,MonsieurDufoursaid:"Hereweareinthecountryatlast!"andatthatsignalhiswifegrewsentimentalaboutthebeautiesofnature.WhentheygottothecrossroadsatCourbevoietheywereseizedwithadmirationforthedistantlandscape.
  OntherightwasArgenteuilwithitsbelltower,andaboveitrosethehillsofSannoisandthemillofOrgemont,whileonthelefttheaqueductofMarlystoodoutagainsttheclearmorningsky,andinthedistancetheycouldseetheterraceofSaint—Germain;andoppositethem,attheendofalowchainofhills,thenewfortofCormeilles.Quiteinthedistance;averylongwayoff,beyondtheplainsandvillage,onecouldseethesombregreenoftheforests.
  Thesunwasbeginningtoburntheirfaces,thedustgotintotheireyes,andoneithersideoftheroadtherestretchedaninterminabletractofbare,uglycountrywithanunpleasantodor.Onemighthavethoughtthatithadbeenravagedbyapestilence,whichhadevenattackedthebuildings,forskeletonsofdilapidatedanddesertedhouses,orsmallcottages,whichwereleftinanunfinishedstate,becausethecontractorshadnotbeenpaid,rearedtheirfourrooflesswallsoneachside.
  Hereandtheretallfactorychimneysroseupfromthebarrensoil.Theonlyvegetationonthatputridland,wherethespringbreezeswaftedanodorofpetroleumandslate,blendedwithanotherodorthatwasevenlessagreeable.Atlast,however,theycrossedtheSeineasecondtime,andthebridgewasadelight.Theriversparkledinthesun,andtheyhadafeelingofquietenjoyment,feltrefreshedastheydrankinthepurerairthatwasnotimpregnatedbytheblacksmokeoffactoriesnorbythemiasmafromthedepositsofnightsoil.AmanwhomtheymettoldthemthatthenameoftheplacewasBezons.MonsieurDufourpulledupandreadtheattractiveannouncementoutsideaneatinghouse:RestaurantPoulin,matelottesandfriedfish,privaterooms,arbors,andswings.
  "Well,MadameDufour,willthissuityou?Willyoumakeupyourmindatlast?"
  Shereadtheannouncementinherturnandthenlookedatthehouseforsometime.
  Itwasawhitecountryinn,builtbytheroadside,andthroughtheopendoorshecouldseethebrightzincofthecounter,atwhichsattwoworkmenintheirSundayclothes.Atlastshemadeuphermindandsaid:
  "Yes,thiswilldo;and,besides,thereisaview."
  Theydroveintoalargefieldbehindtheinn,separatedfromtheriverbythetowingpath,anddismounted.Thehusbandsprangoutfirstandthenheldouthisarmsforhiswife,andasthestepwasveryhighMadameDufour,inordertoreachhim,hadtoshowthelowerpartofherlimbs,whoseformerslendernesshaddisappearedinfat,andMonsieurDufour,whowasalreadygettingexcitedbythecountryair,pinchedhercalf,andthen,takingherinhisarms,hesetherontheground,asifshehadbeensomeenormousbundle.Sheshookthedustoutofthesilkdressandthenlookedroundtoseeinwhatsortofaplaceshewas.
  Shewasastoutwoman,ofaboutthirty—six,full—blown,anddelightfultolookat.Shecouldhardlybreathe,ashercorsetswerelacedtootightly,andtheirpressureforcedhersuperabundantbosomuptoherdoublechin.Nextthegirlplacedherhandonherfather’sshoulderandjumpeddownlightly.Theboywiththeyellowhairhadgotdownbysteppingonthewheel,andhehelpedMonsieurDufourtolifthisgrandmotherout.Thentheyunharnessedthehorse,whichtheyhadtiedtoatree,andthecarriagefellback,withbothshaftsintheair.Thementookofftheircoatsandwashedtheirhandsinapailofwaterandthenwentandjoinedtheladies,whohadalreadytakenpossessionoftheswings.
  MademoiselleDufourwastryingtoswingherselfstandingup,butshecouldnotsucceedingettingastart.Shewasaprettygirlofabouteighteen,oneofthosewomenwhosuddenlyexciteyourdesirewhenyoumeettheminthestreetandwholeaveyouwithavaguefeelingofuneasinessandofexcitedsenses.Shewastall,hadasmallwaistandlargehips,withadarkskin,verylargeeyesandveryblackhair.Herdressclearlymarkedtheoutlinesofherfirm,fullfigure,whichwasaccentuatedbythemotionofherhipsasshetriedtoswingherselfhigher.Herarmswerestretchedupwardtoholdtherope,sothatherbosomroseateverymovementshemade.Herhat,whichagustofwindhadblownoff,washangingbehindher,andastheswinggraduallyrosehigherandhigher,sheshowedherdelicatelimbsuptothekneeseachtime,andthebreezefromherflyingskirts,whichwasmoreheadythanthefumesofwine,blewintothefacesofthetwomen,whowerelookingatherandsmiling.
  Sittingintheotherswing,MadameDufourkeptsayinginamonotonousvoice:
  "Cyprian,comeandswingme;docomeandswingme,Cyprian!"
  Atlasthewent,andturninguphisshirtsleeves,asifundertakingahardpieceofwork,withmuchdifficultyhesethiswifeinmotion.Sheclutchedthetworopesandheldherlegsoutstraight,soasnottotouchtheground.Sheenjoyedfeelingdizzyatthemotionoftheswing,andherwholefigureshooklikeajellyonadish,butasshewenthigherandhigher;shebecametoogiddyandwasfrightened.Eachtimetheswingcamedownsheutteredapiercingscream,whichmadeallthelittleurchinsintheneighborhoodcomeround,anddownbelow,beneaththegardenhedge,shevaguelysawarowofmischievousheadsmakingvariousgrimacesastheylaughed.
  Whenaservantgirlcameouttheyorderedluncheon.
  "Somefriedfish,arabbitsaute,saladanddessert,"MadameDufoursaid,withanimportantair.
  "Bringtwoquartsofbeerandabottleofclaret,"herhusbandsaid.
  "Wewillhavelunchonthegrass,"thegirladded.
  Thegrandmother,whohadanaffectionforcats,hadbeenrunningafteronethatbelongedtothehouse,tryingtocoaxittocometoherforthelasttenminutes.Theanimal,whowasnodoubtsecretlyflatteredbyherattentions,keptclosetothegoodwoman,butjustoutofreachofherhand,andquietlywalkedroundthetrees,againstwhichsherubbedherself,withhertailup,purringwithpleasure.
  "Hello!"suddenlyexclaimedtheyoungmanwiththeyellowhair,whowaswanderingabout."Herearetwoswellboats!"Theyallwenttolookatthemandsawtwobeautifulcanoesinawoodenshed;theywereasbeautifullyfinishedasiftheyhadbeenornamentalfurniture.Theyhungsidebyside,liketwotall,slendergirls,intheirnarrowshininglength,andmadeonewishtofloatinthemonwarmsummermorningsandeveningsalongtheflower—coveredbanksoftheriver,wherethetreesdiptheirbranchesintothewater,wheretherushesarecontinuallyrustlinginthebreezeandwheretheswiftkingfishersdartaboutlikeflashesofbluelightning.
  Thewholefamilylookedatthemwithgreatrespect.
  "Oh,theyareindeedswellboats!"MonsieurDufourrepeatedgravely,asheexaminedthemlikeaconnoiseur.Hehadbeeninthehabitofrowinginhisyoungerdays,hesaid,andwhenhehadspatinhishands——andhewentthroughtheactionofpullingtheoars——hedidnotcareafigforanybody.HehadbeatenmorethanoneEnglishmanformerlyattheJoinvilleregattas.Hegrewquiteexcitedatlastandofferedtomakeabetthatinaboatlikethathecouldrowsixleaguesanhourwithoutexertinghimself.
  "Luncheonisready,"thewaitresssaid,appearingattheentrancetotheboathouse,andtheyallhurriedoff.ButtwoyoungmenhadtakentheveryseatsthatMadameDufourhadselectedandwereeatingtheirluncheon.Nodoubttheyweretheownersofthesculls,fortheywereinboatingcostume.Theywerestretchedout,almostlyingonthechairs;
  theyweresun—brownedandtheirthincottonjerseys,withshortsleeves,showedtheirbarearms,whichwereasstrongasablacksmith’s.Theyweretwostrong,athleticfellows,whoshowedinalltheirmovementsthatelasticityandgraceoflimbwhichcanonlybeacquiredbyexerciseandwhichissodifferenttothedeformitywithwhichmonotonousheavyworkstampsthemechanic.
  Theyexchangedarapidsmilewhentheysawthemotherandthenaglanceonseeingthedaughter.
  "Letusgiveupourplace,"oneofthemsaid;"itwillmakeusacquaintedwiththem."
  Theothergotupimmediately,andholdinghisblackandredboatingcapinhishand,hepolitelyofferedtheladiestheonlyshadyplaceinthegarden.Withmanyexcusestheyaccepted,andthatitmightbemorerural,theysatonthegrass,withouteithertablesorchairs.
  Thetwoyoungmentooktheirplates,knives,forks,etc.,toatablealittlewayoffandbegantoeatagain,andtheirbarearms,whichtheyshowedcontinually,ratherembarrassedthegirl.Sheevenpretendedtoturnherheadasideandnottoseethem,whileMadameDufour,whowasratherbolder,temptedbyfemininecuriosity,lookedatthemeverymoment,and,nodoubt,comparedthemwiththesecretunsightlinessofherhusband.Shehadsquattedherselfonground,withherlegstuckedunderher,afterthemanneroftailors,andshekeptmovingaboutrestlessly,sayingthatantswerecrawlingabouthersomewhere.MonsieurDufour,annoyedatthepresenceofthepolitestrangers,wastryingtofindacomfortablepositionwhichhedidnot,however,succeedindoing,andtheyoungmanwiththeyellowhairwaseatingassilentlyasanogre.
  "Itislovelyweather,monsieur,"thestoutladysaidtooneoftheboatingmen.Shewishedtobefriendlybecausetheyhadgivenuptheirplace.
  "Itis,indeed,madame,"hereplied."Doyouoftengointothecountry?"
  "Oh,onlyonceortwiceayeartogetalittlefreshair.Andyou,monsieur?"
  "Icomeandsleephereeverynight."
  "Oh,thatmustbeverynice!"
  "Certainlyitis,madame."Andhegavethemsuchapracticalaccountofhisdailylifethatitawakenedafreshintheheartsoftheseshopkeeperswhoweredeprivedofthemeadowsandwholongedforcountrywalks,tothatfoolishloveofnaturewhichtheyallfeelsostronglythewholeyearroundbehindthecounterintheirshop.
  ThegirlraisedhereyesandlookedattheoarsmanwithemotionandMonsieurDufourspokeforthefirsttime.
  "Itisindeedahappylife,"hesaid.Andthenheadded:"Alittlemorerabbit,mydear?"
  "No,thankyou,"shereplied,andturningtotheyoungmenagain,andpointingtotheirarms,asked:"Doyouneverfeelcoldlikethat?"
  Theybothbegantolaugh,andtheyastonishedthefamilywithanaccountoftheenormousfatiguetheycouldendure,oftheirbathingwhileinastateoftremendousperspiration,oftheirrowinginthefogatnight;
  andtheystrucktheirchestsviolentlytoshowhowhollowtheysounded.
  "Ah!Youlookverystrong,"saidthehusband,whodidnottalkanymoreofthetimewhenheusedtobeattheEnglish.Thegirlwaslookingatthemsidewaysnow,andtheyoungfellowwiththeyellowhair,whohadswallowedsomewinethewrongway,wascoughingviolentlyandbespatteringMadameDufour’scherry—coloredsilkdress.Shegotangryandsentforsomewatertowashthespots.