Mustitnotfollowofcourse,that,whenhewasunderstood,heshouldsucceed?Hebelieveditfully。Lovesuchashis,inamanlikehimself,mustwithperseverancesecureareturn,andatnogreatdistance;andhehadsomuchdelightintheideaofobliginghertolovehiminaveryshorttime,thathernotlovinghimnowwasscarcelyregretted。
AlittledifficultytobeovercomewasnoeviltoHenryCrawford。Heratherderivedspiritsfromit。
Hehadbeenapttogainheartstooeasily。Hissituationwasnewandanimating。
ToFanny,however,whohadknowntoomuchoppositionallherlifetofindanycharminit,allthiswasunintelligible。
Shefoundthathedidmeantopersevere;buthowhecould,aftersuchlanguagefromherasshefeltherselfobligedtouse,wasnottobeunderstood。Shetoldhimthatshedidnotlovehim,couldnotlovehim,wassureshenevershouldlovehim;thatsuchachangewasquiteimpossible;
thatthesubjectwasmostpainfultoher;thatshemustentreathimnevertomentionitagain,toallowhertoleavehimatonce,andletitbeconsideredasconcludedforever。
Andwhenfartherpressed,hadadded,thatinheropiniontheirdispositionsweresototallydissimilarastomakemutualaffectionincompatible;andthattheywereunfittedforeachotherbynature,education,andhabit。Allthisshehadsaid,andwiththeearnestnessofsincerity;
yetthiswasnotenough,forheimmediatelydeniedtherebeinganythinguncongenialintheircharacters,oranythingunfriendlyintheirsituations;andpositivelydeclared,thathewouldstilllove,andstillhope!
Fannyknewherownmeaning,butwasnojudgeofherownmanner。
Hermannerwasincurablygentle;andshewasnotawarehowmuchitconcealedthesternnessofherpurpose。
Herdiffidence,gratitude,andsoftnessmadeeveryexpressionofindifferenceseemalmostaneffortofself-denial;
seem,atleast,tobegivingnearlyasmuchpaintoherselfastohim。Mr。CrawfordwasnolongertheMr。Crawfordwho,astheclandestine,insidious,treacherousadmirerofMariaBertram,hadbeenherabhorrence,whomshehadhatedtoseeortospeakto,inwhomshecouldbelievenogoodqualitytoexist,andwhosepower,evenofbeingagreeable,shehadbarelyacknowledged。HewasnowtheMr。Crawfordwhowasaddressingherselfwithardent,disinterestedlove;
whosefeelingswereapparentlybecomeallthatwashonourableandupright,whoseviewsofhappinesswereallfixedonamarriageofattachment;whowaspouringouthissenseofhermerits,describinganddescribingagainhisaffection,provingasfaraswordscouldproveit,andinthelanguage,tone,andspiritofamanoftalenttoo,thathesoughtherforhergentlenessandhergoodness;
andtocompletethewhole,hewasnowtheMr。CrawfordwhohadprocuredWilliam’spromotion!
Herewasachange,andherewereclaimswhichcouldnotbutoperate!Shemighthavedisdainedhiminallthedignityofangryvirtue,inthegroundsofSotherton,orthetheatreatMansfieldPark;butheapproachedhernowwithrightsthatdemandeddifferenttreatment。
Shemustbecourteous,andshemustbecompassionate。
Shemusthaveasensationofbeinghonoured,andwhetherthinkingofherselforherbrother,shemusthaveastrongfeelingofgratitude。Theeffectofthewholewasamannersopityingandagitated,andwordsintermingledwithherrefusalsoexpressiveofobligationandconcern,thattoatemperofvanityandhopelikeCrawford’s,thetruth,oratleastthestrengthofherindifference,mightwellbequestionable;andhewasnotsoirrationalasFannyconsideredhim,intheprofessionsofpersevering,assiduous,andnotdespondingattachmentwhichclosedtheinterview。
Itwaswithreluctancethathesufferedhertogo;buttherewasnolookofdespairinpartingtobeliehiswords,orgiveherhopesofhisbeinglessunreasonablethanheprofessedhimself。
Nowshewasangry。Someresentmentdidariseataperseverancesoselfishandungenerous。Herewasagainawantofdelicacyandregardforotherswhichhadformerlysostruckanddisgustedher。HerewasagainasomethingofthesameMr。Crawfordwhomshehadsoreprobatedbefore。
Howevidentlywasthereagrosswantoffeelingandhumanitywherehisownpleasurewasconcerned;andalas!howalwaysknownnoprincipletosupplyasadutywhattheheartwasdeficientin!Hadherownaffectionsbeenasfreeasperhapstheyoughttohavebeen,henevercouldhaveengagedthem。
SothoughtFanny,ingoodtruthandsobersadness,asshesatmusingoverthattoogreatindulgenceandluxuryofafireupstairs:wonderingatthepastandpresent;
wonderingatwhatwasyettocome,andinanervousagitationwhichmadenothingcleartoherbutthepersuasionofherbeingneverunderanycircumstancesabletoloveMr。Crawford,andthefelicityofhavingafiretositoverandthinkofit。
SirThomaswasobliged,orobligedhimself,towaittillthemorrowforaknowledgeofwhathadpassedbetweentheyoungpeople。HethensawMr。Crawford,andreceivedhisaccount。Thefirstfeelingwasdisappointment:
hehadhopedbetterthings;hehadthoughtthatanhour’sentreatyfromayoungmanlikeCrawfordcouldnothaveworkedsolittlechangeonagentle-temperedgirllikeFanny;
buttherewasspeedycomfortinthedeterminedviewsandsanguineperseveranceofthelover;andwhenseeingsuchconfidenceofsuccessintheprincipal,SirThomaswassoonabletodependonithimself。
Nothingwasomitted,onhisside,ofcivility,compliment,orkindness,thatmightassisttheplan。Mr。Crawford’ssteadinesswashonoured,andFannywaspraised,andtheconnexionwasstillthemostdesirableintheworld。
AtMansfieldParkMr。Crawfordwouldalwaysbewelcome;
hehadonlytoconsulthisownjudgmentandfeelingsastothefrequencyofhisvisits,atpresentorinfuture。
Inallhisniece’sfamilyandfriends,therecouldbebutoneopinion,onewishonthesubject;theinfluenceofallwholovedhermustinclineoneway。
Everythingwassaidthatcouldencourage,everyencouragementreceivedwithgratefuljoy,andthegentlemenpartedthebestoffriends。
Satisfiedthatthecausewasnowonafootingthemostproperandhopeful,SirThomasresolvedtoabstainfromallfartherimportunitywithhisniece,andtoshewnoopeninterference。Uponherdispositionhebelievedkindnessmightbethebestwayofworking。
Entreatyshouldbefromonequarteronly。Theforbearanceofherfamilyonapoint,respectingwhichshecouldbeinnodoubtoftheirwishes,mightbetheirsurestmeansofforwardingit。Accordingly,onthisprinciple,SirThomastookthefirstopportunityofsayingtoher,withamildgravity,intendedtobeovercoming,“Well,Fanny,IhaveseenMr。Crawfordagain,andlearnfromhimexactlyhowmattersstandbetweenyou。Heisamostextraordinaryyoungman,andwhateverbetheevent,youmustfeelthatyouhavecreatedanattachmentofnocommoncharacter;though,youngasyouare,andlittleacquaintedwiththetransient,varying,unsteadynatureoflove,asitgenerallyexists,youcannotbestruckasIamwithallthatiswonderfulinaperseveranceofthissortagainstdiscouragement。Withhimitisentirelyamatteroffeeling:heclaimsnomeritinit;
perhapsisentitledtonone。Yet,havingchosensowell,hisconstancyhasarespectablestamp。Hadhischoicebeenlessunexceptionable,Ishouldhavecondemnedhispersevering。“
“Indeed,sir,“saidFanny,“IamverysorrythatMr。Crawfordshouldcontinuetoknowthatitispayingmeaverygreatcompliment,andIfeelmostundeservedlyhonoured;
butIamsoperfectlyconvinced,andIhavetoldhimso,thatitneverwillbeinmypower——“
“Mydear,“interruptedSirThomas,“thereisnooccasionforthis。Yourfeelingsareaswellknowntomeasmywishesandregretsmustbetoyou。
Thereisnothingmoretobesaidordone。Fromthishourthesubjectisnevertoberevivedbetweenus。
Youwillhavenothingtofear,ortobeagitatedabout。
Youcannotsupposemecapableoftryingtopersuadeyoutomarryagainstyourinclinations。YourhappinessandadvantageareallthatIhaveinview,andnothingisrequiredofyoubuttobearwithMr。Crawford’sendeavourstoconvinceyouthattheymaynotbeincompatiblewithhis。
Heproceedsathisownrisk。Youareonsafeground。
Ihaveengagedforyourseeinghimwheneverhecalls,asyoumighthavedonehadnothingofthissortoccurred。
Youwillseehimwiththerestofus,inthesamemanner,and,asmuchasyoucan,dismissingtherecollectionofeverythingunpleasant。HeleavesNorthamptonshiresosoon,thateventhisslightsacrificecannotbeoftendemanded。
Thefuturemustbeveryuncertain。Andnow,mydearFanny,thissubjectisclosedbetweenus。“
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