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第40章

  “AndIlongedtodoit——buttherewassuchadeadsilence!
  Andwhilemycousinsweresittingbywithoutspeakingaword,orseemingatallinterestedinthesubject,Ididnotlike——
  IthoughtitwouldappearasifIwantedtosetmyselfoffattheirexpense,byshewingacuriosityandpleasureinhisinformationwhichhemustwishhisowndaughterstofeel。“
  “MissCrawfordwasveryrightinwhatshesaidofyoutheotherday:thatyouseemedalmostasfearfulofnoticeandpraiseasotherwomenwereofneglect。WeweretalkingofyouattheParsonage,andthosewereherwords。
  Shehasgreatdiscernment。Iknownobodywhodistinguishescharactersbetter。Forsoyoungawomanitisremarkable!
  Shecertainlyunderstands_you_betterthanyouareunderstoodbythegreaterpartofthosewhohaveknownyousolong;andwithregardtosomeothers,Icanperceive,fromoccasionallivelyhints,theunguardedexpressionsofthemoment,thatshecoulddefine_many_asaccurately,didnotdelicacyforbidit。Iwonderwhatshethinksofmyfather!Shemustadmirehimasafine-lookingman,withmostgentlemanlike,dignified,consistentmanners;
  butperhaps,havingseenhimsoseldom,hisreservemaybealittlerepulsive。Couldtheybemuchtogether,Ifeelsureoftheirlikingeachother。Hewouldenjoyherlivelinessandshehastalentstovaluehispowers。
  Iwishtheymetmorefrequently!Ihopeshedoesnotsupposethereisanydislikeonhisside。“
  “Shemustknowherselftoosecureoftheregardofalltherestofyou,“saidFanny,withhalfasigh,“tohaveanysuchapprehension。AndSirThomas’swishingjustatfirsttobeonlywithhisfamily,issoverynatural,thatshecanarguenothingfromthat。Afteralittlewhile,Idaresay,weshallbemeetingagaininthesamesortofway,allowingforthedifferenceofthetimeofyear。“
  “ThisisthefirstOctoberthatshehaspassedinthecountrysinceherinfancy。IdonotcallTunbridgeorCheltenhamthecountry;andNovemberisastillmoreseriousmonth,andIcanseethatMrs。GrantisveryanxiousforhernotfindingMansfielddullaswintercomeson。“
  Fannycouldhavesaidagreatdeal,butitwassafertosaynothing,andleaveuntouchedallMissCrawford’sresources——
  heraccomplishments,herspirits,herimportance,herfriends,lestitshouldbetrayherintoanyobservationsseeminglyunhandsome。MissCrawford’skindopinionofherselfdeservedatleastagratefulforbearance,andshebegantotalkofsomethingelse。
  “To-morrow,Ithink,myuncledinesatSotherton,andyouandMr。Bertramtoo。Weshallbequiteasmallpartyathome。
  IhopemyunclemaycontinuetolikeMr。Rushworth。“
  “Thatisimpossible,Fanny。Hemustlikehimlessafterto-morrow’svisit,forweshallbefivehoursinhiscompany。Ishoulddreadthestupidityoftheday,iftherewerenotamuchgreatereviltofollow——
  theimpressionitmustleaveonSirThomas。Hecannotmuchlongerdeceivehimself。Iamsorryforthemall,andwouldgivesomethingthatRushworthandMariahadnevermet。“
  Inthisquarter,indeed,disappointmentwasimpendingoverSirThomas。Notallhisgood-willforMr。Rushworth,notallMr。Rushworth’sdeferenceforhim,couldpreventhimfromsoondiscerningsomepartofthetruth——
  thatMr。Rushworthwasaninferioryoungman,asignorantinbusinessasinbooks,withopinionsingeneralunfixed,andwithoutseemingmuchawareofithimself。
  Hehadexpectedaverydifferentson-in-law;andbeginningtofeelgraveonMaria’saccount,triedtounderstand_her_feelings。Littleobservationtherewasnecessarytotellhimthatindifferencewasthemostfavourablestatetheycouldbein。HerbehaviourtoMr。Rushworthwascarelessandcold。Shecouldnot,didnotlikehim。
  SirThomasresolvedtospeakseriouslytoher。
  Advantageousaswouldbethealliance,andlongstandingandpublicaswastheengagement,herhappinessmustnotbesacrificedtoit。Mr。Rushworthhad,perhaps,beenacceptedontooshortanacquaintance,and,onknowinghimbetter,shewasrepenting。
  WithsolemnkindnessSirThomasaddressedher:toldherhisfears,inquiredintoherwishes,entreatedhertobeopenandsincere,andassuredherthateveryinconvenienceshouldbebraved,andtheconnexionentirelygivenup,ifshefeltherselfunhappyintheprospectofit。
  Hewouldactforherandreleaseher。Mariahadamoment’sstruggleasshelistened,andonlyamoment’s:whenherfatherceased,shewasabletogiveheranswerimmediately,decidedly,andwithnoapparentagitation。Shethankedhimforhisgreatattention,hispaternalkindness,buthewasquitemistakeninsupposingshehadthesmallestdesireofbreakingthroughherengagement,orwassensibleofanychangeofopinionorinclinationsinceherformingit。
  ShehadthehighestesteemforMr。Rushworth’scharacteranddisposition,andcouldnothaveadoubtofherhappinesswithhim。
  SirThomaswassatisfied;toogladtobesatisfied,perhaps,tourgethematterquitesofarashisjudgmentmighthavedictatedtoothers。Itwasanalliancewhichhecouldnothaverelinquishedwithoutpain;andthushereasoned。Mr。Rushworthwasyoungenoughtoimprove。
  Mr。Rushworthmustandwouldimproveingoodsociety;
  andifMariacouldnowspeaksosecurelyofherhappinesswithhim,speakingcertainlywithouttheprejudice,theblindnessoflove,sheoughttobebelieved。
  Herfeelings,probably,werenotacute;hehadneversupposedthemtobeso;buthercomfortsmightnotbelessonthataccount;andifshecoulddispensewithseeingherhusbandaleading,shiningcharacter,therewouldcertainlybeeverythingelseinherfavour。
  Awell-disposedyoungwoman,whodidnotmarryforlove,wasingeneralbutthemoreattachedtoherownfamily;
  andthenearnessofSothertontoMansfieldmustnaturallyholdoutthegreatesttemptation,andwould,inallprobability,beacontinualsupplyofthemostamiableandinnocentenjoyments。
  Suchandsuch-likewerethereasoningsofSirThomas,happytoescapetheembarrassingevilsofarupture,thewonder,thereflections,thereproachthatmustattendit;happytosecureamarriagewhichwouldbringhimsuchanadditionofrespectabilityandinfluence,andveryhappytothinkanythingofhisdaughter’sdispositionthatwasmostfavourableforthepurpose。
  Tohertheconferenceclosedassatisfactorilyastohim。
  Shewasinastateofmindtobegladthatshehadsecuredherfatebeyondrecall:thatshehadpledgedherselfanewtoSotherton;thatshewassafefromthepossibilityofgivingCrawfordthetriumphofgoverningheractions,anddestroyingherprospects;andretiredinproudresolve,determinedonlytobehavemorecautiouslytoMr。Rushworthinfuture,thatherfathermightnotbeagainsuspectingher。
  HadSirThomasappliedtohisdaughterwithinthefirstthreeorfourdaysafterHenryCrawford’sleavingMansfield,beforeherfeelingswereatalltranquillised,beforeshehadgivenupeveryhopeofhim,orabsolutelyresolvedonenduringhisrival,heranswermighthavebeendifferent;
  butafteranotherthreeorfourdays,whentherewasnoreturn,noletter,nomessage,nosymptomofasoftenedheart,nohopeofadvantagefromseparation,hermindbecamecoolenoughtoseekallthecomfortthatprideandselfrevengecouldgive。
  HenryCrawfordhaddestroyedherhappiness,butheshouldnotknowthathehaddoneit;heshouldnotdestroyhercredit,herappearance,herprosperity,too。
  HeshouldnothavetothinkofheraspiningintheretirementofMansfieldfor_him_,rejectingSothertonandLondon,independenceandsplendour,for_his_sake。
  Independencewasmoreneedfulthanever;thewantofitatMansfieldmoresensiblyfelt。Shewaslessandlessabletoenduretherestraintwhichherfatherimposed。
  Thelibertywhichhisabsencehadgivenwasnowbecomeabsolutelynecessary。ShemustescapefromhimandMansfieldassoonaspossible,andfindconsolationinfortuneandconsequence,bustleandtheworld,forawoundedspirit。
  Hermindwasquitedetermined,andvariednot。
  Tosuchfeelingsdelay,eventhedelayofmuchpreparation,wouldhavebeenanevil,andMr。Rushworthcouldhardlybemoreimpatientforthemarriagethanherself。
  Inalltheimportantpreparationsofthemindshewascomplete:beingpreparedformatrimonybyanhatredofhome,restraint,andtranquillity;bythemiseryofdisappointedaffection,andcontemptofthemanshewastomarry。Therestmightwait。ThepreparationsofnewcarriagesandfurnituremightwaitforLondonandspring,whenherowntastecouldhavefairerplay。
  Theprincipalsbeingallagreedinthisrespect,itsoonappearedthataveryfewweekswouldbesufficientforsucharrangementsasmustprecedethewedding。
  Mrs。Rushworthwasquitereadytoretire,andmakewayforthefortunateyoungwomanwhomherdearsonhadselected;
  andveryearlyinNovemberremovedherself,hermaid,herfootman,andherchariot,withtruedowagerpropriety,toBath,theretoparadeoverthewondersofSothertoninhereveningparties;enjoyingthemasthoroughly,perhaps,intheanimationofacard-table,asshehadeverdoneonthespot;andbeforethemiddleofthesamemonththeceremonyhadtakenplacewhichgaveSothertonanothermistress。
  Itwasaveryproperwedding。Thebridewaselegantlydressed;
  thetwobridesmaidsweredulyinferior;herfathergaveheraway;hermotherstoodwithsaltsinherhand,expectingtobeagitated;heraunttriedtocry;