Deargirls,InmylastItoldyouaboutourLondonvisit,howkindtheVaughnswere,andwhatpleasantpartiestheymadeforus。IenjoyedthetripstoHamptonCourtandtheKensingtonMuseummorethananythingelse,foratHamptonIsawRaphael’scartoons,andattheMuseum,roomsfullofpicturesbyTurner,Lawrence,Reynolds,Hogarth,andtheothergreatcreatures。ThedayinRichmondParkwascharming,forwehadaregularEnglishpicnic,andIhadmoresplendidoaksandgroupsofdeerthanIcouldcopy,alsoheardanightingale,andsawlarksgoup。We`did’Londontoourheart’scontent,thankstoFredandFrank,andweresorrytogoaway,forthoughEnglishpeopleareslowtotakeyouin,whentheyoncemakeuptheirmindstodoittheycannotbeoutdoneinhospitality,Ithink。TheVaughnshopetomeetusinRomenextwinter,andIshallbedreadfullydisappointediftheydon’t,forGraceandIaregreatfriends,andtheboysverynicefellows,especiallyFred。
Well,wewerehardlysettledhere,whenheturnedupagain,sayinghehadcomeforaholiday,andwasgoingtoSwitzerland。
Auntlookedsoberatfirst,buthewassocoolaboutitshecouldn’tsayaword。Andnowwegetonnicely,andareverygladhecame,forhespeaksFrenchlikeanative,andIdon’tknowwhatweshoulddowithouthim。Uncledoesn’tknowtenwords,andinsistsontalkingEnglishveryloud,asifitwouldmakepeopleunderstandhim。Aunt’spronunciationisold-fashioned,andFloandI,thoughweflatteredourselvesthatweknewagooddeal,findwedon’t,andareverygratefultohaveFreddothe`parleyvooing’,asUnclecallsit。
Suchdelightfultimesaswearehaving!Sight-seeingfrommorningtillnight,stoppingfornicelunchesinthegaycafes,andmeetingwithallsortsofdrolladventures。RainydaysI
spendintheLouvre,revellinginpictures。Jowouldturnuphernaughtynoseatsomeofthefinest,becauseshehasnosoulforart,butIhave,andI’mcultivationeyeandtasteasfastasIcan。Shewouldliketherelicsofgreatpeoplebetter,forI’veseenherNapoleon’scockedhatandgraycoat,hisbaby’scradleandhisoldtoothbrush,alsoMarieAntoinette’slittleshoe,theringofSaintDenis,Charlemagne’ssword,andmanyotherinterestingthings。I’lltalkforhoursaboutthemwhenIcome,buthaven’ttimetowrite。
ThePalaisRoyaleisaheavenlyplace,sofullofbijouterieandlovelythingsthatI’mnearlydistractedbecauseIcan’tbuythem。Fredwantedtogetmesome,butofcourseIdidn’tallowit。ThentheBoisandChampsElyseesaretresmagnifique。
I’veseentheimperialfamilyseveraltimes,theemperoranugly,hard-lookingman,theempresspaleandpretty,butdressedinbadtaste,Ithought——purpledress,greenhat,andyellowgloves。
LittleNapisahandsomeboy,whositschattingtohistutor,andkissedhishandtothepeopleashepassesinhisfour-horsebarouche,withpostilionsinredsatinjacketsandamountedguardbeforeandbehind。
WeoftenwalkintheTuileriesGardens,fortheyarelovely,thoughtheantiqueLuxembourgGardenssuitmebetter。
PerelaChaiseisverycurious,formanyofthetombsarelikesmallrooms,andlookingin,oneseesatable,withimagesorpicturesofthedead,andchairsforthemournerstositinwhentheycometolament。ThatissoFrenchy。
OurroomsareontheRuedeRivoli,andsittingonthebalcony,welookupanddownthelong,brilliantstreet。Itissopleasantthatwespendoureveningstalkingtherewhentootiredwithourday’sworktogoout。Fredisveryentertaining,andisaltogetherthemostagreeableyoungmanIeverknew——
exceptLaurie,whosemannersaremorecharming。IwishFredwasdark,forIdon’tfancylightmen,however,theVaughnsareveryrichandcomeofanexcellentfamily,soIwon’tfindfaultwiththeiryellowhair,asmyownisyellower。
NextweekweareofftoGermanyandSwitzerland,andasweshalltravelfast,Ishallonlybeabletogiveyouhastyletters。Ikeepmydiary,andtryto`remembercorrectlyanddescribeclearlyallthatIseeandadmire’,asFatheradvised。
Itisgoodpracticeforme,andwithmysketchbookwillgiveyouabetterideaofmytourthanthesescribbles。
Adieu,Iembraceyoutenderly。
MydearMamma,HavingaquiethourbeforeweleaveforBerne,I’lltrytotellyouwhathashappened,forsomeofitisveryimportant,asyouwillsee。
ThesailuptheRhinewasperfect,andIjustsatandenjoyeditwithallmymight。GetFather’soldguidebooksandreadaboutit。Ihaven’twordsbeautifulenoughtodescribeit。
AtCoblenzwehadalovelytime,forsomestudentsfromBonn,withwhomFredgotacquaintedontheboat,gaveusaserenade。
Itwasamoonlightnight,andaboutoneo’clockFloandIwerewakedbythemostdeliciousmusicunderourwindows。Weflewup,andhidbehindthecurtains,butslypeepsshowedusFredandthestudentssingingawaydownbelow。ItwasthemostromanticthingIeversaw——theriver,thebridgeofboats,thegreatfortressopposite,moonlighteverywhere,andmusicfittomeltaheartofstone。
Whentheyweredonewethrewdownsomeflowers,andsawthemscrambleforthem,kisstheirhandstotheinvisibleladies,andgolaughingaway,tosmokeanddrinkbeer,Isuppose。NextmorningFredshowedmeoneofthecrumpledflowersinhisvestpocket,andlookedverysentimental。Ilaughedathim,andsaidIdidn’tthrowit,butFlo,whichseemedtodisgusthim,forhetosseditoutofthewindow,andturnedsensibleagain。I’mafraidI’mgoingtohavetroublewiththatboy,itbeginstolooklikeit。
ThebathsatNassauwereverygay,sowasBaden-Baden,whereFredlostsomemoney,andIscoldedhim。HeneedssomeonetolookafterhimwhenFrankisnotwithhim。Katesaidonceshehopedhe’dmarrysoon,andIquiteagreewithherthatitwouldbewellforhim。Frankfurtwasdelightful。
I
sawGoeth’shouse,Schiller’sstatue,andDannecker’sfamousAriadne。Itwasverylovely,butIshouldhaveenjoyeditmoreifIhadknownthestorybetter。Ididn’tliketoask,aseveryoneknewitorpretendedtheydid。IwishJowouldtellmeallaboutit。Ioughttohavereadmore,forIfindIdon’tknowanything,anditmortifiesme。
Nowcomestheseriouspart,forithappenedhere,andFredhasjustgone。Hehasbeensokindandjollythatweallgotquitefondofhim。Ineverthoughtofanythingbutatravelingfriendshiptilltheserenadenight。SincethenI’vebeguntofeelthatthemoonlightwalks,balconytalks,anddailyadventuresweresomethingmoretohimthanfun。Ihaven’tflirted,Mother,truly,butrememberedwhatyousaidtome,andhavedonemyverybest。Ican’thelpitifpeoplelikeme。Idon’ttrytomakethem,anditworriesmeifIdon’tcareforthem,thoughJosaysIhaven’tgotanyheart。NowIknowMotherwillshakeherhead,andthegirlssay,“Oh,themercenarylittlewretch!“,butI’vemadeupmymind,andifFredasksme,Ishallaccepthim,thoughI’mnotmadlyinlove。Ilikehim,andwegetoncomfortablytogether。Heishandsome,young,cleverenough,andveryrich——eversomuchricherthantheLaurences。Idon’tthinkhisfamilywouldobject,andIshouldbeveryhappy,fortheyareallkind,well-bred,generouspeople,andtheylikeme。Fred,astheeldesttwin,willhavetheestate,Isuppose,andsuchasplendidoneitis!Acityhouseinafashionablestreet,notsoshowyasourbighouses,buttwiceascomfortableandfullofsolidluxury,suchasEnglishpeoplebelievein。Ilikeit,forit’sgenuine。I’veseentheplate,thefamilyjewels,theoldservants,andpicturesofthecountryplace,withitspark,greathouse,lovelygrounds,andfinehorses。Oh,itwouldbeallIshouldask!AndI’dratherhaveitthananytitlesuchasgirlssnapupsoreadily,andfindnothingbehind。Imaybemercenary,butIhatepoverty,anddon’tmeantobearitaminutelongerthanIcanhelp。Oneofusmustmarrywell。Megdidn’t,Jowon’t,Bethcan’tyet,soIshall,andmakeeverythingokayallround。Iwouldn’tmarryamanIhatedordespised。Youmaybesureofthat,andthoughFredisnotmymodelhero,hedoesverywell,andintimeIshouldgetfondenoughofhimifhewasveryfondofme,andletmedojustasIliked。SoI’vebeenturningthematteroverinmymindthelastweek,foritwasimpossibletohelpseeingthatFredlikedme。Hesaidnothing,butlittlethingsshowedit。HenevergoeswithFlo,alwaysgetsonmysideofthecarriage,table,orpromenade,lookssentimentalwhenwearealone,andfrownsatanyoneelsewhoventurestospeaktome。Yesterdayatdinner,whenanAustrianofficerstaredatusandthensaidsomethingtohisfriend,arakish-lookingbaron,about`einwonderschonesBlondchen’,Fredlookedasfierceasalion,andcuthismeatsosavagelyitnearlyflewoffhisplate。Heisn’toneofthecool,stiffEnglishmen,butisratherpeppery,forhehasScotchbloodinhim,asonemightguessfromhisbonnieblueeyes。
Well,lasteveningwewentuptothecastleaboutsunset,atleastallofusbutFred,whowastomeetusthereaftergoingtothePostRestanteforletters。Wehadacharmingtimepokingabouttheruins,thevaultswherethemonstertunis,andthebeautifulgardensmadebytheelectorlongagoforhisEnglishwife。Ilikedthegreatterracebest,fortheviewwasdivine,sowhiletherestwenttoseetheroomsinside,Isattheretryingtosketchthegraystonelion’sheadonthewall,withscarletwoodbinesprayshangingroundit。IfeltasifI’dgotintoaromance,sittingthere,watchingtheMeckarrollingthroughthevalley,listeningtothemusicoftheAustrianbandbelow,andwaitingformylover,likearealstorybookgirl。IhadafeelingthatsomethingwasgoingtohappenandIwasreadyforit。I
didn’tfeelblushyorquakey,butquitecoolandonlyalittleexcited。
By-and-byIheardFred’svoice,andthenhecamehurryingthroughthegreatarchtofindme。HelookedsotroubledthatI
forgotallaboutmyself,andaskedwhatthematterwas。Hesaidhe’djustgotaletterbegginghimtocomehome,forFrankwasveryill。Sohewasgoingatonceonthenighttrainandonlyhadtimetosaygood-by。Iwasverysorryforhim,anddisappointedformyself,butonlyforaminutebecausehesaid,asheshookhands,andsaiditinawaythatIcouldnotmistake,“Ishallsooncomeback,youwon’tforgetme,Amy?“
Ididn’tpromise,butIlookedathim,andheseemedsatisfied,andtherewasnotimeforanythingbutmessagesandgood-byes,forhewasoffinanhour,andweallmisshimverymuch。
Iknowhewantedtospeak,butIthink,fromsomethingheoncehinted,thathehadpromisedhisfathernottodoanythingofthesortyetawhile,forisisarashboy,andtheoldgentlemandreadsaforeigndaughter-in-law。WeshallsoonmeetinRome,andthen,ifIdon’tchangemymind,I’llsay“Yes,thankyou,“whenhesays“Willyou,please?“
Ofcoursethisisallveryprivate,butIwishedyoutoknowwhatwasgoingon。Don’tbeanxiousaboutme,rememberI
amyour`prudentAmy’,andbesureIwilldonothingrashly。
Sendmeasmuchadviceasyoulike。I’lluseitifIcan。
I
wishIcouldseeyouforagoodtalk,Marmee。Loveandtrustme。
EveryourAMY
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“Jo,I’manxiousaboutBeth。“
“Why,Mother,shehasseemedunusuallywellsincethebabiescame。“
“It’snotherhealththattroublesmenow,it’sherspirits。
I’msurethereissomethingonhermind,andIwantyoutodiscoverwhatitis。“
“Whatmakesyouthinkso,Mother?“
“Shesitsaloneagooddeal,anddoesn’ttalktoherfatherasmuchassheused。Ifoundhercryingoverthebabiestheotherday。Whenshesings,thesongsarealwayssadones,andnowandthenIseealookinherfacethatIdon’tunderstand。
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