首页 >出版文学> Mansfield Parkby>第66章

第66章

  Mustitnotfollowofcourse,that,whenhewasunderstood,heshouldsucceed?Hebelieveditfully。Lovesuchashis,inamanlikehimself,mustwithperseverancesecureareturn,andatnogreatdistance;andhehadsomuchdelightintheideaofobliginghertolovehiminaveryshorttime,thathernotlovinghimnowwasscarcelyregretted。
  AlittledifficultytobeovercomewasnoeviltoHenryCrawford。Heratherderivedspiritsfromit。
  Hehadbeenapttogainheartstooeasily。Hissituationwasnewandanimating。
  ToFanny,however,whohadknowntoomuchoppositionallherlifetofindanycharminit,allthiswasunintelligible。
  Shefoundthathedidmeantopersevere;buthowhecould,aftersuchlanguagefromherasshefeltherselfobligedtouse,wasnottobeunderstood。Shetoldhimthatshedidnotlovehim,couldnotlovehim,wassureshenevershouldlovehim;thatsuchachangewasquiteimpossible;
  thatthesubjectwasmostpainfultoher;thatshemustentreathimnevertomentionitagain,toallowhertoleavehimatonce,andletitbeconsideredasconcludedforever。
  Andwhenfartherpressed,hadadded,thatinheropiniontheirdispositionsweresototallydissimilarastomakemutualaffectionincompatible;andthattheywereunfittedforeachotherbynature,education,andhabit。Allthisshehadsaid,andwiththeearnestnessofsincerity;
  yetthiswasnotenough,forheimmediatelydeniedtherebeinganythinguncongenialintheircharacters,oranythingunfriendlyintheirsituations;andpositivelydeclared,thathewouldstilllove,andstillhope!
  Fannyknewherownmeaning,butwasnojudgeofherownmanner。
  Hermannerwasincurablygentle;andshewasnotawarehowmuchitconcealedthesternnessofherpurpose。
  Herdiffidence,gratitude,andsoftnessmadeeveryexpressionofindifferenceseemalmostaneffortofself-denial;
  seem,atleast,tobegivingnearlyasmuchpaintoherselfastohim。Mr。CrawfordwasnolongertheMr。Crawfordwho,astheclandestine,insidious,treacherousadmirerofMariaBertram,hadbeenherabhorrence,whomshehadhatedtoseeortospeakto,inwhomshecouldbelievenogoodqualitytoexist,andwhosepower,evenofbeingagreeable,shehadbarelyacknowledged。HewasnowtheMr。Crawfordwhowasaddressingherselfwithardent,disinterestedlove;
  whosefeelingswereapparentlybecomeallthatwashonourableandupright,whoseviewsofhappinesswereallfixedonamarriageofattachment;whowaspouringouthissenseofhermerits,describinganddescribingagainhisaffection,provingasfaraswordscouldproveit,andinthelanguage,tone,andspiritofamanoftalenttoo,thathesoughtherforhergentlenessandhergoodness;
  andtocompletethewhole,hewasnowtheMr。CrawfordwhohadprocuredWilliam’spromotion!
  Herewasachange,andherewereclaimswhichcouldnotbutoperate!Shemighthavedisdainedhiminallthedignityofangryvirtue,inthegroundsofSotherton,orthetheatreatMansfieldPark;butheapproachedhernowwithrightsthatdemandeddifferenttreatment。
  Shemustbecourteous,andshemustbecompassionate。
  Shemusthaveasensationofbeinghonoured,andwhetherthinkingofherselforherbrother,shemusthaveastrongfeelingofgratitude。Theeffectofthewholewasamannersopityingandagitated,andwordsintermingledwithherrefusalsoexpressiveofobligationandconcern,thattoatemperofvanityandhopelikeCrawford’s,thetruth,oratleastthestrengthofherindifference,mightwellbequestionable;andhewasnotsoirrationalasFannyconsideredhim,intheprofessionsofpersevering,assiduous,andnotdespondingattachmentwhichclosedtheinterview。
  Itwaswithreluctancethathesufferedhertogo;buttherewasnolookofdespairinpartingtobeliehiswords,orgiveherhopesofhisbeinglessunreasonablethanheprofessedhimself。
  Nowshewasangry。Someresentmentdidariseataperseverancesoselfishandungenerous。Herewasagainawantofdelicacyandregardforotherswhichhadformerlysostruckanddisgustedher。HerewasagainasomethingofthesameMr。Crawfordwhomshehadsoreprobatedbefore。
  Howevidentlywasthereagrosswantoffeelingandhumanitywherehisownpleasurewasconcerned;andalas!howalwaysknownnoprincipletosupplyasadutywhattheheartwasdeficientin!Hadherownaffectionsbeenasfreeasperhapstheyoughttohavebeen,henevercouldhaveengagedthem。
  SothoughtFanny,ingoodtruthandsobersadness,asshesatmusingoverthattoogreatindulgenceandluxuryofafireupstairs:wonderingatthepastandpresent;
  wonderingatwhatwasyettocome,andinanervousagitationwhichmadenothingcleartoherbutthepersuasionofherbeingneverunderanycircumstancesabletoloveMr。Crawford,andthefelicityofhavingafiretositoverandthinkofit。
  SirThomaswasobliged,orobligedhimself,towaittillthemorrowforaknowledgeofwhathadpassedbetweentheyoungpeople。HethensawMr。Crawford,andreceivedhisaccount。Thefirstfeelingwasdisappointment:
  hehadhopedbetterthings;hehadthoughtthatanhour’sentreatyfromayoungmanlikeCrawfordcouldnothaveworkedsolittlechangeonagentle-temperedgirllikeFanny;
  buttherewasspeedycomfortinthedeterminedviewsandsanguineperseveranceofthelover;andwhenseeingsuchconfidenceofsuccessintheprincipal,SirThomaswassoonabletodependonithimself。
  Nothingwasomitted,onhisside,ofcivility,compliment,orkindness,thatmightassisttheplan。Mr。Crawford’ssteadinesswashonoured,andFannywaspraised,andtheconnexionwasstillthemostdesirableintheworld。
  AtMansfieldParkMr。Crawfordwouldalwaysbewelcome;
  hehadonlytoconsulthisownjudgmentandfeelingsastothefrequencyofhisvisits,atpresentorinfuture。
  Inallhisniece’sfamilyandfriends,therecouldbebutoneopinion,onewishonthesubject;theinfluenceofallwholovedhermustinclineoneway。
  Everythingwassaidthatcouldencourage,everyencouragementreceivedwithgratefuljoy,andthegentlemenpartedthebestoffriends。
  Satisfiedthatthecausewasnowonafootingthemostproperandhopeful,SirThomasresolvedtoabstainfromallfartherimportunitywithhisniece,andtoshewnoopeninterference。Uponherdispositionhebelievedkindnessmightbethebestwayofworking。
  Entreatyshouldbefromonequarteronly。Theforbearanceofherfamilyonapoint,respectingwhichshecouldbeinnodoubtoftheirwishes,mightbetheirsurestmeansofforwardingit。Accordingly,onthisprinciple,SirThomastookthefirstopportunityofsayingtoher,withamildgravity,intendedtobeovercoming,“Well,Fanny,IhaveseenMr。Crawfordagain,andlearnfromhimexactlyhowmattersstandbetweenyou。Heisamostextraordinaryyoungman,andwhateverbetheevent,youmustfeelthatyouhavecreatedanattachmentofnocommoncharacter;though,youngasyouare,andlittleacquaintedwiththetransient,varying,unsteadynatureoflove,asitgenerallyexists,youcannotbestruckasIamwithallthatiswonderfulinaperseveranceofthissortagainstdiscouragement。Withhimitisentirelyamatteroffeeling:heclaimsnomeritinit;
  perhapsisentitledtonone。Yet,havingchosensowell,hisconstancyhasarespectablestamp。Hadhischoicebeenlessunexceptionable,Ishouldhavecondemnedhispersevering。“
  “Indeed,sir,“saidFanny,“IamverysorrythatMr。Crawfordshouldcontinuetoknowthatitispayingmeaverygreatcompliment,andIfeelmostundeservedlyhonoured;
  butIamsoperfectlyconvinced,andIhavetoldhimso,thatitneverwillbeinmypower——“
  “Mydear,“interruptedSirThomas,“thereisnooccasionforthis。Yourfeelingsareaswellknowntomeasmywishesandregretsmustbetoyou。
  Thereisnothingmoretobesaidordone。Fromthishourthesubjectisnevertoberevivedbetweenus。
  Youwillhavenothingtofear,ortobeagitatedabout。
  Youcannotsupposemecapableoftryingtopersuadeyoutomarryagainstyourinclinations。YourhappinessandadvantageareallthatIhaveinview,andnothingisrequiredofyoubuttobearwithMr。Crawford’sendeavourstoconvinceyouthattheymaynotbeincompatiblewithhis。
  Heproceedsathisownrisk。Youareonsafeground。
  Ihaveengagedforyourseeinghimwheneverhecalls,asyoumighthavedonehadnothingofthissortoccurred。
  Youwillseehimwiththerestofus,inthesamemanner,and,asmuchasyoucan,dismissingtherecollectionofeverythingunpleasant。HeleavesNorthamptonshiresosoon,thateventhisslightsacrificecannotbeoftendemanded。
  Thefuturemustbeveryuncertain。Andnow,mydearFanny,thissubjectisclosedbetweenus。“