首页 >出版文学> Miss Billie Married>第32章
  marriedtoUncleBertram,aren’tyou?’
  Icertainlyam,mydear,’smiledBilly,tryingtospeakunconcernedly。
  Well,then,whatmakesyouforgetit?’
  Whatmakesmeforget——Why,child,whataquestion!Whatdoyoumean?Idon’tforgetit!’exclaimedBilly,indignantly。
  Thenwhat_did_mothermean?IheardhertellUncleWilliammyself——shedidn’tknowI
  heard,though——thatshedidwishyou’drememberyouwereUncleBertram’swifeaswellasCousinBertram’smother。’
  Billyflushedscarlet,thengrewverywhite。
  AtthatmomentMrs。Hartwellcameintotheroom。LittleKateturnedtriumphantly。
  There,shehasn’tforgotten,andIknewshehadn’t,mother!Iaskedherjustnow,andshesaidshehadn’t。’
  Hadn’twhat?’questionedMrs。Hartwell,lookingalittleapprehensivelyathersister-in-
  law’swhitefaceandangryeyes。
  Hadn’tforgottenthatshewasUncleBertram’swife。’
  Kate,’interposedBilly,steadilymeetinghersister-in-law’sgaze,willyoubegoodenoughtotellmewhatthischildistalkingabout?’
  Mrs。Hartwellsighed,andgaveanimpatientgesture。
  Kate,I’veamindtotakeyouhomeonthenexttrain,’shesaidtoherdaughter。Runaway,now,down-stairs。YourAuntBillyandI
  wanttotalk。Come,come,hurry!ImeanwhatIsay,’sheaddedwarningly,asshesawunmistakablesignsofrebelliononthesmallyoungface。
  Iwish,’poutedlittleKate,risingreluctantly,andmovingtowardthedoor,thatyoudidn’talwayssendmeawayjustwhenIwantedmosttostay!’
  Well,Kate?’promptedBilly,asthedoorclosedbehindthelittlegirl。
  Yes,IsupposeI’llhavetosayitnow,aslongasthatchildhasputherfingerinthepie。
  ButIhadn’tintendedtospeak,nomatterwhatIsaw。IpromisedmyselfIwouldn’t,beforeI
  came。Iknow,ofcourse,howBertramandCyril,andWilliam,too,saythatI’malwaysinterferinginaffairsthatdon’tconcernme——though,forthatmatter,ifmyownbrother’saffairsdon’tconcernme,Idon’tknowwhoseshould!
  But,asIsaid,Iwasn’tgoingtospeakthistime,nomatterwhatIsaw。AndIhaven’t——
  excepttoWilliam,andCyril,andAuntHannah;
  butIsupposesomewherelittleKategotholdofit。It’ssimplythis,Billy。Itseemstomeit’shightimeyoubegantorealizethatyou’reBertram’swifeaswellasthebaby’smother。’
  That,Iam——Idon’tthinkIquiteunderstand,’
  saidBilly,unsteadily。
  No,Isupposeyoudon’t,’sighedKate,thoughwhereyoureyesare,Idon’tsee——or,rather,Idosee:they’reonthebaby,_always_。
  It’sallverywellandlovely,Billy,tobeadevotedmother,andyoucertainlyarethat。I’llsaythatmuchforyou,andI’lladmitIneverthoughtyouwouldbe。But_can’t_youseewhatyou’redoingtoBertram?’
  _DoingtoBertram!_——bybeingadevotedmothertohisson!’
  Yes,doingtoBertram。Can’tyouseewhatachangethereisintheboy?Hedoesn’tactlikehimselfatall。He’srestlessandgloomyandentirelyoutofsorts。’
  Yes,Iknow;butthat’shisarm,’pleadedBilly。Poorboy——he’ssotiredofit!’
  Kateshookherheaddecisively。
  It’smorethanhisarm,Billy。You’dseeityourselfifyouweren’tblindedbyyourabsorptioninthatbaby。WhereisBertrameveryevening?Whereishedaytimes?Doyourealizethathe’sbeenathomescarcelyoneeveningsinceIcame?Andasforthedays——he’salmostneverhere。’
  But,Kate,hecan’tpaintnow,youknow,soofcoursehedoesn’tneedtostaysocloselyathome,’defendedBilly。Hegoesouttofinddistractionfromhimself。’
  Yes,`distraction,’indeed,’sniffedKate。
  Andwheredoyousupposehefindsit?Doyou_know_wherehefindsit?Itellyou,Billy,BertramHenshawisnotthesortofmanthatshouldfindtoomuch`distraction’outsidehishome。HistastesandhistemperamentarealtogethertooBohemian,and——’
  Billyinterruptedwithaperemptorilyupraisedhand。
  Pleaseremember,Kate,youarespeakingofmyhusbandtohiswife;andhiswifehasperfectconfidenceinhim,andisjustalittleparticularastowhatyousay。’
  Yes;well,I’mspeakingofmybrother,too,whomIknowverywell,’shruggedKate。Allis,youmayremembersometimethatIwarnedyou——that’sall。Thistrustingbusinessisallverypretty;butIthink’twouldbealotprettier,andavastdealmoresensible,ifyou’dgivehimalittleattentionaswellastrust,andseeifyoucan’tkeephimathomeabitmore。Atleastyou’llknowwhomhe’swith,then。CyrilsayshesawhimlastweekwithBobSeaver。’
  With——Bob——Seaver?’falteredBilly,changingcolor。
  Yes。Iseeyourememberhim,’smiledKate,notquiteagreeably。Perhapsnowyou’lltakesomestockinwhatI’vesaid,andrememberit。’
  I’llrememberit,certainly,’returnedBilly,alittleproudly。You’vesaidagoodmanythingstome,inthepast,Mrs。Hartwell,andI’verememberedthemall——everyone。’
  ItwasKate’sturntoflush,andshedidit。
  Yes,Iknow。AndIpresumeverylikelysometimesthere_hasn’t_beenmuchfoundationforwhatI’vesaid。Ithinkthistime,however,you’llfindthereis,’shefinished,withanairofhurtdignity。
  Billymadenoreply,perhapsbecauseDelia,atthatmoment,broughtinthebaby。
  Mrs。HartwellandlittleKatelefttheStratathenextmorning。UntilthenBillycontrivedtokeep,beforethem,acountenanceserene,andamannerfreefromunrest。Evenwhen,afterdinnerthatevening,Bertramputonhishatandcoatandwentout,Billyrefusedtomeethersister-
  in-law’smeaninggaze。Butinthemorning,aftertheyhadleftthehouse,Billydidnotattempttodeceiveherself。Determinedly,then,shesetherselftogoingoverinhermindthepastmonthssincethebabycame;andshewasappalledatwhatshefound。Everinherears,too,wasthatfearedname,BobSeaver’;andeverbeforehereyeswasthatnightyearsagowhen,asaneighteen-year-oldgirl,shehadfollowedBertramandBobSeaverintoaglitteringcaf
  ateleveno’clockatnight,becauseBertramhadbeendrinkingandwasnothimself。SherememberedBertram’sfacewhenhehadseenher,andwhathehadsaidwhenshebeggedhimtocomehome。Sheremembered,too,whatthefamilyhadsaidafterward。Butsheremembered,also,thatyearslaterBertramhadtoldherwhatthatescapadeofhershadreallydoneforhim,andthathebelievedhehadactuallylovedherfromthatmoment。Afterthatnight,atallevents,hehadhadlittletodowithBobSeaver。
  AndnowSeaverwasbackagain,itseemed——
  andwithBertram。Theyhadbeenseentogether。
  Butiftheyhad,whatcouldshedo?Surelyshecouldhardlynowfollowthemintoapubliccaf
  anddemandthatSeaverletherhusbandcomehome!Butshecouldkeephimathome,perhaps。
  Billyquitebrightenedatthisthought。KatehadsaidthatshewassoabsorbedinBabythatherhusbandreceivednoattentionatall。Billydidnotbelievethiswastrue;butifitweretrue,shecouldatleastrectifythatmistake。Ifitwereattentionthathewanted——heshouldwantnomore。PoorBertram!Nowonderthathehadsoughtdistractionoutside!Whenonehadahorridbrokenarmthatwouldnotletonedoanything,whatelsecouldonedo?
  JusthereBillysuddenlyrememberedthebook,ATalktoYoungWives。’Ifsherecollectedrightly,therewasachapterthatcoveredtheveryclaimKatehadbeenmaking。Billyhadnotthoughtofthebookformonths,butshewentatoncetogetitnow。Theremightbe,afterall,somethinginitthatwouldhelpher。
  TheComingoftheFirstBaby。’Billyfoundthechapterwithoutdifficultyandsettledherselftoread,hercountenancealightwithinterest。Inasurprisinglyshorttime,however,anewexpressioncametoherface;andatlastalittlegaspofdismayfellfromherlips。Shelookedupthen,withastartledgaze。
  _Had_herwallspossessedeyesandearsallthesepastmonths,onlytogiveinstructionstoanunseenhandthatitmightwritewhattheeyesandearshadlearned?Foritwassuchsentencesasthesethattheconscience-smittenBillyread:
  Maternityisapttoworkamiracleinawoman’slife,butsometimesitspellsdisastersofarasdomesticblissisconcerned。Theyoungmother,wrappedupinthedelightsanddutiesofmotherhood,utterlyforgetsthatshehasahusband。
  Shelivesandmovesandhasherbeinginthenursery。Shethinksbaby,talksbaby,knowsonlybaby。Sherefusestodressup,becauseitiseasiertotakecareofbabyinafrowzywrapper。
  Shewillnotgooutwithherhusbandforfearsomethingmighthappentothebaby。Shegivesuphermusicbecausebabywon’tletherpractice。
  Invainherhusbandtriestointerestherinhisownaffairs。Shehasneithereyesnorearsforhim,onlyforbaby。
  Nownomanenjoyshavinghisnoseputoutofjoint,evenbyhisownchild。Heloveshischilddevotedly,andisproudofhim,ofcourse;
  butthatdoesnotkeephimfromwantingthesocietyofhiswifeoccasionally,norfromlongingforherold-timeloveandsympatheticinterest。
  Itisanadmirablething,certainly,forawomantobeadevotedmother;butmaternalaffectioncanbecarriedtoofar。Husbandshavesomerightsaswellasoffspring;andthewifewhoneglectsherhusbandforherbabiesdoessoatherperil。Home,withthewifeeternallyinthenursery,isapttobeadullandlonelythingtotheaveragehusband,sohestartsouttofindamusementforhimself——andhefindsit。Thenisthetimewhenthenewlittlelifethatissoprecious,andthatshouldhaveboundthetwomorecloselytogether,becomesthewedgethatdrivesthemapart。’
  Billydidnotreadanymore。Withalittlesobbingcrysheflungthebookbackintoherdesk,andbegantopulloffherwrapper。Herfingersshook。AlreadyshesawherselfaMonster,aWickedDestroyerofDomesticBlisswithherthoughtlessabsorptioninBaby,untilhehadbecomethatAwfulThing——a_Wedge_。AndBertram——
  poorBertram,withhisbrokenarm!Shehadnotplayedtohim,norsungtohim,norgoneoutwithhim。AndwhenhadtheyhadoneoftheirgoodlongtalksaboutBertram’sworkandplans?
  Butitshouldallbechangednow。Shewouldplay,andsing,andgooutwithhim。Shewoulddressup,too。Heshouldseenomorewrappers。
  Shewouldaskabouthiswork,andseeminterested。She_was_interested。Sherememberednow,thatjustbeforehewashurt,hehadtoldherofanewportrait,andofanewFaceofaGirl’thathehadplannedtodo。Latelyhehadsaidnothingaboutthese。Hehadseemeddiscouraged——andnowonder,withhisbrokenarm!
  Butshewouldchangeallthat。Heshouldsee!
  AndforthwithBillyhurriedtoherclosettopickoutherprettiesthousefrock。
  LongbeforedinnerBillywasready,waitinginthedrawing-room。ShehadonaprettylittlebluesilkgownthatsheknewBertramliked,andshewatchedveryanxiouslyforBertramtocomeupthesteps。Sherememberednow,withapang,thathehadlongsincegivenuphispeculiarring;butshemeanttomeethimatthedoorjustthesame。
  Bertram,however,didnotcome。Ataquarterbeforesixhetelephonedthathehadmetsomefriends,andwoulddineattheclub。
  My,my,howprettyweare!’exclaimedUncleWilliam,whentheywentdowntodinnertogether。Newfrock?’
  Why,no,UncleWilliam,’laughedBilly,alittletremulously。You’veseenitdozensoftimes!’
  HaveI?’murmuredtheman。Idon’tseemtorememberit。ToobadBertramisn’theretoseeyou。Somehow,youlookunusuallyprettyto-night。’
  AndBilly’sheartachedanew。
  Billyspenttheeveningpracticing——softly,tobesure,soasnottowakeBaby——but_practicing_。
  AsthedayspassedBillydiscoveredthatitwasmucheasiertosayshewouldchangethings’thanitwasreallytochangethem。Shechangedherself,itistrue——herclothes,herhabits,herwords,andherthoughts;butitwasmoredifficulttochangeBertram。Inthefirstplace,hewastheresolittle。Shewasdismayedwhenshesawhowverylittle,indeed,hewasathome——andshedidnotliketoaskhimoutrighttostay。Thatwasnotinaccordancewithherplans。Besides,theTalktoYoungWives’