“AndIlongedtodoit——buttherewassuchadeadsilence!
Andwhilemycousinsweresittingbywithoutspeakingaword,orseemingatallinterestedinthesubject,Ididnotlike——
IthoughtitwouldappearasifIwantedtosetmyselfoffattheirexpense,byshewingacuriosityandpleasureinhisinformationwhichhemustwishhisowndaughterstofeel。“
“MissCrawfordwasveryrightinwhatshesaidofyoutheotherday:thatyouseemedalmostasfearfulofnoticeandpraiseasotherwomenwereofneglect。WeweretalkingofyouattheParsonage,andthosewereherwords。
Shehasgreatdiscernment。Iknownobodywhodistinguishescharactersbetter。Forsoyoungawomanitisremarkable!
Shecertainlyunderstands_you_betterthanyouareunderstoodbythegreaterpartofthosewhohaveknownyousolong;andwithregardtosomeothers,Icanperceive,fromoccasionallivelyhints,theunguardedexpressionsofthemoment,thatshecoulddefine_many_asaccurately,didnotdelicacyforbidit。Iwonderwhatshethinksofmyfather!Shemustadmirehimasafine-lookingman,withmostgentlemanlike,dignified,consistentmanners;
butperhaps,havingseenhimsoseldom,hisreservemaybealittlerepulsive。Couldtheybemuchtogether,Ifeelsureoftheirlikingeachother。Hewouldenjoyherlivelinessandshehastalentstovaluehispowers。
Iwishtheymetmorefrequently!Ihopeshedoesnotsupposethereisanydislikeonhisside。“
“Shemustknowherselftoosecureoftheregardofalltherestofyou,“saidFanny,withhalfasigh,“tohaveanysuchapprehension。AndSirThomas’swishingjustatfirsttobeonlywithhisfamily,issoverynatural,thatshecanarguenothingfromthat。Afteralittlewhile,Idaresay,weshallbemeetingagaininthesamesortofway,allowingforthedifferenceofthetimeofyear。“
“ThisisthefirstOctoberthatshehaspassedinthecountrysinceherinfancy。IdonotcallTunbridgeorCheltenhamthecountry;andNovemberisastillmoreseriousmonth,andIcanseethatMrs。GrantisveryanxiousforhernotfindingMansfielddullaswintercomeson。“
Fannycouldhavesaidagreatdeal,butitwassafertosaynothing,andleaveuntouchedallMissCrawford’sresources——
heraccomplishments,herspirits,herimportance,herfriends,lestitshouldbetrayherintoanyobservationsseeminglyunhandsome。MissCrawford’skindopinionofherselfdeservedatleastagratefulforbearance,andshebegantotalkofsomethingelse。
“To-morrow,Ithink,myuncledinesatSotherton,andyouandMr。Bertramtoo。Weshallbequiteasmallpartyathome。
IhopemyunclemaycontinuetolikeMr。Rushworth。“
“Thatisimpossible,Fanny。Hemustlikehimlessafterto-morrow’svisit,forweshallbefivehoursinhiscompany。Ishoulddreadthestupidityoftheday,iftherewerenotamuchgreatereviltofollow——
theimpressionitmustleaveonSirThomas。Hecannotmuchlongerdeceivehimself。Iamsorryforthemall,andwouldgivesomethingthatRushworthandMariahadnevermet。“
Inthisquarter,indeed,disappointmentwasimpendingoverSirThomas。Notallhisgood-willforMr。Rushworth,notallMr。Rushworth’sdeferenceforhim,couldpreventhimfromsoondiscerningsomepartofthetruth——
thatMr。Rushworthwasaninferioryoungman,asignorantinbusinessasinbooks,withopinionsingeneralunfixed,andwithoutseemingmuchawareofithimself。
Hehadexpectedaverydifferentson-in-law;andbeginningtofeelgraveonMaria’saccount,triedtounderstand_her_feelings。Littleobservationtherewasnecessarytotellhimthatindifferencewasthemostfavourablestatetheycouldbein。HerbehaviourtoMr。Rushworthwascarelessandcold。Shecouldnot,didnotlikehim。
SirThomasresolvedtospeakseriouslytoher。
Advantageousaswouldbethealliance,andlongstandingandpublicaswastheengagement,herhappinessmustnotbesacrificedtoit。Mr。Rushworthhad,perhaps,beenacceptedontooshortanacquaintance,and,onknowinghimbetter,shewasrepenting。
WithsolemnkindnessSirThomasaddressedher:toldherhisfears,inquiredintoherwishes,entreatedhertobeopenandsincere,andassuredherthateveryinconvenienceshouldbebraved,andtheconnexionentirelygivenup,ifshefeltherselfunhappyintheprospectofit。
Hewouldactforherandreleaseher。Mariahadamoment’sstruggleasshelistened,andonlyamoment’s:whenherfatherceased,shewasabletogiveheranswerimmediately,decidedly,andwithnoapparentagitation。Shethankedhimforhisgreatattention,hispaternalkindness,buthewasquitemistakeninsupposingshehadthesmallestdesireofbreakingthroughherengagement,orwassensibleofanychangeofopinionorinclinationsinceherformingit。
ShehadthehighestesteemforMr。Rushworth’scharacteranddisposition,andcouldnothaveadoubtofherhappinesswithhim。
SirThomaswassatisfied;toogladtobesatisfied,perhaps,tourgethematterquitesofarashisjudgmentmighthavedictatedtoothers。Itwasanalliancewhichhecouldnothaverelinquishedwithoutpain;andthushereasoned。Mr。Rushworthwasyoungenoughtoimprove。
Mr。Rushworthmustandwouldimproveingoodsociety;
andifMariacouldnowspeaksosecurelyofherhappinesswithhim,speakingcertainlywithouttheprejudice,theblindnessoflove,sheoughttobebelieved。
Herfeelings,probably,werenotacute;hehadneversupposedthemtobeso;buthercomfortsmightnotbelessonthataccount;andifshecoulddispensewithseeingherhusbandaleading,shiningcharacter,therewouldcertainlybeeverythingelseinherfavour。
Awell-disposedyoungwoman,whodidnotmarryforlove,wasingeneralbutthemoreattachedtoherownfamily;
andthenearnessofSothertontoMansfieldmustnaturallyholdoutthegreatesttemptation,andwould,inallprobability,beacontinualsupplyofthemostamiableandinnocentenjoyments。
Suchandsuch-likewerethereasoningsofSirThomas,happytoescapetheembarrassingevilsofarupture,thewonder,thereflections,thereproachthatmustattendit;happytosecureamarriagewhichwouldbringhimsuchanadditionofrespectabilityandinfluence,andveryhappytothinkanythingofhisdaughter’sdispositionthatwasmostfavourableforthepurpose。
Tohertheconferenceclosedassatisfactorilyastohim。
Shewasinastateofmindtobegladthatshehadsecuredherfatebeyondrecall:thatshehadpledgedherselfanewtoSotherton;thatshewassafefromthepossibilityofgivingCrawfordthetriumphofgoverningheractions,anddestroyingherprospects;andretiredinproudresolve,determinedonlytobehavemorecautiouslytoMr。Rushworthinfuture,thatherfathermightnotbeagainsuspectingher。
HadSirThomasappliedtohisdaughterwithinthefirstthreeorfourdaysafterHenryCrawford’sleavingMansfield,beforeherfeelingswereatalltranquillised,beforeshehadgivenupeveryhopeofhim,orabsolutelyresolvedonenduringhisrival,heranswermighthavebeendifferent;
butafteranotherthreeorfourdays,whentherewasnoreturn,noletter,nomessage,nosymptomofasoftenedheart,nohopeofadvantagefromseparation,hermindbecamecoolenoughtoseekallthecomfortthatprideandselfrevengecouldgive。
HenryCrawfordhaddestroyedherhappiness,butheshouldnotknowthathehaddoneit;heshouldnotdestroyhercredit,herappearance,herprosperity,too。
HeshouldnothavetothinkofheraspiningintheretirementofMansfieldfor_him_,rejectingSothertonandLondon,independenceandsplendour,for_his_sake。
Independencewasmoreneedfulthanever;thewantofitatMansfieldmoresensiblyfelt。Shewaslessandlessabletoenduretherestraintwhichherfatherimposed。
Thelibertywhichhisabsencehadgivenwasnowbecomeabsolutelynecessary。ShemustescapefromhimandMansfieldassoonaspossible,andfindconsolationinfortuneandconsequence,bustleandtheworld,forawoundedspirit。
Hermindwasquitedetermined,andvariednot。
Tosuchfeelingsdelay,eventhedelayofmuchpreparation,wouldhavebeenanevil,andMr。Rushworthcouldhardlybemoreimpatientforthemarriagethanherself。
Inalltheimportantpreparationsofthemindshewascomplete:beingpreparedformatrimonybyanhatredofhome,restraint,andtranquillity;bythemiseryofdisappointedaffection,andcontemptofthemanshewastomarry。Therestmightwait。ThepreparationsofnewcarriagesandfurnituremightwaitforLondonandspring,whenherowntastecouldhavefairerplay。
Theprincipalsbeingallagreedinthisrespect,itsoonappearedthataveryfewweekswouldbesufficientforsucharrangementsasmustprecedethewedding。
Mrs。Rushworthwasquitereadytoretire,andmakewayforthefortunateyoungwomanwhomherdearsonhadselected;
andveryearlyinNovemberremovedherself,hermaid,herfootman,andherchariot,withtruedowagerpropriety,toBath,theretoparadeoverthewondersofSothertoninhereveningparties;enjoyingthemasthoroughly,perhaps,intheanimationofacard-table,asshehadeverdoneonthespot;andbeforethemiddleofthesamemonththeceremonyhadtakenplacewhichgaveSothertonanothermistress。
Itwasaveryproperwedding。Thebridewaselegantlydressed;
thetwobridesmaidsweredulyinferior;herfathergaveheraway;hermotherstoodwithsaltsinherhand,expectingtobeagitated;heraunttriedtocry;
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