Thislastshehadreadofinbooks。AtfirstJeremyhadeveryintentionofbehavingwell,inspiteofthatunfortunateembrace。Hewasproudofhisadvanceinlife;hewasnolongerababy;thenurserywasnowaschoolroom;hestayedupanhourlateratnight;
hewastobeallowedtwopenceaweekpocket-money;hiswholesocialstatushadrisen。Hebegantoreadforpleasure,anddiscoveredthatitwaseasierthanhehadexpected,sothathepassedquitequicklythrough“Lottie’sVisittoGrandmama“into“Stumps“andoutagainin“Jackanapes。“Heheardsomeeldersaythattheroadtoalargefortunelaythrough“Sums,“and,althoughthisseemedtohimanextremelymysteriousstatement,hedeterminedtogivethetheoryachance。Infact,hesatdownthefirstdayattheschoolroomtable,MaryandHelenoneachsideofhim,andMissJonesfacingthem,withfineresolvesandhighambitions。Beforehimlayapurewhitepage,andattheheadofthisthenoblewordsinarunninghand:“Slowandsteadywinstherace。“Hegraspedhispencil,andMissJones,eagertolosenotimeinassertingherauthority,cried:“Butthat’snotthewaytoholdyourpencil,Jeremy,yourthumbso,yourfingerso。“
HescowledandfoundthatliftinghisthumboverthepencilwasasdifficultasliftingHamletoveragate。Hemadeaboldattempt,butthepencilrefusedtomove。
“Can’tholditthatway,“hesaid。
“Youmustneversay’can’t,’Jeremy,“remarkedMissJones。“Thereisn’tsuchaword。“
“Oh,yes,“saidMaryeagerly,“thereis;I’veseenitinbooks。“
“Youmusn’tcontradict,Mary,“saidMissJones。“Ionlymeantthatyoumustbehaveasthoughthereisn’t,becausenothingisimpossibletoonewhotrulytries。“
“Mypencilwagglesthisway,“saidJeremypolitely。“IthinkI’llholdittheoldway,please。“
“There’sonlyonewayofdoinganything,“saidMissJones,“andthat’stherightway。“
“Thisistherightwayforme,“saidJeremy。
“IfIsayit’snottherightway——“
“Butitwaggles,“criedJeremy。
ThediscussionwasinterruptedbyacryfromHelen。
“Oh,dolook,MissJones,Hamlet’sgotyourspectacle-case。Hethinksit’samouse。“
Therefollowedgeneralconfusion。MissJonesjumpedup,and,withlittlecriesofdistress,pursuedHamlet,whohastenedintohisfavouritecornerandbegantoworrythespectacle-case,withoneeyeonMissJonesandoneonhisspoils。
Jeremyhurriedupcrying:“Putitdown,Hamlet,naughtydog,naughtydog,“andMaryandHelenlaughedwithfranticdelight。
AtlastMissJones,herfaceredandherhairindisorder,rescuedherpropertyandreturnedtothetable,Hamletmeanwhilewagginghistail,pantingandwatchingforafurthergame。
“Ican’tpossibly,“saidMissJones,“allowthatdoginhereduringlessonhours。It’simpossible。“
“Oh,butMissJones——“beganJeremy。
“Notoneword,“saidshe,“letushavenomoreofthis。Leadhimfromtheroom,Jeremy!“
“But,MissJones,hemustbehere。He’slearningtoo。Inadayortwohe’llbeasgoodasanything,reallyhewill。He’ssointelligent。Hereallythoughtitwashistoplaywith,andhedidgiveitup,didn’the,assoonasIsaid——“
“Enough,“saidMissJones,“Iwilllistentonomore。Isayheisnottoremain——“
“ButifIpromise——“saidJeremy。
ThenMissJonesmadeabadmistake。Weariedoftheargument,wishingtocontinuethelesson,andhopingperhapstopleasehertormentors,shesaidmeekly:
“Well,ifhereallyisgood,perhaps——“
Fromthatinstantherdoomwassealed。Thechildrenexchangedaglanceofrealisation。Jeremysmiled。Thelessonwascontinued。WhatpossessedJeremynow?Whatpossessesanychild,naturallyperhaps,ofakindlyandevensentimentalnatureatthesightofsomethinghelplessandinitspower?Isthereanycrueltyinafterlifelikethecrueltyofasmallboy,andisthereanythingmorepowerful,moreunreasoning,andmoremaliciousthanthecalculatingtorturesthatsmallchildrendeviseforthoseweakerthanthemselves?Jeremywaspossessedwithanewpower。
Itwassomethingalmostabstractinitsmanifestations;itwassomethingindecent,sinister,secret,foreigntohiswholenaturefeltbyhimnowforthefirsttime,unanalysed,ofcourse,butbelonging,hadheknownit,tothatworldofwhichafterwardshewasoftentocatchglimpses,thatworldofshiningwhitefacesindarkstreets,ofmuffledcriesfromshutteredwindows,ofmutteredexclamations,halfcaught,halfunderstood。Hewasneveragaintobequitefreefromtheneighbourhoodofthathalf-world;hewouldneverbequitesureofhisdominanceofituntilhedied。
Hehadneverfeltanythinglikethispowerbefore。WiththeJampothisrelationshadbeenquitesimple;hehadbeenrebellious,naughty,disobedient,andhadbeenpunished,andtherewasanend。
NowtherewasagameliketrackingRedIndiansintheprairieortigersinthejungle。
HewatchedMissJonesanddiscoveredmanythingsabouther。Hediscoveredthatwhenshemademistakesinthethingsthatshetaughtthemshewasafraidtoconfesstohermistakes,andsomadethemworseandworse。Hediscoveredthatshewasverynervous,andthatasuddennoisemadeherjumpandturnwhiteandputherhandtoherheart。Hediscoveredthatshewouldpunishhimandthentrytopleasehimbysayingheneednotfinishhispunishment。Hediscoveredthatshewouldlosethings,likeherspectacles,herhandkerchief,orherpurse,andthenbeafraidtoconfessthatshehadlostthemandendeavourtoproceedwithoutthem。Hediscoveredthatshehatedtohithimonthehandwitharulerhescarcelyfeltthestrokes。Hediscoveredthatwhenhismotherorfatherwasintheroomshewasterrifiedlestheshouldmisbehave。
Hediscoveredthatshewasdespisedbytheservants,whoquiteopenlyinsultedher。
Allthesethingsfedhissenseofpower。Hedidnotconsiderherahumanbeingatall;shewassimplysomethinguponwhichhecouldexercisehisingenuityandcleverness。Maryfollowedhiminwhateverhedid;Helenpretendedtobesuperior,butwasnot。Yes,MissJoneswasinthehandsofhertormentors,andtherewasnoescapeforher。
SurelyitmusthavebeensomeoutsidepowerthatdroveJeremyon。
Thechildrencalledit“teasingMissJones,“andtheaboriginalsavageryintheirbehaviourwasasunconsciousastheirdailyspeechorfashionofeatingtheirfood——someinstinctinherited,perhaps,fromthedayswhenthegentlemanwiththebiggestmusclesextractedforhisdailyamusementtheteethandnailsofhislesshappilymuscularfriends。
ThereweremanygamestobeplayedwithMissJones。Shealwaysbeganhermorningwithafineshowofauthority,accumulated,perhaps,duringhoursofSpartanresolutionwhilsttherestofthehouseholdslept。“To-morrowI’llseethattheydowhatItellthem——“
“Now,children,“shewouldsay,“I’mdeterminedtostandnononsensethismorning。Getoutyourcopybooks。“Fiveminuteslaterwouldbegin:“Oh,MissJones,Ican’twritewiththispencil。MayIfindabetterone?“Grantedpermission,Mary’sheadandlargespectacleswoulddisappearinsidetheschoolroomcupboard。SoonJeremywouldsayverypolitely:“MissJones,IthinkIknowwhereitis。MayI
helphertofindit?“ThenJeremy’sheadwoulddisappear。Therewouldfollowgiggles,whispers,againgiggles;thenfromthecupboardabooktumbles,thenanother,thenanother。ThenMissJoneswouldsay:“Now,Jeremy,comebacktothetable。You’vehadquiteenoughtime——“interruptedbyaperfectavalancheofbooks。Marycrying:
“Oh,Jeremy!“Jeremycrying:“Ididn’t;itwasyou!“MissJones:
“Now,children——“
ThenJeremy,verypolitely:
“Please,MissJones,mayIhelpMarytopickthebooksup?Thereareratheralot。“Then,bothontheirknees,morewhispersandgiggles。
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