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第68章

  Shelookedathimforaninstant,andthensaidfrowningly,’I
  won’t。MissWade,takemeaway,please。’
  Thecontentionthatragedwithinherhadnosofteninginitnow;itwaswhollybetweenpassionatedefianceandstubborndefiance。Herrichcolour,herquickblood,herrapidbreath,wereallsettingthemselvesagainsttheopportunityofretracingtheirsteps。’I
  won’t。Iwon’t。Iwon’t!’sherepeatedinalow,thickvoice。
  ’I’dbetorntopiecesfirst。I’dtearmyselftopiecesfirst!’
  MissWade,whohadreleasedherhold,laidherhandprotectinglyonthegirl’sneckforamoment,andthensaid,lookingroundwithherformersmileandspeakingexactlyinherformertone,’Gentlemen!
  Whatdoyoudouponthat?’
  ’Oh,Tattycoram,Tattycoram!’criedMrMeagles,adjuringherbesideswithanearnesthand。’Hearthatlady’svoice,lookatthatlady’sface,considerwhatisinthatlady’sheart,andthinkwhatafutureliesbeforeyou。Mychild,whateveryoumaythink,thatlady’sinfluenceoveryou——astonishingtous,andIshouldhardlygotoofarinsayingterribletoustosee——isfoundedinpassionfiercerthanyours,andtempermoreviolentthanyours。
  Whatcanyoutwobetogether?Whatcancomeofit?’
  ’Iamalonehere,gentlemen,’observedMissWade,withnochangeofvoiceormanner。’Sayanythingyouwill。’
  ’Politenessmustyieldtothismisguidedgirl,ma’am,’saidMrMeagles,’atherpresentpass;thoughIhopenotaltogethertodismissit,evenwiththeinjuryyoudohersostronglybeforeme。
  Excusemeforremindingyouinherhearing——Imustsayit——thatyouwereamysterytoallofus,andhadnothingincommonwithanyofuswhensheunfortunatelyfellinyourway。Idon’tknowwhatyouare,butyoudon’thide,can’thide,whatadarkspirityouhavewithinyou。Ifitshouldhappenthatyouareawoman,who,fromwhatevercause,hasaperverteddelightinmakingasister-womanaswretchedassheisIamoldenoughtohaveheardofsuch,Iwarnheragainstyou,andIwarnyouagainstyourself。’
  ’Gentlemen!’saidMissWade,calmly。’Whenyouhaveconcluded——MrClennam,perhapsyouwillinduceyourfriend——’
  ’Notwithoutanothereffort,’saidMrMeagles,stoutly。
  ’Tattycoram,mypoordeargirl,countfive-and-twenty。’
  ’Donotrejectthehope,thecertainty,thiskindmanoffersyou,’
  saidClennaminalowemphaticvoice。’Turntothefriendsyouhavenotforgotten。Thinkoncemore!’
  ’Iwon’t!MissWade,’saidthegirl,withherbosomswellinghigh,andspeakingwithherhandheldtoherthroat,’takemeaway!’
  ’Tattycoram,’saidMrMeagles。’Oncemoreyet!TheonlythingI
  askofyouintheworld,mychild!Countfive-and-twenty!’
  Sheputherhandstightlyoverherears,confusedlytumblingdownherbrightblackhairinthevehemenceoftheaction,andturnedherfaceresolutelytothewall。MissWade,whohadwatchedherunderthisfinalappealwiththatstrangeattentivesmile,andthatrepressinghanduponherownbosomwithwhichshehadwatchedherinherstruggleatMarseilles,thenputherarmaboutherwaistasifshetookpossessionofherforevermore。
  Andtherewasavisibletriumphinherfacewhensheturnedittodismissthevisitors。
  ’AsitisthelasttimeIshallhavethehonour,’shesaid,’andasyouhavespokenofnotknowingwhatIam,andalsoofthefoundationofmyinfluencehere,youmaynowknowthatitisfoundedinacommoncause。Whatyourbrokenplaythingisastobirth,Iam。Shehasnoname,Ihavenoname。Herwrongismywrong。Ihavenothingmoretosaytoyou。’
  ThiswasaddressedtoMrMeagles,whosorrowfullywentout。AsClennamfollowed,shesaidtohim,withthesameexternalcomposureandinthesamelevelvoice,butwithasmilethatisonlyseenoncruelfaces:averyfaintsmile,liftingthenostril,scarcelytouchingthelips,andnotbreakingawaygradually,butinstantlydismissedwhendonewith:
  ’IhopethewifeofyourdearfriendMrGowan,maybehappyinthecontrastofherextractiontothisgirl’sandmine,andinthehighgoodfortunethatawaitsher。’
  Nobody’sDisappearanceNotrestingsatisfiedwiththeendeavourshehadmadetorecoverhislostcharge,MrMeaglesaddressedaletterofremonstrance,breathingnothingbutgoodwill,notonlytoher,buttoMissWadetoo。Noanswercomingtotheseepistles,ortoanotherwrittentothestubborngirlbythehandofherlateyoungmistress,whichmighthavemeltedherifanythingcouldallthreeletterswerereturnedweeksafterwardsashavingbeenrefusedatthehouse-
  door,hedeputedMrsMeaglestomaketheexperimentofapersonalinterview。Thatworthyladybeingunabletoobtainone,andbeingsteadfastlydeniedadmission,MrMeaglesbesoughtArthurtoessayoncemorewhathecoulddo。Allthatcameofhiscompliancewas,hisdiscoverythattheemptyhousewasleftinchargeoftheoldwoman,thatMissWadewasgone,thatthewaifsandstraysoffurnitureweregone,andthattheoldwomanwouldacceptanynumberofhalf-crownsandthankthedonorkindly,buthadnoinformationwhatevertoexchangeforthosecoins,beyondconstantlyofferingforperusalamemorandumrelativetofixtures,whichthehouse-
  agent’syoungmanhadleftinthehall。
  Unwilling,evenunderthisdiscomfiture,toresigntheingrateandleaveherhopeless,incaseofherbetterdispositionsobtainingthemasteryoverthedarkersideofhercharacter,MrMeagles,forsixsuccessivedays,publishedadiscreetlycovertadvertisementinthemorningpapers,totheeffectthatifacertainyoungpersonwhohadlatelylefthomewithoutreflection,wouldatanytimeapplytohisaddressatTwickenham,everythingwouldbeasithadbeenbefore,andnoreproachesneedbeapprehended。TheunexpectedconsequencesofthisnotificationsuggestedtothedismayedMrMeaglesforthefirsttimethatsomehundredsofyoungpersonsmustbeleavingtheirhomeswithoutreflectioneveryday;forshoalsofwrongyoungpeoplecamedowntoTwickenham,who,notfindingthemselvesreceivedwithenthusiasm,generallydemandedcompensationbywayofdamages,inadditiontocoach-hirethereandback。Norwerethesetheonlyuninvitedclientswhomtheadvertisementproduced。Theswarmofbegging-letterwriters,whowouldseemtobealwayswatchingeagerlyforanyhook,howeversmall,tohangaletterupon,wrotetosaythathavingseentheadvertisement,theywereinducedtoapplywithconfidenceforvarioussums,rangingfromtenshillingstofiftypounds:notbecausetheyknewanythingabouttheyoungperson,butbecausetheyfeltthattopartwiththosedonationswouldgreatlyrelievetheadvertiser’smind。Severalprojectors,likewise,availedthemselvesofthesameopportunitytocorrespondwithMrMeagles;
  as,forexample,toapprisehimthattheirattentionhavingbeencalledtotheadvertisementbyafriend,theybeggedtostatethatiftheyshouldeverhearanythingoftheyoungperson,theywouldnotfailtomakeitknowntohimimmediately,andthatinthemeantimeifhewouldobligethemwiththefundsnecessaryforbringingtoperfectionacertainentirelynoveldescriptionofPump,thehappiestresultswouldensuetomankind。
  MrMeaglesandhisfamily,underthesecombineddiscouragements,hadbegunreluctantlytogiveupTattycoramasirrecoverable,whenthenewandactivefirmofDoyceandClennam,intheirprivatecapacities,wentdownonaSaturdaytostayatthecottageuntilMonday。Theseniorpartnertookthecoach,andthejuniorpartnertookhiswalking-stick。
  Atranquilsummersunsetshoneuponhimasheapproachedtheendofhiswalk,andpassedthroughthemeadowsbytheriverside。Hehadthatsenseofpeace,andofbeinglightenedofaweightofcare,whichcountryquietawakensinthebreastsofdwellersintowns。
  Everythingwithinhisviewwaslovelyandplacid。Therichfoliageofthetrees,theluxuriantgrassdiversifiedwithwildflowers,thelittlegreenislandsintheriver,thebedsofrushes,thewater-liliesfloatingonthesurfaceofthestream,thedistantvoicesinboatsbornemusicallytowardshimontherippleofthewaterandtheeveningair,wereallexpressiveofrest。Intheoccasionalleapofafish,ordipofanoar,ortwitteringofabirdnotyetatroost,ordistantbarkingofadog,orlowingofacow——inallsuchsounds,therewastheprevailingbreathofrest,whichseemedtoencompasshimineveryscentthatsweetenedthefragrantair。Thelonglinesofredandgoldinthesky,andtheglorioustrackofthedescendingsun,werealldivinelycalm。Uponthepurpletree-topsfaraway,andonthegreenheightnearathandupwhichtheshadeswereslowlycreeping,therewasanequalhush。
  Betweenthereallandscapeanditsshadowinthewater,therewasnodivision;bothweresountroubledandclear,and,whilesofraughtwithsolemnmysteryoflifeanddeath,sohopefullyreassuringtothegazer’ssoothedheart,becausesotenderlyandmercifullybeautiful。
  Clennamhadstopped,notforthefirsttimebymanytimes,tolookabouthimandsufferwhathesawtosinkintohissoul,astheshadows,lookedat,seemedtosinkdeeperanddeeperintothewater。Hewasslowlyresuminghisway,whenhesawafigureinthepathbeforehimwhichhehad,perhaps,alreadyassociatedwiththeeveninganditsimpressions。
  Minniewasthere,alone。Shehadsomerosesinherhand,andseemedtohavestoodstillonseeinghim,waitingforhim。Herfacewastowardshim,andsheappearedtohavebeencomingfromtheoppositedirection。Therewasaflutterinhermanner,whichClennamhadneverseeninitbefore;andashecamenearher,itenteredhismindallatoncethatshewasthereofasetpurposetospeaktohim。
  Shegavehimherhand,andsaid,’Youwondertoseemeherebymyself?Buttheeveningissolovely,IhavestrolledfurtherthanImeantatfirst。IthoughtitlikelyImightmeetyou,andthatmadememoreconfident。Youalwayscomethisway,doyounot?’