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第51章

  “Mydaughters,“repliedSirThomas,gravelyinterposing,“havetheirpleasuresatBrighton,andIhopeareveryhappy;
  butthedancewhichIthinkofgivingatMansfieldwillbefortheircousins。Couldwebeallassembled,oursatisfactionwouldundoubtedlybemorecomplete,buttheabsenceofsomeisnottodebartheothersofamusement。“
  Mrs。Norrishadnotanotherwordtosay。Shesawdecisioninhislooks,andhersurpriseandvexationrequiredsomeminutes’silencetobesettledintocomposure。
  Aballatsuchatime!Hisdaughtersabsentandherselfnotconsulted!Therewascomfort,however,soonathand。
  _She_mustbethedoerofeverything:LadyBertramwouldofcoursebesparedallthoughtandexertion,anditwouldallfallupon_her_。Sheshouldhavetodothehonoursoftheevening;andthisreflectionquicklyrestoredsomuchofhergood-humourasenabledhertojoininwiththeothers,beforetheirhappinessandthankswereallexpressed。
  Edmund,William,andFannydid,intheirdifferentways,lookandspeakasmuchgratefulpleasureinthepromisedballasSirThomascoulddesire。Edmund’sfeelingswerefortheothertwo。Hisfatherhadneverconferredafavourorshewnakindnessmoretohissatisfaction。
  LadyBertramwasperfectlyquiescentandcontented,andhadnoobjectionstomake。SirThomasengagedforitsgivingherverylittletrouble;andsheassuredhim“thatshewasnotatallafraidofthetrouble;
  indeed,shecouldnotimaginetherewouldbeany。“
  Mrs。Norriswasreadywithhersuggestionsastotheroomshewouldthinkfittesttobeused,butfounditallprearranged;
  andwhenshewouldhaveconjecturedandhintedabouttheday,itappearedthatthedaywassettledtoo。
  SirThomashadbeenamusinghimselfwithshapingaverycompleteoutlineofthebusiness;andassoonasshewouldlistenquietly,couldreadhislistofthefamiliestobeinvited,fromwhomhecalculated,withallnecessaryallowancefortheshortnessofthenotice,tocollectyoungpeopleenoughtoformtwelveorfourteencouple:
  andcoulddetailtheconsiderationswhichhadinducedhimtofixonthe22ndasthemosteligibleday。
  WilliamwasrequiredtobeatPortsmouthonthe24th;
  the22ndwouldthereforebethelastdayofhisvisit;
  butwherethedaysweresofewitwouldbeunwisetofixonanyearlier。Mrs。Norriswasobligedtobesatisfiedwiththinkingjustthesame,andwithhavingbeenonthepointofproposingthe22ndherself,asbyfarthebestdayforthepurpose。
  Theballwasnowasettledthing,andbeforetheeveningaproclaimedthingtoallwhomitconcerned。Invitationsweresentwithdespatch,andmanyayoungladywenttobedthatnightwithherheadfullofhappycaresaswellasFanny。
  Toherthecaresweresometimesalmostbeyondthehappiness;
  foryoungandinexperienced,withsmallmeansofchoiceandnoconfidenceinherowntaste,the“howsheshouldbedressed“wasapointofpainfulsolicitude;
  andthealmostsolitaryornamentinherpossession,averyprettyambercrosswhichWilliamhadbroughtherfromSicily,wasthegreatestdistressofall,forshehadnothingbutabitofribbontofastenitto;
  andthoughshehadwornitinthatmanneronce,woulditbeallowableatsuchatimeinthemidstofalltherichornamentswhichshesupposedalltheotheryoungladieswouldappearin?Andyetnottowearit!Williamhadwantedtobuyheragoldchaintoo,butthepurchasehadbeenbeyondhismeans,andthereforenottowearthecrossmightbemortifyinghim。Thesewereanxiousconsiderations;
  enoughtosoberherspiritsevenundertheprospectofaballgivenprincipallyforhergratification。
  Thepreparationsmeanwhilewenton,andLadyBertramcontinuedtositonhersofawithoutanyinconveniencefromthem。
  Shehadsomeextravisitsfromthehousekeeper,andhermaidwasratherhurriedinmakingupanewdressforher:
  SirThomasgaveorders,andMrs。Norrisranabout;
  butallthisgave_her_notrouble,andasshehadforeseen,“therewas,infact,notroubleinthebusiness。“
  Edmundwasatthistimeparticularlyfullofcares:
  hismindbeingdeeplyoccupiedintheconsiderationoftwoimportanteventsnowathand,whichweretofixhisfateinlife——ordinationandmatrimony——eventsofsuchaseriouscharacterastomaketheball,whichwouldbeveryquicklyfollowedbyoneofthem,appearoflessmomentinhiseyesthaninthoseofanyotherpersoninthehouse。
  Onthe23rdhewasgoingtoafriendnearPeterborough,inthesamesituationashimself,andtheyweretoreceiveordinationinthecourseoftheChristmasweek。
  Halfhisdestinywouldthenbedetermined,buttheotherhalfmightnotbesoverysmoothlywooed。Hisdutieswouldbeestablished,butthewifewhowastoshare,andanimate,andrewardthoseduties,mightyetbeunattainable。
  Heknewhisownmind,buthewasnotalwaysperfectlyassuredofknowingMissCrawford’s。Therewerepointsonwhichtheydidnotquiteagree;thereweremomentsinwhichshedidnotseempropitious;andthoughtrustingaltogethertoheraffection,sofarastoberesolved——almostresolved——
  onbringingittoadecisionwithinaveryshorttime,assoonasthevarietyofbusinessbeforehimwerearranged,andheknewwhathehadtoofferher,hehadmanyanxiousfeelings,manydoubtinghoursastotheresult。
  Hisconvictionofherregardforhimwassometimesverystrong;
  hecouldlookbackonalongcourseofencouragement,andshewasasperfectindisinterestedattachmentasineverythingelse。Butatothertimesdoubtandalarmintermingledwithhishopes;andwhenhethoughtofheracknowledgeddisinclinationforprivacyandretirement,herdecidedpreferenceofaLondonlife,whatcouldheexpectbutadeterminedrejection?unlessitwereanacceptanceevenmoretobedeprecated,demandingsuchsacrificesofsituationandemploymentonhissideasconsciencemustforbid。
  Theissueofalldependedononequestion。Didshelovehimwellenoughtoforegowhathadusedtobeessentialpoints?Didshelovehimwellenoughtomakethemnolongeressential?Andthisquestion,whichhewascontinuallyrepeatingtohimself,thoughoftenestansweredwitha“Yes,“hadsometimesits“No。“
  MissCrawfordwassoontoleaveMansfield,andonthiscircumstancethe“no“andthe“yes“hadbeenveryrecentlyinalternation。Hehadseenhereyessparkleasshespokeofthedearfriend’sletter,whichclaimedalongvisitfromherinLondon,andofthekindnessofHenry,inengagingtoremainwherehewastillJanuary,thathemightconveyherthither;hehadheardherspeakofthepleasureofsuchajourneywithananimationwhichhad“no“ineverytone。
  Butthishadoccurredonthefirstdayofitsbeingsettled,withinthefirsthouroftheburstofsuchenjoyment,whennothingbutthefriendsshewastovisitwasbeforeher。
  Hehadsinceheardherexpressherselfdifferently,withotherfeelings,morechequeredfeelings:hehadheardhertellMrs。Grantthatsheshouldleaveherwithregret;
  thatshebegantobelieveneitherthefriendsnorthepleasuresshewasgoingtowereworththosesheleftbehind;andthatthoughshefeltshemustgo,andknewsheshouldenjoyherselfwhenonceaway,shewasalreadylookingforwardtobeingatMansfieldagain。
  Wastherenota“yes“inallthis?
  Withsuchmatterstoponderover,andarrange,andre-arrange,Edmundcouldnot,onhisownaccount,thinkverymuchoftheeveningwhichtherestofthefamilywerelookingforwardtowithamoreequaldegreeofstronginterest。
  Independentofhistwocousins’enjoymentinit,theeveningwastohimofnohighervaluethananyotherappointedmeetingofthetwofamiliesmightbe。
  IneverymeetingtherewasahopeofreceivingfartherconfirmationofMissCrawford’sattachment;butthewhirlofaballroom,perhaps,wasnotparticularlyfavourabletotheexcitementorexpressionofseriousfeelings。
  Toengageherearlyforthetwofirstdanceswasallthecommandofindividualhappinesswhichhefeltinhispower,andtheonlypreparationfortheballwhichhecouldenterinto,inspiteofallthatwaspassingaroundhimonthesubject,frommorningtillnight。
  Thursdaywasthedayoftheball;andonWednesdaymorningFanny,stillunabletosatisfyherselfastowhatsheoughttowear,determinedtoseekthecounselofthemoreenlightened,andapplytoMrs。Grantandhersister,whoseacknowledgedtastewouldcertainlybearherblameless;
  andasEdmundandWilliamweregonetoNorthampton,andshehadreasontothinkMr。Crawfordlikewiseout,shewalkeddowntotheParsonagewithoutmuchfearofwantinganopportunityforprivatediscussion;andtheprivacyofsuchadiscussionwasamostimportantpartofittoFanny,beingmorethanhalf-ashamedofherownsolicitude。
  ShemetMissCrawfordwithinafewyardsoftheParsonage,justsettingouttocallonher,andasitseemedtoherthatherfriend,thoughobligedtoinsistonturningback,wasunwillingtoloseherwalk,sheexplainedherbusinessatonce,andobserved,thatifshewouldbesokindastogiveheropinion,itmightbealltalkedoveraswellwithoutdoorsaswithin。MissCrawfordappearedgratifiedbytheapplication,andafteramoment’sthought,urgedFanny’sreturningwithherinamuchmorecordialmannerthanbefore,andproposedtheirgoingupintoherroom,wheretheymighthaveacomfortablecoze,withoutdisturbingDr。andMrs。Grant,whoweretogetherinthedrawing-room。ItwasjusttheplantosuitFanny;