ThedayatSotherton,withallitsimperfections,affordedtheMissBertramsmuchmoreagreeablefeelingsthanwerederivedfromthelettersfromAntigua,whichsoonafterwardsreachedMansfield。ItwasmuchpleasantertothinkofHenryCrawfordthanoftheirfather;
andtothinkoftheirfatherinEnglandagainwithinacertainperiod,whichtheselettersobligedthemtodo,wasamostunwelcomeexercise。
Novemberwastheblackmonthfixedforhisreturn。
SirThomaswroteofitwithasmuchdecisionasexperienceandanxietycouldauthorise。HisbusinesswassonearlyconcludedastojustifyhiminproposingtotakehispassageintheSeptemberpacket,andheconsequentlylookedforwardwiththehopeofbeingwithhisbelovedfamilyagainearlyinNovember。
MariawasmoretobepitiedthanJulia;fortoherthefatherbroughtahusband,andthereturnofthefriendmostsolicitousforherhappinesswouldunitehertothelover,onwhomshehadchosenthathappinessshoulddepend。
Itwasagloomyprospect,andallshecoulddowastothrowamistoverit,andhopewhenthemistclearedawaysheshouldseesomethingelse。Itwouldhardlybe_early_inNovember,thereweregenerallydelays,abadpassageor_something_;thatfavouring_something_
whicheverybodywhoshutstheireyeswhiletheylook,ortheirunderstandingswhiletheyreason,feelsthecomfortof。ItwouldprobablybethemiddleofNovemberatleast;themiddleofNovemberwasthreemonthsoff。
Threemonthscomprisedthirteenweeks。Muchmighthappeninthirteenweeks。
SirThomaswouldhavebeendeeplymortifiedbyasuspicionofhalfthathisdaughtersfeltonthesubjectofhisreturn,andwouldhardlyhavefoundconsolationinaknowledgeoftheinterestitexcitedinthebreastofanotheryounglady。
MissCrawford,onwalkingupwithherbrothertospendtheeveningatMansfieldPark,heardthegoodnews;
andthoughseemingtohavenoconcernintheaffairbeyondpoliteness,andtohaveventedallherfeelingsinaquietcongratulation,hearditwithanattentionnotsoeasilysatisfied。Mrs。Norrisgavetheparticularsoftheletters,andthesubjectwasdropt;butaftertea,asMissCrawfordwasstandingatanopenwindowwithEdmundandFannylookingoutonatwilightscene,whiletheMissBertrams,Mr。Rushworth,andHenryCrawfordwereallbusywithcandlesatthepianoforte,shesuddenlyreviveditbyturningroundtowardsthegroup,andsaying,“HowhappyMr。Rushworthlooks!HeisthinkingofNovember。“
EdmundlookedroundatMr。Rushworthtoo,buthadnothingtosay。
“Yourfather’sreturnwillbeaveryinterestingevent。“
“Itwill,indeed,aftersuchanabsence;anabsencenotonlylong,butincludingsomanydangers。“
“Itwillbetheforerunneralsoofotherinterestingevents:
yoursister’smarriage,andyourtakingorders。“
“Yes。“
“Don’tbeaffronted,“saidshe,laughing,“butitdoesputmeinmindofsomeoftheoldheathenheroes,who,afterperforminggreatexploitsinaforeignland,offeredsacrificestothegodsontheirsafereturn。“
“Thereisnosacrificeinthecase,“repliedEdmund,withaserioussmile,andglancingatthepianoforteagain;
“itisentirelyherowndoing。“
“OhyesIknowitis。Iwasmerelyjoking。Shehasdonenomorethanwhateveryyoungwomanwoulddo;
andIhavenodoubtofherbeingextremelyhappy。
Myothersacrifice,ofcourse,youdonotunderstand。“
“Mytakingorders,Iassureyou,isquiteasvoluntaryasMaria’smarrying。“
“Itisfortunatethatyourinclinationandyourfather’sconvenienceshouldaccordsowell。Thereisaverygoodlivingkeptforyou,Iunderstand,hereabouts。“
“Whichyousupposehasbiassedme?“
“But_that_Iamsureithasnot,“criedFanny。
“Thankyouforyourgoodword,Fanny,butitismorethanIwouldaffirmmyself。Onthecontrary,theknowingthattherewassuchaprovisionformeprobablydidbiasme。NorcanIthinkitwrongthatitshould。
Therewasnonaturaldisinclinationtobeovercome,andIseenoreasonwhyamanshouldmakeaworseclergymanforknowingthathewillhaveacompetenceearlyinlife。
Iwasinsafehands。IhopeIshouldnothavebeeninfluencedmyselfinawrongway,andIamsuremyfatherwastooconscientioustohaveallowedit。IhavenodoubtthatIwasbiased,butIthinkitwasblamelessly。“
“Itisthesamesortofthing,“saidFanny,afterashortpause,“asforthesonofanadmiraltogointothenavy,orthesonofageneraltobeinthearmy,andnobodyseesanythingwronginthat。Nobodywondersthattheyshouldpreferthelinewheretheirfriendscanservethembest,orsuspectsthemtobelessinearnestinitthantheyappear。“
“No,mydearMissPrice,andforreasonsgood。Theprofession,eithernavyorarmy,isitsownjustification。Ithaseverythinginitsfavour:heroism,danger,bustle,fashion。
Soldiersandsailorsarealwaysacceptableinsociety。
Nobodycanwonderthatmenaresoldiersandsailors。“
“Butthemotivesofamanwhotakesorderswiththecertaintyofprefermentmaybefairlysuspected,youthink?“
saidEdmund。“Tobejustifiedinyoureyes,hemustdoitinthemostcompleteuncertaintyofanyprovision。“
“What!takeorderswithoutaliving!No;thatismadnessindeed;absolutemadness。“
“ShallIaskyouhowthechurchistobefilled,ifamanisneithertotakeorderswithalivingnorwithout?
No;foryoucertainlywouldnotknowwhattosay。
ButImustbegsomeadvantagetotheclergymanfromyourownargument。Ashecannotbeinfluencedbythosefeelingswhichyourankhighlyastemptationandrewardtothesoldierandsailorintheirchoiceofaprofession,asheroism,andnoise,andfashion,areallagainsthim,heoughttobelessliabletothesuspicionofwantingsincerityorgoodintentionsinthechoiceofhis。“
“Oh!nodoubtheisverysincereinpreferringanincomereadymade,tothetroubleofworkingforone;andhasthebestintentionsofdoingnothingalltherestofhisdaysbuteat,drink,andgrowfat。Itisindolence,Mr。Bertram,indeed。Indolenceandloveofease;awantofalllaudableambition,oftasteforgoodcompany,orofinclinationtotakethetroubleofbeingagreeable,whichmakemenclergymen。Aclergymanhasnothingtodobutbeslovenlyandselfish——readthenewspaper,watchtheweather,andquarrelwithhiswife。Hiscuratedoesallthework,andthebusinessofhisownlifeistodine。“
“Therearesuchclergymen,nodoubt,butIthinktheyarenotsocommonastojustifyMissCrawfordinesteemingittheirgeneralcharacter。IsuspectthatinthiscomprehensiveandmayIsaycommonplacecensure,youarenotjudgingfromyourself,butfromprejudicedpersons,whoseopinionsyouhavebeeninthehabitofhearing。
Itisimpossiblethatyourownobservationcanhavegivenyoumuchknowledgeoftheclergy。Youcanhavebeenpersonallyacquaintedwithveryfewofasetofmenyoucondemnsoconclusively。Youarespeakingwhatyouhavebeentoldatyouruncle’stable。“
“Ispeakwhatappearstomethegeneralopinion;
andwhereanopinionisgeneral,itisusuallycorrect。
Though_I_havenotseenmuchofthedomesticlivesofclergymen,itisseenbytoomanytoleaveanydeficiencyofinformation。“
“Whereanyonebodyofeducatedmen,ofwhateverdenomination,arecondemnedindiscriminately,theremustbeadeficiencyofinformation,orsmilingofsomethingelse。
Youruncle,andhisbrotheradmirals,perhapsknewlittleofclergymenbeyondthechaplainswhom,goodorbad,theywerealwayswishingaway。“
“PoorWilliam!HehasmetwithgreatkindnessfromthechaplainoftheAntwerp,“wasatenderapostropheofFanny’s,verymuchtothepurposeofherownfeelingsifnotoftheconversation。
“Ihavebeensolittleaddictedtotakemyopinionsfrommyuncle,“saidMissCrawford,“thatIcanhardlysuppose——
andsinceyoupushmesohard,Imustobserve,thatIamnotentirelywithoutthemeansofseeingwhatclergymenare,beingatthispresenttimetheguestofmyownbrother,Dr。Grant。AndthoughDr。Grantismostkindandobligingtome,andthoughheisreallyagentleman,and,Idaresay,agoodscholarandclever,andoftenpreachesgoodsermons,andisveryrespectable,_I_seehimtobeanindolent,selfish_bon__vivant_,whomusthavehispalateconsultedineverything;whowillnotstirafingerfortheconvenienceofanyone;andwho,moreover,ifthecookmakesablunder,isoutofhumourwithhisexcellentwife。Toownthetruth,HenryandIwerepartlydrivenoutthisveryeveningbyadisappointmentaboutagreengoose,whichhecouldnotgetthebetterof。Mypoorsisterwasforcedtostayandbearit。“
“Idonotwonderatyourdisapprobation,uponmyword。
Itisagreatdefectoftemper,madeworsebyaveryfaultyhabitofself-indulgence;andtoseeyoursistersufferingfromitmustbeexceedinglypainfultosuchfeelingsasyours。Fanny,itgoesagainstus。WecannotattempttodefendDr。Grant。“
“No,“repliedFanny,“butweneednotgiveuphisprofessionforallthat;because,whateverprofessionDr。Granthadchosen,hewouldhavetakena——notagoodtemperintoit;
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