andashemust,eitherinthenavyorarmy,havehadagreatmanymorepeopleunderhiscommandthanhehasnow,Ithinkmorewouldhavebeenmadeunhappybyhimasasailororsoldierthanasaclergyman。Besides,IcannotbutsupposethatwhatevertheremaybetowishotherwiseinDr。Grantwouldhavebeeninagreaterdangerofbecomingworseinamoreactiveandworldlyprofession,wherehewouldhavehadlesstimeandobligation——
wherehemighthaveescapedthatknowledgeofhimself,the_frequency_,atleast,ofthatknowledgewhichitisimpossibleheshouldescapeasheisnow。Aman——
asensiblemanlikeDr。Grant,cannotbeinthehabitofteachingotherstheirdutyeveryweek,cannotgotochurchtwiceeverySunday,andpreachsuchverygoodsermonsinsogoodamannerashedoes,withoutbeingthebetterforithimself。Itmustmakehimthink;
andIhavenodoubtthatheoftenerendeavourstorestrainhimselfthanhewouldifhehadbeenanythingbutaclergyman。“
“Wecannotprovetothecontrary,tobesure;butIwishyouabetterfate,MissPrice,thantobethewifeofamanwhoseamiablenessdependsuponhisownsermons;forthoughhemaypreachhimselfintoagood-humoureverySunday,itwillbebadenoughtohavehimquarrellingaboutgreengeesefromMondaymorningtillSaturdaynight。“
“IthinkthemanwhocouldoftenquarrelwithFanny,“
saidEdmundaffectionately,“mustbebeyondthereachofanysermons。“
Fannyturnedfartherintothewindow;andMissCrawfordhadonlytimetosay,inapleasantmanner,“IfancyMissPricehasbeenmoreusedtodeservepraisethantohearit“;when,beingearnestlyinvitedbytheMissBertramstojoininaglee,shetrippedofftotheinstrument,leavingEdmundlookingafterherinanecstasyofadmirationofallhermanyvirtues,fromherobligingmannersdowntoherlightandgracefultread。
“Theregoesgood-humour,Iamsure,“saidhepresently。
“Theregoesatemperwhichwouldnevergivepain!
Howwellshewalks!andhowreadilyshefallsinwiththeinclinationofothers!joiningthemthemomentsheisasked。
Whatapity,“headded,afteraninstant’sreflection,“thatsheshouldhavebeeninsuchhands!“
Fannyagreedtoit,andhadthepleasureofseeinghimcontinueatthewindowwithher,inspiteoftheexpectedglee;
andofhavinghiseyessoonturned,likehers,towardsthescenewithout,whereallthatwassolemn,andsoothing,andlovely,appearedinthebrilliancyofanuncloudednight,andthecontrastofthedeepshadeofthewoods。Fannyspokeherfeelings。“Here’sharmony!“saidshe;“here’srepose!
Here’swhatmayleaveallpaintingandallmusicbehind,andwhatpoetryonlycanattempttodescribe!Here’swhatmaytranquilliseeverycare,andliftthehearttorapture!
WhenIlookoutonsuchanightasthis,Ifeelasiftherecouldbeneitherwickednessnorsorrowintheworld;
andtherecertainlywouldbelessofbothifthesublimityofNatureweremoreattendedto,andpeoplewerecarriedmoreoutofthemselvesbycontemplatingsuchascene。“
“Iliketohearyourenthusiasm,Fanny。Itisalovelynight,andtheyaremuchtobepitiedwhohavenotbeentaughttofeel,insomedegree,asyoudo;whohavenot,atleast,beengivenatasteforNatureinearlylife。
Theyloseagreatdeal。“
“_You_taughtmetothinkandfeelonthesubject,cousin。“
“Ihadaveryaptscholar。There’sArcturuslookingverybright。“
“Yes,andtheBear。IwishIcouldseeCassiopeia。“
“Wemustgooutonthelawnforthat。Shouldyoubeafraid?“
“Notintheleast。Itisagreatwhilesincewehavehadanystar-gazing。
“Yes;Idonotknowhowithashappened。“Thegleebegan。
“Wewillstaytillthisisfinished,Fanny,“saidhe,turninghisbackonthewindow;andasitadvanced,shehadthemortificationofseeinghimadvancetoo,movingforwardbygentledegreestowardstheinstrument,andwhenitceased,hewasclosebythesingers,amongthemosturgentinrequestingtohearthegleeagain。
FannysighedaloneatthewindowtillscoldedawaybyMrs。Norris’sthreatsofcatchingcold。
SirThomaswastoreturninNovember,andhiseldestsonhaddutiestocallhimearlierhome。TheapproachofSeptemberbroughttidingsofMr。Bertram,firstinalettertothegamekeeperandtheninalettertoEdmund;
andbytheendofAugusthearrivedhimself,tobegay,agreeable,andgallantagainasoccasionserved,orMissCrawforddemanded;totellofracesandWeymouth,andpartiesandfriends,towhichshemighthavelistenedsixweeksbeforewithsomeinterest,andaltogethertogiveherthefullestconviction,bythepowerofactualcomparison,ofherpreferringhisyoungerbrother。
Itwasveryvexatious,andshewasheartilysorryforit;
butsoitwas;andsofarfromnowmeaningtomarrytheelder,shedidnotevenwanttoattracthimbeyondwhatthesimplestclaimsofconsciousbeautyrequired:
hislengthenedabsencefromMansfield,withoutanythingbutpleasureinview,andhisownwilltoconsult,madeitperfectlyclearthathedidnotcareabouther;andhisindifferencewassomuchmorethanequalledbyherown,thatwerehenowtostepforththeownerofMansfieldPark,theSirThomascomplete,whichhewastobeintime,shedidnotbelieveshecouldaccepthim。
TheseasonanddutieswhichbroughtMr。BertrambacktoMansfieldtookMr。CrawfordintoNorfolk。EveringhamcouldnotdowithouthiminthebeginningofSeptember。Hewentforafortnight——afortnightofsuchdullnesstotheMissBertramsasoughttohaveputthembothontheirguard,andmadeevenJuliaadmit,inherjealousyofhersister,theabsolutenecessityofdistrustinghisattentions,andwishinghimnottoreturn;andafortnightofsufficientleisure,intheintervalsofshootingandsleeping,tohaveconvincedthegentlemanthatheoughttokeeplongeraway,hadhebeenmoreinthehabitofexamininghisownmotives,andofreflectingtowhattheindulgenceofhisidlevanitywastending;but,thoughtlessandselfishfromprosperityandbadexample,hewouldnotlookbeyondthepresentmoment。
Thesisters,handsome,clever,andencouraging,wereanamusementtohissatedmind;andfindingnothinginNorfolktoequalthesocialpleasuresofMansfield,hegladlyreturnedtoitatthetimeappointed,andwaswelcomedthitherquiteasgladlybythosewhomhecametotriflewithfurther。
Maria,withonlyMr。Rushworthtoattendtoher,anddoomedtotherepeateddetailsofhisday’ssport,goodorbad,hisboastofhisdogs,hisjealousyofhisneighbours,hisdoubtsoftheirqualifications,andhiszealafterpoachers,subjectswhichwillnotfindtheirwaytofemalefeelingswithoutsometalentononesideorsomeattachmentontheother,hadmissedMr。Crawfordgrievously;andJulia,unengagedandunemployed,feltalltherightofmissinghimmuchmore。Eachsisterbelievedherselfthefavourite。
JuliamightbejustifiedinsodoingbythehintsofMrs。Grant,inclinedtocreditwhatshewished,andMariabythehintsofMr。Crawfordhimself。
Everythingreturnedintothesamechannelasbeforehisabsence;
hismannersbeingtoeachsoanimatedandagreeableastolosenogroundwitheither,andjuststoppingshortoftheconsistence,thesteadiness,thesolicitude,andthewarmthwhichmightexcitegeneralnotice。
Fannywastheonlyoneofthepartywhofoundanythingtodislike;butsincethedayatSotherton,shecouldneverseeMr。Crawfordwitheithersisterwithoutobservation,andseldomwithoutwonderorcensure;andhadherconfidenceinherownjudgmentbeenequaltoherexerciseofitineveryotherrespect,hadshebeensurethatshewasseeingclearly,andjudgingcandidly,shewouldprobablyhavemadesomeimportantcommunicationstoherusualconfidant。Asitwas,however,sheonlyhazardedahint,andthehintwaslost。“Iamrathersurprised,“
saidshe,“thatMr。Crawfordshouldcomebackagainsosoon,afterbeingheresolongbefore,fullsevenweeks;
forIhadunderstoodhewassoveryfondofchangeandmovingabout,thatIthoughtsomethingwouldcertainlyoccur,whenhewasoncegone,totakehimelsewhere。
HeisusedtomuchgayerplacesthanMansfield。“
“Itistohiscredit,“wasEdmund’sanswer;“andIdaresayitgiveshissisterpleasure。Shedoesnotlikehisunsettledhabits。“
“Whatafavouriteheiswithmycousins!“
“Yes,hismannerstowomenaresuchasmustplease。
Mrs。Grant,Ibelieve,suspectshimofapreferenceforJulia;
Ihaveneverseenmuchsymptomofit,butIwishitmaybeso。Hehasnofaultsbutwhataseriousattachmentwouldremove。“
“IfMissBertramwerenotengaged,“saidFannycautiously,“IcouldsometimesalmostthinkthatheadmiredhermorethanJulia。“
“Whichis,perhaps,moreinfavourofhislikingJuliabest,thanyou,Fanny,maybeaware;forIbelieveitoftenhappensthataman,beforehehasquitemadeuphisownmind,willdistinguishthesisterorintimatefriendofthewomanheisreallythinkingofmorethanthewomanherselfCrawfordhastoomuchsensetostayhereifhefoundhimselfinanydangerfromMaria;
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