No,ofcoursenot,’hemurmuredabstractedly,risingtohisfeetandcrossingtheroomtothepiano。Then,withanelaborateairoftryingtoappearverynatural,heaskedjovially:
Anythingnewtoplaytome?’
Alicearoseatonce。
Yes。IhavealittlenocturnethatIwasplayingtoMr。Calderwelllastnight。’
Oh,toCalderwell!’Arkwrighthadstiffenedperceptibly。
Yes。_He_didn’tlikeit。I’llplayittoyouandseewhatyousay,’shesmiled,seatingherselfatthepiano。
Well,ifhehadlikedit,it’ssafetosayI
shouldn’t,’shruggedArkwright。
Nonsense!’laughedthegirl,beginningtoappearmorelikehernaturalself。IshouldthinkyouwereMr。CyrilHenshaw!Mr。Calderwell_is_partialtoragtime,I’lladmit。Buttherearesomegoodthingshelikes。’
Thereare,indeed,_some_goodthingshelikes,’
returnedArkwright,withgrimemphasis,hissombereyesfixedonwhathebelievedtobetheoneespecialobjectofCalderwell’saffectionsatthemoment。
Alice,unawarebothofthemelancholygazebentuponherselfandofthecausethereof,laughedagainmerrily。
PoorMr。Calderwell,’shecried,assheletherfingersslideintosoft,introductorychords。Heisn’ttoblamefornotlikingwhathecallsourlostspiritsthatwail。It’sjustthewayhe’smade。’
Arkwrightvouchsafednoreply。Withanabruptgestureheturnedandbegantopacetheroommoodily。AtthepianoAliceslippedfromthechordsintothenocturne。Sheplayeditstraightthrough,then,withacharmandskillthatbroughtArkwright’sfeettoapausebeforeitwashalffinished。
ByGeorge,that’sgreat!’hebreathed,whenthelasttonehadquiveredintosilence。
Yes,isn’tit——beautiful?’shemurmured。
Theroomwasveryquiet,andinsemi-darkness。
ThelastraysofalateJunesunsethadbeenfillingtheroomwithgoldenlight,butitwasgonenow。
Evenatthepianobythewindow,Alicehadbarelybeenabletoseeclearlyenoughtoreadthenotesofhernocturne。
ToArkwrighttheairstilltrembledwiththeexquisitemelodythathadbutjustleftherfingers。
Aquickfirecametohiseyes。HeforgoteverythingbutthatitwasAlicethereinthehalf-lightbythewindow——Alice,whomheloved。Withalowcryhetookaswiftsteptowardher。
Alice!’
Instantlythegirlwasonherfeet。Butitwasnottowardhimthatsheturned。Itwasaway——
resolutely,andwithahastethatwasstrangelyliketerror。
Alice,too,hadforgotten,forjustamoment。
Shehadletherselfdriftintoadreamworldwheretherewasnothingbutthemusicshewasplayingandthemansheloved。Thenthemusichadstopped,andthemanhadspokenhername。
Alicerememberedthen。SherememberedBilly,whomthismanloved。Sherememberedthelongdaysjustpassedwhenthismanhadstayedaway,presumablytoteach_her_——tosave_her_。Andnow,atthesoundofhisvoicespeakinghername,shehadalmostbaredherhearttohim。
NowonderthatAlice,withahastethatlookedliketerror,crossedthefloorandfloodedtheroomwithlight。
Dearme!’sheshivered,carefullyavoidingArkwright’seyes。IfMr。Calderwellwereherenowhe’dhavesomeexcusetotalkaboutourlostspiritsthatwail。That_is_acreepypieceofmusicwhenyouplayitinthedark!’And,forfearthatheshouldsuspecthowherheartwasaching,shegaveaparticularlybrilliantandjoyoussmile。
OnceagainatthementionofCalderwell’snameArkwrightstiffenedperceptibly。Thefirelefthiseyes。Foramomenthedidnotspeak;then,gravely,hesaid:
Calderwell?Yes,perhapshewould;and——
yououghttobeajudge,Ishouldthink。Youseehimquitefrequently,don’tyou?’
Why,yes,ofcourse。Heoftencomesouthere,youknow。’
Yes;Ihadheardthathedid——since_you_
came。’
Hismeaningwasunmistakable。Alicelookedupquickly。Apromptdenialofhisimplicationwasonherlipswhenthethoughtcametoherthatperhapsjustherelayasurewaytoprovetothismanbeforeherthattherewas,indeed,noneedforhimtoteachher,tosaveher,oryettosympathizewithher。Shecouldnotaffirm,ofcourse;butsheneednotdeny——yet。
Nonsense!’shelaughedlightly,pleasedthatshecouldfeelwhatshehopedwouldpassforatelltalecolorburninghercheeks。Come,letustrysomeduets,’sheproposed,leadingthewaytothepiano。AndArkwright,interpretingtheapparentlyembarrassedchangeofsubjectexactlyasshehadhopedthathewouldinterpretit,followedher,sickatheart。
`Owertthouinthecauldblast,’’sangArkwright’slipsafewmomentslater。
Ican’ttellhernow——whenI_know_shecaresforCalderwell,’gloomilyranhisthoughts,thewhile。Itwoulddonopossiblegood,andwouldonlymakeherunhappytogrieveme。’
`Owertthouinthecauldblast,’’chimedinAlice’salto,lowandsweet。
Ireckonnowhewon’tbestayingawayfromhereanymorejustto_save_me!’ranAlice’sthoughts,palpitatinglytriumphant。
ArkwrightdidnotcalltoseeAliceGreggoryforsomedays。HedidnotwanttoseeAlicenow。
Hetoldhimselfwearilythatshecouldnothelphimfightthistigerskinthatlayacrosshispath,Theveryfactofherpresencebyhissidewould,indeed,incapacitatehimselfforfighting。SohedeliberatelystayedawayfromtheAnnexuntilthedaybeforehesailedforGermany。Thenhewentouttosaygood-by。
Chagrinedashewasatwhathetermedhisimbecilestupidityinnotknowinghisownheartallthesepastmonths,andconvinced,ashealsowas,thatAliceandCalderwellcaredforeachother,hecouldseenowayforhimbuttoplaythepartofamanofkindlinessandhonor,leavingaclearfieldforhispreferredrival,andbringingnoshadowofregrettomarthehappinessofthegirlheloved。
Asforbeinghisoldeasy,frankselfonthislastcall,however,thatwasimpossible;soAlicefoundplentyoffuelforherstillburningfiresofsuspicion——fireswhichhad,indeed,blazedupanewatthissecondlongperiodofabsenceonthepartofArkwright。Naturally,therefore,thecallwasanythingbutajoyandcomforttoeitherone。
Arkwrightwasnervous,gloomy,andabnormallygaybyturns。Alicewasnervousandabnormallygayallthetime。Thentheysaidgood-byandArkwrightwentaway。Hesailedthenextday,andAlicesettleddowntothesummerofstudyandhardworkshehadlaidoutforherself。
OnthetenthofSeptemberBillycamehome。
Shewasbrown,plump-cheeked,andsmiling。Shedeclaredthatshehadhadaperfectlybeautifultime,andthattherecouldn’tbeanythingintheworldnicerthanthetripsheandBertramhadtaken——justtheytwotogether。InanswertoAuntHannah’ssolicitousinquiries,sheassertedthatshewasallwellandrestednow。ButtherewasavaguelytroubledquestioninginhereyesthatAuntHannahdidnotquitelike。AuntHannah,however,saidnothingeventoBillyherselfaboutthis。
OneofthefirstfriendsBillysawafterherreturnwasHughCalderwell。AsithappenedBertramwasoutwhenhecame,soBillyhadthefirsthalf-
hourofthecalltoherself。Shewasnotsorryforthis,asitgaveherachancetoquestionCalderwellalittleconcerningAliceGreggory——somethingshehadlongagodeterminedtodoatthefirstopportunity。
Nowtellmeeverything——everythingabouteverybody,’shebegandiplomatically,settlingherselfcomfortablyforagoodvisit。
Thankyou,I’mwell,andhavehadapassablyagreeablesummer,barringtheheat,sundrypersistentmosquitoes,severalgrievousdisappointments,andafelononmythumb,’hebegan,withshamelessimperturbability。IhavebeentoRevereonce,tothecircusonce,toNantasketthreetimes,andtoKeith’sandthe`movies’tentimes,perhaps——tobeaccurate。Ihavealso——
Butperhapstherewassomeoneelseyoudesiredtoinquirefor,’hebrokeoff,turninguponhishostessablandbutunsmilingcountenance。
Oh,no,howcouldtherebe?’twinkledBilly。
Really,Hugh,Ialwaysknewyouhadaprettygoodopinionofyourself,butIdidn’tcredityouwiththinkingyouwere_everybody_。Goon。I’msointerested!’
Hughchuckledsoftly;buttherewasaplaintivetoneinhisvoiceasheanswered。
Thanks,no。I’veratherlostmyinterestnow。Lackofappreciationalwaysdiddiscourageme。We’lltalkofsomethingelse,please。Youenjoyedyourtrip?’
Verymuch。Itjustcouldn’thavebeennicer!’
Youwerelucky。Theheatherehasbeensomethingfierce!’
Whatmadeyoustay?’
Reasonstoonumerous,andonetooheart-
breaking,tomention。Besides,youforget,’withdignity。Thereismyprofession。Ihavejoinedtheworkersoftheworldnow,youknow。’
Oh,fudge,Hugh!’laughedBilly。Youknowverywellyou’reaslikelyasnottostartfortheendsoftheearthto-morrowmorning!’
Hughdrewhimselfup。
Idon’tseemtosucceedinmakingpeopleunderstandthatI’mserious,’hebeganaggrievedly。
I——’Withanexpressiveflourishofhishandsherelaxedsuddenly,andfellbackinhischair。Aslowsmilecametohislips。
Well,Billy,I’llgiveup。You’vehitit,’heconfessed。I_have_thoughtseriouslyofstartingto-
morrowmorningfor_half-way_totheendsoftheearth——Panama。’
Hugh!’
Well,Ihave。Eventhiscallwastobeagood-by——ifIwent。’
Oh,Hugh!ButIreallythought——inspiteofmyteasing——thatyouhadsettleddown,thistime。’
Yes,sodidI,’sighedtheman,alittlesoberly。
ButIguessit’snouse,Billy。Oh,I’mcomingback,ofcourse,andlinkarmsagainwiththeirworthyHighnesses,JohnDoeandRichardRoe;
butjustnowI’vegotarestlessfitonme。Iwanttoseethewheelsgo’round。Ofcourse,ifIhadmybreadandbutterandcigarstoearn,’twouldbedifferent。ButIhaven’t,andIknowIhaven’t;
andIsuspectthat’swherethetroublelies。Ifitwasn’tforthosenatalsilverspoonsofminethatBertramisalwaystalkingabout,thingsmightbedifferent。Butthespoonsarethere,andalwayshavebeen;andIknowthey’reallreadytodishoutmountainstoclimbandlakestopaddlein,anytimeI’veamindtosaytheword。So——I
justsaytheword。That’sall。’
Andyou’vesaiditnow?’
Yes,Ithinkso;forawhile。’
And——thosereasonsthat_have_keptyouhereallsummer,’venturedBilly,theyaren’tin——
er——commissionanylonger?’
No。’
Billyhesitated,regardinghercompanionmeditatively。Then,withthefeelingthatshehadfollowedablindalleytoitstermination,sheretreatedandmadeafreshstart。
Well,youhaven’tyettoldmeeverythingabouteverybody,youknow,’shehintedsmilingly。Youmightbeginthat——Imeanthelessimportanteverybodies,ofcourse,nowthatI’veheardaboutyou。’
Meaning——’
Oh,AuntHannah,andtheGreggorys,andCyrilandMarie,andthetwins,andMr。Arkwright,andalltherest。’
Butyou’vehadletters,surely。’
Yes,I’vehadlettersfromsomeofthem,andI’veseenmostofthemsinceIcameback。It’sjustthatIwantedtoknow_your_viewpointofwhat’shappenedthroughthesummer。’
Verywell。AuntHannahisasdearasever,wearsjustasmanyshawls,andstillkeepsherclockstrikingtwelvewhenit’shalf-pasteleven。
Mrs。Greggoryisjustassweetasever——andalittlemorefrail,Ifear,——blessherheart!Mr。
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