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第14章

  Thislastshehadreadofinbooks。AtfirstJeremyhadeveryintentionofbehavingwell,inspiteofthatunfortunateembrace。Hewasproudofhisadvanceinlife;hewasnolongerababy;thenurserywasnowaschoolroom;hestayedupanhourlateratnight;
  hewastobeallowedtwopenceaweekpocket-money;hiswholesocialstatushadrisen。Hebegantoreadforpleasure,anddiscoveredthatitwaseasierthanhehadexpected,sothathepassedquitequicklythrough“Lottie’sVisittoGrandmama“into“Stumps“andoutagainin“Jackanapes。“Heheardsomeeldersaythattheroadtoalargefortunelaythrough“Sums,“and,althoughthisseemedtohimanextremelymysteriousstatement,hedeterminedtogivethetheoryachance。Infact,hesatdownthefirstdayattheschoolroomtable,MaryandHelenoneachsideofhim,andMissJonesfacingthem,withfineresolvesandhighambitions。Beforehimlayapurewhitepage,andattheheadofthisthenoblewordsinarunninghand:“Slowandsteadywinstherace。“Hegraspedhispencil,andMissJones,eagertolosenotimeinassertingherauthority,cried:“Butthat’snotthewaytoholdyourpencil,Jeremy,yourthumbso,yourfingerso。“
  HescowledandfoundthatliftinghisthumboverthepencilwasasdifficultasliftingHamletoveragate。Hemadeaboldattempt,butthepencilrefusedtomove。
  “Can’tholditthatway,“hesaid。
  “Youmustneversay’can’t,’Jeremy,“remarkedMissJones。“Thereisn’tsuchaword。“
  “Oh,yes,“saidMaryeagerly,“thereis;I’veseenitinbooks。“
  “Youmusn’tcontradict,Mary,“saidMissJones。“Ionlymeantthatyoumustbehaveasthoughthereisn’t,becausenothingisimpossibletoonewhotrulytries。“
  “Mypencilwagglesthisway,“saidJeremypolitely。“IthinkI’llholdittheoldway,please。“
  “There’sonlyonewayofdoinganything,“saidMissJones,“andthat’stherightway。“
  “Thisistherightwayforme,“saidJeremy。
  “IfIsayit’snottherightway——“
  “Butitwaggles,“criedJeremy。
  ThediscussionwasinterruptedbyacryfromHelen。
  “Oh,dolook,MissJones,Hamlet’sgotyourspectacle-case。Hethinksit’samouse。“
  Therefollowedgeneralconfusion。MissJonesjumpedup,and,withlittlecriesofdistress,pursuedHamlet,whohastenedintohisfavouritecornerandbegantoworrythespectacle-case,withoneeyeonMissJonesandoneonhisspoils。
  Jeremyhurriedupcrying:“Putitdown,Hamlet,naughtydog,naughtydog,“andMaryandHelenlaughedwithfranticdelight。
  AtlastMissJones,herfaceredandherhairindisorder,rescuedherpropertyandreturnedtothetable,Hamletmeanwhilewagginghistail,pantingandwatchingforafurthergame。
  “Ican’tpossibly,“saidMissJones,“allowthatdoginhereduringlessonhours。It’simpossible。“
  “Oh,butMissJones——“beganJeremy。
  “Notoneword,“saidshe,“letushavenomoreofthis。Leadhimfromtheroom,Jeremy!“
  “But,MissJones,hemustbehere。He’slearningtoo。Inadayortwohe’llbeasgoodasanything,reallyhewill。He’ssointelligent。Hereallythoughtitwashistoplaywith,andhedidgiveitup,didn’the,assoonasIsaid——“
  “Enough,“saidMissJones,“Iwilllistentonomore。Isayheisnottoremain——“
  “ButifIpromise——“saidJeremy。
  ThenMissJonesmadeabadmistake。Weariedoftheargument,wishingtocontinuethelesson,andhopingperhapstopleasehertormentors,shesaidmeekly:
  “Well,ifhereallyisgood,perhaps——“
  Fromthatinstantherdoomwassealed。Thechildrenexchangedaglanceofrealisation。Jeremysmiled。Thelessonwascontinued。WhatpossessedJeremynow?Whatpossessesanychild,naturallyperhaps,ofakindlyandevensentimentalnatureatthesightofsomethinghelplessandinitspower?Isthereanycrueltyinafterlifelikethecrueltyofasmallboy,andisthereanythingmorepowerful,moreunreasoning,andmoremaliciousthanthecalculatingtorturesthatsmallchildrendeviseforthoseweakerthanthemselves?Jeremywaspossessedwithanewpower。
  Itwassomethingalmostabstractinitsmanifestations;itwassomethingindecent,sinister,secret,foreigntohiswholenaturefeltbyhimnowforthefirsttime,unanalysed,ofcourse,butbelonging,hadheknownit,tothatworldofwhichafterwardshewasoftentocatchglimpses,thatworldofshiningwhitefacesindarkstreets,ofmuffledcriesfromshutteredwindows,ofmutteredexclamations,halfcaught,halfunderstood。Hewasneveragaintobequitefreefromtheneighbourhoodofthathalf-world;hewouldneverbequitesureofhisdominanceofituntilhedied。
  Hehadneverfeltanythinglikethispowerbefore。WiththeJampothisrelationshadbeenquitesimple;hehadbeenrebellious,naughty,disobedient,andhadbeenpunished,andtherewasanend。
  NowtherewasagameliketrackingRedIndiansintheprairieortigersinthejungle。
  HewatchedMissJonesanddiscoveredmanythingsabouther。Hediscoveredthatwhenshemademistakesinthethingsthatshetaughtthemshewasafraidtoconfesstohermistakes,andsomadethemworseandworse。Hediscoveredthatshewasverynervous,andthatasuddennoisemadeherjumpandturnwhiteandputherhandtoherheart。Hediscoveredthatshewouldpunishhimandthentrytopleasehimbysayingheneednotfinishhispunishment。Hediscoveredthatshewouldlosethings,likeherspectacles,herhandkerchief,orherpurse,andthenbeafraidtoconfessthatshehadlostthemandendeavourtoproceedwithoutthem。Hediscoveredthatshehatedtohithimonthehandwitharulerhescarcelyfeltthestrokes。Hediscoveredthatwhenhismotherorfatherwasintheroomshewasterrifiedlestheshouldmisbehave。
  Hediscoveredthatshewasdespisedbytheservants,whoquiteopenlyinsultedher。
  Allthesethingsfedhissenseofpower。Hedidnotconsiderherahumanbeingatall;shewassimplysomethinguponwhichhecouldexercisehisingenuityandcleverness。Maryfollowedhiminwhateverhedid;Helenpretendedtobesuperior,butwasnot。Yes,MissJoneswasinthehandsofhertormentors,andtherewasnoescapeforher。
  SurelyitmusthavebeensomeoutsidepowerthatdroveJeremyon。
  Thechildrencalledit“teasingMissJones,“andtheaboriginalsavageryintheirbehaviourwasasunconsciousastheirdailyspeechorfashionofeatingtheirfood——someinstinctinherited,perhaps,fromthedayswhenthegentlemanwiththebiggestmusclesextractedforhisdailyamusementtheteethandnailsofhislesshappilymuscularfriends。
  ThereweremanygamestobeplayedwithMissJones。Shealwaysbeganhermorningwithafineshowofauthority,accumulated,perhaps,duringhoursofSpartanresolutionwhilsttherestofthehouseholdslept。“To-morrowI’llseethattheydowhatItellthem——“
  “Now,children,“shewouldsay,“I’mdeterminedtostandnononsensethismorning。Getoutyourcopybooks。“Fiveminuteslaterwouldbegin:“Oh,MissJones,Ican’twritewiththispencil。MayIfindabetterone?“Grantedpermission,Mary’sheadandlargespectacleswoulddisappearinsidetheschoolroomcupboard。SoonJeremywouldsayverypolitely:“MissJones,IthinkIknowwhereitis。MayI
  helphertofindit?“ThenJeremy’sheadwoulddisappear。Therewouldfollowgiggles,whispers,againgiggles;thenfromthecupboardabooktumbles,thenanother,thenanother。ThenMissJoneswouldsay:“Now,Jeremy,comebacktothetable。You’vehadquiteenoughtime——“interruptedbyaperfectavalancheofbooks。Marycrying:
  “Oh,Jeremy!“Jeremycrying:“Ididn’t;itwasyou!“MissJones:
  “Now,children——“
  ThenJeremy,verypolitely:
  “Please,MissJones,mayIhelpMarytopickthebooksup?Thereareratheralot。“Then,bothontheirknees,morewhispersandgiggles。