saysshe,ratherquick。“’Aye,butyoungwoman,it’soneofyournightcapsIwant。Th’babbyseemstohavetakenamindtoyo;andmaybeinth’darkitmighttakemeforyoifI’dgettenyournightcapon。’“Thechambermaidsmirkedandwentforacap,butIlaughedoutrightatth’oudbeardedchapthinkinghe’dmakehissellikeawomanjustbyputtingonawoman’scap。Howe’erhe’dnotbelaughedouton’t,soIheldth’babbytillhewereinbed。Suchanightaswehadonit!Babbybegantoscreamo’th’oudfashion,andwetookitturnandturnabouttositupandrockit。Myheartwereverysoreforth’littleone,asitgropedaboutwi’
itsmouth;butfora’thatIcouldscarcekeepfra’smilingatth’thoughto’ustwooudchaps,th’onewi’awoman’snightcapon,sittingonourhinderendsforhalfth’night,hushabyingababbyaswouldn’tbehushabied。
Towardmorning,poorlittlewench!itfellasleep,fairlytiredoutwi’
crying,buteveninitssleepitgavesuchpitifulsobs,quiveringupfra’
theverybottomofitslittleheart,thatonceortwiceIalmostwisheditlayonitsmother’sbreast,atpeaceforever。Jenningsfellasleeptoo;butIbeganfortoreckonupourmoney。Itwerelittleenoughwehadleft,ourdinnerthedayaforehadta’ensomuch。Ididn’tknowwhatourreckoningwouldbeforthatnightlodging,andsupper,andbreakfast。Doingasumalwayssentmeasleepeversin’Iwerealad;soIfellsoundinashorttime,andwereonlywakenedbychambermaidtappingatth’door,tosayshe’ddressthebabbyaforehermissiswereupifweliked。Butblessyo,we’dneverthoughto’undressingitth’nightafore,andnowitweresleepingsosound,andweweresoglado’thepeaceandquietness,thatwethoughtitwerenogoodtowakenituptoscreechagain。“Well!there’sMaryasleepforagoodlistener!Isupposeyou’regettingwearyofmytale,soI’llnotbelongoverendingit。Th’reckoningleftusverybare,andwethoughtwe’dbestwalkhome,foritwereon]ysixtymile,theytelledus,andnotstopagainfornought,savevictuals。SoweleftBrummagemwhichisasblackaplaceasManchester,withoutlookingsolikehome,andwalkeda’thatday,carryingbabbyturnandturnabout。
Itwerewellfedbychamber-maidaforeweleft,andth’daywerefine,andfolkbegantohavesomeknowledgeo’th’properwayo’speaking,andweweremorecheeryatthoughtso’homethoughmine,Godknows,werelonesomeenough。Westoppednonefordinner,butatbaggin-timewegettenagoodmealatapublic-house,an’fedth’babbyaswellaswecould,butthatwerebutpoorly。Wegotacrusttooforittosuck——chambermaidputusuptothat。Thatnight,whetherweweretiredorwhatten,Idon’tknow,butitweredreework,andth’poorlittlewenchhadsleptouthersleep,andbeganth’cryasworemyheartoutagain。SaysJennings,sayshe,“’Weshouldnaha’setoutsolikegentlefolkatopo’thecoachyesterday。’“’Nay,lad!Weshouldha’hadmoretowalkifwehadnaridden,andI’msurebothyouandI’sewearyo’tramping。’“Sohewerequietabit。Buthewereoneo’themasweresuretofindoutsomewhathadbeendoneamisswhentherewerenogoingbacktoundoit。
Sopresentlybecoughs,asifheweregoingtospeak,andIsaystomyself,’Atitagain,mylad。’Sayshe,“’Iaxpardon,neighbour,butitstrikesmeitwouldha’beenbetterformysonifhehadneverbeguntokeepcompanywi’yourdaughter。’“Well!thatputmeup,andmyheartgotveryfull,andbutthatIwerecarryingherbabby,IthinkIshouldha’struckhim。AtlastIcouldholdinnolonger,andsaysI,“’Bettersayatonceitwouldha’beenbetterforGodnevertoha’madeth’world,forthenwe’dneverha’beeninit,tohavehadth’heavyheartswehavenow。’“Well!hesaidthatwererankblasphemy;butJthoughthiswayofcastingupagainth’eventsGodhadpleasedtosend,wereworseblasphemy。Howe’er,Isaidnoughtmoreangry,forth’littlebabby’ssake,aswereth“childo’hisdeadson,aswellaso’mydeaddaughter。“Th’longestlanewillhaveaturning,andthatnightcametoanendatlast;andwewerefootsoreandtiredenough,andtomymindthebabbyweregettingweakerandweaker,anditwrungmyhearttohearitslittlewail!
I’dha’givenmyrighthandforoneofyesterday’sheartycries。Wewerewantingourbreakfasts,andsowereittoo,motherlessbabby!Wecouldseenopublic-house,soaboutsixo’clockonlywethoughtitwerelater
westoppedatacottage,whereawomanweremovingaboutnearth’opendoor。’SaysI,’Goodwoman,maywerestusabit?’’Comein,’saysshe,wipingachair,aslookedbrightenoughafore,wi’herapron。Itwereacheery,cleanroom;andweweregladtositdownagain,thoughIthoughtmylegswouldneverbendatth’knees。Inaminuteshefellanoticingth’babby,andtookitinherarms,andkisseditagainandagain。’Missis,’
saysI,’we’renotwithoutmoney,andifyo’dgiveussomewhatforbreakfast,we’dpayyohonest,andifyowouldwashanddressthatpoorbabby,andgetsomepobbiesdownitsthroat,forit’swell-nighclemmed,I’dprayforyoutillmydyingday。“Soshesaidnought,butgivedmeth’babbyback,andaforeyoucouldsayJackRobinson,she’dapanonth’fire,andbreadandcheeseonth’table。Whensheturnedround,herfacelookedred,andherlipsweretightpressedtogether。Wellwewererightdowngladonourbreakfast,andGodblessandrewardthatwomanforherkindnessthatday!shefedth’poorbabbyasgentlyandsoftly,andspoketoitastenderlyasitsownpoormothercouldha’done。itseemedasifthatstrangerandithadknowneachotherafore,maybeinHeaven,wherefolk’sspiritscomefrom,theysay;th’babbylookedupsolovinglyinhereyes,andmadelittlenoisesmorelikeadovethanaughtelse。Thensheundresseditpoordarling!itweretime,touchingitsosoftly;andwasheditfromheadtofoot;andasmanyonitsclothesweredirtyandwhatbitso’thingsitsmotherhadgottenreadyforithadbeensentbyth’carrierfra’London,sheput’emaside;andwrappinglittlenakedbabbyinherapron,shepulledoutakey,aswerefastenedtoablackribbon,andhungdownherbreast,andunlockedadrawerinth’dresser。Iweresorrytobeprying,butI
couldnahelpseeinginthatdrawersomelittlechild’sclothes,allstrewedwi’lavender,andlyingby’emalittlewhipan’abrokenrattle。Ibegantohaveaninsightintothatwoman’sheartthen。Shetookoutathingortwo,andlockedthedrawer,andwentondressingbabby。Justaboutthencomeherhusbanddown,agreatbigfellowasdidn’tlookhalfawake,thoughitweregettinglate;buthe’dheardallashadbeensaiddownstairs,aswereplaintobeseen;buthewereagruffchap。We’dfinishedourbreakfast,andJenningswerelookinghardatth’womanassheweregettingthebabbytosleepwi’asortofrockingway。Atlengthsayshe,’Iha’learntthewaynow;it’stwojiggitsandashake,twojiggitsandashake。Icangetthatbabbyasleepnowmysel。’“Themanhadnoddedcrossenoughtous,andhadgonetoth’door,andstoodtherewhistlingwi’hishandsinhisbreeches-pockets,lookingabroad。
Butatlastheturnsandsays,quitesharp:“’Isay,missis,I’mtohavenobreakfastto-day,I’spose。“Sowi’thatshekissedth’child,along,softkiss;andlookinginmyfacetoseeifIcouldtakehermeaning,gavemeth’babbywithoutaword。
Iwereloathtostir,butIsawitwerebettertogo。SogivingJenningsasharpnudgeforhe’dfallenasleep,Isays,’Missis,what’stopay?’
pullingoutmymoneywi’ajinglethatshemightnaguesswewereatallbareo’cash。Soshelooksatherhusband,whosaidne’eraword,butwerelisteningwithallhisearsnevertheless;andwhenshesawhewouldnasay,shesaid,hesitating,asifpulledtwoways,byherfearo’him,’Shouldyouthinksixpenceovermuch?’Itweresodifferenttopublic-housereckoning,forwe’deatenamaindealaforethechapcamedown。SosaysI,’Andmissis,whatshouldwegieyouforthebabby’sbreadandmilk?’Ihaditonceinmymindtosay’andfora’yourtroublewithit,’butmyheartwouldnaletmesayit,forIcouldreadinherwayshowithadbeenaworko’
love。Sosaysshe,quitequick,andstealingalookatherhusband’sback,aslookedallear,ifeverabackdid,’Oh,wecouldtakenoughtforthelittlebabby’sfood,ifithadeatentwiceasmuch,blessit。’Wi’thathelookedather;suchascowlinglook!Sheknewwhathemeant,andsteppedsoftlyacrossthefloortohim,andputherhandonisarm。Heseem’dasthoughhe’dshakeitoffbyajerkonhiselbow,butshesaidquitelow,’ForpoorlittleJohnny’ssake,Richard。’Hedidnotmoveorspeakagain,andafterlookinginhisfaceforaminute,sheturnedaway,swallowingdeepinherthroat。Shekissedth’sleepingbabbyasshepassed,whenI
paidher。Toquietenth’gruffhusband,andstophimifheratedher,I
couldnahelpslippinganothersixpenceunderth’loaf,andthenwesetoffagain。LastlookIhad’o’thatwomanshewerequietlywipinghereyeswi’thecornerofherapron,asshewentaboutherhusband’sbreakfastButIshallknowherinheaven。“Hestoppedtothinkofthatlong-agoMaymorning,whenhehadcarriedhisgranddaughterunderthedistanthedge-rowsandbeneaththefloweringsycamores。“There’snoughtmoretosay,wench,“saidhetoMargaret,asshebeggedhimtogoon。“ThatnightwereachedManchester,andI’dfoundoutthatJenningswouldbegladenoughtogiveupbabbytome,soItookherhomeatonce,andablessingshe’sbeentome。“Theywereallsilentforafewminutes;eachfollowingoutthecurrentoftheirthoughts。Then,almostsimultaneously,theirattentionfelluponMary。Sittingonherlittlestool,herheadrestingonherfather’sknee,andsleepingassoundlyasanyinfant,herbreathstilllikeaninfant’s
cameandwentassoftlyasabirdstealstoherleafynest。Herhalf-openmouthwasasscarletasthewinter-berries,andcontrastedfinelywiththeclearpalenessofhercomplexion,wheretheeloquentbloodflushedcarnationateachemotion。Herblackeye-lasheslayonthedelicatecheek,whichwasstillmoreshadedbythemassesofhergoldenhair,thatseemedtoformanest-likepillowforherasshelay。Herfatherinfondpridestraightenedoneglossycurl,foraninstant,asiftodisplayitslengthandsilkiness。Thelittleactionawokeher,and,likenineoutoftenpeopleinsimilarcircumstances,sheexclaimed,openinghereyestotheirfullestextent,“I’mnotasleep。I’vebeenawakeallthetime。“Evenherfathercouldnotkeepfromsmiling,andJobLeghandMargaretlaughedoutright。“Come,wench,“saidJob,“don’tlooksogloppenedbecausethou’stfallenasleepwhileanoudchaplikemewastalkingonoudtimes。Itwerelikeenoughtosendtheetosleep。TryifthoucanstkeepthineeyesopenwhileIreadthyfatherabitonapoemasiswrittenbyaweaverlikeoursel。
ArarechapI’llbeboundishewhocouldweaveverselikethis。“Soadjustinghisspectaclesonnose,cockinghischin,crossinghislegs,andcoughingtoclearhisvoice,hereadaloudalittlepoemofSamuelBamford’shehadpickedupsomewhere。Godhelpthepoor,who,onthiswintrymorn,Comeforthfromalleysdimandcourtsobscure。Godhelpyonpoorpalegirl,whodroopsforlorn,Andmeeklyherafflictiondothendure;Godhelpher,outcastlamb;shetremblingstands,Allwanherlips,andfrozenredherhands;Hersunkeneyesaremodestlydowncast,Hernight-blackhairstreamsonthefitfulblast,Herbosom,passingfair,ishalfrevealed,Andoh!socold,thesnowliestherecongealed;Herfeetbenumbed,hershoesallrentandworn,Godhelpthee,outcastlamb,whostandstforlorn!Godhelpthepoor!Godhelpthepoor!Aninfant’sfeeblewailComesfromyonnarrowgateway,andbehold!Afemalecrouchingthere,sodeathlypale,Huddlingherchild,toscreenitfromthecold,Hervesturescant,herbonnetcrushedandtorn;Athinshawldothherbabydearenfold:Andsoshe’bidestheruthlessgaleofmorn,Whichalmosttoherhearthathsentitscold,Andnowshe,sudden,dartsaraveninglook,Asone,withnewhotbread,goespastthenook,And,asthetemptingloadisonwardhome,Sheweeps。Godhelpthee,helplessone,forlorn!Godhelpthepoor!Godhelpthepoor!Beholdyonfamishedlad,Noshoes,norhose,hiswoundedfeetprotect;Withlimpinggait,andlookssodreamysad,Hewandersonward,stoppingtoinspectEachwindow,storedwitharticlesoffood。Heyearnsbuttoenjoyonecheeringmeal;Oh!tothehungrypalateviandsrude,Wouldyieldazestthefamishedonlyfeel!Henowdevoursacrustofmouldybread,Withteethandhandsthepreciousboonistorn;UnmindfulofthestormthatroundhisheadImpetuoussweeps。Godhelpthee,childforlorn!Godhelpthepoor!Godhelpthepoor!AnotherhaveIfound——Abowedandvenerablemanishe,Hisslouchedhatwithfadedcrapeisbound;Hiscoatisgrey,andthreadbaretoo,Isee。“Therudewinds“seem“tomockhishoaryhair“;
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