Abouthalf-wayontheirjourneytheycrossedamainroadrunningdueeastandwest-theoldroadfromLondontoLand’sEnd。Theypaused,andlookedupanddownitforamoment,andremarkeduponthedesolationwhichhadcomeoverthisoncelivelythoroughfare,whilethewinddippedtoearthandscoopedstrawsandhay-stemsfromtheground。
Theycrossedtheroadandpassedon,butduringthenexthalf-mileSueseemedtogrowtired,andJudebegantobedistressedforher。Theyhadwalkedagooddistancealtogether,andiftheycouldnotreachtheotherstationitwouldberatherawkward。Foralongtimetherewasnocottagevisibleonthewideexpanseofdownandturnip-land;butpresentlytheycametoasheepfold,andnexttotheshepherd,pitchinghurdles。Hetoldthemthattheonlyhousenearwashismother’sandhis,pointingtoalittledipaheadfromwhichafaintbluesmokearose,andrecommendedthemtogoonandrestthere。
Thistheydid,andenteredthehouse,admittedbyanoldwomanwithoutasingletooth,towhomtheywereascivilasstrangerscanbewhentheironlychanceofrestandshelterliesinthefavourofthehouseholder。
`Anicelittlecottage,’saidJude。
`Oh,Idon’tknowabouttheniceness。Ishallhavetothatchitsoon,andwherethethatchistocomefromIcan’ttell,forstrawdogetthatdear,that’twillsoonbecheapertocoveryourhousewi’chaineyplatesthanthatch。’
Theysatresting,andtheshepherdcamein。`Don’t’eemindI,’
hesaidwithadeprecatingwaveofthehand`bidehereaslongasyewill。
Butmidyoubethinkingo’gettingbacktoMelchesterto-nightbytrain?
Becauseyou’llneverdoitinthisworld,sinceyoudon’tknowthelieofthecountry。Idon’tmindgoingwithyesomeo’theways,buteventhenthetrainmidbegone。’
Theystartedup。
`Youcanbidehere,youknow,overthenight-can’t’em,Mother?
Theplaceiswelcometoye。’Tishardlying,rather,butvolkmaydoworse。’
HeturnedtoJudeandaskedprivately:`Beyouamarriedcouple?’
`Hsh-no!’saidJude。
`Oh-Imeantnothingba’dy-notI!Wellthen,shecangointoMother’sroom,andyouandIcanlieintheouterchimmerafterthey’vegonethrough。Icancallyesoonenoughtocatchthefirsttrainback。
You’velostthisonenow。’
Onconsiderationtheydecidedtoclosewiththisoffer,anddrewupandsharedwiththeshepherdandhismothertheboiledbaconandgreensforsupper。
`Iratherlikethis,’saidSue,whiletheirentertainerswereclearingawaythedishes。`Outsidealllawsexceptgravitationandgermination。’
`Youonlythinkyoulikeit;youdon’t:youarequiteaproductofcivilization,’saidJude,arecollectionofherengagementrevivinghissorenessalittle。
`IndeedIamnot,Jude。Ilikereadingandallthat,butIcravetogetbacktothelifeofmyinfancyanditsfreedom。’
`Doyourememberitsowell?Youseemtometohavenothingunconventionalatallaboutyou。’
`Oh,haven’tI!Youdon’tknowwhat’sinsideme。’
`What?’
`TheIshmaelite。’
`Anurbanmissiswhatyouare。’
Shelookedseveredisagreement,andturnedaway。
Theshepherdarousedthemthenextmorning,ashehadsaid。Itwasbrightandclear,andthefourmilestothetrainwereaccomplishedpleasantly。WhentheyhadreachedMelchester,andwalkedtotheClose,andthegablesoftheoldbuildinginwhichshewasagaintobeimmuredrosebeforeSue’seyes,shelookedalittlescared。`IexpectIshallcatchit!’shemurmured。
Theyrangthegreatbellandwaited。
`Oh,Iboughtsomethingforyou,whichIhadnearlyforgotten,’
shesaidquickly,searchingherpocket。`Itisanewlittlephotographofme。Wouldyoulikeit?’
`WouldI!’Hetookitgladly,andtheportercame。Thereseemedtobeanominousglanceonhisfacewhenheopenedthegate。Shepassedin,lookingbackatJude,andwavingherhand。
JudetheObscureChapter21III-iiiTheseventyyoungwomen,ofagesvaryinginthemainfromnineteentoone-and-twenty,thoughseveralwereolder,whoatthisdatefilledthespeciesofnunneryknownastheTraining-SchoolatMelchester,formedaverymixedcommunity,whichincludedthedaughtersofmechanics,curates,surgeons,shopkeepers,farmers,dairy-men,soldiers,sailors,andvillagers。Theysatinthelargeschool-roomoftheestablishmentontheeveningpreviouslydescribed,andwordwaspassedroundthatSueBrideheadhadnotcomeinatclosing-time。
`Shewentoutwithheryoungman,’saidasecond-year’sstudent,whoknewaboutyoungmen。`AndMissTraceleysawheratthestationwithhim。She’llhaveithotwhenshedoescome。’
`Shesaidhewashercousin,’observedayouthfulnewgirl。
`Thatexcusehasbeenmadealittletooofteninthisschooltobeeffectualinsavingoursouls,’saidtheheadgirloftheyear,drily。
Thefactwasthat,onlytwelvemonthsbefore,therehadoccurredalamentableseductionofoneofthepupilswhohadmadethesamestatementinordertogainmeetingswithherlover。Theaffairhadcreatedascandal,andthemanagementhadconsequentlybeenroughoncousinseversince。
Atnineo’clockthenameswerecalled,Sue’sbeingpronouncedthreetimessonorouslybyMissTraceleywithoutelicitingananswer。
Ataquarterpastninetheseventystooduptosingthe`EveningHymn,’andthenkneltdowntoprayers。Afterprayerstheywentintosupper,andeverygirl’sthoughtwas,WhereisSueBridehead?Someofthestudents,whohadseenJudefromthewindow,feltthattheywouldnotmindriskingherpunishmentforthepleasureofbeingkissedbysuchakindly-facedyoungmen。Hardlyoneamongthembelievedinthecousinship。
Halfanhourlatertheyalllayintheircubicles,theirtenderfemininefacesupturnedtotheflaringgas-jetswhichatintervalsstretcheddownthelongdormitories,everyfacebearingthelegend`TheWeaker’uponit,asthepenaltyofthesexwhereintheyweremoulded,whichbynopossibleexertionoftheirwillingheartsandabilitiescouldbemadestrongwhiletheinexorablelawsofnatureremainwhattheyare。Theyformedapretty,suggestive,patheticsight,ofwhosepathosandbeautytheywerethemselvesunconscious,andwouldnotdiscovertill,amidthestormsandstrainsofafter-years,withtheirinjustice,loneliness,child-bearing,andbereavement,theirmindswouldreverttothisexperienceastosomethingwhichhadbeenallowedtoslippasttheminsufficientlyregarded。
Oneofthemistressescameintoturnoutthelights,andbeforedoingsogaveafinalglanceatSue’scot,whichremainedempty,andatherlittledressing-tableatthefoot,which,likealltherest,wasornamentedwithvariousgirlishtrifles,framedphotographsbeingnottheleastconspicuousamongthem。Sue’stablehadamoderateshow,twomenintheirfiligreeandvelvetframesstandingtogetherbesideherlooking-glass。
`Whoarethesemen-didsheeversay?’askedthemistress。`Strictlyspeaking,relations’portraitsonlyareallowedonthesetables,youknow。’
`One-themiddle-agedman,’saidastudentinthenextbed-
`istheschoolmastersheservedunder-Mr。Phillotson。’
`Andtheother-thisundergraduateincapandgown-whoishe?’
`Heisafriend,orwas。Shehasnevertoldhisname。’
`Wasiteitherofthesetwowhocameforher?’
`No。’
`Youaresure’twasnottheundergraduate?’
`Quite。Hewasayoungmanwithablackbeard。’
Thelightswerepromptlyextinguished,andtilltheyfellasleepthegirlsindulgedinconjecturesaboutSue,andwonderedwhatgamesshehadcarriedoninLondonandatChristminsterbeforeshecamehere,someofthemorerestlessonesgettingoutofbedandlookingfromthemullionedwindowsatthevastwestfrontofthecathedralopposite,andthespirerisingbehindit。
WhentheyawokethenextmorningtheyglancedintoSue’snook,tofinditstillwithoutatenant。Aftertheearlylessonsbygas-light,inhalf-toilet,andwhentheyhadcomeuptodressforbreakfast,thebelloftheentrancegatewasheardtoringloudly。Themistressofthedormitorywentaway,andpresentlycamebacktosaythattheprincipal’sorderswerethatnobodywastospeaktoBrideheadwithoutpermission。
When,accordingly,Suecameintothedormitorytohastilytidyherself,lookingflushedandtired,shewenttohercubicleinsilence,noneofthemcomingouttogreetherortomakeinquiry。Whentheyhadgonedownstairstheyfoundthatshedidnotfollowthemintothedining-halltobreakfast,andtheythenlearntthatshehadbeenseverelyreprimanded,andorderedtoasolitaryroomforaweek,theretobeconfined,andtakehermeals,anddoallherreading。
Atthistheseventymurmured,thesentencebeing,theythought,toosevere。Aroundrobinwaspreparedandsentintotheprincipal,askingforaremissionofSue’spunishment。Nonoticewastaken。Towardsevening,whenthegeographymistressbegandictatinghersubject,thegirlsintheclasssatwithfoldedarms。
`Youmeanthatyouarenotgoingtowork?’saidthemistressatlast。`ImayaswelltellyouthatithasbeenascertainedthattheyoungmanBrideheadstayedoutwithwasnothercousin,fortheverygoodreasonthatshehasnosuchrelative。WehavewrittentoChristminstertoascertain。’
`Wearewillingtotakeherword,’saidtheheadgirl。
`ThisyoungmanwasdischargedfromhisworkatChristminsterfordrunkennessandblasphemyinpublic-houses,andhehascomeheretolive,entirelytobenearher。’
However,theyremainedstolidandmotionless,andthemistresslefttheroomtoinquirefromhersuperiorswhatwastobedone。
Presently,towardsdusk,thepupils,astheysat,heardexclamationsfromthefirst-year’sgirlsinanadjoiningclassroom,andonerushedintosaythatSueBrideheadhadgotoutofthebackwindowoftheroominwhichshehadbeenconfined,escapedinthedarkacrossthelawn,anddisappeared。
Howshehadmanagedtogetoutofthegardennobodycouldtell,asitwasboundedbytheriveratthebottom,andthesidedoorwaslocked。
Theywentandlookedattheemptyroom,thecasementbetweenthemiddlemullionsofwhichstoodopen。Thelawnwasagainsearchedwithalantern,everybushandshrubbeingexamined,butshewasnowherehidden。
Thentheporterofthefrontgatewasinterrogated,andonreflectionhesaidthatherememberedhearingasortofsplashinginthestreamattheback,buthehadtakennonotice,thinkingsomeduckshadcomedowntheriverfromabove。
`Shemusthavewalkedthroughtheriver!’saidamistress。
`Ordrowndedherself,’saidtheporter。
Themindofthematronwashorrified-notsomuchatthepossibledeathofSueasatthepossiblehalf-columndetailingthateventinallthenewspapers,which,addedtothescandaloftheyearbefore,wouldgivethecollegeanunenviablenotorietyformanymonthstocome。
Morelanternswereprocured,andtheriverexamined;andthen,atlast,ontheoppositeshore,whichwasopentothefields,somelittleboot-trackswerediscernedinthemud,whichleftnodoubtthatthetooexcitablegirlhadwadedthroughadepthofwaterreachingnearlytohershoulders-forthiswasthechiefriverofthecounty,andwasmentionedinallthegeographybookswithrespect。AsSuehadnotbroughtdisgraceupontheschoolbydrowningherself,thematronbegantospeaksuperciliouslyofher,andtoexpressgladnessthatshewasgone。
Ontheself-sameeveningJudesatinhislodgingsbytheCloseGate。OftenatthishourafterduskhewouldenterthesilentClose,andstandoppositethehousethatcontainedSue,andwatchtheshadowsofthegirls’headspassingtoandfroupontheblinds,andwishhehadnothingelsetodobuttositreadingandlearningalldaywhatmanyofthethoughtlessinmatesdespised。Butto-night,havingfinishedteaandbrushedhimselfup,hewasdeepintheperusaloftheTwenty-ninthVolumeofPusey’sLibraryoftheFathers,asetofbookswhichhehadpurchasedofasecond-handdealeratapricethatseemedtohimtobeoneofmiraculouscheapnessforthatinvaluablework。Hefanciedheheardsomethingrattlelightlyagainsthiswindow;thenhehearditagain。Certainlysomebodyhadthrowngravel。Heroseandgentlyliftedthesash。
`Jude!’frombelow。
`Sue!’
`Yes-itis!CanIcomeupwithoutbeingseen?’
`Ohyes!’
`Thendon’tcomedown。Shutthewindow。’
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