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第17章

  Wegettenacrossatlastthough,andmyeyesIthegrandstreetswewereinthen!They’resadlypuzzledhowtobuildhousesthoughinLondon;there’dbeanopeningforagoodsteadymasterbuilderthere,asknow’dhisbusiness。
  Foryoseethehousesaremanyon’embuiltwithoutanypropershapeforabodytolivein;someonemthey’veafterthoughtwouldfalldown,sothey’vestuckgreatuglypillarsoutbefore’em。Andsomeon’emwethoughttheymustbeth’tailors’signhadgettenstonemenandwomenaswantedclothesstuckon’em。Iwerelikeachild,Iforgotamyerrandinlookingaboutme。Bythisitweredinner-time,orbetter,aswecouldtellbythesun,rightaboveourheads,andweweredustyandtired,goingastepflowandastepthen。Well,atlastwegettenintoastreetgrandernorall,leadingtoth’Queen’spalace,andthereitwereIthoughtIsawth’Queen。
  Yo’veseenth’hearseswi’whiteplumes,Job?“Jobassented。“Well,themundertakerfolkaredrivingaprettytradeinLondon。Wellnigheveryladywesawinacarriagehadhiredoneo’themplumesfortheday,andhaditniddlenoddlingonherhead。itwereth’Queen’sdrawing-room,theysaid,andth’carriageswentbowlingalongtowardherhouse,somewi’dressedupgentlemenlikecircusfolkin’em,andruckso’ladiesinothers。Carriagesthemselvesweregreatshakestoo。Someo’th’gentlemenascouldn’tgetinsidehungonbehind,wi’nosegaystosmellat,andstickstokeepofffolkasmightsplashtheirsilkstockings。Iwonderedwhytheydidn’thireacabratherthanhangonlikeawhip-behindboy;butIsupposetheywishedtokeepwi’theirwives,DarbyandJoanlike。Coachmenwerelittlesquatmen,wi’wigsliketh’oud-fashionedparsons’。Well,wecouldnagetonforthesecarriages,thoughwewaitedandwaited。Th’horsesweretoofattoneverknownwanto’food,onemighttelltheirsleekcoats;
  andpolicepushedusbackwhenwetriedtocross。Oneortwoof’emstruckwi’theirsticks,andcoachmenlaughed,andsomeofficersasstoodnighputtheirspy-glassesintheireye,andleft’emstickingtherelikemountebanks。
  Oneo’th’policestruckme。’Whattenbusinesshaveyotodothat?’saidI。“’You’refrighteningthemhorses,’sayshe,inhismincingwayforLondonersaremostlyalltongue-tied,andcan’tsaytheira’sandi’sproperly,’andit’sourbusinesstokeepyoufrommolestingtheladiesandgentlemengoingtoherMajesty’sdrawing-room。’“’Andwhyarewetobemolested,“’askedI,“’goingdecentlyaboutourbusiness,whichislifeanddeathtous,andmanyalittleoneclemmingathomeinLancashire?Whichbusinessisofmostconsequencei’thesighto’God,thinkyo,our’northemgran’ladiesandgentlemenasyothinksomuchon?’“ButImightaswellha’heldmypeace,forheonlylaughed。“Johnceased。Afterwaitingalittle,toseeifhewouldgoonhimself,Jobsaid,“Well,butthat’snota’yourstory,man。Telluswhathappenedwhenyogottoth’ParliamentHouse。“Afteralittlepause,Johnanswered,“Ifyouplease,neighbour,I’drathersaynoughtaboutthat。It’snottobeforgotten,orforgiveneither,bymeormanyanother;butIcannatellofourdown-castingjustasapieceofLondonnews。AslongasIlive,ourrejectionthatdaywillbideinmyheart;andaslongasIliveIshallcursethemassocruellyrefusedtohearus;butI’llnotspeakofitnomore。So,dauntedintheirinquiries,theysatsilentforafewminutes。OldJob,however,feltthatsomeonemustspeak,elseallthegoodtheybaddoneindispellingJohnBarton’sgloomwaslost。Soafterawhilehethoughtofasubject,neithersufficientlydissonantfromthelasttojaronthefullheart,nortoomuchthesametocherishthecontinuanceofthegloomytrainofthought。“Didyoueverheartell,“saidhetoMary,“thatIwereinLondononce?““No!“saidshe,withsurprise,andlookingatJobwithincreasedrespect。“Aye,butIwerethough,andPegtheretoo,thoughshemindsnoughtaboutit,poorwench!YoumustknowIhadbutonechild,andshewereMargaret’smother。Ilovedheraboveabit,andonedaywhenshecamestandingbehindmeforthatIshouldnotseeherblushes,andstrokingmycheeksinherowncoaxingway,andtoldmesheandFrankJenningsaswasajoinerlodgingnearusshouldbesohappyiftheyweremarried,Icouldnotfindinmyheartt’sayhernay,thoughIwentsickatthethoughtoflosingherawayfrommyhome。However,shewasmyonlychild,andIneversaidnoughtofwhatIfelt,forfearo’grievingheryoungheart。ButItriedtothinko’thetimewhenI’dbeenyoungmysel’,andhadlovedherblessedmother,andhowwe’dleftfatherandmother,andgoneoutintoth’worldtogether,andI’mnowrightthankfulIheldmypeace,anddidnafretherwi’tellingherhowsoreIwasatpartingwi’herthatwerethelighto’myeyes。““But,“saidMary,“yousaidtheyoungmanwereaneighbour。““Aye,sohewere,andhisfatheraforehim。ButworkwereratherslackinManchester,andFrank’sunclesenthimwordo’LondonworkandLondonwages,soheweretogothere,anditwerethereMargaretwastofollowhim。Well,myheartachesyetatthoughtofthosedays。Shesohappy,andhesohappy;onlythepoorfatherasfrettedsadlybehindtheirbacks。
  Theyweremarriedandstayedsomedayswi’meaforesettingoff;andI’veoftenthoughtsin’,Margaret’sheartfailedhermanyatimethosefewdays,andshewouldfainha’spoken;butIknewfra’myselitwerebettertokeepitpentup,andIneverletonwhatIwerefeeling;Iknewwhatshemeantwhenshecamekissing,andholdingmyhand,andallheroldchildishwayso’lovingme。Well,theywentatlastYouknowthemtwoletters,Margaret?““Yes,sure,“repliedhisgranddaughter。“Well,themtwoweretheonlylettersIeverhadfra’her,poorlass。Shesaidinthemshewereveryhappy,andIbelieveshewere。AndFrank’sfamilyheardhewereingoodwork。Inoneo’herletters,poorthing,sheendswi’saying,’Farewell,Grandad!’wi’alinedrawnundergrandad,andfra’
  thatan’otherhintsIknewshewereinth’familyway;andIsaidnought,butIscrewedupalittlemoney,thinkingcomeWhitsuntideI’dtakeaholidayandgoandseeheran’th’littleone。ButonedaytowardsWhitsun-tide,cornedJenningswi’agraveface,andsayshe,’IhearourFrankandyourMargaret’sbothgettenthefever。’Youmightha’knockedmedownwiastraw,foritseemedasifGodtoldmewhatth’upshotwouldbe。OldJenningshadgottenaletter,yosee,fra’thelandladytheylodgedwi’;awell-pennedletter,askingifthey’dnofriendstocomeandnursethem。She’dcaughtitfirst,andFrank,whowasastendero’erherasherownmothercouldha’been,hadnursedhertillhe’dcaughtithimsel’;andsheexpectingherdown-lyingeveryday。Well,t’makealongstoryshort,oldJenningsandIwentupbythatnight’scoach。Soyousee,Mary,thatwasthewayIgottoLondon。““Buthowwasyourdaughterwhenyougotthere?“askedMary,anxiously。“Shewereatrest,poorwench,andsowereFrank。IguessedasmuchwhenIsee’dth’landlady’sface,allswelledwi’crying,whensheopenedth’
  doortous。Wesaid,’Wherearethey?’andIknewtheyweredead;fra’
  herlook;butJenningsdidn’t,asItakeit;forwhensheshowedusintoaroomwi’awhitesheetonth’bed,andunderneathit,plaintobeseen,twostillfigures,hescreechedoutasifhe’dbeenawoman。“Yethe’dotherchilderandI’dnone。Therelaymydarling,myonlyone。
  Sheweredead,andtherewerenoonetoloveme,nonotone。IdisrememberrightlywhatIdid;butIknowIwereveryquiet,whilemyheartwerecrushedwithinme。“Jenningscouldna’standbeingintheroomatall,sothelandladytookhimdown,andIweregladtobealone。ItgrewdarkwhileIsatthere;
  andatlastth’landladycomeupagain,andsaid,’Comehere。’SoIgotup,andwalkedintoth’light,butIhadtoholdbyth’stair-rails,I
  weresoweakanddizzy。Sheledmeintoaroom,whereJenningslayonasofafastasleep,wi’hispockethandkerchiefoverhisheadforanight-cap。
  Shesaidhe’dcriedhimselffairlyofftosleep。Therewereteaonth’
  tableallready;forshewereakind-heartedbody。Butshestillsaid,’Comehere,’andtookholdo’myarm。SoIwentroundthetable,andtherewereaclothes-basketbyth’fire,wi’ashawlputo’erit。’Liftthatup,’saysshe,andIdid;andtherelayalittleweebabbyfastasleep。
  Myheartgavealeap,andth’tearscomedrushingintomyeyesfirsttimethatday。’Isithers?’saidI,thoughIknewitwere。’Yes,’saidshe。
  ’Sheweregettingabitbettero’thefever,andth’babbywereborn;andthenthepooryoungmantookworseanddied,andshewerenotmanyhoursbehind。’“LittlemiteofathingIandyetitseemedherangelcomebacktocomfortme。Iwerequitejealouso’Jennings,wheneverhewentnearthebabby。
  Ithoughtitweremoremyfleshandbloodthanhis’n,andyetIwereafraidhewouldclaimit。However,thatwerefarenoughfra’histhoughts;he’dplentyotherchilder,and,asIfoundoutafter,he’dallalongbeenwishingmetotakeit。Well,weburiedMargaretandherhusbandinabig,crowded,lonelychurchyardinLondon。Iwereloathtoleavethemthere,asIthought,whentheyroseagain,they’dfeelsostrangeatfirstawayfra’Manchester,andalloldfriends;butitcouldnabehelped。Well,Godwatcheso’ertheirgravesthereaswellashere。Thatfuneralcostaminto’money,butJenningsandIwishedtodoth’thingdecent。Thenwe’dthestoutlittlebabbytobringhome。We’dnotovermuchmoneyleft;butitwerefineweather,andwethoughtwe’dtaketh’coachtoBrummagem,andwalkon。ItwereabrightMaymorningwhenIlastsawLondontown,lookingbackfromabighillamileortwooff。Andinthatbigmasso’aplaceIwereleavingmyblessedchildasleep——inherlastsleep。Well,God’swillbedone!She’sgottentoheavenaforeme;butIshallgetthereatlast,pleaseGod,thoughit’salongwhilefirst。“Thebabbyhadbeenfedaforewesetout,andth’coachmovingkeptitasleep,blessit’slittleheart!Butwhenth’coachstoppedfordinneritwereawake,andcryingforitspobbies。SoweaskedforSomebreadandmilk,andJenningstookitfirstfortofeedit;butitmadeitsmouthlikeasquare,andletitrunoutateacho’thefourcorners。’Shakeit,Jennings,’saysI;’that’sthewaytheymakewaterrunthroughafunnel,whenit’so’erfull;andachild’smouthisbroadendo’th’funnel,andth’gulletthenarrowone。’Soheshookit,butitonlycriedth’more。
  ’Letmehaveit,’saysI,thinkinghewereanawkwardoudchap。Butitwerejustasbadwi’me。Byshakingth’babbywegotbetternoragillintoitsmouth,butmorenorthatcameupagain,wettinga’th’nicedryclotheslandladyhadputon。Well,justaswe’dgottentoth’dinner-table,andhelpedoursels,andeatentwomouthfuls,cameinth’guard,andafinechapwi’asampleo’calicoflourishinginhishand。’Coachisready!’
  saysone;’Half-a-crownyourdinner!’saystheother。Well,wethoughtitadealforbothourdinners,whenwe’dhardlytasted’em;but,blessyourlife,itwerehalf-a-crownapiece,andashillingforth’breadandmilkaswerepossettedalloverbabby’sclothes。Wespokeupagainit;
  buteverybodysaiditweretherule,sowhatcouldtwopooroudchapslikeusdoagainit?Well,poorbabbycriedwithoutstoppingtotakebreath,fra’thattimetillwegottoBrummagemforthenight。Myheartachedforth’littlething。Itcaughtwi’itsweemouthatourcoatsleevesandatourmouths,whenwetriedt’comfortitbytalkingtoit,Poorlittlewench!
  itwanteditsmammy,aswerelyingcoldinth’grave。’Well,’saysI,’it’llbeclemmedtodeath,ifitletsoutitssupperasitdiditsdinner。Let’sgetsomewomantofeedit;itcomesnaturaltowomentodoforbabbies。’
  Soweaskedth’chambermaidattheinn,andshetookquitekindlytoit;
  andwegotagoodsupper,andgrewrareandsleepy,whatwi’th’warmthandwi’ourlongridei’th’openair。Th’chambermaidsaidshewouldliket’haveitt’sleepwi’her,onlymissiswouldscoldso;butitlookedsoquietandsmilinglike,asitlayinherarms,thatwethought’twouldbenotroubletohaveitwi’us。Isays:’See,Jennings,howwomenfolkdoquietenbabbies;itsjustasIsaid。’Helookedgrave;hewerealwaysthoughtful-looking,thoughIneverheardhimsayanythingverydeep。Atlastsayshe——“’Youngwoman!haveyougottenasparenightcap?’“’Missisalwayskeepsnightcapsforgentlemenasdoesnotliketounpack,’