Butbothhadfledintheirexasperation。Emmawasstampingherfeetassherepeated——
“Oh!whatmanners!Whatapeasant!“
Herantohismother;shewasbesideherself。Shestammered“Sheisaninsolent,giddy-headedthing,orperhapsworse!“
Andshewasforleavingatonceiftheotherdidnotapologise。
SoCharleswentbackagaintohiswifeandimploredhertogiveway;heknelttoher;sheendedbysaying——
“Verywell!I’llgotoher。“
Andinfactsheheldoutherhandtohermother-in-lawwiththedignityofamarchionessasshesaid——
“Excuseme,madame。“
Then,havinggoneupagaintoherroom,shethrewherselfflatonherbedandcriedtherelikeachild,herfaceburiedinthepillow。
SheandRodolphehadagreedthatintheeventofanythingextraordinaryoccurring,sheshouldfastenasmallpieceofwhitepapertotheblind,sothatifbychancehehappenedtobeinYonville,hecouldhurrytothelanebehindthehouse。Emmamadethesignal;shehadbeenwaitingthree-quartersofanhourwhenshesuddenlycaughtsightofRodolpheatthecornerofthemarket。Shefelttemptedtoopenthewindowandcallhim,buthehadalreadydisappeared。Shefellbackindespair。
Soon,however,itseemedtoherthatsomeonewaswalkingonthepavement。Itwashe,nodoubt。Shewentdownstairs,crossedtheyard。Hewasthereoutside。Shethrewherselfintohisarms。
“Dotakecare!“hesaid。
“Ah!ifyouknew!“shereplied。
Andshebegantellinghimeverything,hurriedly,disjointedly,exaggeratingthefacts,inventingmany,andsoprodigalofparenthesesthatheunderstoodnothingofit。
“Come,mypoorangel,courage!Becomforted!bepatient!“
“ButIhavebeenpatient;Ihavesufferedforfouryears。Alovelikeoursoughttoshowitselfinthefaceofheaven。Theytortureme!Icanbearitnolonger!Saveme!“
SheclungtoRodolphe。Hereyes,fulloftears,flashedlikeflamesbeneathawave;herbreastheaved;hehadneverlovedhersomuch,sothathelosthisheadandsaid“Whatis,it?Whatdoyouwish?“
“Takemeaway,“shecried,“carrymeoff!Oh,Iprayyou!“
Andshethrewherselfuponhismouth,asiftoseizetheretheunexpectedconsentifbreathedforthinakiss。
“But——“Rodolpheresumed。
“What?“
“Yourlittlegirl!“
Shereflectedafewmoments,thenreplied——
“Wewilltakeher!Itcan’tbehelped!“
“Whatawoman!“hesaidtohimself,watchingherasshewent。Forshehadrunintothegarden。Someonewascallingher。
OnthefollowingdaysMadameBovaryseniorwasmuchsurprisedatthechangeinherdaughter-in-law。Emma,infact,wasshowingherselfmoredocile,andevencarriedherdeferencesofarastoaskforarecipeforpicklinggherkins。
Wasitthebettertodeceivethemboth?Ordidshewishbyasortofvoluptuousstoicismtofeelthemoreprofoundlythebitternessofthethingsshewasabouttoleave?
Butshepaidnoheedtothem;onthecontrary,shelivedaslostintheanticipateddelightofhercominghappiness。
ItwasaneternalsubjectforconversationwithRodolphe。Sheleantonhisshouldermurmuring——
“Ah!whenweareinthemail-coach!Doyouthinkaboutit?Canitbe?ItseemstomethatthemomentIfeelthecarriagestart,itwillbeasifwewererisinginaballoon,asifweweresettingoutfortheclouds。DoyouknowthatIcountthehours?Andyou?“
NeverhadMadameBovarybeensobeautifulasatthisperiod;shehadthatindefinablebeautythatresultsfromjoy,fromenthusiasm,fromsuccess,andthatisonlytheharmonyoftemperamentwithcircumstances。Herdesires,hersorrows,theexperienceofpleasure,andherever-youngillusions,thathad,assoilandrainandwindsandthesunmakeflowersgrow,graduallydevelopedher,andsheatlengthblossomedforthinalltheplenitudeofhernature。Hereyelidsseemedchiselledexpresslyforherlongamorouslooksinwhichthepupildisappeared,whileastronginspirationexpandedherdelicatenostrilsandraisedthefleshycornerofherlips,shadedinthelightbyalittleblackdown。Onewouldhavethoughtthatanartistaptinconceptionhadarrangedthecurlsofhairuponherneck;theyfellinathickmass,negligently,andwiththechangingchancesoftheiradultery,thatunboundthemeveryday。
Hervoicenowtookmoremellowinfections,herfigurealso;
somethingsubtleandpenetratingescapedevenfromthefoldsofhergownandfromthelineofherfoot。Charles,aswhentheywerefirstmarried,thoughtherdeliciousandquiteirresistible。
Whenhecamehomeinthemiddleofthenight,hedidnotdaretowakeher。Theporcelainnight-lightthrewaroundtremblinggleamupontheceiling,andthedrawncurtainsofthelittlecotformedasitwereawhitehutstandingoutintheshade,andbythebedsideCharleslookedatthem。Heseemedtohearthelightbreathingofhischild。Shewouldgrowbignow;everyseasonwouldbringrapidprogress。Healreadysawhercomingfromschoolasthedaydrewin,laughing,withink-stainsonherjacket,andcarryingherbasketonherarm。Thenshewouldhavetobesenttotheboarding-school;thatwouldcostmuch;howwasittobedone?
Thenhereflected。Hethoughtofhiringasmallfarmintheneighbourhood,thathewouldsuperintendeverymorningonhiswaytohispatients。Hewouldsaveupwhathebroughtin;hewouldputitinthesavings-bank。Thenhewouldbuysharessomewhere,nomatterwhere;besides,hispracticewouldincrease;hecounteduponthat,forhewantedBerthetobewell-educated,tobeaccomplished,tolearntoplaythepiano。Ah!howprettyshewouldbelateronwhenshewasfifteen,when,resemblinghermother,shewould,likeher,wearlargestrawhatsinthesummer-time;fromadistancetheywouldbetakenfortwosisters。
Hepicturedhertohimselfworkingintheeveningbytheirsidebeneaththelightofthelamp;shewouldembroiderhimslippers;
shewouldlookafterthehouse;shewouldfillallthehomewithhercharmandhergaiety。Atlast,theywouldthinkofhermarriage;theywouldfindhersomegoodyoungfellowwithasteadybusiness;hewouldmakeherhappy;thiswouldlastforever。
Emmawasnotasleep;shepretendedtobe;andwhilehedozedoffbyhersidesheawakenedtootherdreams。
Tothegallopoffourhorsesshewascarriedawayforaweektowardsanewland,whencetheywouldreturnnomore。Theywentonandon,theirarmsentwined,withoutaword。Oftenfromthetopofamountaintheresuddenlyglimpsedsomesplendidcitywithdomes,andbridges,andships,forestsofcitrontrees,andcathedralsofwhitemarble,onwhosepointedsteepleswerestorks’nests。Theywentatawalking-pacebecauseofthegreatflag-stones,andonthegroundtherewerebouquetsofflowers,offeredyoubywomendressedinredbodices。Theyheardthechimingofbells,theneighingofmules,togetherwiththemurmurofguitarsandthenoiseoffountains,whoserisingsprayrefreshedheapsoffruitarrangedlikeapyramidatthefootofpalestatuesthatsmiledbeneathplayingwaters。Andthen,onenighttheycametoafishingvillage,wherebrownnetsweredryinginthewindalongthecliffsandinfrontofthehuts。Itwastherethattheywouldstay;theywouldliveinalow,flat-roofedhouse,shadedbyapalm-tree,intheheartofagulf,bythesea。Theywouldrowingondolas,swinginhammocks,andtheirexistencewouldbeeasyandlargeastheirsilkgowns,warmandstar-spangledasthenightstheywouldcontemplate。However,intheimmensityofthisfuturethatsheconjuredup,nothingspecialstoodforth;thedays,allmagnificent,resembledeachotherlikewaves;anditswayedinthehorizon,infinite,harmonised,azure,andbathedinsunshine。ButthechildbegantocoughinhercotorBovarysnoredmoreloudly,andEmmadidnotfallasleeptillmorning,whenthedawnwhitenedthewindows,andwhenlittleJustinwasalreadyinthesquaretakingdowntheshuttersofthechemist’sshop。
ShehadsentforMonsieurLheureux,andhadsaidtohim——
“Iwantacloak——alargelinedcloakwithadeepcollar。“
“Youaregoingonajourney?“heasked。
“No;but——nevermind。Imaycountonyou,mayInot,andquickly?“
Hebowed。
“Besides,Ishallwant,“shewenton,“atrunk——nottooheavy——
handy。“
“Yes,yes,Iunderstand。Aboutthreefeetbyafootandahalf,astheyarebeingmadejustnow。“
“Andatravellingbag。“
“Decidedly,“thoughtLheureux。“there’sarowonhere。“
“And,“saidMadameBovary,takingherwatchfromherbelt,“takethis;youcanpayyourselfoutofit。“
Butthetradesmancriedoutthatshewaswrong;theyknewoneanother;didhedoubther?Whatchildishness!
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