regardedtheeventwhichwastoseparateme,asitturnedout,foreverfromasisterwhosetendernessalonehadhithertomorethansuppliedallthatIwantedinmymother’saffection。
ThedaysoonarrivedwhichwastoremovethehappycouplefromAshtownHouse。Thecarriagestoodatthehall-
door,andmypoorsisterkissedmeagainandagain,tellingmethatIshouldseehersoon。
Thecarriagedroveaway,andIgazedafterituntilmyeyesfilledwithtears,and,returningslowlytomychamber,Iweptmorebitterlyand,sotospeak,moredesolately,thaneverIhaddonebefore。
Myfatherhadneverseemedtoloveortotakeaninterestinme。Hehaddesiredason,andIthinkheneverthoroughlyforgavememyunfortunatesex。
Myhavingcomeintotheworldatallashischildheregardedasakindoffraudulentintrusion,andashisantipathytomehaditsorigininanimperfectionofmine,tooradicalforremoval,Ineverevenhopedtostandhighinhisgoodgraces。
Mymotherwas,Idaresay,asfondofmeasshewasofanyone;butshewasawomanofamasculineandaworldlycastofmind。Shehadnotendernessorsympathyfortheweaknesses,orevenfortheaffections,ofwoman’snatureandherdemeanourtowardsmewasperemptory,andoftenevenharsh。
Itisnottobesupposed,then,thatI
foundinthesocietyofmyparentsmuchtosupplythelossofmysister。Aboutayearafterhermarriage,wereceivedlettersfromMr。Carew,containingaccountsofmysister’shealth,which,thoughnotactuallyalarming,werecalculatedtomakeusseriouslyuneasy。Thesymptomsmostdweltuponwerelossofappetiteandcough。
Thelettersconcludedbyintimatingthathewouldavailhimselfofmyfatherandmother’srepeatedinvitationtospendsometimeatAshtown,particularlyasthephysicianwhohadbeenconsultedastomysister’shealthhadstronglyadvisedaremovaltohernativeair。
Therewereaddedrepeatedassurancesthatnothingseriouswasapprehended,asitwassupposedthataderangedstateoftheliverwastheonlysourceofthesymptomswhichatfirsthadseemedtointimateconsumption。
Inaccordancewiththisannouncement,mysisterandMr。CarewarrivedinDublin,whereoneofmyfather’scarriagesawaitedthem,inreadinesstostartuponwhateverdayorhourtheymightchoosefortheirdepartureItwasarrangedthatMr。Carewwas,assoonasthedayuponwhichtheyweretoleaveDublinwasdefinitelyfixed,towritetomyfather,whointendedthatthetwolaststagesshouldbeperformedbyhisownhorses,uponwhosespeedandsafetyfarmorereliancemightbeplacedthanuponthoseoftheordinarypost-horses,whichwereatthattime,almostwithoutexception,oftheveryworstorder。Thejourney,oneofaboutninetymiles,wastobedivided;thelargerportionbeingreservedforthesecondday。
OnSundayaletterreachedus,statingthatthepartywouldleaveDublinonMonday,and,induecourse,reachAshtownuponTuesdayevening。
Tuesdaycametheeveningclosedin,andyetnocarriage;darknesscameon,andstillnosignofourexpectedvisitors。
Hourafterhourpassedaway,anditwasnowpasttwelve;thenightwasremarkablycalm,scarceabreathstirring,sothatanysound,suchasthatproducedbytherapidmovementofavehicle,wouldhavebeenaudibleataconsiderabledistance。ForsomesuchsoundIwasfeverishlylistening。
Itwas,however,myfather’sruletoclosethehouseatnightfall,andthewindow-
shuttersbeingfastened,IwasunabletoreconnoitretheavenueasIwouldhavewished。Itwasnearlyoneo’clock,andwebeganalmosttodespairofseeingthemuponthatnight,whenIthoughtIdistinguishedthesoundofwheels,butsoremoteandfaintastomakemeatfirstveryuncertain。Thenoiseapproached;itbecamelouderandclearer;itstoppedforamoment。
Inowheardtheshrillscreamingoftherustyiron,astheavenue-gaterevolvedonitshinges;againcamethesoundofwheelsinrapidmotion。
’Itisthey,’saidI,startingup;’thecarriageisintheavenue。’
Weallstoodforafewmomentsbreathlesslylistening。Onthunderedthevehiclewiththespeedofawhirlwind;crackwentthewhip,andclatterwentthewheels,asitrattledovertheunevenpavementofthecourt。Ageneralandfuriousbarkingfromallthedogsaboutthehouse,haileditsarrival。
Wehurriedtothehallintimetohearthestepsletdownwiththesharpclangingnoisepeculiartotheoperation,andthehumofvoicesexertedinthebustleofarrival。
Thehall-doorwasnowthrownopen,andweallsteppedforthtogreetourvisitors。
Thecourtwasperfectlyempty;themoonwasshiningbroadlyandbrightlyuponallaround;nothingwastobeseenbutthetalltreeswiththeirlongspectralshadows,nowwetwiththedewsofmidnight。
Westoodgazingfromrighttoleft,asifsuddenlyawakenedfromadream;thedogswalkedsuspiciously,growlingandsnuffingaboutthecourt,andbytotallyandsuddenlyceasingtheirformerloudbarking,expressingthepredominanceoffear。
Westaredoneuponanotherinperplexityanddismay,andIthinkIneverbeheldmorepalefacesassembled。Bymyfather’sdirection,welookedabouttofindanythingwhichmightindicateoraccountforthenoisewhichwehadheard;butnosuchthingwastobeseen——eventhemirewhichlayupontheavenuewasundisturbed。
Wereturnedtothehouse,morepanic-struckthanIcandescribe。
Onthenextday,welearnedbyamessenger,whohadriddenhardthegreaterpartofthenight,thatmysisterwasdead。
OnSundayevening,shehadretiredtobedratherunwell,and,onMonday,herindispositiondeclareditselfunequivocallytobemalignantfever。Shebecamehourlyworseand,onTuesdaynight,alittleaftermidnight,sheexpired。[2]
[2]TheresiduarylegateeofthelateFrancesPurcell,whohasthehonourofselectingsuchofhislamentedoldfriend’smanuscriptsasmayappearfitforpublication,inorderthatthelorewhichtheycontainmayreachtheworldbeforescepticismandutilityhaverobbedourspeciesofthepreciousgiftofcredulity,andscornfullykickedbeforethem,ortrampledintoannihilationthoseharmlessfragmentsofpicturesquesuperstitionwhichitisourobjecttopreserve,hasbeensubjectedtothechargeofdealingtoolargelyinthemarvellous;andithasbeenhalfinsinuatedthatsuchishislovefordiablerie,thatheiscontenttowanderamileoutofhisway,inordertomeetafiendoragoblin,andthustosacrificeallregardfortruthandaccuracytotheidlehopeofaffrightingtheimagination,andthuspanderingtothebadtasteofhisreader。Hebegsleave,then,totakethisopportunityofassertinghisperfectinnocenceofallthecrimeslaidtohischarge,andtoassurehisreaderthatheneverPANDEREDTOHIS
BADTASTE,norwentoneinchoutofhiswaytointroducewitch,fairy,devil,ghost,oranyotherofthegrimfraternityoftheredoubtedRaw-head-and-bloody-bones。Hisprovince,touchingthesetales,hasbeenattendedwithnodifficultyandlittleresponsibility;indeed,heisaccountablefornothingmorethananalterationinthenamesofpersonsmentionedtherein,whensuchastepseemednecessary,andforanoccasionalnote,wheneverheconceiveditpossible,innocently,toedgeinaword。
ThesetaleshavebeenWRITTENDOWN,astheheadingofeachannounces,bytheRev。FrancisPurcell,P。P。,ofDrumcoolagh;andinalltheinstances,whicharemany,inwhichthepresentwriterhashadanopportunityofcomparingthemanuscriptofhisdepartedfriendwiththeactualtraditionswhicharecurrentamongstthefamilieswhosefortunestheypretendtoillustrate,hehasuniformlyfoundthatwhateverofsupernaturaloccurredinthestory,sofarfromhavingbeenexaggeratedbyhim,hadbeenrathersofteneddown,and,whereveritcouldbeattempted,accountedfor。
Imentionthiscircumstance,becauseitwasoneuponwhichathousandwildandfantasticalreportswerefounded,thoughonewouldhavethoughtthatthetruthscarcelyrequiredtobeimprovedupon;
andagain,becauseitproducedastrongandlastingeffectuponmyspirits,andindeed,Iaminclinedtothink,uponmycharacter。
Iwas,forseveralyearsafterthisoccurrence,longaftertheviolenceofmygriefsubsided,sowretchedlylow-spiritedandnervous,thatIcouldscarcelybesaidtolive;andduringthistime,habitsofindecision,arisingoutofalistlessacquiescenceinthewillofothers,afearofencounteringeventheslightestopposition,andadispositiontoshrinkfromwhatarecommonlycalledamusements,grewuponmesostrongly,thatIhavescarcelyevenyetaltogetherovercomethem。
WesawnothingmoreofMr。Carew。
HereturnedtoEnglandassoonasthemelancholyritesattendantupontheeventwhichIhavejustmentionedwereperformed;
andnotbeingaltogetherinconsolable,hemarriedagainwithintwoyears;
afterwhich,owingtotheremotenessofourrelativesituations,andothercircumstances,wegraduallylostsightofhim。
Iwasnowanonlychild;and,asmyeldersisterhaddiedwithoutissue,itwasevidentthat,intheordinarycourseofthings,myfather’sproperty,whichwasaltogetherinhispower,wouldgotome;
andtheconsequencewas,thatbeforeIwasfourteen,AshtownHousewasbesiegedbyahostofsuitors。However,whetheritwasthatIwastooyoung,orthatnoneoftheaspirantstomyhandstoodsufficientlyhighinrankorwealth,IwassufferedbybothparentstodoexactlyasIpleased;andwellwasitforme,asIafterwardsfound,thatfortune,orratherProvidence,hadsoordainedit,thatIhadnotsufferedmyaffectionstobecomeinanydegreeengaged,formymotherwouldneverhavesufferedanySILLYFANCYofmine,asshewasinthehabitofstylinganattachment,tostandinthewayofherambitiousviews——
viewswhichshewasdeterminedtocarryintoeffect,indefianceofeveryobstacle,andinordertoaccomplishwhichshewouldnothavehesitatedtosacrificeanythingsounreasonableandcontemptibleasagirlishpassion。
WhenIreachedtheageofsixteen,mymother’splansbegantodevelopthem-
selves;and,athersuggestion,wemovedtoDublintosojournforthewinter,inorderthatnotimemightbelostindisposingofmetothebestadvantage。
Ihadbeentoolongaccustomedtoconsidermyselfasofnoimportancewhatever,tobelieveforamomentthatIwasinrealitythecauseofallthebustleandpreparationwhichsurroundedme,andbeingthusrelievedfromthepainwhichaconsciousnessofmyrealsituationwouldhaveinflicted,Ijourneyedtowardsthecapitalwithafeelingoftotalindifference。
Myfather’swealthandconnectionhadestablishedhiminthebestsociety,and,consequently,uponourarrivalinthemetropoliswecommandedwhateverenjoymentoradvantagesitsgaietiesafforded。
ThetumultandnoveltyofthescenesinwhichIwasinvolveddidnotfailcon-
siderablytoamuseme,andmymindgraduallyrecovereditstone,whichwasnaturallycheerful。
ItwasalmostimmediatelyknownandreportedthatIwasanheiress,andofcoursemyattractionswereprettygenerallyacknowledged。
Amongthemanygentlemenwhomitwasmyfortunetoplease,one,erelong,establishedhimselfinmymother’sgoodgraces,totheexclusionofalllessimportantaspirants。However,Ihadnotunderstoodorevenremarkedhisattentions,norintheslightestdegreesuspectedhisormymother’splansrespectingme,whenI
wasmadeawareofthemratherabruptlybymymotherherself。
Wehadattendedasplendidball,givenbyLordM——,athisresidenceinStephen’sGreen,andIwas,withtheassist-
anceofmywaiting-maid,employedinrapidlydivestingmyselfoftherichornamentswhich,inprofusenessandvalue,couldscarcelyhavefoundtheirequalsinanyprivatefamilyinIreland。
Ihadthrownmyselfintoalounging-
chairbesidethefire,listlessandexhausted,afterthefatiguesoftheevening,whenI
wasarousedfromthereverieintowhichI
hadfallenbythesoundoffootstepsapproachingmychamber,andmymotherentered。
’Fanny,mydear,’saidshe,inhersoftesttone,’IwishtosayawordortwowithyoubeforeIgotorest。Youarenotfatigued,love,Ihope?’
’No,no,madam,Ithankyou,’saidI,risingatthesametimefrommyseat,withtheformalrespectsolittlepractisednow。
’Sitdown,mydear,’saidshe,placingherselfuponachairbesideme;’Imustchatwithyouforaquarterofanhourorso。
Saunders’tothemaid’youmayleavetheroom;donotclosetheroom-door,butshutthatofthelobby。’
Thisprecautionagainstcuriousearshavingbeentakenasdirected,mymotherproceeded。
’Youhaveobserved,Ishouldsuppose,mydearestFanny——indeed,youMUSThaveobservedLordGlenfallen’smarkedattentionstoyou?’
’Iassureyou,madam——’Ibegan。
’Well,well,thatisallright,’interruptedmymother;’ofcourseyoumustbemodestuponthematter;butlistentomeforafewmoments,mylove,andIwillprovetoyoursatisfactionthatyourmodestyisquiteunnecessaryinthiscase。Youhavedonebetterthanwecouldhavehoped,atleastsoverysoon。LordGlenfallenisinlovewithyou。Igiveyoujoyofyourconquest;’andsayingthis,mymotherkissedmyforehead。
’Inlovewithme!’Iexclaimed,inunfeignedastonishment。
’Yes,inlovewithyou,’repeatedmymother;’devotedly,distractedlyinlovewithyou。Why,mydear,whatistherewonderfulinit?Lookintheglass,andlookatthese,’shecontinued,pointingwithasmiletothejewelswhichIhadjustremovedfrommyperson,andwhichnowlayaglitteringheapuponthetable。
’Maytherenot,’saidI,hesitatingbetweenconfusionandrealalarm——’isitnotpossiblethatsomemistakemaybeatthebottomofallthis?’
’Mistake,dearest!none,’saidmymother。’None;noneintheworld。Judgeforyourself;readthis,mylove。’Andsheplacedinmyhandaletter,addressedtoherself,thesealofwhichwasbroken。I
readitthroughwithnosmallsurprise。
Aftersomeveryfinecomplimentaryflourishesuponmybeautyandperfections,asalsoupontheantiquityandhighreputationofourfamily,itwentontomakeaformalproposalofmarriage,tobecommunicatedornottomeatpresent,asmymothershoulddeemexpedient;andtheletterwoundupbyarequestthatthewritermightbepermitted,uponourreturntoAshtownHouse,whichwassoontotakeplace,asthespringwasnowtolerablyadvanced,tovisitusforafewdays,incasehissuitwasapproved。
’Well,well,mydear,’saidmymother,impatiently;’doyouknowwhoLordGlenfallenis?’
’Ido,madam,’saidIrathertimidly,forIdreadedanaltercationwithmymother。