IfithadnotbeenforLaurie,andoldEsther,themaid,shefeltthatshenevercouldhavegotthroughthatdreadfultime。Theparrotalonewasenoughtodriveherdistracted,forhesoonfeltthatshedidnotadmirehim,andrevengedhimselfbybeingasmischievousaspossible。Hepulledherhairwhenevershecamenearhim,upsethisbreadandmilktoplagueherwhenshehadnewlycleanedhiscage,madeMopbarkbypeckingathimwhileMadamdozed,calledhernamesbeforecompany,andbehavedinallrespectslikeanreprehensibleoldbird。Thenshecouldnotendurethedog,afat,crossbeastwhosnarledandyelpedatherwhenshemadehistoilet,andwholayonhisbackwithallhislegsintheairandamostidioticexpressionofcountenancewhenhewantedsomethingtoeat,whichwasaboutadozentimesaday。Thecookwasbad-tempered,theoldcoachmanwasdeaf,andEsthertheonlyonewhoevertookanynoticeoftheyounglady。
EstherwasaFrenchwoman,whohadlivedwith`Madame’,asshecalledhermistress,formanyyears,andwhorathertyrannizedovertheoldlady,whocouldnotgetalongwithouther。
HerrealnamewasEstelle,butAuntMarchorderedhertochangeit,andsheobeyed,onconditionthatshewasneveraskedtochangeherreligion。ShetookafancytoMademoiselle,andamusedherverymuchwithoddstoriesofherlifeinFrance,whenAmysatwithherwhileshegotupMadam’slaces。Shealsoallowedhertoroamaboutthegreathouse,andexaminethecuriousandprettythingsstoredawayinthebigwardrobesandtheancientchests,forAuntMarchhoardedlikeamagpie。Amy’schiefdelightwasanIndiancabinet,fullofqueerdrawers,littlepigeonholes,andsecretplaces,inwhichwerekeptallsortsofornaments,someprecious,somemerelycurious,allmoreorlessantique。
ToexamineandarrangethesethingsgaveAmygreatsatisfaction,especiallythejewelcases,inwhichonvelvetcushionsreposedtheornamentswhichhadadornedabellefortyyearsago。TherewasthegarnetsetwhichAuntMarchworewhenshecameout,thepearlsherfathergaveheronherweddingday,herlover’sdiamonds,thejetmourningringsandpins,thequeerlockets,withportraitsofdeadfriendsandweepingwillowsmadeofhairinside,thebabybraceletsheronelittledaughterhadworn,UncleMarch’sbigwatch,withtheredsealsomanychildishhandshadplayedwith,andinaboxallbyitselflayAuntMarch’sweddingring,toosmallnowforherfatfinger,butputcarefullyawaylikethemostpreciousjewelofthemall。
“WhichwouldMademoisellechooseifshehadherwill?“askedEsther,woalwayssatneartowatchoverandlockupthevaluables。
“Ilikethediamondsbest,butthereisnonecklaceamongthem,andI’mfondofnecklaces,theyaresobecoming。IshouldchoosethisifImight,“repliedAmy,lookingwithgreatadmirationatastringofgoldandebonybeadsfromwhichhungaheavycrossofthesame。
“I,too,covetthat,butnotasanecklace。Ah,no!Tomeitisarosary,andassuchIshoulduseitlikeagoodcatholic,“saidEsther,eyeingthehandsomethingwistfully。
“Isitmeanttouseasyouusethestringofgood-smellingwoodenbeadshangingoveryourglass?“askedAmy。
“Truly,yes,topraywith。Itwouldbepleasingtothesaintsifoneusedsofinearosaryasthis,insteadofwearingitasavainbijou。“
“Youseemtotakeagreatdealofcomfortinyourprayers,Esther,andalwayscomedownlookingquietandsatisfied。IwishIcould。“
“IfMademoisellewasaCatholic,shewouldfindtruecomfort,butasthatisnottobe,itwouldbewellifyouwentaparteachdaytomeditateandpray,asdidthegoodmistresswhomIservedbeforeMadame。Shehadalittlechapel,andinitfoundsolacementformuchtrouble。“
“Woulditberightformetodosotoo?“askedAmy,whoinherlonelinessfelttheneedofhelpofsomesort,andfoundthatshewasapttoforgetherlittlebook,nowthatBethwasnottheretoremindherofit。
“Itwouldbeexcellentandcharming,andIshallgladlyarrangethelittledressingroomforyouifyoulikeit。SaynothingtoMadame,butwhenshesleepsgoyouandsitaloneawhiletothinkgoodthoughts,andpraythedearGodpreserveyoursister。“
Estherwastrulypious,andquitesincereinheradvice,forshehadanaffectionateheart,andfeltmuchforthesistersintheiranxiety。Amylikedtheidea,andgaveherleavetoarrangethelightclosetnextherroom,hopingitwoulddohergood。
“IwishIknewwherealltheseprettythingswouldgowhenAuntMarchdies,“shesaid,assheslowlyreplacedtheshiningrosaryandshutthejewelcasesonebyone。
“Toyouandyoursisters。Iknowit,Madameconfidesinme。
Iwitnessedherwill,anditistobeso,“whisperedEsthersmiling。
“Hownice!ButIwishshe’dletushavethemnow。
Procrastinationisnotagreeable,“observedAmy,takingalastlookatthediamonds。
“Itistoosoonyetfortheyoungladiestowearthesethings。
Thefirstonewhoisaffiancedwillhavethepearls,Madamehassaidit,andIhaveafancythatthelittleturquoiseringwillbegiventoyouwhenyougo,forMadameapprovesyourgoodbehaviorandcharmingmanners。“
“Doyouthinkso?Oh,I’llbealamb,ifIcanonlyhavethatlovelyring!It’seversomuchprettierthanKittyBryant’s。
IdolikeAuntMarchafterall。“AndAmytriedontheblueringwithadelightedfaceandafirmresolvetoearnit。
Fromthatdayshewasamodelofobedience,andtheoldladycomplacentlyadmiredthesuccessofhertraining。Estherfitteduptheclosetwithalittletable,placedafootstoolbeforeit,andoveritapicturetakenfromoneoftheshut-uprooms。Shethoughtitwasofnogreatvalue,but,beingappropriate,sheborrowedit,wellknowingthatMadamewouldneverknowit,norcareifshedid。Itwas,however,averyvaluablecopyofoneofthefamouspicturesoftheworld,andAmy’sbeauty-lovingeyeswerenevertiredoflookingupatthesweetfaceoftheDivineMother,whilehertenderthoughtsofherownwerebusyatherheart。Onthetableshelaidherlittletestamentandhymnbook,keptavasealwaysfullofthebestflowersLauriebroughther,andcameeverydayto`sitalone’thinkinggoodthoughts,andprayingthedearGodtopreservehersister。Estherhadgivenherarosaryofblackbeadswithasilvercross,butAmyhungitupanddidnotuseit,feelingdoubtfulastoitsfitnessforProtestantprayers。
Thelittlegirlwasverysincereinallthis,forbeingleftaloneoutsidethesafehomenest,shefelttheneedofsomekindhandtoholdbysosorelythatsheinstinctivelyturnedtothestrongandtenderFriend,whosefatherlylovemostcloselysurroundsHislittlechildren。Shemissedhermother’shelptounderstandandruleherself,buthavingbeentaughtwheretolook,shedidherbesttofindthewayandwalkinitconfidingly。ButAmywasayoungpilgrim,andjustnowherburdenseemedveryheavy。
Shetriedtoforgetherself,tokeepcheerful,andbesatisfiedwithdoingright,thoughnoonesaworpraisedherforit。Inherfirsteffortatbeingvery,verygood,shedecidedtomakeherwill,asAuntMarchhaddone,sothatifshedidfallillanddie,herpossessionsmightbejustlyandgenerouslydivided。Itcostherapangeventothinkofgivingupthelittletreasureswhichinhereyeswereaspreciousastheoldlady’sjewels。
Duringoneofherplayhoursshewroteouttheimportantdocumentaswellasshecould,withsomehelpfromEstherastocertainlegalterms,andwhenthegood-naturedFrenchwomanhadsignedhername,AmyfeltrelievedandlaiditbytoshowLaurie,whomshewantedasasecondwitness。Asitwasarainyday,shewentupstairstoamuseherselfinoneofthelargechambers,andtookPollywithherforcompany。Inthisroomtherewasawardrobefullofold-fashionedcostumeswithwhichEstherallowedhertoplay,anditwasherfavoriteamusementtoarrayherselfinthefadedbrocades,andparadeupanddownbeforethelongmirror,makingstatelycurtsies,andsweepinghertrainaboutwitharustlewhichdelightedherears。SobusywassheonthisdaythatshedidnothearLaurie’sringnorseehisfacepeepinginatherasshegravelypromenadedtoandfro,flirtingherfanandtossingherhead,onwhichsheworeagreatpinkturban,contrastingoddlywithherbluebrocadedressandyellowquiltedpetticoat。Shewasobligedtowalkcarefully,forshehadonhighheeledshoes,and,asLaurietoldJoafterward,itwasacomicalsighttoseehermincealonginhergaysuit,withPollysidilngandbridlingjustbehindher,imitatingheraswellashecould,andoccasionallystoppingtolaughorexclaim,“Ain’twefine?
Getalong,youfright!Holdyourtongue!Kissme,dear!
Ha!Ha!“
Havingwithdifficultyrestrainedanexplosionofmerriment,lestitshouldoffendhermajesty,Laurietappedandwasgraciouslyreceived。
“SitdownandrestwhileIputthesethingsaway,thenIwanttoconsultyouaboutaveryseriousmatter,“saidAmy,whenshehadshownhersplendoranddrivenPollyintoacorner。“Thatbirdisthetrialofmylife,“shecontinued,removingthepinkmountainfromherhead,whileLaurieseatedhimselfastrideachair。
“Yesterday,whenAuntwasasleepandIwastryingtobeasstillasamouse,Pollybegantosquallandflapaboutinhiscage,soIwenttolethimout,andfoundabigspiderthere。Ipokeditout,anditranunderthebookcase。Pollymarchedstraightafterit,stoopeddownandpeepedunderthebookcase,saying,inhisfunnyway,withacockofhiseye,`Comeoutandtakeawalk,mydear。’Icouldn’thelplaughing,whichmadePollswear,andAuntwokeupandscoldedusboth。“
“Didthespideraccepttheoldfellow’sinvitation?“askedLaurie,yawning。
“Yes,outitcame,andawayranPolly,frightenedtodeath,andscrambleduponAunt’schair,callingout,`Catchher!Catchher!
Catchher!’asIchasedthespider。“
“That’salie!Oh,lor!“criedtheparrot,peckingatLaurie’stoes。
“I’dwringyourneckifyouweremine,youoldtorment,“criedLaurie,shakinghisfistatthebird,whoputhisheadononesideandgravelycroaked,“Allyluyer!Blessyourbuttons,dear!“
“NowI’mready,“saidAmy,shuttingthewardrobeandtakingapieceofpaperoutofherpocket。“Iwantyoutoreadthat,please,andtellmeifitislegalandright。IfeltIoughttodoit,forlifeisuncertainandIdon’twantanyillfeelingovermytomb。“
Lauriebithislips,andturningalittlefromthepensivespeaker,readthefollowingdocument,withpraiseworthygravity,consideringthespelling:
MYLASTWILLANDTESTIMENT
I,AmyCurtisMarch,beinginmysanemind,gogiveandbequeetheallmyearthlyproperty——viz。towit:——namelyTomyfather,mybestpictures,sketches,maps,andworksofart,includingframes。Alsomy$100,todowhathelikeswith。
Tomymother,allmyclothes,excepttheblueapronwithpockets——alsomylikeness,andmymedal,withmuchlove。
TomydearsisterMargaret,IgivemyturkquoiseringifI
getit,alsomygreenboxwiththedovesonit,alsomy;pieceofreallaceforherneck,andmysketchofherasamemorialofher’littlegirl’。
ToJoIleavemybreastpin,theonemendedwithsealingwax,alsomybronzeinkstand——shelostthecover——andmymostpreciousplasterrabbit,becauseIamsorryIburnedupherstory。
ToBethifshelivesaftermeIgivemydollsandthelittlebureau,myfan,mylinencollarsandmynewslippersifshecanwearthembeingthinwhenshegetswell。AndIherewithalsoleavehermyregretthatIevermadefunofoldJoanna。
TomyfriendandneighborTheodoreLaurenceIbequeethemypapermashayportfolio,myclaymodelofahorsethoughhedidsayithadn’tanyneck。Alsoinreturnforhisgreatkindnessinthehourofafflictionanyoneofmyartisticworkshelikes,NoterDameisthebest。
ToourvenerablebenefactorMr。LaurenceIleavemypurpleboxwithalookingglassinthecoverwhichwillbeniceforhispensandremindhimofthedepartedgirlwhothankshimforhisfavorstoherfamily,especiallyBeth。
IwishmyfavoriteplaymateKittyBryanttohavethebluesilkapronandmygold-beadringwithakiss。
ToHannahIgivethebandboxshewantedandallthepatchworkIleavehopingshe`willrememberme,whenityousee’。
AndnowhavingdisposedofmymostvaluablepropertyIhopeallwillbesatisfiedandnotblamethedead。Iforgiveeveryone,andtrustwemayallmeetwhenthetrumpshallsound。Amen。
TothiswillandtestimentIsetmyhandandsealonthis20thdayofNov。AnniDomino1861。
AmyCurtisMarchWitnesses:
EstelleValnor,TheodoreLaurence。
Thelastnamewaswritteninpencil,andAmyexplainedthathewastorewriteitininkandsealitupforherproperly。
“Whatputitintoyourhead?DidanyonetellyouaboutBeth’sgivingawayherthings?“askedLauriesoberly,asAmylaidabitofredtape,withsealingwax,ataper,andastandishbeforehim。
Sheexplainedandthenaskedanxiously,“WhataboutBeth?“
“I’msorryIspoke,butasIdid,I’lltellyou。ShefeltsoillonedaythatshetoldJoshewantedtogiveherpianotoMeg,hercatstoyou,andthepoorolddolltoJo,whowouldloveitforhersake。Shewassorryshehadsolittletogive,andleftlocksofhairtotherestofus,andherbestlovetoGrandpa。Sheneverthoughtofawill。“
Lauriewassigningandsealingashespoke,anddidnotlookuptillagreatteardroppedonthepaper。Amy’sfacewasfulloftrouble,butsheonlysaid,“Don’tpeopleputsortofpostscriptstotheirwills,sometimes?“
“Yes,`codicils’,theycallthem。“
“Putoneinminethen,thatIwishallmycurlscutoff,andgivenroundtomyfriends。Iforgotit,butIwantitdonethoughitwillspoilmylooks。“
Laurieaddedit,smilingatAmy’slastandgreatestsacrifice。
Thenheamusedherforanhour,andwasmuchinterestedinallhertrials。Butwhenhecametogo,Amyheldhimbacktowhisperwithtremblinglips,“IstherereallyanydangeraboutBeth?“
“I’mafraidthereis,butwemusthopeforthebest,sodon’tcry,dear。“AndLaurieputhisarmaboutherwithabrotherlygesturewhichwasverycomforting。
Whenhehadgone,shewenttoherlittlechapel,andsittinginthetwilight,prayedforBeth,withstreamingtearsandanachingheart,feelingthatamillionturquoiseringswouldnotconsoleherforthelossofhergentlelittlesister。
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