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第72章

  “Well,then,whydidn’tthoutellmeallthissooner?“askedJobashfully。
  “NowIshallhaftoshowtheeallmyheart,andIsogladlywill,becausethoumusttakecareofithereafter。See,then,myJo——ah,thedear,funnylittlename——IhadawishtotellsomethingthedayIsaidgoodbyeinNewYork,butIthoughtthehandsomefriendwasbetrothedtothee,andsoIspokenot。Wouldstthouhavesaid`Yes’,then,ifIhadspoken?“
  “Idon’tknow。I’mafraidnot,forIdidn’thaveanyheartjustthen。“
  “Prut!ThatIdonotbelieve。Itwasasleeptillthefairyprincecamethroughthewood,andwakeditup。Ah,well,`DieersteLiebeistdiebeste’,butthatIshouldnotexpect。“
  “Yes,thefirstloveisthebest,butbesocontented,forI
  neverhadanother。Teddywasonlyaboy,andsoongotoverhislittlefancy,“saidJo,anxioustocorrecttheProfessor’smistake。
  “Good!ThenIshallresthappy,andbesurethatthougivestmeall。Ihafwaitedsolong,Iamgrownselfish,asthouwiltfind,Professorin。“
  “Ilikethat,“criedJo,delightedwithhernewname。“Nowtellmewhatbroughtyou,atlast,justwhenIwantedyou?“
  “This。“AndMr。Bhaertookalittlewornpaperoutofhiswaistcoatpocket。
  Jounfoldedit,andlookedmuchabashed,foritwasoneofherowncontributionstoapaperthatpaidforpoetry,whichaccountedforhersendingitanoccasionalattempt。
  “Howcouldthatbringyou?“sheasked,wonderingwhathemeant。
  “Ifounditbychance。Iknewitbythenamesandtheinitials,andinittherewasonelittleversethatseemedtocallme。Readandfindhim。Iwillseethatyougonotinthewet。“
  INTHEGARRET
  Fourlittlechestsallinarow,Dimwithdust,andwornbytime,Allfashionedandfilled,longago,Bychildrennowintheirprime。
  Fourlittlekeyshungsidebyside,Withfadedribbons,braveandgayWhenfastenedthere,withchildishpride,Longago,onarainyday。
  Fourlittlenames,oneoneachlid,Carvedoutbyaboyishhand,AndunderneaththereliethhidHistoriesofthehapppybandOnceplayinghere,andpausingoftTohearthesweetrefrain,Thatcameandwentontheroofaloft,Inthefallingsummerrain。
  “Meg“onthefirstlid,smoothandfair。
  Ilookinwithlovingeyes,Forfoldedhere,withwell-knowncare,Agoodlygatheringlies,Therecordofapeacefullife——
  Giftstogentlechildandgirl,Abridalgown,linestoawife,Atinyshoe,ababycurl。
  Notoysinthisfirstchestremain,Forallarecarriedaway,Intheiroldage,tojoinagainInanothersmallMeg’splay。
  Ah,happymother!WellIknowYouhear,likeasweetrefrain,LullabieseversoftandlowInthefallingsummerrain。
  “Jo“onthenextlid,scratchedandworn,AndwithinamotleystoreOfheadless,dolls,ofschoolbookstorn,Birdsandbeaststhatspeaknomore,SpoilsbroughthomefromthefairygroundOnlytrodbyyouthfulfeet,Dreamsofafutureneverfound,Memoriesofapaststillsweet,Half-writpoems,storieswild,Aprilletters,warmandcold,Diariesofawilfulchild,Hintsofawomanearlyold,Awomaninalonelyhome,Hearing,likeasadrefrain——
  “Beworthy,love,andlovewillcome,“
  Inthefallingsummerrain。
  MyBeth!thedustisalwayssweptFromthelidthatbearsyourname,Asifbylovingeyesthatwept,Bycarefulhandsthatoftencame。
  Deathcannonizedforusonesaint,Everlesshumanthandivine,Andstillwelay,withtenderplaint,Relicsinthishouseholdshrine——
  Thesilverbell,soseldomrung,Thelittlecapwhichlastshewore,Thefair,deadCatherinethathungByangelsborneaboveherdoor。
  Thesongsshesang,withoutlament,Inherprison-houseofpain,ForeveraretheysweetlyblentWiththefallingsummerrain。
  Uponthelastlid’spolishedfield——
  LegendnowbothfairandtrueAgallantknightbearsonhisshield,“Amy“inlettersgoldandblue。
  Withinliesnoodsthatboundherhair,Slippersthathavedancedtheirlast,Fadedflowerslaidbywithcare,Fanswhoseairytoilsarepast,Gayvalentines,allardentflames,TriflesthathavebornetheirpartIngirlishhopesandfearsandshames,TherecordofamaidenheartNowlearningfairer,truerspells,Hearing,likeablitherefrain,ThesilversoundofbridalbellsInthefallingsummerrain。
  Fourlittlechestsallinarow,Dimwithdust,andwornbytime,Fourwomen,taughtbywealandwoeToloveandlaborintheirprime。
  Foursisters,partedforanhour,Nonelost,oneonlygonebefore,Madebylove’simmortalpower,Nearestanddearestevermore。
  Oh,whenthesehiddenstoresofoursLieopentotheFather’ssight,Maytheyberichingoldenhours,Deedsthatshowfairerforthelight,Liveswhosebravemusiclongshallring,Likeaspirit-stirringstrain,SoulsthatshallgladlysoarandsingInthelongsunshineafterrain。
  “It’sverybadpoetry,butIfeltitwhenIwroteit,onedaywhenIwasverylonely,andhadagoodcryonaragbag。Ineverthoughtitwouldgowhereitcouldtelltales,“saidJo,tearinguptheversestheProfessorhadtreasuredsolong。
  “Letitgo,ithasdoneit’sduty,andIwillhafafreshonewhenIreadallthebrownbookinwhichshekeepsherlittlesecrets,“saidMr。Bhaerwithasmileashewatchedthefragmentsflyawayonthewind。“Yes,“headdedearnestly,“Ireadthat,andIthinktomyself,Shehasasorrow,sheislonely,shewouldfindcomfortintruelove。Ihafaheartfull,fullforher。
  ShallInotgoandsay,“IfthisisnottoopoorathingtogifforwhatIshallhopetoreceive,takeitinGott’sname?“
  “Andsoyoucametofindthatitwasnottoopoor,buttheonepreciousthingIneeded,“whisperedJo。
  “Ihadnocouragetothinkthatatfirst,heavenlykindaswasyourwelcometome。ButsoonIbegantohope,andthenIsaid,`IwillhafherifIdieforit,’andsoIwill!“criedMr。Bhaer,withadefiantnod,asifthewallsofmistclosingroundthemwerebarrierswhichhewastosurmountorvaliantlyknockdown。
  Jothoughtthatwassplendid,andresolvedtobeworthyofherknight,thoughhedidnotcomeprancingonachargeringorgeousarray。
  “Whatmadeyoustayawaysolong?“sheaskedpresently,findingitsopleasanttoaskconfidentialquestionsandgetdelightfulanswersthatshecouldnotkeepsilent。
  “Itwasnoteasy,butIcouldnotfindthehearttotakeyoufromthatsohappyhomeuntilIcouldhafaprospectofonetogifyou,aftermuchtime,perhaps,andhardwork。HowcouldI
  askyoutogifupsomuchforapooroldfellow,whohasnofortunebutalittlelearning?“
  “I’mgladyouarepoor。Icouldn’tbeararichhusband,“
  saidJodecidedly,addinginasoftertone,“Don’tfearpoverty。
  I’veknownitlongenoughtolosemydreadandbehappyworkingforthoseIlove,anddon’tcallyourselfold——fortyistheprimeoflife。Icouldn’thelplovingyouifyouwereseventy!“
  TheProfessorfoundthatsotouchingthathewouldhavebeengladofhishandkerchief,ifhecouldhavegotatit。Ashercouldn’t,Jowipedhiseyesforhim,andsaid,laughing,asshetookawayabundleortwo……
  “Imaybestrong-minded,butnoonecansayI’moutofmyspherenow,forwoman’sspecialmissionissupposedtobedryingtearsandbearingburdens。I’mtocarrymyshare,Friedrich,andhelptoearnthehome。Makeupyourmindtothat,orI’llnevergo,“sheaddedresolutely,ashetriedtoreclaimhisload。
  “Weshallsee。Hafyoupatiencetowaitalongtime,Jo?
  Imustgoawayanddomyworkalone。Imusthelpmyboysfirst,because,evenforyou,ImaynotbreakmywordtoMinna。Canyouforgifthat,andbehappywhilewehopeandwait?“
  “Yes,IknowIcan,forweloveoneanother,andthatmakesalltheresteasytobear。Ihavemyduty,also,andmywork。
  Icouldn’tenjoymyselfifIneglectedthemevenforyou,sothere’snoneedofhurryorimpatience。YoucandoyourpartoutWest,Icandominehere,andbothbehappyhopingforthebest,andleavingthefuturetobeasGodwills。“
  “Ah!Thougifestmesuchhopeandcourage,andIhafnothingtogifbackbutafullheartandtheseemptyhands,“criedtheProfessor,quiteovercome。
  Jonever,neverwouldlearntobeproper,forwhenhesaidthatastheystooduponthesteps,shejustputbothhandsintohis,whisperingtenderly,“Notemptynow,“andstoopingdown,kissedherFriedrichundertheumbrella。Itwasdreadful,butshewouldhavedoneitiftheflockofdraggle-tailedsparrowsonthehedgehadbeenhumanbeings,forshewasveryfargoneindeed,andquiteregardlessofeverythingbutherownhappiness。
  Thoughitcameinsuchaverysimpleguise,thatwasthecrowningmomentofboththeirlives,when,turningfromthenightandstormandlonelinesstothehouseholdlightandwarmthandpeacewaitingtoreceivethem,withaglad“Welcomehome!“Joledherloverin,andshutthedoor。
  ForayearJoandherProfessorworkedandwaited,hopedandloved,metoccasionally,andwrotesuchvoluminouslettersthattheriseinthepriceofpaperwasaccountedfor,Lauriesaid。Thesecondyearbeganrathersoberly,fortheirprospectsdidnotbrighten,andAuntMarchdiedsuddenly。Butwhentheirfirstsorrowwasover——fortheylovedtheoldladyinspiteofhersharptongue——theyfoundtheyhadcauseforrejoicing,forshehadleftPlumfieldtoJo,whichmadeallsortsofjoyfulthingspossible。
  “It’safineoldplace,andwillbringahandsomesum,forofcourseyouintendtosellit,“saidLaurie,astheywerealltalkingthematteroversomeweekslater。
  “No,Idon’t,“wasJo’sdecidedanswer,asshepettedthefatpoodle,whomshehadadopted,outofrespecttohisformermistress。
  “Youdon’tmeantolivethere?“
  “Yes,Ido。“
  “But,mydeargirl,it’sanimmensehouse,andwilltakeapowerofmoneytokeepitinorder。Thegardenandorchardaloneneedtwoorthreemen,andfarmingisn’tinBhaer’sline,Itakeit。“
  “He’lltryhishandatitthere,ifIproposeit。“
  “Andyouexpecttoliveontheproduceoftheplace?Well,thatsoundsparadisiacal,butyou’llfinditdesperatehardwork。“
  “Thecropwearegoingtoraiseisaprofitableone,“AndJolaughed。
  “Ofwhatisthisfinecroptoconsist,ma’am?“
  “Boys。Iwanttoopenaschoolforlittlelads——agood,happy,homelikeschool,withmetotakecareofthemandFritztoteachthem。“
  “That’satrulyJoianplanforyou!Isn’tthatjustlikeher?“criedLaurie,appealingtothefamily,wholookedasmuchsurprisedashe。
  “Ilikeit,“saidMrs。Marchdecidedly。
  “SodoI,“addedherhusband,whowelcomedthethoughtofachancefortryingtheSocraticmethodofeducationonmodernyouth。
  “ItwillbeanimmensecareforJo,“saidMeg,strokingtheheadorheroneall-absorbingson。
  “Jocandoit,andbehappyinit。It’sasplendididea。
  Tellusallaboutit,“criedMr。Laurence,whohadbeenlongingtolendtheloversahand,butknewthattheywouldrefusehishelp。
  “Iknewyou’dstandbyme,sir。Amydoestoo——Iseeitinhereyes,thoughsheprudentlywaitstoturnitoverinhermindbeforeshespeaks。Now,mydearpeople,“continuedJoearnestly,“justunderstandthatthisisn’tanewideaofmine,butalongcherishedplan。BeforemyFritzcame,Iusedtothinkhow,whenI’dmademyfortune,andnooneneededmeathome,I’dhireabighouse,andpickupsomepoor,forlornlittleladswhohadn’tanymothers,andtakecareofthem,andmakelifejollyforthembeforeitwastoolate。Iseesomanygoingtoruinforwantofhelpattherightminute,Ilovesotodoanythingforthem,I
  seemtofeeltheirwants,andsympathizewiththeirtroubles,andoh,Ishouldsoliketobeamothertothem!“
  Mrs。MarchheldoutherhandtoJo,whotookit,smiling,withtearsinhereyes,andwentonintheoldenthusiasticway,whichtheyhadnotseenforalongwhile。
  “ItoldmyplantoFritzonce,andhesaiditwasjustwhathewouldlike,andagreedtotryitwhenwegotrich。Blesshisdearheart,he’sbeendoingitallhislife——helpingpoorboys,I
  mean,notgettingrich,thathe’llneverbe。Moneydoesn’tstayinhispocketlongenoughtolayupany。Butnow,thankstomygoodoldaunt,wholovedmebetterthanIeverdeserved,I’mrich,atleastIfeelso,andwecanliveatPlumfieldperfectlywell,ifwehaveaflourishingschool。It’sjusttheplaceforboys,thehouseisbig,andthefurniturestrongandplain。There’splentyofroomfordozensinside,andsplendidgroundsoutside。
  Theycouldhelpinthegardenandorchard。Suchworkishealthy,isn’tit,sir?ThenFritzcouldtrainandteachinhisownway,andFatherwillhelphim。Icanfeedandnurseandpetandscoldthem,andMotherwillbemystand-by。I’vealwayslongedforlotsofboys,andneverhadenough,nowIcanfillthehousefullandrevelinthelittledearstomyheart’scontent。Thinkwhatluxury——
  Plumfieldmyown,andawildernessofboystoenjoyitwithme。“
  AsJowavedherhandsandgaveasighofrapture,thefamilywentoffintoagaleofmerriment,andMr。Laurencelaughedtilltheythoughthe’dhaveanapoplecticfit。
  “Idon’tseeanythingfunny,“shesaidgravely,whenshecouldbeheard。“NothingcouldbemorenaturalandproperthanformyProfessortoopenaschool,andformetoprefertoresideinmyownestate。“
  “Sheisputtingonairsalready,“saidLaurie,whoregardedtheideainthelightofacapitaljoke。“ButmayIinquirehowyouintendtosupporttheestablishment?Ifallthepupilsarelittleragamuffins,I’mafraidyourcropwon’tbeprofitableinaworldlysense,Mr。Bhaer。“
  “Nowdon’tbeawet-blanket,Teddy。OfcourseIshallhaverichpupils,also——perhapsbeginwithsuchaltogether。Then,whenI’vegotastart,Icantakeinaragamuffinortwo,justforarelish。Richpeople’schildrenoftenneedcareandcomfort,aswellaspoor。I’veseenunfortunatelittlecreatureslefttoservants,orbackwardonespushedforward,whenit’srealcruelty。
  Somearenaughtythroughmismanagmentorneglect,andsomelosetheirmothers。Besides,thebesthavetogetthroughthehobbledehoyage,andthat’stheverytimetheyneedmostpatienceandkindness。
  Peoplelaughatthem,andhustlethemabout,trytokeepthemoutofsight,andexpectthemtoturnallatoncefromprettychildrenintofineyoungmen。Theydon’tcomplainmuch——
  pluckylittlesouls——buttheyfeelit。I’vebeenthroughsome-
  thingofit,andIknowallaboutit。I’veaspecialinterestinsuchyoungbears,andliketoshowthemthatIseethewarm,honest,well-meaningboys’hearts,inspiteoftheclumsyarmsandlegsandthetopsy-turvyheads。I’vehadexperience,too,forhaven’tIbroughtuponeboytobeaprideandhonortohisfamily?“