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第4章

  “Idaresay,“shereplied,noddingherhead。“Thatisifyoumeanmakingclergymenworklikeotherpeople,insteadofspyingandgossipingandplayinggamesastheydoabouthere。“
  Godfreydidnotpursuetheargument,butremarkedimmorally:
  “It’sapityyoudon’tcometoourclass,forthenIcoulddoyourhistorypapersandyoucoulddomysums。“
  Shestarted,butallshesaidwas:
  “Thiswouldbeagoodplacetolearnhistory。NowImustbegoing。
  Don’tforgettogivethenote。IshallhavetosaythatIwaitedalongwhilebeforeIfoundanyone。Goodbye,Godfrey。“
  “Goodbye,Isobel,“heanswered,butshewasgone。
  “Ihopehediddreamthatitwashismotherwhokissedhim,“Isobelreflectedtoherself,fornowthefullenormityofherperformancecamehometoher。Youngasshewas,amerechildwithnoknowledgeofthegreatanimatingforcesoflifeandofthemysteriesbehindthem,shewonderedwhyshehaddonethisthing;whatitwasthatforcedhertodoit。Forsheknewwellthatsomethinghadforcedher,somethingoutsideofherself,assheunderstoodherself。Itwasasthoughanotherentitythatwasinherandyetnotherselfhadtakenpossessionofherandmadeheractasuninfluenced,sheneverwouldhaveacted。Thussheponderedinhercalmfashion,then,beingabletomakenothingofthebusiness,shruggedhershouldersandletitgoby。
  AfterallitmatterednothingsinceGodfreyhaddreamedthattheghostofhismotherhadvisitedhimandwouldnotsuspectherofbeingthatghost,andshewascertainthatneverwouldshedosuchathingagain。
  Thetroublewasthatshehaddoneitonceandthatthedeedsignifiedsomechangeinherwhichherchildishmindcouldnotunderstand。
  OnreachingtheHall,orrathershortlyafterwards,shesawherfatherwhowaswaitingforthecarriageinwhichtogotothestationtomeetsomeparticularlyimportantweek-endguest。HeaskedifshehadbroughtanyanswertohisnotetoMr。Knight,andshetoldhimthatshehadleftitintheschoolroom,asshecalledtherefectory,becausehewasout。
  “Ihopehewillgetit,“grumbledMr。Blake。“Oneofmyfriendswhoiscomingdownto-nightthinksheunderstandsarchitectureandIwanttheparsontoshowhimovertheAbbeyHouse。Indeedthat’swhyhehascome,foryouseeheisanAmericanwhothinksalotofsucholdthings。“
  “Well,itisbeautiful,isn’tit,Father?“shesaid。“EvenIfeltthatitwouldbeeasytolearninthatbigoldroomwitharooflikethatofachurch。“
  Anideastruckhim。
  “Wouldyouliketogotoschoolthere,Isobel?“
  “Ithinkso,Father,asImustgotoschoolsomewhereandIhatethosehorriblegovernesses。“
  “Well,“hereplied,“youcouldn’tthrowinkpotsattheholyKnight,asyoudidatMissHook。Lord!whatarageshewasin,“headdedwithachuckle。“Ihadtopayher£5foranewdress。ButitwasbettertodothatthantoriskaCountyCourtaction。“
  Thenthecarriagecameandhedeparted。
  TheupshotofitallwasthatIsobelbecameanotherofMr。Knight’spupils。WhenMr。Blakesuggestedthearrangementtohiswife,sheraisedcertainobjections,amongthemthatassociatingwiththeselittleladsmightmakeatomboyofthegirl,addingthatshehadbeentaughtwithchildrenofherownsex。Heretortedinhisroughmaritalfashion,thatifitmadesomethingdifferentofIsobeltowhatshe,themother,was,hewouldbeglad。Indeed,asusual,LadyJane’soppositionsettledthematter。
  NowforthenextfewyearsofIsobel’slifethereislittletobetold。Mr。Knightwasanablemanandagoodteacher,andbeingaclevergirlshelearnedagreatdealfromhim,especiallyinthewayofmathematics,forwhich,ashasbeensaid,shehadanaturalleaning。
  IndeedverysoonsheoutstrippedGodfreyandtheotherladsinthisandsundryotherbranchesofstudy,sittingatatablebyherselfonwhatoncehadbeenthedaisoftheoldhall。Intheintervalsoflessons,however,itwastheircustomtotakewalkstogetherandthenitwasthatshealwaysfoundherselfatthesideofGodfrey。Indeedtheybecameinseparable,atanyrateinmind。Astrangeandmostuncommonintimacyexistedbetweentheseyoungcreatures,almostmightithavebeencalledafriendshipofthespirit。Yet,andthiswasthecuriouspartofit,theyweredissimilarinalmosteverythingthatgoestomakeupahumanbeing。Eveninchildhoodtherewasscarcelyasubjectonwhichtheythoughtalike,scarcelyapointuponwhichtheywouldnotargue。
  Godfreywasfondofpoetry;itboredIsobel。Histendenciesweretowardsreligionthoughofaverydifferenttypefromthatpreachedandpractisedbyhisfather;herswereanti-religious。Infactshewouldhavebeeninclinedtoendorsethesayingofthatotherschoolgirlwhodefinedfaithas“theartofbelievingthosethingswhichweknowtobeuntrue,“whiletohimontheotherhandtheywereprofoundlytrue,thoughoftenenoughnotinthewaythattheyaregenerallyaccepted。Hadhepossessedanypowersofdefinitionatthatage,probablyhewouldhavedescribedouracceptedbeliefsasshadowsoftheTruth,distortedandfantasticallyshaped,likethosethrownbychangeful,raggedcloudsbehindwhichtheeternalsunisshining,shadowsthatvaryinlengthandcharacteraccordingtothehourandweatherofthemortalday。
  Isobelforherparttooklittleheedofshadows。Herclear,scientificstampofmindsearchedforascertainablefacts,andontheseshebuiltupherphilosophyoflifeandofthedeaththatendsit。Ofcourseallsuchcontradictionsmayoftenbefoundinasinglemindwhichbelievesatonetimeandrejectsatanotherandseestwo,ortwentysidesofeverythingwithapainfulandbewilderingclearness。
  Suchacharacterisapttoendinprofounddissatisfactionwiththeselffromwhichitcannotbefree。Muchmorethenwouldonehaveimaginedthatthesetwomusthavebeendissatisfiedwitheachotherandsoughttheopportunitiesofescapewhichwereopentothem。Butitwasnotsointheleast。Theyarguedandcontradicteduntiltheyhadnothingmoretosay,andthenlapsedintolongperiodsofwearybutgood-naturedsilence。Inasenseeachcompletedeachbytheadditionofitsopposite,asthedarknesscompletesthelight,thusmakingtheroundoftheperfectday。
  Asyetthisdeepaffectionandremarkableonenessshowednosignsoftheendtowhichobviouslyitwasdrifting。Thatkisswhichthegirlhadgiventotheboywaspuresisterly,oronemightalmostsay,motherly,andindeedthisqualityinspiredtheirrelationshipformuchlongerthanmighthavebeenexpected。Somuchwasthissothatnooneconnectedwiththemoneithersideeverhadtheslightestsuspicionthattheycaredforeachotherinanywayexceptasfriendsandfellowpupils。
  Sotheyearswentbytillthepairwereseventeen,youngmanandyoungwoman,thoughstillcalledboyandgirl。Theyweregood-lookingintheirrespectivewaysthoughyetunformed;tallandstraight,too,bothofthem,butsingularlydissimilarinappearanceaswellasinmind。Godfreywasdark,paleandthoughtful-faced。Isobelwasfair,vivacious,open-natured,amusing,andgiventosayingthefirstthingthatcametohertongue。Shehadfewreservations;herthoughtsmightbereadinherlargegreyeyesbeforetheywereheardfromherlips,whichgenerallywasnotlongafterwards。Alsoshewasveryable。Shereadandunderstoodthepapersandfollowedallthemovementsofthedaywithalivelyinterest,especiallyifthesehadtodowithnationalaffairsorwithwomenandtheirstatus。
  Business,too,camenaturallytoher,somuchsothatherfatherwouldconsultherabouthisundertakings,thatis,aboutthoseofthemwhichwereabsolutelyaboveboardandbeyondsuspicionofsharpdealing。Theothershewasfartoowisetobringwithinherken,knowingexactlywhathewouldhaveheardfromheruponthesubject。Andyetnotwithstandingallhiscareshesuspectedhim,byinstinct,notbyknowledge。Forhisparthewasproudofherandwouldlistenwithpleasurewhen,stillamerechild,sheengagedhisguestsboldlyinargument,forinstanceabishoporadeanontheology,orastatesmanoncurrentpolitics。Alreadyhehadformedgreatplansforherfuture;
  shewastomarryapeerwhotookanactivepartinthings,oratanyratealeadingpolitician,andtobecomeapowerintheland。Butofthis,too,wiselyhesaidnothingtoIsobel,forthetimehadnotyetcome。
  DuringtheseyearsthingshadprosperedexceedinglywithJohnBlakewhowasnowaveryrichmanwithshipsowned,orpartlyownedbyhimoneverysea。OnseveraloccasionshehadbeenaskedtostandforParliamentanddeclinedthehonour。Heknewhimselftobenospeaker,andwassurealsothathecouldnotattendbothtotheaffairsofthecountryandtothoseofhisever-spreadingbusiness。SohetookanothercourseandbegantosupporttheConservativeParty,whichheselectedasthesafest,bymeansoflargesubscriptions。
  Hedidmore,heboughtabaronetcy,foronlythuscanthetransactionbedescribed。WhenaGeneralElectionwasdrawingnear,oneeveningafterdinneratHawk’sHallhehadapurelybusinessconversationwithapoliticalWhipwho,perhapsnotwithoutmotive,hadbeencomplainingtohimofthedepletedstateofthePartyChest。
  “Well,“saidMr。Blake,“youknowthatmyprinciplesareyoursandthatIshouldliketohelpyour,orratherourcause。Moneyistightwithmejustnowandtheoutlookisverybadinmytrade,butI’mamanwhoalwaysbackshisfancy;inshort,would£15,000beofuse?“
  TheWhipintimatedthatitwouldbeofthegreatestuse。
  “Ofcourse,“continuedMr。Blake,“Ipresumethattheusualacknowledgmentwouldfollow?“
  “Whatacknowledgment?“askedtheWhipsippinghisportwearily,forsuchnegotiationswerenonewthingtohim。“Imean,howdoyouspellit?“
  “WithaP,“saidMr。Blakeboldly,actingonhisusualprincipleofaskingformorethanhehopedtoget。
  TheWhipcontemplatedhimthroughhiseyeglasswithamildandinterestedstare。
  “Outofthequestion,mydearfellow,“hesaid。“Thatboxisfullandlocked,andthere’salongoutsidelistwaitingaswell。PerhapsyoumeanwithaK。Youknowmoneyisn’teverything,assomeofyougentlemenseemtothink,andifitwere,youwouldhavesaidfiftyinsteadoffifteen。“
  “Kbedamned!“repliedMr。Blake。“I’mnotamayororanactor-
  manager。Let’ssayB,thatstandsforBeginningaswellasBaronet;