’MissDorrit,’saidMrsMerdle,afterfrostilylookingatherthroughherglass,’preciselywhatIwasonthepointoftellingyoursister,inpursuanceofyourrequest。Muchobligedtoyouforrecallingitsoaccuratelyandanticipatingme。Iimmediately,’
addressingLittleDorrit,’forIamthecreatureofimpulse,tookabraceletfrommyarm,andbeggedyoursistertoletmeclaspitonhers,intokenofthedelightIhadinourbeingabletoapproachthesubjectsofaronacommonfooting。’Thiswasperfectlytrue,theladyhavingboughtacheapandshowyarticleonherwaytotheinterview,withageneraleyetobribery。
’AndItoldyou,MrsMerdle,’saidFanny,’thatwemightbeunfortunate,butwearenotcommon。’
’Ithink,theverywords,MissDorrit,’assentedMrsMerdle。
’AndItoldyou,MrsMerdle,’saidFanny,’thatifyouspoketomeofthesuperiorityofyourson’sstandinginSociety,itwasbarelypossiblethatyouratherdeceivedyourselfinyoursuppositionsaboutmyorigin;andthatmyfather’sstanding,evenintheSocietyinwhichhenowmovedwhatthatwas,wasbestknowntomyself,waseminentlysuperior,andwasacknowledgedbyeveryone。’
’Quiteaccurate,’rejoinedMrsMerdle。’Amostadmirablememory。’
’Thankyou,ma’am。Perhapsyouwillbesokindastotellmysistertherest。’
’Thereisverylittletotell,’saidMrsMerdle,reviewingthebreadthofbosomwhichseemedessentialtoherhavingroomenoughtobeunfeelingin,’butitistoyoursister’scredit。Ipointedouttoyoursistertheplainstateofthecase;theimpossibilityoftheSocietyinwhichwemovedrecognisingtheSocietyinwhichshemoved——thoughcharming,Ihavenodoubt;theimmensedisadvantageatwhichshewouldconsequentlyplacethefamilyshehadsohighanopinionof,uponwhichweshouldfindourselvescompelledtolookdownwithcontempt,andfromwhichsociallyspeakingweshouldfeelobligedtorecoilwithabhorrence。Inshort,Imadeanappealtothatlaudableprideinyoursister。’
’Letmysisterknow,ifyouplease,MrsMerdle,’Fannypouted,withatossofhergauzybonnet,’thatIhadalreadyhadthehonouroftellingyoursonthatIwishedtohavenothingwhatevertosaytohim。’
’Well,MissDorrit,’assentedMrsMerdle,’perhapsImighthavementionedthatbefore。IfIdidnotthinkofit,perhapsitwasbecausemymindrevertedtotheapprehensionsIhadatthetimethathemightpersevereandyoumighthavesomethingtosaytohim。
Ialsomentionedtoyoursister——Iagainaddressthenon-
professionalMissDorrit——thatmysonwouldhavenothingintheeventofsuchamarriage,andwouldbeanabsolutebeggar。I
mentionthatmerelyasafactwhichispartofthenarrative,andnotassupposingittohaveinfluencedyoursister,exceptintheprudentandlegitimatewayinwhich,constitutedasourartificialsystemis,wemustallbeinfluencedbysuchconsiderations。
Finally,aftersomehighwordsandhighspiritonthepartofyoursister,wecametothecompleteunderstandingthattherewasnodanger;andyoursisterwassoobligingastoallowmetopresentherwithamarkortwoofmyappreciationatmydressmaker’s。’
LittleDorritlookedsorry,andglancedatFannywithatroubledface。
’Also,’saidMrsMerdle,’astopromisetogivemethepresentpleasureofaclosinginterview,andofpartingwithheronthebestofterms。Onwhichoccasion,’addedMrsMerdle,quittinghernest,andputtingsomethinginFanny’shand,’MissDorritwillpermitmetosayFarewellwithbestwishesinmyowndullmanner。’
Thesistersroseatthesametime,andtheyallstoodnearthecageoftheparrot,ashetoreataclaw-fullofbiscuitandspatitout,seemedtomockthemwithapompousdanceofhisbodywithoutmovinghisfeet,andsuddenlyturnedhimselfupsidedownandtrailedhimselfallovertheoutsideofhisgoldencage,withtheaidofhiscruelbeakandblacktongue。
’Adieu,MissDorrit,withbestwishes,’saidMrsMerdle。’IfwecouldonlycometoaMillennium,orsomethingofthatsort,IforonemighthavethepleasureofknowinganumberofcharmingandtalentedpersonsfromwhomIamatpresentexcluded。Amoreprimitivestateofsocietywouldbedelicioustome。ThereusedtobeapoemwhenIlearntlessons,somethingaboutLothepoorIndianswhosesomethingmind!IfafewthousandpersonsmovinginSociety,couldonlygoandbeIndians,Iwouldputmynamedowndirectly;butas,movinginSociety,wecan’tbeIndians,unfortunately——Goodmorning!’
Theycamedown-stairswithpowderbeforethemandpowderbehind,theeldersisterhaughtyandtheyoungersisterhumbled,andwereshutoutintounpowderedHarleyStreet,CavendishSquare。
’Well?’saidFanny,whentheyhadgonealittlewaywithoutspeaking。’Haveyounothingtosay,Amy?’
’Oh,Idon’tknowwhattosay!’sheanswered,distressed。’Youdidn’tlikethisyoungman,Fanny?’
’Likehim?Heisalmostanidiot。’
’Iamsosorry——don’tbehurt——but,sinceyouaskmewhatIhavetosay,Iamsoverysorry,Fanny,thatyousufferedthisladytogiveyouanything。’
’YoulittleFool!’returnedhersister,shakingherwiththesharppullshegaveherarm。’Haveyounospiritatall?Butthat’sjusttheway!Youhavenoself-respect,youhavenobecomingpride。justasyouallowyourselftobefollowedaboutbyacontemptiblelittleChiveryofathing,’withthescornfullestemphasis,’youwouldletyourfamilybetroddenon,andneverturn。’
’Don’tsaythat,dearFanny。IdowhatIcanforthem。’
’Youdowhatyoucanforthem!’repeatedFanny,walkingheronveryfast。’Wouldyouletawomanlikethis,whomyoucouldsee,ifyouhadanyexperienceofanything,tobeasfalseandinsolentasawomancanbe——wouldyouletherputherfootuponyourfamily,andthankherforit?’
’No,Fanny,Iamsure。’
’Thenmakeherpayforit,youmeanlittlething。Whatelsecanyoumakeherdo?Makeherpayforit,youstupidchild;anddoyourfamilysomecreditwiththemoney!’
TheyspokenomoreallthewaybacktothelodgingwhereFannyandherunclelived。Whentheyarrivedthere,theyfoundtheoldmanpractisinghisclarionetinthedolefullestmannerinacorneroftheroom。Fannyhadacompositemealtomake,ofchops,andporter,andtea;andindignantlypretendedtoprepareitforherself,thoughhersisterdidallthatinquietreality。WhenatlastFannysatdowntoeatanddrink,shethrewthetableimplementsaboutandwasangrywithherbread,muchasherfatherhadbeenlastnight。
’Ifyoudespiseme,’shesaid,burstingintovehementtears,’becauseIamadancer,whydidyouputmeinthewayofbeingone?
Itwasyourdoing。YouwouldhavemestoopaslowasthegroundbeforethisMrsMerdle,andlethersaywhatshelikedanddowhatsheliked,andholdusallincontempt,andtellmesotomyface。
BecauseIamadancer!’
’OFanny!’
’AndTip,too,poorfellow。Sheistodisparagehimjustasmuchasshelikes,withoutanycheck——Isupposebecausehehasbeeninthelaw,andthedocks,anddifferentthings。Why,itwasyourdoing,Amy。Youmightatleastapproveofhisbeingdefended。’
Allthistimetheunclewasdolefullyblowinghisclarionetinthecorner,sometimestakingitaninchorsofromhismouthforamomentwhilehestoppedtogazeatthem,withavagueimpressionthatsomebodyhadsaidsomething。
’Andyourfather,yourpoorfather,Amy。Becauseheisnotfreetoshowhimselfandtospeakforhimself,youwouldletsuchpeopleinsulthimwithimpunity。Ifyoudon’tfeelforyourselfbecauseyougoouttowork,youmightatleastfeelforhim,Ishouldthink,knowingwhathehasundergonesolong。’
PoorLittleDorritfelttheinjusticeofthistauntrathersharply。
Theremembranceoflastnightaddedabarbedpointtoit。Shesaidnothinginreply,butturnedherchairfromthetabletowardsthefire。Uncle,aftermakingonemorepause,blewadismalwailandwentonagain。
Fannywaspassionatewiththetea-cupsandthebreadaslongasherpassionlasted,andthenprotestedthatshewasthewretchedestgirlintheworld,andshewishedshewasdead。Afterthat,hercryingbecameremorseful,andshegotupandputherarmsroundhersister。LittleDorrittriedtostopherfromsayinganything,butsheansweredthatshewould,shemust!Thereuponshesaidagain,andagain,’Ibegyourpardon,Amy,’and’Forgiveme,Amy,’almostaspassionatelyasshehadsaidwhatsheregretted。
’Butindeed,indeed,Amy,’sheresumedwhentheywereseatedinsisterlyaccordsidebyside,’IhopeandIthinkyouwouldhaveseenthisdifferently,ifyouhadknownalittlemoreofSociety。’
’PerhapsImight,Fanny,’saidthemildLittleDorrit。
’Yousee,whileyouhavebeendomesticandresignedlyshutupthere,Amy,’pursuedhersister,graduallybeginningtopatronise,’Ihavebeenout,movingmoreinSociety,andmayhavebeengettingproudandspirited——morethanIoughttobe,perhaps?’
LittleDorritanswered’Yes。Oyes!’
’Andwhileyouhavebeenthinkingofthedinnerortheclothes,I
mayhavebeenthinking,youknow,ofthefamily。Now,mayitnotbeso,Amy?’
LittleDorritagainnodded’Yes,’withamorecheerfulfacethanheart。
’Especiallyasweknow,’saidFanny,’thattherecertainlyisatoneintheplacetowhichyouhavebeensotrue,whichdoesbelongtoit,andwhichdoesmakeitdifferentfromotheraspectsofSociety。Sokissmeonceagain,Amydear,andwewillagreethatwemaybothberight,andthatyouareatranquil,domestic,home-
loving,goodgirl。’
Theclarionethadbeenlamentingmostpatheticallyduringthisdialogue,butwascutshortnowbyFanny’sannouncementthatitwastimetogo;whichsheconveyedtoherunclebyshuttinguphisscrapofmusic,andtakingtheclarionetoutofhismouth。
LittleDorritpartedfromthematthedoor,andhastenedbacktotheMarshalsea。Itfelldarktheresoonerthanelsewhere,andgoingintoitthateveningwaslikegoingintoadeeptrench。Theshadowofthewallwasoneveryobject。Notleastuponthefigureintheoldgreygownandtheblackvelvetcap,asitturnedtowardsherwhensheopenedthedoorofthedimroom。
’Whynotuponmetoo!’thoughtLittleDorrit,withthedoorYetinherhand。’ItwasnotunreasonableinFanny。’
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