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第3章

  Mr。Knightverysoonbecameawarefirstthathisincomewasinsufficienttohisneeds,andsecondly,especiallynowwhenhishealthwasmuchimproved,thatafterabusyandhard-workinglife,timeatMonk’sAcrehungheavilyuponhishands。Thelattertroubletosomeextenthepalliatedbybeginningthegreatworkthathehadplannedeversincehebecameadeacon,forwhichhisundoubtedscholarshipgavehimcertainqualifications。Itsprovisionaltitlewas,“BabylonUnveiled“hewouldhavelikedtosubstitute“TheScarletWoman“forBabylonanditsapparentobjectanelaborateattackupontheRomanChurch,whichinfactwasbutacoverfortherealonslaught。WiththeRomans,althoughperhapshedidnotknowithimself,hehadcertainsympathies,forinstance,inthematterofcelibacy。Nordidheentirelydisapproveofthemonasticorders。ThenhefoundnothingshockinginthetenetsandmethodsoftheJesuitsworkingforwhattheyconceivedtobeagoodend。Therealtargetsofhisanimositywerehishigh-churchbrethrenoftheChurchofEngland,wretcheswho,whilstretainingalltheprivilegesoftheAnglicanEstablishment,suchasmarriage,didnothesitatetoadoptalmosteveryerrorofRomeandtomakeuseofhersecretpoweroverthesoulsofmenbythepracticeofConfessionandotherwise。
  AsthismonumentaltreatisebeganinthetimesoftheEarlyFathersandwasplannedtofilltenvolumesofatleastahundredthousandwordsapiece,noonewillbesurprisedtolearnthatitneverreachedthestageofpublication,orindeed,tobeaccurate,thatitcametofinalstopsomewhereaboutthetimeofAthanasius。
  RealizingthattheworkwaslikelytoequalthatofGibbonbothinlengthandtheyearsnecessarytoitscompletion;alsothatfromitcouldbeexpectednoimmediatepecuniaryprofits,Mr。Knightlookedroundtofindsomeotherwayofoccupyinghisleisure,andaddingtohisincome。Althoughareservedperson,onacertainSundaywhenhewenttolunchattheHall,intheabsenceofMr。Blakewhowasspendingtheweek-endsomewhereelse,heconfidedhisdifficultiestoLadyJanewhomhefelttobesympathetic。
  “Thehouseissobig,“hecomplained。“Mrs。Parsons“Godfrey’soldnurseandhishousekeeper“andonegirlcannotevenkeepitclean。ItwasmostfoolishofmypredecessorinthelivingtorestorethatoldrefectoryandallthesoutherndormitoriesuponwhichIamtoldhespentnolessthan£1,500ofhisownmoney,neverreflectingontheexpensewhichhissuccessorsmustincurmerelytokeeptheminorder,sincebeingoncetheretheyareliableforchargesfordilapidations。
  Itwouldhavebeenbetter,afterpermissionobtained,toletthemgotoruin。“
  “Nodoubt,buttheyareverybeautiful,aretheynot?“remarkedLadyJanefeebly。
  “Beautyisaluxuryand,Imayadd,asnare。Itisamistakenloveofbeautyandpomp,baitsthattheEvilOnewellknowshowtouse,whichhaveledsolargeasectionofourChurchastray,“herepliedsippingathistumblerofwater。
  Asilencefollowed,forLadyJane,whofromearlyandtenderassociationslovedhigh-churchpractices,didnotknowwhattoanswer。
  ItwasbrokenbyIsobelwhohadbeenlisteningtotheconversationinheracuteway,andnowsaidinherclear,strongvoice:
  “Whydon’tyoukeepaschool,Mr。Knight?There’slotsofroomforitintheAbbey。“
  “Aschool!“hesaid。“Aschool!Ineverthoughtofthat。No,itisridiculous。Still,pupilsperhaps。Outofthemouthofbabesandsucklings,&c。Well,itistimeformetobegoing。Iwillthinkthematteroverafterchurch。“
  Mr。Knightdidthinkthematteroverandafterconsultationwithhishousekeeper,Mrs。Parsons,anadvertisementappearedin/TheTimes/
  and/TheSpectator/invitingparentsandguardianstoentrusttwoorthreeladstotheadvertiser’scaretoreceivepreliminaryeducation,togetherwithhisownson。Itprovedfruitful,andafteranexchangeofthe“highestreferences,“twolittleboysappearedatMonk’sAcre,bothofthemratherdelicateinhealth。ThiswasshortlybeforethecrisisaroseastothefutureteachingofIsobel,whenthelastgoverness,wishingher“abetterspirit,“hadbiddenherafrigidfarewellandshakenthedustofHawk’sHalloffherfeet。
  OnedayIsobelwassentwithanotetotheAbbeyHouse。Sherangthebellbutnoonecame,forMr。KnightwasoutwalkingwithhispupilsandMrs。Parsonsandtheparlour-maidwereelsewhere。Tiredofwaiting,shewanderedroundthegreyoldbuildinginthehopeoffindingsomeonetowhomshecoulddelivertheletter,andcametotherefectorywhichhadaseparateentrance。Thedoorwasopenandshepeepedin。Atfirst,afterthebrilliantsunlightwithout,shesawnothingexceptthegreatemptinessoftheplacewithitssplendidoakroofontherepairofwhichthelateincumbenthadspentsomuch,sinceasiscommoninmonkishbuildings,thewindowswerehighandnarrow。Presently,however,sheperceivedalittlefigureseatedintheshadowattheendofthelongoakenrefectorytable,thatatwhichthemonkshadeaten,whichstillremainedwhereithadstoodforhundredsofyears,oneofthefixturesofthehouse,andknewitforthatofGodfrey,Mr。Knight’sson。Glidingtowardshimquietlyshesawthathewasasleepandstoppedtostudyhim。
  Hewasabeautifulboy,palejustnowforhehadrecoveredbutrecentlyfromsomechildishillness。Hishairwasdarkandcurling,dark,too,werehiseyes,thoughtheseshecouldnotsee,andthelashesoverthem,whilehishandswerelongandfine。Helookedmostlonelyandpathetic,thereinthebigoakchairthathadsooftenaccommodatedtheportlyformsofdepartedabbots,andherwarmheartwentouttowardshim。OfcourseIsobelknewhim,butnotverywell,forhewasashyladandherfatherhadneverencouragedintimacybetweentheAbbeyHouseandtheHall。
  Somehowshehadtheideathathewasunhappy,forindeedhelookedsoeveninhissleep,thoughperhapsthiswastobeaccountedforbyapaperofunfinishedsumsbeforehim。SympathywelledupinIsobel,whorememberedtheoppressionsofthelastgoverness——heroftheinkpot。
  Sympathy,yes,andmorethansympathy,forofasuddenshefeltasshehadneverfeltbefore。Shelovedthelittleladasthoughhewereherbrother。Astrangeaffinityforhimcamehometoher,althoughshedidnotdefineitthus;itwasasifsheknewthatherspiritwasintimatewithhis,yes,andalwayshadbeenandalwayswouldbeintimate。
  ThissubtleknowledgewentthroughIsobellikefireandshookher。Sheturnedpale,hernostrilsexpanded,herlargeeyesopenedandshesighed。Shedidmoreindeed。Drawnbysomeover-masteringimpulseshedrewneartoGodfreyandkissedhimgentlyontheforehead,thenglidedbackagainfrightenedandashamedatherownact。
  Nowhewokeup;shefelthisdarkeyeslookingather。Thenhespokeinaslow,puzzledvoice,saying:
  “Ihavehadsuchafunnydream。Idreamedthataspiritcameandkissedme。Ididnotseeit,butIthinkitmusthavebeenmymother’s。“
  “Why?“askedIsobel。
  “Becausenooneelseevercaredenoughformetokissme,exceptMrs。
  Parsons,andshehasgivenitupnowthattheotherboysarehere。“
  “Doesnotyourfatherkissyou?“sheasked。
  “Yes,onceaweek,onSundayeveningwhenIgotobed。BecauseIdon’tcountthat。“
  “No,Iunderstand,“saidIsobel,thinkingofherownfather,thenaddedhastily,“itmustbesadnottohaveamother。“
  “Itis,“heanswered,“especiallywhenoneisillasIhavebeen,andmustliesolonginbedwithpainsinthehead。YouknowIhadanabscessintheearandithurtverymuch。“
  “Ididn’tknow。Weheardyouwereillandmotherwantedtocometoseeyou。Fatherwouldn’tlether。Hethoughtitmightbemeaslesandheisafraidofcatchingthings。“
  “Yes,“repliedGodfreywithoutsurprise。“Itwasn’tmeasles,butifithadbeenyoumighthavecaughtthem,soofcoursehewasrighttobecareful。“
  “Oh!hewasn’tthinkingofmeorMummy,hewasthinkingofhimself,“
  blurtedoutIsobelwiththecandourofyouth。
  “Big,strongmendon’tcatchmeasles,“saidGodfreyinmildastonishment。
  “Hesaystheydo,andthattheyareverydangerouswhenyouaregrownup。Whyareyoualonehere,andwhatareyouworkingat?“
  “MyfatherhaskeptmeinasapunishmentbecauseIdidmysumswrong。
  Theotherboyshavegoneoutbird-nesting,butIhavetostophereuntilIgetthemright。Idon’tknowwhenthatwillbe,“headdedwithasigh,“asIhateruleofthreeandcan’tdoit。“
  “Ruleofthree,“saidIsobel,“I’mquitegoodatit。YouseeIlikefigures。Myfathersaysitisthefamilybusinessinstinct。Here,letmetry。Movetotheothersideofthatbigchair,there’splentyofroomfortwo,andshowittome。“
  Heobeyedwithalacrityandsoonthebrownheadandthefaironewerebenttogetheroverthescrawledsheet。Isobel,whohadreallyabuddingtalentformathematics,workedoutthesum,orratherthesums,withoutdifficultyandthen,withguileacquiredunderthegovernessrégime,madehimcopythemanddestroyedalltracesofherownhandiwork。
  “Areyouasstupidateverythingasyouareatsums?“sheaskedwhenhehadfinished,risingfromthechairandseatingherselfontheedgeofthetable。
  “Whatarudethingtoask!Ofcoursenot,“herepliedindignantly。“I
  amverygoodatLatinandhistory,whichIlike。Butyouseefatherdoesn’tcaremuchforthem。HewasaWrangler,youknow。“
  “AWrangler!Howdreadful。Isupposethatiswhyhearguessomuchinhissermons。Ihatehistory。It’sfullofdatesandthenamesofkingswhowereallbad。Ican’tmakeoutwhypeopleputupwithkings,“sheaddedreflectively。
  “Becausetheyoughtto,’GodblessourgraciousQueen,’youknow。“
  “Well,GodmayblessherbutIdon’tseewhyIshouldassheneverdidanythingforme,thoughFatherdoeshopeshewillmakehimsomethingoneday。I’dliketobeaRepublicanwithaPresidentastheyhaveinAmerica。“
  “YoumustbewhatfathercallsawickedRadical,“saidGodfreystaringather,“oneofthosepeoplewhowanttodisestablishtheChurch。“