Idon’tthinkIhaveanywordsinwhichtotellthemeetingofthemotheranddaughters。Suchhoursarebeautifultolive,butveryhardtodescribe,soIwillleaveittotheimaginationofmyreaders,merelysayingthatthehousewasfullofgenuinehappiness,andthatMeg’stenderhopewasrealized,forwhenBethwokefromthatlong,healingsleep,thefirstobjectsonwhichhereyesfellwerethelittleroseandMother’sface。Tooweaktowonderatanything,sheonlysmiledandnestledcloseinthelovingarmsabouther,feelingthatthehungrylongingwassatisfiedatlast。Thenshesleptagain,andthegirlswaitedupontheirmother,forshewouldnotunclaspthethinhandwhichclungtoherseveninsleep。
Hannahhad`dishedup’andastonishingbreakfastforthetraveler,findingitimpossibletoventherexcitementinanyotherway,andMegandJofedtheirmotherlikedutifulyoungstorks,whiletheylistenedtoherwhisperedaccountofFather’sstate,Mr。Brooke’spromisetostayandnursehim,thedelayswhichthestormoccasionedonthehomewardjourney,andtheunspeakablecomfortLaurie’shopefulfacehadgivenherwhenshearrived,wornoutwithfatigue,anxiety,andcold。
Whatastrangeyetpleasantdaythatwas。Sobrilliantandgaywithout,foralltheworldseemedabroadtowelcomethefirstsnow。Soquietandreposefulwithin,foreveryoneslept,spentwithwatching,andaSabbathstillnessreignedthroughthehouse,whilenoddingHannahmountedguardatthedoor。Withablissfulsenseofburdensliftedoff,MegandJoclosedtheirwearyeyes,andlayatrest,likestorm-beatenboatssafeatanchorinaquietharbor。Mrs。MarchwouldnotleaveBeth’sside,butrestedinthebigchair,wakingoftentolookat,touch,andbroodoverherchild,likeamiseroversomerecoveredtreasure。
LauriemeanwhilepostedofftocomfortAmy,andtoldhisstorysowellthatAuntMarchactually`sniffed’herself,andneveroncesaid“Itoldyouso“。AmycameoutsostrongonthisoccasionthatIthinkthegoodthoughtsinthelittlechapelreallybegantobearfruit。Shedriedhertearsquickly,restrainedherimpatiencetoseehermother,andnevereventhoughtoftheturquoisering,whentheoldladyheartilyagreedinLaurie’sopinion,thatshebehaved`likeacapitallittlewoman’。EvenPollyseemedimpressed,forhecalledheragoodgirl,blessedherbuttons,andbeggedherto“comeandtakeawalk,dear“,inhismostaffabletone。Shewouldverygladlyhavegoneouttoenjoythebrightwintryweather,butdiscoveringthatLauriewasdroppingwithsleepinspiteofmanfuleffortstoconcealthefact,shepersuadedhimtorestonthesofa,whileshewroteanotetohermother。Shewasalongtimeaboutit,andwhenshereturned,hewasstretchedoutwithbotharmsunderhishead,soundasleep,whileAuntMarchhadpulleddownthecurtainsandsatdoingnothinginanunusualfitofbenignity。
Afterawhile,theybegantothinkhewasnotgoingtowakeuptillnight,andI’mnotsurethathewould,hadhenotbeeneffectuallyrousedbyAmy’scryofjoyatsightofhermother。
Thereprobablywereagoodmanyhappylittlegirlsinandaboutthecitythatday,butitismyprivateopinionthatAmywasthehappiestofall,whenshesatinhermother’slapandtoldhertrials,receivingconsolationandcompensationintheshapeofapprovingsmilesandfondcaresses。Theywerealonetogetherinthechapel,towhichhermotherdidnotobjectwhenitspurposewasexplainedtoher。
“Onthecontrary,Ilikeitverymuch,dear,“lookingfromthedustyrosarytothewell-wornlittlebook,andthelovelypicturewithitsgarlandofevergreen。“Itisanexcellentplantohavesomeplacewherewecangotobequiet,whenthingsvexorgrieveus。Thereareagoodmanyhardtimesinthislifeofours,butwecanalwaysbearthemifweaskhelpintherightway。Ithinkmylittlegirlislearningthis。“
“Yes,Mother,andwhenIgohomeImeantohaveacornerinthebigclosettoputmybooksandthecopyofthatpicturewhichI’vetriedtomake。Thewoman’sfaceisnotgood,it’stoobeautifulformetodraw,butthebabyisdonebetter,andIloveitverymuch。IliketothinkHewasalittlechildonce,forthenIdon’tseemsofaraway,andthathelpsme。“
AsAmypointedtothesmilingChristchildonhisMother’sknee,Mrs。Marchsawsomethingontheliftedhandthatmadehersmile。Shesaidnothing,butAmyunderstoodthelook,andafteraminute’spause,sheaddedgravely,“Iwantedtospeaktoyouaboutthis,butIforgotit。Auntgavemetheringtoday。
Shecalledmetoherandkissedme,andputitonmyfinger,andsaidIwasacredittoher,andshe’dliketokeepmealways。
Shegavethatfunnyguardtokeeptheturquoiseon,asit’stoobig。I’dliketowearthemMother,canI?“
“Theyareverypretty,butIthinkyou’rerathertooyoungforsuchornaments,Amy,“saidMrs。March,lookingattheplumplittlehand,withthebandofsky-bluestonesontheforefinger,andthequaintguardformedoftwotinygoldenhandsclaspedtogether。
“I’lltrynottobevain,“saidAmy。“Idon’tthinkIlikeitonlybecauseit’ssopretty,butIwanttowearitasthegirlinthestoryworeherbracelet,toremindmeofsomething。“
“DoyoumeanAuntMarch?“askedhermother,laughing。
“No,toremindmenottobeselfish。“Amylookedsoearnestandsincereaboutitthathermotherstoppedlaughing,andlistenedrespectfullytothelittleplan。
“I’vethoughtagreatdeallatelyaboutmy`bundleofnaughties’,andbeingselfishisthelargestoneinit,soI’mgoingtotryhardtocureit,ifIcan。Bethisn’tselfish,andthat’sthereasoneveryonelovesherandfeelssobadatthethoughtsoflosingher。Peoplewouldn’tfeelsobataboutmeifIwassick,andIdon’tdeservetohavethem,butI’dliketobelovedandmissedbyagreatmanyfriends,soI’mgoingtotryandbelikeBethallIcan。I’mapttoforgetmyresolutions,butifIhadsomethingalwaysaboutmetoremindme,IguessIshoulddobetter。Maywetrythisway?“
“Yes,butIhavemorefaithinthecornerofthebigcloset。
Wearyourring,dear,anddoyourbest。Ithinkyouwillprosper,forthesincerewishtobegoodishalfthebattle。NowImustgobacktoBeth。Keepupyourheart,littledaughter,andwewillsoonhaveyouhomeagain。“
ThateveningwhileMegwaswritingtoherfathertoreportthetraveler’ssafearrival,JoslippedupstairsintoBeth’sroom,andfindinghermotherinherusualplace,stoodaminutetwistingherfingersinherhair,withaworriedgestureandanundecidedlook。
“Whatisit,deary?’askedMrs。March,holdingoutherhand,withafacewhichinvitedconfidence。
“Iwanttotellyousomething,Mother。“
“AboutMeg?“
“Howquicklyyouguessed!Yes,it’sabouther,andthoughit’salittlething,itfidgetsme。“
“Bethisasleep。Speaklow,andtellmeallaboutit。ThatMoffathasn’tbeenhere,Ihope?“askedMrs。Marchrathersharply。
“No。Ishouldhaveshutthedoorinhisfaceifhehad,“
saidJo,settlingherselfonthefloorathermother’sfeet。“LastsummerMegleftapairofglovesoverattheLaurences’andonlyonewasreturned。Weforgotaboutit,tillTeddytoldmethatMr。
BrookeownedthathelikedMegbutdidn’tdaresayso,shewassoyoungandhesopoor。Now,isn’titadreadfulstateofthings?“
“DoyouthinkMegcaresforhim?“askedMrs。March,withananxiouslook。
“Mercyme!Idon’tknowanythingaboutloveandsuchnonsense!“criedJo,withafunnymixtureofinterestandcontempt。
“Innovels,thegirlsshowitbystartingandblushing,faintingaway,growingthin,andactinglikefools。NowMegdoesnotdoanythingofthesort。Sheeatsanddrinksandsleepslikeasensiblecreature,shelooksstraightinmyfacewhenItalkaboutthatman,andonlyblushesalittlebitwhenTeddyjokesaboutlovers。Iforbidhimtodoit,buthedoesn’tmindmeasheought。“
“ThenyoufancythatMegisnotinterestedinJohn?’
“Who?“criedJo,staring。
“Mr。Brooke。Icallhim`John’now。Wefellintothewayofdoingsoatthehospital,andhelikesit。“
“Oh,dear!Iknowyou’lltakehispart。He’sbeengoodtoFather,andyouwon’tsendhimaway,butletMegmarryhim,ifshewantsto。Meanthing!TogopettingPapaandhelpingyou,justtowheedleyouintolikinghim。“AndJopulledherhairagainwithawrathfultweak。
“Mydear,don’tgetangryaboutit,andIwilltellyouhowithappened。JohnwentwithmeatMr。Laurence’srequest,andwassodevotedtopoorFatherthatwecouldn’thelpgettingfondofhim。HewasperfectlyopenandhonorableaboutMeg,forhetoldushelovedher,butwouldearnacomfortablehomebeforeheaskedhertomarryhim。Heonlywantedourleavetoloveherandworkforher,andtherighttomakeherlovehimifhecould。
Heisatrulyexcellentyoungman,andwecouldnotrefusetolistentohim,butIwillnotconsenttoMeg’sengagingherselfsoyoung。“
“Ofcoursenot。Itwouldbeidiotic!Iknewtherewasmischiefbrewing。Ifeltit,andnowit’sworsethanIimagined。
IjustwishIcouldmarryMegmyself,andkeephersafeinthefamily。“
ThisoddarrangementmadeMrs。Marchsmile,butshesaidgravely,“Jo,Iconfideinyouanddon’twishyoutosayanythingtoMegyet。WhenJohncomesback,andIseethemtogether,Icanjudgebetterofherfeelingstowardhim。“
“She’llseethosehandsomeeyesthatshetalksabout,andthenitwillbeallupwithher。She’sgotsuchasoftheart,itwillmeltlikebutterinthesunifanyonelookssentimentllyather。Shereadtheshortreportshesentmorethanshedidyourletters,andpinchedmewhenIspokeofit,andlikesbrowneyes,anddoesn’tthinkJohnanuglyname,andshe’llgoandfallinlove,andthere’sanendofpeaceandfun,andcozytimestogether。
Iseeitall!They’llgoloveringaroundthehouse,andweshallhavetododge。Megwillbeabsorbedandnogoodtomeanymore。
Brookewillscratchupafortunesomehow,carryheroff,andmakeaholeinthefamily,andIshallbreakmyheart,andeverythingwillbeabominablyuncomfortable。Oh,dearme!
Whyweren’tweallboys,thentherewouldn’tbeanybother。“
JoleanedherchinonherkneesinadisconsolateattitudeandshookherfistatthereprehensibleJohn。Mrs。Marchsighed,andJolookedupwithanairofrelief。
“Youdon’tlikeit,Mother?I’mgladofit。Let’ssendhimabouthisbusiness,andnottellMegawordofit,butallbehappytogetheraswealwayshavebeen。“
“Ididwrongtosigh,Jo。Itisnaturalandrightyoushouldallgotohomesofyourownintime,butIdowanttokeepmygirlsaslongasIcan,andIamsorrythatthishappenedsosoon,forMegisonlyseventeenanditwillbesomeyearsbeforeJohncanmakeahomeforher。YourfatherandIhaveagreedthatsheshallnotbindherselfinanyway,norbemarried,beforetwenty。IfsheandJohnloveoneanother,theycanwait,andtestthelovebydoingso。Sheisconscientious,andIhavenofearofhertreatinghimunkindly。Mypretty,tenderheartedgirl!I
hopethingswillgohappilywithher。“
“Hadn’tyouratherhavehermarryarichman?“askedJo,ashermother’svoicefalteredalittleoverthelastwords。
“Moneyisagoodandusefulthing,Jo,andIhopemygirlswillneverfeeltheneedofittoobitterlynotbetemptedbytoomuch。IshouldliketoknowthatJohnwasfirmlyestablishedinsomegoodbusiness,whichgavehimanincomelargeenoughtokeepfreefromdebtandmakeMegcomfortable。I’mnotambitiousforasplendidfortune,afashionableposition,oragreatnameformygirls。Ifrankandmoneycomewithloveandvirtue,also,Ishouldacceptthemgratefully,andenjoyyourgoodfortune,butIknow,byexperience,howmuchgenuinehappinesscanbehadinaplainlittlehouse,wherethedailybreadisearned,andsomeprivationsgivesweetnesstothefewpleasures。IamcontenttoseeMegbeginhumbly,forifIamnotmistaken,shewillberichinthepossessionofagoodman’sheart,andthatisbetterthanafortune。“
“Iunderstand,Mother,andquiteagree,butI’mdisappointedaboutMeg,forI’dplannedtohavehermarryTeddyby-and-byandsitinthelapofluxuryallherdays。Wouldn’titbenice?“
askedJo,lookingupwithabrighterface。
“Heisyoungerthanshe,youknow,“beganMrs。March,butJobrokein……
“Onlyalittle,he’soldforhisage,andtall,andcanbequitegrown-upinhismannersifhelikes。Thenhe’srichandgenerousandgood,andlovesusall,andIsayit’sapitymyplanisspoiled。“
“I’mafraidLaurieishardlygrown-upenoughforMeg,andaltogethertoomuchofaweathercockjustnowforanyonetodependon。Don’tmakeplans,Jo,butlettimeandtheirownheartsmateyourfriends。Wecan’tmeddlesafelyinsuchmatters,andhadbetternotget`romanticrubbish’asyoucallit,intoourheads,lestitspoilourfriendship。“
“Well,Iwon’t,butIhatetoseethingsgoingallcrisscrossandgettingsnarledup,whenapullherandasniptherewouldstraightenitout。Iwishwearingflatironsonourheadswouldkeepusfromgrowingup。Butbudswillberoses,andkittenscats,more’sthepity!“
“What’sthataboutflatironsandcats?“askedMeg,asshecreptintotheroomwiththefinishedletterinherhand。
“Onlyoneofmystupidspeeches。I’mgoingtobed。Come,Peggy,“saidJo,unfoldingherselflikeananimatedpuzzle。
“Quiteright,andbeautifullywritten。PleaseaddthatI
sendmylovetoJohn,“saidMrs。March,assheglancedovertheletterandgaveitback。
“Doyoucallhim`John’?“askedMeg,smiling,withherinnocenteyeslookingdownintohermother’s。
“Yes,hehasbeenlikeasontous,andweareveryfondofhim,“
repliedMrs。March,returningthelookwithakeenone。
“I’mgladofthat,heissolonely。Goodnight,Mother,dear。Itissoinexpressiblycomfortabletohaveyouhere,“
wasMeg’sanswer。
Thekisshermothergaveherwasaverytenderone,andasshewentaway,Mrs。Marchsaid,withamixtureofsatisfactionandregret,“ShedoesnotloveJohnyet,butwillsoonlearnto。
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