“Goodforyou,Jo!Didyoudoitonyourownresponsibility?“
askedLaurie,asheseatedherinthehallchairandtookofftherebelliousboots,seeinghowherhandsshook。
“No。Thedoctortoldusto。“
“Oh,Jo,it’snotsobadasthat?“criedLaurie,withastartledface。
“Yes,itis。Shedoesn’tknowus,shedoesn’teventalkabouttheflocksofgreendoves,asshecallsthevineleavesonthewall。
Shedoesn’tlooklikemyBeth,andthere’snobodytohelpusbearit。
Motherandfatherbothgone,andGodseemssofarawayIcan’tfindHim。“
AsthetearsstreamedfastdownpoorJo’scheeks,shestretchedoutherhandinahelplesssortofway,asifgropinginthedark,andLaurietookitinhis,whisperingaswellashecouldwithalumpinhisthroat,“I’mhere。Holdontome,Jo,dear!“
Shecouldnotspeak,butshedid`holdon’,andthewarmgraspofthefriendlyhumanhandcomfortedhersoreheart,andseemedtoleadhernearertotheDivinearmwhichalonecouldupholdherinhertrouble。
Laurielongedtosaysomethingtenderandcomfortable,butnofittingwordscametohim,sohestoodsilent,gentlystrokingherbentheadashermotherusedtodo。Itwasthebestthinghecouldhavedone,farmoresoothingthanthemosteloquentwords,forJofelttheunspokensympathy,andinthesilencelearnedthesweetsolacewhichaffectionadministerstosorrow。Soonshedriedthetearswhichhadrelievedher,andlookedupwithagratefulface。
“Thankyou,Teddy,I’mbetternow。Idon’tfeelsoforlorn,andwilltrytobearitifitcomes。“
“Keephopingforthebest,thatwillhelpyou,Jo。Soonyourmotherwillbehere,andtheneverythingwillbeallright。“
“I’msogladFatherisbetter。Nowshewon’tfeelsobadaboutleavinghim。Oh,me!Itdoesseemasifallthetroublescameinaheap,andIgottheheaviestpartonmyshoulders,“sighedJo,spreadingherwethandkerchiefoverherkneestodry。
“Doesn’tMegpullfair?“askedLaurie,lookingindignant。
“Oh,yes,shetriesto,butshecan’tloveBethyasIdo,andshewon’tmissherasIshall。Bethismyconscience,andIcan’tgiveherup。Ican’t!Ican’t!“
DownwentJo’sfaceintothewethandkerchief,andshecrieddespairingly,forshehadkeptupbravelytillnowandnevershedatear。Lauriedrewhishandacrosshiseyes,butcouldnotspeaktillhehadsubduedthechokyfeelinginhisthroatandsteadiedhislips。Itmightbeunmanly,buthecouldn’thelpit,andIamgladofit。Presently,asJo’ssobsquieted,hesaidhopefully,“I
don’tthinkshewilldie。She’ssogood,andwealllovehersomuch,Idon’tbelieveGodwilltakeherawayyet。“
“Thegoodanddearpeoplealwaysdodie,“groanedJo,butshestoppedcrying,forherfriend’swordscheeredherupinspiteofherowndoubtsandfears。
“Poorgirl,you’rewornout。Itisn’tlikeyoutobeforlorn。
Stopabit。I’llheartenyouupinajiffy。“
Lauriewentofftwostairsatatime,andJolaidherweariedheaddownonBeth’slittlebrownhood,whichnoonehadthoughtofmovingfromthetablewheresheleftit。Itmusthavepossessedsomemagic,forthesubmissivespiritofitsgentleownerseemedtoenterintoJo,andwhenLauriecamerunningdownwithaglassofwine,shetookitwithasmile,andsaidbravely,“Idrink——
HealthtomyBeth!Youareagooddoctor,Teddy,andsuchacomfortablefriend。HowcanIeverpayyou?“sheadded,asthewinerefreshedherbody,asthekindwordshaddonehertroubledmind。
“I’llsendmybill,by-and-by,andtonightI’llgiveyousome-
thingthatwillwarmthecocklesofyourheartbetterthanquartsofwine,“saidLaurie,beamingatherwithafaceofsuppressedsatisfactionatsomething。
“Whatisit?“criedJo,forgettingherwoesforaminuteinherwonder。
“Itelegraphedtoyourmotheryesterday,andBrookeansweredshe’dcomeatonce,andshe’llbeheretonight,andeverythingwillbeallright。Aren’tyougladIdidit?“
Lauriespokeveryfast,andturnedredandexcitedallinaminute,forhehadkepthisplotasecret,forfearofdisappointingthegirlsorharmingBeth。Jogrewquitewhite,flewoutofherchair,andthemomenthestoppedspeakingsheelectrifiedhimbythrowingherarmsroundhisneck,andcryingout,withajoyfulcry,“Oh,Laurie!Oh,Mother!Iamsoglad!“Shedidnotweepagain,butlaughedhysterically,andtrembledandclungtoherfriendasifshewasalittlebewilderedbythesuddennews。
Laurie,thoughdecidedlyamazed,behavedwithgreatpresenceofmind。Hepattedherbacksoothingly,andfindingthatshewasrecovering,followeditupbyabashfulkissortwo,whichbroughtJoroundatonce。Holdingontothebanisters,sheputhimgentlyaway,sayingbreathlessly,“Oh,don’t!Ididn’tmeanto,itwasdreadfulofme,butyouweresuchadeartogoanddoitinspiteofHannahthatIcouldn’thelpflyingatyou。Tellmeallaboutit,anddon’tgivemewineagain,itmakesmeactso。“
“Idon’tmind,“laughedLaurie,ashesettledhistie。“Why,youseeIgotfidgety,andsodidGrandpa。WethoughtHannahwasoverdoingtheauthoritybusiness,andyourmotheroughttoknow。
She’dneverforgiveusifBeth……Well,ifanythinghappened,youknow。SoIgotgrandpatosayitwashightimewedidsomething,andoffIpeltedtotheofficeyesterday,forthedoctorlookedsober,andHannahmosttookmyheadoffwhenIproposedatelegram。I
nevercanbeartobe`lordedover’,sothatsettledmymind,andIdidit。
Yourmotherwillcome,Iknow,andthelatetrainisinattwoA。M。
Ishallgoforher,andyou’veonlygottobottleupyourrapture,andkeepBethquiettillthatblessedladygetshere。“
“Laurie,you’reanangel!HowshallIeverthankyou?“
“Flyatmeagain。Iratherlikedit,“saidLaurie,lookingmischievous,athinghehadnotdoneforafortnight。
“No,thankyou。I’lldoitbyproxy,whenyourgrandpacomes。
Don’ttease,butgohomeandrest,foryou’llbeuphalfthenight。
Blessyou,Teddy,blessyou!“
Johadbackedintoacorner,andasshefinishedherspeech,shevanishedprecipitatelyintothekitchen,whereshesatdownuponadresserandtoldtheassembledcatsthatshewas“happy,oh,sohappy!“whileLauriedeparted,feelingthathehadmadearatherneatthingofit。
“That’stheinterferingestchapIeversee,butIforgivehimanddohopeMrs。Marchiscomingrightaway,“saidHannah,withanairofrelief,whenJotoldthegoodnews。
Meghadaquietrapture,andthenbroodedovertheletter,whileJosetthesickroominorder,andHannah`knockedupacoupleofpiesincaseofcompanyunexpected“。Abreathoffreshairseemedtoblowthroughthehouse,andsomethingbetterthansunshinebrightenedthequietrooms。Everythingappearedtofeelthehopefulchange。Beth’sbirdbegantochirpagain,andahalf-blownrosewasdiscoveredonAmy’sbushinthewindow。
Thefiresseemedtoburnwithunusualcheeriness,andeverytimethegirlsmet,theirpalefacesbrokeintosmilesastheyhuggedoneanother,whisperingencouragingly,“Mother’scoming,dear!
Mother’scoming!“EveryonerejoicedbutBeth。Shelayinthatheavystupor,alikeunconsciousofhopeandjoy,doubtanddanger。
Itwasapiteoussight,theoncerosyfacesochangedandvacant,theoncebusyhandssoweakandwasted,theoncesmilinglipsquitedumb,andtheoncepretty,well-kepthairscatteredroughandtangledonthepillow。Alldayshesayso,onlyrousingnowandthentomutter,“Water!“withlipssoparchedtheycouldhardlyshapetheword。AlldayJoandMeghoveredoverher,watching,waiting,hoping,andtrustinginGodandMother,andalldaythesnowfell,thebitterwindraged,andthehoursdraggedslowlyby。Butnightcameatlast,andeverytimetheclockstruck,thesisters,stillsittingoneithersideofthebed,lookedateachotherwithbrighteningeyes,foreachhourbroughthelpnearer。Thedoctorhadbeenintosaythatsomechange,forbetterorworse,wouldprobablytakeplaceaboutmidnight,atwhichtimehewouldreturn。
Hannah,quitewornout,laydownonthesofaatthebed’sfootandfellfastasleep,Mr。Laurencemarchedtoandfrointheparlor,feelingthathewouldratherfacearebelbatterythanMrs。March’scountenanceassheentered。Laurielayontherug,pretendingtorest,butstaringintothefirewiththethoughtfullookwhichmadehisblackeyesbeautifullysoftandclear。
Thegirlsneverforgotthatnight,fornosleepcametothemastheykepttheirwatch,withthatdreadfulsenseofpowerlessnesswhichcomestousinhourslikethose。
“IfGodsparesBeth,Ineverwillcomplainagain,“whisperedMegearnestly。
“IfgodsparesBeth,I’lltrytoloveandserveHimallmylife,“answeredJo,withequalfervor。
“IwishIhadnoheart,itachesso,“sighedMeg,afterapause。
“Iflifeisoftenashardasthis,Idon’tseehowweevershallgetthroughit,“addedhersisterdespondently。
Heretheclockstrucktwelve,andbothforgotthemselvesinwatchingBeth,fortheyfanciedachangepassedoverherwanface。
Thehousewasstillasdeath,andnothingbutthewailingofthewindbrokethedeephush。WearyHannahslepton,andnoonebutthesisterssawthepaleshadowwhichseemedtofalluponthelittlebed。Anhourwentby,andnothinghappenedexceptLaurie’squietdepartureforthestation。Anotherhour,stillnoonecame,andanxiousfearsofdelayinthestorm,oraccidentsbytheway,or,worstofall,agreatgriefatWashington,hauntedthegirls。
Itwaspasttwo,whenJo,whostoodatthewindowthinkinghowdrearytheworldlookedinitswindingsheetofsnow,heardamovementbythebed,andturningquickly,sawMegkneelingbeforetheirmother’seasychairwithherfacehidden。AdreadfulfearpassedcoldlyoverJo,asshethought,“Bethisdead,andMegisafraidtotellme。“
Shewasbackatherpostinaninstant,andtoherexcitedeyesagreatchangeseemedtohavetakenplace。Thefeverflushandthelookofpainweregone,andthebelovedlittlefacelookedsopaleandpeacefulinitsutterreposethatJofeltnodesiretoweeportolament。Leaninglowoverthisdearestofhersisters,shekissedthedampforeheadwithherheartonherlips,andsoftlywhispered,“Goodby,myBeth。Goodby!“
Asifawakedbythestir,Hannahstartedoutofhersleep,hurriedtothebed,lookedatBeth,feltherhands,listenedatherlips,andthen,throwingherapronoverherhead,satdowntorocktoandfro,exclaiming,underherbreath,“Thefever’sturned,she’ssleepin’nat’ral,herskin’sdamp,andshebreatheseasy。Praisebegiven!Oh,mygoodnessme!“
Beforethegirlscouldbelievethehappytruth,thedoctorcametoconfirmit。Hewasahomelyman,buttheythoughthisfacequiteheavenlywhenhesmiledandsaid,withafatherlylookatthem,“Yes,mydears,Ithinkthelittlegirlwillpullthroughthistime。Keepthehousequiet,lethersleep,andwhenshewakes,giveher……“
Whattheyweretogive,neitherheard,forbothcreptintothedarkhall,and,sittingonthestairs,heldeachotherclose,rejoicingwithheartstoofullforwords。WhentheywentbacktobekissedandcuddledbyfaithfulHannah,theyfoundBethlying,assheusedtodo,withhercheekpillowedonherhand,thedreadfulpallorgone,andbreathingquietly,asifjustfallenasleep。
“IfMotherwouldonlycomenow!“saidJo,asthewinternightbegantowane。
“See,“saidMeg,comingupwithawhite,half-openedrose,“IthoughtthiswouldhardlybereadytolayinBeth’shandtomorrowifshe——wentawayfromus。Butithasblossomedinthenight,andnowImeantoputitinmyvasehere,sothatwhenthedarlingwakes,thefirstthingsheseeswillbethelittlerose,andMother’sface。“
Neverhadthesunrisensobeautifully,andneverhadtheworldseemedsolovelyasitdidtotheheavyeyesofMegandJo,astheylookedoutintheearlymorning,whentheirlong,sadvigilwasdone。
“Itlookslikeafairyworld,“saidMeg,smilingtoherself,asshestoodbehindthecurtain,watchingthedazzlingsight。
“Hark!“criedJo,startingtoherfeet。
Yes,therewasasoundofbellsatthedoorbelow,acryfromHannah,andthenLaurie’svoicesayinginajoyfulwhisper,“Girls,she’scome!She’scome!“
Chapter19CHAPTERNINETEEN
Whilethesethingswerehappeningathome,AmywashavinghardtimesatAuntMarch’s。Shefeltherexiledeeply,andforthefirsttimeinherlife,realizedhowmuchshewasbelovedandpettedathome。AuntMarchneverpettedanyone。
Shedidnotapproveofit,butshemeanttobekind,forthewell-
behavedlittlegirlpleasedherverymuch,andAuntMarchhadasoftplaceinheroldheartforhernephew’schildren,thoughshedidn’tthinkitpropertoconfessit。ShereallydidherbesttomakeAmyhappy,but,dearme,whatmistakesshemade。
Someoldpeoplekeepyoungatheartinspiteofwrinklesandgrayhairs,cansympathizewithchildren’slittlecaresandjoys,makethemfeelathome,andcanhidewiselessonsunderpleasantplays,givingandreceivingfriendshipinthesweetestway。ButAuntMarchhadnotthisgift,andsheworriedAmyverymuchwithherrulesandorders,herprimways,andlong,prosytalks。Findingthechildmoredocileandamiablethanhersister,theoldladyfeltitherdutytotryandcounteract,asfaraspossible,thebadeffectsofhomefreedomandindulgence。SoshetookAmybythehand,andtaughtherassheherselfhadbeentaughtsixtyyearsago,aprocesswhichcarrieddismaytoAmy’ssoul,andmadeherfeellikeaflyinthewebofaverystrictspider。
Shehadtowashthecupseverymorning,andpolishuptheold-fashionedspoons,thefatsilverteapot,andtheglassestilltheyshone。Thenshemustdusttheroom,andwhatatryingjobthatwas。NotaspeckescapedAuntMarch’seye,andallthefurniturehadclawlegsandmuchcarving,whichwasneverdustedtosuit。ThenPollyhadtobefed,thelapdogcombed,andadozentripsupstairsanddowntogetthingsordeliverorders,fortheoldladywasverylameandseldomleftherbigchair。
Afterthesetiresomelabors,shemustdoherlessons,whichwasadailytrialofeveryvirtueshepossessed。Thenshewasallowedonehourforexerciseorplay,anddidn’tsheenjoyit?
Lauriecameeveryday,andwheedledAuntMarchtillAmywasallowedtogooutwithhim,whentheywalkedandrodeandhadcapitaltimes。Afterdinner,shehadtoreadaloud,andsitstillwhiletheoldladyslept,whichsheusuallydidforanhour,asshedroppedoffoverthefirstpage。Thenpatchworkortowelsappeared,andAmysewedwithoutwardmeeknessandinwardrebelliontilldusk,whenshewasallowedtoamuseherselfasshelikedtillteatime。Theeveningsweretheworstofall,forAuntMarchfelltotellinglongstoriesaboutheryouth,whichweresounutterablydullthatAmywasalwaysreadytogotobe,intendingtocryoverherhardfate,butusuallygoingtosleepbeforeshehadsqueezedoutmorethanatearortwo。
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