Youforgetyourself:thereisadecideddifferenceinyourtempers,Iallow。Heislively,youareserious;
butsomuchthebetter:hisspiritswillsupportyours。
Itisyourdispositiontobeeasilydejectedandtofancydifficultiesgreaterthantheyare。Hischeerfulnesswillcounteractthis。Heseesdifficultiesnowhere:
andhispleasantnessandgaietywillbeaconstantsupporttoyou。Yourbeingsofarunlike,Fanny,doesnotinthesmallestdegreemakeagainsttheprobabilityofyourhappinesstogether:donotimagineit。Iammyselfconvincedthatitisratherafavourablecircumstance。
Iamperfectlypersuadedthatthetempershadbetterbeunlike:
Imeanunlikeintheflowofthespirits,inthemanners,intheinclinationformuchorlittlecompany,inthepropensitytotalkortobesilent,tobegraveortobegay。
Someoppositionhereis,Iamthoroughlyconvinced,friendlytomatrimonialhappiness。Iexcludeextremes,ofcourse;andaverycloseresemblanceinallthosepointswouldbethelikeliestwaytoproduceanextreme。
Acounteraction,gentleandcontinual,isthebestsafeguardofmannersandconduct。“
FullwellcouldFannyguesswherehisthoughtswerenow:
MissCrawford’spowerwasallreturning。Hehadbeenspeakingofhercheerfullyfromthehourofhiscominghome。
Hisavoidingherwasquiteatanend。HehaddinedattheParsonageonlytheprecedingday。
Afterleavinghimtohishappierthoughtsforsomeminutes,Fanny,feelingitduetoherself,returnedtoMr。Crawford,andsaid,“Itisnotmerelyin_temper_thatIconsiderhimastotallyunsuitedtomyself;though,in_that_
respect,Ithinkthedifferencebetweenustoogreat,infinitelytoogreat:hisspiritsoftenoppressme;
butthereissomethinginhimwhichIobjecttostillmore。
Imustsay,cousin,thatIcannotapprovehischaracter。
Ihavenotthoughtwellofhimfromthetimeoftheplay。
Ithensawhimbehaving,asitappearedtome,soveryimproperlyandunfeelingly——Imayspeakofitnowbecauseitisallover——soimproperlybypoorMr。Rushworth,notseemingtocarehowheexposedorhurthim,andpayingattentionstomycousinMaria,which——inshort,atthetimeoftheplay,Ireceivedanimpressionwhichwillneverbegotover。“
“MydearFanny,“repliedEdmund,scarcelyhearinghertotheend,“letusnot,anyofus,bejudgedbywhatweappearedatthatperiodofgeneralfolly。ThetimeoftheplayisatimewhichIhatetorecollect。Mariawaswrong,Crawfordwaswrong,wewereallwrongtogether;butnonesowrongasmyself。Comparedwithme,alltherestwereblameless。Iwasplayingthefoolwithmyeyesopen。“
“Asabystander,“saidFanny,“perhapsIsawmorethanyoudid;andIdothinkthatMr。Rushworthwassometimesveryjealous。“
“Verypossibly。Nowonder。Nothingcouldbemoreimproperthanthewholebusiness。IamshockedwheneverIthinkthatMariacouldbecapableofit;but,ifshecouldundertakethepart,wemustnotbesurprisedattherest。“
“Beforetheplay,Iammuchmistakenif_Julia_didnotthinkhewaspayingherattentions。
“Julia!IhaveheardbeforefromsomeoneofhisbeinginlovewithJulia;butIcouldneverseeanythingofit。
And,Fanny,thoughIhopeIdojusticetomysisters’
goodqualities,Ithinkitverypossiblethattheymight,oneorboth,bemoredesirousofbeingadmiredbyCrawford,andmightshewthatdesirerathermoreunguardedlythanwasperfectlyprudent。Icanrememberthattheywereevidentlyfondofhissociety;andwithsuchencouragement,amanlikeCrawford,lively,anditmaybe,alittleunthinking,mightbeledonto——therecouldbenothingverystriking,becauseitisclearthathehadnopretensions:hisheartwasreservedforyou。AndImustsay,thatitsbeingforyouhasraisedhiminconceivablyinmyopinion。
Itdoeshimthehighesthonour;itshewshisproperestimationoftheblessingofdomestichappinessandpureattachment。
Itproveshimunspoiltbyhisuncle。Itproveshim,inshort,everythingthatIhadbeenusedtowishtobelievehim,andfearedhewasnot。“
“Iampersuadedthathedoesnotthink,asheought,onserioussubjects。“
“Say,rather,thathehasnotthoughtatalluponserioussubjects,whichIbelievetobeagooddealthecase。
Howcoulditbeotherwise,withsuchaneducationandadviser?
Underthedisadvantages,indeed,whichbothhavehad,isitnotwonderfulthattheyshouldbewhattheyare?
Crawford’s_feelings_,Iamreadytoacknowledge,havehithertobeentoomuchhisguides。Happily,thosefeelingshavegenerallybeengood。Youwillsupplytherest;andamostfortunatemanheistoattachhimselftosuchacreature——
toawomanwho,firmasarockinherownprinciples,hasagentlenessofcharactersowelladaptedtorecommendthem。
Hehaschosenhispartner,indeed,withrarefelicity。
Hewillmakeyouhappy,Fanny;Iknowhewillmakeyouhappy;
butyouwillmakehimeverything。“
“Iwouldnotengageinsuchacharge,“criedFanny,inashrinkingaccent;“insuchanofficeofhighresponsibility!“
“Asusual,believingyourselfunequaltoanything!
fancyingeverythingtoomuchforyou!Well,thoughI
maynotbeabletopersuadeyouintodifferentfeelings,youwillbepersuadedintothem,Itrust。
Iconfessmyselfsincerelyanxiousthatyoumay。
IhavenocommoninterestinCrawford’swell-doing。Nexttoyourhappiness,Fanny,hishasthefirstclaimonme。
YouareawareofmyhavingnocommoninterestinCrawford。“
Fannywastoowellawareofittohaveanythingtosay;
andtheywalkedontogethersomefiftyyardsinmutualsilenceandabstraction。Edmundfirstbeganagain——
“Iwasverymuchpleasedbyhermannerofspeakingofityesterday,particularlypleased,becauseIhadnotdependeduponherseeingeverythinginsojustalight。
Iknewshewasveryfondofyou;butyetIwasafraidofhernotestimatingyourworthtoherbrotherquiteasitdeserved,andofherregrettingthathehadnotratherfixedonsomewomanofdistinctionorfortune。
Iwasafraidofthebiasofthoseworldlymaxims,whichshehasbeentoomuchusedtohear。Butitwasverydifferent。
Shespokeofyou,Fanny,justassheought。Shedesirestheconnexionaswarmlyasyouruncleormyself。
Wehadalongtalkaboutit。Ishouldnothavementionedthesubject,thoughveryanxioustoknowhersentiments;
butIhadnotbeenintheroomfiveminutesbeforeshebeganintroducingitwithallthatopennessofheart,andsweetpeculiarityofmanner,thatspiritandingenuousnesswhicharesomuchapartofherself。Mrs。Grantlaughedatherforherrapidity。“
“WasMrs。Grantintheroom,then?“
“Yes,whenIrea(丁香书院小说)chedthehouseIfoundthetwosisterstogetherbythemselves;andwhenoncewehadbegun,wehadnotdonewithyou,Fanny,tillCrawfordandDr。Grantcamein。“
“ItisaboveaweeksinceIsawMissCrawford。“
“Yes,shelamentsit;yetownsitmayhavebeenbest。
Youwillseeher,however,beforeshegoes。Sheisveryangrywithyou,Fanny;youmustbepreparedforthat。
Shecallsherselfveryangry,butyoucanimagineheranger。
Itistheregretanddisappointmentofasister,whothinksherbrotherhasarighttoeverythinghemaywishfor,atthefirstmoment。Sheishurt,asyouwouldbeforWilliam;butshelovesandesteemsyouwithallherheart。“
“Iknewshewouldbeveryangrywithme。“
“MydearestFanny,“criedEdmund,pressingherarmclosertohim,“donotlettheideaofherangerdistressyou。
Itisangertobetalkedofratherthanfelt。Herheartismadeforloveandkindness,notforresentment。
Iwishyoucouldhaveoverheardhertributeofpraise;
Iwishyoucouldhaveseenhercountenance,whenshesaidthatyou_should_beHenry’swife。AndIobservedthatshealwaysspokeofyouas’Fanny,’whichshewasneverusedtodo;
andithadasoundofmostsisterlycordiality。“
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