首页 >出版文学> Miss Billie Married>第24章
  No,ofcoursenot,’hemurmuredabstractedly,risingtohisfeetandcrossingtheroomtothepiano。Then,withanelaborateairoftryingtoappearverynatural,heaskedjovially:
  Anythingnewtoplaytome?’
  Alicearoseatonce。
  Yes。IhavealittlenocturnethatIwasplayingtoMr。Calderwelllastnight。’
  Oh,toCalderwell!’Arkwrighthadstiffenedperceptibly。
  Yes。_He_didn’tlikeit。I’llplayittoyouandseewhatyousay,’shesmiled,seatingherselfatthepiano。
  Well,ifhehadlikedit,it’ssafetosayI
  shouldn’t,’shruggedArkwright。
  Nonsense!’laughedthegirl,beginningtoappearmorelikehernaturalself。IshouldthinkyouwereMr。CyrilHenshaw!Mr。Calderwell_is_partialtoragtime,I’lladmit。Buttherearesomegoodthingshelikes。’
  Thereare,indeed,_some_goodthingshelikes,’
  returnedArkwright,withgrimemphasis,hissombereyesfixedonwhathebelievedtobetheoneespecialobjectofCalderwell’saffectionsatthemoment。
  Alice,unawarebothofthemelancholygazebentuponherselfandofthecausethereof,laughedagainmerrily。
  PoorMr。Calderwell,’shecried,assheletherfingersslideintosoft,introductorychords。Heisn’ttoblamefornotlikingwhathecallsourlostspiritsthatwail。It’sjustthewayhe’smade。’
  Arkwrightvouchsafednoreply。Withanabruptgestureheturnedandbegantopacetheroommoodily。AtthepianoAliceslippedfromthechordsintothenocturne。Sheplayeditstraightthrough,then,withacharmandskillthatbroughtArkwright’sfeettoapausebeforeitwashalffinished。
  ByGeorge,that’sgreat!’hebreathed,whenthelasttonehadquiveredintosilence。
  Yes,isn’tit——beautiful?’shemurmured。
  Theroomwasveryquiet,andinsemi-darkness。
  ThelastraysofalateJunesunsethadbeenfillingtheroomwithgoldenlight,butitwasgonenow。
  Evenatthepianobythewindow,Alicehadbarelybeenabletoseeclearlyenoughtoreadthenotesofhernocturne。
  ToArkwrighttheairstilltrembledwiththeexquisitemelodythathadbutjustleftherfingers。
  Aquickfirecametohiseyes。HeforgoteverythingbutthatitwasAlicethereinthehalf-lightbythewindow——Alice,whomheloved。Withalowcryhetookaswiftsteptowardher。
  Alice!’
  Instantlythegirlwasonherfeet。Butitwasnottowardhimthatsheturned。Itwasaway——
  resolutely,andwithahastethatwasstrangelyliketerror。
  Alice,too,hadforgotten,forjustamoment。
  Shehadletherselfdriftintoadreamworldwheretherewasnothingbutthemusicshewasplayingandthemansheloved。Thenthemusichadstopped,andthemanhadspokenhername。
  Alicerememberedthen。SherememberedBilly,whomthismanloved。Sherememberedthelongdaysjustpassedwhenthismanhadstayedaway,presumablytoteach_her_——tosave_her_。Andnow,atthesoundofhisvoicespeakinghername,shehadalmostbaredherhearttohim。
  NowonderthatAlice,withahastethatlookedliketerror,crossedthefloorandfloodedtheroomwithlight。
  Dearme!’sheshivered,carefullyavoidingArkwright’seyes。IfMr。Calderwellwereherenowhe’dhavesomeexcusetotalkaboutourlostspiritsthatwail。That_is_acreepypieceofmusicwhenyouplayitinthedark!’And,forfearthatheshouldsuspecthowherheartwasaching,shegaveaparticularlybrilliantandjoyoussmile。
  OnceagainatthementionofCalderwell’snameArkwrightstiffenedperceptibly。Thefirelefthiseyes。Foramomenthedidnotspeak;then,gravely,hesaid:
  Calderwell?Yes,perhapshewould;and——
  yououghttobeajudge,Ishouldthink。Youseehimquitefrequently,don’tyou?’
  Why,yes,ofcourse。Heoftencomesouthere,youknow。’
  Yes;Ihadheardthathedid——since_you_
  came。’
  Hismeaningwasunmistakable。Alicelookedupquickly。Apromptdenialofhisimplicationwasonherlipswhenthethoughtcametoherthatperhapsjustherelayasurewaytoprovetothismanbeforeherthattherewas,indeed,noneedforhimtoteachher,tosaveher,oryettosympathizewithher。Shecouldnotaffirm,ofcourse;butsheneednotdeny——yet。
  Nonsense!’shelaughedlightly,pleasedthatshecouldfeelwhatshehopedwouldpassforatelltalecolorburninghercheeks。Come,letustrysomeduets,’sheproposed,leadingthewaytothepiano。AndArkwright,interpretingtheapparentlyembarrassedchangeofsubjectexactlyasshehadhopedthathewouldinterpretit,followedher,sickatheart。
  `Owertthouinthecauldblast,’’sangArkwright’slipsafewmomentslater。
  Ican’ttellhernow——whenI_know_shecaresforCalderwell,’gloomilyranhisthoughts,thewhile。Itwoulddonopossiblegood,andwouldonlymakeherunhappytogrieveme。’
  `Owertthouinthecauldblast,’’chimedinAlice’salto,lowandsweet。
  Ireckonnowhewon’tbestayingawayfromhereanymorejustto_save_me!’ranAlice’sthoughts,palpitatinglytriumphant。
  ArkwrightdidnotcalltoseeAliceGreggoryforsomedays。HedidnotwanttoseeAlicenow。
  Hetoldhimselfwearilythatshecouldnothelphimfightthistigerskinthatlayacrosshispath,Theveryfactofherpresencebyhissidewould,indeed,incapacitatehimselfforfighting。SohedeliberatelystayedawayfromtheAnnexuntilthedaybeforehesailedforGermany。Thenhewentouttosaygood-by。
  Chagrinedashewasatwhathetermedhisimbecilestupidityinnotknowinghisownheartallthesepastmonths,andconvinced,ashealsowas,thatAliceandCalderwellcaredforeachother,hecouldseenowayforhimbuttoplaythepartofamanofkindlinessandhonor,leavingaclearfieldforhispreferredrival,andbringingnoshadowofregrettomarthehappinessofthegirlheloved。
  Asforbeinghisoldeasy,frankselfonthislastcall,however,thatwasimpossible;soAlicefoundplentyoffuelforherstillburningfiresofsuspicion——fireswhichhad,indeed,blazedupanewatthissecondlongperiodofabsenceonthepartofArkwright。Naturally,therefore,thecallwasanythingbutajoyandcomforttoeitherone。
  Arkwrightwasnervous,gloomy,andabnormallygaybyturns。Alicewasnervousandabnormallygayallthetime。Thentheysaidgood-byandArkwrightwentaway。Hesailedthenextday,andAlicesettleddowntothesummerofstudyandhardworkshehadlaidoutforherself。
  OnthetenthofSeptemberBillycamehome。
  Shewasbrown,plump-cheeked,andsmiling。Shedeclaredthatshehadhadaperfectlybeautifultime,andthattherecouldn’tbeanythingintheworldnicerthanthetripsheandBertramhadtaken——justtheytwotogether。InanswertoAuntHannah’ssolicitousinquiries,sheassertedthatshewasallwellandrestednow。ButtherewasavaguelytroubledquestioninginhereyesthatAuntHannahdidnotquitelike。AuntHannah,however,saidnothingeventoBillyherselfaboutthis。
  OneofthefirstfriendsBillysawafterherreturnwasHughCalderwell。AsithappenedBertramwasoutwhenhecame,soBillyhadthefirsthalf-
  hourofthecalltoherself。Shewasnotsorryforthis,asitgaveherachancetoquestionCalderwellalittleconcerningAliceGreggory——somethingshehadlongagodeterminedtodoatthefirstopportunity。
  Nowtellmeeverything——everythingabouteverybody,’shebegandiplomatically,settlingherselfcomfortablyforagoodvisit。
  Thankyou,I’mwell,andhavehadapassablyagreeablesummer,barringtheheat,sundrypersistentmosquitoes,severalgrievousdisappointments,andafelononmythumb,’hebegan,withshamelessimperturbability。IhavebeentoRevereonce,tothecircusonce,toNantasketthreetimes,andtoKeith’sandthe`movies’tentimes,perhaps——tobeaccurate。Ihavealso——
  Butperhapstherewassomeoneelseyoudesiredtoinquirefor,’hebrokeoff,turninguponhishostessablandbutunsmilingcountenance。
  Oh,no,howcouldtherebe?’twinkledBilly。
  Really,Hugh,Ialwaysknewyouhadaprettygoodopinionofyourself,butIdidn’tcredityouwiththinkingyouwere_everybody_。Goon。I’msointerested!’
  Hughchuckledsoftly;buttherewasaplaintivetoneinhisvoiceasheanswered。
  Thanks,no。I’veratherlostmyinterestnow。Lackofappreciationalwaysdiddiscourageme。We’lltalkofsomethingelse,please。Youenjoyedyourtrip?’
  Verymuch。Itjustcouldn’thavebeennicer!’
  Youwerelucky。Theheatherehasbeensomethingfierce!’
  Whatmadeyoustay?’
  Reasonstoonumerous,andonetooheart-
  breaking,tomention。Besides,youforget,’withdignity。Thereismyprofession。Ihavejoinedtheworkersoftheworldnow,youknow。’
  Oh,fudge,Hugh!’laughedBilly。Youknowverywellyou’reaslikelyasnottostartfortheendsoftheearthto-morrowmorning!’
  Hughdrewhimselfup。
  Idon’tseemtosucceedinmakingpeopleunderstandthatI’mserious,’hebeganaggrievedly。
  I——’Withanexpressiveflourishofhishandsherelaxedsuddenly,andfellbackinhischair。Aslowsmilecametohislips。
  Well,Billy,I’llgiveup。You’vehitit,’heconfessed。I_have_thoughtseriouslyofstartingto-
  morrowmorningfor_half-way_totheendsoftheearth——Panama。’
  Hugh!’
  Well,Ihave。Eventhiscallwastobeagood-by——ifIwent。’
  Oh,Hugh!ButIreallythought——inspiteofmyteasing——thatyouhadsettleddown,thistime。’
  Yes,sodidI,’sighedtheman,alittlesoberly。
  ButIguessit’snouse,Billy。Oh,I’mcomingback,ofcourse,andlinkarmsagainwiththeirworthyHighnesses,JohnDoeandRichardRoe;
  butjustnowI’vegotarestlessfitonme。Iwanttoseethewheelsgo’round。Ofcourse,ifIhadmybreadandbutterandcigarstoearn,’twouldbedifferent。ButIhaven’t,andIknowIhaven’t;
  andIsuspectthat’swherethetroublelies。Ifitwasn’tforthosenatalsilverspoonsofminethatBertramisalwaystalkingabout,thingsmightbedifferent。Butthespoonsarethere,andalwayshavebeen;andIknowthey’reallreadytodishoutmountainstoclimbandlakestopaddlein,anytimeI’veamindtosaytheword。So——I
  justsaytheword。That’sall。’
  Andyou’vesaiditnow?’
  Yes,Ithinkso;forawhile。’
  And——thosereasonsthat_have_keptyouhereallsummer,’venturedBilly,theyaren’tin——
  er——commissionanylonger?’
  No。’
  Billyhesitated,regardinghercompanionmeditatively。Then,withthefeelingthatshehadfollowedablindalleytoitstermination,sheretreatedandmadeafreshstart。
  Well,youhaven’tyettoldmeeverythingabouteverybody,youknow,’shehintedsmilingly。Youmightbeginthat——Imeanthelessimportanteverybodies,ofcourse,nowthatI’veheardaboutyou。’
  Meaning——’
  Oh,AuntHannah,andtheGreggorys,andCyrilandMarie,andthetwins,andMr。Arkwright,andalltherest。’
  Butyou’vehadletters,surely。’
  Yes,I’vehadlettersfromsomeofthem,andI’veseenmostofthemsinceIcameback。It’sjustthatIwantedtoknow_your_viewpointofwhat’shappenedthroughthesummer。’
  Verywell。AuntHannahisasdearasever,wearsjustasmanyshawls,andstillkeepsherclockstrikingtwelvewhenit’shalf-pasteleven。
  Mrs。Greggoryisjustassweetasever——andalittlemorefrail,Ifear,——blessherheart!Mr。