ThepromiseddeparturewasallthatFannycouldthinkofwithmuchsatisfaction。Heruncle’skindexpressions,however,andforbearingmanner,weresensiblyfelt;
andwhensheconsideredhowmuchofthetruthwasunknowntohim,shebelievedshehadnorighttowonderatthelineofconducthepursued。He,whohadmarriedadaughtertoMr。Rushworth:romanticdelicacywascertainlynottobeexpectedfromhim。Shemustdoherduty,andtrustthattimemightmakeherdutyeasierthanitnowwas。
Shecouldnot,thoughonlyeighteen,supposeMr。Crawford’sattachmentwouldholdoutforever;shecouldnotbutimaginethatsteady,unceasingdiscouragementfromherselfwouldputanendtoitintime。Howmuchtimeshemight,inherownfancy,allotforitsdominion,isanotherconcern。Itwouldnotbefairtoinquireintoayounglady’sexactestimateofherownperfections。
Inspiteofhisintendedsilence,SirThomasfoundhimselfoncemoreobligedtomentionthesubjecttohisniece,toprepareherbrieflyforitsbeingimpartedtoheraunts;
ameasurewhichhewouldstillhaveavoided,ifpossible,butwhichbecamenecessaryfromthetotallyoppositefeelingsofMr。Crawfordastoanysecrecyofproceeding。
Hehadnoideaofconcealment。ItwasallknownattheParsonage,wherehelovedtotalkoverthefuturewithbothhissisters,anditwouldberathergratifyingtohimtohaveenlightenedwitnessesoftheprogressofhissuccess。WhenSirThomasunderstoodthis,hefeltthenecessityofmakinghisownwifeandsister-in-lawacquaintedwiththebusinesswithoutdelay;though,onFanny’saccount,healmostdreadedtheeffectofthecommunicationtoMrs。NorrisasmuchasFannyherself。
Hedeprecatedhermistakenbutwell-meaningzeal。
SirThomas,indeed,was,bythistime,notveryfarfromclassingMrs。Norrisasoneofthosewell-meaningpeoplewhoarealwaysdoingmistakenandverydisagreeablethings。
Mrs。Norris,however,relievedhim。Hepressedforthestrictestforbearanceandsilencetowardstheirniece;shenotonlypromised,butdidobserveit。
Sheonlylookedherincreasedill-will。Angryshewas:
bitterlyangry;butshewasmoreangrywithFannyforhavingreceivedsuchanofferthanforrefusingit。
ItwasaninjuryandaffronttoJulia,whooughttohavebeenMr。Crawford’schoice;and,independentlyofthat,shedislikedFanny,becauseshehadneglectedher;
andshewouldhavegrudgedsuchanelevationtoonewhomshehadbeenalwaystryingtodepress。
SirThomasgavehermorecreditfordiscretionontheoccasionthanshedeserved;andFannycouldhaveblessedherforallowingheronlytoseeherdispleasure,andnottohearit。
LadyBertramtookitdifferently。Shehadbeenabeauty,andaprosperousbeauty,allherlife;andbeautyandwealthwereallthatexcitedherrespect。ToknowFannytobesoughtinmarriagebyamanoffortune,raisedher,therefore,verymuchinheropinion。
ByconvincingherthatFanny_was_verypretty,whichshehadbeendoubtingaboutbefore,andthatshewouldbeadvantageouslymarried,itmadeherfeelasortofcreditincallingherniece。
“Well,Fanny,“saidshe,assoonastheywerealonetogetherafterwards,andshereallyhadknownsomethinglikeimpatiencetobealonewithher,andhercountenance,asshespoke,hadextraordinaryanimation;“Well,Fanny,Ihavehadaveryagreeablesurprisethismorning。Imustjustspeakofit_once_,ItoldSirThomasImust_once_,andthenIshallhavedone。Igiveyoujoy,mydearniece。“
Andlookingathercomplacently,sheadded,“Humph,wecertainlyareahandsomefamily!“
Fannycoloured,anddoubtedatfirstwhattosay;
when,hopingtoassailheronhervulnerableside,shepresentlyanswered——
“Mydearaunt,_you_cannotwishmetododifferentlyfromwhatIhavedone,Iamsure。_You_cannotwishmetomarry;
foryouwouldmissme,shouldnotyou?Yes,Iamsureyouwouldmissmetoomuchforthat。“
“No,mydear,Ishouldnotthinkofmissingyou,whensuchanofferasthiscomesinyourway。
Icoulddoverywellwithoutyou,ifyouweremarriedtoamanofsuchgoodestateasMr。Crawford。Andyoumustbeaware,Fanny,thatitiseveryyoungwoman’sdutytoacceptsuchaveryunexceptionableofferasthis。“
Thiswasalmosttheonlyruleofconduct,theonlypieceofadvice,whichFannyhadeverreceivedfromherauntinthecourseofeightyearsandahalf。Itsilencedher。
Shefelthowunprofitablecontentionwouldbe。
Ifheraunt’sfeelingswereagainsther,nothingcouldbehopedfromattackingherunderstanding。LadyBertramwasquitetalkative。
“Iwilltellyouwhat,Fanny,“saidshe,“Iamsurehefellinlovewithyouattheball;Iamsurethemischiefwasdonethatevening。Youdidlookremarkablywell。
Everybodysaidso。SirThomassaidso。AndyouknowyouhadChapmantohelpyoutodress。IamverygladIsentChapmantoyou。IshalltellSirThomasthatI
amsureitwasdonethatevening。“Andstillpursuingthesamecheerfulthoughts,shesoonafterwardsadded,“Andwilltellyouwhat,Fanny,whichismorethanIdidforMaria:thenexttimePughasalitteryoushallhaveapuppy。“
Edmundhadgreatthingstohearonhisreturn。Manysurpriseswereawaitinghim。Thefirstthatoccurredwasnotleastininterest:theappearanceofHenryCrawfordandhissisterwalkingtogetherthroughthevillageasherodeintoit。
Hehadconcluded——hehadmeantthemtobefardistant。
HisabsencehadbeenextendedbeyondafortnightpurposelytoavoidMissCrawford。HewasreturningtoMansfieldwithspiritsreadytofeedonmelancholyremembrances,andtenderassociations,whenherownfairselfwasbeforehim,leaningonherbrother’sarm,andhefoundhimselfreceivingawelcome,unquestionablyfriendly,fromthewomanwhom,twomomentsbefore,hehadbeenthinkingofasseventymilesoff,andasfarther,muchfarther,fromhimininclinationthananydistancecouldexpress。
Herreceptionofhimwasofasortwhichhecouldnothavehopedfor,hadheexpectedtoseeher。Comingashedidfromsuchapurportfulfilledashadtakenhimaway,hewouldhaveexpectedanythingratherthanalookofsatisfaction,andwordsofsimple,pleasantmeaning。
Itwasenoughtosethisheartinaglow,andtobringhimhomeinthepropereststateforfeelingthefullvalueoftheotherjoyfulsurprisesathand。
William’spromotion,withallitsparticulars,hewassoonmasterof;andwithsuchasecretprovisionofcomfortwithinhisownbreasttohelpthejoy,hefoundinitasourceofmostgratifyingsensationandunvaryingcheerfulnessalldinner-time。
Afterdinner,whenheandhisfatherwerealone,hehadFanny’shistory;andthenallthegreateventsofthelastfortnight,andthepresentsituationofmattersatMansfieldwereknowntohim。
Fannysuspectedwhatwasgoingon。Theysatsomuchlongerthanusualinthedining-parlour,thatshewassuretheymustbetalkingofher;andwhenteaatlastbroughtthemaway,andshewastobeseenbyEdmundagain,shefeltdreadfullyguilty。Hecametoher,satdownbyher,tookherhand,andpresseditkindly;andatthatmomentshethoughtthat,butfortheoccupationandthescenewhichthetea-thingsafforded,shemusthavebetrayedheremotioninsomeunpardonableexcess。
Hewasnotintending,however,bysuchaction,tobeconveyingtoherthatunqualifiedapprobationandencouragementwhichherhopesdrewfromit。
Itwasdesignedonlytoexpresshisparticipationinallthatinterestedher,andtotellherthathehadbeenhearingwhatquickenedeveryfeelingofaffection。Hewas,infact,entirelyonhisfather’ssideofthequestion。
Hissurprisewasnotsogreatashisfather’satherrefusingCrawford,because,sofarfromsupposinghertoconsiderhimwithanythinglikeapreference,hehadalwaysbelievedittoberatherthereverse,andcouldimaginehertobetakenperfectlyunprepared,butSirThomascouldnotregardtheconnexionasmoredesirablethanhedid。Ithadeveryrecommendationtohim;
andwhilehonouringherforwhatshehaddoneundertheinfluenceofherpresentindifference,honouringherinratherstrongertermsthanSirThomascouldquiteecho,hewasmostearnestinhoping,andsanguineinbelieving,thatitwouldbeamatchatlast,andthat,unitedbymutualaffection,itwouldappearthattheirdispositionswereasexactlyfittedtomakethemblessedineachother,ashewasnowbeginningseriouslytoconsiderthem。
Crawfordhadbeentooprecipitate。Hehadnotgivenhertimetoattachherself。Hehadbegunatthewrongend。
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