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第20章

  Abouthalf-wayontheirjourneytheycrossedamainroadrunningdueeastandwest-theoldroadfromLondontoLand’sEnd。Theypaused,andlookedupanddownitforamoment,andremarkeduponthedesolationwhichhadcomeoverthisoncelivelythoroughfare,whilethewinddippedtoearthandscoopedstrawsandhay-stemsfromtheground。
  Theycrossedtheroadandpassedon,butduringthenexthalf-mileSueseemedtogrowtired,andJudebegantobedistressedforher。Theyhadwalkedagooddistancealtogether,andiftheycouldnotreachtheotherstationitwouldberatherawkward。Foralongtimetherewasnocottagevisibleonthewideexpanseofdownandturnip-land;butpresentlytheycametoasheepfold,andnexttotheshepherd,pitchinghurdles。Hetoldthemthattheonlyhousenearwashismother’sandhis,pointingtoalittledipaheadfromwhichafaintbluesmokearose,andrecommendedthemtogoonandrestthere。
  Thistheydid,andenteredthehouse,admittedbyanoldwomanwithoutasingletooth,towhomtheywereascivilasstrangerscanbewhentheironlychanceofrestandshelterliesinthefavourofthehouseholder。
  `Anicelittlecottage,’saidJude。
  `Oh,Idon’tknowabouttheniceness。Ishallhavetothatchitsoon,andwherethethatchistocomefromIcan’ttell,forstrawdogetthatdear,that’twillsoonbecheapertocoveryourhousewi’chaineyplatesthanthatch。’
  Theysatresting,andtheshepherdcamein。`Don’t’eemindI,’
  hesaidwithadeprecatingwaveofthehand`bidehereaslongasyewill。
  Butmidyoubethinkingo’gettingbacktoMelchesterto-nightbytrain?
  Becauseyou’llneverdoitinthisworld,sinceyoudon’tknowthelieofthecountry。Idon’tmindgoingwithyesomeo’theways,buteventhenthetrainmidbegone。’
  Theystartedup。
  `Youcanbidehere,youknow,overthenight-can’t’em,Mother?
  Theplaceiswelcometoye。’Tishardlying,rather,butvolkmaydoworse。’
  HeturnedtoJudeandaskedprivately:`Beyouamarriedcouple?’
  `Hsh-no!’saidJude。
  `Oh-Imeantnothingba’dy-notI!Wellthen,shecangointoMother’sroom,andyouandIcanlieintheouterchimmerafterthey’vegonethrough。Icancallyesoonenoughtocatchthefirsttrainback。
  You’velostthisonenow。’
  Onconsiderationtheydecidedtoclosewiththisoffer,anddrewupandsharedwiththeshepherdandhismothertheboiledbaconandgreensforsupper。
  `Iratherlikethis,’saidSue,whiletheirentertainerswereclearingawaythedishes。`Outsidealllawsexceptgravitationandgermination。’
  `Youonlythinkyoulikeit;youdon’t:youarequiteaproductofcivilization,’saidJude,arecollectionofherengagementrevivinghissorenessalittle。
  `IndeedIamnot,Jude。Ilikereadingandallthat,butIcravetogetbacktothelifeofmyinfancyanditsfreedom。’
  `Doyourememberitsowell?Youseemtometohavenothingunconventionalatallaboutyou。’
  `Oh,haven’tI!Youdon’tknowwhat’sinsideme。’
  `What?’
  `TheIshmaelite。’
  `Anurbanmissiswhatyouare。’
  Shelookedseveredisagreement,andturnedaway。
  Theshepherdarousedthemthenextmorning,ashehadsaid。Itwasbrightandclear,andthefourmilestothetrainwereaccomplishedpleasantly。WhentheyhadreachedMelchester,andwalkedtotheClose,andthegablesoftheoldbuildinginwhichshewasagaintobeimmuredrosebeforeSue’seyes,shelookedalittlescared。`IexpectIshallcatchit!’shemurmured。
  Theyrangthegreatbellandwaited。
  `Oh,Iboughtsomethingforyou,whichIhadnearlyforgotten,’
  shesaidquickly,searchingherpocket。`Itisanewlittlephotographofme。Wouldyoulikeit?’
  `WouldI!’Hetookitgladly,andtheportercame。Thereseemedtobeanominousglanceonhisfacewhenheopenedthegate。Shepassedin,lookingbackatJude,andwavingherhand。
  JudetheObscureChapter21III-iiiTheseventyyoungwomen,ofagesvaryinginthemainfromnineteentoone-and-twenty,thoughseveralwereolder,whoatthisdatefilledthespeciesofnunneryknownastheTraining-SchoolatMelchester,formedaverymixedcommunity,whichincludedthedaughtersofmechanics,curates,surgeons,shopkeepers,farmers,dairy-men,soldiers,sailors,andvillagers。Theysatinthelargeschool-roomoftheestablishmentontheeveningpreviouslydescribed,andwordwaspassedroundthatSueBrideheadhadnotcomeinatclosing-time。
  `Shewentoutwithheryoungman,’saidasecond-year’sstudent,whoknewaboutyoungmen。`AndMissTraceleysawheratthestationwithhim。She’llhaveithotwhenshedoescome。’
  `Shesaidhewashercousin,’observedayouthfulnewgirl。
  `Thatexcusehasbeenmadealittletooofteninthisschooltobeeffectualinsavingoursouls,’saidtheheadgirloftheyear,drily。
  Thefactwasthat,onlytwelvemonthsbefore,therehadoccurredalamentableseductionofoneofthepupilswhohadmadethesamestatementinordertogainmeetingswithherlover。Theaffairhadcreatedascandal,andthemanagementhadconsequentlybeenroughoncousinseversince。
  Atnineo’clockthenameswerecalled,Sue’sbeingpronouncedthreetimessonorouslybyMissTraceleywithoutelicitingananswer。
  Ataquarterpastninetheseventystooduptosingthe`EveningHymn,’andthenkneltdowntoprayers。Afterprayerstheywentintosupper,andeverygirl’sthoughtwas,WhereisSueBridehead?Someofthestudents,whohadseenJudefromthewindow,feltthattheywouldnotmindriskingherpunishmentforthepleasureofbeingkissedbysuchakindly-facedyoungmen。Hardlyoneamongthembelievedinthecousinship。
  Halfanhourlatertheyalllayintheircubicles,theirtenderfemininefacesupturnedtotheflaringgas-jetswhichatintervalsstretcheddownthelongdormitories,everyfacebearingthelegend`TheWeaker’uponit,asthepenaltyofthesexwhereintheyweremoulded,whichbynopossibleexertionoftheirwillingheartsandabilitiescouldbemadestrongwhiletheinexorablelawsofnatureremainwhattheyare。Theyformedapretty,suggestive,patheticsight,ofwhosepathosandbeautytheywerethemselvesunconscious,andwouldnotdiscovertill,amidthestormsandstrainsofafter-years,withtheirinjustice,loneliness,child-bearing,andbereavement,theirmindswouldreverttothisexperienceastosomethingwhichhadbeenallowedtoslippasttheminsufficientlyregarded。
  Oneofthemistressescameintoturnoutthelights,andbeforedoingsogaveafinalglanceatSue’scot,whichremainedempty,andatherlittledressing-tableatthefoot,which,likealltherest,wasornamentedwithvariousgirlishtrifles,framedphotographsbeingnottheleastconspicuousamongthem。Sue’stablehadamoderateshow,twomenintheirfiligreeandvelvetframesstandingtogetherbesideherlooking-glass。
  `Whoarethesemen-didsheeversay?’askedthemistress。`Strictlyspeaking,relations’portraitsonlyareallowedonthesetables,youknow。’
  `One-themiddle-agedman,’saidastudentinthenextbed-
  `istheschoolmastersheservedunder-Mr。Phillotson。’
  `Andtheother-thisundergraduateincapandgown-whoishe?’
  `Heisafriend,orwas。Shehasnevertoldhisname。’
  `Wasiteitherofthesetwowhocameforher?’
  `No。’
  `Youaresure’twasnottheundergraduate?’
  `Quite。Hewasayoungmanwithablackbeard。’
  Thelightswerepromptlyextinguished,andtilltheyfellasleepthegirlsindulgedinconjecturesaboutSue,andwonderedwhatgamesshehadcarriedoninLondonandatChristminsterbeforeshecamehere,someofthemorerestlessonesgettingoutofbedandlookingfromthemullionedwindowsatthevastwestfrontofthecathedralopposite,andthespirerisingbehindit。
  WhentheyawokethenextmorningtheyglancedintoSue’snook,tofinditstillwithoutatenant。Aftertheearlylessonsbygas-light,inhalf-toilet,andwhentheyhadcomeuptodressforbreakfast,thebelloftheentrancegatewasheardtoringloudly。Themistressofthedormitorywentaway,andpresentlycamebacktosaythattheprincipal’sorderswerethatnobodywastospeaktoBrideheadwithoutpermission。
  When,accordingly,Suecameintothedormitorytohastilytidyherself,lookingflushedandtired,shewenttohercubicleinsilence,noneofthemcomingouttogreetherortomakeinquiry。Whentheyhadgonedownstairstheyfoundthatshedidnotfollowthemintothedining-halltobreakfast,andtheythenlearntthatshehadbeenseverelyreprimanded,andorderedtoasolitaryroomforaweek,theretobeconfined,andtakehermeals,anddoallherreading。
  Atthistheseventymurmured,thesentencebeing,theythought,toosevere。Aroundrobinwaspreparedandsentintotheprincipal,askingforaremissionofSue’spunishment。Nonoticewastaken。Towardsevening,whenthegeographymistressbegandictatinghersubject,thegirlsintheclasssatwithfoldedarms。
  `Youmeanthatyouarenotgoingtowork?’saidthemistressatlast。`ImayaswelltellyouthatithasbeenascertainedthattheyoungmanBrideheadstayedoutwithwasnothercousin,fortheverygoodreasonthatshehasnosuchrelative。WehavewrittentoChristminstertoascertain。’
  `Wearewillingtotakeherword,’saidtheheadgirl。
  `ThisyoungmanwasdischargedfromhisworkatChristminsterfordrunkennessandblasphemyinpublic-houses,andhehascomeheretolive,entirelytobenearher。’
  However,theyremainedstolidandmotionless,andthemistresslefttheroomtoinquirefromhersuperiorswhatwastobedone。
  Presently,towardsdusk,thepupils,astheysat,heardexclamationsfromthefirst-year’sgirlsinanadjoiningclassroom,andonerushedintosaythatSueBrideheadhadgotoutofthebackwindowoftheroominwhichshehadbeenconfined,escapedinthedarkacrossthelawn,anddisappeared。
  Howshehadmanagedtogetoutofthegardennobodycouldtell,asitwasboundedbytheriveratthebottom,andthesidedoorwaslocked。
  Theywentandlookedattheemptyroom,thecasementbetweenthemiddlemullionsofwhichstoodopen。Thelawnwasagainsearchedwithalantern,everybushandshrubbeingexamined,butshewasnowherehidden。
  Thentheporterofthefrontgatewasinterrogated,andonreflectionhesaidthatherememberedhearingasortofsplashinginthestreamattheback,buthehadtakennonotice,thinkingsomeduckshadcomedowntheriverfromabove。
  `Shemusthavewalkedthroughtheriver!’saidamistress。
  `Ordrowndedherself,’saidtheporter。
  Themindofthematronwashorrified-notsomuchatthepossibledeathofSueasatthepossiblehalf-columndetailingthateventinallthenewspapers,which,addedtothescandaloftheyearbefore,wouldgivethecollegeanunenviablenotorietyformanymonthstocome。
  Morelanternswereprocured,andtheriverexamined;andthen,atlast,ontheoppositeshore,whichwasopentothefields,somelittleboot-trackswerediscernedinthemud,whichleftnodoubtthatthetooexcitablegirlhadwadedthroughadepthofwaterreachingnearlytohershoulders-forthiswasthechiefriverofthecounty,andwasmentionedinallthegeographybookswithrespect。AsSuehadnotbroughtdisgraceupontheschoolbydrowningherself,thematronbegantospeaksuperciliouslyofher,andtoexpressgladnessthatshewasgone。
  Ontheself-sameeveningJudesatinhislodgingsbytheCloseGate。OftenatthishourafterduskhewouldenterthesilentClose,andstandoppositethehousethatcontainedSue,andwatchtheshadowsofthegirls’headspassingtoandfroupontheblinds,andwishhehadnothingelsetodobuttositreadingandlearningalldaywhatmanyofthethoughtlessinmatesdespised。Butto-night,havingfinishedteaandbrushedhimselfup,hewasdeepintheperusaloftheTwenty-ninthVolumeofPusey’sLibraryoftheFathers,asetofbookswhichhehadpurchasedofasecond-handdealeratapricethatseemedtohimtobeoneofmiraculouscheapnessforthatinvaluablework。Hefanciedheheardsomethingrattlelightlyagainsthiswindow;thenhehearditagain。Certainlysomebodyhadthrowngravel。Heroseandgentlyliftedthesash。
  `Jude!’frombelow。
  `Sue!’
  `Yes-itis!CanIcomeupwithoutbeingseen?’
  `Ohyes!’
  `Thendon’tcomedown。Shutthewindow。’