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第7章

  Clearlytheycouldwantnothingbutastringentpoliceman。
  MrArthurClennamsatinthewindowofthecoffee-houseonLudgateHill,countingoneoftheneighbouringbells,makingsentencesandburdensofsongsoutofitinspiteofhimself,andwonderinghowmanysickpeopleitmightbethedeathofinthecourseoftheyear。Asthehourapproached,itschangesofmeasuremadeitmoreandmoreexasperating。Atthequarter,itwentoffintoaconditionofdeadly-livelyimportunity,urgingthepopulaceinavolublemannertoCometochurch,Cometochurch,Cometochurch!
  Atthetenminutes,itbecameawarethatthecongregationwouldbescanty,andslowlyhammeredoutinlowspirits,TheyWON’Tcome,theyWON’Tcome,theyWON’Tcome!Atthefiveminutes,itabandonedhope,andshookeveryhouseintheneighbourhoodforthreehundredseconds,withonedismalswingpersecond,asagroanofdespair。
  ’ThankHeaven!’saidClennam,whenthehourstruck,andthebellstopped。
  ButitssoundhadrevivedalongtrainofmiserableSundays,andtheprocessionwouldnotstopwiththebell,butcontinuedtomarchon。’Heavenforgiveme,’saidhe,’andthosewhotrainedme。HowIhavehatedthisday!’
  TherewasthedrearySundayofhischildhood,whenhesatwithhishandsbeforehim,scaredoutofhissensesbyahorribletractwhichcommencedbusinesswiththepoorchildbyaskinghiminitstitle,whyhewasgoingtoPerdition?——apieceofcuriositythathereally,inafrockanddrawers,wasnotinaconditiontosatisfy——
  andwhich,forthefurtherattractionofhisinfantmind,hadaparenthesisineveryotherlinewithsomesuchhiccuppingreferenceas2Ep。Thess。c。iii,v。6&7。TherewasthesleepySundayofhisboyhood,when,likeamilitarydeserter,hewasmarchedtochapelbyapicquetofteachersthreetimesaday,morallyhandcuffedtoanotherboy;andwhenhewouldwillinglyhavebarteredtwomealsofindigestiblesermonforanotherounceortwoofinferiormuttonathisscantydinnerintheflesh。TherewastheinterminableSundayofhisnonage;whenhismother,sternoffaceandunrelentingofheart,wouldsitalldaybehindaBible——
  bound,likeherownconstructionofit,inthehardest,barest,andstraitestboards,withonedintedornamentonthecoverlikethedragofachain,andawrathfulsprinklingofredupontheedgesoftheleaves——asifit,ofallbooks!wereafortificationagainstsweetnessoftemper,naturalaffection,andgentleintercourse。
  TherewastheresentfulSundayofalittlelater,whenhesatdowngloweringandgloomingthroughthetardylengthoftheday,withasullensenseofinjuryinhisheart,andnomorerealknowledgeofthebeneficenthistoryoftheNewTestamentthanifhehadbeenbredamongidolaters。TherewasalegionofSundays,alldaysofunserviceablebitternessandmortification,slowlypassingbeforehim。
  ’Begpardon,sir,’saidabriskwaiter,rubbingthetable。’Wishseebed-room?’
  ’Yes。Ihavejustmadeupmymindtodoit。’
  ’Chaymaid!’criedthewaiter。’Gelenboxnumsevenwishseeroom!’
  ’Stay!’saidClennam,rousinghimself。’IwasnotthinkingofwhatIsaid;Iansweredmechanically。Iamnotgoingtosleephere。I
  amgoinghome。’
  ’Deed,sir?Chaymaid!Gelenboxnumseven,notgosleephere,gome。’
  Hesatinthesameplaceasthedaydied,lookingatthedullhousesopposite,andthinking,ifthedisembodiedspiritsofformerinhabitantswereeverconsciousofthem,howtheymustpitythemselvesfortheiroldplacesofimprisonment。Sometimesafacewouldappearbehindthedingyglassofawindow,andwouldfadeawayintothegloomasifithadseenenoughoflifeandhadvanishedoutofit。Presentlytherainbegantofallinslantinglinesbetweenhimandthosehouses,andpeoplebegantocollectundercoverofthepublicpassageopposite,andtolookouthopelesslyattheskyastheraindroppedthickerandfaster。Thenwetumbrellasbegantoappear,draggledskirts,andmud。Whatthemudhadbeendoingwithitself,orwhereitcamefrom,whocouldsay?Butitseemedtocollectinamoment,asacrowdwill,andinfiveminutestohavesplashedallthesonsanddaughtersofAdam。
  Thelamplighterwasgoinghisroundsnow;andasthefieryjetssprangupunderhistouch,onemighthavefanciedthemastonishedatbeingsufferedtointroduceanyshowofbrightnessintosuchadismalscene。
  MrArthurClennamtookuphishatandbuttonedhiscoat,andwalkedout。Inthecountry,therainwouldhavedevelopedathousandfreshscents,andeverydropwouldhavehaditsbrightassociationwithsomebeautifulformofgrowthorlife。Inthecity,itdevelopedonlyfoulstalesmells,andwasasickly,lukewarm,dirt-
  stained,wretchedadditiontothegutters。
  HecrossedbyStPaul’sandwentdown,atalongangle,almosttothewater’sedge,throughsomeofthecrookedanddescendingstreetswhichlieandlaymorecrookedlyandcloselythenbetweentheriverandCheapside。Passing,nowthemouldyhallofsomeobsoleteWorshipfulCompany,nowtheilluminatedwindowsofaCongregationlessChurchthatseemedtobewaitingforsomeadventurousBelzonitodigitoutanddiscoveritshistory;passingsilentwarehousesandwharves,andhereandthereanarrowalleyleadingtotheriver,whereawretchedlittlebill,FOUNDDROWNED,wasweepingonthewetwall;hecameatlasttothehousehesought。Anoldbrickhouse,sodingyastobeallbutblack,standingbyitselfwithinagateway。Beforeit,asquarecourt-yardwhereashrubortwoandapatchofgrasswereasrankwhichissayingmuchastheironrailingsenclosingthemwererusty;behindit,ajumbleofroots。Itwasadoublehouse,withlong,narrow,heavily-framedwindows。Manyyearsago,ithadhaditinitsmindtoslidedownsideways;ithadbeenproppedup,however,andwasleaningonsomehalf-dozengiganticcrutches:
  whichgymnasiumfortheneighbouringcats,weather-stained,smoke-
  blackened,andovergrownwithweeds,appearedintheselatterdaystobenoverysurereliance。
  ’Nothingchanged,’saidthetraveller,stoppingtolookround。
  ’Darkandmiserableasever。Alightinmymother’swindow,whichseemsnevertohavebeenextinguishedsinceIcamehometwiceayearfromschool,anddraggedmyboxoverthispavement。Well,well,well!’
  Hewentuptothedoor,whichhadaprojectingcanopyincarvedworkoffestoonedjack-towelsandchildren’sheadswithwateronthebrain,designedafteraonce-popularmonumentalpattern,andknocked。Ashufflingstepwassoonheardonthestonefloorofthehall,andthedoorwasopenedbyanoldman,bentanddried,butwithkeeneyes。
  Hehadacandleinhishand,andhehelditupforamomenttoassisthiskeeneyes。’Ah,MrArthur?’hesaid,withoutanyemotion,’youarecomeatlast?Stepin。’
  MrArthursteppedinandshutthedoor。
  ’Yourfigureisfilledout,andset,’saidtheoldman,turningtolookathimwiththelightraisedagain,andshakinghishead;’butyoudon’tcomeuptoyourfatherinmyopinion。Noryetyourmother。’
  ’Howismymother?’
  ’Sheisasshealwaysisnow。Keepsherroomwhennotactuallybedridden,andhasn’tbeenoutofitfifteentimesinasmanyyears,Arthur。’Theyhadwalkedintoaspare,meagredining-room。
  Theoldmanhadputthecandlestickuponthetable,and,supportinghisrightelbowwithhislefthand,wassmoothinghisleathernjawswhilehelookedatthevisitor。Thevisitorofferedhishand。Theoldmantookitcoldlyenough,andseemedtopreferhisjaws,towhichhereturnedassoonashecould。
  ’IdoubtifyourmotherwillapproveofyourcominghomeontheSabbath,Arthur,’hesaid,shakinghisheadwarily。
  ’Youwouldn’thavemegoawayagain?’
  ’Oh!I?I?Iamnotthemaster。It’snotwhat_I_wouldhave。
  Ihavestoodbetweenyourfatherandmotherforanumberofyears。
  Idon’tpretendtostandbetweenyourmotherandyou。’
  ’WillyoutellherthatIhavecomehome?’
  ’Yes,Arthur,yes。Oh,tobesure!I’lltellherthatyouhavecomehome。Pleasetowaithere。Youwon’tfindtheroomchanged。’
  Hetookanothercandlefromacupboard,lightedit,leftthefirstonthetable,andwentuponhiserrand。Hewasashort,baldoldman,inahigh-shoulderedblackcoatandwaistcoat,drabbreeches,andlongdrabgaiters。Hemight,fromhisdress,havebeeneitherclerkorservant,andinfacthadlongbeenboth。Therewasnothingabouthiminthewayofdecorationbutawatch,whichwasloweredintothedepthsofitsproperpocketbyanoldblackribbon,andhadatarnishedcopperkeymooredaboveit,toshowwhereitwassunk。Hisheadwasawry,andhehadaone-sided,crab-likewaywithhim,asifhisfoundationshadyieldedataboutthesametimeasthoseofthehouse,andheoughttohavebeenproppedupinasimilarmanner。
  ’HowweakamI,’saidArthurClennam,whenhewasgone,’thatI
  couldshedtearsatthisreception!I,whohaveneverexperiencedanythingelse;whohaveneverexpectedanythingelse。’Henotonlycould,butdid。Itwasthemomentaryyieldingofanaturethathadbeendisappointedfromthedawnofitsperceptions,buthadnotquitegivenupallitshopefulyearningsyet。Hesubduedit,tookupthecandle,andexaminedtheroom。Theoldarticlesoffurniturewereintheiroldplaces;thePlaguesofEgypt,muchthedimmerfortheflyandsmokeplaguesofLondon,wereframedandglazeduponthewalls。Therewastheoldcellaretwithnothinginit,linedwithlead,likeasortofcoffinincompartments;therewastheolddarkcloset,alsowithnothinginit,ofwhichhehadbeenmanyatimethesolecontents,indaysofpunishment,whenhehadregardeditastheveritableentrancetothatbournetowhichthetracthadfoundhimgalloping。Therewasthelarge,hard-
  featuredclockonthesideboard,whichheusedtoseebendingitsfiguredbrowsuponhimwithasavagejoywhenhewasbehind-handwithhislessons,andwhich,whenitwaswounduponceaweekwithanironhandle,usedtosoundasifitweregrowlinginferociousanticipationofthemiseriesintowhichitwouldbringhim。Butherewastheoldmancomeback,saying,’Arthur,I’llgobeforeandlightyou。’
  Arthurfollowedhimupthestaircase,whichwaspanelledoffintospaceslikesomanymourningtablets,intoadimbed-chamber,thefloorofwhichhadgraduallysosunkandsettled,thatthefire-
  placewasinadell。Onablackbier-likesofainthishollow,proppedupbehindwithonegreatangularblackbolsterliketheblockatastateexecutioninthegoodoldtimes,sathismotherinawidow’sdress。
  Sheandhisfatherhadbeenatvariancefromhisearliestremembrance。Tositspeechlesshimselfinthemidstofrigidsilence,glancingindreadfromtheoneavertedfacetotheother,hadbeenthepeacefullestoccupationofhischildhood。Shegavehimoneglassykiss,andfourstifffingersmuffledinworsted。
  Thisembraceconcluded,hesatdownontheoppositesideofherlittletable。Therewasafireinthegrate,astherehadbeennightanddayforfifteenyears。Therewasakettleonthehob,astherehadbeennightanddayforfifteenyears。Therewasalittlemoundofdampedashesonthetopofthefire,andanotherlittlemoundswepttogetherunderthegrate,astherehadbeennightanddayforfifteenyears。Therewasasmellofblackdyeintheairlessroom,whichthefirehadbeendrawingoutofthecrapeandstuffofthewidow’sdressforfifteenmonths,andoutofthebier-
  likesofaforfifteenyears。
  ’Mother,thisisachangefromyouroldactivehabits。’
  ’Theworldhasnarrowedtothesedimensions,Arthur,’shereplied,glancingroundtheroom。’ItiswellformethatIneversetmyheartuponitshollowvanities。’
  Theoldinfluenceofherpresenceandhersternstrongvoice,sogatheredaboutherson,thathefeltconsciousofarenewalofthetimidchillandreserveofhischildhood。