MissJones,hervoicetrembling:“Children,Ireallyinsist——“Andmorebooksdropped,andmorewhispersandmoreprotests,andsoonadinfinitum。Abeautifulgametobeplayedallthemorning。
OrtherewasthegameofNotHearing。MissJoneswouldsay:“Andtwicetwoarefour。“Marywouldrepeatloudly:“Andtwicetwoisfive——“
“Four,Mary。“
“Oh,Ithoughtyousaidfive。“
AndthenasecondlaterJeremywouldask:
“Didyousayfourorfive,MissJones?“
“ItoldMaryIsaidfour——“
“Oh,I’vewrittenfive——andnowit’sallwrong。Didn’tyouwritefive,Mary?“
“Yes,I’vewrittenfive。Youdidsayfour,didn’tyou,MissJones?“
“Yes——yes。Andthreemakes——“
“Whatdidyousaymadefive?“askedJeremy。
“Ididn’tsayfive。Isaidfour。Twicetwo。“
“Isthataswellas’addthree,’MissJones?I’vegottwicetwo,andthenaddthree,andthentwicetwo——“
“No,no。IwasonlytellingJeremy——“
“Please,MissJones,wouldyoumindbeginningagain——“
Thisisaveryunpleasantgameforaladywithneuralgia。
OrthereisthegameofMakingaNoise。Atthisgame,withoutanyearliertrainingorpractice,Jeremywasaperfectmaster。Thethreechildrenwouldbesittingtherevery,veryquiet,learningthefirstverseof“Tiger,Tiger,burningbright——“Averygentlecreakingsoundwouldbreakthestillness——acreakingsoundthatcanbemade,ifyouareclever,byrubbingabootagainstaboot。Itwouldnotcomeregularly,butonce,twice,thrice,apause,andthenonce,twiceandanotherpause。
“Who’smakinganoise?“
Deadsilence。Averylongpause,andthenitwouldbeginagain。
“Thatnoisemustcease,Isay。Jeremy,whatareyoudoing?“
Hewouldlifttohertheneyesfullofmeeknessandlove。
“Nothing,MissJones。“
Soonitwouldbeginagain。MissJoneswouldbesilentthistime,andthenMarywouldspeak。
“Please,wouldyouaskJeremynottorubhisbootstogether?Ican’tlearnmyverse——“
“Ididn’tknowIwas,“saysJeremy。
Thenitwouldbeginagain。Jeremywouldsay:
“Please,mayItakemybootsoff?“
“Takeyourbootsoff?Why?“
“Theywillrubtogether,andIcan’tstopthem,becauseIdon’tknowwhenIdoit,anditishardforMary——“
“Ofcoursenot!Ineverheardofsuchathing!Nexttimeyoudoityoumuststandonyourchair。“
SoonJeremyisstandingonhischair。Soonhispoetrybookdropswithaterriblecrashtotheground,andfivemillionpinsstabMissJones’sheart。Withwhitefaceandtremblinghands,shesays:
“Goandstandinthecorner,Jeremy!Ishallhavetospeaktoyourmother!“
Hegoes,grinningatMary,andstandsthereknowingthathisvictimiswatchingthedoorinanagonylestMrs。ColeshouldsuddenlycomeinandinquirewhatJeremyhaddone,andthatsothewholestoryofhisinsubordinationberevealedandMissJoneslosehersituationforincapacity。
HowdidhediscoverthisfinalweaknessofMissJones?Noonetoldhim;butheknew,and,asthedayspassed,rejoicedinhispowerandhismightandhisglory。
Thencametheclimax。Thechildrenwerenotperfectlysurewhether,afterall,MissJonesmightnottelltheirmother。Theydidnotwishthistohappen,andsolongasthiscalamitywaspossibletheywerenotcompletemastersofthepoorlady。Thencameamorningwhentheyhadbeenextremelynaughty,wheneverygamehadbeenplayedandeverytriumphscored。MissJones,almostintears,hadthreatenedfourtimesthatthePowersAboveshouldbeinformed。SuddenlyMrs。
Coleentered。
“Well,MissJones,howhavethechildrenbeenthismorning?Ifthey’vebeengoodIhavealittletreattopropose。“
Thechildrenwaited,theireyesupontheirgoverness。Hereyesstaredbackuponhertormentors。Herhandsworkedtogether。Shestruggled。WhynotcallinMrs。Cole’sauthoritytoheraid?No;sheknewwhatitwouldmean——“I’mverysorry,MissJones,butIthinkayoungergoverness,perhaps——“
Herthroatmoved。
“They’vebeenverygoodthismorning,Mrs。Cole。“
TheeyesofMaryandofJeremywerealightwithtriumph。
Theyhadwontheirfinalvictory。
III
IknowwhatMissJonessufferedduringthoseweeks。Shewasnotanoldladyofverygreatpowerofresistance,anditmusthavepositivelyterrifiedherthatthesesmallchildrenshouldsovindictivelyhateher。Shecouldnothaveseenitasanythingbuthatred,beingentirelyignorantofchildrenandthestrangeforcestowhosepowertheyaresubject,andshemusthaveshiveredinherbedroomatthedrearinessandterroroftheprospectbeforeher。
Many,manytimesshemusthaveresolvednottobebeaten,andmany,manytimesshemusthaveadmittedherselfbeatenasbadlyasanyonecanbe。
Herlifewiththepeopledownstairswasnotintimateenough,norwerethosepeoplethemselvesperceptiveenoughforanyrealisationofwhatwasoccurringtopenetrate。
“Ihopeyou’rehappywiththechildren,MissJones,“onceortwicesaidMrs。Cole。
“Very,thankyou,“saidMissJones。
“They’regoodchildren,Ithink,althoughparentsarealwaysprejudiced,ofcourse。Jeremyisalittledifficultperhaps。It’ssohardtotellwhathe’sreallythinking。Youfindhimaquiet,reservedlittleboy?“
“Very,“saidMissJones。
“Inalittlewhile,whenyouknowhimbetter,hewillcomeout。Onlyyouhavetolethimtakehistime。Hedoesn’tliketobeforced——“
“No,“saidMissJones。
Meanwhile,thatmorningdescentintotheschoolroomwasrealhellforher。Shehadtosummonuphercourage,walkingaboutherbedroom,pressingherhandstogether,evokingthememoryofhermagnificentiron-souledbrother,whowould,sheknew,despisesuchtremors。Ifonlyshecouldhavediscoveredsomeremedy!Butsentiment,attemptedtyranny,anger,contempt,atallthesethingstheylaughed。Shecouldnottouchthemanywhere。AndshesawJeremyasarealchildofEvilintheverybaldestsense。Shecouldnotimaginehowanyonesoyoungcouldbesocruel,soheartless,somaliciouslycleverinhiselaboratemachinations。Sheregardedhimwithrealhorror,andontheoccasionswhenshefoundhimactingkindlytowardshissistersoraservant,orwhenshewatchedhimdiscoursingsolemnlytoHamlet,shewashelplesslypuzzled,anddecidedthatthesebettermanifestationsweresimplymaskstohidehisdevilishyoungheart。Sheperceivedmeanwhiletheinevitablecrisisslowlyapproaching,whenshewouldbecompelledtoinviteMrs。Cole’ssupport。Thatwouldmeanherdismissalandahopelessfuture。Therewasnoonetowhomshemightturn。Shehadnotarelation,notafriend——toolatetomakefriendsnow。
Shecouldseenothinginfrontofheratall。
Thecrisisdidcome,butnotassheexpectedit。
Therearrivedamorningwhenthedarkmistoutsideandbadlymadeporridgeinsidetemptedthechildrentotheirveryworst。MissJoneshadhadawakefulnightstrugglingwithneuralgiaandherownhesitatingspirit。Thechildrenhadlosteventheircustomaryhalf-
humourous,half-contemptuousreserve。Theyletthemselvesappearforwhattheywere——infantsavagesdiscontentedwithfood,weatherandeducation。
Iwillnotdetailtheincidentsofthatmorning。Theepisodesthatwereonothermorningsgamesweretodaytortures。TherewastheTortureofLosingThings,theTortureofNotHearing,theTortureofManyNoises,theTortureofSuddenAlarm,theTortureofOutrightDefiance,theTortureofExpressedContempt。Whentwelvestruckandthechildrenwerefree,MissJoneswasnotfarfromanervouspanicthatcanbecalled,withoutanyexaggeration,incipientmadness。Theneuralgiatoreatherbrain,herownself-contempttoreatherheart,herbaffledimpotencebewilderedandblindedher。Shedidnotleavetheschoolroomwiththechildren,butwenttothebroadwindow-sillandsattherelookingoutintothedrearyprospect。
Then,suddenlyfornoreasonexceptgeneralweaknessandphysicalandspiritualcollapseshebegantocry。
Jeremywasconsideredtohaveacold,andwas,therefore,notpermittedtoaccompanyhismotherandsistersonanexcitingshoppingexpedition,whichwouldcertainlyleadasfarasoldPoole’s,thebookseller,andmightevenextendtoMartins’,thepastrycook,whomadelemonbiscuitsnextdoortotheCathedral。Hewas,therefore,inaverybadtemperindeedwhenhereturnedsulkilytotheschoolroom。Hestoodforamomentthereunawarethattherewasanybodyintheroom,hesitatingastowhetherheshouldcontinue“AFlatIronforaFarthing“orhuntupHamlet。Suddenlyheheardthesoundofsobbing。HeturnedandsawMissJones。
Hewouldhavefledhadflightbeeninanywaypossible,butshehadlookedupandseenhim,andhersuddenarrestedsniffheldthemboththereasthoughbysomethirdinvisiblepower。Hesawthatshewascrying;hesawherrednose,mottledcheeks,untidyhair。Itwasthemostawfulmomentofhisyounglife。Hehadneverseenagrown-uppersoncrybefore;hehadnoideathattheyeverdidcry。Hehad,indeed,neverrealisedthatgrown-uppersonshadanyactivehistoriesatall,anyhistoriesinthesenseinwhichheandMaryhadthem。Theywereallabackground,simplyabackgroundthatblewbackwardsandforwardsliketapestryaccordingtoone’sneedofthem。HistortureofMissJoneshadbeenfoundedonnosortofrealisationofherasahumanbeing;shehadbeenasillyoldwoman,ofcourse,butjustasthebatteredweather-beatenAuntSallyinthegardenwasasillyoldwoman。
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