“Mydaughters,“repliedSirThomas,gravelyinterposing,“havetheirpleasuresatBrighton,andIhopeareveryhappy;
butthedancewhichIthinkofgivingatMansfieldwillbefortheircousins。Couldwebeallassembled,oursatisfactionwouldundoubtedlybemorecomplete,buttheabsenceofsomeisnottodebartheothersofamusement。“
Mrs。Norrishadnotanotherwordtosay。Shesawdecisioninhislooks,andhersurpriseandvexationrequiredsomeminutes’silencetobesettledintocomposure。
Aballatsuchatime!Hisdaughtersabsentandherselfnotconsulted!Therewascomfort,however,soonathand。
_She_mustbethedoerofeverything:LadyBertramwouldofcoursebesparedallthoughtandexertion,anditwouldallfallupon_her_。Sheshouldhavetodothehonoursoftheevening;andthisreflectionquicklyrestoredsomuchofhergood-humourasenabledhertojoininwiththeothers,beforetheirhappinessandthankswereallexpressed。
Edmund,William,andFannydid,intheirdifferentways,lookandspeakasmuchgratefulpleasureinthepromisedballasSirThomascoulddesire。Edmund’sfeelingswerefortheothertwo。Hisfatherhadneverconferredafavourorshewnakindnessmoretohissatisfaction。
LadyBertramwasperfectlyquiescentandcontented,andhadnoobjectionstomake。SirThomasengagedforitsgivingherverylittletrouble;andsheassuredhim“thatshewasnotatallafraidofthetrouble;
indeed,shecouldnotimaginetherewouldbeany。“
Mrs。Norriswasreadywithhersuggestionsastotheroomshewouldthinkfittesttobeused,butfounditallprearranged;
andwhenshewouldhaveconjecturedandhintedabouttheday,itappearedthatthedaywassettledtoo。
SirThomashadbeenamusinghimselfwithshapingaverycompleteoutlineofthebusiness;andassoonasshewouldlistenquietly,couldreadhislistofthefamiliestobeinvited,fromwhomhecalculated,withallnecessaryallowancefortheshortnessofthenotice,tocollectyoungpeopleenoughtoformtwelveorfourteencouple:
andcoulddetailtheconsiderationswhichhadinducedhimtofixonthe22ndasthemosteligibleday。
WilliamwasrequiredtobeatPortsmouthonthe24th;
the22ndwouldthereforebethelastdayofhisvisit;
butwherethedaysweresofewitwouldbeunwisetofixonanyearlier。Mrs。Norriswasobligedtobesatisfiedwiththinkingjustthesame,andwithhavingbeenonthepointofproposingthe22ndherself,asbyfarthebestdayforthepurpose。
Theballwasnowasettledthing,andbeforetheeveningaproclaimedthingtoallwhomitconcerned。Invitationsweresentwithdespatch,andmanyayoungladywenttobedthatnightwithherheadfullofhappycaresaswellasFanny。
Toherthecaresweresometimesalmostbeyondthehappiness;
foryoungandinexperienced,withsmallmeansofchoiceandnoconfidenceinherowntaste,the“howsheshouldbedressed“wasapointofpainfulsolicitude;
andthealmostsolitaryornamentinherpossession,averyprettyambercrosswhichWilliamhadbroughtherfromSicily,wasthegreatestdistressofall,forshehadnothingbutabitofribbontofastenitto;
andthoughshehadwornitinthatmanneronce,woulditbeallowableatsuchatimeinthemidstofalltherichornamentswhichshesupposedalltheotheryoungladieswouldappearin?Andyetnottowearit!Williamhadwantedtobuyheragoldchaintoo,butthepurchasehadbeenbeyondhismeans,andthereforenottowearthecrossmightbemortifyinghim。Thesewereanxiousconsiderations;
enoughtosoberherspiritsevenundertheprospectofaballgivenprincipallyforhergratification。
Thepreparationsmeanwhilewenton,andLadyBertramcontinuedtositonhersofawithoutanyinconveniencefromthem。
Shehadsomeextravisitsfromthehousekeeper,andhermaidwasratherhurriedinmakingupanewdressforher:
SirThomasgaveorders,andMrs。Norrisranabout;
butallthisgave_her_notrouble,andasshehadforeseen,“therewas,infact,notroubleinthebusiness。“
Edmundwasatthistimeparticularlyfullofcares:
hismindbeingdeeplyoccupiedintheconsiderationoftwoimportanteventsnowathand,whichweretofixhisfateinlife——ordinationandmatrimony——eventsofsuchaseriouscharacterastomaketheball,whichwouldbeveryquicklyfollowedbyoneofthem,appearoflessmomentinhiseyesthaninthoseofanyotherpersoninthehouse。
Onthe23rdhewasgoingtoafriendnearPeterborough,inthesamesituationashimself,andtheyweretoreceiveordinationinthecourseoftheChristmasweek。
Halfhisdestinywouldthenbedetermined,buttheotherhalfmightnotbesoverysmoothlywooed。Hisdutieswouldbeestablished,butthewifewhowastoshare,andanimate,andrewardthoseduties,mightyetbeunattainable。
Heknewhisownmind,buthewasnotalwaysperfectlyassuredofknowingMissCrawford’s。Therewerepointsonwhichtheydidnotquiteagree;thereweremomentsinwhichshedidnotseempropitious;andthoughtrustingaltogethertoheraffection,sofarastoberesolved——almostresolved——
onbringingittoadecisionwithinaveryshorttime,assoonasthevarietyofbusinessbeforehimwerearranged,andheknewwhathehadtoofferher,hehadmanyanxiousfeelings,manydoubtinghoursastotheresult。
Hisconvictionofherregardforhimwassometimesverystrong;
hecouldlookbackonalongcourseofencouragement,andshewasasperfectindisinterestedattachmentasineverythingelse。Butatothertimesdoubtandalarmintermingledwithhishopes;andwhenhethoughtofheracknowledgeddisinclinationforprivacyandretirement,herdecidedpreferenceofaLondonlife,whatcouldheexpectbutadeterminedrejection?unlessitwereanacceptanceevenmoretobedeprecated,demandingsuchsacrificesofsituationandemploymentonhissideasconsciencemustforbid。
Theissueofalldependedononequestion。Didshelovehimwellenoughtoforegowhathadusedtobeessentialpoints?Didshelovehimwellenoughtomakethemnolongeressential?Andthisquestion,whichhewascontinuallyrepeatingtohimself,thoughoftenestansweredwitha“Yes,“hadsometimesits“No。“
MissCrawfordwassoontoleaveMansfield,andonthiscircumstancethe“no“andthe“yes“hadbeenveryrecentlyinalternation。Hehadseenhereyessparkleasshespokeofthedearfriend’sletter,whichclaimedalongvisitfromherinLondon,andofthekindnessofHenry,inengagingtoremainwherehewastillJanuary,thathemightconveyherthither;hehadheardherspeakofthepleasureofsuchajourneywithananimationwhichhad“no“ineverytone。
Butthishadoccurredonthefirstdayofitsbeingsettled,withinthefirsthouroftheburstofsuchenjoyment,whennothingbutthefriendsshewastovisitwasbeforeher。
Hehadsinceheardherexpressherselfdifferently,withotherfeelings,morechequeredfeelings:hehadheardhertellMrs。Grantthatsheshouldleaveherwithregret;
thatshebegantobelieveneitherthefriendsnorthepleasuresshewasgoingtowereworththosesheleftbehind;andthatthoughshefeltshemustgo,andknewsheshouldenjoyherselfwhenonceaway,shewasalreadylookingforwardtobeingatMansfieldagain。
Wastherenota“yes“inallthis?
Withsuchmatterstoponderover,andarrange,andre-arrange,Edmundcouldnot,onhisownaccount,thinkverymuchoftheeveningwhichtherestofthefamilywerelookingforwardtowithamoreequaldegreeofstronginterest。
Independentofhistwocousins’enjoymentinit,theeveningwastohimofnohighervaluethananyotherappointedmeetingofthetwofamiliesmightbe。
IneverymeetingtherewasahopeofreceivingfartherconfirmationofMissCrawford’sattachment;butthewhirlofaballroom,perhaps,wasnotparticularlyfavourabletotheexcitementorexpressionofseriousfeelings。
Toengageherearlyforthetwofirstdanceswasallthecommandofindividualhappinesswhichhefeltinhispower,andtheonlypreparationfortheballwhichhecouldenterinto,inspiteofallthatwaspassingaroundhimonthesubject,frommorningtillnight。
Thursdaywasthedayoftheball;andonWednesdaymorningFanny,stillunabletosatisfyherselfastowhatsheoughttowear,determinedtoseekthecounselofthemoreenlightened,andapplytoMrs。Grantandhersister,whoseacknowledgedtastewouldcertainlybearherblameless;
andasEdmundandWilliamweregonetoNorthampton,andshehadreasontothinkMr。Crawfordlikewiseout,shewalkeddowntotheParsonagewithoutmuchfearofwantinganopportunityforprivatediscussion;andtheprivacyofsuchadiscussionwasamostimportantpartofittoFanny,beingmorethanhalf-ashamedofherownsolicitude。
ShemetMissCrawfordwithinafewyardsoftheParsonage,justsettingouttocallonher,andasitseemedtoherthatherfriend,thoughobligedtoinsistonturningback,wasunwillingtoloseherwalk,sheexplainedherbusinessatonce,andobserved,thatifshewouldbesokindastogiveheropinion,itmightbealltalkedoveraswellwithoutdoorsaswithin。MissCrawfordappearedgratifiedbytheapplication,andafteramoment’sthought,urgedFanny’sreturningwithherinamuchmorecordialmannerthanbefore,andproposedtheirgoingupintoherroom,wheretheymighthaveacomfortablecoze,withoutdisturbingDr。andMrs。Grant,whoweretogetherinthedrawing-room。ItwasjusttheplantosuitFanny;
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