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第15章

  MissJones,hervoicetrembling:“Children,Ireallyinsist——“Andmorebooksdropped,andmorewhispersandmoreprotests,andsoonadinfinitum。Abeautifulgametobeplayedallthemorning。
  OrtherewasthegameofNotHearing。MissJoneswouldsay:“Andtwicetwoarefour。“Marywouldrepeatloudly:“Andtwicetwoisfive——“
  “Four,Mary。“
  “Oh,Ithoughtyousaidfive。“
  AndthenasecondlaterJeremywouldask:
  “Didyousayfourorfive,MissJones?“
  “ItoldMaryIsaidfour——“
  “Oh,I’vewrittenfive——andnowit’sallwrong。Didn’tyouwritefive,Mary?“
  “Yes,I’vewrittenfive。Youdidsayfour,didn’tyou,MissJones?“
  “Yes——yes。Andthreemakes——“
  “Whatdidyousaymadefive?“askedJeremy。
  “Ididn’tsayfive。Isaidfour。Twicetwo。“
  “Isthataswellas’addthree,’MissJones?I’vegottwicetwo,andthenaddthree,andthentwicetwo——“
  “No,no。IwasonlytellingJeremy——“
  “Please,MissJones,wouldyoumindbeginningagain——“
  Thisisaveryunpleasantgameforaladywithneuralgia。
  OrthereisthegameofMakingaNoise。Atthisgame,withoutanyearliertrainingorpractice,Jeremywasaperfectmaster。Thethreechildrenwouldbesittingtherevery,veryquiet,learningthefirstverseof“Tiger,Tiger,burningbright——“Averygentlecreakingsoundwouldbreakthestillness——acreakingsoundthatcanbemade,ifyouareclever,byrubbingabootagainstaboot。Itwouldnotcomeregularly,butonce,twice,thrice,apause,andthenonce,twiceandanotherpause。
  “Who’smakinganoise?“
  Deadsilence。Averylongpause,andthenitwouldbeginagain。
  “Thatnoisemustcease,Isay。Jeremy,whatareyoudoing?“
  Hewouldlifttohertheneyesfullofmeeknessandlove。
  “Nothing,MissJones。“
  Soonitwouldbeginagain。MissJoneswouldbesilentthistime,andthenMarywouldspeak。
  “Please,wouldyouaskJeremynottorubhisbootstogether?Ican’tlearnmyverse——“
  “Ididn’tknowIwas,“saysJeremy。
  Thenitwouldbeginagain。Jeremywouldsay:
  “Please,mayItakemybootsoff?“
  “Takeyourbootsoff?Why?“
  “Theywillrubtogether,andIcan’tstopthem,becauseIdon’tknowwhenIdoit,anditishardforMary——“
  “Ofcoursenot!Ineverheardofsuchathing!Nexttimeyoudoityoumuststandonyourchair。“
  SoonJeremyisstandingonhischair。Soonhispoetrybookdropswithaterriblecrashtotheground,andfivemillionpinsstabMissJones’sheart。Withwhitefaceandtremblinghands,shesays:
  “Goandstandinthecorner,Jeremy!Ishallhavetospeaktoyourmother!“
  Hegoes,grinningatMary,andstandsthereknowingthathisvictimiswatchingthedoorinanagonylestMrs。ColeshouldsuddenlycomeinandinquirewhatJeremyhaddone,andthatsothewholestoryofhisinsubordinationberevealedandMissJoneslosehersituationforincapacity。
  HowdidhediscoverthisfinalweaknessofMissJones?Noonetoldhim;butheknew,and,asthedayspassed,rejoicedinhispowerandhismightandhisglory。
  Thencametheclimax。Thechildrenwerenotperfectlysurewhether,afterall,MissJonesmightnottelltheirmother。Theydidnotwishthistohappen,andsolongasthiscalamitywaspossibletheywerenotcompletemastersofthepoorlady。Thencameamorningwhentheyhadbeenextremelynaughty,wheneverygamehadbeenplayedandeverytriumphscored。MissJones,almostintears,hadthreatenedfourtimesthatthePowersAboveshouldbeinformed。SuddenlyMrs。
  Coleentered。
  “Well,MissJones,howhavethechildrenbeenthismorning?Ifthey’vebeengoodIhavealittletreattopropose。“
  Thechildrenwaited,theireyesupontheirgoverness。Hereyesstaredbackuponhertormentors。Herhandsworkedtogether。Shestruggled。WhynotcallinMrs。Cole’sauthoritytoheraid?No;sheknewwhatitwouldmean——“I’mverysorry,MissJones,butIthinkayoungergoverness,perhaps——“
  Herthroatmoved。
  “They’vebeenverygoodthismorning,Mrs。Cole。“
  TheeyesofMaryandofJeremywerealightwithtriumph。
  Theyhadwontheirfinalvictory。
  III
  IknowwhatMissJonessufferedduringthoseweeks。Shewasnotanoldladyofverygreatpowerofresistance,anditmusthavepositivelyterrifiedherthatthesesmallchildrenshouldsovindictivelyhateher。Shecouldnothaveseenitasanythingbuthatred,beingentirelyignorantofchildrenandthestrangeforcestowhosepowertheyaresubject,andshemusthaveshiveredinherbedroomatthedrearinessandterroroftheprospectbeforeher。
  Many,manytimesshemusthaveresolvednottobebeaten,andmany,manytimesshemusthaveadmittedherselfbeatenasbadlyasanyonecanbe。
  Herlifewiththepeopledownstairswasnotintimateenough,norwerethosepeoplethemselvesperceptiveenoughforanyrealisationofwhatwasoccurringtopenetrate。
  “Ihopeyou’rehappywiththechildren,MissJones,“onceortwicesaidMrs。Cole。
  “Very,thankyou,“saidMissJones。
  “They’regoodchildren,Ithink,althoughparentsarealwaysprejudiced,ofcourse。Jeremyisalittledifficultperhaps。It’ssohardtotellwhathe’sreallythinking。Youfindhimaquiet,reservedlittleboy?“
  “Very,“saidMissJones。
  “Inalittlewhile,whenyouknowhimbetter,hewillcomeout。Onlyyouhavetolethimtakehistime。Hedoesn’tliketobeforced——“
  “No,“saidMissJones。
  Meanwhile,thatmorningdescentintotheschoolroomwasrealhellforher。Shehadtosummonuphercourage,walkingaboutherbedroom,pressingherhandstogether,evokingthememoryofhermagnificentiron-souledbrother,whowould,sheknew,despisesuchtremors。Ifonlyshecouldhavediscoveredsomeremedy!Butsentiment,attemptedtyranny,anger,contempt,atallthesethingstheylaughed。Shecouldnottouchthemanywhere。AndshesawJeremyasarealchildofEvilintheverybaldestsense。Shecouldnotimaginehowanyonesoyoungcouldbesocruel,soheartless,somaliciouslycleverinhiselaboratemachinations。Sheregardedhimwithrealhorror,andontheoccasionswhenshefoundhimactingkindlytowardshissistersoraservant,orwhenshewatchedhimdiscoursingsolemnlytoHamlet,shewashelplesslypuzzled,anddecidedthatthesebettermanifestationsweresimplymaskstohidehisdevilishyoungheart。Sheperceivedmeanwhiletheinevitablecrisisslowlyapproaching,whenshewouldbecompelledtoinviteMrs。Cole’ssupport。Thatwouldmeanherdismissalandahopelessfuture。Therewasnoonetowhomshemightturn。Shehadnotarelation,notafriend——toolatetomakefriendsnow。
  Shecouldseenothinginfrontofheratall。
  Thecrisisdidcome,butnotassheexpectedit。
  Therearrivedamorningwhenthedarkmistoutsideandbadlymadeporridgeinsidetemptedthechildrentotheirveryworst。MissJoneshadhadawakefulnightstrugglingwithneuralgiaandherownhesitatingspirit。Thechildrenhadlosteventheircustomaryhalf-
  humourous,half-contemptuousreserve。Theyletthemselvesappearforwhattheywere——infantsavagesdiscontentedwithfood,weatherandeducation。
  Iwillnotdetailtheincidentsofthatmorning。Theepisodesthatwereonothermorningsgamesweretodaytortures。TherewastheTortureofLosingThings,theTortureofNotHearing,theTortureofManyNoises,theTortureofSuddenAlarm,theTortureofOutrightDefiance,theTortureofExpressedContempt。Whentwelvestruckandthechildrenwerefree,MissJoneswasnotfarfromanervouspanicthatcanbecalled,withoutanyexaggeration,incipientmadness。Theneuralgiatoreatherbrain,herownself-contempttoreatherheart,herbaffledimpotencebewilderedandblindedher。Shedidnotleavetheschoolroomwiththechildren,butwenttothebroadwindow-sillandsattherelookingoutintothedrearyprospect。
  Then,suddenlyfornoreasonexceptgeneralweaknessandphysicalandspiritualcollapseshebegantocry。
  Jeremywasconsideredtohaveacold,andwas,therefore,notpermittedtoaccompanyhismotherandsistersonanexcitingshoppingexpedition,whichwouldcertainlyleadasfarasoldPoole’s,thebookseller,andmightevenextendtoMartins’,thepastrycook,whomadelemonbiscuitsnextdoortotheCathedral。Hewas,therefore,inaverybadtemperindeedwhenhereturnedsulkilytotheschoolroom。Hestoodforamomentthereunawarethattherewasanybodyintheroom,hesitatingastowhetherheshouldcontinue“AFlatIronforaFarthing“orhuntupHamlet。Suddenlyheheardthesoundofsobbing。HeturnedandsawMissJones。
  Hewouldhavefledhadflightbeeninanywaypossible,butshehadlookedupandseenhim,andhersuddenarrestedsniffheldthemboththereasthoughbysomethirdinvisiblepower。Hesawthatshewascrying;hesawherrednose,mottledcheeks,untidyhair。Itwasthemostawfulmomentofhisyounglife。Hehadneverseenagrown-uppersoncrybefore;hehadnoideathattheyeverdidcry。Hehad,indeed,neverrealisedthatgrown-uppersonshadanyactivehistoriesatall,anyhistoriesinthesenseinwhichheandMaryhadthem。Theywereallabackground,simplyabackgroundthatblewbackwardsandforwardsliketapestryaccordingtoone’sneedofthem。HistortureofMissJoneshadbeenfoundedonnosortofrealisationofherasahumanbeing;shehadbeenasillyoldwoman,ofcourse,butjustasthebatteredweather-beatenAuntSallyinthegardenwasasillyoldwoman。