“Youintendtobeveryrich?“saidEdmund,withalookwhich,toFanny’seye,hadagreatdealofseriousmeaning。
“Tobesure。Donotyou?Donotweall?“
“Icannotintendanythingwhichitmustbesocompletelybeyondmypowertocommand。MissCrawfordmaychuseherdegreeofwealth。Shehasonlytofixonhernumberofthousandsayear,andtherecanbenodoubtoftheircoming。
Myintentionsareonlynottobepoor。“
“Bymoderationandeconomy,andbringingdownyourwantstoyourincome,andallthat。Iunderstandyou——andaveryproperplanitisforapersonatyourtimeoflife,withsuchlimitedmeansandindifferentconnexions。
Whatcan_you_wantbutadecentmaintenance?Youhavenotmuchtimebeforeyou;andyourrelationsareinnosituationtodoanythingforyou,ortomortifyyoubythecontrastoftheirownwealthandconsequence。
Behonestandpoor,byallmeans——butIshallnotenvyyou;IdonotmuchthinkIshallevenrespectyou。
Ihaveamuchgreaterrespectforthosethatarehonestandrich。“
“Yourdegreeofrespectforhonesty,richorpoor,ispreciselywhatIhavenomannerofconcernwith。
Idonotmeantobepoor。PovertyisexactlywhatIhavedeterminedagainst。Honesty,inthesomethingbetween,inthemiddlestateofworldlycircumstances,isallthatI
amanxiousforyournotlookingdownon。“
“ButIdolookdownuponit,ifitmighthavebeenhigher。
Imustlookdownuponanythingcontentedwithobscuritywhenitmightrisetodistinction。“
“Buthowmayitrise?Howmaymyhonestyatleastrisetoanydistinction?“
Thiswasnotsoveryeasyaquestiontoanswer,andoccasionedan“Oh!“ofsomelengthfromthefairladybeforeshecouldadd,“Yououghttobeinparliament,oryoushouldhavegoneintothearmytenyearsago。“
“_That_isnotmuchtothepurposenow;andastomybeinginparliament,IbelieveImustwaittillthereisanespecialassemblyfortherepresentationofyoungersonswhohavelittletoliveon。No,MissCrawford,“headded,inamoreserioustone,“there_are_distinctionswhichI
shouldbemiserableifIthoughtmyselfwithoutanychance——
absolutelywithoutchanceorpossibilityofobtaining——
buttheyareofadifferentcharacter。“
Alookofconsciousnessashespoke,andwhatseemedaconsciousnessofmanneronMissCrawford’ssideasshemadesomelaughinganswer,wassorrowfullfoodforFanny’sobservation;andfindingherselfquiteunabletoattendassheoughttoMrs。Grant,bywhosesideshewasnowfollowingtheothers,shehadnearlyresolvedongoinghomeimmediately,andonlywaitedforcouragetosayso,whenthesoundofthegreatclockatMansfieldPark,strikingthree,madeherfeelthatshehadreallybeenmuchlongerabsentthanusual,andbroughtthepreviousself-inquiryofwhethersheshouldtakeleaveornotjustthen,andhow,toaveryspeedyissue。
Withundoubtingdecisionshedirectlybeganheradieus;
andEdmundbeganatthesametimetorecollectthathismotherhadbeeninquiringforher,andthathehadwalkeddowntotheParsonageonpurposetobringherback。
Fanny’shurryincreased;andwithoutintheleastexpectingEdmund’sattendance,shewouldhavehastenedawayalone;
butthegeneralpacewasquickened,andtheyallaccompaniedherintothehouse,throughwhichitwasnecessarytopass。
Dr。Grantwasinthevestibule,andastheystopttospeaktohimshefound,fromEdmund’smanner,thathe_did_meantogowithher。Hetoowastakingleave。
Shecouldnotbutbethankful。Inthemomentofparting,EdmundwasinvitedbyDr。Granttoeathismuttonwithhimthenextday;andFannyhadbarelytimeforanunpleasantfeelingontheoccasion,whenMrs。Grant,withsuddenrecollection,turnedtoherandaskedforthepleasureofhercompanytoo。Thiswassonewanattention,soperfectlynewacircumstanceintheeventsofFanny’slife,thatshewasallsurpriseandembarrassment;
andwhilestammeringouthergreatobligation,andher“butshedidnotsupposeitwouldbeinherpower,“
waslookingatEdmundforhisopinionandhelp。ButEdmund,delightedwithherhavingsuchanhappinessoffered,andascertainingwithhalfalook,andhalfasentence,thatshehadnoobjectionbutonheraunt’saccount,couldnotimaginethathismotherwouldmakeanydifficultyofsparingher,andthereforegavehisdecidedopenadvicethattheinvitationshouldbeaccepted;andthoughFannywouldnotventure,evenonhisencouragement,tosuchaflightofaudaciousindependence,itwassoonsettled,thatifnothingwereheardtothecontrary,Mrs。Grantmightexpecther。
“Andyouknowwhatyourdinnerwillbe,“
saidMrs。Grant,smiling——“theturkey,andIassureyouaveryfineone;for,mydear,“turningtoherhusband,“cookinsistsupontheturkey’sbeingdressedto-morrow。“
“Verywell,verywell,“criedDr。Grant,“allthebetter;
Iamgladtohearyouhaveanythingsogoodinthehouse。
ButMissPriceandMr。EdmundBertram,Idaresay,wouldtaketheirchance。Wenoneofuswanttohearthebilloffare。
Afriendlymeeting,andnotafinedinner,isallwehaveinview。Aturkey,oragoose,oralegofmutton,orwhateveryouandyourcookchusetogiveus。“
Thetwocousinswalkedhometogether;and,exceptintheimmediatediscussionofthisengagement,whichEdmundspokeofwiththewarmestsatisfaction,assoparticularlydesirableforherintheintimacywhichhesawwithsomuchpleasureestablished,itwasasilentwalk;
forhavingfinishedthatsubject,hegrewthoughtfulandindisposedforanyother。
“ButwhyshouldMrs。GrantaskFanny?“saidLadyBertram。
“HowcameshetothinkofaskingFanny?Fannyneverdinesthere,youknow,inthissortofway。Icannotspareher,andIamsureshedoesnotwanttogo。
Fanny,youdonotwanttogo,doyou?“
“Ifyouputsuchaquestiontoher,“criedEdmund,preventinghiscousin’sspeaking,“FannywillimmediatelysayNo;butIamsure,mydearmother,shewouldliketogo;
andIcanseenoreasonwhysheshouldnot。“
“IcannotimaginewhyMrs。Grantshouldthinkofaskingher?
Sheneverdidbefore。Sheusedtoaskyoursistersnowandthen,butsheneveraskedFanny。“
“Ifyoucannotdowithoutme,ma’am——“saidFanny,inaself-denyingtone。
“Butmymotherwillhavemyfatherwithheralltheevening。“
“Tobesure,soIshall。“
“Supposeyoutakemyfather’sopinion,ma’am。“
“That’swellthoughtof。SoIwill,Edmund。IwillaskSirThomas,assoonashecomesin,whetherIcandowithouther。“
“Asyouplease,ma’am,onthathead;butImeantmyfather’sopinionastothe_propriety_oftheinvitation’sbeingacceptedornot;andIthinkhewillconsideritarightthingbyMrs。Grant,aswellasbyFanny,thatbeingthe_first_invitationitshouldbeaccepted。“
“Idonotknow。Wewillaskhim。ButhewillbeverymuchsurprisedthatMrs。GrantshouldaskFannyatall。“
Therewasnothingmoretobesaid,orthatcouldbesaidtoanypurpose,tillSirThomaswerepresent;
butthesubjectinvolving,asitdid,herownevening’scomfortforthemorrow,wassomuchuppermostinLadyBertram’smind,thathalfanhourafterwards,onhislookinginforaminuteinhiswayfromhisplantationtohisdressing-room,shecalledhimbackagain,whenhehadalmostclosedthedoor,with“SirThomas,stopamoment——Ihavesomethingtosaytoyou。“
Hertoneofcalmlanguor,forshenevertookthetroubleofraisinghervoice,wasalwaysheardandattendedto;
andSirThomascameback。Herstorybegan;andFannyimmediatelyslippedoutoftheroom;fortohearherselfthesubjectofanydiscussionwithherunclewasmorethanhernervescouldbear。Shewasanxious,sheknew——
moreanxiousperhapsthansheoughttobe——forwhatwasitafterallwhethershewentorstaid?butifheruncleweretobeagreatwhileconsideringanddeciding,andwithverygravelooks,andthosegravelooksdirectedtoher,andatlastdecideagainsther,shemightnotbeabletoappearproperlysubmissiveandindifferent。
Hercause,meanwhile,wentonwell。Itbegan,onLadyBertram’spart,with——“Ihavesomethingtotellyouthatwillsurpriseyou。Mrs。GranthasaskedFannytodinner。“
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