Hisshirtlessbosomtotheblastisbare。Anonheturnsandcastsawistfuleye,Andwithscantnapkinwipestheblindingspray;Andlooksaround,asifhefainwouldspyFriendshehadfeastedinhisbetterday:Ah!somearedead;andsomehavelongforborneToknowthepoor;andheisleftforlorn!Godhelpthepoor!Godhelpthepoor,whoinlonevalleysdwell,Orbyfarhills,wherewhinandheathergrow;Theirsisastorysadindeedtotell;Yetlittlecarestheworld,andless’twouldknowAboutthetoilandwantmenundergo。Thewearyingloomdothcallthemupatmorn;Theyworktillworn-outnaturesinkstosleep;Theytaste,butarenotfed。ThesnowdriftsdeepAroundthefirelesscot,andblocksthedoor;Thenightstormhowlsadirgeacrossthemoor;Andshalltheyperishthus——oppressedandlorn?Shalltoilandfamine,hopeless,stillbeborne?No!Godwillyetariseandhelpthepoor!“Amen!“saidBarton,solemnlyandsorrowfully。“Mary!wench,couldstthoucopymethemlines,dostthink?——that’stosay,ifJobtherehasnoobjection。““NotI。Morethey’reheardandreadthebetter,sayI。“SoMarytookthepaper。Andthenextday,onablankhalfsheetofavalentine,allborderedwithheartsanddarts——avalentineshehadoncesuspectedtocomefromJemWilson——shecopiedBamford’sbeautifullittlepoem。
Myheart,oncesoftaswoman’stear,isgnarledWithgloatingontheillsIcannotcure。ELLIOTT。Thenguardandshieldherinnocence,Lethernotfalllikeme;’Twerebetter,oh!athousandtimes,Sheinhergraveshouldbe。TheOutcast。Despairsettleddownlikeaheavycloud;andnowandthen,throughthedeadcalmofsufferings,camepipingsofstormywinds,foretellingtheendofthesedarkprognostics。Intimesofsorrowfulorfierceendurance,weareoftensoothedbythemererepetitionofoldproverbswhichtelltheexperienceofourforefathers;butnow,“it’salonglanethathasnoturning,““theweariestdaydrawstoanend,etc。,seemedfalseandvainsayings,solongandsowearywasthepressureoftheterribletimes。
Deeperanddeeperstillsankthepoor;itshowedhowmuchlingeringsufferingittakestokillmen,thatsofewincomparisondiedduringthosetimes。
But,remember!weonlymissthosewhodomen’sworkintheirhumblesphere;
theaged,thefeeble,thechildren,whentheydie,arehardlynotedbytheworld;andyettomanyhearts,theirdeathsmakeablankwhichlongyearswillneverfillup。Remember,too,thatthoughitmaytakemuchsufferingtokilltheable-bodiedandeffectivemembersofsociety,itdoesnottakemuchtoreducethemtoworn,listless,diseasedcreatures,whothenceforwardcrawlthroughlifewithmoodyheartsandpain-strickenbodies。Thepeoplehadthoughtthepovertyoftheprecedingyearshardtobear,andhadfounditsyokeheavy;butthisyearaddedsorelytoitsweight。
Formertimeshadchastisedthemwithwhips,butthischastisedthemwithscorpions。Ofcourse,Bartonhadhisshareofmerebodilysufferings。BeforehehadgoneuptoLondononhisvainerrand,hehadbeenworkingshorttime。ButinthehopesofspeedyredressbymeansoftheinterferenceofParliament,hehadthrownuphisplace;andnow,whenheaskedleavetoresumehisworkhewastoldtheywerediminishingtheirnumberofhandseveryweek,andhewasmadeaware,bytheremarksoffellow-workmen,thataChartistdelegate,andaleadingmemberofatrades’union,wasnotlikelytobefavouredinhissearchafteremployment。Stillhetriedtokeepupabraveheartconcerninghimself。Heknewhecouldbearhunger;forthatpowerofendurancehadbeencalledforthwhenhewasalittlechild,andhadseenhismotherhideherdailymorseltoshareitamongherchildren,andwhenhe,beingtheeldest,hadtoldthenoblelie,that“hewasnothungry,couldnoteatabitmore,inordertoimitatehismother’sbravery,andstillthesharpwailoftheyoungerinfants。Mary,too,wassecureoftwomealsadayatMissSimmonds’;though,bytheway,thedressmakertoo,feelingtheeffectofbadtimes,hadleftoffgivingteatoherapprentices,settingthemtheexampleoflongabstinencebyputtingoffherownmealtillworkwasdoneforthenight,howeverlatethatmightbe。Buttherent!Itwashalf-a-crownaweek——nearlyallMary’searnings——andmuchlessroommightdoforthem,onlytwo——Nowcamethetimetobethankfulthattheearlydeadweresavedfromtheeviltocome——Theagriculturallabourergenerallyhasstronglocalattachments;buttheyarefarlesscommon,almostobliterated,amongtheinhabitantsofatown。Stillthereareexceptions,andBartonformedone。Hehadremovedtohisresenthousejustafterthelastbadtimes,whenlittleTomhadsickenedanddied。Hehadthenthoughtthebustleofaremovalwouldgivehispoorstunnedwifesomethingtodo,andhehadtakenmoreinterestinthedetailsoftheproceedingthanheotherwisewouldhavedone,inthehopeofcallingherforthtoactionagain。Soheseemedtoknoweverybrass-headednaildrivenupforherconvenience。Onlyonehadbeendisplaced。ItwasEsther’sbonnetnail,whichinhisdeeprevengefulangeragainsther,afterhiswife’sdeath,hehadtornoutofthewall,andcastintothestreet。Itwouldbehardworktoleavethehouse,whichyetseemedhallowedbyhiswife’spresenceinthehappydaysofold。Buthewasalawuntohimself,thoughsometimesabad,fiercelaw;andheresolvedtogivetherent-collectornotice,andlookoutforacheaperabode,andtellMarytheymustflit。PoorMary!
shelovedthehouse,too。Itwaswrenchinguphernaturalfeelingsofhome,foritwouldbelongbeforethefibresofherheartwouldgatherthemselvesaboutanotherplace。Thistrialwasspared。Thecollectorofhimself,ontheveryMonday,whenBartonplannedtogivehimnoticeofhisintentiontoleave,loweredtherentthree-penceaweek,justenoughtomakeBartoncompromiseandagreetostayonalittlelonger。Butbydegreesthehousewasstrippedofallitslittleornaments。Somewerebroken;andtheoddtwopencesandthreepences,wantedtopayfortheirrepairs,wererequiredforthefarsternernecessityoffood。Andby-and-byMarybegantopartwithothersuperfluitiesatthepawn-shop。Thesmarttea-tray,andtea-caddy,longandcarefullykept,wentforbreadforherfather。Hedidnotaskforit,orcomplain,butshesawhungerinhisshrunk,fierce,animallook。Thentheblanketswent,foritwassummertime,andtheycouldsparethem;andtheirsalemadeafund,whichMaryfanciedwouldlasttillbettertimescame。Butitwassoonallgone;andthenshelookedaroundtheroomtocribitofitsfewremainingornaments。Toalltheseproceedingsherfathersaidneveraword。Ifhefasted,orfeastedafterthesaleofsomearticleonanunusual’mealofbreadandcheese,hetookallwithasullenindifference,whichdepressedMary’sheart。SheoftenwishedbewouldapplyforrelieffromtheGuardians’relievingoffice;
oftenwonderedthetrades’uniondidnothingforhim。Once,whensheaskedhimashesat,grimed,unshaven,andgaunt,afteraday’sfasting,overthefire,whyhedidnotgetrelieffromthetown,heturnedround,withgrimwrath,andsaid,“Idon’twantmoney,child!D——ntheircharityandtheirmoney!Iwantworkanditismyright。Iwantwork。“Hewouldbearitall,hesaidtohimself。Andhedidbearit,butnotmeekly;
thatwastoomuchtoexpect。Realmeeknessofcharacteriscalledoutbyexperienceofkindness。Andfewhadbeenkindtohim。Yetthroughitall,withsterndeterminationherefusedtheassistancehistrades’unionwouldhavegivenhim。Ithadnotmuchtogive,but,withworldlywisdom,thoughtitbettertopropitiateanactive,usefulmember,thantohelpthosewhowereunenergetic,thoughtheyhadlargefamiliestoprovidefor。NotsothoughtJohnBarton。Withhim,needwasright。“GiveittoTomDarbyshire,“hesaid。“He’smoreclaimonitthanme,forhe’smoreneedofit,withhissevenchildren。“NowTomDarbyshirewas,inhislistless,grumblingway,abackbitingenemyofJohnBarton’s。Andheknewit;buthewasnottobeinfluencedbythatinamatterlikethis。Marywentearlytoherwork;buthercheerylaughoveritwasnowmissedbytheothergirls。Hermindwanderedoverthepresentdistress,andthensettled,asshestitched,onthevisionsofthefuture,whereyetherthoughtsdweltmoreonthecircumstancesofease,andthepompsandvanitiesawaitingher,thanontheloverwithwhomshewastosharethem。Stillshewasnotinsensibletotheprideofhavingattractedonesofaraboveherselfinstation;notinsensibletothesecretpleasureofknowingthathe,whomsomanyadmired,hadoftensaidhewouldgiveanythingforoneofhersweetsmiles。Herloveforhimwasabubble,blownoutofvanity;butitlookedveryrealandverybright。SallyLeadbitter,meanwhile,keenlyobservedthesignsofthetimes;shefoundoutthatMaryhadbeguntoaffixasternvaluetomoneyasthe“PurchaserofLife,“andmanygirlshadbeendazzledandluredbygold,evenwithoutthebetrayinglovewhichshebelievedtoexistinMary’sheart。SosheurgedyoungMrCarson,byrepresentationsofthewantshewassuresurroundedMary,tobringmattersmoretoapoint。
ButhehadakindofinstinctivedreadofhurtingMary’sprideofspirit,anddurstnothinthisknowledgeinanywayofthedistressthatmanymustbeenduring。Hefeltthatforthepresenthemuststillbecontentwithstolenmeetingsandsummereveningstrolls,andthedelightofpouringsweethoneyedwordsintoherear,whileshelistenedwithablushandasmilethatmadeherlookradiantwithbeauty。No;hewouldbecautiousinordertobecertain;forMary,onewayoranother,hemustmakehis。
Hehadnodoubtoftheeffectofhisownpersonalcharmsinthelongrun;
forheknewhewashandsome,andbelievedhimselffascinating。IfhehadknownwhatMary’shomewas,hewouldnothavebeensomuchconvincedofhisincreasinginfluenceoverher,byherbeingmoreandmorereadytolingerwithhiminthesweetsummerair。Forwhenshereturnedforthenightherfatherwasoftenout,andthehousewantedthecheerfullookitbadhadinthedayswhenmoneywas,neverwantedtopurchasesoapandbrushes,black-leadandpipe-clay。Itwasdingyandcomfortless;for,ofcourse,therewasnoteventhedumbfamiliarhome-friend,afire。AndMargaret,too,wasnowveryoftenfromhome,singingatsomeofthosegrandplaces。
AndAlice;oh,MarywishedshehadneverlefthercellartogoandliveatAncoatswithhersister-in-law。ForinthatmatterMaryfeltveryguilty;
shehadputoffandputoffgoingtoseethewidow,afterGeorgeWilson’sreasontothinkshewishedtobeasintimatewithhimasformerly;andnowshewassomuchashamedofherdelaythatshewaslikelynevertogoatall。Ifherfatherwasathomeitwasnobetter;indeed,itwasworse。Heseldomspoke,lessthanever;andoftenwhenhedidspeak,theyweresharpangrywords,suchashehadnevergivenherformerly。Hertemperwashigh,too,andheranswersnotovermild;andonceinhispassionhehadevenbeatenher。IfSallyLeadbitterorMrCarsonhadbeenathandatthatmoment,Marywouldhavebeenreadytoleavehomeforever。Shesatalone,afterherfatherhadflungoutofthehouse,bitterlythinkingonthedaysthatweregone;angrywithherownhastiness,andbelievingthatherfatherdidnotloveher;strivingtoheapuponepainfulthoughtonanother。Whoearedforher?MrCarsonmight,butinthisgriefthatseemednocomfort。
Motherdead!Fathersooftenangry,solatelycruelforitwasahardblow,andblisteredandreddenedMary’ssoftwhiteskinwithpain:andthenherheartturnedround,andsherememberedwithself-reproachhowprovokinglyshehadlookedandspoken,andhowmuchherfatherhadtobear;
andoh,whatakindandlovingparenthehadbeen,tillthesedaysoftrial。
Theremembranceofonelittleinstanceofhisfatherlylovethrongedafteranotherintohermind,andshebegantowonderhowshecouldhavebehavedtohimasshehaddone。Thenhecamehome;andbutforveryshameshewouldhaveconfessedherpenitenceinwords。Butshelookedsullen,fromherefforttokeepdownemotion;andforsometimeherfatherdidnotknowhowtobegintospeak。
Atlengthhegulpeddownpride,andsaid:“Mary,I’mnotabovesayingI’mverysorryIbeatthee。Thouwertabitaggravating,andI’mnotthemanIwas。Butitwerewrong,andI’lltrynevertolayhandsontheeagain。“Soheheldouthisarms,andinmanytearsshetoldhimherrepentanceforherfault。Heneverstruckheragain。Still,heoftenwasangry。Butthatwasalmostbetterthanbeingsilent。
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