首页 >出版文学> LADY CHATTERLEY’S LOVER>第28章
  Themanlayflatonhisstomachonthefloor,hisneckpressedback,wrigglingundertheengineandpokingwithhisfinger。Conniethoughtwhatapatheticsortofthingamanwas,feebleandsmall-looking,whenhewaslyingonhisbellyonthebigearth。
  `SeemsallrightasfarasIcansee,’camehismuffledvoice。
  `Idon’tsupposeyoucandoanything,’saidClifford。
  `SeemsasifIcan’t!’Andhescrambledupandsatonhisheels,collierfashion。`There’scertainlynothingobviouslybroken。’
  Cliffordstartedhisengine,thenputheringear。Shewouldnotmove。
  `Runherabithard,like,’suggestedthekeeper。
  Cliffordresentedtheinterference:buthemadehisenginebuzzlikeablue-bottle。Thenshecoughedandsnarledandseemedtogobetter。
  `Soundsasifshe’dcomeclear,’saidMellors。
  ButCliffordhadalreadyjerkedherintogear。Shegaveasicklurchandebbedweaklyforwards。
  `IfIgiveherapush,she’lldoit,’saidthekeeper,goingbehind。
  `Keepoff!’snappedClifford。`She’lldoitbyherself。’
  `ButClifford!’putinConniefromthebank,`youknowit’stoomuchforher。Whyareyousoobstinate!’
  Cliffordwaspalewithanger。Hejabbedathislevers。Thechairgaveasortofscurry,reeledonafewmoreyards,andcametoherendamidaparticularlypromisingpatchofbluebells。
  `She’sdone!’saidthekeeper。`Notpowerenough。’
  `She’sbeenupherebefore,’saidCliffordcoldly。
  `Shewon’tdoitthistime,’saidthekeeper。
  Clifforddidnotreply。Hebegandoingthingswithhisengine,runningherfastandslowasiftogetsomesortoftuneoutofher。Thewoodre-echoedwithweirdnoises。Thenheputheringearwithajerk,havingjerkedoffhisbrake。
  `You’llripherinsideout,’murmuredthekeeper。
  Thechairchargedinasicklurchsidewaysattheditch。
  `Clifford!’criedConnie,rushingforward。
  Butthekeeperhadgotthechairbytherail。Clifford,however,puttingonallhispressure,managedtosteerintotheriding,andwithastrangenoisethechairwasfightingthehill。Mellorspushedsteadilybehind,andupshewent,asiftoretrieveherself。
  `Yousee,she’sdoingit!’saidClifford,victorious,glancingoverhisshoulder。Therehesawthekeeper’sface。
  `Areyoupushingher?’
  `Shewon’tdoitwithout。’
  `Leaveheralone。Iaskedyounot。
  `Shewon’tdoit。’
  `Lethertry!’snarledClifford,withallhisemphasis。
  Thekeeperstoodback:thenturnedtofetchhiscoatandgun。Thechairseemedtostrangeimmediately。Shestoodinert。Clifford,seatedaprisoner,waswhitewithvexation。Hejerkedattheleverswithhishand,hisfeetwerenogood。Hegotqueernoisesoutofher。Insavageimpatiencehemovedlittlehandlesandgotmorenoisesoutofher。Butshewouldnotbudge。
  No,shewouldnotbudge。Hestoppedtheengineandsatrigidwithanger。
  Constancesatonthebankaridlookedatthewretchedandtrampledbluebells。
  `NothingquitesolovelyasanEnglishspring。’`Icandomyshareofruling。’
  `Whatweneedtotakeupnowiswhips,notswords。’`Therulingclasses!’
  Thekeeperstrodeupwithhiscoatandgun,Flossiecautiouslyathisheels。Cliffordaskedthemantodosomethingorothertotheengine。Connie,whounderstoodnothingatallofthetechnicalitiesofmotors,andwhohadhadexperienceofbreakdowns,satpatientlyonthebankasifshewereacipher。Thekeeperlayonhisstomachagain。Therulingclassesandtheservingclasses!
  Hegottohisfeetandsaidpatiently:
  `Tryheragain,then。’
  Hespokeinaquietvoice,almostasiftoachild。
  Cliffordtriedher,andMellorssteppedquicklybehindandbegantopush。Shewasgoing,theenginedoingabouthalfthework,themantherest。
  Cliffordglancedround,yellowwithanger。
  `Willyougetoffthere!’
  Thekeeperdroppedhisholdatonce,andCliffordadded:`HowshallIknowwhatsheisdoing!’
  Themanputhisgundownandbegantopullonhiscoat。He’ddone。
  Thechairbeganslowlytorunbackwards。
  `Clifford,yourbrake!’criedConnie。
  She,Mellors,andCliffordmovedatonce,Connieandthekeeperjostlinglightly。Thechairstood。Therewasamomentofdeadsilence。
  `It’sobviousI’mateverybody’smercy!’saidClifford。Hewasyellowwithanger。
  Nooneanswered。Mellorswasslinginghisgunoverhisshoulder,hisfacequeerandexpressionless,saveforanabstractedlookofpatience。
  ThedogFlossie,standingonguardalmostbetweenhermaster’slegs,moveduneasily,eyeingthechairwithgreatsuspicionanddislike,andverymuchperplexedbetweenthethreehumanbeings。Thetableauvivantremainedsetamongthesquashedbluebells,nobodyprofferingaword。
  `Iexpectshe’llhavetobepushed,’saidCliffordatlast,withanaffectationofsangfroid。
  Noanswer。Mellors’abstractedfacelookedasifhehadheardnothing。
  Connieglancedanxiouslyathim。Cliffordtooglancedround。
  `Doyoumindpushingherhome,Mellors!’hesaidinacoolsuperiortone。`IhopeIhavesaidnothingtooffendyou,’headded,inatoneofdislike。
  `Nothingatall,SirClifford!Doyouwantmetopushthatchair?’
  `Ifyouplease。’
  Themansteppeduptoit:butthistimeitwaswithouteffect。Thebrakewasjammed。Theypokedandpulled,andthekeepertookoffhisgunandhiscoatoncemore。AndnowCliffordsaidneveraword。Atlastthekeeperheavedthebackofthechairoffthegroundand,withaninstantaneouspushofhisfoot,triedtoloosenthewheels。Hefailed,thechairsank。
  Cliffordwasclutchingthesides。Themangaspedwiththeweight。
  `Don’tdoit!’criedConnietohim。
  `Ifyou’llpullthewheelthatway,so!’hesaidtoher,showingherhow。
  `No!Youmustn’tliftit!You’llstrainyourself,’shesaid,flushednowwithanger。
  Buthelookedintohereyesandnodded。Andshehadtogoandtakeholdofthewheel,ready。Heheavedandshetugged,andthechairreeled。
  `ForGod’ssake!’criedCliffordinterror。
  Butitwasallright,andthebrakewasoff。Thekeeperputastoneunderthewheel,andwenttositonthebank,hisheartbeatandhisfacewhitewiththeeffort,semi-conscious。
  Connielookedathim,andalmostcriedwithanger。Therewasapauseandadeadsilence。Shesawhishandstremblingonhisthighs。
  `Haveyouhurtyourself?’sheasked,goingtohim。
  `No。No!’Heturnedawayalmostangrily。
  Therewasdeadsilence。ThebackofClifford’sfairheaddidnotmove。
  Eventhedogstoodmotionless。Theskyhadcloudedover。
  Atlasthesighed,andblewhisnoseonhisredhandkerchief。
  `Thatpneumoniatookalotoutofme,’hesaid。
  Nooneanswered。ConniecalculatedtheamountofstrengthitmusthavetakentoheaveupthatchairandthebulkyClifford:toomuch,fartoomuch!Ifithadn’tkilledhim!
  Herose,andagainpickeduphiscoat,slingingitthroughthehandleofthechair。
  `Areyouready,then,SirClifford?’
  `Whenyouare!’
  Hestoopedandtookoutthescotch,thenputhisweightagainstthechair。HewaspalerthanConniehadeverseenhim:andmoreabsent。Cliffordwasaheavyman:andthehillwassteep。Conniesteppedtothekeeper’sside。
  `I’mgoingtopushtoo!’shesaid。
  Andshebegantoshovewithawoman’sturbulentenergyofanger。Thechairwentfaster。Cliffordlookedround。
  `Isthatnecessary?’hesaid。
  `Very!Doyouwanttokilltheman!Ifyou’dletthemotorworkwhileitwould——’
  Butshedidnotfinish。Shewasalreadypanting。Sheslackenedoffalittle,foritwassurprisinglyhardwork。
  `Ay!slower!’saidthemanatherside,withafaintsmileofhiseyes。
  `Areyousureyou’venothurtyourself?’shesaidfiercely。
  Heshookhishead。Shelookedathissmallish,short,alivehand,brownedbytheweather。Itwasthehandthatcaressedher。Shehadneverevenlookedatitbefore。Itseemedsostill,likehim,withacuriousinwardstillnessthatmadeherwanttoclutchit,asifshecouldnotreachit。Allhersoulsuddenlyswepttowardshim:hewassosilent,andoutofreach!Andhefelthislimbsrevive。Shovingwithhislefthand,helaidhisrightonherroundwhitewrist,softlyenfoldingherwrist,withacaress。Andtheflameofstrengthwentdownhisbackandhisloins,revivinghim。Andshebentsuddenlyandkissedhishand。MeanwhilethebackofClifford’sheadwasheldsleekandmotionless,justinfrontofthem。
  Atthetopofthehilltheyrested,andConniewasgladtoletgo。Shehadhadfugitivedreamsoffriendshipbetweenthesetwomen:oneherhusband,theotherthefatherofherchild。Nowshesawthescreamingabsurdityofherdreams。Thetwomaleswereashostileasfireandwater。Theymutuallyexterminatedoneanother。Andsherealizedforthefirsttimewhataqueersubtlethinghateis。Forthefirsttime,shehadconsciouslyanddefinitelyhatedClifford,withvividhate:asifheoughttobeobliteratedfromthefaceoftheearth。Anditwasstrange,howfreeandfulloflifeitmadeherfeel,tohatehimandtoadmititfullytoherself——`NowI’vehatedhim,Ishallneverbeabletogoonlivingwithhim,’camethethoughtintohermind。
  Onthelevelthekeepercouldpushthechairalone。Cliffordmadealittleconversationwithher,toshowhiscompletecomposure:aboutAuntEva,whowasatDieppe,andaboutSirMalcolm,whohadwrittentoaskwouldConniedrivewithhiminhissmallcar,toVenice,orwouldsheandHildagobytrain。
  `I’dmuchrathergobytrain,’saidConnie。`Idon’tlikelongmotordrives,especiallywhenthere’sdust。ButIshallseewhatHildawants。’
  `Shewillwanttodriveherowncar,andtakeyouwithher,’hesaid。
  `Probably!——Imusthelpuphere。You’venoideahowheavythischairis。’
  Shewenttothebackofthechair,andploddedsidebysidewiththekeeper,shovingupthepinkpath。Shedidnotcarewhosaw。
  `Whynotletmewait,andfetchField?Heisstrongenoughforthejob,’
  saidClifford。
  `It’ssonear,’shepanted。
  ButbothsheandMellorswipedthesweatfromtheirfaceswhentheycametothetop。Itwascurious,butthisbitofworktogetherhadbroughtthemmuchcloserthantheyhadbeenbefore。
  `Thankssomuch,Mellors,’saidClifford,whentheywereatthehousedoor。`Imustgetadifferentsortofmotor,that’sall。Won’tyougotothekitchenandhaveameal?Itmustbeabouttime。’
  `Thankyou,SirClifford。Iwasgoingtomymotherfordinnertoday,Sunday。’
  `Asyoulike。’
  Mellorsslungintohiscoat,lookedatConnie,saluted,andwasgone。
  Connie,furious,wentupstairs。
  Atlunchshecouldnotcontainherfeeling。
  `Whyareyousoabominablyinconsiderate,Clifford?’shesaidtohim。
  `Ofwhom?’
  `Ofthekeeper!Ifthatiswhatyoucallrulingclasses,I’msorryforyou。’
  `Why?’
  `Amanwho’sbeenill,andisn’tstrong!Myword,ifIweretheservingclasses,I’dletyouwaitforservice。I’dletyouwhistle。’
  `Iquitebelieveit。’
  `Ifhe’dbeensittinginachairwithparalysedlegs,andbehavedasyoubehaved,whatwouldyouhavedoneforhim?’
  `Mydearevangelist,thisconfusingofpersonsandpersonalitiesisinbadtaste。’
  `Andyournasty,sterilewantofcommonsympathyisintheworsttasteimaginable。Noblesseoblige!Youandyourrulingclass!’
  `Andtowhatshoulditobligeme?Tohavealotofunnecessaryemotionsaboutmygame-keeper?Irefuse。Ileaveitalltomyevangelist。’
  `Asifheweren’tamanasmuchasyouare,myword!’
  `Mygame-keepertoboot,andIpayhimtwopoundsaweekandgivehimahouse。’
  `Payhim!Whatdoyouthinkyoupayfor,withtwopoundsaweekandahouse?’
  `Hisservices。’
  `Bah!Iwouldtellyoutokeepyourtwopoundsaweekandyourhouse。’
  `Probablyhewouldliketo:butcan’taffordtheluxury!’
  `You,andrule!’shesaid。`Youdon’trule,don’tflatteryourself。
  Youhaveonlygotmorethanyourshareofthemoney,andmakepeopleworkforyoufortwopoundsaweek,orthreatenthemwithstarvation。Rule!
  Whatdoyougiveforthofrule?Why,youredriedup!Youonlybullywithyourmoney,likeanyJeworanySchieber!’
  `Youareveryelegantinyourspeech,LadyChatterley!’
  `Iassureyou,youwereveryelegantaltogetheroutthereinthewood。
  Iwasutterlyashamedofyou。Why,myfatheristentimesthehumanbeingyouare:yougentleman!’
  HereachedandrangthebellforMrsBolton。Buthewasyellowatthegills。
  Shewentuptoherroom,furious,sayingtoherself:`Himandbuyingpeople!Well,hedoesn’tbuyme,andthereforethere’snoneedformetostaywithhim。Deadfishofagentleman,withhiscelluloidsoul!Andhowtheytakeonein,withtheirmannersandtheirmockwistfulnessandgentleness。
  They’vegotaboutasmuchfeelingascelluloidhas。’
  Shemadeherplansforthenight,anddeterminedtogetCliffordoffhermind。Shedidn’twanttohatehim。Shedidn’twanttobemixedupveryintimatelywithhiminanysortoffeeling。Shewantedhimnottoknowanythingatallaboutherself:andespecially,nottoknowanythingaboutherfeelingforthekeeper。Thissquabbleofherattitudetotheservantswasanoldone。Hefoundhertoofamiliar,shefoundhimstupidlyinsentient,toughandindiarubberywhereotherpeoplewereconcerned。
  Shewentdownstairscalmly,withherolddemurebearing,atdinner-time。
  Hewasstillyellowatthegills:inforoneofhisliverbouts,whenhewasreallyveryqueer——HewasreadingaFrenchbook。
  `HaveyoueverreadProust?’heaskedher。
  `I’vetried,butheboresme。’
  `He’sreallyveryextraordinary。’
  `Possibly!Butheboresme:allthatsophistication!Hedoesn’thavefeelings,heonlyhasstreamsofwordsaboutfeelings。I’mtiredofself-importantmentalities。’