Iquitelongtoseethedearman,“addedMrs。March。
Joheardthat,butmadenoanswer,excepttokisshermother,andwalkrapidlyaway,thinkingwithaglowofgratitude,inspiteofherheartache,“Howgoodsheistome!Whatdogirlsdowhohaven’tanymotherstohelpthemthroughtheirtroubles?“
Thedry-goodsstoreswerenotdownamongthecounting-houses,banks,andwholesalewarerooms,wheregentlemenmostdocongregate,butJofoundherselfinthatpartofthecitybeforeshedidasingleerrand,loiteringalongasifwaitingforsomeone,examiningengineeringinstrumentsinonewindowandsamplesofwoolinanother,withmostunfeminineinterest,tumblingoverbarrels,beinghalf-smotheredbydescendingbales,andhustledunceremoniouslybybusymenwholookedasiftheywondered`howthedeuceshegotthere’。Adropofrainonhercheekrecalledherthoughtsfrombaffledhopestoruinedribbons。Forthedropscontinuedtofall,andbeingawomanaswellasalover,shefeltthat,thoughitwastoolatetosaveherheart,shemightherbonnet。Nowsherememberedthelittleumbrella,whichshehadforgottentotakeinherhurrytobeoff,butregretwasunavailing,andnothingcouldbedonebutborrowoneorsubmittotoadrenching。Shelookedupattheloweringsky,downatthecrimsonbowalreadyfleckedwithblack,forwardalongthemuddystreet,thenonelong,lingeringlookbehind,atacertaingrimywarehouse,with`Hoffmann,Swartz,&;Co。’overthedoor,andsaidtoherself,withasternlyreproachfulair……
“Itservesmeright!whatbusinesshadItoputonallmybestthingsandcomephilanderingdownhere,hopingtoseetheProfessor?Jo,I’mashamedofyou!No,youshallnotgotheretoborrowanumbrella,orfindoutwhereheis,fromhisfriends。
Youshalltrudgeaway,anddoyourerrandsintherain,andifyoucatchyourdeathandruinyourbonnet,it’snomorethanyoudeserve。Nowthen!“
Withthatsherushedacrossthestreetsoimpetuouslythatshenarrowlyescapedannihilationfromapassingtruck,andprecipitatedherselfintothearmsofastatelyoldgentleman,whosaid,“Ibegpardon,ma’am,“andlookedmortallyoffended。Somewhatdaunted,Jorightedherself,spreadherhandkerchiefoverthedevotedribbons,andputtingtemptationbehindher,hurriedon,withincreasingdampnessabouttheankles,andmuchclashingofumbrellasoverhead。Thefactthatasomewhatdilapidatedblueoneremainedstationaryabovetheunprotectedbonnetattractedherattention,andlookingup,shesawMr。Bhaerlookingdown。
“Ifeeltoknowthestrong-mindedladywhogoessobravelyundermanyhorsenoses,andsofastthroughmuchmus。Whatdoyoudownhere,myfriend?“
“I’mshopping。“
Mr。Bhaersmiled,asheglancedfromthepicklefactoryononesidetothewholesalehideandleatherconcernontheother,butheronlysaidpolitely,“Youhafnoumbrella。MayIgoalso,andtakeforyouthebundles?“
“Yes,thankyou。“
Jo’scheekswereasredasherribbon,andshewonderedwhathethoughtofher,butshedidn’tcare,forinaminuteshefoundherselfwalkingawayarminarmwithherProfessor,feelingasifthesunhadsuddenlyburstoutwithuncommonbrilliancy,thattheworldwasallrightagain,andthatonethoroughlyhappywomanwaspaddlingthroughthewetthatday。
“Wethoughtyouhadgone,“saidJohastily,forsheknewhewaslookingather。Herbonnetwasn’tbigenoughtohideherface,andshefearedhemightthinkthejoyitbetrayedunmaidenly。
“DidyoubelievethatIshouldgowithnofarewelltothosewhohafbeensoheavenlykindtome?“heaskedsoreproachfullythatshefeltasifshehadinsultedhimbythesuggestion,andansweredheartily……
“No,Ididn’t。Iknewyouwerebusyaboutyourownaffairs,butwerathermissedyou,FatherandMotherespecially。“
“Andyou?“
“I’malwaysgladtoseeyou,sir。“
Inheranxietytokeephervoicequitecalm,Jomadeitrathercool,andthefrostylittlemonosyllableattheendseemedtochilltheProfessor,forhissmilevanished,ashesaidgravely……
“Ithankyou,andcomeonemoretimebeforeIgo。“
“Youaregoing,then?“
“Ihafnolongeranybusinesshere,itisdone。“
“Successfully,Ihope?“saidJo,forthebitternessofdisappointmentwasinthatshortreplyofhis。
“Ioughttothinkso,forIhafawayopenedtomebywhichIcanmakemybreadandgifmyJunglingsmuchhelp。“
“Tellme,please!Iliketoknowallaboutthe——theboys,“
saidJoeagerly。
“Thatissokind,Igladlytellyou。Myfriendsfindformeaplaceinacollege,whereIteachasathome,andearnenoughtomakethewaysmoothforFranzandEmil。ForthisIshouldbegrateful,shouldInot?“
“Indeedyoushould。Howsplendiditwillbetohaveyoudoingwhatyoulike,andbeabletoseeyouoften,andtheboys!“
criedJo,clingingtotheladsasanexcuseforthesatisfactionshecouldnothelpbetraying。
“Ah!Butweshallnotmeetoften,Ifear,thisplaceisattheWest。“
“Sofaraway!“AndJoleftherskirtstotheirfate,asifitdidn’tmatternowwhatbecameofherclothesorherself。
Mr。Bhaercouldreadseverallanguages,buthehadnotlearnedtoreadwomenyet。HeflatteredhimselfthatheknewJoprettywell,andwas,therefore,muchamazedbythecontradictionsofvoice,face,andmanner,whichsheshowedhiminrapidsuccessionthatday,forshewasinhalfadozendifferentmoodsinthecourseofhalfanhour。Whenshemethimshelookedsurprised,thoughitwasimpossibletohelpsuspectingthatshehadcomeforthatexpresspurpose。Whenheofferedherhisarm,shetookitwithalookthatfilledhimwithdelight,butwhenheaskedifshemissedhim,shegavesuchachilly,formalreplythatdespairfelluponhim。Onlearninghisgoodfortuneshealmostclappedherhands。Wasthejoyallfortheboys?
Thenonhearinghisdestination,shesaid,“Sofaraway!“inatoneofdespairthatliftedhimontoapinnacleofhope,butthenextminuteshetumbledhimdownagainbyobserving,likeoneentirelyabsorbedinthematter……
“Here’stheplaceformyerrands。Willyoucomein?Itwon’ttakelong。“
Joratherpridedherselfuponhershoppingcapabilities,andparticularlywishedtoimpressherescortwiththeneatnessanddispatchwithwhichshewouldaccomplishthebusiness。
Butowingtothefluttershewasin,everythingwentamiss。
Sheupsetthetrayofneedles,forgotthesilesiawastobe`twilled’tillitwascutoff,gavethewrongchange,andcoveredherselfwithconfusionbyaskingforlavenderribbonatthecalicocounter。Mr。Bhaerstoodby,watchingherblushandblunder,andashewatched,hisownbewildermentseemedtosubside,forhewasbeginningtoseethatonsomeoccasions,women,likedreams,gobycontraries。
Whentheycameout,heputtheparcelunderhisarmwithamorecheerfulaspect,andsplashedthroughthepuddlesasifheratherenjoyeditonthewhole。
“Shouldwenodoalittlewhatyoucallshoppingforthebabies,andhafafarewellfeasttonightifIgoformylastcallatyoursopleasanthome?“heasked,stoppingbeforeawindowfulloffruitandflowers。
“Whatwillwebuy?“askedJo,ignoringthelatterpartofhisspeech,andsniffingthemingledodorswithanaffectationofdelightastheywentin。
“Maytheyhaforangesandfigs?“askedMr。Bhaer,withapaternalair。
“Theyeatthemwhentheycangetthem。“
“Doyoucarefornuts?“
“Likeasquirrel。“
“Hamburggrapes。Yes,weshalldrinktotheFatherlandinthose?“
Jofrowneduponthatpieceofextravagance,andaskedwhyhedidn’tbuyafrailofdated,acaskofraisins,andabagofalmonds,andbedonewithit?WhereatMr。Bhaerconfiscatedherpurse,producedhisown,andfinishedthemarketingbybuyingseveralpoundsofgrapes,apotofrosydaisies,andaprettyjarofhoney,toberegardedinthelightofademijohn。Thendistortinghispocketswithknobbybundles,andgivinghertheflowerstohold,heputuptheoldumbrella,andtheytraveledonagain。
“MissMarsch,Ihafagreatfavortoaskofyou,“begantheProfessor,afteramoistpromenadeofhalfablock。
“Yes,sir。“AndJo’sheartbegantobeatsohardshewasafraidhewouldhearit。
“Iamboldtosayitinspiteoftherain,becausesoshortatimeremainstome。“
“Yes,sir。“AndJonearlycrushedthesmallflowerpotwiththesuddensqueezeshegaveit。
“IwishtogetalittledressformyTina,andIamtoostupidtogoalone。Willyoukindlygifmeawordoftasteandhelp?“
“Yes,sir。“AndJOfeltascalmandcoolallofasuddenasifshehadsteppedintoarefrigerator。
“PerhapsalsoashawlforTina’smother,sheissopoorandsick,andthehusbandissuchacare。Yes,yes,athick,warmshawlwouldbeafriendlythingtotakethelittlemother。“
“I’lldoitwithpleasure,Mr。Bhaer。I’mgoingveryfast,andhe’sgettingdearereveryminute,“addedJotoherself,thenwithamentalshakesheenteredintothebusinesswithanenergythatwaspleasanttobehold。
Mr。Bhaerleftitalltoher,soshechoseaprettygownforTina,andthenorderedouttheshawls。Theclerk,beingamarriedman,condescendedtotakeaninterestinthecouple,whoappearedtobeshoppingfortheirfamily。
“Yourladymaypreferthis。It’sasuperiorarticle,amostdesirablecolor,quitechasteandgenteel,“hesaid,shakingoutacomfortablegrayshawl,andthrowingitoverJo’sshoulders。
“Doesthissuityou,Mr。Bhaer?“sheasked,turningherbacktohim,andfeelingdeeplygratefulforthechanceofhidingherface。
“Excellentlywell,wewillhafit,“answeredtheProfessor,smilingtohimselfashepaidforit,whileJocontinuedtorummagethecounterslikeaconfirmedbargain-hunter。
“Nowshallwegohome?“heasked,asifthewordswereverypleasanttohim。
“Yes,it’slate,andI’msotired。“Jo’svoicewasmorepatheticthansheknew。Fornowthesunseemedtohavegoneinassuddenlyasitcameout,andtheworldgrewmuddyandmiserableagain,andforthefirsttimeshediscoveredthatherfeetwerecold,herheadached,andthatherheartwascolderthantheformer,fullerofpainthanthelatter。Mr。Bhaerwasgoingaway,heonlycaredforherasafriend,itwasallamistake,andthesooneritwasoverthebetter。Withthisideainherhead,shehailedanapproachingomnibuswithsuchahastygesturethatthedaisiesflewoutofthepotandwerebadlydamaged。
“Thisisnotouromniboos,“saidtheProfessor,wavingtheloadedvehicleaway,andstoppingtopickupthepoorlittleflowers。
“Ibegyourpardon。Ididn’tseethenamedistinctly。Nevermind,Icanwalk。I’musedtoploddinginthemud,“returnedJo,winkinghard,becauseshewouldhavediedratherthanopenlywipehereyes。
Mr。Bhaersawthedropsonhercheeks,thoughsheturnedherheadaway。Thesightseemedtotouchhimverymuch,forsuddenlystoopingdown,heaskedinatonethatmeantagreatdeal,“Heart’sdearest,whydoyoucry?“
Now,ifJohadnotbeennewtothissortofthingshewouldhavesaidshewasn’tcrying,hadacoldinherhead,ortoldanyotherfemininefibpropertotheoccasion。Insteadofwhich,thatundignifiedcreatureanswered,withanirrepressiblesob,“Becauseyouaregoingaway。“
“Ach,meinGott,thatissogood!“criedMr。Bhaer,managingtoclasphishandsinspiteoftheumbrellaandthebundles,“Jo,Ihafnothingbutmuchlovetogifyou。Icametoseeifyoucouldcareforit,andIwaitedtobesurethatIwassomethingmorethanafriend。AmI?CanyoumakealittleplaceinyourheartforoldFritz?“headded,allinonebreath。
“Oh,yes!“saidJo,andhewasquitesatisfied,forshefoldedbothhandsoverhisare,andlookedupathimwithanexpressionthatplainlyshowedhowhappyshewouldbetowalkthroughlifebesidehim,eventhoughshehadnobettershelterthantheoldumbrella,ifhecarriedit。
Itwascertainlyproposingunderdifficulties,forevenifhehaddesiredtodoso,Mr。Bhaercouldnotgodownuponhisknees,onaccountofthemud。NeithercouldheofferJohishand,exceptfiguratively,forbothwerefull。Muchlesscouldheindulgeintenderremonstrationsintheopenstreet,thoughhewasnearit。Sotheonlywayinwhichhecouldexpresshisrapturewastolookather,withanexpressionwhichglorifiedhisfacetosuchadegreethatthereactuallyseemedtobelittlerainbowsinthedropsthatsparkledonhisbeard。IfhehadnotlovedJoverymuch,Idon’tthinkhecouldhavedoneitthen,forshelookedfarfromlovely,withherskirtsinadeplorablestate,herrubberbootssplashedtotheankle,andherbonnetaruin。Fortunately,Mr。Bhaerconsideredherthemostbeautifulwomanliving,andshefoundhimmore`Jove-like“
thanever,thoughhishatbrimwasquitelimpwiththelittlerillstricklingthenceuponhisshouldersforheheldtheumbrellaalloverJo,andeveryfingerofhisglovesneededmending。
Passers-byprobablythoughtthemapairofharmlesslunatics,fortheyentirelyforgottohailabus,andstrolledleisurelyalong,obliviousofdeepeningduskandfog。Littletheycaredwhatanybodythought,fortheywereenjoyingthehappyhourthatseldomcomesbutonceinanylife,themagicalmomentwhichbestowsyouthontheold,beautyontheplain,wealthonthepoor,andgiveshumanheartsaforetasteofheaven。
TheProfessorlookedasifhehadconqueredakingdom,andtheworldhadnothingmoretoofferhiminthewayofbliss。WhileJotrudgedbesidehim,feelingasifherplacehadalwaysbeenthere,andwonderinghowsheevercouldhavechosenanyotherlot。Ofcourse,shewasthefirsttospeak——intelligibly,I
mean,fortheemotionalremarkswhichfollowedherimpetuous“Oh,yes!“werenotofacoherentorreportablecharacter。
“Friedrich,whydidn’tyou……“
“Ah,heaven,shegifsmethenamethatnoonespeakssinceMinnadied!“criedtheProfessor,pausinginapuddletoregardherwithgratefuldelight。
“Ialwayscallyousotomyself——Iforgot,butIwon’tunlessyoulikeit。“
“Likeit?ItismoresweettomethanIcantell。Say`thou’,also,andIshallsayyourlanguageisalmostasbeautifulasmine。“
“Isn’t`thou’alittlesentimental?“askedJo,privatelythinkingitalovelymonosyllable。
“Sentimental?Yes。ThankGott,weGermansbelieveinsentiment,andkeepourselvesyoungmitit。YourEnglish`you’issocold,say`thou’,heart’sdearest,itmeanssomuchtome,“pleadedMr。Bhaer,morelikearomanticstudentthanagraveprofessor。
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