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第33章

  Idon’tthinkIhaveanywordsinwhichtotellthemeetingofthemotheranddaughters。Suchhoursarebeautifultolive,butveryhardtodescribe,soIwillleaveittotheimaginationofmyreaders,merelysayingthatthehousewasfullofgenuinehappiness,andthatMeg’stenderhopewasrealized,forwhenBethwokefromthatlong,healingsleep,thefirstobjectsonwhichhereyesfellwerethelittleroseandMother’sface。Tooweaktowonderatanything,sheonlysmiledandnestledcloseinthelovingarmsabouther,feelingthatthehungrylongingwassatisfiedatlast。Thenshesleptagain,andthegirlswaitedupontheirmother,forshewouldnotunclaspthethinhandwhichclungtoherseveninsleep。
  Hannahhad`dishedup’andastonishingbreakfastforthetraveler,findingitimpossibletoventherexcitementinanyotherway,andMegandJofedtheirmotherlikedutifulyoungstorks,whiletheylistenedtoherwhisperedaccountofFather’sstate,Mr。Brooke’spromisetostayandnursehim,thedelayswhichthestormoccasionedonthehomewardjourney,andtheunspeakablecomfortLaurie’shopefulfacehadgivenherwhenshearrived,wornoutwithfatigue,anxiety,andcold。
  Whatastrangeyetpleasantdaythatwas。Sobrilliantandgaywithout,foralltheworldseemedabroadtowelcomethefirstsnow。Soquietandreposefulwithin,foreveryoneslept,spentwithwatching,andaSabbathstillnessreignedthroughthehouse,whilenoddingHannahmountedguardatthedoor。Withablissfulsenseofburdensliftedoff,MegandJoclosedtheirwearyeyes,andlayatrest,likestorm-beatenboatssafeatanchorinaquietharbor。Mrs。MarchwouldnotleaveBeth’sside,butrestedinthebigchair,wakingoftentolookat,touch,andbroodoverherchild,likeamiseroversomerecoveredtreasure。
  LauriemeanwhilepostedofftocomfortAmy,andtoldhisstorysowellthatAuntMarchactually`sniffed’herself,andneveroncesaid“Itoldyouso“。AmycameoutsostrongonthisoccasionthatIthinkthegoodthoughtsinthelittlechapelreallybegantobearfruit。Shedriedhertearsquickly,restrainedherimpatiencetoseehermother,andnevereventhoughtoftheturquoisering,whentheoldladyheartilyagreedinLaurie’sopinion,thatshebehaved`likeacapitallittlewoman’。EvenPollyseemedimpressed,forhecalledheragoodgirl,blessedherbuttons,andbeggedherto“comeandtakeawalk,dear“,inhismostaffabletone。Shewouldverygladlyhavegoneouttoenjoythebrightwintryweather,butdiscoveringthatLauriewasdroppingwithsleepinspiteofmanfuleffortstoconcealthefact,shepersuadedhimtorestonthesofa,whileshewroteanotetohermother。Shewasalongtimeaboutit,andwhenshereturned,hewasstretchedoutwithbotharmsunderhishead,soundasleep,whileAuntMarchhadpulleddownthecurtainsandsatdoingnothinginanunusualfitofbenignity。
  Afterawhile,theybegantothinkhewasnotgoingtowakeuptillnight,andI’mnotsurethathewould,hadhenotbeeneffectuallyrousedbyAmy’scryofjoyatsightofhermother。
  Thereprobablywereagoodmanyhappylittlegirlsinandaboutthecitythatday,butitismyprivateopinionthatAmywasthehappiestofall,whenshesatinhermother’slapandtoldhertrials,receivingconsolationandcompensationintheshapeofapprovingsmilesandfondcaresses。Theywerealonetogetherinthechapel,towhichhermotherdidnotobjectwhenitspurposewasexplainedtoher。
  “Onthecontrary,Ilikeitverymuch,dear,“lookingfromthedustyrosarytothewell-wornlittlebook,andthelovelypicturewithitsgarlandofevergreen。“Itisanexcellentplantohavesomeplacewherewecangotobequiet,whenthingsvexorgrieveus。Thereareagoodmanyhardtimesinthislifeofours,butwecanalwaysbearthemifweaskhelpintherightway。Ithinkmylittlegirlislearningthis。“
  “Yes,Mother,andwhenIgohomeImeantohaveacornerinthebigclosettoputmybooksandthecopyofthatpicturewhichI’vetriedtomake。Thewoman’sfaceisnotgood,it’stoobeautifulformetodraw,butthebabyisdonebetter,andIloveitverymuch。IliketothinkHewasalittlechildonce,forthenIdon’tseemsofaraway,andthathelpsme。“
  AsAmypointedtothesmilingChristchildonhisMother’sknee,Mrs。Marchsawsomethingontheliftedhandthatmadehersmile。Shesaidnothing,butAmyunderstoodthelook,andafteraminute’spause,sheaddedgravely,“Iwantedtospeaktoyouaboutthis,butIforgotit。Auntgavemetheringtoday。
  Shecalledmetoherandkissedme,andputitonmyfinger,andsaidIwasacredittoher,andshe’dliketokeepmealways。
  Shegavethatfunnyguardtokeeptheturquoiseon,asit’stoobig。I’dliketowearthemMother,canI?“
  “Theyareverypretty,butIthinkyou’rerathertooyoungforsuchornaments,Amy,“saidMrs。March,lookingattheplumplittlehand,withthebandofsky-bluestonesontheforefinger,andthequaintguardformedoftwotinygoldenhandsclaspedtogether。
  “I’lltrynottobevain,“saidAmy。“Idon’tthinkIlikeitonlybecauseit’ssopretty,butIwanttowearitasthegirlinthestoryworeherbracelet,toremindmeofsomething。“
  “DoyoumeanAuntMarch?“askedhermother,laughing。
  “No,toremindmenottobeselfish。“Amylookedsoearnestandsincereaboutitthathermotherstoppedlaughing,andlistenedrespectfullytothelittleplan。
  “I’vethoughtagreatdeallatelyaboutmy`bundleofnaughties’,andbeingselfishisthelargestoneinit,soI’mgoingtotryhardtocureit,ifIcan。Bethisn’tselfish,andthat’sthereasoneveryonelovesherandfeelssobadatthethoughtsoflosingher。Peoplewouldn’tfeelsobataboutmeifIwassick,andIdon’tdeservetohavethem,butI’dliketobelovedandmissedbyagreatmanyfriends,soI’mgoingtotryandbelikeBethallIcan。I’mapttoforgetmyresolutions,butifIhadsomethingalwaysaboutmetoremindme,IguessIshoulddobetter。Maywetrythisway?“
  “Yes,butIhavemorefaithinthecornerofthebigcloset。
  Wearyourring,dear,anddoyourbest。Ithinkyouwillprosper,forthesincerewishtobegoodishalfthebattle。NowImustgobacktoBeth。Keepupyourheart,littledaughter,andwewillsoonhaveyouhomeagain。“
  ThateveningwhileMegwaswritingtoherfathertoreportthetraveler’ssafearrival,JoslippedupstairsintoBeth’sroom,andfindinghermotherinherusualplace,stoodaminutetwistingherfingersinherhair,withaworriedgestureandanundecidedlook。
  “Whatisit,deary?’askedMrs。March,holdingoutherhand,withafacewhichinvitedconfidence。
  “Iwanttotellyousomething,Mother。“
  “AboutMeg?“
  “Howquicklyyouguessed!Yes,it’sabouther,andthoughit’salittlething,itfidgetsme。“
  “Bethisasleep。Speaklow,andtellmeallaboutit。ThatMoffathasn’tbeenhere,Ihope?“askedMrs。Marchrathersharply。
  “No。Ishouldhaveshutthedoorinhisfaceifhehad,“
  saidJo,settlingherselfonthefloorathermother’sfeet。“LastsummerMegleftapairofglovesoverattheLaurences’andonlyonewasreturned。Weforgotaboutit,tillTeddytoldmethatMr。
  BrookeownedthathelikedMegbutdidn’tdaresayso,shewassoyoungandhesopoor。Now,isn’titadreadfulstateofthings?“
  “DoyouthinkMegcaresforhim?“askedMrs。March,withananxiouslook。
  “Mercyme!Idon’tknowanythingaboutloveandsuchnonsense!“criedJo,withafunnymixtureofinterestandcontempt。
  “Innovels,thegirlsshowitbystartingandblushing,faintingaway,growingthin,andactinglikefools。NowMegdoesnotdoanythingofthesort。Sheeatsanddrinksandsleepslikeasensiblecreature,shelooksstraightinmyfacewhenItalkaboutthatman,andonlyblushesalittlebitwhenTeddyjokesaboutlovers。Iforbidhimtodoit,buthedoesn’tmindmeasheought。“
  “ThenyoufancythatMegisnotinterestedinJohn?’
  “Who?“criedJo,staring。
  “Mr。Brooke。Icallhim`John’now。Wefellintothewayofdoingsoatthehospital,andhelikesit。“
  “Oh,dear!Iknowyou’lltakehispart。He’sbeengoodtoFather,andyouwon’tsendhimaway,butletMegmarryhim,ifshewantsto。Meanthing!TogopettingPapaandhelpingyou,justtowheedleyouintolikinghim。“AndJopulledherhairagainwithawrathfultweak。
  “Mydear,don’tgetangryaboutit,andIwilltellyouhowithappened。JohnwentwithmeatMr。Laurence’srequest,andwassodevotedtopoorFatherthatwecouldn’thelpgettingfondofhim。HewasperfectlyopenandhonorableaboutMeg,forhetoldushelovedher,butwouldearnacomfortablehomebeforeheaskedhertomarryhim。Heonlywantedourleavetoloveherandworkforher,andtherighttomakeherlovehimifhecould。
  Heisatrulyexcellentyoungman,andwecouldnotrefusetolistentohim,butIwillnotconsenttoMeg’sengagingherselfsoyoung。“
  “Ofcoursenot。Itwouldbeidiotic!Iknewtherewasmischiefbrewing。Ifeltit,andnowit’sworsethanIimagined。
  IjustwishIcouldmarryMegmyself,andkeephersafeinthefamily。“
  ThisoddarrangementmadeMrs。Marchsmile,butshesaidgravely,“Jo,Iconfideinyouanddon’twishyoutosayanythingtoMegyet。WhenJohncomesback,andIseethemtogether,Icanjudgebetterofherfeelingstowardhim。“
  “She’llseethosehandsomeeyesthatshetalksabout,andthenitwillbeallupwithher。She’sgotsuchasoftheart,itwillmeltlikebutterinthesunifanyonelookssentimentllyather。Shereadtheshortreportshesentmorethanshedidyourletters,andpinchedmewhenIspokeofit,andlikesbrowneyes,anddoesn’tthinkJohnanuglyname,andshe’llgoandfallinlove,andthere’sanendofpeaceandfun,andcozytimestogether。
  Iseeitall!They’llgoloveringaroundthehouse,andweshallhavetododge。Megwillbeabsorbedandnogoodtomeanymore。
  Brookewillscratchupafortunesomehow,carryheroff,andmakeaholeinthefamily,andIshallbreakmyheart,andeverythingwillbeabominablyuncomfortable。Oh,dearme!
  Whyweren’tweallboys,thentherewouldn’tbeanybother。“
  JoleanedherchinonherkneesinadisconsolateattitudeandshookherfistatthereprehensibleJohn。Mrs。Marchsighed,andJolookedupwithanairofrelief。
  “Youdon’tlikeit,Mother?I’mgladofit。Let’ssendhimabouthisbusiness,andnottellMegawordofit,butallbehappytogetheraswealwayshavebeen。“
  “Ididwrongtosigh,Jo。Itisnaturalandrightyoushouldallgotohomesofyourownintime,butIdowanttokeepmygirlsaslongasIcan,andIamsorrythatthishappenedsosoon,forMegisonlyseventeenanditwillbesomeyearsbeforeJohncanmakeahomeforher。YourfatherandIhaveagreedthatsheshallnotbindherselfinanyway,norbemarried,beforetwenty。IfsheandJohnloveoneanother,theycanwait,andtestthelovebydoingso。Sheisconscientious,andIhavenofearofhertreatinghimunkindly。Mypretty,tenderheartedgirl!I
  hopethingswillgohappilywithher。“
  “Hadn’tyouratherhavehermarryarichman?“askedJo,ashermother’svoicefalteredalittleoverthelastwords。
  “Moneyisagoodandusefulthing,Jo,andIhopemygirlswillneverfeeltheneedofittoobitterlynotbetemptedbytoomuch。IshouldliketoknowthatJohnwasfirmlyestablishedinsomegoodbusiness,whichgavehimanincomelargeenoughtokeepfreefromdebtandmakeMegcomfortable。I’mnotambitiousforasplendidfortune,afashionableposition,oragreatnameformygirls。Ifrankandmoneycomewithloveandvirtue,also,Ishouldacceptthemgratefully,andenjoyyourgoodfortune,butIknow,byexperience,howmuchgenuinehappinesscanbehadinaplainlittlehouse,wherethedailybreadisearned,andsomeprivationsgivesweetnesstothefewpleasures。IamcontenttoseeMegbeginhumbly,forifIamnotmistaken,shewillberichinthepossessionofagoodman’sheart,andthatisbetterthanafortune。“
  “Iunderstand,Mother,andquiteagree,butI’mdisappointedaboutMeg,forI’dplannedtohavehermarryTeddyby-and-byandsitinthelapofluxuryallherdays。Wouldn’titbenice?“
  askedJo,lookingupwithabrighterface。
  “Heisyoungerthanshe,youknow,“beganMrs。March,butJobrokein……
  “Onlyalittle,he’soldforhisage,andtall,andcanbequitegrown-upinhismannersifhelikes。Thenhe’srichandgenerousandgood,andlovesusall,andIsayit’sapitymyplanisspoiled。“
  “I’mafraidLaurieishardlygrown-upenoughforMeg,andaltogethertoomuchofaweathercockjustnowforanyonetodependon。Don’tmakeplans,Jo,butlettimeandtheirownheartsmateyourfriends。Wecan’tmeddlesafelyinsuchmatters,andhadbetternotget`romanticrubbish’asyoucallit,intoourheads,lestitspoilourfriendship。“
  “Well,Iwon’t,butIhatetoseethingsgoingallcrisscrossandgettingsnarledup,whenapullherandasniptherewouldstraightenitout。Iwishwearingflatironsonourheadswouldkeepusfromgrowingup。Butbudswillberoses,andkittenscats,more’sthepity!“
  “What’sthataboutflatironsandcats?“askedMeg,asshecreptintotheroomwiththefinishedletterinherhand。
  “Onlyoneofmystupidspeeches。I’mgoingtobed。Come,Peggy,“saidJo,unfoldingherselflikeananimatedpuzzle。
  “Quiteright,andbeautifullywritten。PleaseaddthatI
  sendmylovetoJohn,“saidMrs。March,assheglancedovertheletterandgaveitback。
  “Doyoucallhim`John’?“askedMeg,smiling,withherinnocenteyeslookingdownintohermother’s。
  “Yes,hehasbeenlikeasontous,andweareveryfondofhim,“
  repliedMrs。March,returningthelookwithakeenone。
  “I’mgladofthat,heissolonely。Goodnight,Mother,dear。Itissoinexpressiblycomfortabletohaveyouhere,“
  wasMeg’sanswer。
  Thekisshermothergaveherwasaverytenderone,andasshewentaway,Mrs。Marchsaid,withamixtureofsatisfactionandregret,“ShedoesnotloveJohnyet,butwillsoonlearnto。