Sheinsisted,however,onhistakingatleastthechain,andLheureuxhadalreadyputitinhispocketandwasgoing,whenshecalledhimback。
“Youwillleaveeverythingatyourplace。Astothecloak“——sheseemedtobereflecting——“donotbringiteither;youcangivemethemaker’saddress,andtellhimtohaveitreadyforme。“
Itwasthenextmonththattheyweretorunaway。ShewastoleaveYonvilleasifshewasgoingonsomebusinesstoRouen。
Rodolphewouldhavebookedtheseats,procuredthepassports,andevenhavewrittentoParisinordertohavethewholemail-coachreservedforthemasfarasMarseilles,wheretheywouldbuyacarriage,andgoonthencewithoutstoppingtoGenoa。ShewouldtakecaretosendherluggagetoLheureuxwhenceitwouldbetakendirecttothe“Hirondelle,“sothatnoonewouldhaveanysuspicion。Andinallthisthereneverwasanyallusiontothechild。Rodolpheavoidedspeakingofher;perhapshenolongerthoughtaboutit。
Hewishedtohavetwomoreweeksbeforehimtoarrangesomeaffairs;thenattheendofaweekhewantedtwomore;thenhesaidhewasill;nexthewentonajourney。ThemonthofAugustpassed,and,afterallthesedelays,theydecidedthatitwastobeirrevocablyfixedforthe4thSeptember——aMonday。
AtlengththeSaturdaybeforearrived。
Rodolphecameintheeveningearlierthanusual。
“Everythingisready?“sheaskedhim。
“Yes。“
Thentheywalkedroundagarden-bed,andwenttositdownneartheterraceonthekerb-stoneofthewall。
“Youaresad,“saidEmma。
“No;why?“
Andyethelookedatherstrangelyinatenderfashion。
“Itisbecauseyouaregoingaway?“shewenton;“becauseyouareleavingwhatisdeartoyou——yourlife?Ah!Iunderstand。Ihavenothingintheworld!youarealltome;soshallIbetoyou。I
willbeyourpeople,yourcountry;Iwilltend,Iwillloveyou!“
“Howsweetyouare!“hesaid,seizingherinhisarms。
“Really!“shesaidwithavoluptuouslaugh。“Doyouloveme?
Swearitthen!“
“DoIloveyou——loveyou?Iadoreyou,mylove。“
Themoon,fullandpurple-coloured,wasrisingrightoutoftheearthattheendofthemeadow。Sherosequicklybetweenthebranchesofthepoplars,thathidherhereandtherelikeablackcurtainpiercedwithholes。Thensheappeareddazzlingwithwhitenessintheemptyheavensthatshelitup,andnowsailingmoreslowlyalong,letfallupontheriveragreatstainthatbrokeupintoaninfinityofstars;andthesilversheenseemedtowrithethroughtheverydepthslikeaheedlessserpentcoveredwithluminousscales;italsoresembledsomemonstercandelabraallalongwhichsparkleddropsofdiamondsrunningtogether。Thesoftnightwasaboutthem;massesofshadowfilledthebranches。
Emma,hereyeshalfclosed,breathedinwithdeepsighsthefreshwindthatwasblowing。Theydidnotspeak,lostastheywereintherushoftheirreverie。Thetendernessoftheolddayscamebacktotheirhearts,fullandsilentastheflowingriver,withthesoftnessoftheperfumeofthesyringas,andthrewacrosstheirmemoriesshadowsmoreimmenseandmoresombrethanthoseofthestillwillowsthatlengthenedoutoverthegrass。Oftensomenight-animal,hedgehogorweasel,settingoutonthehunt,disturbedthelovers,orsometimestheyheardaripepeachfallingallalonefromtheespalier。
“Ah!whatalovelynight!“saidRodolphe。
“Weshallhaveothers,“repliedEmma;and,asifspeakingtoherself:“Yet,itwillbegoodtotravel。Andyet,whyshouldmyheartbesoheavy?Isitdreadoftheunknown?Theeffectofhabitsleft?Orrather——?No;itistheexcessofhappiness。HowweakIam,amInot?Forgiveme!“
“Thereisstilltime!“hecried。“Reflect!perhapsyoumayrepent!“
“Never!“shecriedimpetuously。Andcomingclosertohim:“Whatillcouldcometome?Thereisnodesert,noprecipice,nooceanIwouldnottraversewithyou。Thelongerwelivetogetherthemoreitwillbelikeanembrace,everydaycloser,morehearttoheart。Therewillbenothingtotroubleus,nocares,noobstacle。Weshallbealone,alltoourselveseternally。Oh,speak!Answerme!“
Atregularintervalsheanswered,“Yes——Yes——“Shehadpassedherhandsthroughhishair,andsherepeatedinachildlikevoice,despitethebigtearswhichwerefalling,“Rodolphe!Rodolphe!
Ah!Rodolphe!dearlittleRodolphe!“
Midnightstruck。
“Midnight!“saidshe。“Come,itisto-morrow。Onedaymore!“
Herosetogo;andasifthemovementhemadehadbeenthesignalfortheirflight,Emmasaid,suddenlyassumingagayair——
“Youhavethepassports?“
“Yes。“
“Youareforgettingnothing?“
“No。“
“Areyousure?“
“Certainly。“
“ItisattheHoteldeProvence,isitnot,thatyouwillwaitformeatmidday?“
Henodded。
“Tillto-morrowthen!“saidEmmainalastcaress;andshewatchedhimgo。
Hedidnotturnround。Sheranafterhim,and,leaningoverthewater’sedgebetweenthebulrushes“To-morrow!“shecried。
Hewasalreadyontheothersideoftheriverandwalkingfastacrossthemeadow。
AfterafewmomentsRodolphestopped;andwhenhesawherwithherwhitegowngraduallyfadeawayintheshadelikeaghost,hewasseizedwithsuchabeatingoftheheartthatheleantagainstatreelestheshouldfall。
“WhatanimbecileIam!“hesaidwithafearfuloath。“Nomatter!
Shewasaprettymistress!“
AndimmediatelyEmma’sbeauty,withallthepleasuresoftheirlove,camebacktohim。Foramomenthesoftened;thenherebelledagainsther。
“For,afterall,“heexclaimed,gesticulating,“Ican’texilemyself——haveachildonmyhands。“
Hewassayingthesethingstogivehimselffirmness。
“Andbesides,theworry,theexpense!Ah!no,no,no,no!athousandtimesno!Thatwouldbetoostupid。“
ChapterThirteenNosoonerwasRodolpheathomethanhesatdownquicklyathisbureauunderthestag’sheadthathungasatrophyonthewall。
Butwhenhehadthepenbetweenhisfingers,hecouldthinkofnothing,sothat,restingonhiselbows,hebegantoreflect。
Emmaseemedtohimtohaverecededintoafar-offpast,asiftheresolutionhehadtakenhadsuddenlyplacedadistancebetweenthem。
Togetbacksomethingofher,hefetchedfromthecupboardatthebedsideanoldRheimsbiscuit-box,inwhichheusuallykepthislettersfromwomen,andfromitcameanodourofdrydustandwitheredroses。Firsthesawahandkerchiefwithpalelittlespots。Itwasahandkerchiefofhers。Oncewhentheywerewalkinghernosehadbled;hehadforgottenit。Nearit,chippedatallthecorners,wasaminiaturegivenhimbyEmma:hertoiletteseemedtohimpretentious,andherlanguishinglookintheworstpossibletaste。Then,fromlookingatthisimageandrecallingthememoryofitsoriginal,Emma’sfeatureslittlebylittlegrewconfusedinhisremembrance,asifthelivingandthepaintedface,rubbingoneagainsttheother,hadeffacedeachother。
Finally,hereadsomeofherletters;theywerefullofexplanationsrelatingtotheirjourney,short,technical,andurgent,likebusinessnotes。Hewantedtoseethelongonesagain,thoseofoldtimes。Inordertofindthematthebottomofthebox,Rodolphedisturbedalltheothers,andmechanicallybeganrummagingamidstthismassofpapersandthings,findingpell-mellbouquets,garters,ablackmask,pins,andhair——hair!
darkandfair,someeven,catchinginthehingesofthebox,brokewhenitwasopened。
Thusdallyingwithhissouvenirs,heexaminedthewritingandthestyleoftheletters,asvariedastheirorthography。Theyweretenderorjovial,facetious,melancholy;thereweresomethataskedforlove,othersthataskedformoney。Awordrecalledfacestohim,certaingestures,thesoundofavoice;sometimes,however,herememberednothingatall。
Infact,thesewomen,rushingatonceintohisthoughts,crampedeachotherandlessened,asreducedtoauniformleveloflovethatequalisedthemall。Sotakinghandfulsofthemixed-upletters,heamusedhimselfforsomemomentswithlettingthemfallincascadesfromhisrightintohislefthand。Atlast,boredandweary,Rodolphetookbacktheboxtothecupboard,sayingtohimself,“Whatalotofrubbish!“Whichsummeduphisopinion;forpleasures,likeschoolboysinaschoolcourtyard,hadsotrampleduponhisheartthatnogreenthinggrewthere,andthatwhichpassedthroughit,moreheedlessthanchildren,didnoteven,likethem,leaveanamecarveduponthewall。
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