andIamnotatallafraidforher,aftersuchaproofasshehasgiventhatherfeelingsarenotstrong。“
Fannysupposedshemusthavebeenmistaken,andmeanttothinkdifferentlyinfuture;butwithallthatsubmissiontoEdmundcoulddo,andallthehelpofthecoincidinglooksandhintswhichsheoccasionallynoticedinsomeoftheothers,andwhichseemedtosaythatJuliawasMr。Crawford’schoice,sheknewnotalwayswhattothink。
Shewasprivy,oneevening,tothehopesofherauntNorrisonthesubject,aswellastoherfeelings,andthefeelingsofMrs。Rushworth,onapointofsomesimilarity,andcouldnothelpwonderingasshelistened;
andgladwouldshehavebeennottobeobligedtolisten,foritwaswhilealltheotheryoungpeopleweredancing,andshesitting,mostunwillingly,amongthechaperonsatthefire,longingforthere-entranceofhereldercousin,onwhomallherownhopesofapartnerthendepended。
ItwasFanny’sfirstball,thoughwithoutthepreparationorsplendourofmanyayounglady’sfirstball,beingthethoughtonlyoftheafternoon,builtonthelateacquisitionofaviolinplayerintheservants’hall,andthepossibilityofraisingfivecouplewiththehelpofMrs。GrantandanewintimatefriendofMr。Bertram’sjustarrivedonavisit。
Ithad,however,beenaveryhappyonetoFannythroughfourdances,andshewasquitegrievedtobelosingevenaquarterofanhour。Whilewaitingandwishing,lookingnowatthedancersandnowatthedoor,thisdialoguebetweenthetwoabove-mentionedladieswasforcedonher——
“Ithink,ma’am,“saidMrs。Norris,hereyesdirectedtowardsMr。RushworthandMaria,whowerepartnersforthesecondtime,“weshallseesomehappyfacesagainnow。“
“Yes,ma’am,indeed,“repliedtheother,withastatelysimper,“therewillbesomesatisfactioninlookingon_now_,andIthinkitwasratherapitytheyshouldhavebeenobligedtopart。Youngfolksintheirsituationshouldbeexcusedcomplyingwiththecommonforms。
Iwondermysondidnotproposeit。“
“Idaresayhedid,ma’am。Mr。Rushworthisneverremiss。
ButdearMariahassuchastrictsenseofpropriety,somuchofthattruedelicacywhichoneseldommeetswithnowadays,Mrs。Rushworth——thatwishofavoidingparticularity!
Dearma’am,onlylookatherfaceatthismoment;
howdifferentfromwhatitwasthetwolastdances!“
MissBertramdidindeedlookhappy,hereyesweresparklingwithpleasure,andshewasspeakingwithgreatanimation,forJuliaandherpartner,Mr。Crawford,wereclosetoher;theywereallinaclustertogether。
Howshehadlookedbefore,Fannycouldnotrecollect,forshehadbeendancingwithEdmundherself,andhadnotthoughtabouther。
Mrs。Norriscontinued,“Itisquitedelightful,ma’am,toseeyoungpeoplesoproperlyhappy,sowellsuited,andsomuchthething!IcannotbutthinkofdearSirThomas’sdelight。Andwhatdoyousay,ma’am,tothechanceofanothermatch?Mr。Rushworthhassetagoodexample,andsuchthingsareverycatching。“
Mrs。Rushworth,whosawnothingbutherson,wasquiteataloss。
“Thecoupleabove,ma’am。Doyouseenosymptomsthere?“
“Ohdear!MissJuliaandMr。Crawford。Yes,indeed,averyprettymatch。Whatishisproperty?“
“Fourthousandayear。“
“Verywell。Thosewhohavenotmoremustbesatisfiedwithwhattheyhave。Fourthousandayearisaprettyestate,andheseemsaverygenteel,steadyyoungman,soIhopeMissJuliawillbeveryhappy。“
“Itisnotasettledthing,ma’am,yet。Weonlyspeakofitamongfriends。ButIhaveverylittledoubtit_will_be。
Heisgrowingextremelyparticularinhisattentions。“
Fannycouldlistennofarther。Listeningandwonderingwereallsuspendedforatime,forMr。Bertramwasintheroomagain;
andthoughfeelingitwouldbeagreathonourtobeaskedbyhim,shethoughtitmusthappen。Hecametowardstheirlittlecircle;butinsteadofaskinghertodance,drewachairnearher,andgaveheranaccountofthepresentstateofasickhorse,andtheopinionofthegroom,fromwhomhehadjustparted。Fannyfoundthatitwasnottobe,andinthemodestyofhernatureimmediatelyfeltthatshehadbeenunreasonableinexpectingit。
Whenhehadtoldofhishorse,hetookanewspaperfromthetable,andlookingoverit,saidinalanguidway,“Ifyouwanttodance,Fanny,Iwillstandupwithyou。“
Withmorethanequalcivilitytheofferwasdeclined;
shedidnotwishtodance。“Iamgladofit,“saidhe,inamuchbriskertone,andthrowingdownthenewspaperagain,“forIamtiredtodeath。Ionlywonderhowthegoodpeoplecankeepitupsolong。Theyhadneedbe_all_inlove,tofindanyamusementinsuchfolly;
andsotheyare,Ifancy。Ifyoulookatthemyoumayseetheyaresomanycoupleoflovers——allbutYatesandMrs。Grant——and,betweenourselves,she,poorwoman,mustwantaloverasmuchasanyoneofthem。Adesperatedulllifehersmustbewiththedoctor,“makingaslyfaceashespoketowardsthechairofthelatter,whoproving,however,tobecloseathiselbow,madesoinstantaneousachangeofexpressionandsubjectnecessary,asFanny,inspiteofeverything,couldhardlyhelplaughingat。
“AstrangebusinessthisinAmerica,Dr。Grant!Whatisyouropinion?IalwayscometoyoutoknowwhatIamtothinkofpublicmatters。“
“MydearTom,“criedhisauntsoonafterwards,“asyouarenotdancing,Idaresayyouwillhavenoobjectiontojoinusinarubber;shallyou?“Thenleavingherseat,andcomingtohimtoenforcetheproposal,addedinawhisper,“WewanttomakeatableforMrs。Rushworth,youknow。Yourmotherisquiteanxiousaboutit,butcannotverywellsparetimetositdownherself,becauseofherfringe。Now,youandIandDr。Grantwilljustdo;andthough_we_playbuthalf-crowns,youknow,youmaybethalf-guineaswith_him_。“
“Ishouldbemosthappy,“repliedhealoud,andjumpingupwithalacrity,“itwouldgivemethegreatestpleasure;
butthatIamthismomentgoingtodance。“Come,Fanny,takingherhand,“donotbedawdlinganylonger,orthedancewillbeover。“
Fannywasledoffverywillingly,thoughitwasimpossibleforhertofeelmuchgratitudetowardshercousin,ordistinguish,ashecertainlydid,betweentheselfishnessofanotherpersonandhisown。
“Aprettymodestrequestuponmyword,“heindignantlyexclaimedastheywalkedaway。“Towanttonailmetoacard-tableforthenexttwohourswithherselfandDr。Grant,whoarealwaysquarrelling,andthatpokingoldwoman,whoknowsnomoreofwhistthanofalgebra。
Iwishmygoodauntwouldbealittlelessbusy!Andtoaskmeinsuchawaytoo!withoutceremony,beforethemall,soastoleavemenopossibilityofrefusing。_That_iswhatIdislikemostparticularly。Itraisesmyspleenmorethananything,tohavethepretenceofbeingasked,ofbeinggivenachoice,andatthesametimeaddressedinsuchawayastoobligeonetodotheverything,whateveritbe!IfIhadnotluckilythoughtofstandingupwithyouIcouldnothavegotoutofit。Itisagreatdealtoobad。Butwhenmyaunthasgotafancyinherhead,nothingcanstopher。“
TheHonourableJohnYates,thisnewfriend,hadnotmuchtorecommendhimbeyondhabitsoffashionandexpense,andbeingtheyoungersonofalordwithatolerableindependence;andSirThomaswouldprobablyhavethoughthisintroductionatMansfieldbynomeansdesirable。
Mr。Bertram’sacquaintancewithhimhadbegunatWeymouth,wheretheyhadspenttendaystogetherinthesamesociety,andthefriendship,iffriendshipitmightbecalled,hadbeenprovedandperfectedbyMr。Yates’sbeinginvitedtotakeMansfieldinhisway,wheneverhecould,andbyhispromisingtocome;andhedidcomeratherearlierthanhadbeenexpected,inconsequenceofthesuddenbreaking-upofalargepartyassembledforgaietyatthehouseofanotherfriend,whichhehadleftWeymouthtojoin。
Hecameonthewingsofdisappointment,andwithhisheadfullofacting,forithadbeenatheatricalparty;
andtheplayinwhichhehadborneapartwaswithintwodaysofrepresentation,whenthesuddendeathofoneofthenearestconnexionsofthefamilyhaddestroyedtheschemeanddispersedtheperformers。
Tobesonearhappiness,sonearfame,sonearthelongparagraphinpraiseoftheprivatetheatricalsatEcclesford,theseatoftheRightHon。LordRavenshaw,inCornwall,whichwouldofcoursehaveimmortalisedthewholepartyforatleastatwelvemonth!andbeingsonear,toloseitall,wasaninjurytobekeenlyfelt,andMr。Yatescouldtalkofnothingelse。Ecclesfordanditstheatre,withitsarrangementsanddresses,rehearsalsandjokes,washisnever-failingsubject,andtoboastofthepasthisonlyconsolation。
Happilyforhim,aloveofthetheatreissogeneral,anitchforactingsostrongamongyoungpeople,thathecouldhardlyout-talktheinterestofhishearers。
Fromthefirstcastingofthepartstotheepilogueitwasallbewitching,andtherewerefewwhodidnotwishtohavebeenapartyconcerned,orwouldhavehesitatedtotrytheirskill。TheplayhadbeenLovers’
Vows,andMr。YateswastohavebeenCountCassel。
“Atriflingpart,“saidhe,“andnotatalltomytaste,andsuchaoneasIcertainlywouldnotacceptagain;
butIwasdeterminedtomakenodifficulties。
LordRavenshawandthedukehadappropriatedtheonlytwocharactersworthplayingbeforeIreachedEcclesford;
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