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第8章

  ’Doyouneverleaveyourroom,mother?’
  ’Whatwithmyrheumaticaffection,andwhatwithitsattendantdebilityornervousweakness——namesareofnomatternow——Ihavelosttheuseofmylimbs。Ineverleavemyroom。Ihavenotbeenoutsidethisdoorfor——tellhimforhowlong,’shesaid,speakingoverhershoulder。
  ’AdozenyearnextChristmas,’returnedacrackedvoiceoutofthedimnessbehind。
  ’IsthatAffery?’saidArthur,lookingtowardsit。
  ThecrackedvoicerepliedthatitwasAffery:andanoldwomancameforwardintowhatdoubtfullighttherewas,andkissedherhandonce;thensubsidedagainintothedimness。
  ’Iamable,’saidMrsClennam,withaslightmotionofherworsted-
  muffledrighthandtowardachaironwheels,standingbeforeatallwritingcabinetcloseshutup,’Iamabletoattendtomybusinessduties,andIamthankfulfortheprivilege。Itisagreatprivilege。Butnomoreofbusinessonthisday。Itisabadnight,isitnot?’
  ’Yes,mother。’
  ’Doesitsnow?’
  ’Snow,mother?AndweonlyyetinSeptember?’
  ’Allseasonsarealiketome,’shereturned,withagrimkindofluxuriousness。’Iknownothingofsummerandwinter,shutuphere。
  TheLordhasbeenpleasedtoputmebeyondallthat。’Withhercoldgreyeyesandhercoldgreyhair,andherimmovableface,asstiffasthefoldsofherstonyhead-dress,——herbeingbeyondthereachoftheseasonsseemedbutafitsequencetoherbeingbeyondthereachofallchangingemotions。
  Onherlittletablelaytwoorthreebooks,herhandkerchief,apairofsteelspectaclesnewlytakenoff,andanold-fashionedgoldwatchinaheavydoublecase。Uponthislastobjectherson’seyesandherownnowrestedtogether。
  ’IseethatyoureceivedthepacketIsentyouonmyfather’sdeath,safely,mother。’
  ’Yousee。’
  ’Ineverknewmyfathertoshowsomuchanxietyonanysubject,asthathiswatchshouldbesentstraighttoyou。’
  ’Ikeepithereasaremembranceofyourfather。’
  ’Itwasnotuntilthelast,thatheexpressedthewish;whenhecouldonlyputhishanduponit,andveryindistinctlysaytome“yourmother。“Amomentbefore,Ithoughthimwanderinginhismind,ashehadbeenformanyhours——Ithinkhehadnoconsciousnessofpaininhisshortillness——whenIsawhimturnhimselfinhisbedandtrytoopenit。’
  ’Wasyourfather,then,notwanderinginhismindwhenhetriedtoopenit?’
  ’No。Hewasquitesensibleatthattime。’
  MrsClennamshookherhead;whetherindismissalofthedeceasedoropposingherselftoherson’sopinion,wasnotclearlyexpressed。
  ’Aftermyfather’sdeathIopeneditmyself,thinkingtheremightbe,foranythingIknew,somememorandumthere。However,asIneednottellyou,mother,therewasnothingbuttheoldsilkwatch-
  paperworkedinbeads,whichyoufoundnodoubtinitsplacebetweenthecases,whereIfoundandleftit。’
  MrsClennamsignifiedassent;thenadded,’Nomoreofbusinessonthisday,’andthenadded,’Affery,itisnineo’clock。’
  Uponthis,theoldwomanclearedthelittletable,wentoutoftheroom,andquicklyreturnedwithatrayonwhichwasadishoflittlerusksandasmallprecisepatofbutter,cool,symmetrical,white,andplump。Theoldmanwhohadbeenstandingbythedoorinoneattitudeduringthewholeinterview,lookingatthemotherup-
  stairsashehadlookedatthesondown-stairs,wentoutatthesametime,and,afteralongerabsence,returnedwithanothertrayonwhichwasthegreaterpartofabottleofportwinewhich,tojudgebyhispanting,hehadbroughtfromthecellar,alemon,asugar-basin,andaspicebox。Withthesematerialsandtheaidofthekettle,hefilledatumblerwithahotandodorousmixture,measuredoutandcompoundedwithasmuchnicetyasaphysician’sprescription。IntothismixtureMrsClennamdippedcertainoftherusks,andatethem;whiletheoldwomanbutteredcertainotheroftherusks,whichweretobeeatenalone。Whentheinvalidhadeatenalltherusksanddrunkallthemixture,thetwotrayswereremoved;andthebooksandthecandle,watch,handkerchief,andspectacleswerereplaceduponthetable。Shethenputonthespectaclesandreadcertainpassagesaloudfromabook——sternly,fiercely,wrathfully——prayingthatherenemiesshemadethembyhertoneandmannerexpresslyhersmightbeputtotheedgeofthesword,consumedbyfire,smittenbyplaguesandleprosy,thattheirbonesmightbegroundtodust,andthattheymightbeutterlyexterminated。Asshereadon,yearsseemedtofallawayfromhersonliketheimaginingsofadream,andalltheolddarkhorrorsofhisusualpreparationforthesleepofaninnocentchildtoovershadowhim。
  Sheshutthebookandremainedforalittletimewithherfaceshadedbyherhand。Sodidtheoldman,otherwisestillunchangedinattitude;so,probably,didtheoldwomaninherdimmerpartoftheroom。Thenthesickwomanwasreadyforbed。
  ’Goodnight,Arthur。Afferywillseetoyouraccommodation。Onlytouchme,formyhandistender。’Hetouchedtheworstedmufflingofherhand——thatwasnothing;ifhismotherhadbeensheathedinbrasstherewouldhavebeennonewbarrierbetweenthem——andfollowedtheoldmanandwomandown-stairs。
  Thelatteraskedhim,whentheywerealonetogetheramongtheheavyshadowsofthedining-room,wouldhehavesomesupper?
  ’No,Affery,nosupper。’
  ’Youshallifyoulike,’saidAffery。’There’shertomorrow’spartridgeinthelarder——herfirstthisyear;saythewordandI’llcookit。’
  No,hehadnotlongdined,andcouldeatnothing。
  ’Havesomethingtodrink,then,’saidAffery;’youshallhavesomeofherbottleofport,ifyoulike。I’lltellJeremiahthatyouorderedmetobringityou。’
  No;norwouldhehavethat,either。
  ’It’snoreason,Arthur,’saidtheoldwoman,bendingoverhimtowhisper,’thatbecauseIamafearedofmylifeof’em,youshouldbe。You’vegothalftheproperty,haven’tyou?’
  ’Yes,yes。’
  ’Wellthen,don’tyoubecowed。You’reclever,Arthur,an’tyou?
  ’
  Henodded,assheseemedtoexpectananswerintheaffirmative。
  ’Thenstandupagainstthem!She’sawfulclever,andnonebutacleveronedurstsayawordtoher。HE’Sacleverone——oh,he’sacleverone!——andhegivesitherwhenhehasamindto’t,hedoes!’
  ’Yourhusbanddoes?’
  ’Does?Itmakesmeshakefromheadtofoot,tohearhimgiveither。Myhusband,JeremiahFlintwinch,canconquerevenyourmother。Whatcanhebebutacleveronetodothat!’
  Hisshufflingfootstepcomingtowardsthemcausedhertoretreattotheotherendoftheroom。Thoughatall,hard-favoured,sinewyoldwoman,whoinheryouthmighthaveenlistedintheFootGuardswithoutmuchfearofdiscovery,shecollapsedbeforethelittlekeen-eyedcrab-likeoldman。
  ’Now,Affery,’saidhe,’now,woman,whatareyoudoing?Can’tyoufindMasterArthursomethingoranothertopickat?’
  MasterArthurrepeatedhisrecentrefusaltopickatanything。
  ’Verywell,then,’saidtheoldman;’makehisbed。Stiryourself。’Hisneckwassotwistedthattheknottedendsofhiswhitecravatusuallydangledunderoneear;hisnaturalacerbityandenergy,alwayscontendingwithasecondnatureofhabitualrepression,gavehisfeaturesaswollenandsuffusedlook;andaltogether,hehadaweirdappearanceofhavinghangedhimselfatonetimeorother,andofhavinggoneabouteversince,halterandall,exactlyassometimelyhandhadcuthimdown。
  ’You’llhavebitterwordstogetherto-morrow,Arthur;youandyourmother,’saidJeremiah。’Yourhavinggivenupthebusinessonyourfather’sdeath——whichshesuspects,thoughwehaveleftittoyoutotellher——won’tgooffsmoothly。’
  ’Ihavegivenupeverythinginlifeforthebusiness,andthetimecameformetogiveupthat。’
  ’Good!’criedJeremiah,evidentlymeaningBad。’Verygood!onlydon’texpectmetostandbetweenyourmotherandyou,Arthur。I
  stoodbetweenyourmotherandyourfather,fendingoffthis,andfendingoffthat,andgettingcrushedandpoundedbetwixtem;andI’vedonewithsuchwork。’
  ’Youwillneverbeaskedtobeginitagainforme,Jeremiah。’
  ’Good。I’mgladtohearit;becauseIshouldhavehadtodeclineit,ifIhadbeen。That’senough——asyourmothersays——andmorethanenoughofsuchmattersonaSabbathnight。Affery,woman,haveyoufoundwhatyouwantyet?’
  Shehadbeencollectingsheetsandblanketsfromapress,andhastenedtogatherthemup,andtoreply,’Yes,Jeremiah。’ArthurClennamhelpedherbycarryingtheloadhimself,wishedtheoldmangoodnight,andwentup-stairswithhertothetopofthehouse。
  Theymountedupandup,throughthemustysmellofanoldclosehouse,littleused,toalargegarretbed-room。Meagreandspare,likealltheotherrooms,itwasevenuglierandgrimmerthantherest,bybeingtheplaceofbanishmentfortheworn-outfurniture。
  Itsmovableswereuglyoldchairswithworn-outseats,anduglyoldchairswithoutanyseats;athreadbarepatternlesscarpet,amaimedtable,acrippledwardrobe,aleansetoffire-ironsliketheskeletonofasetdeceased,awashing-standthatlookedasifithadstoodforagesinahailofdirtysoapsuds,andabedsteadwithfourbareatomiesofposts,eachterminatinginaspike,asifforthedismalaccommodationoflodgerswhomightprefertoimpalethemselves。Arthuropenedthelonglowwindow,andlookedoutupontheoldblastedandblackenedforestofchimneys,andtheoldredglareinthesky,whichhadseemedtohimonceuponatimebutanightlyreflectionofthefieryenvironmentthatwaspresentedtohischildishfancyinalldirections,letitlookwhereitwould。
  Hedrewinhisheadagain,satdownatthebedside,andlookedonatAfferyFlintwinchmakingthebed。
  ’Affery,youwerenotmarriedwhenIwentaway。’
  Shescrewedhermouthintotheformofsaying’No,’shookherhead,andproceededtogetapillowintoitscase。
  ’Howdidithappen?’
  ’Why,Jeremiah,o’course,’saidAffery,withanendofthepillow-
  casebetweenherteeth。
  ’Ofcourseheproposedit,buthowdiditallcomeabout?Ishouldhavethoughtthatneitherofyouwouldhavemarried;leastofallshouldIhavethoughtofyourmarryingeachother。’