shallIsaymypersonaldignity?Ladiesandgentlemen,Godblessyouall!’
Bythistime,theexceedingmortificationundergonebytheBosomhadoccasionedthewithdrawalofthegreaterpartofthecompanyintootherrooms。Thefewwhohadlingeredthuslongfollowedtherest,andLittleDorritandherfatherwerelefttotheservantsandthemselves。Dearestandmostprecioustoher,hewouldcomewithhernow,wouldhenot?Herepliedtoherfervidentreaties,thathewouldneverbeabletogetupthenarrowstairswithoutBob;wherewasBob,wouldnobodyfetchBob?UnderpretenceoflookingforBob,shegothimoutagainstthestreamofgaycompanynowpouringinfortheeveningassembly,andgothimintoacoachthathadjustsetdownitsload,andgothimhome。
ThebroadstairsofhisRomanpalacewerecontractedinhisfailingsighttothenarrowstairsofhisLondonprison;andhewouldsuffernoonebuthertotouchhim,hisbrotherexcepted。Theygothimuptohisroomwithouthelp,andlaidhimdownonhisbed。Andfromthathourhispoormaimedspirit,onlyrememberingtheplacewhereithadbrokenitswings,cancelledthedreamthroughwhichithadsincegroped,andknewofnothingbeyondtheMarshalsea。Whenheheardfootstepsinthestreet,hetookthemfortheoldwearytreadintheyards。Whenthehourcameforlockingup,hesupposedallstrangerstobeexcludedforthenight。Whenthetimeforopeningcameagain,hewassoanxioustoseeBob,thattheywerefaintopatchupanarrativehowthatBob——manyayeardeadthen,gentleturnkey——hadtakencold,buthopedtobeoutto-morrow,orthenextday,orthenextatfurthest。
Hefellawayintoaweaknesssoextremethathecouldnotraisehishand。Buthestillprotectedhisbrotheraccordingtohislongusage;andwouldsaywithsomecomplacency,fiftytimesaday,whenhesawhimstandingbyhisbed,’MygoodFrederick,sitdown。Youareveryfeebleindeed。’
TheytriedhimwithMrsGeneral,buthehadnotthefaintestknowledgeofher。Someinjurioussuspicionlodgeditselfinhisbrain,thatshewantedtosupplantMrsBangham,andthatshewasgiventodrinking。Hechargedherwithitinnomeasuredterms;
andwassourgentwithhisdaughtertogoroundtotheMarshalandentreathimtoturnherout,thatshewasneverreproducedafterthefirstfailure。
Savingthatheonceasked’ifTiphadgoneoutside?’theremembranceofhistwochildrennotpresentseemedtohavedepartedfromhim。Butthechildwhohaddonesomuchforhimandhadbeensopoorlyrepaid,wasneveroutofhismind。Notthathesparedher,orwasfearfulofherbeingspentbywatchingandfatigue;hewasnotmoretroubledonthatscorethanhehadusuallybeen。No;
helovedherinhisoldway。Theywereinthejailagain,andshetendedhim,andhehadconstantneedofher,andcouldnotturnwithouther;andheeventoldher,sometimes,thathewascontenttohaveundergoneagreatdealforhersake。Astoher,shebentoverhisbedwithherquietfaceagainsthis,andwouldhavelaiddownherownlifetorestorehim。
Whenhehadbeensinkinginthispainlesswayfortwoorthreedays,sheobservedhimtobetroubledbythetickingofhiswatch——
apompousgoldwatchthatmadeasgreatato-doaboutitsgoingasifnothingelsewentbutitselfandTime。Shesufferedittorundown;buthewasstilluneasy,andshowedthatwasnotwhathewanted。Atlengthherousedhimselftoexplainthathewantedmoneytoberaisedonthiswatch。Hewasquitepleasedwhenshepretendedtotakeitawayforthepurpose,andafterwardshadarelishforhislittletastesofwineandjelly,thathehadnothadbefore。
Hesoonmadeitplainthatthiswasso;for,inanotherdayortwohesentoffhissleeve-buttonsandfinger-rings。Hehadanamazingsatisfactioninentrustingherwiththeseerrands,andappearedtoconsideritequivalenttomakingthemostmethodicalandprovidentarrangements。Afterhistrinkets,orsuchofthemashehadbeenabletoseeabouthim,weregone,hisclothesengagedhisattention;anditisaslikelyasnotthathewaskeptaliveforsomedaysbythesatisfactionofsendingthem,piecebypiece,toanimaginarypawnbroker’s。
ThusfortendaysLittleDorritbentoverhispillow,layinghercheekagainsthis。Sometimesshewassowornoutthatforafewminutestheywouldslumbertogether。Thenshewouldawake;torecollectwithfast-flowingsilenttearswhatitwasthattouchedherface,andtosee,stealingoverthecherishedfaceuponthepillow,adeepershadowthantheshadowoftheMarshalseaWall。
Quietly,quietly,allthelinesoftheplanofthegreatCastlemeltedoneafteranother。Quietly,quietly,theruledandcross-
ruledcountenanceonwhichtheyweretraced,becamefairandblank。
Quietly,quietly,thereflectedmarksoftheprisonbarsandofthezig-zagirononthewall-top,fadedaway。Quietly,quietly,thefacesubsidedintoafaryoungerlikenessofherownthanshehadeverseenunderthegreyhair,andsanktorest。
Atfirstherunclewasstarkdistracted。’Omybrother!O
William,William!Youtogobeforeme;youtogoalone;youtogo,andItoremain!You,sofarsuperior,sodistinguished,sonoble;
I,apooruselesscreaturefitfornothing,andwhomnoonewouldhavemissed!’
Itdidher,forthetime,thegoodofhavinghimtothinkofandtosuccour。
’Uncle,dearuncle,spareyourself,spareme!’
Theoldmanwasnotdeaftothelastwords。Whenhedidbegintorestrainhimself,itwasthathemightspareher。Hehadnocareforhimself;but,withalltheremainingpowerofthehonestheart,stunnedsolongandnowawakingtobebroken,hehonouredandblessedher。
’OGod,’hecried,beforetheylefttheroom,withhiswrinkledhandsclaspedoverher。’Thouseestthisdaughterofmydeardeadbrother!AllthatIhavelookedupon,withmyhalf-blindandsinfuleyes,Thouhastdiscernedclearly,brightly。NotahairofherheadshallbeharmedbeforeThee。Thouwiltupholdherheretoherlasthour。AndIknowThouwiltrewardherhereafter!’
Theyremainedinadimroomnear,untilitwasalmostmidnight,quietandsadtogether。Attimeshisgriefwouldseekreliefinaburstlikethatinwhichithadfounditsearliestexpression;but,besidesthathislittlestrengthwouldsoonhavebeenunequaltosuchstrains,heneverfailedtorecallherwords,andtoreproachhimselfandcalmhimself。Theonlyutterancewithwhichheindulgedhissorrow,wasthefrequentexclamationthathisbrotherwasgone,alone;thattheyhadbeentogetherintheoutsetoftheirlives,thattheyhadfallenintomisfortunetogether,thattheyhadkepttogetherthroughtheirmanyyearsofpoverty,thattheyhadremainedtogethertothatday;andthathisbrotherwasgonealone,alone!
Theyparted,heavyandsorrowful。Shewouldnotconsenttoleavehimanywherebutinhisownroom,andshesawhimliedowninhisclothesuponhisbed,andcoveredhimwithherownhands。Thenshesankuponherownbed,andfellintoadeepsleep:thesleepofexhaustionandrest,thoughnotofcompletereleasefromapervadingconsciousnessofaffliction。Sleep,goodLittleDorrit。
Sleepthroughthenight!
Itwasamoonlightnight;butthemoonroselate,beinglongpastthefull。Whenitwashighinthepeacefulfirmament,itshonethroughhalf-closedlatticeblindsintothesolemnroomwherethestumblingsandwanderingsofalifehadsolatelyended。Twoquietfigureswerewithintheroom;twofigures,equallystillandimpassive,equallyremovedbyanuntraversabledistancefromtheteemingearthandallthatitcontains,thoughsoontolieinit。
Onefigurereposeduponthebed。Theother,kneelingonthefloor,droopedoverit;thearmseasilyandpeacefullyrestingonthecoverlet;thefaceboweddown,sothatthelipstouchedthehandoverwhichwithitslastbreathithadbent。ThetwobrotherswerebeforetheirFather;farbeyondthetwilightjudgmentofthisworld;highaboveitsmistsandobscurities。
CHAPTER20
IntroducesthenextThepassengerswerelandingfromthepacketonthepieratCalais。
Alow-lyingplaceandalow-spiritedplaceCalaiswas,withthetideebbingouttowardslowwater-mark。Therehadbeennomorewateronthebarthanhadsufficedtofloatthepacketin;andnowthebaritself,withashallowbreakofseaoverit,lookedlikealazymarinemonsterjustrisentothesurface,whoseformwasindistinctlyshownasitlayasleep。Themeagrelighthouseallinwhite,hauntingtheseaboardasifitweretheghostofanedificethathadoncehadcolourandrotundity,droppedmelancholytearsafteritslatebuffetingbythewaves。Thelongrowsofgauntblackpiles,slimyandwetandweather-worn,withfuneralgarlandsofseaweedtwistedaboutthembythelatetide,mighthaverepresentedanunsightlymarinecemetery。Everywave-dashed,storm-beatenobject,wassolowandsolittle,underthebroadgreysky,inthenoiseofthewindandsea,andbeforethecurlinglinesofsurf,makingatitferociously,thatthewonderwastherewasanyCalaisleft,andthatitslowgatesandlowwallandlowroofsandlowditchesandlowsand-hillsandlowrampartsandflatstreets,hadnotyieldedlongagototheunderminingandbesiegingsea,likethefortificationschildrenmakeonthesea-shore。
Afterslippingamongoozypilesandplanks,stumblingupwetstepsandencounteringmanysaltdifficulties,thepassengersenteredontheircomfortlessperegrinationalongthepier;wherealltheFrenchvagabondsandEnglishoutlawsinthetownhalfthepopulationattendedtopreventtheirrecoveryfrombewilderment。
AfterbeingminutelyinspectedbyalltheEnglish,andclaimedandreclaimedandcounter-claimedasprizesbyalltheFrenchinahand-to-handscufflethreequartersofamilelong,theywereatlastfreetoenterthestreets,andtomakeoffintheirvariousdirections,hotlypursued。
Clennam,harassedbymoreanxietiesthanone,wasamongthisdevotedband。Havingrescuedthemostdefencelessofhiscompatriotsfromsituationsofgreatextremity,henowwenthiswayalone,orasnearlyaloneashecouldbe,withanativegentlemaninasuitofgreaseandacapofthesamematerial,givingchaseatadistanceofsomefiftyyards,andcontinuallycallingafterhim,’Hi!Ice-say!You!Seer!Ice-say!NiceOatel!’
Eventhishospitableperson,however,wasleftbehindatlast,andClennampursuedhisway,unmolested。TherewasatranquilairinthetownaftertheturbulenceoftheChannelandthebeach,anditsdulnessinthatcomparisonwasagreeable。Hemetnewgroupsofhiscountrymen,whohadallastragglingairofhavingatonetimeoverblownthemselves,likecertainuncomfortablekindsofflowers,andofbeingnowmereweeds。Theyhadallanair,too,ofloungingoutalimitedround,dayafterday,whichstronglyremindedhimoftheMarshalsea。But,takingnofurthernoteofthemthanwassufficienttogivebirthtothereflection,hesoughtoutacertainstreetandnumberwhichhekeptinhismind。
’SoPanckssaid,’hemurmuredtohimself,ashestoppedbeforeadullhouseansweringtotheaddress。’Isupposehisinformationtobecorrectandhisdiscovery,amongMrCasby’sloosepapers,indisputable;but,withoutit,Ishouldhardlyhavesupposedthistobealikelyplace。’
Adeadsortofhouse,withadeadwalloverthewayandadeadgatewayattheside,whereapendantbell-handleproducedtwodeadtinkles,andaknockerproducedadead,flat,surface-tapping,thatseemednottohavedepthenoughinittopenetrateeventhecrackeddoor。However,thedoorjarredopenonadeadsortofspring;andhecloseditbehindhimasheenteredadullyard,soonbroughttoaclosebyanotherdeadwall,whereanattempthadbeenmadetotrainsomecreepingshrubs,whichweredead;andtomakealittlefountaininagrotto,whichwasdry;andtodecoratethatwithalittlestatue,whichwasgone。
Theentrytothehousewasontheleft,anditwasgarnishedastheoutergatewaywas,withtwoprintedbillsinFrenchandEnglish,announcingFurnishedApartmentstolet,withimmediatepossession。
Astrongcheerfulpeasantwoman,allstocking,petticoat,whitecap,andear-ring,stoodhereinadarkdoorway,andsaidwithapleasantshowofteeth,’Ice-say!Seer!Who?’
Clennam,replyinginFrench,saidtheEnglishlady;hewishedtoseetheEnglishlady。’Enterthenandascend,ifyouplease,’
returnedthepeasantwoman,inFrenchlikewise。Hedidboth,andfollowedherupadarkbarestaircasetoabackroomonthefirst-
floor。Hence,therewasagloomyviewoftheyardthatwasdull,andoftheshrubsthatweredead,andofthefountainthatwasdry,andofthepedestalofthestatuethatwasgone。
’MonsieurBlandois,’saidClennam。
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