andwhilethisbranchofthesubjectwasunderdiscussion,Maria,whowantedneitherpridenorresolution,waspreparingtoencounterhershareofitwithtolerablecalmness。
Toherhesoonturned,repeatingmuchofwhathehadalreadysaid,withonlyasoftenedairandstrongerexpressionsofregret。Butwhatavailedhisexpressionsorhisair?Hewasgoing,and,ifnotvoluntarilygoing,voluntarilyintendingtostayaway;for,exceptingwhatmightbeduetohisuncle,hisengagementswereallself-imposed。
Hemighttalkofnecessity,butsheknewhisindependence。
Thehandwhichhadsopressedherstohisheart!thehandandtheheartwerealikemotionlessandpassivenow!
Herspiritsupportedher,buttheagonyofhermindwassevere。
Shehadnotlongtoendurewhatarosefromlisteningtolanguagewhichhisactionscontradicted,ortoburythetumultofherfeelingsundertherestraintofsociety;
forgeneralcivilitiessooncalledhisnoticefromher,andthefarewellvisit,asitthenbecameopenlyacknowledged,wasaveryshortone。Hewasgone——hehadtouchedherhandforthelasttime,hehadmadehispartingbow,andshemightseekdirectlyallthatsolitudecoulddoforher。HenryCrawfordwasgone,gonefromthehouse,andwithintwohoursafterwardsfromtheparish;
andsoendedallthehopeshisselfishvanityhadraisedinMariaandJuliaBertram。
Juliacouldrejoicethathewasgone。Hispresencewasbeginningtobeodioustoher;andifMariagainedhimnot,shewasnowcoolenoughtodispensewithanyotherrevenge。
Shedidnotwantexposuretobeaddedtodesertion。
HenryCrawfordgone,shecouldevenpityhersister。
WithapurerspiritdidFannyrejoiceintheintelligence。
Shehearditatdinner,andfeltitablessing。
Byalltheothersitwasmentionedwithregret;
andhismeritshonouredwithduegradationoffeeling——
fromthesincerityofEdmund’stoopartialregard,totheunconcernofhismotherspeakingentirelybyrote。
Mrs。Norrisbegantolookabouther,andwonderthathisfallinginlovewithJuliahadcometonothing;
andcouldalmostfearthatshehadbeenremissherselfinforwardingit;butwithsomanytocarefor,howwasitpossibleforeven_her_activitytokeeppacewithherwishes?
Anotherdayortwo,andMr。Yateswasgonelikewise。
In_his_departureSirThomasfeltthechiefinterest:
wantingtobealonewithhisfamily,thepresenceofastrangersuperiortoMr。Yatesmusthavebeenirksome;
butofhim,triflingandconfident,idleandexpensive,itwaseverywayvexatious。Inhimselfhewaswearisome,butasthefriendofTomandtheadmirerofJuliahebecameoffensive。SirThomashadbeenquiteindifferenttoMr。Crawford’sgoingorstaying:buthisgoodwishesforMr。Yates’shavingapleasantjourney,ashewalkedwithhimtothehall-door,weregivenwithgenuinesatisfaction。Mr。YateshadstaidtoseethedestructionofeverytheatricalpreparationatMansfield,theremovalofeverythingappertainingtotheplay:
heleftthehouseinallthesobernessofitsgeneralcharacter;andSirThomashoped,inseeinghimoutofit,toberidoftheworstobjectconnectedwiththescheme,andthelastthatmustbeinevitablyremindinghimofitsexistence。
Mrs。Norriscontrivedtoremoveonearticlefromhissightthatmighthavedistressedhim。Thecurtain,overwhichshehadpresidedwithsuchtalentandsuchsuccess,wentoffwithhertohercottage,whereshehappenedtobeparticularlyinwantofgreenbaize。
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SirThomas’sreturnmadeastrikingchangeinthewaysofthefamily,independentofLovers’Vows。Underhisgovernment,Mansfieldwasanalteredplace。Somemembersoftheirsocietysentaway,andthespiritsofmanyotherssaddened——
itwasallsamenessandgloomcomparedwiththepast——
asombrefamilypartyrarelyenlivened。TherewaslittleintercoursewiththeParsonage。SirThomas,drawingbackfromintimaciesingeneral,wasparticularlydisinclined,atthistime,foranyengagementsbutinonequarter。
TheRushworthsweretheonlyadditiontohisowndomesticcirclewhichhecouldsolicit。
Edmunddidnotwonderthatsuchshouldbehisfather’sfeelings,norcouldheregretanythingbuttheexclusionoftheGrants。
“Butthey,“heobservedtoFanny,“haveaclaim。Theyseemtobelongtous;theyseemtobepartofourselves。
Icouldwishmyfatherweremoresensibleoftheirverygreatattentiontomymotherandsisterswhilehewasaway。
Iamafraidtheymayfeelthemselvesneglected。
Butthetruthis,thatmyfatherhardlyknowsthem。
TheyhadnotbeenhereatwelvemonthwhenheleftEngland。
Ifheknewthembetter,hewouldvaluetheirsocietyasitdeserves;fortheyareinfactexactlythesortofpeoplehewouldlike。Wearesometimesalittleinwantofanimationamongourselves:mysistersseemoutofspirits,andTomiscertainlynotathisease。
Dr。andMrs。Grantwouldenlivenus,andmakeoureveningspassawaywithmoreenjoymenteventomyfather。“
“Doyouthinkso?“saidFanny:“inmyopinion,myunclewouldnotlike_any_addition。Ithinkhevaluestheveryquietnessyouspeakof,andthatthereposeofhisownfamilycircleisallhewants。
Anditdoesnotappeartomethatwearemoreseriousthanweusedtobe——Imeanbeforemyunclewentabroad。
AswellasIcanrecollect,itwasalwaysmuchthesame。
Therewasnevermuchlaughinginhispresence;or,ifthereisanydifference,itisnotmore,Ithink,thansuchanabsencehasatendencytoproduceatfirst。
Theremustbeasortofshyness;butIcannotrecollectthatoureveningsformerlywereevermerry,exceptwhenmyunclewasintown。Noyoungpeople’sare,Isuppose,whenthosetheylookuptoareathome“。
“Ibelieveyouareright,Fanny,“washisreply,afterashortconsideration。“Ibelieveoureveningsareratherreturnedtowhattheywere,thanassuminganewcharacter。
Thenoveltywasintheirbeinglively。Yet,howstrongtheimpressionthatonlyafewweekswillgive!
Ihavebeenfeelingasifwehadneverlivedsobefore。“
“IsupposeIamgraverthanotherpeople,“saidFanny。
“Theeveningsdonotappearlongtome。IlovetohearmyuncletalkoftheWestIndies。Icouldlistentohimforanhourtogether。Itentertains_me_morethanmanyotherthingshavedone;butthenIamunlikeotherpeople,Idaresay。“
“Whyshouldyoudaresay_that_?“smiling。“Doyouwanttobetoldthatyouareonlyunlikeotherpeopleinbeingmorewiseanddiscreet?Butwhendidyou,oranybody,evergetacomplimentfromme,Fanny?
Gotomyfatherifyouwanttobecomplimented。
Hewillsatisfyyou。Askyourunclewhathethinks,andyouwillhearcomplimentsenough:andthoughtheymaybechieflyonyourperson,youmustputupwithit,andtrusttohisseeingasmuchbeautyofmindintime。“
SuchlanguagewassonewtoFannythatitquiteembarrassedher。
“Yourunclethinksyouverypretty,dearFanny——
andthatisthelongandtheshortofthematter。
Anybodybutmyselfwouldhavemadesomethingmoreofit,andanybodybutyouwouldresentthatyouhadnotbeenthoughtveryprettybefore;butthetruthis,thatyouruncleneverdidadmireyoutillnow——andnowhedoes。
Yourcomplexionissoimproved!——andyouhavegainedsomuchcountenance!——andyourfigure——nay,Fanny,donotturnawayaboutit——itisbutanuncle。Ifyoucannotbearanuncle’sadmiration,whatistobecomeofyou?
Youmustreallybegintohardenyourselftotheideaofbeingworthlookingat。Youmusttrynottomindgrowingupintoaprettywoman。“
“Oh!don’ttalkso,don’ttalkso,“criedFanny,distressedbymorefeelingsthanhewasawareof;butseeingthatshewasdistressed,hehaddonewiththesubject,andonlyaddedmoreseriously——
“Youruncleisdisposedtobepleasedwithyouineveryrespect;andIonlywishyouwouldtalktohimmore。
Youareoneofthosewhoaretoosilentintheeveningcircle。“
“ButIdotalktohimmorethanIused。IamsureIdo。
Didnotyouhearmeaskhimabouttheslave-tradelastnight?“
“Idid——andwasinhopesthequestionwouldbefollowedupbyothers。Itwouldhavepleasedyouruncletobeinquiredoffarther。“
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