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第39章

  andwhilethisbranchofthesubjectwasunderdiscussion,Maria,whowantedneitherpridenorresolution,waspreparingtoencounterhershareofitwithtolerablecalmness。
  Toherhesoonturned,repeatingmuchofwhathehadalreadysaid,withonlyasoftenedairandstrongerexpressionsofregret。Butwhatavailedhisexpressionsorhisair?Hewasgoing,and,ifnotvoluntarilygoing,voluntarilyintendingtostayaway;for,exceptingwhatmightbeduetohisuncle,hisengagementswereallself-imposed。
  Hemighttalkofnecessity,butsheknewhisindependence。
  Thehandwhichhadsopressedherstohisheart!thehandandtheheartwerealikemotionlessandpassivenow!
  Herspiritsupportedher,buttheagonyofhermindwassevere。
  Shehadnotlongtoendurewhatarosefromlisteningtolanguagewhichhisactionscontradicted,ortoburythetumultofherfeelingsundertherestraintofsociety;
  forgeneralcivilitiessooncalledhisnoticefromher,andthefarewellvisit,asitthenbecameopenlyacknowledged,wasaveryshortone。Hewasgone——hehadtouchedherhandforthelasttime,hehadmadehispartingbow,andshemightseekdirectlyallthatsolitudecoulddoforher。HenryCrawfordwasgone,gonefromthehouse,andwithintwohoursafterwardsfromtheparish;
  andsoendedallthehopeshisselfishvanityhadraisedinMariaandJuliaBertram。
  Juliacouldrejoicethathewasgone。Hispresencewasbeginningtobeodioustoher;andifMariagainedhimnot,shewasnowcoolenoughtodispensewithanyotherrevenge。
  Shedidnotwantexposuretobeaddedtodesertion。
  HenryCrawfordgone,shecouldevenpityhersister。
  WithapurerspiritdidFannyrejoiceintheintelligence。
  Shehearditatdinner,andfeltitablessing。
  Byalltheothersitwasmentionedwithregret;
  andhismeritshonouredwithduegradationoffeeling——
  fromthesincerityofEdmund’stoopartialregard,totheunconcernofhismotherspeakingentirelybyrote。
  Mrs。Norrisbegantolookabouther,andwonderthathisfallinginlovewithJuliahadcometonothing;
  andcouldalmostfearthatshehadbeenremissherselfinforwardingit;butwithsomanytocarefor,howwasitpossibleforeven_her_activitytokeeppacewithherwishes?
  Anotherdayortwo,andMr。Yateswasgonelikewise。
  In_his_departureSirThomasfeltthechiefinterest:
  wantingtobealonewithhisfamily,thepresenceofastrangersuperiortoMr。Yatesmusthavebeenirksome;
  butofhim,triflingandconfident,idleandexpensive,itwaseverywayvexatious。Inhimselfhewaswearisome,butasthefriendofTomandtheadmirerofJuliahebecameoffensive。SirThomashadbeenquiteindifferenttoMr。Crawford’sgoingorstaying:buthisgoodwishesforMr。Yates’shavingapleasantjourney,ashewalkedwithhimtothehall-door,weregivenwithgenuinesatisfaction。Mr。YateshadstaidtoseethedestructionofeverytheatricalpreparationatMansfield,theremovalofeverythingappertainingtotheplay:
  heleftthehouseinallthesobernessofitsgeneralcharacter;andSirThomashoped,inseeinghimoutofit,toberidoftheworstobjectconnectedwiththescheme,andthelastthatmustbeinevitablyremindinghimofitsexistence。
  Mrs。Norriscontrivedtoremoveonearticlefromhissightthatmighthavedistressedhim。Thecurtain,overwhichshehadpresidedwithsuchtalentandsuchsuccess,wentoffwithhertohercottage,whereshehappenedtobeparticularlyinwantofgreenbaize。
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  SirThomas’sreturnmadeastrikingchangeinthewaysofthefamily,independentofLovers’Vows。Underhisgovernment,Mansfieldwasanalteredplace。Somemembersoftheirsocietysentaway,andthespiritsofmanyotherssaddened——
  itwasallsamenessandgloomcomparedwiththepast——
  asombrefamilypartyrarelyenlivened。TherewaslittleintercoursewiththeParsonage。SirThomas,drawingbackfromintimaciesingeneral,wasparticularlydisinclined,atthistime,foranyengagementsbutinonequarter。
  TheRushworthsweretheonlyadditiontohisowndomesticcirclewhichhecouldsolicit。
  Edmunddidnotwonderthatsuchshouldbehisfather’sfeelings,norcouldheregretanythingbuttheexclusionoftheGrants。
  “Butthey,“heobservedtoFanny,“haveaclaim。Theyseemtobelongtous;theyseemtobepartofourselves。
  Icouldwishmyfatherweremoresensibleoftheirverygreatattentiontomymotherandsisterswhilehewasaway。
  Iamafraidtheymayfeelthemselvesneglected。
  Butthetruthis,thatmyfatherhardlyknowsthem。
  TheyhadnotbeenhereatwelvemonthwhenheleftEngland。
  Ifheknewthembetter,hewouldvaluetheirsocietyasitdeserves;fortheyareinfactexactlythesortofpeoplehewouldlike。Wearesometimesalittleinwantofanimationamongourselves:mysistersseemoutofspirits,andTomiscertainlynotathisease。
  Dr。andMrs。Grantwouldenlivenus,andmakeoureveningspassawaywithmoreenjoymenteventomyfather。“
  “Doyouthinkso?“saidFanny:“inmyopinion,myunclewouldnotlike_any_addition。Ithinkhevaluestheveryquietnessyouspeakof,andthatthereposeofhisownfamilycircleisallhewants。
  Anditdoesnotappeartomethatwearemoreseriousthanweusedtobe——Imeanbeforemyunclewentabroad。
  AswellasIcanrecollect,itwasalwaysmuchthesame。
  Therewasnevermuchlaughinginhispresence;or,ifthereisanydifference,itisnotmore,Ithink,thansuchanabsencehasatendencytoproduceatfirst。
  Theremustbeasortofshyness;butIcannotrecollectthatoureveningsformerlywereevermerry,exceptwhenmyunclewasintown。Noyoungpeople’sare,Isuppose,whenthosetheylookuptoareathome“。
  “Ibelieveyouareright,Fanny,“washisreply,afterashortconsideration。“Ibelieveoureveningsareratherreturnedtowhattheywere,thanassuminganewcharacter。
  Thenoveltywasintheirbeinglively。Yet,howstrongtheimpressionthatonlyafewweekswillgive!
  Ihavebeenfeelingasifwehadneverlivedsobefore。“
  “IsupposeIamgraverthanotherpeople,“saidFanny。
  “Theeveningsdonotappearlongtome。IlovetohearmyuncletalkoftheWestIndies。Icouldlistentohimforanhourtogether。Itentertains_me_morethanmanyotherthingshavedone;butthenIamunlikeotherpeople,Idaresay。“
  “Whyshouldyoudaresay_that_?“smiling。“Doyouwanttobetoldthatyouareonlyunlikeotherpeopleinbeingmorewiseanddiscreet?Butwhendidyou,oranybody,evergetacomplimentfromme,Fanny?
  Gotomyfatherifyouwanttobecomplimented。
  Hewillsatisfyyou。Askyourunclewhathethinks,andyouwillhearcomplimentsenough:andthoughtheymaybechieflyonyourperson,youmustputupwithit,andtrusttohisseeingasmuchbeautyofmindintime。“
  SuchlanguagewassonewtoFannythatitquiteembarrassedher。
  “Yourunclethinksyouverypretty,dearFanny——
  andthatisthelongandtheshortofthematter。
  Anybodybutmyselfwouldhavemadesomethingmoreofit,andanybodybutyouwouldresentthatyouhadnotbeenthoughtveryprettybefore;butthetruthis,thatyouruncleneverdidadmireyoutillnow——andnowhedoes。
  Yourcomplexionissoimproved!——andyouhavegainedsomuchcountenance!——andyourfigure——nay,Fanny,donotturnawayaboutit——itisbutanuncle。Ifyoucannotbearanuncle’sadmiration,whatistobecomeofyou?
  Youmustreallybegintohardenyourselftotheideaofbeingworthlookingat。Youmusttrynottomindgrowingupintoaprettywoman。“
  “Oh!don’ttalkso,don’ttalkso,“criedFanny,distressedbymorefeelingsthanhewasawareof;butseeingthatshewasdistressed,hehaddonewiththesubject,andonlyaddedmoreseriously——
  “Youruncleisdisposedtobepleasedwithyouineveryrespect;andIonlywishyouwouldtalktohimmore。
  Youareoneofthosewhoaretoosilentintheeveningcircle。“
  “ButIdotalktohimmorethanIused。IamsureIdo。
  Didnotyouhearmeaskhimabouttheslave-tradelastnight?“
  “Idid——andwasinhopesthequestionwouldbefollowedupbyothers。Itwouldhavepleasedyouruncletobeinquiredoffarther。“