Jones——havingjustdiedofgeneralbad-temperandselfishness。
MissJones,buriedduringthelasttwentyyearsinthegreendepthsofaGlebeshirevalley,foundherselfnow,attheageoffifty,withoutfriends,withoutmoney,withoutrelations。Shethoughtthatshewouldbeagoverness。
TheDeanrecommendedher,Mrs。Coleapprovedofherbirth,educationandsobriety,Mr。Colelikedtheseverityofhercountenancewhenshecametocall,andshewasengaged。
“Jeremyneedsatighthand,“saidMr。Cole。“It’snousehavingayounggirl。“
“MissJoneseasilyescapesthatcharge,“saidUncleSamuel,whohadmetherinthehall。
Thechildrenwerepreparedtobegood。Jeremyfeltthatitwastimetotakelifeseriously。Heputawayhistoyvillage,scoldedHamletforeatingMary’spincushion,anddraggedouthisdirtyexercise-
bookinwhichhedidsums。
“Idohatesums!“hesaid,withasigh,regardingthehideoussmudgesofthumbsandtearsthatscoredthepage。“Ishallneverunderstandanythingaboutthem。“
“I’llhelpyou,“saidMary,whowasgreatlyexcitedatthethoughtofagoverness。“We’lldothemtogether。“
“Nowewon’t,“saidJeremy,whohatedtobedependent。
“I’lllearnitmyself——ifonlythepaperdidn’tgetdirtysoquickly。“
“Mothersays,“remarkedHelen,“thatshe’shadaveryhardlife,andnoone’severbeenkindtoher。’Shewantsaffection,’Mothersays。“
“I’llgivehermynapkin-ringthatyougavemelastChristmas,Mary,“saidJeremy。“Youdon’tmind,doyou?It’salldirtynow。I
hopeHamletwon’tbarkather。“
HamletwasworryingMary’spincushionatthemoment,holdingitbetweenhispaws,hisbodystretchedoutinquiveringexcitement,hisshort,“snappy“tail,asUncleSamuelcalledit,standingupstraightinair。Hestoppedforaninstantwhenheheardhisname,andshookoneear。
“Mothersays,“continuedHelen,“thatshelivedwithabrotherwhonevergaveherenoughtoeat。“
Jeremyopenedhiseyes。Thisseemedtohimahorriblething。
“Sheshallhavemyporridge,ifshelikes,“hesaid;“Idon’tlikeitverymuch。AndI’llgiveherthatchocolatethatMr。Jellybrandsentus。There’sstillsome,althoughit’sratherdampnow,I
expect。“
“Howsillyyouare!“saidHelenscornfully。“Ofcourse,Motherwillgiveheranythingshewants。“
“Itisn’tsilly,“saidJeremy。“Perhapsshe’llwantmorethanshereallywants。Ioftendo。“
“Oh,you!“saidHelen。
“Andifforeversolong,“saidJeremy,“shehasn’thadenoughtoeat,she’llwanttwiceasbigmealsnowasotherpeople——tomakeup。“
“Mothersayswe’vegottoremembershe’salady,“saidHelen。
“What’sthedifference,“askedJeremy,“betweenaladyandnotalady?“
“Oh,youare!“saidHelen。“Why,AuntAmy’salady,andRoseisn’t。“
“Roseisnicer,“saidJeremy。
MissJoneshad,Iamsorrytosay,liedtoMrs。Coleinoneparticular。Shehadtoldherthat“shehadhadtodowithchildrenallherlife,“thefactbeingthatonseveraloccasionssomelittlecousinshadcometostaywithherselfandherbrother。Ontheseoccasionsthelittlecousinshadbeensoparalysedwithterrorthatdisciplinehadnotbeendifficult。ItwasfromtheseexperiencesthatMissJonesflatteredherselfthat“sheunderstoodchildren。“
Soaudaciousaself-confidenceisdoomedtoinvitethescornfulpunishmentofthegods。
MissJonesarriveduponawetJanuaryafternoon,oneofthoseGlebeshiredayswhenthetownsinksintoabathofmudandmistandallthepipesrunwaterandtheeavesdripandhorsessplashandonlyducksarehappy。Outofablurredlamp-litduskstumbledMissJones’scab,andoutofablurredunlitcabstumbledMissJones。
Asshestoodinthehalltryingtolookwarmandamiable,Mrs。
Cole’sheartforsookher。OnthatearlierdayofhervisitMissJoneshadlookedpossible,sittingupinMrs。Cole’sdrawing-room,smilingherbrightest,becauseshesodesperatelyneededthesituation,andwearingherbestdress。Nowshewasallinpieces;
shehadhadtoleaveherlittlevillageearlyinthemorningtocatchthevillagebus;shehadwaitedatwaysidestations,asinGlebeshireonlyonecanwait;theworldhaddrippeduponherheadandspattereduponherlegs。Shehadneuralgiaandapaininherback;shehadwornherolderdressbecause,uponsuchaday,itwouldnotdototravelinherbest;andthen,asaclimaxtoeverything,shehadleftherumbrellainthetrain。Howshecoulddosuchathinguponsuchaday!Hermemorywasnotherstrongestpoint,poorlady,anditwasagoodumbrella,andshecouldnotaffordtobuyanother。Perhapstheywouldfinditforher,butitwasveryunlikely。
Shehadhaditforanumberofyears。
Shewasalittlewoman,allskinandbone,withdriedwitheredcheeks,alargebrownnoseandprotrudingears。Herfacehadformedseverelinesinself-defenceagainstherbrother,buthereyesweremild,andwhenshesmiledhermouthwasratherpleasantlypathetic。
“Oh,she’llneverdo,“thoughtMrs。Cole,asshelookedatherdrippinginthehall。
“Ican’tthinkhowIforgotit,saidthepoorlady,hermindfixeduponherumbrella。“Theysaidthatperhapstheywouldfinditforme,buttherewasamaninmycarriage,Iremember,whowillmostcertainlyhavetakenit——anditwasaniceonewithasilverhandle。“
“Nevermind,“saidMrs。Colecheerfully,“I’msurethey’llfindit。
Youmustcomeuptothenursery——ortheschoolroomIsupposewemustcallitnow;there’salovelyfirethere,andwe’llbothhaveteawiththechildrento-day,soastofeelathome,allofus,asquicklyaspossible。“
WhatMissJoneswantedwastoliedownonabedinadarkroomandtryandconquerherneuralgia。Thethoughtofalightednurseryfilledherwithdismay。However,firstimpressionsaresoimportant。
Shepulledherselftogether。
Thechildrenhadheardthearrival;theywaitedinabunchbythefire,theireyespartlyfixedonthedoor,partlyonthestrawberryjamthattheywereallowedto-dayasatreatinthenewgoverness’shonour。Hamlet,hiseyesandearsalsouponthedoor,expectingperhapsarat,perhapsAuntAmy,satinfrontofthegroup,itsbodyguard。
“She’sinthehall,“saidHelen,“andnowMother’ssaying:’Dotakeoffyourthings。Youmustbewet,’andnowshe’ssaying:’You’llliketoseethechildren,Iexpect,’andnow——“
Theretheywere,standinginthedoorway,Mrs。ColeandMissJones。
Therefollowedadismalpause。ThechildrenhadnotexpectedanyonesooldandsouglyasMissJones。Hamletdidnotbark——nothingoccurred。
AtlastMrs。Colesaid:“Now,children,comeandsay,’Howdoyoudo?’toMissJones。ThisisHelen,oureldest——thisMary——andthisJeremy。“
MissJonesdidadreadfulthing。Inhereagernesstobepleasantandfriendlyshekissedthegirls,andthen,beforeanyonecouldstopher,kissedJeremy。Hetookitlikeaman,neverturninghisheadnorwipinghismouthwithhishandafterwards,butshemighthaveseeninhiseyes,hadshelooked,whathefeltaboutit。
Shesaid:“Ihopeweshallbehappytogether,dears。“
Thechildrensaidnothing,andpresentlytheyallsatdowntotea。
II
Itwasunfortunatethattherewassolittleprecedentonbothsides。
MissJoneshadneverbeenagovernessbeforeandthechildrenhadneverhadone。Ofcourse,manymistakesweremade。MissJoneshadhadatrueadmirationforwhatsheusedtocall“herbrother’sindomitablespirit,“hernameforhisselfishnessandbadtemper。
Shewasherselfneitherselfishnorbad-tempered,butshewasignorant,nervous,over-anxious,anddesperatelyafraidoflosinghersituation。Shehadduringsomanyyearslivedwithoutaffectionthatthewellsofithaddriedupwithinher,andnow,withoutbeingatallabadoldlady,shewassimplypreoccupiedwiththebusinessofmanagingherneuralgia,livingonnothingaweek,andbuildingtoherdeceasedbrother’smemoryamonument,ofheroiccharacterandself-sacrifice。Shewasshort-sightedandhadaperpetualcold;shewasforgetfulandcareless。Shehad,nevertheless,arealknowledgeofmanythings,awarmheartsomewherecouldshebeencouragedtolookforitagain,andasenseofhumourburieddeepbeneathhercaresandpreoccupations。ThereweremanyworsepersonsintheworldthanMissJones。But,mostunfortunately,herloveforherbrother’smemoryledhertoresolveonwhatshecalled“firmness。“Mrs。ColehadtoldherthatJeremywas“gettingtoomuch“forhisnurse;sheapproachedJeremywithexactlythetremorsandquakingboldnessthatshewouldhavesummonedtoheraidbeforeabulllooseinafield。
Shereallydidlookfrighteningwithherlargespectaclesontheendofherlargenose,hermouthfirmlyset,andarulerinherhand。“I
insistonabsoluteobedience,“washermotto。Jeremylookedatherbutsaidnoword。Itwasmadecleartothemallthatthenewregimewastobefarotherthantheearliernurseryone。Thereweretoberegularlessonhours——ninetotwelveandfourtofive。Aneatpieceofwhitepaperwasfastenedtothewallwith“Monday:Geography9-
10,Arithmetic10-11,“andsoon。Acarefulgraduationofpunishmentswasinstituted,copiestohewrittensomanytimes,standingonachair,threestrokesonthehandwitharuler,and,worstofall,standinginthecornerwearingapaperDunce’scap。
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